I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Oxal, Q’uo, and Nona channelings for this session come from March 16, 1986:

Carla channeling)

I am Oxal. I greet you in the Love and in the Light of our infinite Creator. We thank you for allowing us to come and share our thoughts with you. We would like to say to the one known as L that we are very grateful for his openness to our contact but found some difficulty in establishing our identity. We shall be most happy to use this instrument as he desires and will begin through this instrument.

We would speak with you this evening of joy, that quality which is beyond its name, that energy which creates in fire and yet in peace, that explosion which is yet a steady state, that translation of that which proceeds into that which is. We would speak to you of history. Those among your peoples are fascinated with history, that which is past history and that which shall be future history, and we would point out to you that if you wish a specific remedy against joy it would be history that would take the first place among the active distractions of those who seek.

We speak to you of these things at this time because there are those among you who have spent a good deal of time, as you call it, in prayer and in meditation supporting what this instrument calls the great peace march. We would like to point out to you that the ideal involved is a part of joy and that the history of that effort is not. It is difficult to perceive the possibility of feeling joy when watching what could have been disintegration, and we understand that among your people that which does not eventuate as a finished process is counted as failure.

In this session Oxal spoke about joy. They began by saying we would speak with you this evening of joy, that quality which is beyond its name, that energy which creates in fire and yet in peace, that explosion which is a steady state, that translation of that which proceeds into that which is, so we would speak to you of history because your people are fascinated with history, that which is past history and that which shall be future history, and we would point out to you that if you wish a specific remedy against joy it would be history that would take the first place among the active distractions of those who seek. Then Oxal said we speak to you of these things at this time because there are those among you who have spent a good deal of time in prayer and in meditation supporting what this instrument calls the great peace march, but we would like to point out to you that the ideal involved is a part of joy and that the history of that effort is not, for it is difficult to perceive the possibility of feeling joy when watching what could have been disintegration, and we understand that among your people that which does not result in a finished process is counted as failure. On March 13, 2010, Q’uo described the nature of joy:

When one cries with joy, one is opening the energy body as a whole, for joy is the steady state of the creation of the one infinite Creator. Joy and bliss are the natural, default settings of the open heart. Consequently, crying tears of joy removes an over-activity of awareness, where the keenness of emotion becomes too much to bear, and there is a great clearing of the entire energy body.

Success and failure belong to that outward portion of yourselves which belong to history. The discipline of joy is the discipline of remaining outside of time, or to speak more precisely, within that womb from which time issues and towards which it shall once again be drawn in the great rhythm of the cosmos. To remove oneself from processes is to remove oneself from all of those things which seem real, beginning with the processes of one’s own physical vehicle, continuing on with the processes of the daily living: the telephone that rings; the doorbell that rings; the visitor that knocks at your gate; the information that comes through the post; and all those things which remind one again and again of the processes of dailyness.

Shall you then reject all of these things in order to remain joyful? We suggest to you that there is a portion of you which should do just that in order to achieve something which you may wish to nurture and that is the sense of humor, the light touch, the feeling of being seated within Love and its expression—joy and laughter—regardless of outward circumstances. Processes, as all things which partake of time, begin and end, are successful or fail, and yet consciousness is variably affected by these processes. May we suggest to you that by reserving a portion of yourself to be centered within that great womb of time where joy holds sway, one can experience differently the processes of living within the illusion which you now enjoy and from which you shall learn as you choose to learn, slowly or more rapidly, ineffectually or more effectively.

Then Oxal said success and failure belong to that outward portion of yourselves which belong to history, and the discipline of joy is the discipline of remaining outside of time  and within that womb from which time issues and towards which it shall once again be drawn in the great rhythm of the cosmos, for to remove oneself from processes is to remove oneself from all of those things which seem real, beginning with the processes of one’s own physical vehicle, continuing on with the processes of daily living: the telephone that rings; the doorbell that rings; the visitor that knocks at your gate; the information that comes through the post; and all those things which remind one again and again of the processes of dailyness. Oxal went on to say we suggest to you that there is a portion of you which should reject all of these things in order to achieve something which you may wish to nurture, and that is the sense of humor and the feeling of being seated within Love and its expression—joy and laughter—regardless of outward circumstances, for processes, as all things which partake of time, begin and end, are successful or fail, and yet consciousness is variably affected by these processes, so may we suggest to you that by reserving a portion of yourself to be centered within that great womb of time where joy holds sway, one can experience differently the processes of living within the illusion which you now enjoy and from which you shall learn as you choose to learn, slowly or more rapidly, ineffectually or more effectively. On March 1, 1998, Q’uo described the nature of living within the illusion of third density:

This Prayer of St. Francis is the outcry of the soul who wishes to be free of self and subsumed into the service of the infinite mystery that it worships and adores. And this is the door that opens into a larger and less fear-filled view of living within the illusion, this realization that there are different ways to look at each situation, that it is not terrible to have faults or to have sins or to have pride about the good things and fear about the bad things. That one is intended to be very confused by this illusion. That there is positive value in this confusion in that it, and it alone, tear most people away from those things that they cling to in fear.

The more one throws the whole self into that which may be called petty, the more one allows oneself to worry and be concerned over seeming failures, the more one robs oneself of the opportunities for transformation, and yet transformation is what you have come to choose to do. It seems that that which is new becomes old, but we say to you to consider whether it is not one’s interest that becomes old. When one perceives things from the standpoint of joy, nothing can escape the illumination which Love brings.

Now Oxal said the more one throws the whole self into that which is petty, the more one allows oneself to worry and be concerned over seeming failures, the more one robs oneself of the opportunities for transformation, and yet transformation is what you have come to choose to do, for it seems that which is new becomes old, but we say to you to consider whether it is not one’s interest that becomes old, for when one perceives things from the standpoint of joy, nothing can escape the illumination which Love brings. On January 12, 2008, Q’uo described the nature of transformation:

There is the part of transformation which is involved in very deep and subtle energies, such as the stars in your sky, the sun especially, and the moon. The monthly, annual, and slowly revolving astrological patterns of your life will have some sway over the rhythm of your cyclical transformations.

And certainly, the times that now are upon you, where the fourth density is virtually present, interpenetrating third density, has set you awash in energy tide after energy tide, so that you are constantly being washed with rhythmic waves of truth, Love, and understanding. This has the effect upon anyone who is at all sensitive to these energies of creating a more lucid ability to look at the mirroring that is going on in your particular life at this time.

Each relationship which you have gives you a mirror for yourself. Just as in your dreams, each character represents a portion of yourself. So, in the waking life each interaction with another entity shows you the mirror of yourself, in part, in the actions and behaviors, the thoughts and the concepts offered by that interaction. Consequently, you are constantly seeing portions of yourself mirrored in a somewhat distorted way by those who are in relationship with you.

All of these changes and chances, all of these natural cycles, create a basic default. The human was created to transform. That is the nature of the self-conscious, physical, mental, emotional, and spiritual being that you are. That is your potential, and that is your destiny: change from one form into another, from one kind of thought into another whole paradigm of thought. You cannot help but progress. So, you may feel easy about whether or not you are changing, whether or not you are being successful at transforming. It is inevitable for you to go through transformation upon transformation, and you do not have to push or thrust yourself towards transformation. You may relax in the knowledge that it is inevitable.

We would at this time again attempt to communicate through the one known as L. I am Oxal.

(L channeling)

I am Oxal, and I greet you again, my friends, in the Love and in the Light of the infinite Creator. We are encountering a slight difficulty in working through this instrument but will continue so that the instrument may become familiarized with our vibration and become more fluent in its ability to communicate our transmission. We of Oxal appreciate the effort displayed and request your patience as we work with the instrument. It is our desire, my friends, to be able to be one with you in your pursuit—correction—in your efforts to seek awareness.

We shall relinquish our use of this instrument at this point as the instrument is fatigued and having difficulty with our communications. We are grateful for the opportunity to exercise this instrument and thank those present for their patience. We are known to you as Oxal. Adonai, my friends.

(Carla channeling)

I am Q’uo, and we greet you in the Love and the Light of the One who is All. It is a great blessing to blend our vibrations with yours and to drink in the beauty of your beings. We would speak only briefly through this instrument, however there is a calling at this time for our particular bias in vibration and we gladly share it with you, knowing that the fellowship which we feel with you is only the surface of the service that you do us by allowing us to be with you.

We would give you our encouragement and speak upon meditation, for it is the key which unlocks the door to that which is within you, and that which is within you is nothing less than the one original Thought which is the Creator. You may call this Creator “Universal Mind,” yet that is not precise, for the mind proceeded and precipitated from the Thought which was thought without mind, but only with consciousness. You are the Creator, and as you experience each other, the Creator gains experience.

We speak from the point of view that the Creator has made a great sacrifice in causing a portion of Its being to have mind and to become independent, for there is much effort in accepting the free will of portions of Itself which seem disharmonious with other portions of Itself. And yet the Creator has repeatedly made this sacrifice of wholeness without effort in order to bring Itself an expanded Self. The Creator, shall we say, takes the very, very long view and looks upon all that occurs through all the densities and dimensions, of which there are an infinite number, in order that It may key into Its own Self all of the selves that have become unique and learn all those things which each unique portion has learned. And you yourself are a sacrifice to your own mind, for without mind you would constantly be in a state of meditation, and all things would be whole and entire unto themselves and one with you and acceptable in every respect. Yet you have sacrificed that awareness to come into incarnation and to be limited by your separation from those things about you, the material of the seat upon which you now bear your weight, of each other because you can touch but you cannot become in one in physical sense.

In this session Q’uo spoke upon meditation. They began by saying we would give you encouragement and speak upon meditation, for it is the key which unlocks the door to that which is within you, and that which is within you is the one original Thought which is the Creator, so you may call this Creator “Universal Mind,” yet that is not precise, for the mind precipitated from the Thought which was thought without mind, but only with consciousness, are you the Creator, and as you experience each other, the Creator gains experience. Then Q’uo said we speak from the point of view that the Creator has made a great sacrifice in causing a portion of Its being to have a mind and to become independent, for there is much effort in accepting the free will of portions of Itself which seem disharmonious with other portions of Itself, yet the Creator has made this sacrifice of wholeness without effort in order to bring Itself an expanded Self, for the Creator takes the long view and looks upon all that occurs through all the dimensions, of which there are an infinite number, in order that It may key into Its own Self all of the selves that have become unique and learn all those things which each unique portion has learned, and you are a sacrifice to your mind, for without mind you would constantly be in a state of meditation, and all things would be whole unto themselves, and one with you, and acceptable in every respect, yet you have sacrificed that awareness to come into incarnation and to be limited by your separation from those things about you, the material of the seat upon which you now bear your weight, of each other because you can touch, but you cannot become in one in physical sense. On October 19, 1986, Q’uo spoke of the nature of the state of meditation:

That is, in the process and state of meditation, one begins to become aware of the unity of Love which binds all things and which moves all experiences in intricate patterns which then offer the lessons of Love to those of your illusion. The desire, then, to seek the heart of the life pattern is that desire which is most helpful to propel one into the meditative state, no matter what technique of meditation is chosen.

Separation seems to run very deep, and one forgets that the stones sing, that the earth shouts with rejoicing, and that the trees skip in the springtime. How easy it is to feel separate from life that indwells all things. How easy it is to feel separate from oneself, to feel that there are factions within the self which must be reconciled, to find oneself analyzing and reanalyzing to no avail. The only road from separation into unity is keyed with meditation. Some there are who benefit from meditating at great length. Some there are who benefit from meditating a brief few minutes in each day, and some there are whose meditations are in action and through action they are centered and one with all that there is. Therefore, do not assume that you know what meditation is, and what your goals should be towards it, but rather, as you meditate, listen to that voice which speaks within and meditate as that voice instructs you. There is no set time, nor is there a set method. There is one thing, however, which we must emphasize and that is the fidelity to the practice.

Then Q’uo said separation seems to run very deep, and one forgets that the stones sing, that the earth shouts with rejoicing, and that the trees skip in the springtime, and how easy it is to feel separate from life that indwells all things, and how easy it is to feel separate from oneself, to find oneself analyzing and reanalyzing to no avail, for the only road from separation into unity is keyed with meditation, so some there are who benefit from meditating at great length, but some there are who benefit from meditating a few minutes in each day, and some there are whose meditations are in action, and through action they are centered and one with all that there is, but do not assume that you know what meditation is, and what your goals should be towards it, but as you meditate listen to that voice which speaks within, and meditate as that voice instructs you, for there is no set time, nor is there a set method, but there is one thing which we must emphasize, and that is the fidelity to the practice. On April 27, 1974, Hatonn described what meditation is:

This is what meditation is designed to do. To put you, part of the creation of the Creator, into direct communication with the Creator, which is all that there is. The creation of the Creator is all about you, my friends.

We thank you. We are most privileged to have been able to speak through this instrument to this group. We ask only that you treat our words as those of your brothers and sisters and not as those from, shall we say, on high. We are imperfect and most fallible, yet we have that to share which we have experienced, and so we shall with many thanks for the invitation. We would leave you now upon the many, many sounds that drift past your inner ear as the domicile rests in the chilly wind of springtime and the night sky sings with the songs of galaxies and stars. We shall drift away so that our voice is no longer heard, and yet we are always with you if you request our presence mentally. We leave you in the Love and the Light of the one infinite Creator. We are those of Q’uo. Adonai, my friends. Adonai, my children. Adonai.

(Carla channeling)

I am Nona. I greet you in Love and in Light and am so happy to share this evening with you. We shall say no more.

[Carla channels a lovely healing melody from Nona.]

This morning the quote from The Thunder of silence is: “It is not necessary to overcome hate, fear, jealousy, or resentment, but it is necessary to sit down, close the eyes, and realize: “These are mental images in thought. These are projected states of thought  of the vast mental illusion.” Then by abiding in an inner peace, they are dissolved. They are not destroyed because there is nothing to be destroyed; there is no substance to them, and they have no more reality than the pictures on our television screen, True, back of the moving picture there is a real picture with substance, just as behind every belief, theory, or false picture that is presented to us, there is a reality; but the reality is distorted in the picture, and it is that distortion that is dissolved as the reality appears.

The conditioned mind forms our problems, and there are times when that mind might form an answer to the problem, but that is not what we are seeking. What we want is a higher capacity than the human mind, and so now, without calling upon the thinking process, we let our mind be an instrument through which the Soul can reveal Itself.

A problem can exist only in the mind. But if we make of our mind a vacuum, if there are no thoughts in it, where would our problem be. There is then no probable, and in place of the problem the truth or reality rushes in.

If, instead of fighting a problem, we are willing to admit that to all appearances this problem seems to be overwhelming and turn within asking to have the reality revealed, then we are not trying to rise above or destroy the problem. We are merely trying to understand—not understand the problem, but understand the reality behind the problem. If we can be perfectly quiet and perfectly still with no attempt to overcome, destroy, remove, or escape from any situation or condition, the flow of the Spirit will rush in, and there will be freedom.

When error is presented in any form, there is a tendency to set up a wall against it, and in doing that, the opportunity to make the demonstration is lost because no wall is needed. Do not put up a wall against evil; do not put up a defense: understand that no external thing has power, not even the good things. All good is in Spirit, or Consciousness, not in the things that Consciousness produces.

Come with me now into an inner stillness in which we do not resort to any power to do anything. We resist not evil nor affirm. We will not seek God, and we will not fear a devil, but sit at peace, with no struggle, no strife, no battle:

The Lord is my shepherd. He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: He leadeth me beside the still waters. He prepareth a table before me in the presence of mine enemies.” He performeth that which is given me to do; He perfecteth that which concerneth me.

I live and move and have my being in God; therefore, I need not fear; I need not fight because the battle is not mine.

“Where the Spirit of the Lord is there is liberty”—no struggle, only peace. “Peace, my peace I give unto you: not as the world giveth,” a peace that comes from destroying the neighboring country or people, not a peace that comes from having a stockpile of atomic bombs, but My peace. Nothing can destroy me; nothing can harm me; for there is nothing but My peace.”

This morning I drove down to Terrapin Hill for the last day of our Homecoming Gathering. The first presentation that I attended was Heidi Yurka’s where she was asked: “When did Andrija Puharich begin his spiritual journey?” “How long was Heidi with Don and Carla?” “What did the first UFO entities look like that Heidi saw?” “Can you use your psychic abilities to see the future?” and “What do you do to enhance your psychic abilities?”

At 3 pm we were had a Round Robin where we shared the most important experience that we have had in the Homecoming Gathering so far. Then we had our channeling session, and the questions that Gary, Trish, Austin, and I were asked were: “How do we deal with anger?” “What is the purpose of the physical body?” “Talk about how we are the Creator and, therefore, our best friend?” And “What is the nature of the mystery of the Creator in our spiritual journey?” I must say that since Carla began holding Homecoming Gatherings in 1995, this was the best Homecoming Gathering that I have ever attended! I made a lot of new friends, and I got to spend time with a lot of long-time friends, and I hope that all of these spiritual connections last for the rest of my life!

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

May 17

Hope Is Always A Choice

I am of the principle of Jesus the Christ, and I greet you in the divine wholeness of Love.

This contact is very weak, as this instrument is very weak. A great deal of the strength or weakness of a person’s essential being hinges upon its desire to be strong.

Why would one wish to be weak? Because one is lacking in hope. Why would one wish to lack in hope? It is not seen that this is open to the process of choice. Yet hope is always a choice. Despair is only one side of the coin which may be turned by the will, at any moment, by anyone, in any circumstance, to hope. Thus, we say to you this morning, “Hope! Hope in little things! Hope in grand things! Fill your hearts, your bodies, and your minds with the strength of hope.”

For hope is unending and is that which guides the weary spirit to its place of rest where it may gain strength. And hope shall be turned into joy.

This is part of the grace of the Spirit of Love that lives amidst each conscious entity. This is part of the comfort that may astound and transform your experience. This is for you!

These are not vain words. You who despair, turn your mind to the power of hope. Gaze upon it as upon a star and affix your intentions upon it with perseverance. And so shall you be made strong, to be the will of the Father.

In Love and peace unending do we leave you. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of Love and open our hearts minds, and souls to send Love, Light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite Love, Light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our Love, Light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Hatonn and Latwii channelings come from March 9, 1986:

(Carla channeling)

I am Hatonn. I greet each of you in the Love and in the Light of our infinite Creator. We thank you for the great privilege of being allowed to share our thoughts with you, for you are of great service to us by requesting our presence, for as you listen, so we learn and so the Creator continues to know Itself. Because this instrument is being overshadowed by another member of the Confederation, we shall first transmit the information which our brothers and sisters of Q’uo wish to transmit. There has been a request for the spelling of this entity’s name, and we say to the one known as J that although naming is unimportant and therefore the spelling likewise unimportant, our brothers and sisters wish to share the spelling: “Q’uo.” Those of Q’uo thank each of you that you were patient enough to allow remarkably uninteresting information to be received.

As the night sky opens, and as you come together in circle this evening, we find that there are questions upon some of your minds concerning a certain aspect of Love which has to do with the interaction of entities who wish to express Love for the Creator and to each other. There are many, many ways in which separation betwixt one entity ,and another or one group and another can be apparently seen. There are differences in appearances between what you call your races. There is the difference between male and female, there is the difference between young and old, and there are many, many finer or shall we say, less obvious differences having to do with personalities, as you call them. One of these differences especially has been the subject of much pondering by some within this group and by many others of your people as they contemplate the most appropriate way to share their lives with others. We speak of the various dimensions from which wanderers, as you call them, come. We shall elucidate.

Those of fourth, fifth, and sixth densities, those being the densities of love and compassion, light and wisdom, and unification, all have some representation amongst your people at this time as there is a great call, my friends, a call which cannot be ignored, which comes from this planet in travail which you call Earth. Because wanderers are most often far different in their internal modes of thinking and their external modes of expression from those native to the third-density experience, wanderers feel and express a kind of loneliness which is born of being the stranger in a strange land. At times this difference seems almost nothing and the daily life flows quietly and with a nearly imperceptible difference from that of the native to this third density planet. However, it is the nature of the wanderer to find itself homesick. And out of this homesickness is born the desire for companions who more closely approach the native ways and modes of thinking and action of the density whence each wanderer has come.

In this session Hatonn spoke about the concept of Love as we apply it to others, ourself, and the Creator. They began by saying as the night sky opens, and as you come together in a circle this evening, we find that there are questions upon some of your minds concerning a certain aspect of Love which has to do with the interaction of entities who wish to express Love for the Creator and to each other, and there are many ways in which separation betwixt one entity and another, or one group and another, can be seen, so there are differences in appearances between your races, and there is the difference between male and female, between young and old, and there are differences having to do with personalities, yet one of these differences has been the subject of thinking by some within this group and by others of your people as they contemplate the best way to share their lives with others, for we speak of the dimensions from which wanderers come. Hatonn went on to say those of fourth, fifth, and sixth densities, those being the densities of love and compassion, light and wisdom, and unification, all have some representation amongst your people at this time as there is a call which cannot be ignored, which comes from this planet in suffering because wanderers are different in their internal modes of thinking and their external modes of expression from those native to the third-density experience, for wanderers feel a kind of loneliness which is born of being the stranger in a strange land, but at times this difference seems like nothing, and the daily life flows quietly and with little difference from that of the native to this third density planet, for it is the nature of the wanderer to be homesick, and out of this homesickness is born the desire for companions who closely approach the native ways of thinking and action of the density that each wanderer has come from. On May 22, 1994, Q’uo described the general nature of a wanderer:

So, at the heart of being a wanderer is that feeling of dislocation, of being in the world but not of the world in which you find yourselves. Because this situation seems full of discomfort many who have wandered here are simply miserable without finding any comfort. To respond to that need for comforting some who have responded have leaned in their discussions heavily towards comforting wanderers by encouraging a sense of separation from native Earth humans. We do not encourage this line of thought because each wanderer, in coming into your Earth’s sphere of influence, took upon it the responsibility of citizenship of this Earth. As much as any other native inhabitant, wanderers will be expected to walk the steps of Light when this incarnational experience is at an end, and, just as much as any native inhabitant of Earth, if the steps are walked to a point of comfort within third density the wanderer shall not return to its home vibratory nexus but, rather, shall continue in third density until graduation is achieved.

Therefore, we greatly encourage all wanderers to take up the burden of a dual existence, for that is precisely why you have put yourselves to this task. As difficult and disagreeable as it sometimes is to live with this double vibratory pattern, this difficulty is worthwhile and one hundred times worthwhile, for the basic vocation of every wanderer is to bear witness to the Light and the Love of the one infinite Creator.

The fourth density, being one full of Love and compassion, has as its native way of living the banding together in groups within which are often many more than one mated couple. Many fourth-density wanderers moved within the Earth planes during those years which this instrument calls the baby boom years, thus many of the young of your peoples who were known within your culture as hippies who dwelt not in couples but in communities and who through memory yearned to reproduce the Love and compassion that is a larger reality than the reality whose illusion you now experience within third-density incarnation.

Likewise, there have been wanderers from the sixth density which have been among your people for a more extended period of time but in far fewer numbers. Within the dimension of unity the common practice again is to dwell in large families whose members are related not by blood but by a commonality of thought. At the same time, my friends, you have begun being visited by those of fifth density, the density of wisdom. The native of fifth density seeks solitude, for being wise, it is also without need for the company of others, for the essence of wisdom, my friends, is the knowledge that that which is to be sought is a grasp of the unity of all things. This part of the journey of the seeker must needs, then, be a solitary one. The most clearly understood and easily accepted forms of companionship within fifth density are those of teacher and pupil and those of respected equals.

Then Hatonn said the fourth density, being one full of Love and compassion, has as its native way of living the banding together in groups within which are often more than one mated couple, and many fourth-density wanderers moved within the Earth planes during those baby boom years, thus many of the young people who were known within your culture as hippies who dwelt in communities and who yearned to reproduce the Love and compassion that is a larger reality than the reality whose illusion you now experience within third-density incarnation. Hatonn went on to say there have been wanderers from the sixth density which have been among your people for a more extended period of time, and within the dimension of unity the common practice again is to dwell in large families whose members are related not by blood but by a commonality of thought, but at the same time you have begun being visited by those of fifth density of wisdom, and the native of fifth density seeks solitude, for being wise, it is also without need for the company of others, for the essence of wisdom is the knowledge that that which is to be sought is a grasp of the unity of all things, so this part of the journey of the seeker must be a solitary one, for the most clearly understood and easily accepted forms of companionship within fifth density are those of teacher and pupil and those of respected equals. On January 4, 2020, Q’uo said that most wanderers are of the sixth density:

As you have stated in the query, there are sixth-density wanderers upon this planetary sphere at this time. Indeed, most wanderers are, indeed, of the sixth density nature, for it takes a great deal of courage to come into this environment, at this time most especially, and these entities, then, find within themselves the desire to be of service to the third-density population of your planet.

We are aware that as each of you has thought of community, there has been the puzzle which did not seem to be able to be put together, some wishing one kind of community, some another, with no guidelines offered that seem universally acceptable. My friends, this is due to the mixture of fifth-density entities with those of fourth and those few of sixth, each of whom find a mated relationship somewhat confining, not because each wishes greater experience in mated relationships, but because each half-remembers the depth of friendship, companionship and caring possible, and indeed right, among groups larger than the mated pair. And yet those of fifth density must needs seek solitude within community; those of fourth density—loving, joyful and generous—have hospitality to offer as do children who play and welcome all to their games. Those of sixth density, though somewhat more reserved, nevertheless carry the half-forgotten and half-remembered memory of the larger family and the comfort found therein.

In addition, of course, my friends, there are many very close to graduation within third density who have come to grasp the possibilities of deep friendships and true companionship not limited to the husband and the wife as it is known among your people but instead offered to those of like mind. The chief reason for failure of larger communities among your peoples is the inability to bring the disparate memories of fourth, and fifth, and sixth-density wanderers into alignment, and further, the inability of all those who dwell in the present incarnational experience in third-density bodies in confusing Love offered by the Creator from the Creator to the Creator and that love which among your peoples is termed romantic love.

Now Hatonn said we are aware that as each of you has thought of community, there has been the puzzle which did not seem to be able to be put together, some wishing one kind of community, some another, with no guidelines offered that seem universally acceptable, for this is due to the mixture of fifth-density entities with those of fourth and those of sixth, each of whom find a mated relationship somewhat confining, not because each wishes greater experience in mated relationships, but because each half-remembers the depth of companionship possible among groups larger than the mated pair, yet those of fifth density must needs seek solitude within community, and those of fourth density have hospitality to offer as do children who play and welcome all to their games, but those of sixth density, though more reserved, carry the half-remembered memory of the larger family and the comfort found therein. Now Hatonn said there are many close to graduation within third density who have come to grasp the possibilities of true companionship offered to those of like mind, so the reason for failure of larger communities among your people is the inability to bring the different memories of fourth, fifth, and sixth-density wanderers into alignment, and the inability of all those who dwell in the present incarnational experience in third-density bodies in confusing Love offered by the Creator from the Creator to the Creator and that love which among your people is termed romantic love. On September 9, 1990, Q’uo described the nature of those close to graduation:

So, it is well to put the intellect to one side, and to realize that this acceptance of entities which you find unacceptable is for you important, not to find the solution, for when these agreements have been made before incarnation they normally have been made because the entities have very, very deep biases which will give each other catalyst; thus, it is unlikely that the outward situation changes. Although it is always possible, it is not probable.

Now, when it is karmic, as you would say, it is simply a matter of forgiving, and the lesson is over. Most people this close to graduation are somewhat beyond these lessons, or at least have very little karmic difficulties which have been bred within this illusion. What, then, can you do? “Where,” as this instrument likes to quote, “is the Love in such a situation?”

The answer, though simple, is difficult to enunciate. Those upon your planet have, because of their sightlessness, metaphysically speaking, the tendency to wish to control situations so that they are not so agonizingly difficult. It is a natural inclination for those sensitive souls who are already dealing with discomfort from the vibrations of third density. When you add to that intense and unacceptable relationships, you have given yourself a great deal to learn. May we assure you, nevertheless, no matter how unglamorous it seems or how sorrowful, that you have a good deal at stake in taking on these substantial challenges.

My friends, we cannot offer you solutions. We can only offer a sort of diagram of the causes for miscommunication that contribute to that which is considered the failure of community when it occurs among your people. However, we feel that it is important at this juncture to speak to you about that concept of failure. My friends, each of you seeks the far country, if you will, the grass which is the greener. Each of you has gone to at least one far country and has been disillusioned. There is a kind of feeling of death, a death of spirit, of heart, of emotion, when the journey of community and of companionship seems to fail and there is the turning toward what seems to be a journey backwards, a journey to one’s home, a journey to safe ground. And yet we say to you that there are no failures, for it is the attempt about which you shall be concerned. The attempt to share love is far greater than any manifestation which may seem to fall short of the ideal. And the journey home is not a journey backwards, for you cannot go backwards, and the home to which you come is eternal. And each time that you visit that home, you have been transformed. You have been dead but again you live and your spirit begins to soar once again and have hope for the morrow.

Those of you who feel that you are wanderers, take heed, for you came not only to share yourself with each other, you came primarily to share yourself with those of third density who may be helped by the sharing of experience with those whose consciousness includes a belief, a faith, and a hope in the ideals of Love, compassion, wisdom, service to others, and the seeking of the truth. If you are, indeed, a wanderer, let it be incumbent upon you to remember why you offered yourself in service to the infinite Creator, and if some are sociable and others solitary, know you that each has the nature of its experience, of its memory, and of its birthright.

Hatonn continued by saying we cannot offer you solutions of a diagram of the causes for miscommunication that contributes to the failure of community when it occurs among your people, but we feel that it is important at this time to speak to you about that concept of failure, and each of you seeks the far country, for each of you has gone to at least one far country and has been disillusioned, so there is a feeling of a death of the spirit when the journey of community and companionship seems to fail, and there is the turning toward a journey to one’s home, yet we say that there are no failures, for it is the attempt about which you shall be concerned because the attempt to share Love is greater than any manifestation which may seem to fall short of the ideal, but the journey home is not a journey backwards, for you cannot go backwards, and the home to which you come is eternal, so each time that you visit that home, you have been transformed, for you have been dead but again you live, and your spirit begins to soar once again, and you have hope for tomorrow. Hatonn continued by saying those of you who feel that you are wanderers, take heed, for you came not only to share yourself with each other, you came to share yourself with those of third density who may be helped by the sharing of experience with those whose consciousness includes faith and hope in the ideals of Love, wisdom, service to others, and the seeking of the truth, for if you are a wanderer let it be your responsibility to remember why you offered yourself in service to the infinite Creator, and if some are sociable and others solitary, know that each has the nature of its experience and of its birthright. On September 14, 2019, Q’uo spoke of the value of seeking the truth:

Indeed, each entity within this circle of seeking as well as so many, many others of like mind, body, and spirit, has within it, the capacity to contact that quality of Love and Light within each being which is the One Infinite Creator, and to send forth that Love and Light to the planetary population in a fashion which may inspire more seeking of the truth, as you may call it, by each entity. The seeking of this truth is the seeking of that which is the unity of all creation, expressed through the open heart that feels unconditional Love for all of the creation. Each entity, in each iota of the creation, being seen as the other self, being seen as the Creator, being seen as the perfection of all creation within the third-density illusion.

Thus, each moment, each day, each diurnal period that you experience this Love and Light and send it forth to the planetary whole, is an opportunity to expand upon the possibilities of the harvest being completed in the positively and the negatively oriented senses, so that this planet may offer the fruit of its beingness to the One Creator at the level of the fourth density of Love and understanding.

We close by speaking to those who approach graduation from third density. Look you, my beloved friends, not to the seeming failure of any ideal of Love or community, any expression of family, tribe, or clan, but look you instead to the ideal which has been shared. Manifestations shall die; the ideal which spurs people’s spirits on, ever onward shall be, as they have been and as they are. My beloved, have you any conception of the word “forever”? Beyond any dimension there is that which binds all in One. And we ask you to cease pondering your differences. Have you white skin and another black? Are you male and another female? Are you old and another young? Are you solitary and another sociable? Are you compassionate and another wise?

My friends, this is all illusion. It is reality to you so that you may learn. And those within your midst who are wanderers among you are dealing with not one but two illusions: the illusion of their native densities and the illusion of the present incarnational experience. How easy it is to be the accountant and separate the lists of entities who are all the one Creator by this or that difference. We ask you instead to rest and be quiet within yourself, and find that within you which is one with all that there is. We ask you to have eyes of trust that you may see the oneness of each other, of yourself. We ask that you may attempt the impossible, for we ourselves are still those unique, still those aware of our differences, although our differences are more easily made harmonious because of the vision given us by the density of Love.

Hatonn went on to say we close by speaking to those who approach graduation from third density, so look you not to the failure of any ideal of Love, community, or family, but look you instead to the ideal which has been shared, for manifestations shall die, and the ideal which spurs people’s spirits ever onward shall be, as they have been, and as they are, for beyond any dimension there is that which binds all in One, and we ask you to cease pondering your differences, so: “Have you white skin and another black? Are you male and another female? Are you old and another young? Are you solitary and another sociable? Are you compassionate and another wise?” Now Hatonn said this is all illusion, but it is reality to you, so that you may learn, and those within your midst who are wanderers among you are dealing with not one but two illusions: the illusion of their native densities and the illusion of the present incarnational experience, and how easy it is to be the accountant and separate the lists of entities who are all the one Creator by this or that difference, but we ask you to rest and be quiet within yourself, and find that within you which is one with all that there is, and we ask you to have eyes of trust that you may see the oneness of each other and of yourself, so we ask that you attempt the impossible, for we are still those who are unique, still those aware of our differences, although our differences are more easily made harmonious because of the vision given us by the density of Love. In 71.13, Ra said that we are one with all:

Each entity contains within it all of the densities and sub-densities of the octave so that in each entity, no matter whither its choices lead it, its great internal blueprint is one with all others. Thusly, its experiences will fall into the patterns of the journey back to the original Logos. This is done through free will, but the materials from which choices can be made are one blueprint

Yet, how can you exist as spiritual entities if you seek only that which is possible with this illusion, recognizing not the great mystery of the creation? We say to you only that mystery is a unity, though it is far beyond your comprehension. Just as the star is far beyond your reach, that reaching, that seeking for comprehension, that Love of what seems to be impossible—the unity of all things—shall give you joy and power and bring you peace, not the peace of one who is dying, but the peace of one who is full of the Creator and fearless in the face of change, for as you interact with each other, whether it be between mated couples, between companions, or between friends, much shall occur which shall seem to be disharmonious. The peace of that which we speak is retained in the face of all disharmony, and indeed grows stronger and more powerful as experience seems to go awry.

Those who seek, my friends, place themselves upon a road which seems strewn with boulders and yet is very, very narrow. And as you clamber over the boulders and attempt to stay upon the path, many, many differences seem to present themselves. Count you then the coins of this plenty of difference and toss those coins away, for such riches shall only cause you unhappiness, and seek you instead that coin within yourself, that unity of self which is in little, the example of that which is in the macrocosm. You are all one, my friends. Please dare to Love each other. We assure you that though you shall fall, you shall always be helped up again, if only you keep your heart and your mind in the belief, in the faith, and in the hope of unity with the one great original Thought of Love.

Hatonn said how can you exist as spiritual entities if you seek only that which is possible within this illusion, recognizing not the great mystery of the creation? So, we say to you only that mystery is unity, though it is beyond your comprehension, and just as the star is beyond your reach, that seeking for comprehension and Love of what seems to be impossible—the unity of all things—shall give you joy and power and bring you peace, not the peace of one who is dying, but the peace of one who is full of the Creator and fearless in the face of change, for as you interact with each other, whether it be between mated couples, between companions, or between friends, much shall occur which shall seem to be disharmonious, but the peace of that which we speak is retained in the face of all disharmony, and grows stronger as experience seems to go awry. Now Hatonn said those who seek place themselves upon a road which seems strewn with boulders, yet it is narrow, and as you climb over the boulders and attempt to stay upon the path, many differences present themselves, so count the coins of this difference and toss those coins away, for such riches shall only cause you unhappiness, and seek that coin within yourself, that unity of self which is the example of that which is in the macrocosm, for you are all one, and please dare to Love each other, yet we assure you that though you shall fall, you shall always be helped up again, if only you keep your heart and your mind in faith, and in unity with the one original Thought of Love. On July 17, 2003, Q’uo spoke about the unity of our self:

This sensation which you describe as “holes” within the soul of one’s being is a most interesting and perhaps literal way of looking at those portions of the self towards which one moves in the spiritual sense. To regain one’s identity is to fit together many pieces of a great puzzle of many dimensions. When one has a lack of understanding of any portion of this puzzle, there is a hole, shall we say, a gap, a place or way of being that is yet to be discovered. This is the nature of the journey for each seeker of truth—to find the trail of pieces to this puzzle and follow till one is whole, till one is unified, till one feels the unity of self with all other beings. This is a grand journey upon which you travel. Follow that feeling of the whole within until you find that which plugs or fills the hole.

We shall leave you now, greeting especially the one known as B. We confirm that we have been with this instrument at times, and it has been our joy to be one with this faithful instrument as it is our joy to be with each of you at your mental request. We leave you as an inspiration…

[Side one of tape ends.]

(Carla channeling)

I am Hatonn. We shall continue. We leave you as an inspiration that has no value except the value that comes from the resonance within you with the thoughts that we share. If there are any thoughts which are not pleasing to you, we most earnestly request that you ignore them and erase them from thought, for our only hope is to be of service to you, and we do not wish to be in any way a stumbling block in the path of your seeking. We leave you, although we cannot leave you, for we are all One, in the Love and in the Light of our infinite Creator. We are known to you as those of Hatonn. Adonai, my friends. Adonai vasu borragus.

(Jim channeling)

I am Latwii, and we greet you, my friends, in the Love and in the Light of our infinite Creator. We are honored again to be asked to join your group, and we thank you for this privilege of blending our vibrations with yours. It is our hope that we might be of some service this evening by attempting to answer queries which those present may have value in the asking. Without further delay, then, may we attempt the first query, my friends?

Carla: M asked me to ask a question. He wants to know if there is any light you could shed on the phenomenon that he shares with some other people, of affecting metal and other materials so that they bend, and of affecting electromagnetic fields. Basically, he wants to know why this happens, and what he can do about it, as he has inadvertently managed to bend a portion of his brand new car, which he did not intend to do.

Thus, when this talent, shall we say, has not been consciously pursued but has become the outgrowth of a more general conscious pursuit and expression of a subconscious ability, the talent is often, shall we say, channeled in an uneven fashion, thus the occasional interference with the electromagnetic equipment that your society has developed within the last few decades and the occasional bending of the metallic substances that are in, shall we say, the range of an entity’s unevenly surging abilities at the right moment. The means of controlling or affecting these talents upon the conscious level involve conscious discipline of this unevenly surging energy through whatever means of discipline the entity may find value therein. The meditation upon the sensations that precede such surges is that which is helpful in all cases. The direct control or manner of control of this phenomenon is that which must be left to the free will of each entity.

Carla asked: “M asked me to ask a question. He wants to know if there is any light you could shed on the phenomenon that he shares with some other people, of affecting metal and other materials so that they bend, and of affecting electromagnetic fields. Basically, he wants to know why this happens, and what he can do about it, as he has inadvertently managed to bend a portion of his brand new car, which he did not intend to do.” Latwii replied by saying this sensation which you describe as “holes” within the soul of one’s being is a literal way of looking at those portions of the self towards which one moves in the spiritual sense, so to regain one’s identity is to fit together pieces of a puzzle of many dimensions, and when one has a lack of understanding of any portion of this puzzle, there is a way of being that is yet to be discovered, for this is the nature of the journey for each seeker of truth: to find the trail of pieces to this puzzle and follow till one feels the unity of the self with all other beings, and this is a grand journey upon which you travel, so follow that feeling of the whole within until you find that which fills the hole. Latwii continued by saying when this talent has not been consciously pursued but has become the outgrowth of a more general conscious pursuit and expression of a subconscious ability, the talent is channeled in an uneven fashion, thus the occasional interference with the electromagnetic equipment that your society has developed within the last few decades and the occasional bending of the metallic substances that are in the range of an entity’s abilities at the right moment, for the means of controlling these talents upon the conscious level involve conscious discipline of this unevenly surging energy through whatever means of discipline the entity may find value, so meditation upon the sensations that precede such surges is that which is helpful in all cases, but the direct control of this phenomenon is that which must be left to the free will of each entity. On March 19, 1989, Hatonn spoke of the unity of our self with all that there is:

Each entity within your illusion, then, has as one of the primary goals the dissolving of boundaries, so that there might be seen and experienced more and more of the unity of the self with all other selves, with the creation, and with the Creator. This is a significantly long journey, and oftentimes there is much of trial and trauma, in your terms, that must proceed before each step must be taken upon this journey. Yet, the steps are taken, and the journey is successfully accomplished in some degree by each entity within each incarnation.

May we answer further, my sister?

Carla: Does this also apply to the inadvertent disrupting of electromagnetic equipment which I experience frequently?

I am Latwii, and this is quite correct, my sister. We would add that the ability to discern the approaching surge of such manifestation is that which requires the subtlest of perceptions and sensitivities and may in many cases be more of a distraction than the pursuing of the heart of seeking the truth, and may be considered simply a nuisance, shall we say.

May we answer further, my sister?

Carla: No thank you.

I am Latwii, and we thank you, as always, my sister. May we attempt another query?

Carla: I’m curious. I went to a fiftieth wedding anniversary party last Sunday afternoon and thought about a couple that was still as romantically in love as they had been when they were first married. This is not the norm among our people. Why is that?

I am Latwii. My sister, why is it that any excel in any field of study? There are those who seem to have talents in one area or another. Is it then not natural to expect that within the area of relationships there would be those who would excel in utilizing the relationship as a vehicle for sharing Love, experience and growth more efficiently than do others?

May we answer further, my sister?

Carla: In other areas, some have to work very hard to get even a competence, say something like piano playing. Others have a natural or God-given or native talent that makes it possible for them to become concert pianists. Does this analogy carry over into the ability to Love not only well but over a long period of time?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my sister. This is in general correct, and to be more specific, it is often the case that such studies as the piano and even relationships may be undertaken through a series of incarnations. Thus, one or two, in the case of a relationship, may find the fruit of the endeavor at a time within an incarnation that is the culmination of many, whereas others may be beginning the lessons at a relatively newer, shall we say, time within their overall experience of the lessons which your illusion offers.

May we answer further, my sister?

Carla: No, thank you.

I am Latwii, and we thank you, my sister. Is there another query?

[Pause]

I am Latwii. We find that the minds are quiet of queries as the hearts are full of peace and the enjoyment each of the other’s company. In this enjoyment we are happy to join this group and shall only in name leave this group in that Love and Light in the hearts of each and of the One who is All. We are those of Latwii. Adonai, my friends. Adonai vasu.

This morning the quote from The Thunder of Silence is: “Let us learn to sit quietly, resting in the realization that underneath are “the everlasting arms,” and that no amount of praying will put those everlasting arms there: they are already underneath us. If it is necessary as a reminder, whenever problems are brought to our attention for solution, we should close our eyes and remember what Jesus said to Peter, “Put up again thy sword into its place.”

All these discordant pictures that we see round about us are just mental images in thought, shadows on a screen. We must learn not to be afraid to look at them and understand that they have no more substance than the men and women in a moving picture screen, and no more power than the bullets that are fired into, and through, our television sets, but which never crack the set open. They make a great deal of noise, but they are nothing but shadows; and one day, as we look into our mind, we shall see and understand that there are these mental images or pictures of what is called life, and that they are all taking place inside, not outside, our mind. What we see is not the event itself, nor the person involved: it is a mental concept which we have drawn and are entertaining of the event or person.

When we realize that the problem presenting itself to us is not a God-created spirituality, but a mental concept without cause or reality—without presence, power, or substance—then in the realization of God as the creative, maintaining, and sustaining Principle of all that truly is, we already have all the God-power needed, without turning to God to do anything about it.”

This morning I drove to Terrapin Hill for my second day participating in our Homecoming Gathering. Today my Question-and-Answer session was held at 10 am. Some of the questions that were asked of me were: “Who is Q’uo?” “Have you had an enlightening experience?” “Are contacts with negative entities possible for the ordinary person?” “Have you discovered anything new in the Law of One material recently?” “What was the most traumatic experience of your life?” “When did you first meet Don and Carla?”

This afternoon I attended a presentation on the topic of Family Constellations. Some of the facets of Family Constellations are: “Become the problem that you are experiencing.” “Everyone in the family creates the roles that they play.” “Balance all problems with Love.” Then about six of the attendees played out this process by becoming problems such as low self-worth, being of service to all family members, sending Love to all family members, seeing the problems from a higher perspective, and sharing a heart-felt hug from time to time. Then I attended a presentation that was entitled The Seattle Law of One and working with the green-ray of Love and understanding, and then working with the concepts of Love removing fear, learning to Love ourselves and all those around us, focusing more on the feminine principle within us than the masculine principle, using the words of Wisdom within the blue ray, and working with the wisdom of the throat chakra, and learning to balance Love with wisdom, and then balancing love, wisdom, and power.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

May 16

Go Abroad In Happiness

I am of the principle of Jesus the Christ, and I greet you in the full consciousness of Love.

Be it known that happiness is not necessarily a burden. We say this because we find this instrument, this morning, bemoaning the awkwardness of a happy spirit which does not seem to produce the fruits that an unhappy spirit produces. The spirit is with each always, not only in times of trouble but also in times of rejoicing. It is the soul’s difficulty that in times of happiness it is far easier to become oblivious to the wants and needs of the spirit within.

The spirit within would always be giving. And, indeed, the happy soul is often content to stay at home amidst the accoutrements of living which have produced such contentment.

Therefore, go abroad in happiness, sensitive as always to the winds that blow from the spirit saying, “Come hither! Touch, feel and sense the spirit at work in and through each soul!”

We hope we leave you in a state of readiness; readiness to turn outward to others and inward to God. In that balance lies peace, now and forever. Amen

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of Love and open our hearts minds, and souls to send Love, Light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite Love, Light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our Love, Light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Hatonn, Latwii, and Nona channelings for this session come from March 2, 1986:

(Carla channeling)

I am Hatonn, and I greet you, my friends, in the Love and the Light of our infinite Creator. It is a great blessing for us to be invited to share our humble opinions with you. We thank you for requesting the sharing of these thoughts, and before we speak upon any subject, we wish to express our desire that each realize that we of the Confederation of Planets in the Service of the Infinite Creator are not infallible, but are, like yourselves, entities who are seeking the refinement of that which is loosely called the truth, and which we often call the one original Thought or Love. As you listen, keep what seems inspirational to you and leave the rest behind, for we do not wish to become a stumbling block upon your own path of seeking. With that said, we shall begin.

We are giving information to this instrument word by word, consequently, this instrument has no idea of what is to come next, and there will inevitably be pauses while the instrument has a fit of analysis and loses the contact. This instrument has yet to be fully confident of channeling in this manner and so it is a good learning technique.

As you look up at the stars, my friends, that which you see is inconceivable. Indeed, before your so-called science developed instruments capable of measuring and classifying that which the eye sees when gazing at the night sky, the majority of the inhabitants of your planet felt that they lived inside a dome through which there were tiny holes and therefore through which at night the great light beyond the sun could be seen. You are dwelling at this point in your experience within a physical vehicle which is inconceivable. Yes, my friends, you are very used to your bodies and, therefore, do not find them astonishing. Yet could you, without seeing a form, develop the intricate system of, shall we say, the most primitive internal combustion which is your body? The universe is a universe in which those things which are the true mysteries are often those things which are most taken for granted and unexplored while people turn their excellent mind to the creation of artifacts of their own making.

Although the instrumentation of science has long since altered humankind’s view of the universe, yet still it is taken for granted. And although healers have plumbed the depths and examined through microscopes the tiniest cells and explored the many systems within the body which you wear as your garment within this illusion, yet still it is taken for granted. And although each entity within your illusion will age and the physical body die, life is, for the most part, taken for granted while the mind of your people turns to the distractions, the recreations, the amusements, and the creation of the artifacts of civilizations. We have said to you many times, please meditate, and in our saying this, we hope, without learning for you or guiding that which you may find within yourself, to offer to you the most efficient path towards the removing of the numbness of daily life, that numbness which keeps one from perpetual astonishment and transformational joy from moment to moment. There is a kingdom within you which those whom you call religious leaders have located far away from you. This instrument would call this kingdom the Kingdom of God. It is difficult to find names for the Creator which express the concept appropriately, for within you is the Kingdom of God, and yet within you is the Creator, Creator and Kingdom being one.

In this session Hatonn spoke of the nature of the Creator’s universe and our third-density illusion. Hatonn began by saying as you look up at the stars that which you see is inconceivable, and before your science developed instruments capable of measuring and classifying that which the eye sees when gazing at the night sky, the majority of the inhabitants of your planet felt that they lived inside a dome through which there were tiny holes through which at night the Light beyond the sun could be seen, so you are dwelling in your experience within a physical vehicle which is inconceivable, but you are used to your bodies and do not find them astonishing, yet the universe is a universe in which those things which are the true mysteries are often those things which are taken for granted and unexplored while people turn their minds to the creation of artifacts of their own making. Hatonn went on to say although the instrumentation of science has altered humankind’s view of the universe, yet it is taken for granted, and although healers have examined through microscopes the tiniest cells and explored the many systems within the body which you wear as your garment within this illusion, yet it is taken for granted, and although each entity within your illusion will age and the physical body die, life is taken for granted while the mind of your people turns to the distractions and the creation of the artifacts of civilizations, so we have said to you meditate, and in our saying this, we hope, without learning for you, that you may find within yourself a way to offer to you the most efficient path towards the removing of the numbness of daily life which keeps one from transformational joy from moment to moment, for there is a kingdom within you which religious leaders have located far away from you, and Carla would call this kingdom the Kingdom of God, but it is difficult to find names for the Creator which express the concept appropriately, for within you is the Kingdom of God, and yet within you is the Creator,  with the Creator and Kingdom being one. On July 7, 1985, Hatonn said that the Kingdom of Heaven is within us:

We would close at this time, my friends, leaving you only with our hope that you may hope to discover that Kingdom within you and without you, for the Kingdom is all about you as well as within you. And as you begin to feel this truth within yourself about yourself, you can then see more and more constant and unremitting manifestation of the Kingdom of what this instrument would call Heaven all about you. May the Creator whisper to you, inspire you and be with you. We leave you in the Love and the Light of that which you are and that which all are, the one infinite Creator.

This concept is too simple to easily grasp. It is just as difficult to grasp the concept of dwelling within the present moment. Any substance which is formed of the stuff of your illusion has a process of existence. This is a mechanical and measurable process. We speak not only of the progress within your physical bodies, but also the progress of aging, of gems, of planets in their courses, of great sun bodies, and of the physical universe as you know it. In none of these processes does there indwell, to the casual observer, the concept of the present moment, for there is always the process that is going on and the feeling of time passing. We shall not overtax your rational minds this evening, for we wish instead to offer that which this particular group at this particular time requests and that is affirmation, confirmation and companionship as you attempt to enter into joy. It is possible within the processes of the body of rock, of star, to feel what could be termed joy, and yet because joy is so short-lived, there is great disappointment to each who dwells within the process. Instead of plucking yourself from the process, we suggest to you that that which is most real within you was in existence before any process began. That which is within you which is real is so full of joy that it is as though there were an unlimited, infinite and eternal orgasm which can be retrieved and experienced from within by meditation, by vision or by circumstance.

How we would like for you to be able to allow all those things which are illusory to fall away just now in this moment as we speak so that you may feel the heartbeat of the Kingdom within you. Why else, my friends, would you meditate except to find your true self? Why would you ever stop talking, and studying, and listening, and looking and learning? Why would you seek silence that the world does not give unless you suspected that there was a Kingdom within, and that Kingdom within dwelt more in that which was real than all of your experiences in manifestation upon the outer exoteric planes of human existence? What is this Kingdom like? There are many hints, many clues, many messengers that come and offer to you the great abundance of joy, of peace, of wholeness. There is the grass that greens, the trees in their stately dignity that offer shade and beauty, blossoms that nod in the gentle winds of summer and sweet songbirds full of mirth that offer their tuneful anthems to the listening ear. There is the smile upon the stranger’s face, the laugh of a child, the dignity of one grown old, the wisdom that one may find in certain places and with certain companions, inherent, unspoken. And there are those things which are offered to the self alone, meaningful to the self alone, subjective only and yet promising a reality full of Love, full of joy, full of peace. Step-by-step you walk and you move from place to place within your body, within the illusion, and step-by-step in a metaphysical sense, you walk upon your spiritual path and seek to accelerate the rate at which you are able to develop that spiritual self.

Hatonn continued by saying this concept is too simple to easily grasp, and it is just as difficult to grasp the concept of dwelling within the present moment, so any substance which is formed of the stuff of your illusion has a process of existence which is a measurable process, for we speak not only of the progress within your physical bodies, but also the progress of aging, of planets in their courses, of great sun bodies, and of the physical universe as you know it, yet in none of these processes is the concept of the present moment, for there is always the process that is going on and the feeling of time passing, but we shall not overtax your rational minds this evening, for we wish to offer that which this group requests, and that is confirmation and companionship as you attempt to enter into joy, so it is possible within the processes of the body of rock and star to feel joy, yet because joy is so short-lived there is disappointment for each who dwells within the process, but instead of removing yourself from the process, we suggest that which is real within you was in existence before any process began, for that which is within you which is real is so full of joy that it is as though there were an infinite orgasm which can be retrieved and experienced from within by meditation. Now Hatonn said we would like for you to be able to allow all those things which are illusory to fall away in this moment as we speak, so that you may feel the heartbeat of the Kingdom within you, for: “Why else would you meditate except to find your true self? Why would you ever stop talking, and studying, and listening, and looking and learning? Why would you seek silence that the world does not give unless you suspected that there was a Kingdom within, and that Kingdom within dwelt more in that which was real than all of your experiences in manifestation upon the outer exoteric planes of human existence? What is this Kingdom like?” Hatonn said there are many messengers that come and offer to you the blossoms that nod in the gentle winds of summer and sweet songbirds full of mirth that offer their tuneful anthems to the listening ear, and there is the smile upon the stranger’s face, the laugh of a child, the dignity of one grown old, and there are those things which are meaningful to the self alone, yet promising a reality full of Love and joy, so you move from place to place within your body, within the illusion, and in a metaphysical sense you walk upon your spiritual path and seek to accelerate the rate at which you are able to develop your spiritual self. On September 5, 1993, Oxal described the nature of our spiritual self:

There is one consciousness. Yet, due to free will, that consciousness expresses within you in an unique way. As the little child is cared for, so is that awareness of what consciousness truly is. It is born within each. That spiritual self must be nurtured and cared for, for it is young. Each of you is, in one sense, an old soul. In another, in the sense that each is facing the lessons of third density, each is a new and untried spirit, newly conscious of self, newly conscious of the true nature of existence, and very hungry for more. Yet, this is a fragile child, and it exists in sometimes inhospitable climes. Therefore, Love that inner identity and know those things that faith alone can give knowledge of. All is well. All will be well, and destiny will bring every harsh and sweet lesson which you need in order to grow. Turn to the sun which is Love, and bloom gloriously.

We say to you that coming into focus of the creation of the Creator is that which will accelerate the rate of your spiritual development most efficiently. As you do this, you move from the dimension of physicality into the dimension of the present moment. The present moment does not go away; it does not turn into the future; nor does it leave the past behind. The metaphysical present moment is not at all the same as a physical present as indicated by your clocks. It is often the approach of those who seek most earnestly to attempt to replicate the symptoms of one who is progressing, to attempt to feel joy, to attempt to feel Love, to attempt to manifest the one original Thought, and yet those symptoms of spiritual growth are that—only symptoms. One may manifest them for a time, however the energy available to one seeking phenomena is limited. So, we ask you to attempt this evening to step momentarily out of time, to allow yourself to enter the Kingdom within.

Let us speak with you as you enter that Kingdom. How beautiful and how fair, how full of glory is the face of creation. How shall we praise that which is Love? How shall we come into true association with infinity? How limitless is the Light? How full of thanks are we? Why are we not traveling? Why are we not moving, for there is a great sensation of moving and traveling as we dwell in the present moment? We move, we dwell, we are. Motion and motionless, these things are one. All things are One. Oh, greet each other, my friends, and know each other as One. Know each other as the Creator, and now look and see how gracious, how gentle, and how profound the one original Thought is. We are full of thanks to ourselves—for we thank ourselves—as we are the Creator and we are the Creation. Where can we go and be not in the creation? What can we see that is not the Creator? Let us move back into time. Let bliss drift like the waves of the sea moving back and forth, and let us find ourselves seated within the illusion, within physical bodies, within all of those things which may seem to separate us from each other and from the Creator and from the consciousness of the Creator.

Now Hatonn said that coming into focus of the creation of the Creator is that which will accelerate the rate of your spiritual development most efficiently, and as you do this, you move from the dimension of physicality into the dimension of the present moment which does not go away, but it does not turn into the future, nor does it leave the past behind, but the metaphysical present moment is not the same as a physical present as indicated by your clocks, yet it is the approach of those who seek most earnestly to attempt to replicate the symptoms of one who is progressing, to attempt to feel joy, to attempt to feel Love, to attempt to manifest the one original Thought, and yet those symptoms of spiritual growth are only symptoms, so one may manifest them for a time, but the energy available to one seeking phenomena is limited, so we ask you to attempt this evening to step momentarily out of time, to allow yourself to enter the Kingdom within. Then Hatonn said let us speak with you as you enter that Kingdom, so: “How beautiful and how fair, how full of glory is the face of creation. How shall we praise that which is Love? How shall we come into true association with infinity? How limitless is the Light? How full of thanks are we? Why are we not traveling? Why are we not moving, for there is a great sensation of moving and traveling as we dwell in the present moment?” Now Hatonn said we are motion and motionless, and all things are One, so greet each other and know each other as the Creator, and see how profound the one original Thought is, for we are full of thanks to ourselves as we are the Creator and the Creation, so let us move back into time and drift like the waves of the sea moving back and forth, and let us find ourselves seated within the illusion, within physical bodies, within all of those things which may seem to separate us from each other and from the Creator and from the consciousness of the Creator. On April 29, 1984, Latwii said that we all are the Creator:

It is as though you are each a pilgrim, and together you are a band of pilgrims, and long have you journeyed on this road, the road to the one Creator. Yet, you are the Creator, and each moment you experience the experience of the Creator. But you have forgotten this in this life, and in order to intensify your experience as the one Creator, you are as children, make up certain games, join certain groups, to, shall we say, pass the time as you journey. You are so successful in passing the time that often you forget that you journey.

Remember, my brother, you are a pilgrim. Seek your deepest goal. See the Creator within those with whom you journey. Your viewpoints will widen. Each experience of difficulty will widen that viewpoint.

This, my friends, is travel without time. This is a kind of talking that attempts to describe that which is meditation and which is found in meditation. Felt you then the glory, the wonder, the beauty of the timeless present wherein the one original Thought expresses itself as reality? Then you shall be able to radiate that Light and that Love not by doing but first by being, for your worth is as infinite as the Creator. And that which you do shall always be an imperfect trace of the energy pathway of limitlessness. We are so very pleased to have been able to share a few thoughts with you, and we rejoice with you that the creation of Love is nearer to you than your breathing, closer to you than your thinking, more dear to you than your body.

We would, if you wish, be with you in meditation in order to be able to aid you in the strengthening of that state. We are capable of offering a kind of carrier wave which can blend with your own energies to strengthen the process of meditation. There is no one who is unworthy, there is no one who is exempt by folly of any kind from the possibility of dwelling in Love. May we join you in that unity of being which we have shared since that time before time and which we shall share beyond the end of creation as you know it. May we rejoice with you. Yes, my friends, the nature of reality is joy. Seek the Kingdom, and allow yourself to rest in the present, in the infinity, in the Light of the one original Thought.

Hatonn concluded by saying this is travel without time, a kind of talking that attempts to describe meditation, and which is found in meditation, so if you have felt the glory and the beauty of the timeless present, then you shall be able to radiate that Light and Love by being, for your worth is as infinite as the Creator, and that which you do shall always be an imperfect trace of the energy pathway of limitlessness, so we are pleased to have been able to share a few thoughts with you, and we rejoice with you that the creation of Love is nearer to you than your breathing, closer to you than your thinking, more dear to you than your body. On June 18, 1989, Q’uo described the value of the timeless present moment:

Each lesson which comes to you, each challenge, and difficulty, and demand, holds a lesson of Love for you. If you do not successfully work out this particular lesson through the aids of meditation, contemplation, inspiration, and analysis, you may not learn the lesson in front of you. You may decide instead that perhaps you have a more glorious ministry, a more exciting gift to give to the world. You are impatient. Yet there is no room for impatience in timelessness, and, my friends, all of your spiritual growth takes place in the timeless present moment. Until you have removed yourself from today, yesterday, and tomorrow, you have not contacted infinity, and it is infinity for which you yearn, for that is your birthright.

We are those of Hatonn, and again we thank each of you and leave you enmeshed together by the nature of creation that you share. Oh beauteous Love, oh wondrous Light, how can we leave you, for we are as you are, all that there is. Go within yourself, and you shall find forever. We leave you now that our brothers and sisters may speak through another instrument. Adonai, my friends. Adonai vasu borragus.

(Jim channeling)

I am Latwii, and we greet you in the Love and in the Light of our infinite Creator. We are overjoyed to be asked to join this group this evening. We thank you for requesting our presence. We, as always, are eager to share our humble words in whatever manner may be of aid in your seeking. We would also remind each present that we are but your fallible brothers and sisters who have moved somewhat further, shall we say, upon the same journey which you find yourselves traveling on. We are available at this time to attempt to answer queries which those present may have value in the asking, and we will do our best to respond in a manner which is helpful without infringing upon your own free will and seeking. May we then begin with the first query?

Carla: I’ll break the ice since everyone’s being polite and waiting for the other guy. Last week we had a message about an…

[Side one of tape ends.]

We had this message last week that dealt with the function of the nucleus of the atom, and there were some connections made metaphysically with the unpotentiated Logos, and the fact that most of the creation, most of the sun systems and stars that you see and so forth, and most of each cell within our body all dwell in unpotentiated, undifferentiated Logos or Love, and that what we were experiencing we were experiencing with a very small part of our total capacity to experience.

I was thinking about that earlier today and I began wondering about how illness works because if each cell of the body is full of the Love of the Creator and is dipped into only very slightly, then when the cells of the body become damaged, or ill, or attacked by some bug, or whatever, it seems that the Logos is being used in a way that is not of service but is destructive of Love. I couldn’t get much further than that with it, and I wondered if you could discuss the relationship between the cells and the nature of the cells, in other words, if each one is a living, conscious entity which mostly dwells within Love, and illness.

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my sister. This is a large topic and one which is somewhat difficult to translate into your word system. However, as you look upon the cells of your physical vehicle, and, indeed, the nature of the illusion which you inhabit in general, you will see at the heart of this manifestation of Love various patterns or frequencies of vibrations of the photon as you have called it. These patterns or fields of vibration are constructed in such and such a manner by the Logos under whose care we find ourselves in this portion of the creation. Within the frequency of the third density illusion that you inhabit there may be within your physical vehicle variations in the field of vibration chosen by each entity, either upon the conscious or upon the subconscious level of mind, for the purpose of experiencing a certain set of circumstances that will have as the end result, shall we say, the opportunity to learn certain lessons and to utilize these learnings in the serving of others.

The diseased pattern of vibrational distortion, shall we say, is much like building various structures within one of your streams or rivers that serve to divert the movement of the water in its normal flow, thus creating swirls, pools, depths, eddies, and so forth. When an entity in its incarnational pattern experiences that condition that you know as disease, it has done the equivalent of blocking or causing an alteration in the normal pattern of vibratory frequency in order to provide itself with what may be called a teaching device. The seeming damage done to the pattern of vibration or manifestation of Love is as illusory as the manifestation is in its original state of creation, shall we say, and will last for as long as is necessary for the opportunity to be grasped and the lessons learned and the services offered.

Carla asked: “We had this message last week that dealt with the function of the nucleus of the atom, and there were some connections made metaphysically with the unpotentiated Logos, and the fact that most of the creation, most of the sun systems and stars that you see and so forth, and most of each cell within our body all dwell in unpotentiated, undifferentiated Logos or Love, and that what we were experiencing we were experiencing with a very small part of our total capacity to experience.

I was thinking about that earlier today, and I began wondering about how illness works because if each cell of the body is full of the Love of the Creator and is dipped into only very slightly, then when the cells of the body become damaged, or ill, or attacked by some bug, or whatever, it seems that the Logos is being used in a way that is not of service but is destructive of Love. I couldn’t get much further than that with it, and I wondered if you could discuss the relationship between the cells and the nature of the cells, in other words, if each one is a living, conscious entity which mostly dwells within Love, and illness. Latwii replied by saying this is a large topic, and one which is difficult to translate into words, so as you look upon the cells of your body and the nature of the illusion which you inhabit, you will see at the heart of this manifestation of Love various frequencies of vibrations of the photon, and these fields of vibration are constructed in such a manner by the Logos under whose care we find ourselves in this portion of the creation, for within the frequency of the third density illusion there may be within your physical vehicle variations in the field of vibration chosen by each entity, either upon the conscious or upon the subconscious level of mind, for the purpose of experiencing a set of circumstances that will have the opportunity to learn certain lessons and to utilize these learnings in the serving of others. Latwii continued by saying the diseased pattern of vibrational distortion is like building various structures within one of your rivers that serve to divert the movement of the water in its normal flow, thus creating swirls and eddies, so when an entity in its incarnational pattern experiences a disease, it has done the equivalent of blocking the normal pattern of vibratory frequency in order to provide itself with a teaching device, yet the seeming damage done to the manifestation of Love is as illusory as the manifestation is in its original state of creation and will last for as long as is necessary for the lessons to be learned and the services to be offered. On June 15, 1986, L/Leema described how to deal with a diseased condition:

We find that it is more probable that an entity seeking to be healed would utilize techniques other than the crystal, including that which may be seen as the attempting to achieve the crystallization of one’s own being by utilizing the catalyst available daily in a fashion which penetrates to the heart of the entity’s pattern of lessons which in some fashion become distorted in those experiencing the diseased condition. The use of the crystal or the crystallized healer or any external source of healing is but a step, shall we say, or crutch, as it were, for the one seeking healing.

In all cases of healing, the process is accomplished when the faith of the one to be healed has been activated to such an extent that it is able to accept a new configuration of mind, body and spirit that more closely resembles the balanced condition for this entity. The use of sources outside of the one to be healed is a kind of triggering device that is useful to many because of the shared belief of many that in order to be healed, one must seek an healer or healing device.

May we answer further, my sister?

Carla: Are you implying then that the state of health is as illusory as the state of ill health?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my sister. In general, this is correct, though the free and even flow of the life pattern is substantially more stable in its illusory manifestation than is the unbalanced, or diseased, or blocked configuration.

May we answer further, my sister?

Carla: Is there any way that we can use this knowledge to inform the cells of our desire that they become distorted towards health rather than ill health? Besides meditation?

I am Latwii, and we may suggest, my sister, that there are as many ways to look upon and utilize these configurations of health and disease as there are entities to perceive them. The configuration of the pattern of manifestation may be studied as the riddle in the attempt to discern the opportunity contained within the configuration, for each configuration that has become distorted has a symbolic value, shall we say, that serves to focus the attention of the individual upon the distortion in order that the purpose of the distortion might be understood and balance once again achieved.

May we answer further, my sister?

Carla: Thank you, no.

I am Latwii, and we thank you, my sister. Is there another query?

Questioner: Of what density is Latwii?

I am Latwii, and we are privileged to pursue our seeking of the one Creator within the illusion of the density numbering five, which is, as you are aware, the density of Light.

May we answer further, my brother?

Questioner: Does the blockage which you mentioned concerning illness, can this blockage be eliminated through the use of kundalini meditation?

I am Latwii, and this is one technique of removal of the blockages when pursued with diligence and discipline, my brother.

May we answer further?

Questioner: No, thank you.

I am Latwii, and we thank you, my brother. Is there another query?

Carla: Why is it that some of us do have music in our heads all the time?

I am Latwii, and am aware of your query, my sister. We find that there is no simple or single explanation for this phenomenon, for the ears to hear the sounds of music that is not heard by all may reopened for any number of reasons. There are many whose inner seeking has taken the form that provides an avenue that is analogous to the mathematical relationships between sounds, and the desire to know what you have called the truth then is translated by the subconscious mind of the seeker into a constant refrain, as it were. This, then, is always present in such an entity and serves as a constant reminder to such an entity that it does seek that known as the truth and does also constantly receive answers to the seeking.

May we answer further, my sister?

Carla: No, thank you.

I am Latwii, and we thank you once again, my sister. Is there another query?

Carla: Okay, I’ll hog the time just one more time, and then I’ll shut up. For some time, I’ve been working with depression because of the death of a dear friend, and just recently I’ve felt that I was getting much better and began easing off the medication that was designed to keep me from becoming suicidal. As I ease off of the medication, I find that some of the really bad patterns of thought which are very destructive, and not at all helpful, and not true come back more than they did when I was on this medicine, and I’ve started having nightmares again. It seems that there should be a metaphysical way to work with these energies and to transform them, but although I meditate every day, that hasn’t happened. Could you give me any kind of suggestion as to how to work with destructive thought processes and the expression of that destruction in nightmares?

I am Latwii, and am aware of your query, my sister. Though we may not speak with over specificity in guiding your own thinking and thus infringing upon your own free will, we may speak in a general fashion to suggest that those desires to utilize the lessons now placed before your notice may take the form of, shall we say, programming your own subconscious mind to release in the dream state the symbols of transformation that might be then in the conscious state interpreted by your own efforts in a fashion which attempts to achieve a wholeness of understanding. The difficulties which you experience in your waking state and in your sleeping state may be looked at for the deeper meaning and this meaning then used as the programming for further revelation, whether in dreams or in meditation, that will further enhance the piecing of the puzzle shall we say, thus to grasp the bull by the horns, to use a phrase, may enable your attempt to relieve the distortions in a fashion that utilizes both the conscious and subconscious experiences of sleep and waking.

May we answer further, my sister?

Carla: I don’t think so. Thank you.

I am Latwii, and we thank you, my sister. Is there another query?

[Pause]

I am Latwii, and as we feel we have completed those queries which have been so graciously placed before us this evening, we shall thank each present for requesting our presence in this group of seeking this evening. We are always with you upon your request and rejoice in joining you during your seeking upon these evenings. We shall be with you again. We are known to you as those of Latwii. Adonai, my friend.

Carla: C, I feel Nona’s energy. Do you want to try to channel Nona?

C: I’ll try.

(C channeling)

I am Nona. We come to answer calls for healing from those present who have concerns for those here and those who are close.

[C channels a vocalized healing melody from Nona.]

This morning the quote from The Thunder of Silence is: “A consciousness must be built in which the response to any problem that is presented to us is, “Look, here it is in my mind. I’m looking at it. It isn’t benefiting me; it isn’t hurting me. It is a shadow. I know the world has said that this thing is a power, that it can kill, destroy, or weaken, but I say it is a shadow because in a God-created world, it cannot be a power, and I do not need any power. I do not even need a power to destroy it, or overcome it, or remove it.”

Human existence is based on a belief or trust in two powers, and even religion is based on the power of God over evil, but in heaven there are no powers of good or of evil. There is only God Itself, living Its own life as you and as me and as a heavenly universe. The very moment we can demonstrate the Master’s teaching of resist not evil, we shall no longer spend our days as most of the world is doing, chasing, searching, and begging for a power to do something and competing with everybody else in the world. When we realize this next principle—not a new power but a new principle, a new dimension of life—we live in a world where there is no competition, and in a universe where people do not fight one another.

Watch the transformation of your own world as you bring yourself inwardly to the feeling that you do not want to oppose or use a power against anybody or anything.

“Resist not evil.” At first it may be that somebody will want to take every last dollar you have in the world, but they cannot permanently deprive you of one dime because faster than they can deprive you it, it will be returned to you in some way, so that it will not be long before you will have as much as you had before and probably twelve bassets full left over; whereas if you struggle to hold on to it you may find yourself with less.

Wars and lawsuits result from the conviction that possessions—whether of land, money, more people—must be held tightly within the owner’s grasp at whatever price, even if it arouses envy, jealousy, and hatred When any form of evil or danger threatens, immediately the law of self-preservation goes to work, which instinctively causes us to raise our hands or make a fist; and if we are students of metaphysics, we quickly set up a mental wall of defense resorting to affirmations and denials such as, “It isn’t true. It isn’t so. There is no life in matter. God is all.” There is a resistance to the error as if it were a power, whereas the truth is, it is only “an arm of flesh.” Such an attitude leaves us without any feeling of needing to overcome rise above, or destroy anything.

The physical resistance of fist or sword and the mental resistance of affirmations and denials are practically the same thing, but rising above the physical and the mental into the spiritual realm brings us to that new dimension where there is no power, where there is no good over evil, where every situation is met by resting in the Spirit.

It is only the Spirit of God in us that enables us to rise above seeking revenge, or wanting to defend ourselves from slander, scandal, or rumors. When we can refuse to yield to the temptation to justify or defend ourselves, when we can smile and say “If you believe it, I am sorry for you,” and let it go at that, then we are trusting the Christ to make the necessary adjustments and bring to us the defense which the Master promised: “Settle it, therefore, in your hearts, not to meditate before what ye shall answer: For I will give you a mouth and wisdom which all your adversaries shall not be able to gainsay nor resist.” We do not have to plan in advance as what we are going to say; we do not have to be a clever attorney for ourselves, but only wait until we are before the judge, open our mouth, and hear the Spirit speak through us.”

This morning I drove to Terrapin Hill where our Homecoming Gathering continues for its second day. We began this morning by doing and check in of what personal concepts that we bring to share with the group. Then we shared what spiritual experiences that we hope to take home from our four days at the Homecoming Gathering. Then I attended a presentation on the results of how Carla experienced a past life regression in the mid-70s. I also attended a presentation on the concept that “The Moment contains Love,” and the last one was how we feel that it will be on Mother Earth in the fourth density of Love and understanding.”                                                                                                                                      

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

May 15

Sacramental Waiting

I am of the principle of Jesus the Christ, and I greet you in the full consciousness of divine Love.

This instrument gave us our lesson this morning, our words to the world, and our comfort to the nations, by its own experience. For it was heavily beleaguered by entities which were not of the principle of Jesus the Christ. And again and again there were attempts made to open the channel to associates that were not desirable to this instrument.

Finally, all was quiet, and this instrument prayed, “I am content with the silence if I cannot hear the voice of Love.”

Our key word this day is “presence.” Many, many situations seem unendingly to press upon the self with their wrongnesses and incorrectnesses. Nothing can be saved. All must be cast away. And the effort one has put into that situation seems lost.

It is not lost. It is that which empowers the heart to patience; quietness of spirit; trust and faith in the midst of no evidence to support faith. The waiting one does for wisdom is sacramental. The disposing of that which is not desirable is sacramental. Nothing that you do for the Love of the Father is ever lost. So, wait you in quietness and do not be moved by the small wounds of insignificant discomfort.

We leave you in the peace which does not demand confirmation but accepts silent, sacramental waiting; that peace which the outer world will never know, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of Love and open our hearts minds, and souls to send Love, Light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite Love, Light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our Love, Light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Nona, L/Leema, and Latwii channelings come from February 23, 1986:

(Carla channeling)

I am Nona, and we come to this group due to the great cry of one of this group who is not here. We come to you in the Love and in the Light of the infinite Creator, and are most grateful to this instrument for allowing us to, shall we say, speak or intone through her. Also, we are grateful to those of L/Leema who have allowed us to be first, for there is some urgency in this calling which, as we have said, is not of the group in this room but for another.

[Carla channels a healing melody from Nona.]

(Carla channeling)

I am L/Leema, and I greet you, my friends, in the Love and in the Light of the one infinite Creator. It is a great privilege to be called to your group, and we thank you for the opportunity of being of service to you, for it is your service to us to allow us this great privilege.

We shall speak tonight of the positive, the negative, and the neutral; of the proton, the electron, and the neutron; of serving, of receiving, and of being. Of the positive, and the negative, and the neutral we feel that we need only say that each will have his own idea and an approximately accurate one it is of the meaning of these words. In metaphysical terms, positive equals that which radiates or gives, emits or shares. In metaphysical terms, that which is negative is that which attracts or takes or enslaves.

When we come to speak of what this instrument thinks of as fundamental building blocks—that is, atoms of your physical illusion—we find this instrument ill-equipped with the vocabulary sufficient for an elegant exposition of the subject. Metaphysically speaking, however, we ask you to consider the great starry sea of space and star which you view now if your eyes are open and gazing skyward, for it is the nighttime upon this portion of your planet at this time. We do not wish to compare stars to that which is negative and positive, and yet we say to you that the one who looks into the heavens is gazing at a multiplicity of atoms in the larger sense. The model holds steady for the so-called atom and the difference between positive and negative will one day be found to be a part of your physics and is linked with what is now an incomplete and incorrect field, that being gravitation.

In this session L/Leema spoke of the positive, the negative, and the neutral energies, and they began by saying we shall speak tonight of the positive, the negative, and the neutral, of the proton, the electron, and the neutron; of serving and of being, so of the positive, and the negative, and the neutral we feel that we need only say that each will have their own idea of the meaning of these words, for in metaphysical terms, positive equals that which radiates or gives, and in metaphysical terms, that which is negative is that which takes or enslaves. Then L/Leema said when we come to speak of what Carla thinks of as atoms of your physical illusion we ask you to consider the metaphysical nature of the starry sea of space which you view now if your eyes are open and gazing skyward, for it is the nighttime upon this portion of your planet, but we do not wish to compare stars to that which is negative and positive, yet we say to you that the one who looks into the heavens is gazing at a multiplicity of atoms in the larger sense, so the model holds steady for the atom, and the difference between positive and negative will one day be found to be a part of your physics and is linked with what is now an incorrect field, that being gravitation. On July 2, 1974, Hatonn spoke of the positive and negative polarities can cause us to be vulnerable:

I wish to say to you tonight a word or two concerning your vulnerability. We know how easy it is to become used to anything and so cease feeling the miraculous side of it. It is possible to do that with both the positive and negative feelings. And because of the difficulty of life within the physical illusion, the ability to be invulnerable is highly prized upon your planet.

Let us look closer at some systems within galaxies. There in a sun system you may see several planets in an energy shell that binds them tightly to the star to whom they are attracted. We say to you that that which is termed the neutron, which seems to take up a great and vast majority of the actual matter or energy of an atom, is that which is lost in Love, or to put it more scientifically, it is that Thought or Logos which is uncreated, and thus is neither positive, nor negative, but remains at rest within the unmanifested mystery and personage, if you will, of the one infinite Creator. Now let us carry this analogy more firmly into metaphysics, for we may assure you that far more of your own life within this illusion and far more of your seeking within that life is likewise lost in the Creator, safe within the Kingdom of Heaven, if you will, than any can realize while bound within the illusion, which makes it seem as though there is an endless series of things which are good, and things which are bad. There may be things that do not matter, but it is seldom, my friends, that the value of the great majority of the self is ever seen, appreciated or used.

Now let us look at the energies about which we are speaking. Each of you is a spiritual atom. Life energy which is universal and nondirectional is drawn into the force field or energy field of the physical body, together with its mental, emotional, and spiritual complexes, through the soles of the feet and rises upward. That which is positive and radiant is that which is sought, that inspiration, that truth, that knowledge or awareness that the seeker’s heart yearns for and thirsts for and must have. The meeting place of that which some call prana, the life energy drawn up from the feet into the body and that Light which radiates and which is brought into the body complex through the higher chakras, is that point at which you as an entity will function and from which you as an entity will learn your lessons, each being a lesson of Love, yet each being completely unique as are you. However, let it be known upon a dark Earth that the vast majority of the essential you has not left the creation of the Creator, but dwells unmanifest and unpotentiated, full of energy, full of life, but without any need for outer expression, that need being a part of what it is to be in the illusion of positive and negative and lessons to be learned and journeys to be walked.

L/Leema went on to say let us look closer at some systems within galaxies, so in a sun system you may see several planets in an energy shell that binds them tightly to the star to whom they are attracted, and we say to you that which is termed the neutron, which seems to take up a majority of the energy of an atom, is that which is lost in the Love of the Logos which is uncreated, and it is neither positive or negative but remains at rest within the unmanifested mystery of the one infinite Creator, for now let us carry this analogy into metaphysics, for we may assure you that more of your life within this illusion, and more of your seeking within that life is lost in the Creator, safe within the Kingdom of Heaven than any can realize while bound within the illusion, which makes it seem as though there is an endless series of things which are good, and things which are bad, but there may be things that do not matter, but it is seldom that the value of the majority of the self is ever seen or used. Then L/Leema said let us look at the energies about which we are speaking, for each of you is a spiritual atom where life energy which is universal is drawn into the energy field of the physical body with its mental, emotional, and spiritual complexes, through the soles of the feet and rises upward, so that which is radiant is that which is sought which the seeker’s heart yearns for, and the meeting place of prana, the life energy drawn up from the feet into the body and that Light which radiates and which is brought into the body complex through the higher chakras, is that point at which you will function, and from which you will learn your lessons of Love, yet each being is as unique as are you, but let it be known upon a dark Earth that the majority of the essential you has not left the creation of the Creator, but dwells unpotentiated and full of life and without any need for outer expression, that need being a part of what it is to be in the illusion of positive and negative and lessons to be learned and journeys to be walked. On April 21, 1991, Q’uo spoke of the nature of prana:

The energy which is moving through the system of chakras is that which may be called intelligent energy, or the prana which gives life to all creation, and which may be opened in the ability to receive by any seeker as the seeker balances those distortions that exist within each center of energy, and in this balancing crystallizes or regularizes the centers of energy so that they may traduce the prana of the one Creator in a clear and lucid fashion, losing not one iota of energy to distortion, but allowing this energy to be stepped up in each center until it joins with the indwelling intelligent infinity that resides in each entity as the identity of the one Creator expressing itself as the small self.

How wonderful each of you is, my friends, how full you are of the Creator, how at one with the Creator you truly are, how joyful is the greater part of you. Yet it is a part that cannot speak to your conscious self; it is a part that cannot be taught; it is a part that is not of time and not of space. Within it lies your future, for from its infinite regions, you yourself will require some small portion for each lesson which you accept the responsibility of undertaking and if possible, completing. In other words, my friends, that which is neutral, that which is your neutron, that which is of the Logos within you, waits and waits without time. My friends, each of you has one or more things which are desired at this particular juncture, yet the time has not yet come for this lesson to be undertaken. We ask you, therefore, to take the lesson of the atom to heart. Sometimes it is time to wait, for that which is unmanifest cannot be pushed, or pulled, or bullied. The rhythm of the Creator is such that only in the Creator’s time, which is your inner time, shall your lesson emerge from timelessness and act out its drama upon your world’s stage, and then you shall learn and know, and you shall go on and again you will wait. But for each of you now, there is waiting to be done.

We suggest, therefore, that you wait happily, knowing that that which is necessary for you to do is single; that which you must do is ask; for is it not written in one of your holy works, “Ask and it shall be answered.” Therefore, we always and ever caution seekers to be careful of that which they ask, for in good time that which is asked will be received. Be sure that you are asking for that which you truly desire. We would say this in closing. Many are the notions that seekers have of the appropriate fruits of seeking. The products of seeking in many persons’ opinions are quite visible, often dramatic and most astonishing. Each seeker naturally wishes to be of service, to advance in seeking, to develop as a spiritual personality, and so forth. And yet we ask you to look at some of those whose lives have produced a content of speaking and action which people have followed for many of your years.

L/Leema continued by saying how wonderful each of you is, and how at one with the Creator you are, and how joyful is the greater part of you, yet it is a part that cannot speak to your conscious self, for it is a part that is not of time and space, so within it lies your future, for from its infinite regions you will require some small portion for each lesson which you accept the responsibility of undertaking and completing, for that which is your neutron, that which is of the Logos within you, waits without time, yet each of you has one or more things which are desired at this juncture, yet the time has not come for this lesson to be undertaken, so we ask you to take the lesson of the atom to heart because sometimes it is time to wait, for that which is unmanifest cannot be pushed since the rhythm of the Creator is such that only in the Creator’s time, which is your inner time, shall your lesson emerge from timelessness and act out its drama upon your world’s stage, and then you shall learn, and you shall go on and again you will wait. Now L/Leema said we suggest that you wait happily, knowing that which is necessary for you to do is to ask, for is it not written in one of your holy works, “Ask and it shall be answered,” for we always caution seekers to be careful of that which they ask, for in good time that which is asked will be received, but be sure that you are asking for that which you desire since many are the notions that seekers have of the appropriate fruits of seeking, for the products of seeking are astonishing, so each seeker wishes to be of service and to develop as a spiritual personality, yet we ask you to look at some of those whose lives have produced a content of speaking and action which people have followed for many years. On October 3, 2009, Q’uo spoke of the fruits of seeking:

When one has a profound realization such as you have had, my brother, there is the responsibility which is undertaken as a result of that burst of Light, that harvesting of the fruits of seeking. There is an automatic rhythm which comes upon the heels of such a marked experience of the Light. It is as if, in this refinery of souls that is the School of Life, you have learned a great deal. And that energy within which dances with your spiritual evolution shall, in the course of time, give you the equivalent of a short quiz. Catalyst shall come into your energy body that will have the tendency to close the heart, to constrict and narrow the path of energy through the energy body. It is as though the Creator, or those energies of spirit that are part of the Godhead principle, were offering you the opportunity to examine for yourself if you truly grasped the content of that realization of oneness. The function of this, as this instrument would say, “pop quiz,” is not to cause you distress, but to aid you in refining, burnishing, and honing your ability to maintain the eyes of Love which were the gift of the realization.

Let us look at Gautama Siddhartha. This entity was a king among people. It sought the truth, and it gave its fruits most productively when, after many adventures, it ferried people from one side of a river to another. We ask you to look at the entity known to you as Jesus of Nazareth. This entity did not even start incarnation as a king, but was without pretension from birth living as a carpenter and a carpenter’s son, walking about in the dust and heat of desert land, and dying along with two petty criminals. Where are the fruits of these lives which were so dramatic? Put yourself in either of their places and attempt to define just when it would be that you would know that your life had become spiritually productive. The secret that these two extremely compassionate and wise entities shared was the secret of waiting, of metaphysical neutrality, so that one met each circumstance with spiritual freshness, with a vivacious Love that pierced the seeming tension and dissolved positive and negative so that all was Light and Love.

Those lives which are dramatic are neither more nor less capable of being spiritually productive as those lives which seem to be prosaic and full of that which is daily and mundane. The eyes to see, the ears to hear and the hearts to understand lie in that part of yourself that has never left the Logos and that is waiting to be potentiated by your free will as co-Creator, for you are in God and the Creator is in you. We shall wait with you, my friends, in joy and without anticipation so that we may, as you, be surprised by the even greater joy of action within the love and the light of the One who is all. Never attempt to spin your electrons or to gather your protons so that you may gain more electrons—no, no, my friends—this is not the way to spiritual productivity, for that is not a shell, it is a situation which you shall inherit when the waiting is over for now. It is something you shall experience in the moment, and then you shall wait again in joy, in peace. Know yourselves as powerful beings. There is no circumstance which was not given you by your own self for a reason. Wait. And the time shall be ripe and the lesson learned.

Then L/Leema went on to say let us look at Gautama Siddhartha who was a king among people which sought the truth, and it gave its fruits productively when it ferried people from one side of a river to another, and we ask you to look at Jesus of Nazareth, but this entity did not start His incarnation as a king but was without pretension from birth living as a carpenter’s son, walking about in the dust and heat of desert land and dying along with two criminals, so put yourself in either of their places, and define when it would be that you would know that your life had become spiritually productive, for the secret that these two compassionate and wise entities shared was the secret of metaphysical neutrality, so that each one met each circumstance with a vivacious Love that pierced the tension and dissolved positive and negative so that all was Light and Love. L/Leema continued by saying those lives which are dramatic are neither more nor less capable of being spiritually productive as those lives which seem to be full of that which is mundane, so the eyes to see, the ears to hear, and the hearts to understand lie in that part of yourself that has never left the Logos and is waiting to be potentiated by your free will as co-Creator, for you are in God, and the Creator is in you, and we shall wait with you in joy and without anticipation, so that we may be surprised by the greater joy of action within the Love and the Light of the One who is all, but never attempt to spin your electrons or to gather your protons so that you may gain more electrons since this is not the way to spiritual productivity, for that is a situation which you shall inherit when the waiting is over, and it is something you shall experience in the moment, and then you shall wait again in joy and in peace knowing yourselves as powerful beings, for there is no circumstance which was not given you by your own self for a reason, so wait, and the time shall be ripe and the lesson learned. On March 28, 2009, Q’uo said that we are powerful beings:

We see each of you as powerful beings, sparks of the Godhead principle. Were you to do nothing but live your lives, reincarnate and live that life and reincarnate and live that life, and so forth, you would advance, for the pressure of evolution is inexorable. However, if you wish you are also quite capable of accelerating the pace of spiritual evolution for yourself, and we are most pleased to be able to expatiate upon this theme.

For there is virtue to the acceleration of the seeking process. The environment of third-density physical existence is in many ways a harsh environment, spiritually speaking, for it is heavily veiled. The overarching truths that “all is well” and that “all is Love” are not visible within the depths of third-density living. Indeed, it is as though you are in a dark environment, that “valley of the shadow of death,” as this instrument has been known to call it after the Psalmist.

We would transfer to another channel within this group at this time. We leave this instrument as a galaxy, within a galaxy, within a galaxy, and so on to infinity, for that which is true in the microscope is equal to that which is true in the telescope. That which is true in your smallest experience is that which is true in the deepest sense. Life has much of illusion to offer, and you wait in that blessed reality that is the Creator. We wait with you. We leave this instrument. We are those of L/Leema.

(L channeling)

I am known to you as L/Leema, and I greet you again, my friends, in the Love and the Light of the infinite Creator. We ask your indulgence at this time, for this is our first opportunity to speak to you through this instrument and desire a few moments that we might attune ourselves more efficiently to this instrument’s capacity to communicate our thoughts.

We desire, my friends, not to lecture nor to teach, but simply to share with those present those thoughts which your questions generate, that together your seeking and our own might lead us both to greater perception. My friends, it is the way of the wanderer to arrive without acclamation, for in silence is much work done. Therefore, my friends, those who would act in the role of catalyst both for their own growth and that of their brothers and sisters should consider that their own efforts may serve only to influence unduly those about them, should those efforts be directed toward the turning of a brother or sister to a specific path. To be truly of service, the seeker, the wanderer, does not seek to teach, to lead, or to guide, for to do so would be to exert an influence upon a brother or sister much as those forces described earlier as positive and negative in the physical realm would exert a force upon other minute particles of matter…

[Side one of tape ends.]

(L channeling)

To truly serve, my friends, is not to pull or to tug but simply to exist, to be that which is immune to the pulling and tugging, which of itself seeks not to influence but rather to simply show. It is only in this manner, my friends, that one might purely help a brother or sister, for one may only demonstrate attainment and the values of that attainment by example. We leave you now, my friends, in the Love and in the Light of that which you term the infinite Creator. We are known to you as L/Leema.

(L channeling)

I am Latwii, and I greet you, my brothers and sisters, in the Love and in the Light of the infinite Creator. My friends, it is a great pleasure to be here as we have been waiting quite impatiently for our opportunity to be with you again. It is always our pleasure to eavesdrop upon such erudite lectures as those provided by our brothers and sisters of L/Leema, yet we also have the desire to be of service and are quite pleased that it is now our opportunity to do so. At this time are there any questions we may in our humble efforts attempt to answer?

M: Yes, Latwii. We have spoken before. I’m the one from the planetary system Kreeton, approximately 246,000 light years away. My question is, does Kreeton have more than one moon, and does it have a sun like ours, and does it support a third experience like unto what we share on the Earth plane?

I am Latwii. I am aware of your questions. My brother, it is our desire to answer your questions, yet we feel that we would be somewhat remiss if we did not include within our answer the observation that few entities are capable of claiming only one previous address. However, we shall continue in our efforts to answer your question. My brother, there are two moons in the system which you describe and the solar disk to which you refer is quite similar in that most Logi seem to originate from the same source.

May we answer you further?

M: Yes. Does the planetary sphere, Kreeton, support a third-density experience that is like unto the one here on the Earth plane?

I am Latwii. My brother, the planetary system to which you refer has at a different point in time, as you would describe it, experienced a third-density collective existence. However, this particular entity, as you might describe it, is not currently at the previously mentioned address.

May we answer you further?

M: Yes. In comparison to Earth, how large is this planetary system Kreeton?

I am Latwii. My brother, we assume that you refer to a specific body as opposed to a solar system. The terminology “planetary system” we find somewhat confusing and would request that you clarify this as we are uncertain as to the correct answer to your question.

M: Yes. Assuming that Kreeton is a planet like Earth, would Kreeton be much, much larger than our planet Earth?

Latwii: My brother, the planet to which you refer is of approximately the same dimension. However, as you are aware, one might equally well say that the planets Earth and Jupiter are also of approximately the same dimension. We would, however, further interject that such conjecture, while stimulating to the mind, might be of lesser importance than the existence within which one is currently occupied.

Is there another question?

M: No, thank you.

Carla: Is Kreeton a member of the Confederation of Planets in the Service of the Infinite Creator?

Latwii: The former occupants of that planet are not yet of that status. It is currently supporting that which might be referred to as early second density in this point in time.

May we answer you further?

Carla: Is it possible that the term “Kreeton” refers not only to a planet but to an entire planetary system?

I am Latwii. That is correct, my sister.

Carla: Are there wanderers from one of the planets of Kreeton to this planet at this time?

I am Latwii. My sister, we feel it inappropriate to divulge such information for the reason that there are those known to individuals present who feel themselves of this particular status. Should this indeed be true, there are more appropriate manners in which this information might be attained for the individuals concerned.

May we answer you further?

Carla: No, I just suspected that in M’s eagerness to get at his home he was remembering a planet which he had helped at a previous time rather than the planet from which he came. I don’t need you to answer that—I was just figuring that since I knew another person who was a wanderer from Kreeton that there was probably another planet that was other than the one that was remembered by M. Thanks for your help.

I am Latwii. We thank you my sister. Is there another question?

M: Yes. In this planetary system, Kreeton, collectively, Latwii, can you tell me how many planets might be in total in the planetary system Kreeton?

I am Latwii. My brother, we would offer to you the number five.

Is there another question?

M: I felt Latwii, always, that I am a wanderer from the planetary system Kreeton. Is it possible to divulge the name of the planet that I may have visited at one time or helped?

I am Latwii. My brother, it is our desire to be of assistance at all times. However, we are sure that you understand that the information you seek is that which should be sought from within, for it is our desire to avoid interfering with an entity’s path.

May we answer you further?

M: Yes. Do the five planets in the planetary system Kreeton, do they support densities one through six? Or maybe just one planet out of the whole group? Or all of them?

I am Latwii. My brother, the potential exists for all planets to support all densities, for as you are no doubt aware, the abilities of the Creator to adapt to specific situations are quite admirable and the potential always exists for any location to be successfully utilized by any of the Logi. However, to attempt to answer more accurately your question, we would suggest that at this time there are two of the planets of this system currently occupied, and one of the two has recently been vacated, so to speak, by a third-density memory complex. As the conditions were suitable, the newly vacated planet was used for the continuation of the development of a second-density level of evolvement which had been initiated at an earlier point.

May we answer you further?

M: No, you have been most kind, Latwii. Thank you very, very much.

Latwii: We thank you, my brother. Is there another question?

Carla: Yes. In your pattern of answers to the questions from the member of Kreeton, I detect a gentle nudging of the mind of the questioner away from that line of questioning and onto another. And I would like to ask the kind of question which might be another kind of question which you might be able to work with better. And that is, what are the central things for a wanderer to seek, to work on, to hope for, to aim for, within this illusion on planet Earth at this time?

I am Latwii, and my sister, we are quite grateful for the opportunity to attempt to challenge our brothers and sisters of L/Leema for the award of erudition. We shall, however, attempt to show our stuff, so to speak, in a less wordy manner. We would offer for your evaluation, therefore, the suggestion first that the role of the wanderer within any existence be examined, for as in the catalyst to which our brothers and sisters of L/Leema referred, the wanderer is that which is injected into a previously developed level of existence so as to increase the intensity of energy without by doing so necessarily being affected by their own introduction into the situation.

One must be aware that the wanderer is in a sense both protected and numbed in a sense, for the wanderer must not be initially aware of the wanderer’s own origin and role. To do so would be to invalidate in advance the efforts to be made by that individual, much as introducing in one of your auto races a competitor who has three times circumscribed the racing field before those present have left the starting mark. In this manner, the wanderer is allowed to begin with the same level of confusion as those among whom he or she arrives, yet because of their previous attainment, finds it more in personal attunement to go within and to seek answers to questions not readily apparent to the society at large within which the wanderer has been injected.

We should point out at this time further that the role of the wanderer who desires to perform effectively is not that of a leader or of a savior but rather as one who single-mindedly follows a path of attainment, for to lead is to attempt to influence other selves. This from the superior vantage point of the wanderer is unacceptable and would cost in polarity, for it is what you would describe as a manipulative effort. It is further observed that the adage often quoted referring to hiding one’s Light within a basket is also applicable, for to be effective as a catalyst, the wanderer must further make themselves readily available that their brothers and sisters might see their Light and seek to attain it themselves. In this manner all become followers of that which truly leads rather than most becoming followers of one who is slightly in advance yet has to attain perfection, himself or herself.

May we answer you further, my sister?

Carla: No, thank you.

Latwii: Is there another question?

A: Can you just reiterate something on… So you’ve got this wanderer. What kind of seeking do they do and questions do they ask?

I am Latwii. I am aware of your question. My sister, the wanderer, if we correctly construe your question, might be described as “at a loss for worlds,” and spends an early portion or perhaps of the entirely of their life in a state of confusion or puzzlement, the role of that which on your world is referred to as the “stranger in a strange land.” The attainment of the wanderer’s bearings, so to speak, is arrived at with the realization that one has landed oneself within an unfamiliar situation, and that there is no Scotty to beam one back up. At this point, should the wanderer decide to advance along the path of positive polarity, then the wanderer would tend to seek personal development.

We are aware that this seems puzzling in that the similarity between personal development and service to self will be readily available to the questioning mind. However, personal development is a path which might be characterized as the desire to develop positive polarity in a cautious manner that one might avoid unduly influencing their brothers and sisters to the extent of becoming themselves acclaimed as a messiah and becoming the object of veneration rather than one who seeks to venerate. As you may have guessed, this is quite a row to hoe.

May we answer you further, my sister?

A: So are you saying, in other words, that first of all, they tend to develop themselves cautiously, and in order to do that go within themselves to develop themselves in order to serve others more effectively?

I am Latwii. We would offer one correction, my sister, in that we would suggest that should the wanderer successfully arrive at that point described as “getting one’s bearings,” a successful wanderer might choose the path which you described.

May we answer you further?

A: No, that’s fine. Yeah, I was assuming that they would go with service to others. Yeah, they could go with service to self.

I am Latwii. Is there another question?

Carla: Thanks for coming by.

We thank you, my sister. As there are apparently no further questions, we shall offer again our gratitude for the opportunity to join with you and to learn from you. And in the Love and the Light of the infinite Creator we shall bid you adieu. We are known to you as Latwii.

This morning the quote from The Thunder of Silence is: “Everything that we see, hear, taste, touch, or smell exits as an effect, but the moment that we perceive that there is neither good nor evil in effect, we lose our fear of any and every effect. We cannot fear something that has no more power for good or for evil than has a glass of pure water.  We not only cannot fear a glass of pure water, we cannot even love it. We can enjoy and benefit from it, but there is nobody yet who has ever fallen in love with a glass of water, or hated it, or feared it. We just take it as it is, for what it is, a glass of water.

The Master had that same attitude toward leprosy: He did not hate it; and He did not fear it; and He certainly did not love it. He went up and touched it, showing by that action that He had risen above the belief of good and evil. For Him it had no power.

It is possible for us to rise above the law of cause and effect, but only when the world’s weapons have been given up, and when our life is lived not by bread alone but by every word that proceeds out of the mouth of God. When we are not thinking of food, or money, or climate, or any effect as constituting our security, and when we realize that our real life is sustained by the word of God, we are living the spiritual life with no dependence on human beings, on human investments, or human positions, not throwing them away or casting them out of our life, but realizing that they are the added things in life, part of God’s grace made manifest, and, therefore, there is no thought whatsoever of fear should they be taken from us.

If our dependence is on the material way of life, then when those reliances are swept away, we are, indeed, lost. No one is ever lost, however, who practices the spiritual way of life, who no longer takes up the sword of a lawsuit or a bombproof shelter, who no longer relies on force, not even on forceful arguments, but, rather, rests quietly at the center of their being and lets the Infinite Invisible be their defense and their offense if necessary. This Infinite Invisible will never destroy any person, but it will destroy evil influences or thoughts, beliefs, or acts that may try to manifest through the person.

Individually, we develop the state of consciousness that lives without using power and which finally brings our particular world into the orbit of no power by understanding that nothing that exists as person, place, thing, circumstance, or condition is imbued with the power for good or for evil. There is no power for good or for evil, because there is no power. Nothing is power, and nobody is power: God alone is a creative, maintaining, and sustaining power which operates without any help from us. God alone is power, and we are the instruments through which, and as which, It flows, but God alone is, and always remains, the only power.

Later this morning I went on an errand run with my first stop being at Feeder’s Supply where I bought some bird seed. My second stop was at Kroeger’s where I bought some Quiche. My third stop was at Concepts Cleaning where I got my vacuum cleaner repaired. My fourth stop was at Speedway Gas Station where I put 32 psi compressed air in each of Stanley’s tires. My last stop was at Walgreen’s Drug Store where I picked up a prescription.

I was planning to drive to our Homecoming Gathering this afternoon, but about 1 pm I couldn’t find Mystical Joy anywhere in my home after looking for her for half an hour upstairs, on the first floor, and in the basement. Then I went outside and looked all around my yard for her, but I didn’t find her. So, a friend of mine used a picture of her that he put on my computer, and he added MISSING CAT above the picture and my name, phone number and the amount of the reward for her return below the picture. Then I printed out 40 copies of the picture and nailed the picture to telephone poles and trees two blocks in all directions from my home. After looking for her around my yard one last time, I decided that I would put some of her food in a Hav-A-Hart trap on the back deck. As I was climbing the steps to the back deck, I saw Mystical Joy looking out of the screen door, and I couldn’t believe my eyes! She had been in my home all this time, but I have no idea where she was or why she didn’t respond to me when I was calling her name. I can only guess that she was sleeping somewhere that I never discovered. I am really sorry that I missed the opening night of our Homecoming Gathering for the first time ever, but I look forward to being there tomorrow and spending time with as many attendees as possible.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

May 14

What Shall The Day Bring?

I come in the name of Jesus the Christ and greet you in the full consciousness of Love.

What shall the day bring? This question lies upon the fearful brow of one who hesitates in the morning to gaze steadily at the day’s offerings.

We encourage each instead to rejoice in what the day brings, whatever it may be. The enjoyment of it is the perfect gift of perfect Love. Seize it. Relish it. And, in the best way given, deal with it appropriately.

But know, too, that this, indeed this very moment, is the moment which is given for peace, joy, rejoicing, and happiness; this moment and no other. Feel the fullness of the Spirit of the living Christ within and open to the splendor of the morning.

We leave you in the bracing wind of Spirit and the perfect peace of acceptance, now and always.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of Love and open our hearts minds, and souls to send Love, Light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite Love, Light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our Love, Light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Hatonn and Latwii channelings for this session come from February 16, 1986:

(S channeling)

I am Hatonn. I greet you, my friends, in the Love and Light of the one infinite Creator. We ask your indulgence, our brothers and sisters, for it has been some time that this instrument has channeled our words, and we are grateful that she has been so cautious, for as each of you know, there are those times when the duplicity of vibrations has been mistaken. We are very grateful, and it is with much joy we join you this evening, for the Love and the Light which glows around you is as great a thing for us to behold as it is for each of you to feel.

Many things, my friends, have been happening upon your planet’s surface, much growth of the Light and its balance, for in all things, my friends, as each of you perhaps have heard many times in the past, there is a balance and there must be that balance. And it is in this that many of your questions may be answered, for the times when doubts arise remember that for all of the darkness that seems to be happening within your illusion, there is that much Light as well, and it is within that Light that each, if it be their choice, will dwell. For we have found, my friends, by our choice that in that Light will each find much joy and peace, for in the path of service to others there is joy.

We would now transfer this contact, as this instrument is experiencing some difficulty in maintaining our contact. I am Hatonn.

(Jim channeling)

I am Hatonn, and we greet you again in Love and Light. We would like to thank the one known as S for offering herself as an instrument for our words. We are overjoyed that we have been able to make contact with an old friend. We rejoice at each opportunity to utilize one who wishes to serve as an instrument in the vocal channeling.

We would remind you, my friends, that each of you is an instrument, each of you serves the one Creator in a manner which is very like unto the phenomenon of vocal channeling as you call it, for each of you with your own unique abilities, interests and desires takes that gift of Love which is yours each day and makes of it an offering that seems upon its surface to be merely another daily round of activities. Yet from the deeps of your own being and from reaches and resources far beyond that which you call your own identity, do you draw the inspiration and motivation to take that enabling force that you call Love and form it into each thought that you think, each action that you complete and each word that you speak. Thus do you, each of you, all of you, articulate that great unspoken thought that dwells ever present and ready to serve as the base upon which you stand, the palette from which you draw your colors, the canvas upon which you place them and the appreciation within each heart and eye that looks upon your creation. And thus, do you provide glorification of the One which dwells in all.

The particular type of channeling that you experience this evening as you gather together in your seeking is but one small form of articulation of the one original Thought that is Love. We are privileged to partake in this offering with you, for in this participation do we also discover more about the one Creator and the means by which it may be manifested within your illusion. We spoke of doubt at the beginning of this contact, and we would choose at this time to expand somewhat upon this concept, for if what we have just spoken has truth within it, then it must be asked by any seeker of that truth what part doubt plays and why it seems many times that doubt plays such a large part within the process of seeking and experiencing that each of you and your fellow beings experiences in your daily life.

Within the cultures of your people at the current level of development of technology, it would seem that much of doubt would have been erased from the daily life and experience of your people. For do you not have shelters to protect you from the elements? Are not the great majority of your people clothed and fed at least to a minimal degree? Do you not have relationships and means of communication with each other? Do you not have pursuits of work and leisure with which to focus your attention? Are there not within your culture areas in which each may find the potential of reward and satisfaction? Are there not many who speak of the one Creator and who provide paths by which a seeker may find that one Creator? Yes, my friends, you and your people have all these things and more in great abundance, and yet we would suggest that perhaps it is this very abundance of things, of ideas, of entities, of groups, of possibilities, and opportunities that itself seems to provide the basis for much confusion and doubt. For with such great variety available in these areas of seeking of the mind, of the body, and of the spirit, how then does one decide in each particular instance what shall be the choice that is most appropriate for one at any time?

In this session Hatonn spoke of the concepts of confusion and Love. They began by saying the type of channeling that you experience this evening is one form of description of the one original Thought that is Love, so we are privileged to partake in this offering with you, for in this participation we also discover more about the one Creator and the means by which It may be manifested within your illusion, for we spoke of doubt at the beginning of this contact, and we would choose at this time to expand somewhat upon this concept, for if what we have just spoken has truth within it, then it must be asked by any seeker of that truth what part doubt plays, and why it seems that doubt plays such a large part within the process of seeking and experiencing that each of you experiences in your daily life. Hatonn went on to say in your daily round of activities you find the difficulty due to misunderstanding with one of your fellow beings, for there is the intention of each entity to give of the self in a manner which is unique to the self, but the gift finds little acceptance though the intention is relatively pure, yet there is silence, the heart being wounded; the mind being confused; the tongue then holds its peace, and: “The entity goes its way wondering to itself where was the missed step? How was it that one with the intentions one knows one had could give so freely and yet seemingly be so mistaken and misunderstood?” Then Hatonn said this is not an unusual occurrence, for each of you has had similar experiences far more times than perhaps one cares to remember, and: “It returns again and again to the mind and to the heart, the wondering how can intentions be purely translated and communication made clear with those with whom one has contact on a daily basis? How can the relationships be smoothed and harmony be found and maintained? How can doubts be overcome, and how can the next step be placed with surety on the path of seeking and sharing relationships each with the other?” On January 30, 1983, Latwii spoke of the value of doubt:

We would simply comment at this time in response to both queries that it is often the plight and pleasure of the seeker to find the opportunities for increasing service and oneness to be presented in situations which provide the trauma, the doubt, the confusion, and the difficulty in perceiving clearly. This is the nature of any exploration into that which may be called the unknown. Rejoice, my friends, in your doubt, in your confusion, in your frustrations, and in your anger. For they are signposts which alert you to the fact that your seeking is increasing, and the opportunities for knowing the Love and Light of the one Creator are also increased.

In your daily round of activities, from time to time you find the difficulty perhaps due to misunderstanding with one of your fellow beings. There is perhaps the intention of each entity to give of the self in a manner which is unique to the self. The gift perhaps finds little acceptance though the intention be relatively pure. Yet there is the disharmony, the accusation, the harsh and disharmonious words. Then, perhaps, there is silence, the heart being wounded, the mind being confused, the tongue then holds its peace. And the entity goes its way wondering to itself where was the missed step? How was it that one with the intentions one knows one had could give so freely and yet seemingly be so mistaken and misunderstood? Yes, my friends, this is not an unusual occurrence; each of you has had similar experiences far more times than perhaps one cares to remember. And it returns again and again to the mind and to the heart, the wondering how can intentions be purely translated and communication made clear with those with whom one has contact on a daily basis? How can the relationships be smoothed and harmony be found and maintained? How can doubts be overcome, and how can the next step be placed with surety on the path of seeking and sharing relationships each with the other?

We suggest to you, my friends, that it might be helpful if one can perhaps, only briefly at first, adopt a somewhat different attitude as one looks at the, shall we call it, metaphysical import or nature of one’s daily life. When you experience the disharmonious relationship, the angry word, the cold and shriveled silence, what you have is not so much the missed opportunity as a renewed opportunity for that which seems lost. Within your illusion it is not apparent in even the least degree that each is the Creator and that Love binds all as one. Yet if you can within the heart of your being draw upon that realization and look upon each situation in which you find yourself with that point of view or attitude, you will see unfolding before you the limitless opportunities to discover Love, harmony, peace, and joy where there seems to be none or very little of these ideals which each shares.

Then Hatonn said in your daily round of activities you find the difficulty due to misunderstanding with one of your fellow beings, so there is the intention of each entity to give of the self in a manner which is unique to the self, and the gift finds little acceptance though the intention be pure, yet there are the disharmonious words, and there is silence, the heart being wounded, and the tongue then holds its peace, so the entity goes its way wondering to itself: “Where was the missed step? How was it that one with the intentions one knows one had could give so freely and yet seemingly be so mistaken and misunderstood?” So Hatonn said this is not an unusual occurrence, for each of you has had similar experiences more times than one cares to remember, and it returns again to the mind and to the heart, the wondering: “How can intentions be purely translated and communication made clear with those with whom one has contact on a daily basis? How can the relationships be smoothed and harmony be found and maintained? How can doubts be overcome, and how can the next step be placed with surety on the path of seeking and sharing relationships each with the other?” Hatonn continued by saying it might be helpful if one can adopt a different attitude as one looks at the metaphysical nature of one’s daily life, for when you experience the disharmonious relationship, what you have is a renewed opportunity for that which seems lost, yet within your illusion it is not apparent that each is the Creator, and that Love binds all as one, but if you can within the heart of your being draw upon that realization and look upon each situation in which you find yourself with that point of view, you will see unfolding before you the limitless opportunities to discover Love, harmony, peace, and joy where there seems to be none of these ideals which each shares. On January 4, 1981, Laitos said that each of us is the Creator:

This journey is a path of learning. Much may be learned in many fields. Much may be experienced at many times. The possibilities are infinite. Our purpose at this time is to offer the understanding that is the foundation of all learning, the learning eventually by each within creation that each is the Creator, that each has within the divine spark of the One who made us all. We seek to share our simple understanding of this basic fact with those of your people who wish to learn more of the secrets of their own existence.       

For when you have experienced the smoothly functioning relationship and the either spoken or unspoken joy of sharing time, words, and experience, you are living upon the fruit of a harvest that has been completed, and you now, as you view that which is disharmonious, may take what has been completed and move into a new experience, another opportunity to plant a seed of Love, to nurture it with will and faith, with perseverance, with the kind gesture, the loving word, the respectful attitude, and watch that seed take root. It may be a great portion of what you call time before the seed sends a shoot into the Light of your daily experience, and an even greater portion of what you call time before that plant of Love bears fruit. Yet is this not what each of you have come to do in some fashion within the incarnation that you now know?

That you have Love and harmony a portion of the time with those about you can become an inspiration that motivates you, shall we say, to plant those seeds in areas that seem to have the most barren of ground, for it is within such seemingly barren soil that the greatest of opportunities may be found. If you look upon the purpose of your incarnational patterns as not so much for experiencing Love as for you to discover and nurture Love where it has not been, then we suggest that you may find that the daily round of activities becomes far more acceptable within your sight, for if one becomes involved enough in the mundane nature of the world about one, it is far too easy to forget that the world about one is more the training ground than the, shall we say, finishing school, for there is the need and the opportunity to work the mind and the heart in the barren fields of your environment that these fields might become as the oasis and produce the life-nourishing waters of Love that may then be offered freely to all about one.

Hatonn went on to say when you have experienced the smoothly functioning relationship and either spoken or unspoken joy of sharing time and experience, you are living upon the fruit of a harvest that has been completed, and as you view that which is disharmonious, may take what has been completed and move into another opportunity to plant a seed of Love, to nurture it with will and faith and watch that seed take root, but it may be a great portion time before the seed sends a shoot into the Light of your daily experience, and an even greater portion of time before that plant of Love bears fruit, yet is this not what each of you have come to do in some fashion within the incarnation that you now know? Hatonn went on to say that you have Love and harmony for a portion of the time with those about you, and this can become an inspiration that motivates you to plant those seeds in areas that seem to have the most barren of ground, for it is within such barren soil that the opportunities may be found, so if you look upon the purpose of your incarnational patterns as not so much for experiencing Love as for you to discover and nurture Love where it has not been, then we suggest that you may find that the daily round of activities becomes acceptable within your sight, for if one becomes involved enough in the mundane nature of the world about one, it is too easy to forget that the world about one is more the training ground than the finishing school, for there is the need to work the mind and the heart in the barren fields of your environment that these fields might become as the oasis and produce the life-nourishing waters of Love that may then be offered freely to all about one. On July 5, 1981, Hatonn spoke of the waters of Love within us:

The rains come and moisten the surfaces of your thoughts, and yet, my friends, as inspiration falls to you from the Creator it does much more than simply moisten your daily thoughts and emotions. It goes deep within the surface of your mind and your heart. This rain, which you may call grace or Love, feeds the deepest rivers which flow at the very heart of the being. These rivers are never dry, no matter what the outer surface of your reality may seem at any time. These rivers of your deepest heart and your deepest mind are always enriched and forever full of the waters of Love, and in each meditation you may come to these waters and be bathed and cleansed in their sweetness.

Where you find yourself in your daily round of activities is where you have planted yourself, shall we say, in order that you might tend the field in the most loving fashion that you may. It is not so much the ability you may have to change those about you that is important as it is the ability that you have to look upon those about you in a new way, in a way which gives acceptance and Love as freely as each of you is given the air you breathe, the ground that you walk upon, and the experience that comes before you each day that you draw the free air into your lungs, and each day that you find yourself once more moving in a world of seeming confusion, of endless choices and of seemingly multiple confusions and opportunities for misunderstanding. To be able to move one’s own point of viewing from the mundane to the sacred, shall we say, is but a small step within one’s own mental viewpoint, but one which can produce great changes in one’s experience.

These changes, my friends, are those which grow from within your being and are nurtured by that quality that we have called Love, the topic, the only topic, of all our humble words to you over the many years that we have been privileged to speak with you and through you. It may seem far too simplistic an attitude with which to move through your daily round of activities, yet we would remind you, my friends, that the one Creator is simplicity itself. Within your illusion much seems complex. It is as though the one Creator has played hide and seek with Itself and with Love. And yet as each of you are a portion of that one Creator, and as all creation is that same Creator, there is no place beyond your reach where Love may be hidden that you may not find it. Persevere, my friends, and yet persevere with a light heart, knowing that all is truly well, that all things move in Love, that you are an infinitely valuable portion of that Love and of that one Creator, and that you cannot err in your seeking of Love. You may discover many and variant ways to seek, to find, and to experience, and yet you shall make no mistakes, for all efforts are born of Love, move within love, and in some fashion produce Love.

Now Hatonn said where you find yourself in your daily round of activities is where you have planted yourself in order that you might tend the field in the most loving fashion, but it is not so much the ability you may have to change those about you that is important as it is the ability that you have to look upon those about you in a way which gives acceptance and Love as freely as each of you is given the experience that comes before you each day, and you find yourself moving in a world of confusion, so to be able to move one’s own point of view from the mundane to the sacred is a small step within your mental viewpoint, but one which can produce great changes in one’s experience. Hatonn continued by saying these changes are those which grow from within your being and are nurtured by that quality of Love, the only topic of all our humble words to you over the many years that we have been privileged to speak with you, but it may seem too simplistic an attitude with which to move through your daily round of activities, yet we would remind you that the one Creator is simplicity itself, for within your illusion much seems complex, and it is as though the one Creator has played hide and seek with Itself and with Love, yet as each of you is a portion of the one Creator, and as all creation is that same Creator, there is no place beyond your reach where Love may be hidden that you may not find it, so persevere with a light heart, knowing that all is well, that all things move in Love, that you are an infinitely valuable portion of the one Creator, and that you cannot err in your seeking of Love, and you may discover many ways to seek and to experience, yet you shall make no mistakes, for all efforts produce Love. On July 5, 1986, Q’uo spoke of why we must persevere:

Thus, the lessons of Love and acceptance make themselves known within the relationship born of infatuation and with the faith that the relationship will endure and that meaning may be found for both within it and the will to persevere in finding that meaning and growth. Thus, does each entity grow in acceptance and in Love, and thus does the relationship do likewise, and thus is Love strengthened by testing through catalyst that each brings to the relationship. Thus, the Love which results is a Love which has greater strength and depth and variety of experience, shall we say.

We thank each of you for allowing us to speak our simple and humble words, and we shall be with each upon request in your meditations in order that you might experience a deeper vibration of that Love of which we have spoken. We shall pause for a moment before leaving this group and move among each that you might experience our vibration. If that is your desire, mentally request that this be so, and we shall be honored to be with each. We pause for a moment.

[Pause]

I am Hatonn. It has been our privilege to be with each of you. We leave you now in the Love and in the Light of the One who is All. We are those of Hatonn. Adonai, my friends. Adonai vasu borragus.

(Jim channeling)

I am Latwii, and we are also most happy to join you this evening, my friends. We have not had the opportunity to greet this group in Love and Light for some time, and we take great joy in doing so at this time. We hope that you will be somewhat patient with us as we have been attempting for a portion of your time to work with this instrument in a slightly variant fashion. We are attempting to utilize the word-by-word type of channeling with this instrument in hopes that we might allow it to be somewhat more flexible in its perceiving of our contact. We shall attempt those queries which those present may have brought this evening, and we would now ask if we might begin with the first query?

S: I have a question, Latwii. I’m sure that some of those present in this room this evening have dealt with this question before, but I would like, if you don’t mind, some information on the subject of what, if any, in your opinion, is the value and/or effects of using what could be termed as a crystal generator to heighten the transmission, perhaps, of this type of contact?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my sister. We feel that we may be of the greatest aid by suggesting that the intention that motivates the use of any gadget of this variety is that which is the foundation principle that will determine the value of such use. There have been many gadgets, shall we say, which have been utilized throughout the history of your cultures upon this planetary influence that have had the purpose of enhancing the abilities of the initiate or the one who wishes to serve as an instrument in the service of others. The desire to serve in as pure a fashion as possible is that factor which determines whether a device such as the one of which you speak will be of any true assistance or not to any individual or group. There is with the use of such a device a potential temptation to see such devices as necessary for such a service to take place. There is also the temptation to utilize such devices for purposes of one’s own gratification, shall we say, for it is true that such devices can be helpful and are, indeed, powerful when utilized with a strong enough intention. The polarization of the intention, therefore, is that which must be carefully achieved.

May we answer further, my sister?

S: Yes, please Latwii. Would you suggest a diagram of an apparatus such as this to be used? And you don’t have to do it right now, it’s basically a yes or no question.

I am Latwii, and we find that even if we were willing to produce such a drawing, we would be greatly hampered in doing so by the limitations of this instrument’s mental configuration, for not only is this instrument quite untutored in this area, but this particular instrument has some degree of resistance, shall we say, to the use of such devices, and we would be hampered by this mental configuration. We remind you, my sister, that the use of such devices is much as the use of a crutch in some instances for those who have abilities that would remain untapped if there were such a device handy to rely upon.

May we answer further, my sister?

S: If I might ask one more question. I attended a meditation Thursday night. Latwii, I’m going to ask this because I need some outside affirmation, so to speak. Were the members of the Confederation actually present and in attunement with those that were present at that meditation Thursday night?

I am Latwii, and, my sister, it is our desire to be of the greatest service possible in this regard, but we find that the query moves within an area which is sacred unto your own seeking. It is therefore with some regret that we must refrain from giving any definitive response, for the decision as to the nature of the experience of…

[Side one of tape ends.]

(Jim channeling)

I am Latwii and am once again with this instrument. To complete our response, my sister. This decision must be one which is achieved by your own efforts, for it is just this kind of decision that allows one to exercise one’s own spiritual muscle, shall we say, and grow stronger in discrimination. If we were to give a definitive response, we would be removing from you the opportunity to accomplish that which you have set before yourself, and we would, in our humble opinion, not be serving as well as we can serve by refraining from a definite response.

May we answer in any other fashion, my sister?

S: No, Latwii. By your answer you have answered, and I thank you very much.

I am Latwii, and we thank you very much as well, my sister, for allowing us to speak. May we attempt another query?

J: Yeah. What was the cause of the disappearance of the colony of Roanoke?

I am Latwii. We shall attempt to respond, though we are not certain that this instrument is capable of transmitting that which we shall give. We shall pause for a moment to deepen this instrument’s state.

[Pause]

I am Latwii. We find that the entities of which you speak were those who had for many incarnations moved as a group in the service of the one Creator as those who partook in a, what you may call, tradition or mystery school which had the purpose of serving in the capacity of generating certain potentials in the consciousness of what you may call the racial mind of those about them. This was not completely a conscious function and moved within the subconscious realms of these entities in order that the work to which each was apprenticed might be accomplished in what you may call more of a mundane fashion than is normally ascribed to those operating within such a mystery school or tradition.

Thus, the approximate cause of the disappearance of these entities was their seeming capture by groups of other entities known to your peoples as various tribes of the American or Native American Indians who were themselves agents of this same tradition and who, by the seeming capture and removal to other locations of this colony were playing their roles in the mutually agreed-upon purpose that was the motivating factor for the incarnations of all those involved.

May we answer further, my sister?

J: Are you saying that they willingly disappeared? That they willingly moved to another location?

I am Latwii, and this is basically correct, my sister, although the willing choice was more pre-incarnative and subconscious than conscious. Yet as these entities adjusted to their new surroundings, the memory of this choice became more clearly defined within the conscious minds of each.

May we answer further, my sister?

J: May I ask where they went?

I am Latwii. We present to this instrument the picture of the area of your continent known as the southern portion of the Canadian provinces bordering the Great Lakes area as the final destination of these entities as they were moved by various tribes to a succession of locations, eventually ending in the southern province of the Great Lakes region in your Canadian area. This instrument is unable to transmit the precise location.

May we answer further, my sister?

J: No, thank you very much.

I am Latwii, and we thank you very much. Is there another query?

[Pause]

I am Latwii. We find that we have exhausted the queries for the evening, and we have been most grateful to be able to speak those words which were ours to speak. We hope that you will remember that we are but your brothers and sisters upon the same journey which you find yourselves and are most fallible as well. Take that which has value in your own seeking and leave that which we have spoken which does not ring true. We thank you for allowing us to join you this evening. We shall look forward with great glee and joy to our future experiences with this group. We are always happy to be called to your midst and rejoice with you in your songs, in your words, and in the Love which each brings to the other. We are those of Latwii. Adonai, my friends. Adonai vasu borragus.

This morning the quote from The Thunder of Silence is: “The Master reveals the basic karmic law of as ye sow, so shall ye reap, but He also makes plain the one sure and certain way to rise above the law of cause and effect, and that is not to set in motion a cause, to do nothing, think nothing and be nothing of ourselves. For example, if we pray with some object or purpose in mind, we are likely to produce an effect in accordance with the cause which we set up. But if we were to pray without an object, solely for the realization of God, then we would not have set up a cause, and there could be no effect. There would only be God Itself appearing as the harmony of our existence.

So it is that if we do not take up the weapons of defense on our behalf, we cannot be injured by those weapons. If we do not mete out justice according to human standards, then human justice cannot come back at us. Whatever it is that we bind, that is what is bound to us; whatever we loose, that is what is loosed. We are the ones who determine that, and when we relinquish the thoughts and things of this world and live in a continuous aside, then when God is realized, God appears in our experience as a perfected life.”

This afternoon I was once again honored to co-host the European Law of One Telegram Group. Today I read Ra Session #73, and then some of the questions that were asked were: “Could you give an example of a mental energy transfer?” “What purpose is there in experiencing a mental energy transfer?” “What are the uses of a sexual energy transfer?” “Do you know of any examples of enlightened beings such as Jesus in the world today?” “What was Carla’s diet like during the Ra Contact?” “What was Carla’s diet like after the Ra Contact?” and “How did Don teach me during the Ra contact?” Everyone hoped that our Homecoming Gathering would go well again, starting tomorrow through Sunday.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

May 13

All Are Loved

I am of the principle of the divine consciousness of Love, and I greet you in that Love.

We find, as we often find in using this instrument, that the instrument so despairs of its own worth in the spiritual sense as a fit conduit for the Holy Spirit of the Lord Jesus Christ that it is almost impossible for an open channel to be held in a stable manner.

It is unfortunate that the perception of so many pilgrims is that in some way they must earn by worth or works the right to spiritual experiences. Indeed, it is just in the opposite way that the Spirit may work. For if an entity is concerned at all with self the concern aids in blocking the free flow of the Spirit.

Once the desire for surrender to the Spirit is clear within a pilgrim there is far less resistance to the flow of energy which is the hallmark of the Spirit. And so, we suggest to this and all pilgrims who are concerned that they are not worthy of spiritual gifts that no one is worthy or unworthy. All are Loved.

We leave you in the peace of Love, which demands and expects nothing but the beautiful essence of each and every spirit, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of Love and open our hearts minds, and souls to send Love, Light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite Love, Light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our Love, Light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Monka channeling comes from February 2, 1986:

(Carla channeling)

I am Monka. We greet you in the Love and in the Light of the one infinite Creator. It is long since we have been called to your group, and we are full of gratitude that we are able to speak and share our being and our thoughts with you as brother to brother and sister to sister. We are one being and therefore words are clumsy, yet we shall use them as best we can. May we say that we appreciate this instrument’s challenging of us. This instrument doubted that we were indeed Monka, for this instrument has heard tapes in which the contact was quite garbled. However, after three challengings, the circle of trust was completed between we who speak and she through whom we speak. The fastidiousness of this challenging tunes the contact more finely and clarity of channeling is far more possible.

It is our specialty within the Confederation to share our humble opinions upon the subject of those issues concerned with community and social responsibilities. Our planetary population had in your density and in the fourth density a very strong desire for harmony and thusly we became what has been called a social memory complex in late third density, which is the density and the period within that density which you now share. There are many questions upon your mind at this time about not just the correct way to live, for this in itself has almost no meaning, as correctness is different for each individual, but rather the most spiritually propitious way to join in community and to relate to each other within a society. We can give you some guidelines, however we ask, as do all members of the Confederation, that you remember that we are fallible, that this contact is fallible, and that it is your responsibility to use the intellect and the power of discrimination, the gifts of an infinitely kind Creator, to distinguish that which you need from that which you do not need. Anything which you hear from any source whatsoever which is not helpful to you should be laid aside; perhaps you shall come back to it in the future, and it shall make sense. Perhaps it is simply erroneous. In any event, there is a rhythm within each life, and within those tides of being information will come in a regularized manner. Trust the rhythms of information and of your own discernment.

The question of community is an extension of this suggestion. It is of primary importance that the deeper rhythms be acknowledged within those who have found companionship with each other. It is not chance or accident when two people meet and recognize each other. When this occurs, it is not to be doubted. It is also not to be abused. Thus, the first hallmark of successful sharing of experience in community is that each, while acknowledging the deep currents which brought each together with each, shall also be aware of—even militantly aware of—the individual currents and rhythms which may express themselves as crosscurrents within a community or even as contrary tides at times. Freedom is the hallmark of successful community—freedom to be yourself, freedom of each to be yourself and freedom to experiment, to make mistakes, to be at risk and to grow.

Upon other occasions, through other channels, we have spoken of that life which we enjoyed in fourth density. There was a need at the time at which we spoke for people to consider specific topics such as education, the use of money, and so forth. We do not find such concerns within this group’s seeking for a sense of true community, and for this we are grateful, for topics such as we have just mentioned are the outward and visible signs of an inward and spiritual gift. It is the inward and spiritual gift that concerns each: how does one give of oneself freely and in joy, without diminishing the self and without diminishing those other selves over whom we may have undue influence? That is a great concern, and it is for this reason that we counsel the exaggerated respect for each freedom in spiritual seeking. May we say that which is obvious so that it shall not be left out when one is working with a group of people. It goes almost without saying that each shall attempt to be honest, forthright and of service to others. Since we understand that each of you has accepted this, we do no more than mention it.

The topic which Monka spoke about in this session was the purpose of community. They began by saying the question of community is an extension of this suggestion, and it is of importance that the deeper rhythms be acknowledged within those who have found companionship with each other, but it is not by chance when two people meet and recognize each other, for when this occurs, it is not to be doubted or abused, so the first hallmark of successful sharing of experience in community is that each, while acknowledging the deep currents which brought each together with each, shall also be aware of the individual rhythms which may express themselves as crosscurrents within a community, for freedom is the hallmark of successful community: freedom of each to be yourself and freedom to make mistakes, and to grow. Then Monka said through other channels we have spoken of that life which we enjoyed in fourth density, so there was a need at the time at which we spoke for people to consider specific topics such as education and the use of money, but we do not find such concerns within this group’s seeking for a sense of true community, and for this we are grateful, for topics such as we have mentioned are the visible signs of a spiritual gift, and it is the spiritual gift that concerns each, so: “How does one give of oneself freely and in joy, without diminishing the self and without diminishing those other selves over whom we may have undue influence?” Then Monka said that is a great concern, and it is for this reason that we counsel the respect for each freedom in spiritual seeking, yet we say that which is obvious, so that it shall not be left out when one is working with a group of people, and it goes without saying that each shall attempt to be honest and of service to others, so since we understand that each of you has accepted this, we do no more than mention it. On May 5, 2002, Q’uo spoke of the nature of spiritual seeking:

We affirm each entity’s choices and can suggest again that the path which you follow in your spiritual seeking must needs be that which speaks to your heart rather than that which another suggests, whether that other be revered, and honored, and seeming to be possessed of greater knowledge or to be an ordinary entity upon your street. For there are as many paths to the one Creator as there are entities who seek that One within all and within the self. Follow, then, that which is in your heart. Follow that which speaks to your heart and be always willing to increase the intensity of your seeking, the intensity of your desire, and the meditation that we always recommend for every path, for every seeker, for meditation is the surest means that we know for any seeker in third density to approach the infinite Creator.

We would ask you to consider, then, the deeper reasons for community. Events cause a message to be given both metaphysically and physically. The coming together of entities in order to form spiritual community is an event, and the manifestation that it shall have is caught up in the event itself. The event causes a message; the message is heard by those whom you do not know and can never know, and this message in turn allows transformation among others. Thus, we suggest to you that before joining together in community the overriding goals be grasped in a unified manner so that each, while unique, shares the goal with each other in the community.

Our second observation is this. Great ideas without the addition of perseverance, the sense of humor, the light touch, shall cause each self to draw upon the human, if we may use that term, resources. Even the use of words causes variation betwixt people so that understanding cannot be shared fully. If each brings a Light and forms a community of Lights, those Lights together form a great Light, a city of light, if you will, in the metaphysical sense. And yet if you expect to sustain that Light by intellectual practice or by dependence upon logic alone, the Light will lose its luster, and it will dim, and the darkness will overcome it. Thus, we suggest that the common goal never be taken for granted, but that some form or ritual for the remembrance of that goal and the surrender to that goal be at the very heart of community.

Then Monka said we would ask you to consider the deeper reasons for community, so events cause a message to be given both metaphysically and physically, and the coming together of entities in order to form a spiritual community is an event, and the manifestation that it shall have is caught up in the event, for the event causes a message which is heard by those whom you can never know, and this message allows transformation among others, so we suggest to you that before joining together in community the goals be grasped in a unified manner, so that each shares the goal with each other in the community. Now Monka said our second observation is that great ideas without perseverance and the sense of humor shall cause each self to draw upon the human resources, so the use of words causes a variation between people, so understanding cannot be shared fully, for if each brings a Light and forms a community of Lights, those Lights form a great city of Light in the metaphysical sense, yet if you expect to sustain that Light by dependence upon logic alone, the Light will lose its luster, and it will dim, and the darkness will overcome it, so we suggest that the common goal never be taken for granted, but that some ritual for remembering that goal and surrendering to that goal be at the heart of community. On December 16, 1990, Q’uo described the value of a sense of humor:

That which your people call the sense of humor is, indeed, most helpful to any entity, no matter the position upon the path, or the placement within the life pattern. We see that which you call the sense of humor as being a sense of proportion where an entity is able to gain enough experience within the life that one may see a broader view. One stands upon a somewhat more elevated position, building experience upon experience, until that which you call wisdom is begun.

There is much in every entity’s life pattern and daily round of activities which lends itself to humor, nothing so much as the entity itself as it attempts to make a sense of and to form a cohesion from many disparate parts of the life which seem not to be held together well at all.

Community begins with one entity. This may be difficult to perceive at first. But each entity to whom we speak has had many and diverse incarnational experiences and each who grasps these ideas is, therefore, a digest or an amalgamation of many and sometimes conflicting experiential preferences, ideas, opinions and goals. Therefore, the first spiritually oriented community is you yourself. It is easiest in this context to see how easily the spiritual integrity may be shattered, the Light may be dimmed and then put out because of dependence upon intellectual analysis alone without the contact with that infinite source of intelligence which is Love and which is available from within the silence of the heart. Community then springs forth in full flower with two, and many are the words that are spent in accomplishing clarity of understanding and the harmonizing of two unique entities into one community with common goals and with the desire to surrender the self to the higher self so that those goals which have been prepared for you to seek may be sought in peace and with efficacy.

Each of you has considered what it would be to surrender to a group larger than what this instrument would call the nuclear family. It is no different than the harmonizing of the self with the self, the harmonizing of one self with another self. However, it is, as entities are added to the community, both more and more important and more and more frustrating to communicate as clearly as possible and to come into harmony rather than agreement forced upon one by a majority while pursuing the common goal.

Monka went on to say community begins with one entity, but this may be difficult to perceive at first, for each entity to whom we speak has had many incarnational experiences, and each who grasps these ideas is a grouping of many and sometimes conflicting experiential opinions and goals which the first spiritually oriented community is, so it is easiest in this context to see how spiritual integrity may be shattered; the Light may be dimmed and then put out because of dependence upon intellectual analysis without the contact with that infinite source of intelligence which is Love and which is available from within the silence of the heart, so community then springs forth in full flower with two, and many are the words that are spent in accomplishing clarity of understanding and the harmonizing of two unique entities into one community with common goals and with the desire to surrender the self to the higher self, so that those goals which have been prepared for you to seek may be sought effectively in peace. Monka continued by saying each of you has considered what it would be to surrender to a group larger than what this instrument would call the nuclear family, yet it is no different than harmonizing the self with the self and the harmonizing of one self with another self, but as entities are added to the community it is both more important and more frustrating to communicate as clearly as possible and to come into harmony rather than having agreement forced upon one by a majority while pursuing the common goal. On January 12, 1996, Carla shared her thoughts about the value of common goals of a spiritual community:

The idea of community, a community that shares a common goal and common ideals, has been part of this group in its thoughts for some time. And in the last few months the coincidences of people writing us, calling us, or speaking to us about the feeling that now is the time to get on with community have just really piled up. And when the instrument and I were talking about the idea of community today, we got, if you count all of them through the day, three hawks and two silver flecks, which is the most array of spiritual coincidence I guess you’d say that we’ve seen in a long time. These are normally taken by us to indicate that we’re talking about something that we should be paying attention to, that what we’re talking about has some value.

We would like to emphasize that while there is great potential for happiness as you call it, or joy, and for companionship in community, these states of the emotion and mind are transient, and the pursuit of them in or out of community shall result in disappointment as the moments of joy depart. We suggest to you, therefore, the possible wisdom of surprising yourself by appreciating the joys that occur without attempting to retain that state of mind and emotion, for these swings in emotion are of the surface, for in happiness one is still oneself and even in human joy, if we may use that term again, the importance of this state of mind is that of the stone which causes ripples to pass in their circular, outward gyration. Happiness is with you and then gone. To expect community to supply one with happiness is unrealistic due to the nature of that emotion. We are not saying that happiness is to be scorned. It is to be savored. But to cling to one happiness is to lose another, as if laughing too long at one jest, one may fail to hear the next cause for laughter.

Rather, we suggest the discipline in community of whatever size of the regular sharing of two things most of all. The food and drink which is symbolic of so many other necessary foods, for the soul, for the mind and for the heart and of the coming together in meditation, in thankfulness and in praise for that which is, which has been and which will be always the same. In that is joy and the heavens are full of this joy. A large portion of your creation has never left that primal joy and dwells in infinite joy. May you be one. May you be one, my children, and may you Love each other, serve each other and cause your events to serve as a message that will aid others who are seeking their own ways.

Monka continued by saying we would like to emphasize that while there is great potential for joy and for companionship in community, these states of emotions and thoughts are transient, and the pursuit of them in or out of community shall result in disappointment as the moments of joy depart, so we suggest to you the wisdom of surprising yourself by appreciating the joys that occur without attempting to retain that state of mind and emotion, for these swings in emotion are of the surface, since in happiness one is still oneself, and even in human joy the importance of this state of mind is that of the stone which causes ripples to pass in their circular, outward movement, so happiness is with you and then gone, but to expect community to supply one with happiness is unrealistic due to the nature of that emotion, and we are not saying that happiness is to be scorned, for it is to be savored, but to cling to one happiness is to lose another, as if laughing too long at one joke, one may fail to hear the next cause for laughter. Now Monka said we suggest discipline in a community of whatever size of the regular sharing of two things which are the food and drink that are symbolic of other foods for the mind, for the heart, and of the coming together in meditation in thankfulness for that which is and will be always the same, for in that is joy, and the heavens are full of this joy since a large portion of your creation has never left that primal joy, so may you be one, and may you Love each other, serve each other and cause your events to serve as a message that will aid others who are seeking their own ways. On April 29, 1990, Q’uo said that we should Love each other:

But if you wish to work for Love, if you wish to serve in Love and Light, Love each other, care for each other, be for each other, advocate each other, burn with Love and passion for the portion of each that wishes to serve. Is this not beautiful? Is this not beyond the understanding?

We are aware that there is much that we have left unsaid and are willing to take questions. However, we cannot use this instrument for this purpose. We, therefore, would attempt to make contact with another instrument in order that questions may be taken, not simply on community, of course, for there may be other concerns which you may wish to share at this time. We leave this instrument and are grateful for this instrument’s willingness to challenge us, to accept us, and to serve as channel for us. We transfer now. We are Monka.

(Jim channeling)

I am Monka, and we greet you again through this instrument in Love and Light. We thank this instrument for accepting our contact and would continue our efforts to be of service by asking if we might answer any queries which those present may have upon the mind at this time?

Carla: Just for purposes of identification, are you fifth density and did you work many years ago with a channel named Richard Miller?

I am Monka, and our level of seeking is that which is of Light and is numbered five, as you noted. We have for a significant portion of your time attempted to contact various groups and channels within groups in order to provide our service. We were those who spoke through the one known as Richard in an attempt to provide information which was congruent with the call by that group and our ability to serve.

May we respond further, my sister?

Carla: Yes. In those channelings which I have listened to that were made in the fifties, you went rather systematically through how to bring up children, the use of barter instead of money, the nature of rapid transit in a more fully articulated technology, and so forth. In other words, you were describing not just a spiritual community within a planetary sphere, but an entire society. We do not wish to remold our society… I’ll just speak for myself. I do not wish to remold our entire society, but rather to mold my life according to the highest spiritual plan which was intended. Is this difference or distinction an important point?

I am Monka. That which is sought is, indeed, that of importance, for as one seeks one shall find. To those who seek in a certain manner is brought the closest approximation possible from those that offer themselves in service. Thus, our experience in previous contacts with your people was one which sought to provide what we could within our range of abilities and to integrate this with what was sought by those whom we hoped to serve. Thus, we now find that our ability to be of service to this group is determined by the nature of seeking that we find within this group. Our services therefore will be of a different nature, relatively speaking, than previously were our services, and we appreciate the opportunity to offer what we have found in our experience in the fashion which the seeking of this group allows.

May we speak further, my sister?

Carla: Yes. I’ve wanted to ask this question for years. I know from the Richard Miller tapes that Monka is a social memory complex of Mars in the fifth density, although I don’t think the Miller tapes said that—they did say that you were of Mars. And so, you must have been in fifth density when the third density of Mars destroyed its own environment. What part could you play in that drama of your planetary sphere of third density, which you probably had some feelings about? What were you able to do, or was it simply something that you watched without emotional feeling of any kind, waiting to be of help, but not asked? I guess what I’m really asking, I want to clarify, is are you still sentimental about being of Mars, even though you’ve gone on?

I am Monka, and we find this query is one which is based upon somewhat of a misperception. This misperception dates back to the original contact that we made with the group previously mentioned in that when our identity was sought, we attempted to give an approximation of the nature of our being. This nature is one which is closely associated with the, shall we say, guardianship of the influence of the planet known to your peoples as Mars. In your rituals of the…

[Side one of tape ends.]

(Jim channeling)

I am Monka, and we greet each again in Love and Light. In those traditions of your white magical rituals there is the influence of the planet Mars, as you call it, that is seen to have a part to play, shall we say. That part has been, for a great span of time, our part, for each portion of the creation is guided by many influences which serve much as do the parents within your own people’s cultures. Thus, when speaking to the group in your previous times with which we first made contact, we attempted to identify ourselves in the manner of our role as guardians of the planetary influence known to you as Mars.

We attempted in that role to be of what service was possible as the population of that planet moved into its third-density experience, and through that third-density experience began to express the bellicose nature that was eventually to render that sphere uninhabitable by a third-density population, as you are aware. It was not our proper role to save that population from the tribulations that it chose for its experience but was instead to offer ourselves in whatever manner was congruent with the call for service of that planetary population. Thus, we guided where possible and sent Light where possible and healed those wounds that we were asked to heal. We are with this planet that is your home at this time because there are many from the planetary influence of Mars who now reside within this planet’s influence and who now seek the ways of Love with you upon your sphere.

Carla asked: “I know from the Richard Miller tapes that Monka is a social memory complex of Mars in the fifth density, although I don’t think the Miller tapes said that—they did say that you were of Mars. And so, you must have been in fifth density when the third density of Mars destroyed its own environment. What part could you play in that drama of your planetary sphere of third density, which you probably had some feelings about? What were you able to do, or was it simply something that you watched without emotional feeling of any kind, waiting to be of help, but not asked? I guess what I’m really asking, I want to clarify, are you still sentimental about being of Mars, even though you’ve gone on?” Monka replied we find this query is one which is based upon a misperception which dates back to the original contact that we made with the group previously mentioned when our identity was sought, and we attempted to give an approximation of the nature of our being, for this nature is one which is associated with the guardianship of the influence of the planet Mars, so in those traditions of your white magical rituals there is the influence of the planet Mars that is seen to have a part to play, and that part has been our part, for each portion of the creation is guided by many influences which serve much as do the parents within your people’s cultures, and when speaking to the group in your previous times with which we first made contact, we attempted to identify ourselves in the manner of our role as guardians of the planetary influence of Mars. Monka went on to say we attempted to be of what service was possible as the population of that planet moved into its third-density experience, and through that third-density experience they began to express the bellicose nature that was eventually to render that sphere uninhabitable by a third-density population, but it was not our role to save that population from the tribulations that it chose for its experience, but it was to offer ourselves in whatever manner was congruent with the call for service of that planetary population, so we guided where possible, sent Light where possible, and healed those wounds that we were asked to heal, yet we are with this planet that is your home at this time because there are many from the planetary influence of Mars who now reside within this planet’s influence and who now seek the ways of Love with you upon your sphere. On October 13, 2019, Q’uo described how we may learn the ways of Love:

We would suggest that the warrior mentality is one which may be defined as fearlessness, the ability to continue in the face of seeming despair, hopelessness, or failure, to give that which is of Love and of Light regardless of the response of any entity about you. Indeed, to receive any response with Love and Light, for this is the purpose of this illusion: to learn the ways of Love. And, if you are able, under any circumstance, to respond to any catalyst with Love, you have triumphed in a warrior-like fashion over those forces of darkness which would wish for this darkness and separation to prevail upon this planet.

Thus you move forward without fear of rejection, without fear of any type of difficulty that may stop your intense desire to seek and to serve the One Infinite Creator within all entities that you meet, for if you speak to that One Creator in all entities that you meet, in Love and in Light, at some level, the Creator will respond and return your Love and Light in kind, and then the Love and Light of the One Infinite Creator will continue to grow more and more within this planetary influence as it moves more and more into the fourth density of Love and Light and understanding.

May we speak further, my sister?

Carla: I hate to keep dogging the questions and answers, but what’s your relationship, if any, to the entities of the vibration Yod-he-va-heh or Jehovah or Yahweh?

I am Monka, and our relationship is that of brothers and sisters within the Confederation of Planets in the Service of the One Infinite Creator. We have worked closely with these entities for a great span of what you call time, most especially in the transfer of souls from the influence you call Mars to the influence that is this planet’s.

May we answer further?

Carla: One last thing and then I’ll shut up. A very capable woman who has been in community for twelve years wrote a letter to Jim and me that we got this week, and she said from her experience that the three biggest problems in community were money, sex and children. Would you care to comment on that in any way…

L: [Sotto voce:] Life.

…or just leave it—it doesn’t matter.

I am Monka, and we would agree with the one known as L that these areas are those most frequently utilized by your people to generate opportunities for what you would call the spiritual advancement, for within these three areas, the identification of the individual self is given the opportunity to either learn the Love and acceptance of those about it or to gather for the self as much protection from and control over other selves as possible. Thus, it is natural that when entities would seek to join each with the other in a closer relationship that those areas would be primary for growth potential.

May we answer further, my sister?

Carla: No, thank you.

I am Monka. May we ask for further queries?

L: How is the instrument doing?

I am Monka, and we find that this instrument is doing well with the type of contact that we have established, that being somewhat deliberate, and we find that this instrument can accommodate several more of your queries if that is acceptable to you.

L: You took the opportunity a moment ago to correct a misconception. Are there any other misconceptions you’d like the opportunity to correct, and, if so, would you trot ’em out now so we can get it straight for a change?

I am Monka, and though the invitation is most gracious, and we warmly accept it and appreciate such an opportunity, we find that our service is most appropriately rendered by attempting to answer those queries which each may present to us, thus signifying that which is of importance in your own process of seeking. Our identity, for example, being that which was associated with the planetary influence of Mars, was not, in our humble opinion, a significant misperception, for it approached that which was in our view appropriate. All information which we shall share will approach that which is true. We remind each that we do not view ourselves as being infallible, thus we shall leave to each of you the determination of that which is important to you to query upon.

L: It’s my understanding from the subject matter you covered earlier, that your—I was going to say “appearance” for lack of a better term—here tonight is partly the result of a desire within this group to develop themselves into a community. Would you give us—whatever you possibly can—your perspective on what our communal desires in that direction consist of?

I am Monka. If we perceive correctly the query that you have asked, we have been asked to describe the call which we have perceived from this group. We have observed within this group what might be termed as a seed. It is one which has within its husk the desire to join with those of like mind, as you would say, and similar means of seeking the truth in order that these qualities might be enhanced, for each within the group is aware that the combined efforts of many can produce far more opportunities for individual growth and service to others than can the efforts of one or two. Thus, the desire has arisen and with those expressing such desire has created the call which we observed and are attempting to answer.

May we speak further, my brother?

L: I have no further questions. Thank you for your time and patience.

I am Monka. We thank you as well, my brother. May we attempt further queries?

S: Yes, Monka. I am studying a religious philosophy called Nichiren Vedaism [Buddhism] founded in Japan seven hundred years ago by a man named Nichiren Daishonin. His philosophy was a chant that we use called “Nam-myoho-renge-kyo,” simply meaning “Everyone without exception has the potential to be a Buddha and life is eternal.” What I would like to know, my question is simply, can “Nam-myoho-renge-kyo,” the chanting of “Nam-myoho-renge-kyo,” open the gateway to intelligent infinity in the third-density experience?

I am Monka and will attempt response to your query, my brother. There are more factors present than would at first glance seem apparent in the repetition of the chant of which you speak. Its specific wording is perhaps of least importance, though significant. The wording itself is that which the will of the seeker focuses the attention upon. When this focus of attention is one-pointed, as it is called, for longer and longer periods of time, the inner meaning or direction of the words becomes seated within the seeker’s being, becoming then a resource upon which the seeker may call in any life experience.

It is the experience of the daily round of activities in an unified and balanced fashion that provides the seeker with the increasing opportunity of unity with all creation or the contact with intelligent infinity, as you have called it. Thus, the chant itself is that which serves as catalyst or that which points the direction for the seeker. The mere repetition of such a chant is much like the push-up. It focuses the attention for the moment, yet the true value of such an exercise is the seating within the seeker’s being of the concept to which the chant points and the providing of the seeker thereby with the means of manifesting this concept in each facet of its life experience.

S asked: “What I would like to know, my question is simply, can “Nam-myoho-renge-kyo,” the chanting of “Nam-myoho-renge-kyo,” open the gateway to intelligent infinity in the third-density experience?” Then Monka said there are more factors present than would seem apparent in the repetition of the chant of which you speak, and its wording is of least importance, though significant, so the wording is that which the will of the seeker focuses the attention upon, for when this focus of attention is one-pointed for longer periods of time, the inner meaning of the words becomes seated within the seeker’s being, becoming a resource upon which the seeker may call in any life experience. Monka continued by saying it is the experience of the daily round of activities in a balanced fashion that provides the seeker with the opportunity of unity with the contact with intelligent infinity, for the chant is that which points the direction for the seeker, and the repetition of such a chant is like the push-up since it focuses the attention for the moment, yet the true value of such an exercise is the seating within the seeker’s being of the concept to which the chant points and the providing of the seeker with the means of manifesting this concept in each facet of its life experience. On February 13, 1994, Q’uo spoke of the purpose of a chant:

More than any one method of medical treatment the philosophical, metaphysical or religious paths of service offer a way to teach those who wish to learn how to call inwardly and move toward that inner room wherein the heart of silence speaks its blessed and hallowed chant: Love praising Love, Love thanking Love, Love having any emotion whatever to Love. The soul which seeks persistently this inner sanctuary, the mercy seat of the heart, is as the one who chooses to go into the grand hall and to set the table for a sumptuous banquet. To the human eye the banquet hall may not exist. To the heart within, beating in faith, the hall shall fill to overflowing and the feast shall take place.

May we speak further, my brother?

S: No, thank you very, very much.

I am Monka, and we thank you, my brother. May we attempt further queries?

Carla: Just a quick follow up. I’ve always been curious about whether certain words or sounds have a vibration which is unrelated to the person speaking the sound or whether the vibration of the sound is only energized by Love?

I am Monka and would respond by suggesting that both are true, for there are, indeed, certain vibrations of sound that are powerful of themselves. There are also entities who may speak any sound and imbue that sound with Love and thereby give that sound power. There are also entities who may misuse, shall we say, any vibration of sound and degrade it to the point that it is robbed of a large degree of whatever power it may have contained.

May we speak further, my sister?

Carla: No, thank you.

I am Monka, and we thank you once again, my sister. We find that we may attempt another query or two through this instrument before it is too fatigued for the clear transmission of our thoughts.

[Pause]

I am Monka. We appreciate the concern that each has for the comfort of this instrument and would take this opportunity to thank each also for being of that nature that has allowed us to speak with you. We are happy to be able to give voice to our thoughts as a service to those with whom we walk the path of seeking. We shall join you again upon your request. Until that time, we shall join you in silence in the Allness of the One. We are known to you as Monka, and we leave you now in Love and in light. Adonai, my friends. Peace and blessings.

(Carla channeling)

I am Nona, and greet you in the Love and in the Light of the Creator. We ask your patience as we vibrate for the healing of the one known as B. This entity is soon to dwell within the form-maker body and the angelic hosts are awaiting this entity with great joy. We are also called for the one known as J and the one known as G. We thank you for your patience as we know this has been a somewhat long meeting. We cease speaking through this instrument and leave you in Love and in Light. We are Nona.

[Carla channels a healing melody from Nona.]

This morning the quote from The Thunder of Silence is: “If someone were to counsel us, “I say to you, you must stop your lawsuits. If anybody wants to take your property, let them have it; if they want your home, let them take it; if they take your automobile, let them have it; and they decide to come in and get your jewelry let them have that too, and then look around and see if you cannot give them a few extra things in addition to what they already have taken,” such advice would seem contrary to all reason.

But that is what Jesus tells us to do in the fifth chapter of the Gospel of Matthew, and at this moment we have no way of knowing whether He was right or wrong. We have no way of knowing whether we might not benefit twice over by obeying that very command because most of us have not tried the resist-not-evil way of life; and moreover, until we have reached that state of consciousness, it would probably be very unwise for us to try it.

At first thought, such a teaching might seem to mean that we are to let anybody and everybody walk all over us, defraud and take from us all that we have while we are just the sweet gentle things that permit ourselves to be walked on. But Jesus the Christ never meant that. What He meant was that we should not retaliate humanly, but He did not say what would happen spiritually if His advice were followed. He does not say a single word about what God will do for us when we stop doing for ourselves. He does not explain how the problem will be worked out without invoking the implication, however, is that a spiritual Presence comes to our rescue to lift us up above injustice and dishonesty. Is it really possible for anyone to defraud us if we stand on our spiritual identity as the child of God?

When the soldiers came to seize the Master in the Garden and the sword was drawn in his defense, Jesus refused to permit his disciples to defend Him saying, “Put up again thy sword into its place: for all they that the sword shall perish with the sword. ” To material sense, that would seem as if He were giving them carte blanche to drag Him away and do whatever they wanted to do with Him. But He was not doing that at all. Instead, He was realizing, “I have an Infinite Invisible upon which I rely. I have a divine Something that knoweth my need before I do, and it is Its good pleasure to give me the kingdom.” In that complete reliance He rested.

“Resist not evil” sounds like the most foolish and impractical of human teachings, yet it is the wisest and most practical of spiritual principles. Those who attain a state of consciousness in which they can let the enemy come at them with the armor of the world: with spears, knives, guns or lawsuits and can stand in complete confidence with no resistance can never lose, any more than could David lose his skirmish with Goliath, or than could the Hebrews, who were so greatly outnumbered by the enemy, lose their battle.

As long as we resist evil, we are not living under Grace but under the law; and the very knife that we throw at another will boomerang to pierce us in the chest, all in a blinding flash and out of nowhere. There is no way for Grace to descend upon us if we are indulging the human way of life. We can pray for Grace for a million years, but it will not come to us until we give up using the weapons of the world and arrive at Job’s understanding that He “hangeth the Earth upon nothing.” Then if we are willing to lean back on that nothingness, the Spirit rushes in to pick us up and carry us forward, appearing in and as whatever form may be necessary.”

Later this morning I went outside and Then I set the sprinkler to water the Astilbe Garden and the Hosta Gardens in the back corner of the back yard. Then I moved it to water the Hosta under the Forsythia Bushes in the back yard.

This afternoon I went on an errand run with my first stop being at Feeder’s Supply to buy some kitty litter. Then I stopped at Walgreen’s Drug Store to drop off a prescription.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

May 12

Whence The Spirit Shall Blow

I am of the principle of Jesus the Christ. I greet you in the full consciousness of Love.

At the beginning of time the Spirit moved upon the face of creation and Light shone forth upon the darkened portions of the Earth.

The Spirit of the living God is a Light which comes from beyond time, a Light which encompasses all times and places, a Light which may move as it will from past to present, from future to past.

Nothing is closed to the Light of Love, and the Spirit of that Love moves as it wills. Thus, is it ever impossible to know whence the wind of Spirit shall blow nor whither it tends. The only prayer of the Spirit-filled being is a prayer of surrender. For plans may be made, but the Spirit may well overturn the plans of man.

Yet is not the strong action suggested by Spirit more desirable than all the ordered series of actions without the Spirit of Love in the universe?

We leave you in the peace of the mind’s surrender to eternity and the forces of Love, now and ever.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of Love and open our hearts minds, and souls to send Love, Light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite Love, Light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our Love, Light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Hatonn, Latwii, Yadda, and Nona channelings from this session come from January 5, 1986:

(Carla channeling)

I am Hatonn, and I greet you in the Love and in the Light of our infinite Creator. It is a great privilege to be with you, and we thank you for that you have called us. We hope that our poor words have some use for you and encourage you to discriminate carefully, so that which is not of use to you may be dropped away, for though we have more experience than you, our experience is limited and finite. Therefore, we ask that our opinions be considered as fallible, for we are wrong sometimes. We do not know with the authority of the infinite Creator. Indeed, none of us who dwell in the creation and who still have individuality may know all of the infinite Creator, for we are but splinters of the one infinite Creator. Within each of us is all the knowledge which is contained in the one original Thought which is the infinite Creator. And to the extent that we are able to release our small identities with all their biases and opinions, just so to that extent are we holographs for the one original Thought.

There are many questions my friends; there is but one answer. As the seeker gazes down at the dusty road, at the dust that lies upon their feet and covers their sandals, they may well doubt that road and doubt the security and the promise of the journey of seeking. The staff which is intended to aid may become heavy and even those few belongings which the seeker has to carry with them begin to seem a great burden. And so, the seeker sometimes removes themself from the dusty path which seems to go on forever. The seeker moves into a beautiful valley, well-watered and forested with pastures where spring the small animals, and where the sweet flowers bloom. It is good for the seeker to rest in such a beautiful meadow and smell the beautiful scent of flower and bush and to rest beneath the nurturing and sturdy trunk of one of your trees. Because, you see, my friends, to go upon the journey is to become terribly vulnerable, it is to risk all for no obvious reward, for as you seek, so you shall be sought. As you polarize more and more towards the Light, so your dedication to that Light shall be challenged. The toll the journey takes upon the seeker is never the same from one seeker to another. And when the burden becomes too heavy, it is good that the individual seeker chooses their own pasture and measure their own time of recovery.

It is acceptable and laudable for a seeker who has been overborne by experience not only to rest beneath the tree and smell the sweet smell of the wild flowers but also to fell great trees, and dry the wood, and build the cabin for shelter, for there is no shame in resting until the burden again becomes as nothing, and seeking fills the soul, and mind, and the will. It is not, shall we say, recommended that the seeker goad themself as if they were an ox or a mule, for the spiritual path is narrow and straight, and the difficulty of walking that path is various for each entity. It is not a path to be walked when the will is not strong. Let us then go to the cabin and gaze about its simple four walls. How restful and peaceful is the cabin that you build within your spirits, my friends, the household of your discontent and your pain. How healing it is that you have furnished for yourself the possibility of respite and redemption, for this search shall exhaust you not just one time, but many. Experience shall come upon you as a thief breaks into a house at an unexpected time. Yet no matter what the time, the seeker who has walked the path until his feet are dusty shall also have found his very own meadow, their very own place of healing.

In this session Hatonn spoke of how there is one answer to the many questions we have about how we travel our spiritual journey. They began by saying as the seeker gazes down at the dusty road, they may doubt that road and doubt the security and the promise of the journey of seeking, and those few belongings which the seeker has to carry with them begin to seem a burden, so the seeker removes themself from the dusty path which seems to go on forever, and the seeker moves into a beautiful valley, well-watered and forested with pastures where there are animals, and where the sweet flowers bloom, for it is good for the seeker to rest in such a beautiful meadow and smell the beautiful scent of flower and bush and to rest beneath the nurturing and sturdy trunk of one of your trees because to go upon the journey is to become vulnerable, and it is to risk all for no obvious reward, for as you seek, so you shall be sought, and as you polarize more towards the Light, so your dedication to that Light shall be challenged, yet the toll the journey takes upon the seeker is never the same from one seeker to another, and when the burden becomes too heavy, it is good that the seeker chooses their pasture and measures their time of recovery. Then Hatonn said it is acceptable for a seeker who has been  wearied by experience not only to rest beneath the tree and smell the sweet smell of the wild flowers but also to cut trees, dry the wood, and build the cabin for shelter, for there is no shame in resting until the burden again becomes as nothing, and seeking fills the soul, mind, and the will, but it is not recommended that the seeker  pressure themself as if they were a mule, for the spiritual path is narrow and straight, and the difficulty of walking that path is various for each entity, yet it is not a path to be walked when the will is not strong, so let us go to the cabin and gaze about its four walls, yet how peaceful is the cabin that you build within your spirits, the household of your discontent, and your pain, for how healing it is that you have furnished for yourself the possibility of redemption, for this search shall exhaust you not just one time, but many because experience shall come upon you as a thief breaks into a house at an unexpected time, yet no matter what the time, the seeker who has walked the path until their feet are dusty shall also have found their place of healing. On May 7, 1989, Q’uo spoke of the process of redemption:

The first challenge the seeker has is the self. The first work must be done to forgive and Love the self. That is why a personal symbol of redemption is necessary. Each workable myth creates a means of that redemption. Thus, those who move through that particular program of a belief system experience the emotion of faith. We encourage you to experience the emotion of faith, no matter how slender your faith. Do not make it pretentious or show it upon the outside. Let it be personal, and real, and authentic, and if it takes years in the growing, so be it. You have years. Take them. It is most important to you.

There is a danger to the seeker within the resting and the healing, and that is that there is a temptation for a seeker to feel that the cabin and the meadow and pleasantness and rest are the end of the path of seeking. Indeed, we say to you that that which you know as the Kingdom of Heaven is often harsh and abrasive and may seem decisive, for as you continue urging yourself forward and experiencing the great joy of seeking the one original Thought…

We must pause.

[Pause]

I am Hatonn. I am again with this instrument. We apologize for the pause. The instrument is experiencing some pain, and the state necessary for the transmission of these thoughts was not sturdy enough for our contact to continue in a clear manner. We shall continue.

As one seeks the one original Thought, there is the danger that one may decide that one has found what they have been seeking, and we say to you that in an infinite journey there are pauses between learning experiences, but never the full stop where one may lie back, rest upon one’s laurels and say, “Now—now I understand. Now redemption is complete, and all that I seek I have,” for there is the next learning always. We encourage you to comfort yourself when your journey is arduous, and you need a place to rest. You have that within you and need only construct it in your mind. You may also with your mind and your will construct within your dwelling the tools for healing and for rebuilding the intensity of your faith that there is a path, that truth does exist, and that there is such a thing as Love and the will to seek that which your faith tells you is there.

Although we speak in metaphor, we encourage you who seek to enjoy and praise the comrades that you shall meet along the way, for though each search is different, and each soul has its own truth, beyond words and concepts there is the one original Thought which is Love, which cannot be defined but which can be praised and shared, not by the words, but by the quality of silence between two seekers, for companionship lies between the words, the sentences, the talking, and the doing. Spiritual companionship lies in the resting that one silence may give to another, for all that there is is caught up in that silence, and when another may share it, it is a wonderful thing. Therefore, my friends, you are always alone and never alone. Always alone in that you are unique, and so is your perception of the path of seeking and the truth that you seek. Never alone in that entities both incarnate and discarnate share the intensity of your seeking in their own seeking and are, therefore, closer to you than many of your thoughts, for silence is more intimate than any word.

Then Hatonn said as one seeks the one original Thought, there is the danger that one may decide that one has found what they have been seeking, and we say to you that in an infinite journey there are pauses between learning experiences, but never the full stop where one may lie back, rest upon one’s laurels and say redemption is complete, and all that I seek I have, for there is the next learning, so we encourage you to comfort yourself when your journey is difficult, and you need a place to rest, so you have that within you and need only construct it in your mind, yet you may, with your mind and your will, construct within your dwelling the tools for healing and for rebuilding the intensity of your faith that there is a path, that truth does exist, and that there is Love and the will to seek that which your faith tells you is there. Now Hatonn said we encourage you who seek to enjoy the comrades that you shall meet along the way, for though each search is different, and each soul has its own truth, beyond words and concepts there is the one original Thought which is Love, which cannot be defined but which can be praised and shared, not by the words, but by the quality of silence between two seekers, for companionship lies between the words, and spiritual companionship lies in the resting that one silence may give to another, for all that there is is caught up in that silence, and when another may share it, it is a wonderful thing, for you are always alone and never alone: always alone in that you are unique, and so is your perception of the path of seeking and the truth that you seek, but you are never alone in that entities both incarnate and discarnate share the intensity of your seeking in their own seeking and are closer to you than many of your thoughts, for silence is more intimate than any word. In 82.9-.10, Ra described the one original Thought:

Questioner: Are these central original creations a cluster of what we call stars, then?

I am Ra. This is correct. However, the closer to the, shall we say, beginning of the manifestation of the Logos the star is, the more it partakes in the One Original Thought.

Questioner: Why does this partaking in the Original Thought have a gradient radially outward? That’s the way I understand your statement.

I am Ra. This is the plan of the One Infinite Creator. The One Original Thought is the harvest of all previous, if you would use this term, experience of the Creator by the Creator.

As It decides to know Itself, It generates Itself into that plenum, full of the glory and the power of the One Infinite Creator, which is manifested to your perceptions as space or outer space. Each generation of this knowing begets a knowing which has the capacity, through free will, to choose methods of knowing Itself.

Therefore, gradually, step by step, the Creator becomes that which may know Itself, and the portions of the Creator partake less purely in the power of the original Word or Thought. This is for the purpose of refinement of the One Original Thought. The Creator does not properly create as much as It experiences Itself.

We would encourage you to meditate and praise the silence within, for you truly are a holograph of all that is to be known. As you begin to trust the inward silence, as your mind becomes able to release and praise all the thoughts which race through it without holding on to them, you shall become more and more invested with that silence and with the truths which silence unfolds. This is not a short-term proposition, for one of your incarnations is a brief period during which one might do such intensive work. Judge yourself not then if you must pause by the way or even build a hut against the winter of your flagging faith and will. But live through those times, blaming not yourself and not the path, but realizing that this is part of the experience in an outward and manifested state, which, internalized as catalyst, will more and more inform your being. Rest as long as is necessary but do not allow your spirit surcease from silence, for as you wish to serve the Creator, so you must allow that silence which seats experience within the heart.

That is your one responsibility—to continue the seeking even as you are weak, and weary, and distraught, even as you lie upon your pallet within your hut and feel some blackness within you. Yet always we ask that you consider the possibility of completing each of your days with focused and articulate silence. My friends, each of you came to this group seeking. The group has become one, and in the silence between the words of this instrument the fruits of that seeking are already available to you and physically felt by you in that the energy or what you may call prana of creative life flows now more quickly within your energy web. As you seek together, so are you the Creator which experiences Itself. Shall we ask you to praise yourselves? To magnify your own glory? Indeed, that is what we would seem to be suggesting, for we say that you are the Creator. And yet, can the Creator praise the Creator? Yes, indeed, my friends. Such can be done and should be done, for you are all that is and all that is is within you and is to be praised and cherished. We would give thanks to you for that we have shared in your vibrational patterns. It gives us great joy to experience the beauty of each of you. It is especially joyful to us to visit groups such as yours, for we who serve the Creator cannot but rejoice at those sources of Light which generate themselves within the planetary mist of indifference. You see, my friends, it is not that your planet is negative—it is that so many still sleep and are indifferent.

Now Hatonn said we encourage you to meditate and praise the silence within, for you are a holograph of all that is to be known, and as you begin to trust the inward silence, as your mind becomes able to release and praise all the thoughts which race through it without holding on to them, you shall become more invested with that silence and with the truths which silence unfolds, but this is not a short-term proposition, for one of your incarnations is a brief period during which one might do such intensive work, so judge yourself not if you must pause and build a hut against the winter of your flagging faith and will, but live through those times, blaming not yourself and not the path, but realizing that this is part of the experience in a manifested state, internalized as catalyst, will inform your being, so rest as long as necessary, but do not allow your spirit to cease from silence, for as you wish to serve the Creator, so you must allow that silence which seats experience within the heart. Hatonn went on to say that is your one responsibility: to continue the seeking even as you are weak and lie upon your pallet within your hut and feel blackness within you, yet we ask that you consider completing each of your days with focused silence, for each of you came to this group seeking, so the group has become one, and in the silence between the words of this instrument the fruits of that seeking are available to you and physically felt by you in that the prana of creative life flows quickly within your energy web, for as you seek together, so are you the Creator which experiences Itself, and we say that you are the Creator, and the Creator can praise the Creator, for you are all that is within you and is to be cherished, so we give thanks to you for that we have shared in your vibrational patterns since it gives us joy to experience the beauty of each of you, and it is especially joyful to us to visit groups such as yours, for we who serve the Creator cannot but rejoice at those sources of Light which generate themselves within the planetary mist of indifference, but it is not that your planet is negative. It is that so many still sleep. On October 31, 1974, Oxal said that we are the Creator:

My friends, each person may seem to be a human entity. Yet they are the Creator. Each natural object, each manufactured object, the very air around you, my friends, has a consciousness which is the Creator. You yourself, the originating agency of this Love which you wish to express: you are the Creator.

If you can remember that the one known as Jesus saw each individual entity as part of the Father, then, my friends, you will be able to better express the Love of the Creator.

Those who have need of you; those whom you need, are liars. There is no need, except for the Creator. To understand this is to free oneself from illusion.

We are those of Hatonn, and we would leave this instrument at this time. May joy be yours as you travel your path. May dust cover your feet many times as you walk it, and you may always allow yourself the resting place when experience overwhelms you. You are always safe. But it is good to give yourself permission not only to seek forever forward, but to take your rest when you needs must heal some pain within. We leave you in the creation of Love and Light, for there is nowhere else but the silence of space and time, which is always and everywhere the present moment. Adonai, my friends. Adonai.

(Carla channeling)

I Yadda. I greet you in the Love and in the Light of infinite Creator. We have so much trouble with instrument who want us to say we come in the name of Christ. We always end up having to say, “Okay.” But we always wonder, why not Buddha? Why not Mohammed? Why not some postman that we know of in Washington, DC who is good to his children and gives away many Christmas presents to little children he does not know? All are Christ. All are perfect in consciousness. Yes—we come in the name of Christ, for we are the vibration which cannot be reached without going along the path of the Christ.

We not speak long, but we come because we are called, and we thank you. We speak to you of “why families?” There is that question in the group this evening. You know, families sometimes difficult to be in, so why do you have them? Do you have them so you can have people that you like about you? No, my friends, many times people in family not like each other at all. So, what is lesson? Why so important that you have those people that are true kin to you?

We say to you, it is to offer you a chance to learn duty and honor, for with family, you cannot say, “You are not family, so go away!” No, my friends, you have to take care of each other. It may seem like a ridiculous thing, but it is a great learning. If you can feel responsible for each other, then you learn service to each other, not because service is always fun, but because service is freedom. Service is your only freedom, for if you choose not to serve, then you have stopped your progress and are no longer “poh-werizing,” polarizing—hah! We getting better—heh?!

Think it over, friends. Families are a pain in the neck. So why do you want a sore neck? Maybe to get your attention—heh? We leave you. We are joyful and leave you in “glate” joy for the night is full of Light and the shadows are full of Light. We Yadda. Adonai.

(Jim channeling)

I am Latwii, and we greet you in that Love and Light that our brothers and sisters of Yadda have left you in. We are also honored to be here and to be able to share our humble words of praise and thanksgiving with you. As always, it is our honor to attempt to serve by also answering your queries. We also remind you that our words are most fallible. We hope that you will take those which have value and leave those which do not. May we begin by asking for the first query?

C: Yes, Latwii. It still amazes me how something can be on your mind and be mentioned during the course of meditation. But family has been on my mind quite a bit here lately. Something has occurred with my family. Each year I experience a form of depression during the holiday season, and usually afterwards I’m not that easy to get along with. But this year the feelings of the holidays were especially deep. It’s almost as if I was just sort of numbed out to everything. And now for the first time in a long time my nerves seem like they’re smoothing out, and things are flowing smoothly at this point. Can you enlighten me on what happened this time that’s different from the times before?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my brother. It has been noted within your culture that the season which is called your holiday season is one during which many find not the joy which the holidays are noted for but find instead a lack of joy and a sense of depression and despair. This is in general due to the fact that as our brothers and sisters of Yadda have mentioned, the relationships that you know with your family are relationships that exist for the purpose of growth, and growth most often occurs as a result of utilizing catalyst that may be of a difficult nature. Yet, if families can withstand the difficult times there is a strengthening that occurs of the individuals and the bonds between them. However, in your holiday season that is noted for its joy, it is likely that those suffering the difficulties within the family structures are more fully reminded that the joy of the season exists not in their experience, and as the joy of the season is advertised widely, the entity so disillusioned becomes constantly reminded that it has fallen short of that which is possible

In your particular situation, we may speak briefly and in general and may suggest that the difficulties that all face have been noted carefully by those within your close family, have been acknowledged openly and have been met with full responsibility of each, thus there has been little taking for granted that which has been before. To clarify. As the difficulties have been acknowledged, there has been less opportunity to be disillusioned, for the Light of truth has shined somewhat more clearly, and the ability to respond to what is seen has been activated and each has thus taken strength from…

[Side one of tape ends.]

(Jim channeling)

I am Latwii and am once again with this instrument. May we ask if we have answered your query sufficiently, my brother?

C: Yes, it helps. It’s… several years ago I became aware that I’m following along in a line of entities who have been trying to work out the same problem for years and years. I know my father has the same problems I’ve had and his father also. And just by feelings that I’m able to pick up, I know that A is also part of this line. I know that you can’t assume a lesson for someone else, but I sure would like to get this line broken, and I appreciate yours, and the help I receive from the other members of the Confederation. I have no question at this time—I just want to say thank you.

I am Latwii, and we thank you, my brother, for the opportunity to share our humble words with you, and we would only comment that the difficulties one may encounter in the relationships in one’s incarnation are more than one might imagine them to be in that there is contained within such seeming difficulties great opportunities to learn service and to give Love, for it is not easy to Love within the circumstances where one finds the misunderstandings passed on from person to person. Yet when one can break the chain of misunderstanding and bind all in Love and compassion, one has used the opportunity provided by difficulty and has transformed that which lacked Love into that which is full of Love.

May we attempt any other query at this time?

Carla: Okay, just a little follow up on C’s because nobody’s jumping in. Is it because that we, our physical bodies, used to be second density and turned to the Light for growth, that the dark days, the short days of winter are the most difficult for so many people or is this something that’s cultural?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my sister. We find that though there is some degree of correctness within your assumption, it is perhaps more accurate to look at the effect of the season upon your mental and emotional complexes as the root of the difficulties which many of your people suffer during the shortened and darkened season of winter. If one will observe the plant world in the time of your winter, the leaves from most trees have fallen; the sap has moved down into roots; and there is a dormancy that approximates death in appearance.

There is a similar occurrence within the mind and emotion complexes of most of your population during this winter season in that the elements of nature, the wind, the clouds, the cold, and the snows tend to drive one’s focus of consciousness deeper down within one’s being in order that the introspective faculties might be awakened more fully to review the harvest of the season of learning just passed. As the harvest is frequently not understood and the seeming difficulties are easily discovered, one then on a most basic level becomes aware that there are those lessons not yet well learned remaining within one’s being. In many instances this awareness of lessons yet to be learned is upon the subconscious level if the entity has in some fashion during its experience consciously ignored or removed the awareness of these lessons yet to be learned because it did not yet wish to face this responsibility. Thus, during the winter season of one’s incarnation, the cycles of learning and seeking are enhanced by the driving of one’s focus inward. When there is difficulty in meeting the lessons yet to be learned, the state of the mind tends to remain in a depressed condition not having fully processed the catalyst of the previous season, shall we say.

Carla asked: “Is it because that we, our physical bodies, used to be second density and turned to the Light for growth, that the dark days, the short days of winter are the most difficult for so many people, or is this something that’s cultural?” Latwii said we find that there is some degree of correctness within your assumption, but it is more accurate to look at the effect of the season upon your mental and emotional complexes as the root of the difficulties which many of your people suffer during the shortened and darkened season of winter, so if one will observe the plant world in the time of winter, the leaves from most trees have fallen; the sap has moved down into roots; and there is a dormancy that approximates death in appearance. Then Latwii said there is a similar occurrence within the mind and emotion complexes of most of your population during this winter season in that the wind, clouds, cold, and snows tend to drive one’s focus of consciousness deeper down within one’s being in order that the introspective faculties might be awakened more fully to review the harvest of the season of learning just passed, and as the harvest is not understood and the seeming difficulties are easily discovered, one then becomes aware that there are lessons not yet learned remaining within one’s being, so this awareness of lessons yet to be learned is upon the subconscious level if the entity has consciously ignored the awareness of these lessons yet to be learned because it did not wish to face this responsibility, for during the winter season of one’s incarnation, the cycles of learning and seeking are enhanced by driving of one’s focus inward, but when there is difficulty in meeting the lessons yet to be learned, the state of mind tends to remain in a depressed condition not having fully processed the catalyst of the previous season. On May 19, 2009, Q’uo spoke of our cycles of learning:

Yet also you may picture this journey as a spiral downward or inward. It is as if you were peeling layers of a many-layered thing like an onion, where all of your suffering and all of your triumph moves you one layer closer to the center of your incarnational lesson. The center remains a mystery, yet as you move through these cycles of learning, there is an equal amount of increased insight and increased challenge.

The increase in the challenge is due to the fact that you are moving ever closer to the center of your incarnational lesson. You have earned the right to deal more directly this time with that which will aid the soul stream, of which you within incarnation are a shell of personality, in comparison to the soul stream. You are as one literally on a journey having packed your suitcases with your skills, your gifts, your relationships, and your challenges. You could not bring everything into this incarnation. You brought those parts of your soul stream which you needed in order to move through this dance, if you will, and do the work you came to do.

May we answer further, my sister?

Carla: Yes, just something that I thought of while you were talking about how this season mimics death. I was thinking about the fact that we celebrate the holy day or holiday of Christ mass or Christmas in the very darkest, almost precisely the darkest, within four or five days, day of the year. It’s almost like the birth of Christ or Christ consciousness is the hope that comes after the little death of winter. And I was wondering whether the historical Jesus just happened on that date, or whether it is placed at this point because it is more needed at this point of the year than any other point of the year. If that’s the case, then it seems to me that one big problem that people have at this time of the year is that they’re not paying any attention to the “holy” part of the holiday, and therefore they don’t get the hope of the baby being born within them—there’s a question in there somewhere, I think.

I am Latwii, and from the statements and the comments that you have made, we draw that which we feel is the query desired. Please ask again if we are mistaken. The birth of the one known as Jesus the Christ was planned for this season in order to present the symbol of birth and re-birth to those for whom this entity lived and died. The season of your winter is, indeed, as the small death, and may be again repeated in the meditative state where one looks within for the harvest of one’s experience and seeks to find Love where Love was not. Thus, the experiences within one’s incarnation which have seemed devoid of Love may be transformed and born again when seen in the crystal-pure Light of the Christed or Christened moment, the moment christened with Love.

Thus, the one known as Jesus made entry into this illusion at the time of your year when the darkness of the season would represent the darkness of knowing, that is, the fabric of your illusion, and was born as a Light unto your world as each may look within to that same Light and see all experience within that Light so that the Love that gives birth to that Light may be found in each experience thus christened.

May we answer you further, my sister?

Carla: No, thank you.

I am Latwii, and we thank you, my sister. Is there another query?

M: Latwii, my name is M. Is the Confederation aware of a planetary sphere named Kreeton, K-r-e-e-t-o-n?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my brother. We find that although the query is simple in construction there is some difficulty in giving clear response, for within your people’s culture there are various names given to various planetary bodies, and we find that this name, Kreeton, is one name that has been used to describe a certain planetary influence of which we have some knowledge.

May we answer further, my brother?

M: Yes, Latwii. What density is the planetary sphere Kreeton?

I am Latwii and feel that we may best answer your query by suggesting that this sphere is one with the activated densities of one through five, with the remaining densities in potential form, shall we say. May we answer further?

M: Yes, Latwii. Can you approximate a time frame in age of this planetary sphere Kreeton?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my brother. We find that giving this information in understandable terms is not within the limits of your language. For a planetary entity which has progressed to the point which this one has achieved, it is necessary to move through a great portion of timeless being before entering a great portion of what you would call time. Thus, our answer would be quite meaningless.

May we attempt another query, my brother?

M: No, thank you, Latwii.

I am Latwii, and we thank you, my brother. Is there another query?

M: Latwii, is the planetary Kreeton of a thought-form nature?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my brother. We must respond by suggesting that it is of the same form of manifestation as are the planets within your own solar system. However, one must realize that all forms, be they planets or atoms, are a form of thought, the thought of the one infinite Creator. The use of the phrase, “thought-form” as we believe you intend it is more of the briefer duration, that created by a mass consciousness or the consciousness of individuals such as yourselves, and in this instance, we would suggest that this planet is not of the briefer duration but of the more substantial manifestation.

May we answer further, my brother?

M: Latwii, approximately how far is the planetary sphere Kreeton in distance from the planetary sphere Earth?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my brother. We find difficulty in giving this information, for once again the means of measurement are most difficult to translate. The general means of describing distance among your scientific community would be the light-year or the distance that light would travel in one of your years. This distance is somewhat difficult to approximate and transmit through this instrument, for our contact is not of the precise nature that would allow an easy translation. The distance is roughly two hundred and forty thousand light years. We believe this is correct; however, we are not adept at using your numerical system.

May we answer further, my brother?

M: No. Thank you so very, very much.

I am Latwii, and we thank you once again, my brother. Is there another query?

[Pause]

I am Latwii, and as it seems that we have exhausted the queries for this evening, we shall thank each profusely for offering not only the call for our presence, but the queries for our service. We hope that we have been of some small aid in the seeking for truth that each has brought this evening as the great gift. We shall be with each upon request in meditation in order to aid the deepening of that state. We leave this group at this time in the Love and in the Light of the one infinite Creator. We are those of Latwii. Adonai my friends. Adonai vasu borragus.

(Carla channeling)

I am Nona, and we come to offer our healing Love and Light. We would offer it for the entity known as R, and also for the far less serious but still significant discomfort of the one known as M. We also would be offering our presence to the one known as C and the one known as M because these entities have vibrational patterns which are very compatible with our contact. We bid you adieu in Love and Light.

[Vocal healing melody channeled through Carla.]

This morning the quote from The Thunder of Silence is: “In the Sermon on the Mount are set forth two entirely different ways of life with no common meeting ground. The one is the ye-have-hear-it-said-of-old way exemplified by the righteousness of the scribes and pharisees, which is the way of the great majority of human beings the world over. It is also the way of almost all religious teachings on Earth today, except for those mystical teachings which rarely reach human consciousness because most people do not seek for a way of life which is such a radical departure from the conventional human mode of living; and, therefore, except among those who follow the mystical path, little, or perhaps more correctly, nothing is known of the I-say-unto-you way of life.

The Master’s great teaching in the Sermon on the Mount and in all the four Gospels is not one of weakness, expediency, or compromise; nor is it one of blindly and meekly letting the world do anything it wants to do to us and of our passively taking all the beating that it wants to give us. Rather is it one in which we resist not evil in the realization that God within is taking care of our interests.

To a person engrossed in materiality, enmeshed in and governed by that tyrannical master, the reasoning mind, this way of life would undoubtedly be quickly judged and condemned as totally and impossibly impractical. At first, it does seem impractical, but let us stop for one moment and try to discover why it is that we feel we must protect ourselves by battling and struggling mentally, physically, or prayerfully. Is not all this based on the erroneous premise that there are two powers in this world? If there were only one power, God, would there be anything to struggle against or to battle? It is true that if we judge according to what we see and hear, there are two powers. But upon what are we basing our judgment? Are we not judging soley by appearances? Are we not judging by the evidence before us? The Master wanted us not to judge according to the appearance but to judge righteous judgment. If we judge righteously, which means bearing witness not to what we see or hear but to what unfolds spiritually from within, we shall soon discover the miracle and the mystery of this teaching: there are not two powers. There is only one.

In the Sermon on the Mount, we are shown the human way of life as we have been living it, but we are also given a glimpse of the spiritual life which can be attained and which is the most practical way of life there is because it is a life lived by a spiritual principle, and that spiritual principle is God: infinite, eternal, universal, omnipresent, omnipotent, and omniscient.”

This morning I set the sprinkler to run while I ran some errands. My first stop at Kroger’s to buy some food for myself. My second stop was at Paul’s Fruit Market to buy more food for myself. My third stop was at Walgreen’s Drug Store where I picked up a prescription, some Kleenexes, and more food for myself.

This afternoon I used the garden hose and watering wand to water the flower gardens beside the parking area in front of my home. Then I used the sprinkler to water the Ruins Mound Garden.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

May 11

The Details Of Daily Life

I am of the principality of heaven and of the nature of Love. I greet you in that consciousness which is the Love of Christ.

We find within this instrument the experience of wrestling with the dark angel of desire. For as the instrument’s brighter angel desires to tend towards the living Christ, yet the busy bee mind engages wholeheartedly and insistently in wrestling the attention towards smaller and smaller details of the daily life, so that all feeling of continuity and wholeness is lost and the earthen vessel which is the body seems in place for no reason except to attend to a myriad of details.

Yet it is truly said that great treasure may lie within and be reflected from and through just these earthen vessels. And so, the struggle is well continued.

Indeed, the simple knowledge that there is an alternative to a life without a unifying spirit enlivens and beautifies the intentions and thus the deeper desires of the pilgrim. The Holy Spirit of the living God wishes never to intrude but to invite the strength of Love to enliven the drab details of daily life. And so shall it be done. The struggle shall give way again and again to victory.

We leave you in the peace of the spirit’s continuing struggle to seek the full consciousness of Love, for that is only the surface appearance. What one seeks, one shall surely find. Peace to you, now and ever.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of Love and open our hearts minds, and souls to send Love, Light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite Love, Light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our Love, Light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Oxal, Yadda, and L/Leema channelings come from December 29, 1985:

(Carla channeling)

I am Oxal, and I greet you in the Love and in the Light of the one infinite Creator. It is our privilege and our blessing to be called to you this evening, and we thank you for the opportunity to share a few thoughts with you.

This evening we would speak to you about what you call time and space. It is difficult to approximate in your language the resonances of what these two words approximate, for we are speaking of that which is the material out of which your creation is made and that creative intelligence which creates that which is made. It is not unusual, we have found, that among your people time seems to pass more and more rapidly as one’s incarnational experience builds up, and that which is known as time passes. It must occur to many logical minds that the speeding of time is a kind of illusion within your illusion, for one cannot make mechanical objects such as your clocks that speed up the passage of time in concert with each person’s subjective perception of time.

Time and space have a reciprocal relationship and are allegories or analogs of Love and Light. As these forces impinge upon each seeker’s consciousness, they present to that seeker the possibility of experience. Indeed, another word for time is experience. It seems to be untrue that some moments contain more experience than others and, indeed, herein lies the crux of what we wish to impart to you this evening. When there is no distortion in space, each finite moment becomes a unified or cosmic moment and is a thing with the properties of timelessness. It is during timeless moments that experience is seated within the seeker.

In this session Oxal spoke about time and space. They began by saying this evening we would speak to you about time and space, and it is difficult to describe in your language the meaning of what these two words describe, for we are speaking of that which is the material out of which your creation is made and that creative intelligence which creates that which is made, but it is not unusual that among your people time seems to pass more rapidly as one’s incarnational experience builds up, and as time passes, so it must occur to many logical minds that the speeding up of time is a kind of illusion within your illusion, for one cannot make mechanical objects such as your clocks that speed up the passage of time in concert with each person’s subjective perception of time. Then Oxal said time and space have a binding relationship and are analogs of Love and Light, and as these forces infringe upon each seeker’s consciousness, they present to that seeker the possibility of experience, for another word for time is experience, but it seems to be untrue that some moments contain more experience than others, and here lies the heart of what we wish to share with to you this evening, for when there is no distortion in space, each finite moment becomes a cosmic moment and is a thing with the properties of timelessness, so it is during timeless moments that experience is seated within the seeker. On November 21, 2005, Q’uo spoke of the nature the cosmic moment:

What we would wish to do, then, rather than focusing on any detail, is to focus on the general nature of this cosmic moment. You dwell in a time that is coming to an end, and yet in your body, in your mind, and in your heart, you carry the seeds of the future within you.

As you are living your life, breathe in and breathe out, for you are planting seeds that shall be reaped by those that come after you. We ask you to plant the seeds of Love and faith with a happy heart and a peaceful mind.

As you see suffering from the energies of war and from the energies of a planet that is adjusting itself as it must to new energies and new life, we ask you to become ever calmer, reaching deeply down into your store of faith and hope.

Now, catalyst is given to each seeker moment by moment, and one needs only look to your young souls to see what can be made of the catalyst of the moment. Children, being less used to the wasting of moments instinctually approach and perceive each piece of catalyst as that which will become experience. There is an overwhelming amount of catalyst in each moment. The fullness of catalyst available in each moment begins, as the child grows into what you call adulthood, to become more of a burden than a pleasure, and as one is overwhelmed by one’s catalyst, one ceases to process it into experience. In other words, the space required to use one unit of time becomes distorted in a subjective sense so that the experience time offers buckles, and bends, and shrinks because that space with which time is inextricably paired has not room enough for the transformation of that which comes to the ear, and eye, and heart.

[Pause]

We apologize for the delay, but this instrument was distracted for a moment, and we wished to allow a deeper state of meditation to reoccur that our expressions might be clearer or, we should say, as full of clarity as language can form meaning.

When the seeker chooses consciously to use catalyst, that internal space which allows time to pass, is then of sufficient length to accept fully the catalyst and its possibility of being transformed into actual experience. When the seeker becomes bemused or distracted and partakes of the mundane, that seeker eliminates from conscious use much of the catalyst which the process of day-to-day living generates. When the seeker is ready to be conscious of the moment, that present moment being one with itself, that is, full of time and equally full of space, then the seeker has the opportunity to experience a timeless moment in which all time is one. Within this moment an infinite amount of work may be done in consciousness for the gradual transformation of the self into that being which each has the capability of claiming. Yet it is part of your birthright. What is a birthright, my friends, but something with which you were born? A birthright is not something one is given partially or unevenly. Yet a birthright need not be used, just as an inheritance may not be claimed by an heir who does not wish to experience the having of money.

Oxal continued by saying catalyst is given to each seeker moment by moment, and one needs only look to your young souls to see what can be made of the catalyst of the moment, for children, being less used to the wasting of moments, perceive each piece of catalyst as that which will become experience, so there is an overwhelming amount of catalyst in each moment, and the fullness of catalyst available in each moment begins, as the child grows into adulthood, to become more of a burden than a pleasure, and as one is overwhelmed by one’s catalyst, one ceases to process it into experience, yet the space required to use one unit of time becomes distorted in a subjective sense, so that the experience time offers shrinks because that space with which time is paired has not room enough for the transformation of that which comes to the ear, eye, and heart. Then Oxal said when the seeker chooses consciously to use catalyst, that internal space which allows time to pass is then of sufficient length to accept the catalyst and its possibility of being transformed into experience, but when the seeker becomes distracted and partakes of the mundane, that seeker eliminates from conscious use much of the catalyst which the process of day-to-day living generates, yet when the seeker is ready to be conscious of the present moment being one with itself that is full of time and space, then the seeker has the opportunity to experience a timeless moment in which all time is one, for within this moment an infinite amount of work may be done in consciousness for the transformation of the self into that being which each has the capability of claiming, yet it is part of your birthright, but a birthright is not something one is given partially, yet a birthright need not be used. On June 1, 1986, L/Leema described the transformation of our self:

While you are dwelling as space/time beings, the movement into time is a movement into a freedom from time in the illusory sense. We encourage that movement, as it will with continued use facilitate the efficiency with which the seeker may process experience and transform itself, and through the transformation of the self, effect the transformation of the greater consciousness which is that of family, society, nation, continent, planet, and creation itself.

Let us again look at the small child who is greedy of its birthright, and who spends a significant amount of your time in the timeless present moment. In more and more of your young beings at this time, one is able to observe a heightened intensity of seeking and a more rapid translation of catalyst into experience which is seated within the heart. How does one become, then, as a little child? It is written in your holy work known as the Bible that unless one is as a little child, one cannot enter the kingdom of heaven. This statement is simplistic as regards that which is called the kingdom of heaven, but again, language fails to be adequate to meaning and so we must attempt to use words as well as we can.

This is a present moment. What is your catalyst, my friends? Time may be wasted. We listen through this instrument’s ears, and we hear this instrument’s voice relaying concepts, some of which this instrument is unfamiliar with. We are aware of each vibratory complex which makes up each entity within this circle this evening. We hear the blessed sound of the furnace at work warming an otherwise frigid atmosphere. We find in each entity’s mind much unprocessed catalyst. That is what each brings to time. When one seeks distraction from heavy catalyst, one puckers and ruffles the ratio between time and space and time is literally shortened in a subjective sense, for there is less space with which to match it.

Then Oxal said let us look at the small child who is greedy of its birthright, and who spends time in the timeless present moment, so in more of your young beings at this time, one is able to observe a heightened intensity of seeking and a more rapid translation of catalyst into experience which is seated within the heart, for it is written in your Bible that unless one is as a little child, one cannot enter the kingdom of heaven, and this statement is simplistic as regards the kingdom of heaven, but language fails to be adequate in meaning, and so we attempt to use words as well as we can. Now Oxal said this is a present moment, and time may be wasted, for we listen through this instrument’s ears, and we hear this instrument’s voice relaying concepts, some of which this instrument is unfamiliar with, yet we are aware of each vibratory complex which makes up each entity within this circle this evening, for we hear the blessed sound of the furnace at work warming a frigid atmosphere, but we find in each entity’s mind This is a present moment. What is your catalyst, my friends? Time may be wasted. We listen through this instrument’s ears, and we hear this instrument’s voice relaying concepts, some of which this instrument is unfamiliar with. We are aware of each vibratory complex which makes up each entity within this circle this evening. We hear the blessed sound of the furnace at work warming an otherwise frigid atmosphere. We find in each entity’s mind much unprocessed catalyst. That is what each brings to time. When one seeks distraction from heavy catalyst, one puckers and ruffles the ratio between time and space and time is literally shortened in a subjective sense, for there is less space with which to match it. On December 2, 2002, Q’uo spoke of the nature of unprocessed catalyst:

This is impossible to predict before incarnation, either how catalyst will strike the entity within incarnation or to what depth the increased load of unprocessed experience may go. When such bank accounts of undigested experience rest within an entity so that the amount of unprocessed catalyst is over the full line for an entity in terms of incarnational energy then it is that the physical vehicle may gladly accept the disease in order to plead a sensible and timely period upon an incarnational pattern.

This is most helpful for the entity so that healing may occur as would be needed to create an atmosphere within which the entity somewhat healed from its travels in its personality shell through the incarnation may recover itself, take thought after its healing, and consult with its higher self and all guides in the construction of a new incarnation which would address those unresolved catalysts.

We use the term space not only in a physical sense but in a metaphysical sense in which space is analogous to the spaciousness of one’s point of view, or to put it another way, the room or area which is acceptable for using in the transformation of catalyst into seated experience. It is no wonder that so many of your people find time to move faster and faster. Nor is it a wonder that most entities are completely unaware of why this occurs. This is very understandable due to the fact that if one does not process catalyst in this present moment, it will be carried over into the next discrete unit of time/space. If then the catalyst of the second discrete unit of time/space is also unused, the next unit of time/space is increasingly burdened with unprocessed catalyst, and by the time one is counting one’s years with dismay rather than pride most of your people have such a load of old unprocessed catalyst that to open oneself to the catalyst in the present moment is almost unthinkable, and it certainly takes a great deal of courage to begin to open to all the catalyst, old and new, which forms the catalyst of this discrete time/space unit of your incarnation.

There are very few—but it is notable enough that we mention this—who are so efficient in processing catalyst in the present moment that space begins to buckle inward under the burden of successfully approached and used catalyst. In that case, the entity who seeks will find itself in the creation in a true sense for the first time, for when time begins its full operation there is the possibility of spacelessness or the unity of all space. In this distortion lies a compassion which cannot be approached except by those few among your people who have used catalyst with a fervor and enthusiasm and a conscious knowledge of the probity of such an exercise.

Now Oxal said we use the term space not only in a physical sense but in a metaphysical sense in which space is similar to the area which is acceptable for using in the transformation of catalyst into seated experience, and it is no wonder that many of your people find time to move faster, nor is it a wonder that most entities are unaware of why this occurs, for this is understandable due to the fact that if one does not process catalyst in this present moment, it will be carried over into the next unit of time/space, but if the catalyst of the second unit of time/space is also unused, the next unit of time/space is burdened with unprocessed catalyst, and by the time one is counting one’s years with dismay rather than pride most of your people have such a load of old unprocessed catalyst that to open oneself to the catalyst in the present moment is almost unthinkable, and it takes a great deal of courage to begin to open to all the catalyst, old and new, which forms the catalyst of this time/space unit of your incarnation. Oxal continued by saying there are few who are efficient in processing catalyst in the present moment that space begins to buckle inward under the burden of successfully used catalyst, so in that case the entity who seeks will find itself in the creation in a true sense for the first time, for when time begins its full operation there is the possibility of the unity of all space, and in this distortion lies a compassion which cannot be approached except by those few among your people who have used catalyst with a conscious knowledge of the effectiveness of such an exercise. On November 17, 2018, Q’uo described the goal of processing catalyst:

However, we would also suggest that the indigo ray is the seat of that self which is the One Creator manifested as the creative power of Love. This, when realized fully within any seeker of truth, gives such seeker a sense of worth, of self-worth as you might say, that it is able to see itself as the One Creator, whole and perfect, worthy in every respect, in order to continue processing catalyst so that there is the gaining of the knowledge of the self at each lower energy center in a way in which these various aspects of the self are then put together in the indigo-ray energy center, so that there is, then, a wholeness of being experienced by the seeker of truth.

This, then, is the ultimate utilization of the disciplines of the personality, for the personality is that which is adopted within each incarnational pattern as a means by which those pre-incarnative lessons have been programmed to color, in a certain fashion, according to the lessons deemed necessary for the incarnation by the self before the incarnation.

We offer these thoughts to you this evening in hopes that as your time passes upon the face of your clocks, it may be used, appreciated and harvested by your heart. The activity of meditation is a great help in the reconciling of catalyst with the self and the claiming of that catalyst as part of the experiential self which enjoys incarnation at this time. We hope that we have been of some small service to you this evening. We encourage you to discriminate for yourself. If our words have a sense which may aid you, then let that catalyst be used. It is for that purpose we attempt to serve. If that which we have to say does not appeal, we humbly ask that you drop all portions which disappoint or do not ring true. In this instrument’s mind is the first line of one of your popular songs, “Time is on my side.” This is very true, my friends. May you use your time and find timelessness. And with that timeless understanding, may you then turn to that Light which is space and manifest within that enlarged space that which is the harvest of your experience.

Oxal concluded by saying we offer these thoughts to you this evening in hopes that as your time passes upon the face of your clocks, it may be appreciated and harvested by your heart, and the activity of meditation is helpful in reconciling catalyst with the self and the claiming of that catalyst as part of the experiential self which enjoys incarnation at this time, so we hope that we have been of service to you this evening, but we encourage you to discriminate for yourself, so if our words have a sense which may aid you, then let that catalyst be used, and it is for that purpose we attempt to serve, but if that which we have to say does not appeal to you, we ask that you drop all portions which do not ring true, and in Carla’s mind is the first line of one of your popular songs, “Time is on my side,” for this is true, so may you use your time and find timelessness, and with that timeless understanding, may you turn to that Light which is space and manifest within that enlarged space that which is the harvest of your experience. On May 9, 2009, Q’uo described the nature of timelessness:

The so-called timeline is accurate as far as it is able to go, but it will be remembered that first density begins in timelessness and seventh density ends in timelessness. Consequently, there is far more to that heartbeat than linear time. And there is no translation that would enable us or anyone with the power of words alone to do justice to the nature of that timelessness. It can only be grasped as part of the infinity in which the creation exists.

We are those of Oxal, and we leave now that our brothers and sisters may speak through another instrument. We leave you in time and space, in the Love and in the Light of the One that is All. We leave you, knowing that it is impossible to leave you any more than we could leave ourselves, for you are our very selves and we yours. Thus, we cease speaking, yet are always as close to you as your desire would have it be. Adonai, my friends. Adonai vasu borragus.

(Carla channeling)

I Yadda. I greet you in the Love and the Light of our infinite Creator. We thank your group for calling us to you. We have missed the invitations and are happy to be with you. We not speak long but only a short bit of repartee.

We look at conversation which each has had in recent past, and we talk to you about the law. We are doing better with our accent, don’t you think? Heh! You are all lawyers, you people! Why are you so in love with laws? Do you think that if you obey all the laws of the land, all the laws of a… we must say another word—church. Do you think that if you obey the laws of your church, you will be a good person or one that is capable of advancing into some knowledge of the truth? My friends, there is no truth in that which is finite, for every law is made to be broken, and, indeed, laws are usually after the fact so that you have already broken the laws, and that is why the laws were made.

There is something called faith which defeats all laws. It is not in law but in faith that you are able to concentrate upon the business at hand. The business at hand is your spiritual development. The business at hand is seeking. The business at hand is learning. There is not motivation to learn in the law. You simply follow directions. This is a cookbook life, the law; take a little of Law Number One, take two tablespoons of Law Number Two, mix carefully with a batch of Laws Six, Seven, and Eight, and you will learn?! No, my friends, You will conform. There is a law for you and for you only. But this law is personal, intimate, and can only be found as a product of the faith that there is a truth beyond all that you see and hear. Your path is your law. That which you deem correct is correct for you. Please do not think we are encouraging you to go out and manhandle some small child. This would be breaking the law of man but requires no faith whatsoever. So, what requires faith, my friends? You do.

You close the cookbook. You shut up the mind, and you wait in faith for that meaning and central beingness which will develop within you. Do you think to yourself that you do not have the equipment to have faith? Not so, my friends. You have all that is necessary. We suggest that in your contemplations you look more and more to that within you which says against all visible and audible experience, “This is truth.” We suggest that you continue and continue and again continue, for there is something which we might call grace which aids the heart more and more as seeking continues. With each step taken in faith the next step does not become easier in the sense that your pa…

[Side one of the tape ends]

(Carla channeling)

I Yadda. We again with this instrument. She keep saying to us, “Do you come in the name of Christ?” We continue through this instrument. Taking one step in faith does not mean that the next step will be easier. However, it does mean that the experience of moving in faith will become something upon which one may count. The process is foreign to the everyday life, thus confidence must be built up little by little. We thank you for inviting us, and we especially greet the one known as J, and leave you in the Love and the Light of the infinite Creator. Believe upon yourselves as you believe in the rightness of creation. Believe it will withstand all the deprivations which your people perpetrate. I Yadda. I, an imperishable being, leave each of you who are also imperishable beings. We do not leave you in law. We leave you in the process of faith. Adonai. Adonai.

(Jim channeling)

I am L/Leema and am happy to greet each of you in the Love and the Light of the one infinite Creator. We have been having difficulty making contact with this instrument, for it has been in somewhat of a deeper state of meditation than is its normal practice, and he has had some difficulty in picking up our contact and making the necessary adjustment. We are happy to utilize this instrument to attempt to answer those queries which may be present.

May we now begin?

Carla: I have a question. In the Ra material the question was asked by the Questioner having to do with what percentage of planets or people who are in the first density, second density, and so forth through seventh. And Ra gave the answer that so many people were in first, second, third, fourth, and fifth and stopped there and stated that the last part could not be given. Simple addition indicated that that last portion which could not be given was twenty-four percent of the total mind/body/spirit complexes in creation, and Don never followed up on why the information about this remaining number might have been withheld. Could you shed some light on that stricture? My supposition has always had something to do with spiritual gravity and the turning back towards the Creator so it would be difficult to count, but that’s only a supposition. Any thoughts?

I am L/Leema. We observe the query and find that there are concepts involved which are difficult to describe. The nature of the journey is one of polarity. The positive and negative portions of the journey have expressions which are… we are having difficulty finding the correct terms. The manifestations of these choices are portions of your current experience. Some are available through the penetration of the outer portion of your illusion as a result of the seeker’s own efforts. There is a blending of efforts in a fashion which is almost impossible to describe which occurs at the density of unity, so that the description, for all intents and purposes, is meaningless.

We apologize for the delays and difficulties in utilizing this instrument but find that its level of meditation is somewhat close to the trance level, and it is having some difficulty in maintaining a clear contact not only with our contact but with its own consciousness, shall we say. Therefore, we suggest that this instrument be brought from its state and the meditation assume its completion. We are those of L/Leema, and we thank you for your patience. Adonai, my friends. Adonai vasu.

This morning the quote from The Thunder of Silence is: “In the time of Jesus, the Gentiles were the  pagans: They were the ones who lived after the flesh; they were the ones who did as so many of us do today; they took thought—much thought—about what they were to eat, drink, and wear. But Jesus reminds us that the truly Christian life is a dependence upon the Infinite Invisible; it is a life lived with the understanding that the Soul within us is our bread, wine, and water, that that Soul is our intelligence, the strength of our body and that which renews the body, making it youthful and harmonious for the purpose of wholesome and fruitful living.

To live without thinking thought is not sensible humanly, but as we find ourselves being fed from those inner waters of life eternal, our life is supported and maintained by the inner Soul-faculties. Living the spiritual standard, we live what in Christian terminology is called the life by Grace. There is that within us which we call our Soul, the substance of our Ife, upon which we can draw as we would upon our checking account, but with this difference. With a checking account we are limited to what we have deposited in the bank, but in the spiritual way of life we are limited only to what God has. We can draw upon our Soul for strength or wisdom, for all in our profession or even in driving an automobile, in running a business or a household.

When the spiritual capacities have been developed, there is absolutely no limit to what can be accomplished because it is not we who accomplish it. God it is who does these things. God it is who goes out invisibly into this world and experiences, and we find ourselves drawn to the place where we should be at the right time, receiving that which we should have.

Paul called it living by the Christ, letting the Christ live our life, letting the Christ do all things—not through muscles, not through bank accounts or by revenge, but through the Christ which strengthen us. To live by the Christ demands that we give up the personal sense of life with its reliance on physical force, human reasoning, and material resources.”

This afternoon I went outside and used the garden hose and sprayer to clean the filters of algae. Then I positioned the schemer so that the fountain would land in the fishpond just short of the plastic board that keeps the fountain from shooting out of the fishpond.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

May 10

Become Part Of Your Creation

I am the Spirit of Jesus the Christ, and I greet you in the fullness of the blessing of Love.

There is so much in a day that goes unnoticed; the beautiful color of the sky and the twitter of birds. Seen from the windows of your transport, the world seems surreal and apart from you.

Let it not be that way this day for you. Enter into the majesty and glory of the creation of the Father. Raise your hands in joy to the sky. Feel the life beneath your feet. Touch the living branches of the beautiful trees. Do these things as a blessing to yourself. For this beauty was made for you, and if your eyes do not appreciate it, it must bloom unseen. Become part of your creation this day. Find the peace and the joy that leaps from every living branch.

We leave you in that peace, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of Love and open our hearts minds, and souls to send Love, Light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite Love, Light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our Love, Light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Latwii, L/Leema, and Nona channelings come from December 15, 1985:

(Carla channeling)

I am Latwii, and we greet you in the Love and in the Light of the one infinite Creator, and we thank you for calling us this evening to your group. It is a privilege to share this meditation with you and to be able to attempt to be of service in our small way. We would share with you some thoughts upon the nature of that which you call judgment.

Once there was a boy with a wise father. This young man was eager to be of service and to show through his life the Love and the Light of the one infinite Creator. He questioned his father concerning all of the choices which presented themselves to him as he looked for the best way to be of service.

“Shall I go to be a soldier to protect my country and to stand for the ideals upon which our nation is founded?”

“That is a way to serve,” answered the wise father. The young man thought. This was not a “yes” nor was it a “no,” but as intensely as he questioned his father, his father would say no more.

“Shall I then be an athlete who can win the ears and the hearts of many because of my skill?”

“That would certainly be a way to be of service,” said the wise father. And he would say no more.

“Shall I learn to play and sing music and share that gift, and as I gain in fame, serve the many who listen to the words of my songs?” asked the young man of his father. The answer was the same.

The well-intentioned son suggested as many ways to be of service as he could think of. The father was no more in favor of one way than another.

Finally, exasperated, the son said, “Well, then, shall I become a hobo, to walk along the streets and the roads of the country and the city and get my living by asking for money from strangers?”

“That would be a way to be of service,” said the unruffled father.

By this time the son had become thoroughly upset. “I shall choose a life of crime,” he said to his father. “I shall take what I wish, go whither I wish, and experience the freedom of being above the law.”

“That is a way to be of service,” came the answer from the wise father.

For many days the young man pondered what he knew to be a secret which he had not discovered and that was how best to be of service. He was capable of doing many things, but could not choose among them.

As the young man’s life progressed onward, it shaped itself. The young man met and wed a young woman for whom he felt passion. Soon there were children, and he found what job he could and worked very hard to support his family. The young man became a man in his middle years, still as dedicated as ever to serving, but unable to puzzle out what he should have done. It was a source of anguish to him, for he knew he was not a wise man, only a good man. He was unable to give his sons the dispassionate advice that his father had given him, for he did not understand his father’s cryptic comment. But he questioned and continued questioning.

And as he grew in years, as his physical vehicle began to show the effects of the planet’s turning around the sun time after time, he felt that he had begun to penetrate that which his father was attempting to tell him so many years ago. So he went to his father, who was by then an aged man, and he said to him, “My father, it has been the goal of my life to be of service, and yet of all the things that I thought of, all of which you said would be helpful to others, I did none. Instead, I did that which I did not comprehend or anticipate. And many things have occurred. And I believe now that I begin to understand that which you say.”

“Very good, my son,” his father said, “Please tell me so that I may bask in the reflection of my wisdom.”

The son, never able to feel quite adult around his father, was suddenly bashful, for he was not sure, after all, that he had begun to understand.

“Well, father,” he faltered, “I think I have found that service is something I cannot see.”

“Very good, my son,” said his father. “What else?”

“Well,” continued the son, “I believe I have begun to see that I do not see very well.”

“Very good, my son,” said the father. “What else?”

The son mustered up his courage. “Father, I believe that I am of service, and that I cannot help being of service.”

“Sit down, my son,” said the delighted father, “for now we can talk together.

The son sat quickly, eager to listen to his beloved father unravel the riddle at last. The father pointed to the springtime flowers nodding in the breeze. “Which one of those flowers, my son, is not beautiful?”

“Oh, they are all beautiful,” answered the son.

“And upon what do you base this opinion?” asked the father.

“The evidence of my eyes and my nose and my touch,” said the son.

The father pointed to several flowers which had withered early.

“Do you find these beautiful?” the father asked.

“No,” replied the son, “they are dead. They should be removed from the bed. I did not see them before.”

“It is time for you to consider,” said his father, “whether you are alive or dead. For if you are alive, you are as beautiful and fragrant and lovely to the touch as any other human that dwells upon the planet. You may be a great president and run a country well; you may inspire by writing or by the singing of songs and poetry you may inspire many. You may heal or you may feed your family. Or, indeed, you may do nothing. But if you are alive within yourself, if you question rather than accepting blindly, then you are precisely as beautiful as those who share your condition, your illusion, and your density.”

My friends, it is most easy to judge yourself and others upon the basis of those things which you have accumulated within you which pass for knowledge among your people. And it seems, indeed, as if there is a striking variance among the great variety of peoples upon your planet, and so the illusion is intended to work. And yet because that which is metaphysical is by its very nature that which is unseen, there is no way to judge oneself or another upon the basis of opinion, for there is no knowledge from seeing the fruits of one’s labor of what the intentions and the desires of the laborer are. That which is action on the physical plane is illusory. That which is intended within the heart is of the spirit and is eternal. When you leave this particular incarnation, each of you shall gain a far wider viewpoint. You shall become what is now called your higher self, and shall dwell far more consciously within the Creator, and you shall judge yourself. You shall not look at the effects which you have produced within your environment, but rather at your state of mind and heart during the incarnational experience.

That, my friends, is why there is no judgment possible among people, and why there is acceptance of any road whatsoever that the seeker wishes to travel in order to enlarge its experience, for many are the experiences, yet one is the quest. Insofar as the quest is for light, for truth, for the one original Thought, just so shall one’s steps spiral ever upward as service is given. And insofar as the seeker looks for the effect, just so shall he be pulled into the illusion and away from service. We come not to give you answers as much as to encourage seeking. We have no dogma, although we do suggest meditation. We offer no structure except that structure which is builded by the student as a result of seeking. We do not want you to accept this or any material, and we take steps to remind groups such as yours that the last thing that we wish is to have our advice followed blindly. We want you to fight with this information, to question it, to doubt it, to work with it, and to make it your own.

In this session Latwii spoke about how we should not judge ourselves as we follow our spiritual path. They began by saying it is easy to judge yourself and others upon the basis of those things which you have accumulated within you which pass for knowledge, and it seems as if there is a variance among the variety of people upon your planet, and so the illusion is intended to work because that which is metaphysical is by its nature that which is unseen, and there is no way to judge oneself or another upon the basis of opinion, for there is no knowledge from seeing the fruits of one’s labor of what the intentions of the laborer are, but that which is action on the physical plane is illusory, and that which is intended within the heart is of the spirit and is eternal, so when you leave this incarnation each of you shall gain a wider viewpoint, and you shall become your higher self, and you shall dwell more consciously within the Creator, and you shall judge yourself, but you shall not look at the effects which you have produced within your environment, but at your state of mind and heart during the incarnational experience. Latwii went on to say that is why there is no judgment possible among people, and why there is acceptance of any road that the seeker wishes to travel in order to enlarge its experience, for many are the experiences, yet one is the quest, and insofar as the quest is for Light, for truth, for the one original Thought, just so shall one’s steps spiral ever upward as service is given, and insofar as the seeker looks for the effect, just so shall they be pulled into the illusion and away from service, but we come not to give you answers as much as to encourage seeking, for we have no dogma, although we do suggest meditation, and we offer no structure except that structure which is built by the student as a result of seeking, but we do not want you to accept this or any material, and we take steps to remind groups such as yours that the last thing that we wish is to have our advice followed blindly because we want you to question this information, to work with it, and to make it your own. On September 25, 2010, Q’uo spoke of the nature of judgement:

The function of judgment is to place within you a picture, a way to think, a way to be, a way to feel that you may examine for what you would consider to be virtue. My sister, there is no escaping judgment. The faculty of judgment or differentiation between various characteristics is part and parcel of the human personality. In an entity which has not yet chosen its polarity of service to others or service to self, the faculty of judgment is largely wasted, because that judgment is not questioned. As the parents taught, so the child thinks. As the society teaches, so the person thinks. As the companies give advertisements, so the consumer thinks. Judgment is infinite. And yet it goes nowhere for it is not questioned, it is not used except as a bat to hit at that which is other than that which the person has been taught to think is good.

In one who is aware, and alert, and attentive, the function of judgment in human experience is to bring from the hall of mirrors a thought to be used as grist for the mill. The seeking entity gazes upon that judgment and asks itself, “Where is the Love in this thought?” For there is Love in every corner, cranny, and nook of creation.

That question takes the seeking spirit on many wondrous side trips. Indeed, the entire hall of mirrors around you is designed for nothing as much as to give you opportunities to feel things, to react and respond to things, so that you have something to chew on, you have decisions to make, you have, shall we say, judgments to hand down to yourself.

In one who is oriented towards service to self, judgment will be refined and honed for its own uses: the inclusion of the elite, the exclusion of all others, the relegating of those others to the condition of slavery and non-humanhood.

In the hands of the mind and the heart of service to others oriented entities, the faculty of judgment is to bring to one’s attention some part of the personality shell or ego, some part of that self, that universal self, that is not yet recognized by the seeker as itself. Thusly, in a way you could see judgment as an indication of spiritual illness—and a solution to that judgment that separates as the medicament of Love that does not vary from the truth one iota, and yet finds the harmony in disparate things.

Spiritual seeking is not a hobby, although many take it up as a hobby and go on to something else when enough time has passed that the hobby becomes tiring and progress slows. We hope instead that you will see the illusion as a hobby that you have taken on for a few of your years. There are many things to play with in this illusion, many variations upon the game of being a human being, as you call yourselves. And if you can look at your experiences as points in a game, each of which offers opportunities for questioning, fighting, tearing apart and working with the experience, this attitude is an helpful one.

We do not wish to denigrate the nature of incarnational experience, we merely wish to point out the nature of the illusion. Learn from your own questions. We attempt to tell you enough of the rules of the game called incarnation that you may have many clues and may form your own tools with which to deal with your experience within this illusion. And yet the instantaneous product that you are, that instantaneous vibration which shall be judged, is a product not of how you have bent and molded the illusion, but of how you have worked within yourself to produce a being that lives a life that is full of light.

Then Latwii went on to say spiritual seeking is not a hobby, although many take it up as a hobby and go on to something else when enough time has passed that the hobby becomes tiring and progress slows, so we hope that you will see the illusion as a hobby that you have taken on for a few years, for there are many things to play with in this illusion, many variations upon the game of being a human being, and if you can look at your experiences as points in a game, each of which offers opportunities for questioning and working with the experience, this attitude is an helpful one. Then Latwii said we do not wish to criticize the nature of incarnational experience, but we wish to point out the nature of the illusion, so you may learn from your questions, and we attempt to tell you enough of the rules of the incarnation that you may have clues and may form tools with which to deal with your experience within this illusion, yet the being that you are, that instantaneous vibration which shall be judged, is a product not of how you have changed the illusion, but of how you have worked within yourself to produce a being that lives a life that is full of Light. On January 6, 1991, Q’uo described the nature of the illusion:

That is to say, that the nature of the illusion is helpful, so that, in order to transcend experience, one must enter freely into experience. The way to realization of the nature of the soul and the nature of the Creator is through the illusion, not around it in any way. It is when moving through experiences that are appropriately valued and respected that one may begin to transcend them, and to achieve an immediate awareness of the presence of Love, that is, the one infinite Creator.

Thusly, if you wish to move from shadow to Light, it is well first to realize that the search shall be in shadow, and that you shall be in the shadow more and more, in pain more and more, as you continue to learn, to evolve, and to grow. You are in pain because of the subjective nature of experience. It is painful to reprogram your computer, but as you go through especially traumatic experiences, or as you go through nontraumatic experiences in attentiveness, you begin to have the motivation to use each opportunity for learning amidst all the shadows.

The most apparently criminal of entities can choose under the press of experience to turn towards the Light and seek and be far more zealous for the good than those who have never experienced living the darker life. Indeed, there is no situation which is not also an opportunity, not just on one level, but several. We do not wish for you to become indifferent to your illusion. That would spoil the effect of the illusion. We wish, rather, that you continue to question that which lies beyond the illusion, to ask and ask and ask again, for as you ask, it shall be given you. And only as you ask shall it be given you; that which is not asked for is seldom used.

We wish for each of you to find the deeper and deeper satisfaction within your internal existence. We wish for you to refine more and more your own ideals of Love, and beauty, and service. But we do not wish to shape for you the life of mind and heart any more than the wise father would tell his son what path to take to be of service. Picture if you will the stars, and planets, and comets, and all the heavenly bodies racing with what seems to you incredible speed through incredible distances, hurtling through space. All is in motion, and yet all is in balance. This is a concept we would ask you to consider. We have suggested that it is a good thing to become a balanced entity, a clear channel through which Love and Light may flow, and yet we do not in any way wish to suggest stasis. Balance is not still, for you are never still, for the infinite consciousness of your mind and deep mind breathes in an infinite amount of time and space with movement.

Now Latwii said the criminal entities can choose under the press of experience to turn towards the Light and seek and be more zealous for the good than those who have never experienced living the darker life, for there is no situation which is not an opportunity on several levels, but we do not wish for you to become indifferent to your illusion, for that would spoil the effect of the illusion, so we wish that you continue to question that which lies beyond the illusion, for it shall be given you, and only as you ask shall it be given you since that which is not asked for is seldom used. Now Latwii said we wish for each of you to find the deeper satisfaction within your internal existence, and we wish for you to refine your ideals of Love, beauty, and service, but we do not wish to shape for you the life of mind and heart any more than the wise father would tell his son what path to take to be of service, so picture the stars, planets, and comets, and all the heavenly bodies racing at an incredible speed through space, for all is in motion, and all is in balance, and this is a concept we would ask you to consider, for we have suggested that it is a good thing to become a balanced entity, a clear channel through which Love and Light may flow, and yet we do not wish to suggest balance because balance is not still, for you are never still, for the infinite consciousness of your mind and deep mind breathes in an infinite amount of time and space with movement. On November 18, 1990, Q’uo spoke of the value of becoming a clear channel:

To describe such an entity by the density to those who honor this entity would be perhaps in some cases to skew this appreciation in an undue manner, which would obscure perhaps the message this entity had to offer. Each entity of this nature comes to serve those of this planetary vibration by hollowing the self in such a fashion that it becomes a pure and clear channel for the one Creator in order that information and inspiration of a certain nature may be offered. This is the message and the purpose of the incarnation for such an entity and each such entity wishes that the message might be delivered as clearly as possible with as little tendency towards distortion as possible.

It is not a wrong thing to seek the cave and become still and learn silence, and that is one path of service. Yet the son who loved a woman and had affection for his children and kept them as he would himself is of precisely as much service as the so-called holy man, if both hearts are equally full of the desire to serve and the continued questioning and discipline and refining of the way to serve. We wish that your movements through this incarnation may be graceful, and that your hearts may be increasingly full of peace as that which you find in the illusion reflects to you that which is within each part of any illusion in the creation. And that is Love. Can you suspend your judgment? We believe you can. Do you wish to? What level of seeking do you wish to pursue? What have you pursued this day? What dreams lie within your heart and what attempts have you made to become clear within yourself? We speak to you but not for you. All the choices are your own. We offer you support and our Love and encourage you to see that same Love and support in all situations.

Any experience which masters the seeking entity to the exclusion of questions and further seeking is not helpful, or shall we say, is of a far more limited kind of helpfulness. We offer you not a structure, not a dogma, but what limited knowledge we have of what consciousness is and how you may seek to evolve that consciousness within yourself within this illusory incarnation. Use what you will and know that that which serves may bear fruit upon the physical plane. Or that same impulse may seem…

[Side one of tape ends.]

(Carla channeling)

…or that same impulse may seem to flounder and be useless.

There is that within you which is imperishable and which carries the traces of those energies of love and service to others. These shall not be judged within this illusion, although many attempt that judgment. Therefore, take courage and find each your own truth and then use the truth that you have found to seek and seek and seek again, and to forge for yourself a life that is its own teaching, that is an expression, inwardly speaking, of all that has been learned.

Latwii went on to say it is not a wrong thing to seek the cave and become still and learn silence as that is one path of service, yet the son who loved a woman, and had affection for his children, and kept them as he would himself is of as much service as the holy man, if both hearts are equally full of the desire to serve and the continued discipline of the way to serve, so we wish that your movements through this incarnation may be graceful, and that your hearts may be full of peace as that which you find in the illusion reflects to you that which is within each part of any illusion in the creation, and that is Love, so: “Can you suspend your judgment? We believe you can. Do you wish to? What level of seeking do you wish to pursue? What have you pursued this day? What dreams lie within your heart and what attempts have you made to become clear within yourself?” Then Latwii said we speak to you but not for you, and all choices are your own, so we offer you support and our Love and encourage you to see that same Love and support in all situations. Latwii continued by saying any experience which masters the seeking entity to the exclusion of questions and further seeking is not helpful, and it is of a more limited kind of helpfulness, yet we offer you what limited knowledge we have of what consciousness is, and how you may seek to evolve that consciousness within yourself and this illusory incarnation, so use what you will and know that which serves may bear fruit upon the physical plane, for there is that within you which is imperishable and which carries the traces of those energies of Love and service to others, but these shall not be judged within this illusion, although many attempt that judgment, so take courage and find your truth, and then use the truth to seek again, and forge a life that is its own teaching, that is an expression of all that has been learned. On October 28, 2023, Q’uo described the energies of Love:

And you may then ask that these energies move out of your heart into those around you not just in your family or your community but move around the world to whatever location you feel needs the energies of Love, and acceptance in the seeing of each other as the Creator. You may ask that those energies of the full moon move into your blue-ray energy center. That of communication, that of clear communication, that of inspiration, that of sharing with anyone who would care to know about your spiritual journey more of what makes you tick, shall we say, in a spiritual sense so that you are able to speak to any person that asks you a question whether it is a friend, a neighbor, a stranger on the street, or any person whatsoever that requests any kind of a spiritually oriented kind of information.

We hope you are a little uncomfortable with this message, for that which is physical dislikes change. And what we urge upon you is continual reexamination which encourages change, perhaps not change in the outside world of experience, but certainly change that is equally uncomfortable within the heart, and the mind, and the understanding that you may have of how things work, of who you are, and of what service really is. May you seek in joy and may joy be added unto you, for the Creator laughs with great joy at every question, for so the Creator questions Itself and learns about the Creator.

Latwii concluded by saying we hope you are a little uncomfortable with this message, for that which is physical dislikes change, and what we urge upon you is continual reexamination which encourages change, perhaps not change in the outside world of experience, but certainly change that is equally uncomfortable within the heart, and the mind, and the understanding that you may have of how things work, of who you are, and of what service really is, so may you seek in joy, and may joy be added unto you, for the Creator laughs with great joy at every question, for so the Creator questions Itself and learns about the Creator. On May 11, 2024, Q’uo spoke of who we are:

This is, indeed, the case for as your mind, your body, and your spirit change. These changes are enhanced by your opening to them, seeking them and using the biophysical changes that you have mentioned as a means of accelerating the seeking of the change, the manifesting the expanding, and the making more personal and powerful your own journey of seeking both within yourself for more meaning of who you are, and without yourself for more meaning of how that you is expressing itself in the world around you.

Thus, you could say that your DNA is being multiplied in a fashion which gives you more opportunities for transformation. You are becoming, through your own faith and will, a greater being that has the opportunity to share the Love and Light of the Creator more fully and freely with those about you.

The portion known as Latwii bids farewell to this group in order that our brothers and sisters of L/Leema may speak through the one known as Jim. We leave you in the creation of Love and Light. Adonai. Adonai, my friends.

(Jim channeling)

I am L/Leema, and we are grateful to greet each of you in the Love and the Light of our one Creator. We are pleased to be able to utilize this instrument in our attempt to be of service. We hope that we may serve by answering those queries which those present may find value in the asking. May we now attempt any such query?

Carla: Well, since no one is asking an important question, I’ll ask a real dumb one. At the beginning of the meditation, I heard from Hatonn, Oxal and Latwii, and waited a considerable amount of time after I’d opened myself for channeling before I was able to tell which one was going to speak. Towards the end of the channeling, I again was feeling both Hatonn and Latwii. Who was talking? Was Latwii talking? And why was Hatonn there if Latwii was talking?

I am L/Leema, and we find that in this instance your ability to perceive the entities of Confederation known as Latwii and Hatonn was correct, in that those of Latwii were utilizing your instrument for the vocalizing of thoughts while those of Hatonn were providing a service by stabilizing, shall we say, the carrier wave or depth of your meditation in order that those of Latwii might utilize your instrument without undue fatigue, for their message was of some length and their normal effect upon your instrument is somewhat wearing. Therefore, it was decided that those of Hatonn could aid best this evening by anchoring the contact in your instrument by somewhat stepping down the voltage, as you may call it.

May we speak further, my sister, upon this query?

Carla: No, that fits with what was happening inside my head. Thank you.

I am L/Leema. We are grateful to you, my sister. Might we attempt another query?

Questioner: Yes, I have a question. I spoke earlier of an experience I had during meditation, either a dream, a consciousness projection, or something in which I seemed to see what I perceived as a very large space craft. Could you comment on this? If this was a dream was this, indeed, basically the same as a projection? Your thoughts.

I am L/Leema. We find that with this experience you are entering into a realm of your own subconscious mind in which were present those elements necessary for the interpretation and initiation of a somewhat expanded mode of perception that you are currently in the process of utilizing for another type of resource upon which to call in your seeking of what is known as the truth.

As an entity proceeds along this journey of seeking in a sincere and diligent fashion, there are opened to such a variety of avenues which can provide the information in the precise fashion which the entity will understand, and through which the entity may continue in its mode of seeking. Thus, this particular experience was but one of many which have the purpose of offering new opportunities for gathering experience and information that might prove helpful in answering those inner queries both asked and unasked.

May we answer further, my brother?

Questioner: I’m not sure if I completely understand. In other words, I believe you’re saying that the experience that I had was the work of my subconscious or my higher self of commenting on the validity of the direction that my seeking has been taking? Because I definitely had some doubt about some of the material I was reading, even though at the same time I fully believed it was possible. So, are you saying that this was the way I had of telling myself, telling my everyday self that this was, indeed, one of many valid ways of proceeding along my path? I believe that was what you said. Is that correct?

I am L/Leema, and we find that you are in part correct. However, the experience of which you speak was not so much a verification of the information which you had recently read as the experience was itself an outgrowth triggered by that information, and an outgrowth which is in itself an outgrowth that is in itself a portion of your journey which is now opening before you in response to your continued desire to seek what is called the truth.

May we answer further, my brother?

Questioner: No, I think I understand. Thank you.

I am L/Leema, and we thank you, my brother. Is there another query?

Carla: I’d sort of like to follow up on that a little bit. Carl Jung suggested that UFO’s were archetypical, and by that he meant subjective but projected. He felt that each archetype had some function. You speak as a UFO entity. If you are part of an archetype, what function does the visual UFO play? What function does it have?

I am L/Leema, and we find that you have asked a query which has many ramifications, for there is the experience of a phenomenon by many which is known generally as the UFO phenomenon. There are those who experience this phenomenon, or portions of it, in many unique ways and thus utilize this experience in fashions unique to the needs and perceptions of each who experiences it. Those who move in service in the crafts which are perceived as UFO’s are of many sources and natures. Many take the form or shape that is most easily perceived by the subconscious and conscious minds of those to whom they reach in service, and thus they are perceived in an outer fashion in a manner which shall cause the least distortion and trauma to those witnessing their presence. The message or service which is imparted is the portion of the experience of greatest import.

Again, this message may be perceived in many ways. As each entity is a portion of a greater mind that is archetypical in nature, each individual entity may utilize a portion of that mind or seek from a portion of that mind a message of the nature that matches their needs. Thus, various areas of one’s mind or being, shall we say, may be seeking, and various deeper portions of that mind or being may respond in a fashion which seems to be external to the self, and, indeed, many responses to such seeking may be aided by entities external to the seeker. Thus, there is a blending of response to a seeker’s call that blends both the seeker and its perceptions with a greater portion of that same seeker and those who guide this seeker and who are drawn to it according to the nature of the seeker, what is sought, and those who respond.

Carla asked: “Carl Jung suggested that UFO’s were archetypical, and by that he meant subjective but projected. He felt that each archetype had some function. You speak as a UFO entity. If you are part of an archetype, what function does the visual UFO play? What function does it have?” L/Leema replied by saying there is the experience of the UFO phenomenon, and there are those who experience this phenomenon in unique ways and utilize this experience in ways unique to the needs and perceptions of each who experiences it, for those who move in service in UFO’s are of many sources and natures, so many take the form that is easily perceived by the subconscious and conscious minds of those to whom they reach in service, and they are perceived in an outer fashion in a manner which shall cause the least trauma to those witnessing their presence, for the message which is shared is the portion of the experience of greatest importance. L/Leema went on to say this message may be perceived in many ways as each entity is a portion of a greater mind that is archetypical in nature, so each entity may seek from a portion of that mind a message of the nature that matches their needs, for various areas of one’s mind may be seeking, and various deeper portions of that mind may respond in a way which seems to be external to the self, and many responses to such seeking may be aided by entities external to the seeker, for there is a blending of response to a seeker’s call that blends both the seeker and its perceptions with a greater portion of that same seeker, and those who guide this seeker, and who are drawn to it according to the nature of the seeker, what is sought, and those who respond. On September 20, 1987, Q’uo spoke about our greater mind:

Each entity is utterly responsible for itself. The influences of early, late, and middle childhood, all influences whatever, let us say, are designed as catalyst, chosen by the self before incarnation, and encountered while the mind dwells within an illusion which keeps the entire mind from knowing how the greater mind hoped that the lesser mind would react. However, you will find that you and those who helped you before your incarnation used a fairly heavy hand with the hints that point the seeking self to do the work along the lines that were intense before incarnation. Again and again throughout an incarnation, you will find that there is a return and again a return to a particular theme of learning about Love and service, something that is difficult, something with which you grapple, and each time that you face it, you understand just a bit more, and you recognize the bones beneath the flesh of catalyst, so that you can say, “Aha, I know this anatomy. I have healed the break in these bones before.” And thus, little by little, you work with that lesson which you have given yourself to learn, healing more and more the distortion that you have wished to heal, and turning more and more to a clearer, more lucid perception of the great thought of Love, which is the life of all creation.

I am L/Leema. May we answer further, my sister?

Carla: I’ll have to read that one. Thank you.

I am L/Leema, we thank you, my sister. Might we attempt another query?

Carla: Not from me.

Questioner: Well, I have a couple of things I’d like to ask, but at this time I don’t think I know clearly just what I want to ask, so I believe I’ll put it off until another time.

I am L/Leema. We are happy and humbly so to have been able to speak with this small but vibrant group. We are hopeful that our meager attempts to serve have had some small success, and we again remind each that we do not have final answers. Our opinions and experiences are most fallible. Use those which feel the most helpful—leave the rest. We shall join you again. In joy we leave you. In Love and in Light we leave you. We are those of L/Leema. Adonai, my friends. Adonai.

This morning the quote from The Thunder of Silence is: “Every time we believe that there is something or somebody to be gained or won—some name, some fame, some fortune—we are at that very moment in violation of the spiritual principle of life which is givingness. As the offspring of God, the Spirit of God made flesh, all that God is we are, and all that God has is ours. To believe otherwise would be to break that relationship of oneness in much the same way as the prodigal son did when, thinking and believing that what he had was his own even though given to him originally by his father, he lived his riotous life, spent, and wasted his substance.

So it is with us, even if we begin by realizing that God is our wisdom, our supply, and God is our this, that, or the other thing, and then forget to continue acknowledging our Source and instead claim it and use it as if it were our own, often what we do is to deplete and exhaust that supply because in claiming anything as our own we thereby cut ourselves off from the Source, and such separation results in limitation.

In understanding God as the Source, there is nothing that we are spending—not strength, years, wisdom, substance, or life-force—because it was not ours to begin with. It is all pouring through us as we call upon it from an infinite Source. To believe in a limited supply is very much like gauging the water supply of a community by the amount of water in the pipes at any particular moment, forgetting that there is a reservoir close by and that that reservoir is constantly being replenished from the never-failing source of the rain and snow.

The conviction that it is our intelligence, our wisdom, our strength, our vitality, and our years that are being used stems from the ignorant belief that we of ourselves are something, and that the length of our life can be determined by using that generally accepted threescore years and ten as a measure. Had we been taught from the beginning the lesson that the Master has so plainly given us of our true relationship to God—that it is not our life that  is being lived but God’s life; it is not our strength that is being used, but God’s strength; it is not our understanding or supply that is infinite but God’s; and that we are but the instruments through which God pours It’s life forth to glorify Itself—we would long ago have realized that it is our function to live, not as ailing aging human beings, but as the image and likeness of God drawing upon God for our daily wisdom strength, and supply.”

At 10 am I went into the living room and arranged the chairs to accommodate the attendees who will be attending our last public channeling meditation of the season that starts at 1 pm today.

Today we had two instruments and six attendees. Some of the questions that were asked of Q’uo were: “How can we know that we are channeling our guides?” “What did my out of body extraterrestrial experience mean when I was 19 years old?” “What does Q’uo think about the government’s release of UFO experiences?” and “How can I tell it is my higher self that I am channeling?” I really enjoyed all of the spiritual seekers that were here today. I hope to see all of them again at some point in the future.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

May 9

You Are The Holy One

I am the spirit of Jesus the Christ, and I greet you in the full consciousness which is divine Love.

Sometimes it may seem that troubles surround you, that your easy path seems hedged in at every turn and filled with boulders difficult to climb over and impossible to remove.

It may seem to you that you are then comfortless. This is not so. The Spirit of Jesus the Christ lives in the world this day, this moment, and for you. You are the holy one we have come to comfort. You are the seeking saint we hope to console. You are the doubting spirit we hope to renew.

Share your responsibilities, your troubles and the difficulties of your path in prayer with those of us who love you most dearly. In that sharing there shall be joy amidst hardship and strength amidst weakness.

In joy, in strength and in peace we leave you now and ever. Amen.

[Carla chants a vocal melody.]

I am Nona. We send vibrations to the one known as R. We are with you in Love and Light. Adonai.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of Love and open our hearts minds, and souls to send Love, Light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite Love, Light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our Love, Light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Hatonn and Latwii channelings come from December 8, 1985:

(Carla channeling)

I am Hatonn. I greet you, my friends, in the Love and in the Light of our infinite Creator, and it is a great blessing for us to be able to make contact with you and to speak some humble words to you that may or may not have some significance to you at this time. We hope we may be of service to you, and it is in that spirit that we speak, as always.

Outside your domicile at this time the trees stand dignified, stately, and without reserve in their winter’s clothes of bark and root. The roadside shines pale in the dim light of your short day and your moon creates its special magic, shining luminously at this time of your year. All those things in your world of nature have gone home for their season of gestation and inner growth. Within the Earth the slow process of transformation has begun. And that which is home to the seed and tree nurtures, heals, and protects the delicate life within its mantle of soil.

And what of you? Each of you seeks a home. Let us go on a journey to find that most precious of all things. Each of you came into the incarnation in a geographical place, and some call this place home, and yet the new consciousness of the babe does not hold the concept of home and geography. The place where one of you may grow up may seem to be home, a home to which you return from time to time, a home which still feeds you in some way. And yet most of you find that one cannot find home once one has left it. As one grows, one finds work to do and many find a home in work. Many find themselves relaxed and comfortable in the work situation as they are not when they enter the domicile in which they dwell. Many others as they are grown make homes for themselves and again attach themselves to geography. Your people may call this putting down the roots or settling down.

In this session Hatonn spoke about how we can find our spiritual home. They began by saying outside your home at this time the trees stand stately and without reserve in their winter’s clothes of bark and root, and the roadside shines pale in the dim light of your short day, so your moon creates its magic, shining luminously at this time of year, for all those things in your world of nature have gone home for their season of inner growth, yet within the Earth the slow process of transformation has begun, and that which is home to the seed and tree nurtures the delicate life within its mantle of soil. Hatonn went on to say each of you seeks a home, so let us go on a journey to find that most precious of all things, for each of you came into the incarnation in a geographical place, and some call this place home, yet the new consciousness of the babe does not hold the concept of home, so the place where one of you may grow up may seem to be home to which you return from time to time, a home which still feeds you in some way, and yet most of you find that one cannot find home once one has left it because as one grows, one finds work to do, and many find a home in work, for many find themselves comfortable in the work situation as they are not when they enter the home in which they dwell, but others make homes for themselves and again attach themselves to geography, so your people call this settling down. On August 4, 2004, Q’uo described the nature of the concept of a home:

It is in this wise that we would confirm the feelings of the one known as P concerning his tendency to be one who develops an ever-stronger, shall we say, home within the particular geography within which he has found himself, so that he may be ever more able to feel that safety which is connected with the concept of home in an emotional sense and also in a spiritual sense. The land and the energies of any area are quite individual and alive, and the one known as P has been able to enter into the spirits of the land and the energies living upon that land wherever this entity has been. We would simply assure the one known as P that in any geographical location which resonates for this entity, the same enmeshing and familiarizing insertion into the niche within that particular geography will be forthcoming, as it is a gift connected with the challenge of being from elsewhere and has been brought into incarnation as a gift of personality where that ability to bond with the spirit of a location is given as an endowment of the personality shell.

And then, finally, there are many who find homes with other souls along the path of seeking. And so, it matters not where one is, for one has always the joy of the presence of the loved mate or friend about which to spin the home. We would like to take you further than this, my friends, in your search for home. We would like to take you into the smallest atom, to stand within that nexus of energy and to be given the eyes to see the path of creative power of articulated Light. This is your home, my friends, this is part of your home. We would take you with us away and further away, coming away from the planetary surface, moving towards that which you see as blackness. And as you move into what you call outer space and gaze back upon your beautiful planet, yours is now the larger view. You are a citizen of all that there is. And lest you think that geography has any lingering contact with home, let us bring you with us and fling ourselves all into unimaginable reaches of space and time, further than the largest of your telescopes can see, beyond the range of any human experience. You may fall into a planet of fire—and yet that is home. You may come upon a planet of ice as cold as absolute zero—and that is your home, your hospitable and welcoming home.

Now let us come back, slowly, so that you may see first your solar system and then the beauty of your planet. Let us walk among the streets of your cities and look into the faces of your people. Look into the eyes of the man who is poor and you see the Light of home. Gaze into the eyes of a couple in love. You are still home. Exchange glances with one who rapes and murders and lives a dark life. You are still home, for you are a citizen of the creation. You are part and parcel of everything that there is. What must needs be stripped away from the concept of home is all concept of physicality, for home is that which is invisible to the physical eye and unknowable to the physical apparatus. Your metaphysical home is a thing of mystery and omnipresence. You cannot leave home. There is no home to find. All places are familiar and all souls a part of you. How then can you shape your mind to ignore all of those rational and sensible signals of experience which inform you of a chauvinistic love for geography, political ideology, or any of the other reasons you may choose a physical home?

Then Hatonn said and there are many who find homes with other souls along the path of seeking, and it matters not where one is, for one has always the joy of the presence of the loved mate or friend about which to share the home, for we would like to take you further than this in your search for home, so we would like to take you into the smallest atom to stand within that nexus of energy and to be given the eyes to see the path of creative power of articulated Light, and this is part of your home, yet we would take you with us further away, coming away from the planetary surface, moving towards that which you see as blackness, and as you move into outer space and gaze back upon your planet, yours is now the larger view, for you are a citizen of all that there is, but if you think that geography has any contact with home, let us bring you with us and fling all of us into unimaginable reaches of space and time, further than the largest of your telescopes can see, beyond the range of any human experience. You may fall into a planet of fire, yet that is home, or you may come upon a planet of ice as cold as absolute zero, and that is your home. Hatonn continued by saying let us come back, slowly, so that you may see your solar system and then the beauty of your planet, and let us walk among the streets of your cities and look into the eyes of the man who is poor, and you see the Light of home, so gaze into the eyes of a couple in love, so you are still home, and exchange glances with one who rapes and murders and lives a dark life, but you are still home, for you are a citizen of creation, a part of everything that there is, and what needs to be stripped away from the concept of home is the concept of physicality, for home is that which is invisible to the physical eye and unknowable to the physical apparatus because your metaphysical home is a thing of mystery and omnipresence, for you cannot leave home, since there is no home to find, so all places are familiar, and all souls a part of you, so: “How can you shape your mind to ignore all of those rational and sensible signals of experience which inform you of a prejudiced love for geography, political ideology, or any of the other reasons you may choose a physical home?” On June 8, 1986, Yom described the nature of articulated Light:

Light itself, being alive and being the first creature created of Love, forms all that there is. It furthermore in its creative freedom surrounds and interpenetrates in original form the structures which have been created by the influence of Free Will upon Light. Thus, all that there is is not only made, mechanically speaking, of articulated Light, but is also interpenetrated by limitless Light, which some among your students of metaphysics call prana. We have, then, a vast array of crystalline structures, for you may term each atom a beginning crystalline structure, that is, the active elements are just beginning, some being without the need to bond with other elements, are themselves articulated. Each element has the capacity to bond with other elements and form either non-crystalline or crystalline structures.

We cannot see for you, and yet the silent ear and the closed eye hears and sees impeccably. Have you allowed your eye to see and your ear to hear this day, this day that is filled with all the joy that the word home suggests? We ask you to realize that that which is native to you, that which is part of you, that which is part of your life plan as devised by your higher self and offered as a feast for you, will come to you and will be your physical home. You may be fortunate in your geography, in your choice of mates, in your choice of professions, or in any of those ways which may make you find an identity or home. And yet, until you look for a home, for that in you which is eternal, that in you which is most precious, and that in which partakes of the mystery of the one infinite Creator, you have not begun seeking your true home, nor have you earned your citizenship in the creation.

And why should you look for a home that is so abstruse? May we say to you that it is, in our humble opinion, of utmost importance to place your consciousness where you feel you may find value in progressing and evolving spiritually. We do not suggest that you cease seeking harmony in your geographical location, in your work, or in relationships. Rather, we suggest that overshadowing any of these considerations is the home of your soul or spirit. Many there are who would have no idea of what I say, and to those people, we say, “Enjoy your sleep. Wake up when you wish to wake up, and let no word of ours interfere with the pleasure of your dreaming.” For seeking one’s spiritual home means the discipline of transformation, a transformation in thinking which eliminates limitations and makes all things in creation one great gigantic being full of Love, creative energy, and thought whose consciousness is evolving and whose great heart is beating and will continue to beat infinitely. This is the eternal home of the spirit, and you shall see one end of the creation to the other, one refinement of understanding after another, and always desire shall power you. Desire to seek beyond the bounds of your physical illusion for your identity and for your sense of security and home.

Hatonn went on to say we cannot see for you, yet the silent ear and the closed eye hears and sees impeccably, so we ask you to realize that part of your life plan as devised by your higher self and offered as a feast for you will come to you and will be your physical home, so you may be fortunate in your geography, in your choice of mates, in your choice of professions, or in any of those ways which may make you find a home, and until you look for a home, for that in you which is eternal, that in you which is most precious, and that in which partakes of the mystery of the one infinite Creator, you have not begun seeking your true home, nor have you earned your citizenship in the creation. Now Hatonn said it is of utmost importance to place your consciousness where you feel you may find value in evolving spiritually, but we do not suggest that you cease seeking harmony in your geographical location, in your work, or in relationships, so we suggest that casting a shadow over any of these considerations is the home of your soul, and many there are who would have no idea of what we say, and to those people, we say, “Enjoy your sleep. Wake up when you wish to wake up, and let no word of ours interfere with the pleasure of your dreaming,” for seeking one’s spiritual home means the discipline of transformation in thinking which eliminates limitations and makes all things in creation one great being full of Love whose consciousness is evolving and whose great heart is beating and will continue to beat infinitely because this is the eternal home of the spirit, and you shall see one end of the creation to the other, one refinement of understanding after another, and always desire shall power you, so desire to seek beyond the bounds of your physical illusion for your identity, your sense of security, and home. On August 5, 1984, Latwii described the great being full of Love:

As the viewpoint is widened and as Love is seen in those places and beings in which it was not previously seen, there is less and less seen to be a threat, until finally, all is seen as one Being, full of Love, and that Being is not only the self and not only a Creator which exists outside the self, but is all things, all thoughts, all experience. Thus, each seeker begins with a narrow point of view and travels the path of truth which then allows the experiences that will aid the seeker in widening the point of view and the point of Love.

As always, we suggest that the quickest and most efficient way to empower this desire to seek is meditation, and we encourage you to do that regularly, for there is much about which you may get excited within the illusion, but if your consciousness of yourself is that of a citizen of the creation, a co-creator with the One Who Is All, how can you then be so far removed by emotion from your home? The illusion may seem to take many homes away from you, but in reality you have never left home, you have merely veiled part of it from yourself so that you may come to an illusion and refine some lessons concerning how to Love one another. And how shall you Love one another, my friends? Freely and gladly, with a clear conscience and a pure heart. How wonderful that would be. The bare trees lean towards the whole creation in that Love and the seeds beneath the sod sleep contentedly in that same Love.

We have so much more consciousness than a tree or a seed. It is a question to ask oneself—why cannot we have the consciousness of purity which encompasses your natural life upon your planet? Lords of creation, you have been called, and like the lords, the gods, and other beings in your midst, you squabble and fight and do not see the Creator in each other and do not find a home in each other’s hearts many times. Seek harder, my friends. Seek your home, for your identity and your home are one.

Now Hatonn said we suggest that the most efficient way to empower this desire to seek is meditation, and we encourage you to do that regularly, for there is much about which you may get excited within the illusion, but if your consciousness of yourself is that of a co-Creator with the One Who Is All, the illusion may seem to take many homes away from you, but in reality you have never left home, for you have veiled part of it from yourself, so that you may come to an illusion and refine lessons concerning how to Love one another, and you shall Love one another freely and with a pure heart, so how wonderful that would be, for the trees lean towards the creation in that Love, and the seeds beneath the sod sleep in that same Love. Hatonn continued by saying we have more consciousness than a tree or a seed, and it is a question to ask oneself—why cannot we have the consciousness of purity which encompasses your natural life upon your planet? Then Hatonn said lords of creation you have been called, and like the lords and other beings in your midst, you fight and do not see the Creator in each other, for you do not find a home in each other’s hearts, so seek your home, for your identity and your home are one. On March 25, 2007, Q’uo said that we can see the Creator in each other:

And so the couple that wishes to express sacred sexuality and to become entities who serve in a certain way in the environment of planet Earth agree together, very consciously, to set forth on a journey together in which they woo each other with true affection and patience, in which they see the Creator in each other, and in which they feel the power of the Creator’s Love and the Creator’s Light. Each mate dedicates itself to loving the other unconditionally.

We would leave at this time, so that our brothers and sisters may speak. We leave you in the creation, produced by extravagant free will, born of Love, fashioned of Light. We thank you, and we leave you in peace, Love and Light, at home wherever you are and whoever you are. We are known to you as those of Hatonn. Adonai, my friends. Adonai vasu borragus.

(Jim channeling)

I am Latwii, and we also greet you in the Love and the Light of the one infinite Creator. It is again our privilege to join this group, and we are eager to begin with any queries which those present may have value in the asking. We hope that we may serve in some small way this evening, my friends. May we accept the first query?

Carla: Okay, I’ve been thinking lately, and especially today, about making 1986 a special year in that I would make more special efforts during the year to do more transformational work and get a better idea of who I am, and where I want to go. Could you comment on that and give any suggestions in general that you might find appropriate?

I am Latwii, and weare aware of your query, my sister. In the great search, each seeker shall find many ways to accelerate that journey. It is helpful from time to time to take a specific action that will have as its only goal the revealing of self to self, or as you have called it, the transformation of the small self into that which it truly is, the one Creator. The taking of time and the making of effort to construct a channel through which greater realizations might pour forth is most helpful to those who have consciously sought for a great portion of the life the truths that underlie all that which is known in your illusion as life.

The power behind such thoughts and actions is the power of your desire and your intentions, for by such desires are you moved in any direction according to the desire. As you have moved over a portion of time in a conscious fashion, it becomes more and more necessary for succeeding movements to be the product of further conscious choices. Thus, one who has consciously evolved over a period of time will find it difficult to maintain progress without further conscious choice and the setting aside of such portions of time in order that such desire might be further defined and might further enhance the evolutionary process. That you choose is of primary importance. What you choose and how you choose to make this progress manifest is of secondary importance, yet is important in its own way according to your unique needs. Thus, we can reaffirm the heart of your intentions or the desire to know the One and to serve the One in all is that portion of the seeking that is crucial and is that which is received that will be made manifest according to the strength of the desire, and as conscious attention continually focuses upon this desire, the seed shall be nurtured and shall produce the fruit. The fruit then shall further empower the journey as it nourishes the desire to know.

Carla asked: “I’ve been thinking lately, and especially today, about making 1986 a special year in that I would make more special efforts during the year to do more transformational work and get a better idea of who I am, and where I want to go. Could you comment on that and give any suggestions in general that you might find appropriate?”  Latwii replied in the great search, each seeker shall find many ways to accelerate that journey, so it is helpful to take a specific action that will have as its only goal the revealing of self to self, or as you have called it, the transformation of the small self into that which it truly is, the one Creator, for the taking of time and the making of effort to construct a channel through which greater realizations might pour forth is helpful to those who have consciously sought for a great portion of the life the truths that underlie all that which is known in your illusion as life. Now Latwii said the power behind such thoughts and actions is the power of your desire, for by such desires are you moved in any direction according to the desire, and as you have moved over a portion of time in a conscious fashion, it becomes necessary for succeeding movements to be the product of further conscious choices, for one who has consciously evolved over a period of time will find it difficult to maintain progress without further conscious choice and the setting aside of such portions of time in order that such desire might be defined and might enhance the evolutionary process, and that you choose is of primary importance, but what you choose and how you choose to make this progress manifest is of secondary importance, yet it is important in its own way according to your unique needs, for we can reaffirm the heart of your desire to know the One and to serve the One in all is that portion of the seeking that is crucial, and it is that which is received that will be made manifest according to the strength of the desire, and as conscious attention continually focuses upon this desire, the seed shall be nurtured and shall produce the fruit, so the fruit shall empower the journey as it nourishes the desire to know. On August 6, 1989, Latwii described our desire to know the Creator:

The desire that is at the heart of each life experience is in truth for each entity the desire to know the Creator, to know the self, to know the purpose for the life. Many have called this the seeking for the Holy Grail. This desire is at the heart of all creation, for it is the desire of the Creator, which is all creation, to know Itself. There are as many means of fulfilling this desire as there are portions of the creation.

There are many entities, such as those gathered here this evening, who have put form to this desire in a manner which has meaning to the entity. The form will undoubtedly vary from one entity to another because of the uniqueness that is the hallmark of this creation. Though the forms may vary there are certain attributes, shall we say, that are fundamentally of necessity in order for entities to take pleasure in sharing the parallel journeys that are moving each entity closer toward the desire to know the Creator. The ability to accept that which is other than and different than and even to find a fascination in that which is different from the self, is of paramount importance. The ability to open the mind and the perceptions to alternate expressions of selfhood and of the desire to know the Creator is far more important, shall we say, than sharing each step of the journey in a congruent fashion, for there is the enrichment that comes from contrast and comparison that does a great deal to enhance the journey of each because of the other’s differences.

May we answer further, my sister?

Carla: Yes. The second part of the question had to do with the tools that one might use for making the seeking more manifest. To be more specific, although I don’t know whether that helps or not, I was thinking about trying to write some things down on a regular basis, keep records of any important dreams, and any important thoughts, and maybe let a few automatic handwritings come through, and of course study the Sunday meditations and see how they’re going. Could you suggest other tools or suggest tools that are especially efficacious?

I am Latwii, and my sister, we would suggest that for any who has such a desire as you have described, the utilization of the phenomenon of dreams is most helpful, for if it is known that during the time you call sleep that one may do work in consciousness, and if it is consciously sought, the dreams that one experiences can be utilized in order to enhance the waking process of learning and serving, for within the state of dreams one is able to receive information in a fashion which is unlike most forms of communication in that the communication may proceed through the subconscious mind and by certain configurations produced there reveal to the seeker those areas within the self which remain dark and mysterious and await the discovery and then shall become portions of a transformed being.

Within the dream state it is also possible to receive the aid of those which serve as guides and guardians for the incarnational self. These entities, as well as the subconscious mind, stand ready at all time, as you would call it, to lend assistance to the conscious seeker in direct proportion to the strength of the desire of the seeker to know. The assistance is usually given in a manner which the seeker is most familiar with, thus inspirations and ideas and hunches from time to time are experienced by one who seeks in a manner that does not consciously utilize the dreams. If these dreaming experiences are made available to the seeker through its own desire, communication can proceed from these sources in a much more, shall we say, rich and fulfilling manner.

Carla also asked: The second part of the question had to do with the tools that one might use for making the seeking more manifest. To be more specific, although I don’t know whether that helps or not, I was thinking about trying to write some things down on a regular basis, keep records of any important dreams, and any important thoughts, and maybe let a few automatic handwritings come through, and of course study the Sunday meditations and see how they’re going. Could you suggest other tools or suggest tools that are especially efficacious?” Now Latwii said we would suggest that for any who has such a desire as you have described, the utilization of the phenomenon of dreams is helpful, for if it is known that during the time you sleep that one may do work in consciousness, and if it is consciously sought, the dreams that one experiences can be utilized in order to enhance the waking process of learning and serving, for within the state of dreams one is able to receive information in a fashion which is unlike most forms of communication in that the communication may proceed through the subconscious mind and reveal to the seeker those areas within the self which remain mysterious and await the discovery, and then they shall become portions of a transformed being. Latwii continued by saying within the dream state it is possible to receive the aid of those which serve as guides for the incarnational self, so these entities, as well as the subconscious mind, stand ready at all time to lend assistance to the conscious seeker in direct proportion to the strength of the desire of the seeker to know, and the assistance is given in a manner which the seeker is familiar with where inspirations are experienced by one who seeks in a manner that does not consciously utilize the dreams, yet if these dreaming experiences are made available to the seeker through its own desire, communication can proceed from these sources in a more fulfilling manner. On September 1, 2018, Q’uo spoke of the use of dreams to solve our problems:

If there is a kind of trauma within your life experience that seems so large and difficult with which to deal that you need extra help, shall we say, from your subconscious, in perhaps another fashion, we would recommend that you utilize your dreaming experiences. Take then, the tablet and the pencil, placed beside the bed, perhaps with a lighted source of some kind, a flashlight, shall we say, and be prepared to record any dream that comes when you are preceding the sleep time with mental contemplation upon the trauma that you have experienced. Your dreams can give you these clues, as can the automatic writing, as can the intuitional flash.

You have many sources upon which to draw, including your inner guides and those angelic presences that are drawn to you because of the nature of your own being and your seeking. Look, then, with both the conscious and subconscious minds, to the experience of being able to ask with a whole heart, from those portions of yourself and your guidance that they may aid you in your conception and perception of additional information that may aid your growth.

May we answer further, my sister?

Carla: Yes. I had asked a friend of mine to go on this transformational journey with me, and I wondered if there was more chance for polarization working with a companion than there is working alone or if it is all the same?

I am Latwii, and we find that it has been well said, my sister, that those who of like mind together seek shall far more surely find. That which one misses is more likely to be noticed by the other and vice versa. Thus, the old saying that two heads are better than one is surely true in any such endeavor, and we heartily encourage the joining of companions upon such a journey.

May we answer further, my sister?

Carla: No, thank you.

I am Latwii, and we thank you, as always, my sister. Is there another question?

[Pause]

I am Latwii. We find that the queries this evening are few. Yet we are not discouraged, my friends, for we know that the work that is done in any metaphysical sense is not measured in any ordinary terms. We thank each for inviting our presence this evening, and we hope that we have provided some small measure of service. We, as always, suggest that one take the portion that has meaning and leave all that which has none from our words. We thank you again for your gracious and ever-present invitation to join you in your meditations. We shall be with you again. We are those of Latwii. Adonai vasu borragus.

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This morning the quote from The Thunder of Silence is: “In the Sermon on the Mount the Master made a clear distinction between the Old Testament teaching, the ye-have-heard-it-said-of-old way, and the new teaching of My kingdom which is not of this world—something different from being merely a good person humanly, and living by the standard of two powers. Here was a complete departure from the old Hebraic teaching; here was a whole new standard which took no cognizance of either good or evil.

We can know how close we are to My kingdom by observing to what degree we still react to good and evil. How joyously do we react to the good, and how much are we disturbed by the bad?  In what measure are we becoming indifferent to either the human good or the human evil?

There is a spiritual kingdom, and dwelling in it would make us completely indifferent even to the good things of life. Only at the beginning of our journey on the spiritual path do we think that the ultimate goal is the improvement of our human experience, that doubling our income is a good demonstration or that having our heart, liver, or lungs function a little more normally—or even perfectly according to human standards—represents spiritual demonstration and is an indication of progress on the spiritual path.

The true demonstration that we should be seeking is not merely the increase of dollars or an improvement in health as desirable as they are, but rather it should be a rebirth, an entrance into that state of consciousness which is the My Kingdom not of this world.

If we want merely to be humanly happy, healthy, and wealthy we should remain nominal Christians because trying to follow the teaching of Christ Jesus demands a tremendous price, a strict and a disciplined way of life. True, there are inner joys untold and inner peace beyond the imagination but for a long time there will be a Soul-stirring struggle with the little devil called self—a struggle with the personal sense of “I,” “me,” and “mine”

We are responsible to a large extent for our lives as we find them at this moment, not responsible in the sense that it is necessarily the mistakes that we have consciously or unconsciously made or our deliberate transgressions and offenses, as much as because of our ignorance of life and life’s principles which has made us an easy prey to world beliefs. Had we been properly taught from infancy, and had we possessed a knowledge of spiritual law, we would have learned to avoid many of the discords in our experience. Certainly, the bulk of our trouble has been due to our ignorance of life, and even some of our good fortune may have come through what the world considers luck or fortuitous circumstances.

From our earliest years the desirability of being a go-getter, having a strong personality being dynamic, knowing what we want and going after it, and the importance of getting, achieving, and accomplishing have been impressed upon us, whereas those very qualities may be responsible for some of our problems because through these acquisitive traits of character we have undoubtedly violated spiritual law. Not only the bread that we have cast upon the waters has been gathered unto ourselves, but very often, depending upon the extent of our cleverness and oftentimes unscrupulousness, we have maneuvered so as to capture some things that belongs to others, and in doing this that violation of spiritual law was bound to react upon us. Similarly, whenever we have pushed or elbowed someone aside mentally or physically or reached out for that which is rightfully someone else’s in that degree have we also violated spiritual law.

Even that for which we have legally and legitimately struggled was sometimes the very thing that destroyed us because inasmuch as we are infinite and, according to the teaching of the Master, have within us all that the Father has, and any attempt to add to that infinity is in itself a violation of the law of God. To be spiritually attuned and live in accordance with the laws of God we must begin with the realization that all that the Father has is embodied within us—the bread of life and the wind of inspiration—the whole kingdom of God is established within us. Then instead of starting out in life with the idea of gaining, getting or achieving, we would reverse that, and our attitude would be one of serving, giving, bestowing, sharing, and co-operating. We would be living out from our withinness in the confidence and assurance that our joy is in sharing and cooperating. In such a state of consciousness our good on the human plane would be the reflex action of our giving and receiving.”

Later this morning I went outside and transplanted the Pansies in one of my flowerpots on the front porch to the small garden beside the parking area in front of my home. Then I transplanted a tray of Impatiens into the flowerpot where I just removed the Pansies.  Then I water both with fertilized water. Then I ran  two errands with my first stop being at Kroger’s where I bought some food for myself. My second stop was at Walgreen’s Drug Store where I bought more food for myself. When I got home I vacuumed the first floor of my home.

This afternoon I used Venus to cut all of the grass in the Magic Kingdom, as Carla always called our property. Then I used Huff and Puff to blow all of the walkways clean.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

May 8

The Garden Of The Spirit

I am of the principle of the full consciousness of Love.

I am the garden of your heart. I am the fountain of joy. I dwell in the midst of experience, and no creature is far from me at any time.

The difficulties of experience may seem like many waters separating the soul from Light, separating the thirsty one from wholesome drink. And yet the water of troubles is shallow. And with the feet under one, the soul may stand up into good air and see the fountain of life.

Know that if you are in trouble of any kind today, it is a shallow and unstable trouble, a mere shadow waiting only for the heart to pound with courage and faith, that the feet may be gathered under one and the soul’s body be thrust upright.

For truly it is said that man has never left the Garden of the spirit in any but the most shallow sense. A little round of salvation may seem large. Yet because it is a perfect circle you have never been without it.

We leave you in peace, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of Love and open our hearts minds, and souls to send Love, Light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite Love, Light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our Love, Light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of Love and open our hearts minds, and souls to send Love, Light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite Love, Light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our Love, Light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.