(02-23-2017, 05:11 PM)GreatWhiteWebb Wrote: Im finding myself more and more prominently at an impasse with what I know to be existential truth, and what I would consider to be the 'will of the world'. What I mean by that is, I have an overwhelming desire to leave behind what I have realized to be a ruse and pursue solely that which resonates with my existence. Ive found that the more I go along with the established system or 'will of the world' so to speak, the more this desire to free myself from it grows. However, I feel if I endure it then it will set me up to accomplish my metaphysical goals and objectives down the road more so than if I abandoned my position in society now. Still, I can not get over the feeling that if I pursued the desires of my soul immediatly I would reach these same goals quicker but with no security whatsoever and certainly some sizable portion of struggling. Is there any purpose behind this desire other than my own impatience? Meditation alleviates pressure but often leaves me sad when I return to my current state of existence what else can calm this cognitive drive to act in some unknown way? Should I abandon comfort and stability for passion and pain?

(02-23-2017, 05:11 PM)GreatWhiteWebb Wrote: Im finding myself more and more prominently at an impasse with what I know to be existential truth, and what I would consider to be the 'will of the world'. What I mean by that is, I have an overwhelming desire to leave behind what I have realized to be a ruse and pursue solely that which resonates with my existence. Ive found that the more I go along with the established system or 'will of the world' so to speak, the more this desire to free myself from it grows. However, I feel if I endure it then it will set me up to accomplish my metaphysical goals and objectives down the road more so than if I abandoned my position in society now. Still, I can not get over the feeling that if I pursued the desires of my soul immediatly I would reach these same goals quicker but with no security whatsoever and certainly some sizable portion of struggling. Is there any purpose behind this desire other than my own impatience? Meditation alleviates pressure but often leaves me sad when I return to my current state of existence what else can calm this cognitive drive to act in some unknown way? Should I abandon comfort and stability for passion and pain?

(02-24-2017, 03:07 AM)Agua del Cielo Wrote: Dear GreatWhiteWebb,
welcome to the forum!

Could you be a little more specific?
I usually am the "leave it behind" type of guy, but it would depending greatly on the specific area!

(02-24-2017, 10:04 AM)GreatWhiteWebb Wrote: To be more specific I am in my last two years of college studying entrepreneurship but will likely not be able to afford to graduate next year since ill lose financial aid. I have specific, poorly developed, plans for what I want to do after college (or if I left) and feel I am fully capable of bringing them to fruition with a bit of leg work. The dilemma is that I would have to abandon my loved ones and embrace their disapproval while also slingshoting myself into instability and uncertainty. On the other hand, I feel it is crucial now more than ever to pursue these things to gaurentee they will have the right impact on the world, at the right time. However, if I wait it out in my current, not preferable situation, I see myself eventually completing these very goals comfortably but after a strenuous amount of deviation from what I know to be my true path. I hate the feeling of stagnation more than anything but dont much care for the mundane loop ive been trapped in either.