(11-10-2017, 06:59 PM)Cainite Wrote:

(11-10-2017, 05:10 PM)Glow Wrote: This is the saddest thing I have read in a while. I'm not sure if you saw the thread I started called "what causes a hole in the aura..." but just before that thread started I had my first negative greeting since awakening that I am conscious of. It clearly entered my body for a brief time, less than a minute but it was distinct. I'm going to guess a lot of my youth was spent tormented by things of such nature but I just thought it was a result of my childhood breaking me so never would have thought entity/energy. I had a raging case of ocd with lots of horrible thoughts... suicidal wishes, self harm, and just unbridled terror, its interesting in retrospect to see I was unaware I was perhaps being effected by outside forces.

Anyways I just wanted to post to thank you for sharing. I never would have believed it if I hadn't felt it, and I even today only 2 weeks later needed a reminder. I really need to do more for those affected.

I will continue reading, I wish you well and dominion free and clear of your own energy/body/spirit. Be well.

I feel you! when I was a child at nights I always feared demons and negative ghosts. so I couldn't sleep well.

I've said this before,  before my mental illness happened, I contacted Orion entities.. asked questions, tried to dominate them, ... saw myself as a Vampire Lord who leeches life force and practices black magic. (that's where my username ''cainite'' comes from)
but then I realized my missteps and turns out it was too late and because of the short period I had switched polarity, I couldn't see myself as anything other than a monster. that was when the terrible schizo symptoms appeared.

Took me sometime to heal. the messed up version of me now is really hale comparing to those dark months.
I created another thread a few months ago ''There's a devil in my head'' was the title. that devil has been silenced for some time now.
(I just chekced, there's another thread with this name ''Seeing myself as a demon'')

Also the nightmares have been continuing. I think 5thd negatives provide them for me or sth. not quite sure about that.. I had these nightmares some years ago too. back then I couldn't handle them. now I may have become hardened.

(11-11-2017, 08:10 AM)MangusKhan Wrote: Edit: In the sake of fairness and justice, all entities using the forum now have permission to criticise me in unbridled fashion.

(11-11-2017, 08:10 AM)MangusKhan Wrote: Hehehe...
Nothing like a bit of the old me-so-stupid routine to lower someone's guard.
Clever but probably ineffective in this case. Trying to remove specks from other peoples' eyes in such a direct fashion is rarely fruitful and often produces backlash, unless they want to hear it, like you just said you do (thus inviting this here post).

Come on, Philalethist. There's humility and then there's the illusion of humility. Your illusory humility matches your illusory stupidity wonderfully.

Edit: In the sake of fairness and justice, all entities using the forum now have permission to criticise me in unbridled fashion.

(11-11-2017, 02:04 PM)Philalethist Wrote:

(11-11-2017, 08:10 AM)MangusKhan Wrote: Hehehe...
Nothing like a bit of the old me-so-stupid routine to lower someone's guard.
Clever but probably ineffective in this case. Trying to remove specks from other peoples' eyes in such a direct fashion is rarely fruitful and often produces backlash, unless they want to hear it, like you just said you do (thus inviting this here post).

Come on, Philalethist. There's humility and then there's the illusion of humility. Your illusory humility matches your illusory stupidity wonderfully.

Edit: In the sake of fairness and justice, all entities using the forum now have permission to criticise me in unbridled fashion.

Damn, I should probably buy more effective eye speck tweezers... and mirror to use them with! A little self-deprecating humor can be helpful when curbing one's pride (Dante take notes!), it helps not to take oneself too seriously (or anything for that matter), and so teasing oneself is useful! Although this is surely all just an elaborate attempt by my ego to show off how humble I am! It's hard though you know? How is someone as incredibly smart and wise as me supposed to realistically take on the herculean task of realizing that all thoughts of superiority and specialness are illusions? (Sigh) It sure is hard being me.

(11-11-2017, 02:04 PM)Philalethist Wrote:

(11-11-2017, 08:10 AM)MangusKhan Wrote: Hehehe...
Nothing like a bit of the old me-so-stupid routine to lower someone's guard.
Clever but probably ineffective in this case. Trying to remove specks from other peoples' eyes in such a direct fashion is rarely fruitful and often produces backlash, unless they want to hear it, like you just said you do (thus inviting this here post).

Come on, Philalethist. There's humility and then there's the illusion of humility. Your illusory humility matches your illusory stupidity wonderfully.

Edit: In the sake of fairness and justice, all entities using the forum now have permission to criticise me in unbridled fashion.

Damn, I should probably buy more effective eye speck tweezers... and mirror to use them with! A little self-deprecating humor can be helpful when curbing one's pride (Dante take notes!), it helps not to take oneself too seriously (or anything for that matter), and so teasing oneself is useful! Although this is surely all just an elaborate attempt by my ego to show off how humble I am! It's hard though you know? How is someone as incredibly smart and wise as me supposed to realistically take on the herculean task of realizing that all thoughts of superiority and specialness are illusions? (Sigh) It sure is hard being me.

(11-11-2017, 03:40 PM)MangusKhan Wrote:

(11-11-2017, 02:04 PM)Philalethist Wrote:

(11-11-2017, 08:10 AM)MangusKhan Wrote: Hehehe...
Nothing like a bit of the old me-so-stupid routine to lower someone's guard.
Clever but probably ineffective in this case. Trying to remove specks from other peoples' eyes in such a direct fashion is rarely fruitful and often produces backlash, unless they want to hear it, like you just said you do (thus inviting this here post).

Come on, Philalethist. There's humility and then there's the illusion of humility. Your illusory humility matches your illusory stupidity wonderfully.

Edit: In the sake of fairness and justice, all entities using the forum now have permission to criticise me in unbridled fashion.

Damn, I should probably buy more effective eye speck tweezers... and mirror to use them with! A little self-deprecating humor can be helpful when curbing one's pride (Dante take notes!), it helps not to take oneself too seriously (or anything for that matter), and so teasing oneself is useful! Although this is surely all just an elaborate attempt by my ego to show off how humble I am! It's hard though you know? How is someone as incredibly smart and wise as me supposed to realistically take on the herculean task of realizing that all thoughts of superiority and specialness are illusions? (Sigh) It sure is hard being me.

Yeah the struggle is real. Sorry for my less than welcoming post before, brother (sister?). Welcome to the forums. I didn't mean you any great offence, I was just kind of suspicious about the fact that you chose that as your first post, and so decided to take the liberty to test you a little. Carry on.

(11-11-2017, 05:50 PM)Dante776 Wrote: Turtle...When you say "consistency of integrity," you're simply speaking to the the honesty and truthfulness or accuracy of my statements. In short, you don't believe me! Sounds a lot like Philalethist's position. Hey, more power to you! If you don't believe what I have shared, "I ain't mad at ya'." Everyone is entitled to their beliefs.

(11-11-2017, 05:50 PM)Dante776 Wrote: In short, you don't believe me! Sounds a lot like Philalethist's position.

(11-11-2017, 09:14 PM)Turtle Wrote:

(11-11-2017, 05:50 PM)Dante776 Wrote: Turtle...When you say "consistency of integrity," you're simply speaking to the the honesty and truthfulness or accuracy of my statements. In short, you don't believe me! Sounds a lot like Philalethist's position. Hey, more power to you! If you don't believe what I have shared, "I ain't mad at ya'." Everyone is entitled to their beliefs.

I was responding to the words of Philalethist, not you Dante776, lol.

(11-11-2017, 10:23 PM)Dante776 Wrote:

(11-11-2017, 09:14 PM)Turtle Wrote:

(11-11-2017, 05:50 PM)Dante776 Wrote: Turtle...When you say "consistency of integrity," you're simply speaking to the the honesty and truthfulness or accuracy of my statements. In short, you don't believe me! Sounds a lot like Philalethist's position. Hey, more power to you! If you don't believe what I have shared, "I ain't mad at ya'." Everyone is entitled to their beliefs.

I was responding to the words of Philalethist, not you Dante776, lol.

Oops...Sorry about that Turtle, lol.

(11-11-2017, 09:17 PM)Philalethist Wrote:

(11-11-2017, 05:50 PM)Dante776 Wrote: In short, you don't believe me! Sounds a lot like Philalethist's position.

Awww, I'm sorry if you got the impression that I don't believe you. That's not true. I'm simply offering aid in my own special way. I am aware that it is unlikely that my words will immediately bring the machinations of your own prideful ego to your awareness thus allowing you to transcend them and view your situation with ever greater clarity. At the least, it is my hope that simply by increasing your exposure to such information and possibilities that perhaps it may catalyze within you and transcendence may come sooner than would otherwise have been the case.

"I got quite a chuckle out of it!" I'm glad you enjoyed it!

"I appreciate what you are trying to say...I just think you latched onto the wrong word to make your point." I say this in all sincerity: what would the more accurate word have been to describe what I was attempting to communicate? (Precise communication is usually important to me.)

"I think that everyone on this forum that has an opinion, including you, has some degree of pride." Absolutely, but the degrees definitely vary. I, personally, have worked quite a bit to be conscious of my pride, it used to be more of an issue. By studying and noticing the machinations of the ego I come steadily (but very slowly) closer to transcending it (I hope.)

"Once again, we all have our core beliefs and unless something pretty profoundly comes across our eyes, we're probably going to cling to our beliefs." Are you suggesting that such clinging is preferable? Even if it is probable, if such beliefs were not true would you not prefer to abandon them? Will you simply wait for something profound to come before your eyes before exploring the possibility that your current perceptions may be inaccurate? I don't think waiting is necessary. We can all start sifting through our illusory perceptions right now, to say you have none is to say that you are fully enlightened.

"Like the old saying goes, 'those who stand for nothing will fall for anything.'" Perhaps it would be best to constantly fall than to hold to a pillar of shadows and illusion. Only the proud would be afraid of falling for 'anything' and thus appearing as a fool. The truly courageous would take such a risk as to be fooled over and over and over again and be ridiculed and shamed in the pursuit of the truth. Only those who are afraid cling to their beliefs. Those beliefs become a part of their identity, and so they defend their beliefs as though they were defending themselves. To find the truth we must relinquish our attachment to beliefs. If I say a belief is Mine, then when the belief is threatened, I will feel under attack and must defend it. If I simply say it is A belief, and do not claim ownership of it, then the belief is free to fall away if it is shown to be illusory. Nothing real can be threatened. Nothing unreal exists.

"So, you're arguing against human nature, because we all have opinions, and we all have questions that must be resolved in our minds." All spiritual aspirants seek to transcend what is conventionally depicted as "human nature." Of course we all have opinions, questions, etc. I am suggesting that you let all of them go.

I understand that you have studied and experienced a great deal of metaphysical phenomena. My studies do not include such things as the 7 archangles, the names of demons or archons or any of those things. I haven't the slightest clue about any of it. What I do study are the machinations of the ego. Now, of course (and this may sound patronizing or something) I am aware that what I believe may be completely unfounded and inaccurate, but it seems extraordinarily apparent to me, from reading all of the posts in this thread, that pride is quite a bit more than a minor blockage for you; and surely if you were aware of such a blockage you would have already addressed it. There is no shame in discovering that one's perceptions and attitudes were not quite as pristine as one believed. This is not to say that any of your beliefs are false! Every single thing you believe may be true, but that would not change the fact of this blockage.
(Unless I'm wrong of course.)

(10-03-2017, 04:14 PM)Coordinate_Apotheosis Wrote: [...] I always took the Archons as a euphemism for the natural laws designed by the Demiurge to further complicate the means of ascension from it's physical cage, most notably the ways of people (See: 7 Deadly Sins) and further that they were personified only to give them a direct analogue for humans to comprehend how they could be 'alive as we are'.