Quote:I dunno. Stab out a man's eyes and lead him to the biggest library in the world, cut out a man's tongue and take him to an all-you-can-eat buffet - is it really so perfect?

(01-13-2017, 10:01 PM)Mahakali Wrote:

(01-13-2017, 05:59 PM)Nicholas Wrote: hjbhjbhjs fjnx f
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If you're implying that this is purely schizophrenia, then you don't know as much as you think you do, because there is indeed some weird s*** going down.

(01-14-2017, 01:36 PM)Bring4th_Jade Wrote: stuff

(01-14-2017, 08:36 PM)Aion Wrote: Just learn to use your Merkabah.

http://www.spiritofmaat.com/archive/sep2/merkaba.htm

(01-15-2017, 11:19 AM)Nicholas Wrote: No not at all. I have no idea if you experience clairaudience whatsoever. I had presumed that at the top of your post you used the term metaphorically, although you have mentioned this in the past, I do not know to what degree you experience it, if anything. What I am implying is that I have witnessed what insanity looks like, what paranoia feels like as well as being stuck in a nihilistic mind set. What I am saying, and you seem to agree, is that your perspective is under your control and I can testify to the power of self forgiveness and the forgiveness of others. Metaphysically you are freeing yourself from a prison by walking through the walls rather than searching for tools and techniques to aid in your escape.

And yes, there definitely is some weird stuff occurring. But those entrenched in the deep state still fart, still snore at night and would look just as dead in a coffin as anyone else.

(01-15-2017, 08:13 PM)Mahakali Wrote:

(01-14-2017, 01:36 PM)Bring4th_Jade Wrote: stuff

It's a complex thing.

I definitely lean negative, I don't really have problems with a hierarchy as long as I'm left to my own devices, and I don't need to be at the top as long as I'm not on the bottom. I have a huge mind control fetish, to be perfectly honest, and I love to immerse myself in the lower astral, to the point where I'm disgusted by "positive" vibes a lot of the time.

But the LHP is a solitary approach, of guidance rather than groups, and the idea of a LHP social memory complex is an absurd one... the only true LHPers would be the ones at the top of the hierarchy, and a true LHP "group" would be a place to share mutually beneficial ideas and further LHP thought, not an actual group in the way that there are RHP groups - I'd be very wary of anyone claiming otherwise. LHP-RHP hybrids are something different IMO.

I also feel like what Ra refers to as STS is not what I think about when I say "LHP". I don't think it's necessary to hurt people to develop the self - I want a feeling of alone-ness more than anything else, at least right now. I just want to do my own thing...

(01-14-2017, 08:36 PM)Aion Wrote: Just learn to use your Merkabah.

http://www.spiritofmaat.com/archive/sep2/merkaba.htm

It's all mutilated, though; this is the problem. If it were in its natural state, I would have no problems. It's ludicrously messed up, and I'm not sure what exactly to do about it. All I really need is to find the right configuration, but it's hard.

What do you think I should do? How do I go about finding the right configuration?

Some kind of an etheric implant was placed into my lower spine, and I'm somewhat concerned about activating whatever's down there.

It makes sense that activating this through lower astral frequencies placed me into the hell dimension in which I currently reside, but right now I'm at a loss as to how to find the correct configuration.

Perhaps by modulating microwaves somehow? Or hitting the right frequencies in my etheric body?

This actually does make some amount of sense, though. Escaping must be possible.

(01-15-2017, 11:19 AM)Nicholas Wrote: No not at all. I have no idea if you experience clairaudience whatsoever. I had presumed that at the top of your post you used the term metaphorically, although you have mentioned this in the past, I do not know to what degree you experience it, if anything. What I am implying is that I have witnessed what insanity looks like, what paranoia feels like as well as being stuck in a nihilistic mind set. What I am saying, and you seem to agree, is that your perspective is under your control and I can testify to the power of self forgiveness and the forgiveness of others. Metaphysically you are freeing yourself from a prison by walking through the walls rather than searching for tools and techniques to aid in your escape.

And yes, there definitely is some weird stuff occurring. But those entrenched in the deep state still fart, still snore at night and would look just as dead in a coffin as anyone else.

Why, though? Couldn't intelligent infinity remove the need to fart, snore, or lay in a coffin? Wouldn't anyone who's made any real progress have transcended such things?

(01-16-2017, 07:40 PM)Aion Wrote: Well, I mean, just looking at your post here it seems obvious that you are where you are precisely because you want to be there. You are gleefully playing in the same fields you claim to want to be free from and fetishize the same control that is being pushed upon you. You're not stupid, you're quite sharp and it baffles me that you cannot see this. You yourself are obsessed with the very things you are experiencing and a complete unwillingness to shift your desires means there will be no adjacent changes in the external reality. You know exactly how it works, but you keep.hoping there is some way you can have your cake and eat it too.

By all means you can keep trying with what you're doing, but my understanding is that no changes occur in reality until changes occur within the self. From there, it is realizing you are slave to your own desires and deciding what to do about that.

And no, I am not suggesting that these things aren't real or that they are illusory or that there isn't some really nasty s*** out there, what I am suggesting is that you are experiencing that which is a function of your chosen emotion, mental and physical environment. You chose this, and so to go elsewhere, you must choose another way. You cannot leave the crossroads and stay in its cross. You must choose a way out, but so far it seems you choose a path that loops right back in to it. Circles endlessly forever. Time to break the chain or its just gonna keep going and going and going.

I guess the other alternative is to sink in to a deep victim mentality, but I don't think you're the type for that.

(01-16-2017, 10:22 PM)Mahakali Wrote:

(01-16-2017, 07:40 PM)Aion Wrote: Well, I mean, just looking at your post here it seems obvious that you are where you are precisely because you want to be there. You are gleefully playing in the same fields you claim to want to be free from and fetishize the same control that is being pushed upon you. You're not stupid, you're quite sharp and it baffles me that you cannot see this. You yourself are obsessed with the very things you are experiencing and a complete unwillingness to shift your desires means there will be no adjacent changes in the external reality. You know exactly how it works, but you keep.hoping there is some way you can have your cake and eat it too.

By all means you can keep trying with what you're doing, but my understanding is that no changes occur in reality until changes occur within the self. From there, it is realizing you are slave to your own desires and deciding what to do about that.

And no, I am not suggesting that these things aren't real or that they are illusory or that there isn't some really nasty s*** out there, what I am suggesting is that you are experiencing that which is a function of your chosen emotion, mental and physical environment. You chose this, and so to go elsewhere, you must choose another way. You cannot leave the crossroads and stay in its cross. You must choose a way out, but so far it seems you choose a path that loops right back in to it. Circles endlessly forever. Time to break the chain or its just gonna keep going and going and going.

I guess the other alternative is to sink in to a deep victim mentality, but I don't think you're the type for that.

I used to be the type for that, but I don't see how it's gonna help.

What do you mean by "a different way"? I can't control my fetishes. But, like I said, my goal is to be alone, not to get closer to others in any particular fashion. Besides, there are plenty of law-abiding ways to engage in mind control play and BDSM and other somewhat negatively oriented sexuality, with willing participants. And I might not even go for that... in theory, I'm a complete pervert, but in practice, I never take up anyone else's offer on sex.

What I really need is to understand how to activate and use the merkaba while removing the damaging distortions.

What kind of change are you referring to? To dedicate myself in total service to others? I don't feel comfortable with that. I want to fix myself first, and then I'll see about helping others. I'm not against it, but I am distrustful and paranoid, and I'll feel better about all that once I feel safe and empowered enough to take care of myself...

Or, if you're talking metaphysical or etheric changes, where should I start? I'm very confused about what exactly is going on with me. Meditation is probably the key, but if I'm going to walk through the walls of the prison instead of trying to find an external way out, how does that work?

Quote:Questioner: We have decided to accept, if offered, the honor/duty of learning/teaching the healing process. I would ask as to the first step which we should accomplish in becoming effective healers.

Ra: I am Ra. We shall begin with the first of the three teachings/learnings.

We begin with the mental learn/teachings necessary for contact with intelligent infinity. The prerequisite of mental work is the ability to retain silence of self at a steady state when required by the self. The mind must be opened like a door. The key is silence.

Within the door lies an hierarchical construction you may liken unto geography and in some ways geometry, for the hierarchy is quite regular, bearing inner relationships.

To begin to master the concept of mental discipline it is necessary to examine the self. The polarity of your dimension must be internalized. Where you find patience within your mind you must consciously find the corresponding impatience and vice versa. Each thought that a being has, has in its turn an antithesis. The disciplines of the mind involve, first of all, identifying both those things of which you approve and those things of which you disapprove within yourself, and then balancing each and every positive and negative charge with its equal. The mind contains all things. Therefore, you must discover this completeness within yourself.

The second mental discipline is acceptance of the completeness within your consciousness. It is not for a being of polarity in the physical consciousness to pick and choose among attributes, thus building the roles that cause blockages and confusions in the already-distorted mind complex. Each acceptance smoothes part of the many distortions that the faculty you call judgment engenders.

The third discipline of the mind is a repetition of the first but with the gaze outward towards the fellow entities that it meets. In each entity there exists completeness. Thus, the ability to understand each balance is necessary. When you view patience, you are responsible for mirroring in your mental understanding, patience/impatience. When you view impatience, it is necessary for your mental configuration of understanding to be impatience/patience. We use this as a simple example. Most configurations of mind have many facets, and understanding of either self polarities, or what you would call other-self polarities, can and must be understood as subtle work.

The next step is the acceptance of the other-self polarities, which mirrors the second step.

These are the first four steps of learning mental discipline. The fifth step involves observing the geographical and geometrical relationships and ratios of the mind, the other mind, the mass mind, and the infinite mind.

The second area of learn/teaching is the study/understanding of the body complexes. It is necessary to know your body well. This is a matter of using the mind to examine how the feelings, the biases, what you would call the emotions, affect various portions of the body complex. It shall be necessary to both understand the bodily polarities and to accept them, repeating in a chemical/physical manifestation the work you have done upon the mind bethinking the consciousness.

The body is a creature of the mind’s creation. It has its biases. The biological bias must be first completely understood and then the opposite bias allowed to find full expression in understanding. Again, the process of acceptance of the body as a balanced, as well as polarized, individual may then be accomplished.

It is then the task to extend this understanding to the bodies of the other-selves whom you will meet. The simplest example of this is the understanding that each biological male is female; each biological female is male. This is a simple example. However, in almost every case wherein you are attempting the understanding of the body of self or other-self, you will again find that the most subtle discernment is necessary in order to fully grasp the polarity complexes involved.

At this time we would suggest closing the description until the next time of work so that we may devote time to the third area commensurate with its importance.

(01-12-2017, 04:13 PM)Ashim Wrote: This experience was akin to entering an 'eternal return' type of time loop. I think I was in negative time/space. Certainly the most frightening experience of my life. It felt like millions of years but was probably only a minute or so.
I call it "the black hole experience".

Mahakali Wrote:To dedicate myself in total service to others? I don't feel comfortable with that. I want to fix myself first, and then I'll see about helping others. I'm not against it, but I am distrustful and paranoid, and I'll feel better about all that once I feel safe and empowered enough to take care of myself...