(02-04-2017, 09:07 PM)SMC Wrote: Hello Cirocco

I'd love to help in any way I can.

(02-04-2017, 09:38 PM)SMC Wrote: to me the most important consideration/indication is that those words resonate with you - this itself carries the information that they have relevance for you - and are potentially accurate for you... I once defined myself as an 'Indigo' as I related to the qualities described for that personality template... but the word is now not one I hold onto (nor have let go of...) it's just one concept/description of a star being in human form assessment - very useful at the beginning of my exploring about myself - though I'm since then aware I'm far more than a (useful) theory of a spiritual role/identity...

(02-04-2017, 10:19 PM)SMC Wrote: according to the Indigo theory you'd be the 'first wave' which is the 'system busters'...

there are (supposed) arrival dates and as an original 'Indigo' (supposedly) you (and I) have a different energy, way to newer ones...

have you been reading the Ra material?

I'm glad you feel a little better... being isolated can be very painful - I know that pain too well myself

The list you posted - to me - it's a whole lot of 'white-noise' - 'static'... (like the sound between radio stations)

it means nothing to me... so I can't comment there...

welcome to B4

(02-04-2017, 10:37 PM)Cirocco Wrote: Okay.  I can see the warrior part in myself.  Does it matter a lot of I was born in 1957?  I also have images of a flaming phoenix and pyramids in meditation, but only in my blind eye, and I was getting those before I even heard of the Ra Material.  

I apologize sincerely if I'm in the wrong place.  I thought Wanderers were...well, something else besides the newer Indigos.  

I have been reading the Ra material.  Listening to it I should say.  Very thoughtful of this site to provide an audio copy for those with visual impairments via YouTube.  I've also started delving into the Emerald Tablets of Thoth, which is also pretty fascinating, but I'm not that far into it yet.  

I do feel better.  You've really helped me focus and not be so confused.  I thank you kindly and have cookies if you want them.  

Had to laugh a little at your 'white noise' comment.  That's exactly what it was to me too.  The original returns were more interesting and far more relevant to my past and present.  

Thank you also for the welcome.  It's a relief to not feel stressed out during a chat.  

So - question.  Since the global awakening is already underway, is my mission done?  It feels sometimes like I'm coming to the end of this distortion, but I suspect I'll be repeating.  Still have a lot to learn and I could have done way more.  

(02-04-2017, 10:19 PM)SMC Wrote: according to the Indigo theory you'd be the 'first wave' which is the 'system busters'...

there are (supposed) arrival dates and as an original 'Indigo' (supposedly) you (and I) have a different energy, way to newer ones...

have you been reading the Ra material?

I'm glad you feel a little better... being isolated can be very painful - I know that pain too well myself

The list you posted - to me - it's a whole lot of 'white-noise' - 'static'... (like the sound between radio stations)

it means nothing to me... so I can't comment there...

welcome to B4

Quote:I apologize sincerely if I'm in the wrong place. I thought Wanderers were...well, something else besides the newer Indigos.

Quote:I have been reading the Ra material. Listening to it I should say. Very thoughtful of this site to provide an audio copy for those with visual impairments via YouTube. I've also started delving into the Emerald Tablets of Thoth, which is also pretty fascinating, but I'm not that far into it yet.

Quote:I do feel better. You've really helped me focus and not be so confused. I thank you kindly and have cookies if you want them.

Quote:Had to laugh a little at your 'white noise' comment. That's exactly what it was to me too. The original returns were more interesting and far more relevant to my past and present.

Quote:Thank you also for the welcome. It's a relief to not feel stressed out during a chat.

So - question. Since the global awakening is already underway, is my mission done? It feels sometimes like I'm coming to the end of this distortion, but I suspect I'll be repeating. Still have a lot to learn and I could have done way more.

(02-04-2017, 11:16 PM)SMC Wrote: I don't think your age is relevant to anything in particular - (except that these forums would benefit from the ideas of people who've lived on Earth longer.)

Not sure I have much knowledge to pass along that isn't completely geeky.

As a teenager I was fascinated by Pyramids and wanted to visit them and go deep into their centres but was conflicted about that as I'm VERY claustrophobic. (Some of those tunnels are so narrow you have to crawl along a space almost no bigger than your body.)

NO CAN DO! 0_0

I'm with you on the claustrophobia. Even watching movies that involve crawling through small tunnels gives me the willies. Was wondering if you'd seen this though - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gL6jwZNtVVk It appears to corroborate what Ra says about vibration, frequency and resonance. I also think I might know why the pyramids are "out of tune" as Ra said. There have been at least two (possibly more) Chandler Wobbles in Earth's history. A Chandler Wobble is when the poles shift and the liquid core of the planet sloshes around, throwing the axis off kilter. A shallow sea would also explain why there's so much water erosion on the pyramids. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u5Dlde7YeQg

Told ya I was a geek.

Quote:I apologize sincerely if I'm in the wrong place. I thought Wanderers were...well, something else besides the newer Indigos.

apologies? not needed! if you're 'here' you are meant to be I relate to "wanderers" to help explain me to myself

I'm starting to see that. Like Mr. Chopra said, "There are no accidents, there's only some purpose that we haven't yet understood." Smart, smart man.

Quote:I have been reading the Ra material. Listening to it I should say. Very thoughtful of this site to provide an audio copy for those with visual impairments via YouTube. I've also started delving into the Emerald Tablets of Thoth, which is also pretty fascinating, but I'm not that far into it yet.

My Dad has macular degeneration so I bought him an audio book on CD (Agatha Christie) - accessibility should be a 'given' - but able-ism still exists a lot... it's wonderful you can listen to it!

Absolutely. I would never be able to read it. Please tell your Dad I said hello and he did a good job raising you. 'Cause he did.

Quote:I do feel better. You've really helped me focus and not be so confused. I thank you kindly and have cookies if you want them.  

Oh you're so welcome I'm in Australia and will pay the postage - but how will they stay fresh?

I suppose I could pack them in dry ice, but then they'd get all icky and burned. Seems that we'll just have to meet up at some point.

Australia seems so cool except for all the poisonous animals that can kill you with a stinkeye.

Quote:Had to laugh a little at your 'white noise' comment. That's exactly what it was to me too. The original returns were more interesting and far more relevant to my past and present.

I've just done my different names.. it's weird - interesting - but feels a bit arbitrary...

It is now. Didn't used to be.

Quote:Thank you also for the welcome. It's a relief to not feel stressed out during a chat.

So - question. Since the global awakening is already underway, is my mission done? It feels sometimes like I'm coming to the end of this distortion, but I suspect I'll be repeating. Still have a lot to learn and I could have done way more.

I think you have about 2 hrs 22 minutes left then you will be relocated to Venus for a 'long' vacation waited on hand and foot by darling Robin Williams in drag on rollerskates   then you will wake up from your time out for more learning and as much fun as you can arrange till your departure in 30-40 years/months/weeks/seconds

(Seriously) -> You have done exactly as much as you were able

(02-04-2017, 11:27 PM)SMC Wrote: remember - YOU are the ultimate 'authority' on who you are - how you feel - what is correct for you - about you

- keep researching, reading all you feel directed to - don't hold fast to anyone else's ideas... let them in - see what 'fits' and what floats away...

also my big healing has been: self love - self care- self respect

prior to this I was putting everyone before me and wounding myself as a result


put YOUR oxygen mask on first - then help others with theirs - if they need (preferably ask) for your help

(02-05-2017, 12:52 AM)SMC Wrote: for sure there's more you'll do

again, I'd say don't take your self definition as needing to fit certain criteria - you can be feisty and be a 'wanderer'... it doesn't have character descriptions like the new age information websites have...

I haven't shared my life story here as I've had a lot of difficulty feeling trust around (some) members... and (just like the rest of the world ) - I don't 'fit' here very well (I have a very 'direct' manner...)

unique and interesting people here - perhaps the community has been too small and a bit of a clique for a long while which makes it hard for newbies... but that energy has been shifting lately...

many caring people here... everyone's different

be you

Quote: Would just like to know if meditating and study is the way to proceed or if something else (like actively helping others) is needed at this early stage.

(02-05-2017, 12:49 PM)Bring4th_Jade Wrote:

Quote: Would just like to know if meditating and study is the way to proceed or if something else (like actively helping others) is needed at this early stage.

First, it sounds like your main project is working on loving/accepting yourself. This will go a long way.

It's very helpful and healing to do a meditation where you comfort your little, child self. I do this at times. Go hold that child and offer it comfort in the times when no one else would.

I'll most definitely try that. It's long overdue.

Then the next step is forgiveness: Forgiveness for the self, and then finding forgiveness for others.

I've meditated on this for a while now. Forgiving myself was difficult simply because I was obnoxious, willful and was interested in subjects that had no relevance to anyone else in my family. Forgiving my parents was and remains impossible and I don't even know how to empathize or resolve how my sisters and I were neglected and abused. Mother suffered from a mental illness, so her behavior can be explained, but Father knew better and was actually a pretty smart man who resorted to beatings rather than actual communication. Why? I cannot find an answer and this aspect of my past remains unresolved.

These are the first steps to get yourself into a better configuration. Then you can worry about "actively helping others".

(02-05-2017, 12:50 PM)Infinite Unity Wrote: The well spring of life ushers forth from you. The perception you hold will enable you to see the beautiful that abounds everywhere, and the heart to feel what is right.  Or the perception held will dwindle the life around you into different moulds all resting upon the same foundation. The Great magnificent One Infinite Creator. The realty is one, what do you see?

(02-05-2017, 12:52 AM)SMC Wrote: for sure there's more you'll do

again, I'd say don't take your self definition as needing to fit certain criteria - you can be feisty and be a 'wanderer'... it doesn't have character descriptions like the new age information websites have...

I haven't shared my life story here as I've had a lot of difficulty feeling trust around (some) members... and (just like the rest of the world ) - I don't 'fit' here very well (I have a very 'direct' manner...)

unique and interesting people here - perhaps the community has been too small and a bit of a clique for a long while which makes it hard for newbies... but that energy has been shifting lately...

many caring people here... everyone's different

be you

(02-05-2017, 07:03 PM)Coordinate_Apotheosis Wrote:

(02-05-2017, 12:52 AM)SMC Wrote: for sure there's more you'll do

again, I'd say don't take your self definition as needing to fit certain criteria - you can be feisty and be a 'wanderer'... it doesn't have character descriptions like the new age information websites have...

I haven't shared my life story here as I've had a lot of difficulty feeling trust around (some) members... and (just like the rest of the world ) - I don't 'fit' here very well (I have a very 'direct' manner...)

unique and interesting people here - perhaps the community has been too small and a bit of a clique for a long while which makes it hard for newbies... but that energy has been shifting lately...

many caring people here... everyone's different

be you

If it makes you feel any better, I personally believe this forum is too good for me, so much so I believe my time here may be harmful more so to others than healing.

Because of that, I'm trying to be helpful, focusing on being helpful to this community is why I haven't run away ashamed of my past in this community...  Trust me when I say most posts I make now, make me feel ashamed and want to leave...  That everyone here so far has met this with kindness and love is extremely encouraging for me to not just run from catalyst again.

Cirocco
If I could offer some thoughts to your self doubts, as I struggle with self doubt strongly.

I thank you and would value any and all input. It's nice to know I'm not alone in this.

In the system of the Ra Material, its said that currently there is a 'senior vibration' or I prefer to see it as, an increase in people being born who are souls most likely to fulfill a 51% service to others threshold or a 95% service to self threshold, and achieve a graduation into a higher evolution or dimension above our own.

This isn't talking of just wanderers but also souls native to our 3rd Density/Dimension.

Just ran across a beautiful story about service to others. http://shanghaiist.com/2015/11/20/husband_cares_for_paralyzed_wife.php

I'm sure across history Wanderers have been underhandedly guiding history directly by interacting with it from Jesus to Genghis Khan to George Washington to Lincoln to Tesla and Einstein and Hawking.

If you are a Wanderer, you will definitely question after initially believing you are if you are.  As you said, that introspective nature persists.

Well.............okay then. I just thought there was a point when I would know for sure. Thank you.

So don't let your age and personality empower your doubts.  Wanderers can be wholly unlike what one would typically imagine of a loving and compassionate soul while in a 3D personality.

I'm here to absorb everything. This website is fantastic for a new person to learn from others.

I consider myself a wanderer, and often think I'm belonging to mid 5D.  I notice most people wish to be of 6D so be vigilant of outside forces skewing your internal view.

And I say that last part hypocritically, as I fail to do that often...But I'm still trying.

Glad you added that second part. I was going to ask.

This forum seems almost magically protected by the influence of trolls.  The members themselves can be antagonistic and confrontational at times, but its my experience that those members are sharing their distortions to eventually be processed by the group present here unconsciously, and healed in time.

I myself have been a force of great malice and hatred on this forum from my own issues being allowed to be freely expressed here.
It ultimately comes down to responsibility.

Yes, that was clear from the beginning, which is why I think I felt so badly about snapping at the trolls. They have a purpose here like everything else, but having had a rough time with such people in childhood I really dislike bullies intensely.

No one here is going to tell you what or how to be, this is an extremely powerful and loving environment.

And as I said, if not for the extreme kindness of those here in this environment, I wouldn't be here now.  I do not believe myself worthy of some of the love that permeates this forum...But others seem to think so, so I think out of fairness to them especially for their thoughts and words to me, I owe it to them to try and see myself as worthy.

Agreed. I feel the love here as well. It's almost like taking a vacation from the rest of the world.

Its an honor to speak to someone rich with life experience.

It's my honor to learn from wiser heads.

It is fiercely painful for me to see another suffering within extreme social isolation...  I was only 22 (24 now) when I felt the agony of being nearly completely alone and isolated from everyone.  The experience was very damaging, I lost my love, my reason, my passion, all to anger and hatred for the suffering I was enduring.  I couldn't communicate it, I couldn't explain it, I was just simply losing my mind and lashing out violently at everything, with the majority being my spirit guides, god, and my own soul being in the receiving end of my malice.

Oh boy, I can relate to this completely. Such dark energy emanations. I'm not going to go there anymore. It feels swampy and perverse.

Yet they didn't give up even as I did again and again.  Truly a testament of the purity of compassion.

I tested the universe's love and it never gave up on me even when I demanded it did.

What a beautiful thing to say. Well done.

...That you now find yourself with copious amounts of free time, I strongly suggest this is a period of time where you're encouraged to seek within and do some soul searching.
Meditate, meditate until its as fun to do as reading or writing or watching tv.

You have the time, it is a gift to yourself from your timeless soul