I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. The Hatonn and Latwii channeling for this session comes from March 10, 1985:

(Carla channeling)

I am Hatonn, and I greet you, my friends, in the Love and in the Light of our infinite Creator. It is a great privilege to be with you this evening. We come to serve, and we do our humble best but, as always, we ask you to discard and leave all that may be found unworthy.

Each of you has seen the picture of a drop of water which is then placed under ten times magnification, and then fifty times magnification, and so on until we are looking at the very nucleus of it and the surrounding electrons. You know, my friends, that each time you looked something had changed to that drop of water, something that was outside of that drop of water’s control. Scientists surrender to their technical informational equipment. It is left to those of the path to surrender in another way, and that is to welcome, accept, and encourage spiritual growth and change in themselves and others. What one may see as a drop of water, another may see ten times magnified and so forth. Each is looking at the same universe, caught whole and perfect in a microscope’s eye.

This is true, also, my friends, of you in your relationship with yourself, with the Creator, and with others. You must first be able to accept and like yourself in order to serve the one Creator with the most efficacious effect. One entity then may need one thing, and another another thing, but it is all the same experience, seen from different points of view. We are all studying, working, learning, and teaching. Yes, my friends, even you who are within third density have sometimes volunteered, as apples often do, to be of service in the subconscious of another entity. Getting to know yourself begins with meditation, is challenged by your creative responses to situations, and your future is melded from the manifestations of your inner seeking. Let us say for now that each instrument has found a balance that then they may then go forward to gaze upon the Creator, to experience Love for that great Logos which made us, the intimate and personal Love of a true father in a true family. In this part of your attempt at self-examination, we urge that time be taken at the end of the day, if possible, to jot down those things which you found profitable, and those things which you found difficult or harmful. Soon you will begin to detect a pattern. The pattern is the pattern of your manifestation which comes through your being from the great levels and touches the people about you. We see that the harsh winds of summer have blown your streets clear of snow, and we are aware that each has a somewhat more buoyant attitude towards this incarnation than [inaudible] its surprises during a period of this sort of weather than when the weather is dark and gloomy by its very nature…

In this session Hatonn speaks about our relationship with the Creator. They began by saying each of you has seen the picture of a drop of water which is then placed under ten times magnification, and then fifty times magnification, and so on until we are looking at the very nucleus of it and the surrounding electrons, and you know that each time you looked something had changed to that drop of water, something that was outside of that drop of water’s control, so scientists surrender to their technical information equipment, and it is left to those of the path to surrender in another way, for that is to accept and encourage spiritual growth and change in themselves and others, but what one may see as a drop of water, another may see ten times magnified and so forth, yet each is looking at the same universe, caught whole and perfect in a microscope’s eye. Now Hatonn said this is true of you in your relationship with yourself, with the Creator, and with others, and you must be able to accept yourself in order to serve the Creator with the best effect, so one entity may need one thing, and another another thing, but it is all the same experience, seen from different points of view, for we are all learning and teaching, yet even you who are within third density have sometimes volunteered to be of service in the subconscious of another entity, and getting to know yourself begins with meditation, is challenged by your creative responses to situations, and your future is melded from the manifestations of your inner seeking, or let us say that each instrument has found a balance that they may go forward to gaze upon the Creator, to experience Love for that great Logos which made us like the intimate Love of a father in a family, for in this part of your attempt at self-examination, we urge that time be taken at the end of the day to jot down those things which you found profitable, and those things which you found difficult, and soon you will begin to detect a pattern of your manifestation which comes through great levels of your being and touches the people about you, so we see that the harsh winds of summer have blown your streets clear of snow, and we are aware that each has a more buoyant attitude towards this incarnation. On October 11, 1987, Latwii described the levels of our inner seeking:

I am Latwii, and each time that you move into the silence of your inner seeking, be it in meditation, contemplation, prayer, or even that which you call the daydreaming, you move closer to those sources of inspiration, guidance, and assistance that constantly surround you. It is the placement of the focus of the inner attention that allows you to touch more closely and clearly that reality which underlies all illusion.

We should at this point transfer from this contact. I am Hatonn.

(Jim channeling)

I am Hatonn and greet you through this instrument in Love and Light. We appreciate the service of the one known as Carla, though her condition is somewhat marginal. We thank her for offering all she has in this service. To continue with our thought.

As your season moves from that which was the cold, windswept, barren and introspected into that season which begins the warming and nourishing of that which was the focus of the introspection, winter, there is a lightening of the hearts, a gladdening and a sparkle, shall we say, to the mind’s eye. This we see among your people at this time, and it is in your experience likened unto a magnification of the life pattern which surrounds you and through which you move at this time. The tendency of the winter season is to turn the eye inward that those portions of the self which have exercised their luxuriant summer’s growth, shall we say, might then be observed and considered for their harvest of that season that this harvest then might then be the foundation of yet another season’s cycle of growth.

It is always a joy to reap the harvest and then to consider the sowing for the new year, the new year for the growth of the spirit in your manifestation. You will move through this new season of growth, each in your own fashion, watering those planted ideas, thoughts, and tendencies that you feel have value in your continued journey. You shall also, according to your own discrimination, pluck those growths that seem as weeds and seem to hinder that spiritual journey which now finds a new level of realization within your life. As you use your discrimination to evaluate the experiences which are placed before you, and which you find yourself moving within, you must ever keep before your mind’s eye the purposes as you understand them for your movement and your growth, for many are the plants and forms of life within your garden of experience.

Then Hatonn speaks of how we move through the seasons of our spiritual journey. They continued by saying as your season moves from that which was cold and windswept into that season which begins the warming and nourishing of that which was the focus of the introspection—winter–there is a lightening of the hearts, a sparkle to the mind’s eye, so we see this among your people at this time, and it is in your experience likened unto a magnification of the life pattern which surrounds you and through which you move at this time, for the tendency of the winter season is to turn the eye inward that those portions of the self which have exercised their luxuriant summer’s growth might be observed and considered for their harvest of that season might then be the foundation of another season’s cycle of growth. Now Hatonn said it is always a joy to reap the harvest and then to consider the sowing for the new year and the growth of the spirit in your manifestation, and you will move through this new season of growth watering those planted thoughts and tendencies that you feel have value in your continued journey, but you shall also pluck those growths that seem as weeds and hinder that spiritual journey which now finds a new level of realization within your life, for as you use your discrimination to evaluate the experiences which are placed before you, and which you find yourself moving within, you must keep before your mind’s eye the purposes as you understand them for your movement and your growth, for many are the plants and forms of life within your garden of experience. On June 19, 2005, Q’uo spoke of how we may use our discrimination:

We cannot say to you whether this storytelling is a good idea. It is entirely a product of your own discernment and judgment. We can say to you that in choosing to tell a story you join a very long line of wise, magical people who have decided to access the realm of the archetypal by parable rather than by discussion. We encourage you to be fearless as you proceed to use your discrimination and your heart in the unfolding of this purpose that you have chosen. We encourage you to trust yourself and to have faith, absolute and unwavering faith, in yourself.

From one particular point of view, or shall we say power of magnification, a certain experience may seem very difficult and quite undesirable. It may, indeed, seem as the weed that needs the plucking and the removal from the garden of your experience. And yet, if you look deeper, my friends, and magnify your own perceptions inwardly and outwardly, you discover within that situation which seemed most difficult and undesirable, is the possibility of a great acceleration in your spiritual journey. For as you move through your illusion, the strength of spirit which is possible for you to gain is most often that which is gained, not with the ease of a feast table, plainly and easily set, but oftentimes is that experience which provides the most difficulty in surviving and evaluating for its value. The experiences which of necessity cause you to reach deeper within your own being in order to find means of achieving harmony with self and other self are those experiences which, as the sandpaper to the roughened board, smooth the spiritual journey in a very real and basic sense.

For as you move through your illusion, you shall discover that those times in which there was an ease of being and expression, and perhaps a happy contentment to go with them, there was less of that harvested of the spiritual nature, shall we say. Those experiences, on the other hand, which were very difficult at the time they appeared within one’s life may have provided one with the spiritual challenge that then yielded the harvest that was unrecognized at the time, yet at a later time, as you call it, became apparent to the inward-seeking eye. We cannot with any surety describe to you any particular set of circumstances which might be productive of this type of spiritual growth, for within each life pattern there is a unique potential for realizing such growth. Yet we can say to you that things are not always as they seem within one’s life. This is especially true for the seeker of what you call truth, for in the metaphysical sense, it is very difficult for one to determine one’s own progress and one’s own means of achieving this progress. You move within an illusion which…

Hatonn said from one point of view a certain experience may seem undesirable, yet if you look deeper and magnify your perceptions inwardly and outwardly, you discover within that situation which seemed undesirable, is the possibility of an acceleration in your spiritual journey, for as you move through your illusion, the strength of spirit which is possible for you to gain is often that which is gained, not with the ease of a feast table, easily set, but often is that experience which provides the most difficulty in surviving and evaluating for its value, for the experiences which cause you to reach deeper within your being in order to find means of achieving harmony with self and other self are those experiences which smooth the spiritual journey in a basic sense. Then Hatonn said for as you move through your illusion, you shall discover that those times in which there was an ease of being and a happy contentment, there was less of that harvested of the spiritual nature, but those experiences which were difficult at the time they appeared within one’s life may have provided one with the spiritual challenge that yielded the harvest that was unrecognized at the time, yet at a later time it became apparent to the inward-seeking eye, yet we cannot describe to you any circumstances which might be productive of this type of spiritual growth, for within each life pattern there is a unique potential for realizing such growth, yet we can say to you that things are not always as they seem within one’s life, and this is true for the seeker of truth, for in the metaphysical sense, it is difficult for one to determine one’s own progress and one’s own means of achieving this progress. On July 12, 1981, Hatonn describes the nature of our spiritual journey:

My brother, we would say to you that you recognize the success of the spiritual journey, if we will use that term, and you will accept it, is the task of each entity upon your plane. The success of the spiritual journey has one mark and one mark only in this density, and that is the mark of Love, the acceptance of all about you as part of the Creator, the giving and receiving of Love as the gift of the Creator. When you see any part of this mark in your life, in whatever direction you are seeking at that time, know that you are achieving, what might be called upon your plane, a successful journey.

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…moving in perfect harmony with the cycles and seasons and the rhythms of being. We shall leave you now, in an illusory sense only, for in truth we are always with you and always one. We are those of Hatonn. Adonai, my friends. Adonai vasu borragus.

(Jim channeling)

I am Latwii, and we greet you also, my friends, in the Love and the Light of our infinite Creator. We are happy to tread where those of Hatonn have left their footprints as well, and we offer our humble service in the same manner, asking that you take that which we give with, shall we say, your proverbial grain of salt. We are happy to offer ourselves in the attempt of answering your queries and we would ask at this time if there might be a query with which we might begin?

S: Latwii, is there anything that I can do to help R that I have not already attempted?

I am Latwii, and, my sister, we find that your efforts in this matter have been most exemplary. The most important portion of these efforts, as we have mentioned before, is that intention with which you begin and continue your workings. The desire which you manifest in these workings is that motivating force which many have called Love, and we can find no better word for this facet and function of experience that you now seek to express in order that another might find a greater balance within its own being. We suggest that you continue upon that path which you have firmly planted your feet upon.

May we answer you further, my sister?

S: No, thank you Latwii.

I am Latwii, and we thank you, my sister. Is there another query?

[Pause]

(Carla channeling)

I am Latwii, and we find that each person has taken one step backwards and left this volunteer to end. We do, indeed, end our stay with you with much reluctance but we glory in each of your beautiful colors, the vibrations of your being, and the energy fields that they have created. How beautiful you are, my friends. We are those of Latwii. We bid farewell in the Love and the Light of the one infinite Creator. We realize that there are some who would wish that we could walk among you, but that is not a safe thing to do, and so we speak to you, and so we are always available to you. We bid you farewell. Adonai. Adonai.

This morning the quote from The Thunder of Silence is: “What does it mean to accept the spiritual dispensation in our experience? Unless we understand what it is that constitutes this spiritual dispensation, we cannot be prepared to accept it.

Regardless of the fact that the majority of people pay lip service to a belief in God, many of them do not believe in God. True, they may believe that there is a God or have a belief about God, but they have no faith, no realization, no conviction because the nature of the bondman is to be in bondage to effect, to love, worship, and fear anything that has form, that is visible as effect. It may be bodily health: the heart, liver, or lungs, or it may be dollar bills, investments, or home, but the love and devotion and fear of most human beings are always directed at someone or something in the visible realm.

The son of the bondwoman is in bondage as long as some thought, thing, or person is necessary, and that is what constitutes human hood. The new covenant of the new creature begins in the moment we realize, “I and my Father are one, and all that the Father has is mine. I look in no other direction than to the Infinite Invisible. Then what appears from within, I share gloriously, freely, joyously.”

The transition into divine sonship brings about that change from faith in the visible to faith in the Infinite Invisible, in that which can never be seen, heard, tasted, touched, smelled, or even thought or reasoned There has to be a faith without a reason for that faith. There must be an all-consuming inner conviction which agrees with this faith, even while not knowing what it is: an inner instinct, an inner intuition, an inner grace.

“There shall no sign be given.” The signs follow them that believe. When the faith comes, the signs follow. If we are given any sign, any thing or that thought is that upon which our faith rests instead of upon the Invisible which is God.”

Later this morning I ran some errands with my first stop being at Feeder’s Supply where I bought some bird seed. My second stop was at Kroeger’s where I bought some food for myself. My last stop was at Paul’s Fruit Market where I bought some more food for myself.

This afternoon I went outside and used Whip Lash to weed the Ruins Mound and the Day Lily Garden along the south side of the garage.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

April 6

The Springtime Energy Of Cells

I am the Spirit of Love, and I greet you in the consciousness that is Jesus the Christ.

Your feet shall not stand upon the good earth all the day, yet within the mind and within the heart let yourselves never be removed from that primal energy source. Know that every fiber of your sweet planet’s natural growth, as it burgeons into springtime, expresses its energies in rejoicing, and that all who stand amongst the flowering may also feel that energy flowing.

And, indeed, all who can turn in mind to that same blooming may experience and be fed by that same joyous, springtime energy, for you are part of the creation of the Father. Feel within each cell the springtime energy of the creature that you are and bless each tendril of new energy, each lighter spring to the step, offering praise to the Creator of these cycles of life. May each cycle of your life spiral you closer to the consciousness of Christ.

We leave you in that consciousness, in that Love, and in that peace, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of Love and open our hearts minds, and souls to send Love, Light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite Love, Light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our Love, Light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. The Laitos and Latwii channelings for this session come from February 26, 1985:

Carla channeling)

I am Laitos. I greet, you my friends, in the Love and in the Light of the infinite Creator. It is a great pleasure to be here and to be able to use this instrument, and we thank you profoundly for offering us the opportunity to serve you. We ourselves get so much from the sharing of our humble thoughts and gifts that we can never thank you enough for allowing us to walk with you, to be with you and to aid you as you travel along the path of those who venture into unknown territory in search of invisible yet palpable truth. The process of channeling is in some ways simple enough that it confuses those who are attempting to learn the techniques involved. We do not ask you to refrain from discrimination. Indeed, we ask each entity who wishes to learn to become a vocal instrument to tune carefully, to remain surrounded in white Light, and to challenge each and every entity each and every time that entity appears.

There are those who become overconfident believing that they recognize the vibratory pattern of a certain contact. This is not the case. There are those who would wish to eliminate yet one more light giver by the simple expedient of mimicking the vibratory patterns of those such as we who wish nothing except to serve you. Paradoxically, we ourselves are greatly served. However, once that is understood, the simplicity of the channeling process is almost stunning. If one has the catcher’s mitt and the baseball is thrown, the catcher will catch that ball. However, he will immediately have to throw it again, hopefully with careful direction, in order that his glove is empty once again as the next ball hits the glove. It is difficult to catch ball after ball in the same glove. The contact is lost just as the concepts or the balls are lost if they fall upon the ground and the catcher who pitches is no longer able to function either as a catcher or a pitcher.

In this session Hatonn spoke of the process of learning to channel. They began by saying the process of channeling is in some ways simple enough that it confuses those who are attempting to learn the techniques involved, so we do not ask you to refrain from discrimination, but we ask each entity who wishes to learn to become a vocal instrument to tune carefully, to remain surrounded in white Light, and to challenge each and every entity each and every time that entity appears. Hatonn went on to say there are those who become overconfident believing that they recognize the vibratory pattern of a certain contact, but this is not the case, for there are those who would wish to eliminate one more light giver by mimicking the vibratory patterns of those such as we who wish nothing except to serve you, and paradoxically, we ourselves are served, so once that is understood, the simplicity of the channeling process is stunning, and if one has the catcher’s mitt, and the baseball is thrown, the catcher will catch that ball, but he will immediately have to throw it again in order that his glove is empty once again as the next ball hits the glove, for it is difficult to catch ball after ball in the same glove, and the contact is lost just as the concepts or the balls are lost if they fall upon the ground, and the catcher who pitches is no longer able to function either as a catcher or a pitcher. On March 25, 1987, Quanta spoke of the necessity of carefully tuning as an instrument before channeling any contact:

I am Quanta, and at this stage of your experience of the vocal channeling we may recommend that practice upon that which you have devised is by far the most efficacious means by which to improve your art. As you choose that means by which you tune your instrument and the means by which you offer a challenge of the nature of any spirit or entity who wishes to speak through your instrument, you then intensify this technique by practicing it, and thus do you empower that which you have chosen by the repetition.

This is the way of channeling. We work, as this instrument has mentioned, within the levels of the mind which throw off to your conscious minds the concepts which you then clothe consciously with a vocabulary. We do this for two reasons. Firstly, the state of mind in meditation is such that this is the level which is most properly used. The second is that the one who channels must experience the thoughts and then have the responsibility of using their power of visualization, their vocabulary, their experience, and their being to produce a unique communication. We by no means wish to be one hundred percent responsible for the content of the message. We wish approximately twenty-five to thirty percent of the message to be shaped by the instrument who calls upon their vocabulary, their imagination, and their special gifts as a person.

Thus, our very simple message gains a multitude of various conveyances by means of which the person which cannot grasp the poetic will yet have the opportunity to grasp the practical and down-to-earth, and the person who cannot grasp either of those approaches easily still has an opportunity to listen to a scientific or technical mind analyzing and giving forth the same message. This is why vocal channeling is a partnership. Unlike a trance channel, the vocal channel is alert, and though relaxed, quite awake and able to discriminate. This is our chosen method of speaking to those who would wish to hear.

Then Hatonn said this is the way of channeling, and we work as Carla within the levels of the mind which throw off to your conscious minds the concepts which you clothe with a vocabulary, and we do this for two reasons, so first the state of mind in meditation is such that this is the level which is most properly used, so the second is that one who channels must experience the thoughts and then have the responsibility of using their vocabulary, their experience, and their being to produce an unique communication, but we don’t wish to be one hundred percent responsible for the content of the message, yet we wish approximately twenty-five to thirty percent of the message to be shaped by the instrument who calls upon their vocabulary and their gifts as a person. Hatonn continued by saying our message gains a multitude of various levels by which the person who cannot grasp the poetic will have the opportunity to grasp the practical, and the person who cannot grasp either of those approaches still has an opportunity to listen to a technical mind analyzing and giving the same message, for this is why vocal channeling is a partnership, but unlike a trance channel, the vocal channel is alert and able to discriminate, so this is our method of speaking to those who would wish to hear. On October 8, 1986, Laitos spoke of the basic nature of vocal channeling:

I am indeed Laitos, and have been working with you, my sister, as we have been working with each instrument within this dwelling. Each, however, receives a different kind of assistance, for each is working upon slightly different facets of the same phenomenon. With your particular instrument, we find that it is often helpful to stimulate, as you call it, the more experienced instrument in a manner which will allow it at any future time, as you would call it, to pursue the practice of vocal channeling with increased facility. In your particular case, we are working with the deeper levels of your mind complex in order to aid the transmission of word-by-word thoughts. We are, you might say, at once sensitizing your instrument and stabilizing it as well.

We are most grateful for the opportunity to work with the one known as J. We shall begin with several times of making the conditioning vibration known to the one known as J in order that the entity may feel the presence of us and may then feel when we are gone. We shall pause, speak again through this instrument, then pause again several times. We shall now work with the instrument known as J, and so we do pause. I am Laitos.

[Pause]

I am again with this instrument. I am Laitos. We have made a contact. We are pleased with the initial strength and shall once again move to the one known as J while he rests and experiences our vibrations. I am Laitos.

[Pause]

I am again with this instrument. We are adjusting our vibrations at this time to match the vibratory frequencies of the one known as J. This is normal. We shall attempt to refrain from causing discomfort. We shall one more time silently greet the one known as J. I am Laitos.

[Pause]

I am Laitos. We do apologize to this instrument for the strength of the conditioning. We understand that this instrument is sensitive and do not mean to cause discomfort to this instrument either. However, it is necessary to use other frequencies when dealing with other vibratory patterns. We are aware that this instrument has given us permission to make her a bit uncomfortable, and we now continue by working with the one known as J in the following manner. After we have transferred the contact from this instrument, we shall continue sending one phrase and one phrase only. That phrase, of course, is “I am Laitos.” It will feel as if the new channel has thought that themself. This is the first barrier which must be breached in order to begin the process of becoming an instrument. It will be months before you are convinced that we, indeed, are not simply a portion of your inner mind. We ask that the new instrument relax, remove any preconceptions and wait for the concept to come into the mind, the impulse to come into the mind to say, “I am Laitos.” The instrument may repeat this phrase as many times as desired in order to calculate the movements of energy when speaking and when pausing. Please do not analyze what is going on at this point, for there is no intellectual substance to that which we are attempting to teach but only heartfelt desire to serve and to learn in order to serve the better.

We shall now transfer to the one known as J. I am Laitos.

[Pause]

I am again with this instrument. I am Laitos. We find the one known as J to have indulged in the analyzing of that simple phrase. We have also made a good deal of progress in adjusting our vibrations towards this entity’s needs. We would ask the one known as J to suspend the judgment and play the fool by stepping off the safe ground into the thin air. This is not an exercise in so-called psychic phenomena. This is an exercise in sharing information about metaphysical subjects. There is no phenomenon except the material itself which is being recorded. There are no bent spoons; there is no healing; we are here only to inspire. Therefore, we use always the light touch. However, in order to be a channel, in order to join those who wish to offer light on a non-judgmental or non-dogmatic basis, it is necessary to refrain from analyzing and to feel trust in the process itself. This instrument took a good deal of time to develop to the extent which she has, and she is still working upon becoming a more finely tuned channel.

However, the process itself will not begin until tuning and challenging having been done satisfactorily; the instrument clears the channel through which thoughts will come; and then speaks the things which come into the mind freely and without thought, using the faith that such information is worthwhile, and that our techniques are designed to infringe as little as possible upon the free will of the instrument.

We shall attempt to do something a little different this time as we find that the new instrument is caught upon the one phrase, “I am Laitos.” Therefore, we shall send that phrase, and we shall be ready to send any other phrases which this instrument succeeds in clearing through the mechanism of speaking so that we may send the next concept to the instrument. Again, we transfer to the one known as J. I am Laitos.

[Pause]

I am Laitos. We again ask the instrument to repeat without hesitation that which comes into the mind. The analyzing causes a stoppage in the channeling. Repeat immediately that which comes to the mind. We shall again transfer. I am Laitos.

[Pause]

I am Laitos, and we feel that there has been enough conditioning for one session. We do not wish to weary the instrument before it even begins its work. However, we assure you that work has been done. We are beginning to be able to blend far better with the vibratory pattern of the one known as J, and we hope that the back and the neck pain are not as severe as earlier. We have been attempting to adjust. We thank the one known as J for offering us the opportunity to work with this entity. We are most grateful. We find this group to be a most blessed and happy source of light.

We have greatly enjoyed experiencing some time, as you call it, with you and of course are always available when mentally requested, although we do not speak voluntarily except within a group such as this one, for the new instrument may easily be led astray by those who are clever and have messages which are different from ours, and which cause the elitism that has fueled so many of your peoples’ wars and other catastrophes made by humanity.

We leave you, being within the same creation as you; therefore, we cannot be apart. We leave you in universal Love and Light, we leave you in the care of the One Who Is All. We are Laitos. Adonai.

(Jim channeling)

I am Latwii, and we greet you, my friends, in the Love and the Light of the infinite Creator. We are overjoyed to be called again to this group, and we would offer ourselves in the attempt to answer queries which might be in order at this time. May we ask if there is a query with which we might attempt to be of service?

Carla: How could I help new channels more than I am helping them?

I am Latwii, and, my sister, we find that even with one such as yourself who is experienced as an instrument, the process of aiding another is always and ever the same, for you as an instrument wishing to be of service can only do that which is available to you through your own opening of desire. As you attempt to be of service to others there will be the opportunities that you will note. You will, without hesitation, seek these opportunities and offer that which is in you and with you and which can come through you, offering that as the bread cast upon the water without the dedication to any particular outcome, for that which is freely given is the true gift. To worry overmuch about forming the fruit of such a gift then tends to distort that gift in some manner.

May we answer you further, my sister?

Carla: Well, what you said is very true, but what I wondered was if there was something that I could do that I wasn’t doing just to do my job better.

I am Latwii, and we find that your efforts are quite sufficient, my sister. May we answer further or perhaps another query?

Carla: Not from me, thank you.

I am Latwii, and we see that our duty this evening is a short one, yet we are overjoyed to be able to serve even for a brief period of what you call time, for as we walk with you upon your journey of seeking the truth, we walk with the one Creator. We thank you; we bless you; and we shall at this time leave this group, rejoicing always in the power and the peace, the Love and the Light of the one Creator. We are those of Latwii. Adonai, my friends. Adonai vasu.

This morning the quote from The Thunder of Silence is: “The time has come now, not to think in terms of being healthy or wealthy: The time has come to think in terms of being spiritual. The time has come to think of being, of having that Spirit of God indwelling so that we may claim our heritage as children of God, “joint-heirs with Christ” to all the heavenly riches. The time has come when we have to give thought to this: If we are crucified, can we rise from the tomb? If we are crucified, whether on the cross or through the calendar, can we rise and walk this very Earth again in a physical body—speak, eat, and drink?

It must come to every single one of us that there is something more to life than being healthy and having abundance. There is something more to life than just walking around this Earth enjoying ourselves. There is something more to life, and that is Life. Life is eternal, a Life that knows no grave, a Life that knows no infirmity, a Life that knows no sin, no poverty, no war, no lack. Can this Life be achieved?

Everyone who attains a tiny grain of spiritual vision can help in the attainment of this Life by healing the physical, mental, moral, and financial ills of their neighbor. We can help one another to a greater sense of abundance, and we can reveal spiritual truth and impart it, thereby helping our neighbor along the way. But that is as far as we can go.

After that, each one has to “die” within their own consciousness to the old person so that the new person can be born. Each one has to do that for themselves by recognizing that it can be done, and that there are those who have been on Earth who have never died, and if we can rise high enough in consciousness, we can tabernacle with them.

There are those who hold communion right now with Christ Jesus, with Moses, Abraham, Lao-tse, Buddha, and John. Why not? We can commune with friends who are sitting beside us. “Ah,” but you say, “my friends are alive.” And so are these other great Souls. No person ever dies after they have had spiritual illumination. A single bit of realization that there is more to life than matter, more to life than meets the eye, even that is enough illumination to prevent one from ever dying. It takes only a grain of God consciousness.”

This morning I went outside and continued working on the small stone wall between the fishpond and the Vanilla/Strawberry Hydrangea. I was able to complete the stone wall’s last three feet!

This afternoon I went back outside and used the garden hose and sprayer to clean the filters on the fishpond. Then I drained half of the water out of the fishpond. While the water was draining out I put all of the left-over stones in the area of the pet cemetery that has a wall of stones most of the way to the end of the pet cemetery. While the water was refilling in the fishpond I took my speed walk. When I got back I put three cups of Aquasafe into the fishpond to neutralize the chlorine.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

April 5

Retreat From A Weary World

I am the Spirit of the living God, and I greet you in the full consciousness of that Love which is the essence of Jesus the Christ.

As you experience these words, experience too the energy and the atmosphere that accompanies them. Feel the presence of the Spirit of Love moving into your heart, filling your mind, bathing you in Light and peace and tickling your fancy to laughter, merriment and lightness. Feel the lightness and the joy of Love that is pure, open, giving, and unconditional.

This is your paradise. This is your heaven. This is your retreat from the woes of a weary world. Do not lose this place during your experiences this day. Come back into this consciousness, and we shall be there, and you shall be consoled, comforted, strengthened, and enabled. These promises we leave with you.

These promises await you peacefully, joyfully, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of Love and open our hearts minds, and souls to send Love, Light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite Love, Light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our Love, Light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Hatonn, Oxal, and Latwii channelings for this session come from February 10, 1985:

(Carla channeling)

I am Hatonn. I greet you in the Love and the Light of our infinite Creator. It is a great pleasure to be with you this evening, to share in your lives for this period of what you call time, to embrace with you seeking for the truth.

This evening we would speak to you about that portion of seeking which is involved in manifestation. To put it another way, we would speak with you about service to others. When each individual embarks upon the spiritual journey, there is a time when the seeds of seeking are tender and young and need to be guarded carefully and in private. This is usually known instinctively by seekers. They feel fragile and, indeed, they are fragile as very small children are fragile, unable to defend themselves within the new life and environment of seeking. As the seeker pursues the journey, however, there is another stage which might be called that of adolescence, spiritually speaking. The seeker becomes excited by the power and mystery of the excellence of the path and is often on fire with the desire to share with others the awakening which they may have had.

To put this in a more general context, regardless of the desire and its nature, any desire to serve another is prone to the folly of spiritual adolescence. There is a great disillusionment involved furthermore and an ensuing bitterness which we would at all costs urge each to remove from the being if possible by nipping the adolescent spiritual self in the bud and studying and then living those portions of what we have to say that seem worthwhile to you this evening. Each individual is a mystery, for the Creator is a mystery. Could the co-Creator then be less? Further, each individual is unique, and thus each mystery is unique. Within the well-intentioned there is such a desire to be of service, such a desire to polarize and to learn a better way of being that it is easy to find oneself deciding what is needed for another. The excitement of the spiritual path is relayed and there is often puzzlement and sad feeling when the attempt to serve is not accepted but is, rather, rebuffed.

In this session Hatonn spoke about the concept of service to others. They began by saying this evening we would speak with you about service to others, so when each individual embarks upon the spiritual journey, there is a time when the seeds of seeking are young and need to be guarded in private, and this is known instinctively by seekers, for they are fragile as small children are fragile, unable to defend themselves within the new life and environment of seeking, but as the seeker pursues the journey there is another stage which is called adolescence, spiritually speaking, so the seeker becomes excited by the power and mystery of the excellence of the path and is often on fire with the desire to share with others the awakening which they may have had. Hatonn went on to say to put this in a general context, any desire to serve another is prone to the folly of spiritual adolescence, for there is a disillusionment involved and a bitterness which we would urge each to remove from the being if possible by nipping the adolescent spiritual self in the bud, and studying, and then living those portions of what we have to say that seem worthwhile to you this evening, and each individual is a mystery, for the Creator is a mystery, so each individual is unique, and each mystery is unique, so within the well-intentioned there is a desire to be of service and learn a better way of being that it is easy to find oneself deciding what is needed for another, and the excitement of the spiritual path is relayed, so there is often puzzlement and sad feeling when the attempt to serve is not accepted but is rebuffed. On December 6, 1981, Latwii suggested how we may be of service:

We must also reiterate that we cannot give specific advice but can only suggest that if you wish to be of service to one who is in need of your service that you consider carefully the needs of this entity, and in your meditative state seek this solution, and as you seek to be of service, the way shall be made clear from within your own being as to which path would be of most value to this entity.

Again, in the more general sense, how often does each individual feel that they know what is best for another and with a willing and glad heart would do anything to serve another person by making the desired outcome possible? Service to others is one of the great paradoxes, for one is of service to another to the extent that one ceases to attempt to give to another. One is, after all, dealing with a co-creator, an infinite and mystery-filled being. Thus, service to another begins often with the conscious or unconscious decision to attempt to see the creation through the eyes of the one who is to be aided. This is not the end of service but the means. The end is to see the Creator in another, for by seeing the Creator you reflect that which may be the mirror to that person whom you wish to help. That person is then able to discover themself. The gift that you can give is the vision of the Creator.

How many times have you considered that another entity was less than perfect, was troublesome, difficult, or in some way in need of help? When thoughts of this nature come to you and you do wish to serve, begin by centering your own disciplined attention upon that part of yourself which is the Creator. Then, with eyes which behold that which is not apparent but only seen through grace, you may aid another, for you may see the Creator. You will notice that in all that we have said, we have said nothing about doing but only about your manner of being. It is an enormously selfless thing to listen and see with eyes and ears that are centered upon the Creator, for there are so many opinions, judgments, and feelings which one has due to the lack of freedom from the illusion that each is separated from each. Once the technique has been learned, it is fairly common for one to be able to be of service. If this technique is not learned, no matter how great your enthusiasm, how beautiful your message, how inspiring your words, that which you give another is part of your own energy and it will not last past your leaving. When you give another self in a new vision, consequences are far more lasting and there is no infringement of free will, for all you are doing is acting as a channel.

Then Hatonn said service to others is one of the great paradoxes, for one is of service to another to the extent that one ceases to attempt to give to another, for one is dealing with a co-Creator, an infinite and mystery-filled being, so service to another begins with the conscious or unconscious decision to attempt to see the creation through the eyes of the one who is to be aided, but this is not the end of service but the means, for the end is to see the Creator in another, for by seeing the Creator you reflect that which may be the mirror to that person whom you wish to help, and that person is able to discover themselves, so the gift that you can give is the vision of the Creator. Now Hatonn said when you have thoughts that another entity was less than perfect and difficult, you should begin by centering your attention upon that part of yourself which is the Creator, but with eyes which behold that which is not apparent, and are only seen through grace, you may aid another, for you may see the Creator, for you will notice that we have said nothing about doing but only about your manner of being, yet it is a selfless thing to listen and see with eyes and ears that are centered upon the Creator, for there are judgments and feelings which one has due to the lack of freedom from the illusion that each is separated from each, but once the technique has been learned, it is common for one to be able to be of service, but if this technique is not learned, no matter how inspiring your words, that which you give another is part of your own energy, and it will not last past your leaving, so when you give another self in a new vision, consequences are more lasting, and there is no infringement of free will, for all you are doing is acting as a channel. On January 29, 1989, Latwii said when we wish to be of service to others we are acting as a channel for our higher self:

And let there be no emphasis placed upon the outcome of your efforts, for your efforts may fail or succeed, yet it is not important to your own choice-making procedure, as long as you may see that the best which you could do is done, the outcome does not matter, for when you are expressing from a centered, loving portion of being, you are, in fact, acting as a channel for a higher self, still yourself, yet more beautiful, more focused, certainly more enduring. You are able to shine a Light through yourself, and you are then a great blessing.

We are sorry for the delay but there is less energy than there sometimes is in the circle. We shall continue. The beginning, for yourself and for others, is your decision to serve. If service is not free then you are not free, for your actions reflect your state of mind and your being. Remember always that even though you may aim as high as your imagination can take you and then fail, it is far better to have aimed so high, for it is your intention that draws you upon the spiritual path ever onward. The concept of failure is foreign to the seeker and is best left behind along with other of your cherished possessions such as a feeling of unworthiness, a feeling of being less than one appears to be, a feeling of being too much with the world. You see, my friends, you begin by judging yourself, so stop judging yourself; be of service to yourself. You are, after all, a self; there is that within you which is infinite, and it may be of service to you. We do not mean to sound as if we are splitting your personality, but there is within you a greater self that you may call upon and use in order that your mind and your emotions may serve you instead of your being a slave to them. Service to others is the next step for those who seek to Love. Spend yourself freely in order to be, not in order to convince. Do not even attempt to convince yourself but merely allow the flow of your incarnational experience to teach you and to draw you toward your next challenge.

Now Hatonn said the beginning for yourself and for others, is your decision to serve, but if service is not free then you are not free, for your actions reflect your state of mind and your being, so remember that even though you may aim as high as your imagination can take you and then fail, it is far better to have aimed so high, for it is your intention that draws you upon the spiritual path, yet the concept of failure is foreign to the seeker and is best left behind along with other of your cherished possessions such as a feeling of unworthiness, for you see you begin by judging yourself, so stop judging yourself, and be of service to yourself, yet you are a self, so there is that within you which is infinite, and it may be of service to you, but we do not mean to sound as if we are splitting your personality, for there is within you a greater self that you may call upon and use in order that your mind and your emotions may serve you instead of your being a slave to them, so service to others is the next step for those who seek to Love, or spend yourself in order to be, not in order to convince, but do not attempt to convince yourself, and allow the flow of your incarnational experience to teach you and to draw you toward your next challenge. On May 16, 1976, Hatonn said that we should look forward to our next challenge:

My brothers and sisters, Love one another. That is it. That is all we have to say. We have said it several times this evening; we say it once more. As you go forth into the world, you will, very soon, meet your next challenge. It will be a person whom it is difficult to conceive of on the outer planes as the Creator. You will fear him, and you will wish to put distance between yourself and them. And yet, you are one. If you can move the fear aside [inaudible] the reality will seep into your being, and you will reflect unto them the joy of the Spirit. Rejoice that you know the Creator! And as you go forth, be of service to your fellow friends. Let them know that you know that they, too, are full of joy.

We find within this instrument’s mind a portion of a conversation earlier. We feel that we are not those who should speak to this and, therefore, we shall leave this instrument, for there is another called by this question. We are those of Hatonn, and we are most grateful to you for calling us to your presence and to the joy of your company. We leave you in the Love and the Light of our infinite Creator. Adonai vasu borragus.

(Carla channeling)

I am Oxal. We greet you in the Love and in the Light of the one infinite Creator and thank you that you called us to you at this time. We are adjusting the energy which we use with this instrument. It has been some time since we used this instrument, and we are adjusting to this instrument’s comfort.

We would speak to you upon a subject which, as our brothers and sisters of Hatonn observed, has been raised in discussion. The practice of meditation is central and, indeed, for most an absolute necessity for spiritual evolution. Yet it is inevitably painful in that it is a tool whereby realizations occur. One learns about oneself; one then turns to the self and begins picking at the self, at the past experiences which have been, shall we say, less than perfectly resolved. One becomes tangled within one’s own incarnational experiences and judgments about experiences which do not square with those things which meditation is bringing you. Therefore, you may find bitter fruit cropping up among those fruits of meditation. This is an excellent sign, and we encourage each to rejoice when a past misalliance of some kind comes to mind as an unbalanced and unfinished piece of business. It is now time to finish the business. Those who live the life of one who is asleep become increasingly bowed down by the weight of experience. That which is childlike begins to leave and the being becomes heavier and heavier, for in truth nothing is ever resolved to the complete and total satisfaction of a judging entity.

The appropriate action when one is faced with one’s own past is to take the past from the shoulders, to refuse to carry it further but rather put it down and gaze at it until all is well, until there is no emotional pull or push to this experience. You are then lighter, more childlike, more spontaneous, more open, more joyful and more ready to be yourself. The great treasure of being that you are must wait for you to unload the package of burdens of your past from you. In the seeker there will be, again and again, those confrontations with the self in which one judges the self to have fallen short. We may say that when one adds two plus two and writes down the number five, one has made an error. Later one may erase the error because of new and life-giving knowledge. The problem is then solved correctly, two plus two being four. That is all that your past is.

In this session Oxal spoke about meditation. They began by saying the practice of meditation is central, for most a necessity for spiritual evolution, yet it is inevitably painful in that it is a tool whereby realizations occur, so one learns about oneself, and one then turns to the self and begins picking at the self, at the past experiences which have been less than resolved, and one becomes tangled within one’s own incarnational judgments about experiences which do not square with those things which meditation is bringing you, for you may find bitter fruit cropping up among those fruits of meditation, yet this is a sign, and we encourage each to rejoice when a past misalliance of some kind comes to mind as an unfinished piece of business, so it is now time to finish the business, but those who live the life of one who is asleep become increasingly bowed down by the weight of experience, and that which is childlike begins to leave, and the being becomes heavier and heavier, for in truth nothing is ever resolved to the complete satisfaction of a judging entity. On May 27, 1974, Hatonn described the fruits of meditation:

There is much to be gained through the process of meditation. This, my friends, is the only important thing that you will do during your incarnation. For all of the fruits of meditation that you receive will be the project of this simple effort. Effort to find how to serve, find technique of serving your fellow beings is simple. It is done in meditation. This was demonstrated by the master teacher known to you as Jesus. His service to His fellow man on the planet Earth was very great. It is a service that continues even to this day even though this man was poorly understood it is still understood that He was acting in the name of a loving Creator. He discovered through meditation the way in which He would serve His fellow beings.

My friends, you are carrying around a collection of unsolved but simple arithmetic problems. The answers usually have to do with forgiveness of the self, and a willingness to use the eraser. You do not have to live your past. You are responsible for the new life of the present moment. If you have not made amends to another, by all means do so. Usually, however, it is the self that is the great scapegoat. Remove this identity from yourself. You will have to be patient, for you cannot find all that you have done badly by meditating once, twice or a hundred times. The fully realized self is a long time, shall we say, in arriving; especially within your illusion. We ask you simply to remain unflustered and use your eraser, loving your mistakes, loving your perfection and being willing to be accountable for that which you are now, not in the past and not in the future.

Oxal went on to say you are carrying around a collection of unsolved but simple arithmetic problems, and the answers have to do with forgiveness of the self, and a willingness to use the eraser, but you do not have to live your past, for you are responsible for the new life of the present moment, but if you have not made amends to another, by all means do so, for it is the self that is the scapegoat, so remove this identity from yourself, yet you will have to be patient, for you cannot find all that you have done badly by meditating once, twice, or a hundred times, so the fully realized self is a long time in arriving within your illusion, and we ask you to remain calm, and use your eraser, loving your mistakes, loving your perfection, and being willing to be accountable for that which you are now, not in the past and not in the future. On October 26, 2019, Q’uo spoke of the value of meditating:

In the meditative state, one can access those deeper levels of the conscious mind and the upper levels of the subconscious mind where there are clues and indications of relevancy, shall we say, that can be obtained by meditating upon the catalyst at hand. There is the quality of seeking in the meditative state that is enhanced by one’s desire to know how to serve more effectively, how to open the heart more fully, how to give unconditional Love more frequently.

If one can see past the outer parameters of the catalyst in front of one in the meditative state, and have the question within the mind and the heart how to more fully Love and serve, then through this lens one may more accurately see the features and resonances that are facing one and offering to one the opportunity to do just that, to Love, to serve, to accept, to give, to give praise and thanksgiving for the opportunity to be.

I am Oxal. I leave you secure in the infinite unity of all that there is. Therefore, my friends, we cannot leave you for there is only one creation. We shall, however, cease speaking through this instrument, asking you, as always, to cast aside any thought which does not have merit in your own opinion. We leave you basking in the Love and in the Light of the One Who Is All. Adonai, my friends. Adonai.

(Jim channeling)

I am Latwii, and I greet you, my friends, in the Love and the Light of the one Creator. We are most privileged to be asked to join your group this evening. We follow our brothers and sisters of Hatonn and Oxal in giving praise for the ability to share our thoughts with you. Our service, as you know, is that of attempting to give answers from our philosophical point of view. Therefore, may we begin with the first query for this evening.

J: Latwii, I’d like to ask you an historical question, please. I was reading an article about the Cro-Magnon man in the caves at La Tuc d’Audoubert. I’d like to know how did they learn how to draw, where did they get their colors from, and how did they draw on the ceilings of the cave?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my brother. We are not very good at giving answers to queries that are beyond the bounds of our philosophical reach. To attempt to look upon the historical past of your planet is somewhat of a difficult task for us. We shall, in our humble way, make a small attempt in this instance, focusing as we can upon those portions of the query which are within our grasp.

We find that entities who have partaken in the evolutionary chain of your species’ development have from time to time developed those means of self-expression which have been recorded in various ways. The entities of which you speak were of a level of development which enabled them to utilize various substances of the plant and mineral world that surrounded them in the making of those dye and paint pigments that allowed for the recording of their way of being upon the walls of those cave structures in which they found shelter, an environment which was relatively safe in which to dwell. These entities were able to make drawings upon the walls and what you have referred to as the ceilings as a result of utilizing structures which no longer exist within those cave areas. There has been much, shall we say, erosion of the structures and geographical placement of, shall we say, earthen mounds which were then available for such paintings.

May we answer you further, my brother?

J: You did very well, Latwii. Can I still keep on the same subject?

I am Latwii, and we shall do our best, my brother, to accommodate you although we are not skilled in this area.

J: Thank you. Can you tell me, when did the Neanderthal man change into the Cro-Magnon man? And why?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my brother. As we attempt to trace the evolutionary pattern of your particular species, we find that there have been a variety of transitions from one form to another. Many of these transitions did not continue but found an ending in their evolutionary pattern. Your particular lineage is one which does include this entity of which you speak, the so-called Neanderthal man. The transition which this entity partook in with others of a similar configuration was not a transition which can easily be delineated to a specific portion of what you call time, for the transition was the kind in which the, shall we say, donor race or original race of entities died out, giving birth to the successors but a transition in which there was mutual cohabitation for a portion…

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(Jim channeling)

I am Latwii and am with this instrument once again. To complete our attempt to answer your query, my brother, we may suggest that it is most difficult for us to be more precise in giving a date for this transition, for the transition was one that occurred over a great portion of what you call time, and was one in which there were, shall we say, parallel transitions being undertaken at the same time.

May we answer you further, my brother?

J: Thank you, yes. In this cave of La Tuc d’Audoubert there is an ibex which is indigenous of Asia Minor, and also they drew a sorcerer. Can you tell me how did they acquired that knowledge?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my brother. We find that there has been, in many cases of entities such as these of whom you speak, a greater level of civilization and cultural abilities than has been supposed by those of your scientific community. There have been in your distant past those entities who were able to venture out and observe various phenomena and who then were able to communicate this observation upon the return by the recording of these phenomena in the manner of the drawings of which you speak.

May we answer you further, my brother?

J: You mean they traveled from France to Asia Minor and back?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my brother. We did not mean to intend that these entities were quite this skilled in the traveling, but that in their travels they encountered the phenomena which were at that time more widely spread than is supposed at your current time.

May we answer you further, my brother?

J: No, but I’m perplexed about that. Where did the knowledge come from? This is what I don’t understand. They drew perfect bison, perfect horses. There had to be some kind of intelligence. Did they communicate in a language?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my brother. Again, my brother, we must ask your forgiveness for our inability to be more precise and thereby reduce the perplexity which we feel that we have been responsible for. We are attempting to retrieve this information but must apologize once again, for these queries are quite beyond a scope which is a rather limited one when you consider the great amount of information that one may find an interest in. We focus our abilities upon the philosophical aspects of the nature of one’s being and the progress of one’s own evolutionary trail, shall we say.

As we attempt to trace the physical evolution, we find that our abilities are at a very low level according to what one might expect from entities who are specialized in a type of communication which seems quite advanced to many upon your planet. Though we can do some things well that may surprise various of your people, we can do other things quite poorly that will equally surprise many of your people. Therefore, we must beg your forgiveness in this, my brother, and ask if there might be a query that you could locate within the very narrow parameters of our abilities to be of service?

J: Please don’t ask my forgiveness, and I’m sorry if my questions sounded or were asked in the imperative tense. I’ll get off that. I’d like to ask you a question about Jesus. During the trial, he was sent to the Pharisees, and then he was sent to Pilate, and then Pilate sent him to Caesar. Does that mean that Jesus went to Rome?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my brother. Again we are faced with the situation in which we must attempt to look within your planet’s historical records and attempt to retrieve this information which is by its very nature quite confused, for there are varieties of thought forms created by various groups and individuals over the centuries which have passed since this entity’s, as you call it, death. Many have revered this entity, and have looked at this entity in a great variety of ways, and have therefore created forms of thought which are of themselves energy pools and sources that tend to confuse and hide that occurrence which was indeed the pattern of this entity’s incarnational experience.

That this entity was required to appear before those which you have mentioned supposes that this entity was indeed in their native homeland, shall we say, yet it is to our humblest and barest ability of retrieving information not clear as to whether this is completely true or as to whether perhaps there might have been the visiting of these entities in another location to which the one known as Jesus was also required to visit.

We again must apologize for our lack of specific information in this case. We are quite without our usual ability to give information.

May we attempt a further query, my brother?

J: No, thank you. We’re not getting along tonight. I think I’ll just be quiet. But you did do very well.

I am Latwii, and we appreciate your patience with us, my brother. We, of course, are in great need of such patience when we are beyond our abilities to serve. We attempt in these contacts to offer a philosophical point of view which works with the mental evolution of one’s being. We are not historians by nature but philosophers, and in some instances, which you might call a scientist, in that we are greatly interested in the formation of Light and its expression by entities such as yourselves.

May we attempt another query at this time?

J: Thank you, sir, but I was not impatient at all. I’m very appreciative of your answers and I hope I didn’t give you that impression.

I am Latwii, and our attempt was to thank you for your patience. May we attempt another query at this time?

N: Yes, Latwii. Has the philosophical or evolutional aspects of our thought form patterns been changed by rotation of the north and south pole or rearrangement of our poles very many times in our past?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my brother. We find that the pattern of thought of an entity is responsive only to that entity’s influence. It is, however, true that any entity may use any outside stimulus in order to change its own pattern of thinking. Those experiences which one encounters—and this may include those of which you speak—may therefore be utilized in the changing of the pattern of thought. Upon your own particular planet there have been many, shall we say, geothermal changes over your cycle of evolution in the third density. There, to our knowledge, however, have not been any of the changes of which you speak during this 75,000 year cycle.

May we answer you further, my brother?

N: Well, of course the dinosaurs existed many, many eons years ago and they have found fresh flowers in frozen mammoths in Siberia which would indicate probably a polar shift which may have exceeded the time span of the last 75,000 years. However, it just seems that there was much intelligent life before, particularly with the Atlanteans, which seem to have been eliminated some ten thousand, one hundred and some odd years ago. Why is it that our method of counting days and months and years is only five to six thousand years old?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my brother. We find that there are two portions which we may address. Firstly, the great changes in your Earth’s structure which were responsible for the down-sinking of the continent known to you as Atlantis were changes not of the polar shift variety, but of the results of what you may call nuclear and crystal warfare, which so affected the tectonic plates underlying the continent of Atlantis that there were generated what might be called artificial earthquakes that were therefore responsible for this great change.

In response to the second portion of your query, the numbering of days, months, and years which you now use is a system which has survived for the portion of time which you have mentioned but is not the necessary, shall we say, system of time which has been in effect over the entire cycle of your planet. However, it is a system of measuring time which has its basis upon the revolution of your planet about your sun and the revolution of your moon about your planet. There have been many other means of reckoning time, but all have been distortions of these rhythms of revolution which are a natural portion of the creation within which you exist.

May we answer you further, my brother?

N: In our illusion, did not other individuals, perhaps even the Neanderthal man, utilize the distortion of the Earth’s rotation for accumulating time sequences?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my brother. We find that throughout the historical past of your planet there has been the varying abilities of races and groups of entities to reckon time. There have been many attempts to count the passage of seasons as a means of reckoning time. These attempts were not always based upon the knowledge of your Earth’s revolution about your sun body but were attempts to reckon time as a means of utilizing the, shall we say, outgrowth of this revolution of your planet about its sun body, that is to say, the seasons in their passing were recognized as that which seemed to repeat upon a regular and measurable scale.

May we answer you further, my brother?

N: Thank you very much. Back to the Atlanteans. Was that an internal strife of civil war, or was that a war between other factions? And in the area that the Atlanteans were located, could it be possible to recover some of the fifteen-foot crystals that existed at the time of the holocaust?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my brother. Again, we move somewhat outside of our boundaries of ability and shall ask that you appreciate our lack of ability in this area. We can suggest that at some point there will be those who shall discover the remnants of this culture and perhaps there shall be the discovery of the kinds of crystals of which you speak. The entities known to you as the Atlanteans were in their own culture quite divided, and there were those struggles for power at the latter portion of this culture’s existence, for the ability to use the technology at that time had grown quite rapidly toward this culture’s end time and there were those within the culture who wished for themselves the use of this technology and found the need to vie with others within this great culture for the utilization of the technology which had a great variety of uses.

May we answer you further, my brother?

N: The Koran—the Indian—several of the Indian reports—the country we know as India report what appears to have been nuclear wars at other times. Have there been other civilizations advanced to the point that they devastated themselves with nuclear devices?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my brother. We, in our knowledge of your planet’s third-density cycle, are unaware of any cultures besides those known to you as the Atlanteans who were of the technological advancement necessary to utilize the power of the atom. Therefore, we may suggest that the recording of any such nuclear holocaust might be a recording of this very culture’s own destruction.

May we answer you further, my brother?

N: No, I think we’re probably tiring the instrument, and I want to thank you very much. I have some other questions I want to ask later. I thank you.

I am Latwii, and we thank you, my brother, for your patience as well in bearing with us as we must give information which is not that in our usual grasp or reach.

May we attempt another query at this time?

J: Yes, Latwii. Well, then did the Neanderthal man come after the Atlanteans? Before?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my brother, and we dance with joy to be able to answer this particular query. We are aware that those that are called the Neanderthal entities were preceding those called the Atlanteans by a great portion of what you call time.

May we answer you further, my brother?

J: Well, were there any Atlanteans left over after the wars?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my brother. The strife and variety of conflicts which wracked this culture were known to many within the culture for a great portion of what you call time. Over a period of two to three centuries there were those entities within this great culture who traveled out from the doomed culture and created bases of survival in various portions of your planet that were located far enough away from the continent of Atlantis that survival was possible.

May we answer you further, my brother?

J: You mean like Spain and France?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my brother. Due to this instrument’s familiarity with the information transmitted from our brothers and sisters of Ra we are able to suggest that these locations are in what you now call Tibet, what you now call Turkey, and what you now call Peru.

May we answer you further, my brother?

J: How could they miss the continent, the European continent. I don’t understand, was the European continent existing at that time?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my brother. We can answer in the affirmative that the continent that you now call Europe was indeed in existence at that time. As to whether these entities considered such a journey to be desirable or as to whether these entities did indeed undertake a journey in that direction, we are unable to say. Who can account for tastes?

May we answer you further, my brother?

J: No, thank you.

I am Latwii, and we feel that we have enough energy available in this instrument for one final query. May we then ask for that query?

J: Latwii, when you answer, you say “your planet.” What exactly do you mean by that? Where are you in regards to this planet?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my brother. We are within your planetary influence at this time, though it is not our native planet. We are what you might call visitors observing the opportunity that your planet now accepts for the harvest.

May we answer you further, my brother?

J: I don’t understand that.

N: Are you on a spaceship?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my brother. We ourselves do not utilize the craft which you might call a space ship for our current observation and transmission of information. We are, however, existing within what you might call your planet’s inner planes, those metaphysical realms which are the, as you might call it, spiritual foundation of your planet.

May we answer you further, my brother?

J: I still don’t understand. Do you fly over Anchorage very much?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my brother. We are not of the nature to take excursions over your particular area or any particular area upon your planetary surface but choose instead to allow our thoughts to do the traveling.

May we answer you further, my brother?

J: Oh, this is confusing. No. Maybe another time I can…

N: May I ask if the inner planes are those of the astral or ethereal planes or the subcrust areas?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my brother. It is the former portion of your query, that is, as you have called them, the astral and devachanic planes that we choose to inhabit. We choose more specifically to inhabit those planes that are, shall we say, somewhat removed from the astral planes and are of the devachanic or etheric description, depending upon the terms which you might choose.

May we answer you further, my brother?

N: Thank you. No.

J: Is astral travel like out-of-the-body journeys?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my brother. This is a rough analogy, and is somewhat similar to the type of travel which we are suggesting. However, it is for us not an out-of-the-body experience but is a, shall we say—we must correct this instrument and suggest that it is an experience which is in our body, a body which is more filled with Light than the third-density body which you inhabit, is indeed a body of fifth density, that being the density of Light.

May we answer you further, my brother?

J: Oh, this is confusing, Latwii, very confusing.

Carla: I want to break in here. How’s the instrument doing?

I am Latwii, and we thank you, my sister, for asking as to the energy level of this instrument. We feel that we are able to complete our channeling, shall we say, at this particular time, for the instrument is somewhat fatigued, and is concerned as to the level of questioning for the evening. This concern is further fatiguing the instrument. Therefore, we thank you for your concern and shall at this time take our leave of this group and this instrument.

We thank each present for allowing our presence and for asking for humble service this evening. Indeed, this evening our service has been quite humble, for we feel that our inability to respond to the kinds of queries which were offered us has lent a certain amount of confusion to this group which we feel responsible for. We do not mean in any respect to confuse. It is indeed our hope that our service might remove some confusion. We, therefore, are most able to provide this service in the philosophical type of discussion which focuses upon areas of the evolution of mind, of body, of spirit. We leave the historical and other areas that lie outside the philosophical to those of your peoples, for these areas are those which are well used for catalyst and as one moves through these areas in one’s existence, then arises the philosophical questions as to the meaning of the life, the purpose of its movement, and the process of its evolution in one’s own experience.

We at this time thank each again and shall take our leave, leaving each in the Love and in the Light of the one infinite Creator. We are known to you as those of Latwii. Adonai, my friends. Adonai vasu borragus.

This morning the quote from The Thunder of Silence is: “When we come under Grace, no laws operate. In the spiritual realm, which is a state of Grace, there are not two powers operating, no one over another, one overcoming the other, or one removing the other—there is but one. There is no opposition; there is no contention in the realm of Spirit: There is only a state of Grace which is itself the law of elimination to every phase of materiality, When we come into a state of Grace, we no longer have good health or bad health, nor do we have abundance or meager supply: We live in a state of spirituality in which there is neither good nor evil—no degrees and no comparisons: There is only Being, divine Being, spiritual Being, one Being.

It is only when we stop thinking in terms of health and sickness, wealth and poverty, and begin to think in terms of spirituality that we transcend not only bad humanhood but even good humanhood; we transcend the Ten Commandments and rise to that consciousness which Christ Jesus revealed in the two great commandments, which acknowledge but one power—one God, one Spirit, one Soul—and each and every one of us that same One.

Acknowledgment is only the first step. The commandments have to be lived. They have to be accepted in consciousness so that actually we learn how to forgive our enemies. We learn how not to criticize, judge, or condemn one, but in proportion as they seek to rise above it to give that helping hand by perceiving the nature of God as the very Soul of every person. Any good human being can piously overlook the faults of others and even forgive them their sins. Any good human being can do that, but it takes spiritual vision to be able to say, “I cannot see anyone. The face of God is all that shines. The Soul of God looks out through all eyes.”

Such a realization does not heal sick or sinning people: it makes them “die” more quickly so that their spiritual Selfhood can be revealed. The sooner mankind “dies” to their humanhood, the sooner will their Soul come forward and be revealed.”

Then I went outside and worked on the little stone wall in front of the fishpond, and I was able to build another

At 11 am this morning I was a guest on Jonathan Tong’s Seattle Law of One Study Group, and today we talked about my wife, Carla, who passed into larger life eleven years ago last Wednesday, April 1. We discussed five quotes from her Autobiography which I found about eight weeks ago. Some questions that some of the attendees asked me were: “How did Carla pass into larger life?” “How did Carla live the Law of One?” “How did A Wanderer’s Handbook come about?” “How did Carla use her catalyst? “and “What were our nicknames for each other?” Then I let everyone know that I had written Living the Law of One 102: The Outer Work from Carla’s outline, and it would be available at our Homecoming this year, but it could also be read for free as a PDF download on our website. It was such an honor to talk about Carla and how she lived the Law of One; how she is still helping people around the world; and how I miss her every day.

This afternoon I went back outside and continued working on the stone wall, and I was able to complete another three feet.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

April 4

The Creator’s Maternal Side

I am of the Spirit of Jesus the Christ, and I greet you in the full consciousness of divine Love.

How very much you need to focus in upon the nurturing, maternal side of the Creator of you all!

How very much you need to be held and comforted, for within each of you there is that brokenness which needs the arms put round, the comforting and the embracing.

We ask each of you to trust in that all-accepting and comfortable Love which the Creator has for all of His children. Acknowledge this need for spiritual comfort and open your inner selves to the consolation of the Spirit of Jesus the Christ. It is for this reason that this principle or energy has been granted for all times and in all places.

We are here for you as you are here for Christ. We leave you in the peace of Love and union, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of Love and open our hearts minds, and souls to send Love, Light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite Love, Light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our Love, Light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Hatonn and Latwii channelings for this session come from January 27, 1985:

(Carla channeling)

I am Hatonn. I greet you in the Love and in the Light of our infinite Creator. We are most blessed to be asked to share our thoughts with you, and we most especially greet those who have come from afar to sit in Love and Light as we all seek for that which is the one original Thought that we may define ourselves, and the Creator, and the creation by our growing grasp of infinity and unity. We shall be working with this instrument word by word this evening for awhile as this instrument wishes further refining of its abilities, so we ask your forgiveness if there are pauses.

This evening we would speak to you about that which is called Love among your people. We would speak to you of what that may mean and what you may hope from its pursuit. More especially we wish to speak about being channels for the one original Thought which created all that there is and is known among your peoples as Love. My friends, the meanings associated with that word are multitudinous, and yet not one of the many meanings of Love can begin to describe that which is truly beyond words, the powerful creative energy which has formed consciousness and through whose eyes we do see and in whose memory all our thoughts and actions are. If we establish that all of us are not only seeking Love but are to some extent manifesting Love, then we must begin to ask ourselves what we may hope to achieve from the sometimes seemingly fruitless task of seeking the Creator. That which you may hope for is no apparent award or pleasure at all, for the single most clear manifestation in an entity’s life is the surrender of a small self in order that a larger self may overshadow and guide in a way which ideally shall touch the heart of each moment, find the Love in…

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…questions which our brothers and sisters of Latwii would be delighted to attempt to answer. Yet we wish to leave you with the strong and stern and cautionary love of the words that encourage yet warn. Those who do not think that they are seeking are only seeking very slowly. They will eventually have to make their choice between loving others above the self and loving the self above all others. You who sit in this circle are making the choice at each moment in a conscious manner, therefore your evolution in spirit may be more healthy, more rapid, and much more difficult. Because as you ask, so it shall be given you, and when you ask to learn lessons about Love, you get lessons about Love, and in those lessons you are required to find Love in moments of anger, distress, frustration, pain—even agony.

In this session Hatonn spoke about the concept of Love. They began by saying we would speak to you about that which is called Love among your people, and we would speak to you of what that may mean and what you may hope from its pursuit, but we wish to speak about being channels for the one original Thought which created all that there is and is known among your people as Love, for the meanings associated with that word are many, yet not one of the many meanings of Love can begin to describe that which is beyond words: the creative energy which has formed consciousness, and through whose eyes we see, and in whose memory all our thoughts and actions are, for if we establish that all of us are not only seeking Love but are to some extent manifesting Love, then we must begin to ask ourselves what we may hope to achieve from the fruitless task of seeking the Creator, so that which you may hope for is no pleasure at all, for the single most clear manifestation in an entity’s life is the surrender of a small self in order that a larger self may overshadow and guide in a way which shall touch the heart of each moment, and find the Love in each moment. Then Hatonn said we wish to leave you with the strong cautionary love of the words that encourage yet warn, but those who do not think that they are seeking are seeking slowly, and they will have to make their choice between loving others above the self or loving the self above others, so you who sit in this circle are making the choice at each moment in a conscious manner, for your evolution in spirit may be more healthy, more rapid, and more difficult because as you ask, so it shall be given you, and when you ask to learn lessons about Love, you get lessons about Love, and in those lessons you are required to find Love in moments of anger, pain—even agony. On April 9, 1989, Q’uo describe some of our lesson about Love,

Oh, prodigal daughters and sons, whatever your condition your Father awaits you and all of us with rejoicing, and we are all hungry for home. Yet, let us vow in whatever place we may be to pay attention, to see, and observe, and perceive that which our catalyst is attempting to give us in the way of lessons about Love. Do not lose any opportunity to ask yourself in difficult circumstances, “Where is the Loving thing to do; where is the Love here?”

Yet we say to you, there is joy; there is Love; there is peace in each moment. You may not be able to express it in words but if you can find it, if you can but intend to find it, your Light shall be so bright that kings would bow before you, and all nations turn to such a great Light. And yet it is precisely because you have put yourself out of the way that this would be so. Kings shall never turn to other men but only to the one original Thought. That is what we seek to express; that is what you seek to learn and to manifest. How we Love each of you, for you are beautiful to us. Yet that is easy for us, for in our density we see all those things which are more difficult within the confines of your third-density illusion. We have the key. You too have the key, my friends. For us the key is that we have already passed your grade, shall we say. For you the key is meditation, for in your meditations you will touch base with the infinite. You shall abide with that which is eternal. You shall find joy and peace, and those about you shall find it through you, never in you, my friends, but through you. You are all channels. What shall you channel?

Then Hatonn said there is joy; there is Love; there is peace in each moment, but you may not be able to express it in words, but if you can intend to find it, your Light shall be so bright that kings would bow before you, and all nations turn to such a great Light, yet it is because you have put yourself out of the way that this would be so, for kings shall never turn to other men but only to the one original Thought, so that is what we seek to express, and that is what you seek to learn and to manifest, and how we Love each of you, for you are beautiful to us, yet that is easy for us, for in our density we see all those things which are more difficult within the confines of your third-density illusion, so we have the key, and you have the key which, for us, is that we have already passed your grade, and for you the key is meditation, for in your meditations you will touch base with the infinite, and you shall abide with that which is eternal, so you shall find joy and peace, and those about you shall find it through you, for you are all channels. On November 21, 1993, Q’uo said that our key is meditation:

The door into that secret part of the mansion of yourself has a key which opens it. This key is meditation, contemplation, or prayer. These words suggest ways of expressing a relationship. We wish to use a term which points to that relationship, that truth within is to the self which functions daily as the bottom of a lake is to the bubble upon the surface. There is no actual touching of conscious mind to the ground of being, if you will.

When one meditates or in some way seeks to impress within the self its relationship to the one infinite Creator by whatever means, this intention to seek the Mystery triggers a kind of instinct within the conscious portion of the deep mind, thereby focusing energy and personal power around this mountaintop which has poked up from the subconscious into the conscious mind—that little peak which shows above the threshold of consciousness as the instinct for an ethical or moral right, or that little mountaintop which says that there must be a Creator. The act of meditation, then, not only works upon the mind and body to relax and open up the flow of energy, it also triggers a closer alignment of the self which is conscious with the fundamental or basic nature of that great mountain within the subconscious or deep mind which is the area which contains those deep and vast truths which have structured and formed all that there is.

You carry the blueprint of all things within, and the potential to activate any or all of this knowledge. That you are protected from burning yourself out in discovering these fiery truths beforetimes is to be expected in a universe where there is the possibility of advancing. The Creator has not hidden these truths in order to cause hardships, but in order to prevent premature awareness. Each entity is intended to open itself to transformation in this natural way, so that there shall be no loss of incarnation that is not necessary.

We would wish to say two things before leaving this instrument. The first, as always, is the request that our words be taken as opinion and not doctrine. We do not know the truth; we are seekers of the truth. We have been your way and gone on. Take that which is helpful, leave behind that which is not. We hope only to inspire your own thoughts, your own meditations, your own seeking. This instrument is fatigued and we are going to leave this instrument early. We leave you insofar as speaking through this instrument in the Love and the Light of the one infinite Creator. Know that you may call us in meditation mentally, and we shall be with you, not in words but only but as an aid to a more powerful meditation. We will tabernacle with you, abide with you in the desert or in the oasis wherever you may happen to be. We are those of Hatonn. We leave you in the great created Love and the manifested Light of the One Who Is All. Adonai. Adonai vasu borragus.

(Jim channeling)

I am Latwii, and I greet you, my friends, in the Love and in the Light of our infinite Creator. It is our great honor and privilege to be asked to join your group this evening. We thank you, my friends, for asking us. Our service is a humble one, which we offer in joy. We shall attempt to answer those queries which those present may find the value in asking. As our brothers and sisters of Hatonn, we also suggest that our answers and words are but opinion. We seek as you seek to know the one Creator, to radiate that Love and Light to all as the one Creator. Yet, though we have sought diligently, what we have to share with you is our opinion and is no hard and fast doctrine. May we then, with that understood, begin our service by asking if there might be a query with which we might begin?

L: Yes, I have a question. Sometime back I had a relationship with another person which was disrupted in a very painful and vicious manner on the part of both concerned. I perceive a healing process going on at this point, what seems to me a chance to what you might refer to as clean up mistakes of the soul. Could you in general discuss that subject—not my relationship—but just the possibilities of repairing mistakes made previously?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my brother. As we look at this situation of which you speak, we do not see mistakes, as you have described them. We see that there have been two portions of the one Creator that have been in a relationship with each other and have, through that relationship, sought to know the one Creator. Each has had an opportunity to serve the Creator through the other self. Each has had lessons that were hoped would be learned and utilized as means by which Love could be multiplied.

When difficulties occur in such a relationship it is not so much a mistake that has occurred, but tests and opportunities of a more intensive nature which have for the moment exceeded the limits of those within the relationship so that Love has been more difficult to discover. In such a situation where Love has remained hidden, shall we say, and those difficulties and opportunities to show Love have not borne fruit, then it is that the entities so involved may, shall we say, drift apart. Yet the thought remains within the mind and the hope remains within the heart of each that Love may yet be found, for each is a whole and perfect portion of the one Creator, and it is the Creator’s wish in all portions that It might know Love even in those dark and hidden places which seem so secret and so barren of Love, yet there it is as well, my brother.

As you begin that which you have called healing, you begin to find that Love which always was there, which needed more attention in order to be discovered. Often the gift of time and the fond remembrance of the better times between a couple which has parted will bring about the opportunity to rediscover Love where it was not found before. The intention to heal and find that Love is of primary importance. To attempt that which is difficult is more important than to accomplish that which is easy.

May we answer you further, my brother?

L: Yes, a request for some information I’m not sure you’ll be able to give me without interfering. I have had some perceptions recently as to—I could best describe it as the intentions of this other person. Could you give me an idea of how accurately I am perceiving this other person’s intentions?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my brother. We may comment by suggesting that it is the nature of perception that what you see is what you are. You have the creative ability to form the experiences in which you partake. As you focus upon one portion or another of another entity’s behavior, you shall be as the gardener watering that seed. Choose then carefully, my brother, how you perceive and what seeds you water.

May we answer you further, my brother?

L: No. That was excellent advice. I’ll take it to heart. Thank you very much.

I am Latwii, and we thank you, my brother. Is there another query at this time?

Questioner: Yes. There is an entity, the Sixteenth Street Baptist Church, which seems at this time to be disintegrating. I am watching the two sides as they struggle, one against the other. It is my firm belief that each of these sides is truly in love with this entity, the church, the Sixteenth Street Baptist Church. Can you give me some help in the advice that I should give, or that I am called upon at different times to give, to these sides that might bring them together?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my sister. We shall do our best to be of service in this instance and can suggest that as you view that which is the conflict between those who truly serve and seek to serve the one Creator in differing ways, that as you perceive them, you see them, indeed, as the one Creator, each and every one. Though there may be differences that seem great at times and though there may be disputes that seem sharp and divided at times, that what is occurring within this situation is also the seeking of Love by many portions of the one Creator, and those who would seek to serve as the peacemakers will find a most difficult challenge before them, yet one which has great rewards, for it has been written in your holy works that blessed are the peacemakers, that indeed the meek shall inherit the Earth.

As you move within this experience that these portions of the one Creator have between them, find within yourself the strong and sure power of the Love of the one Creator. Open yourself to that Love that you might be a vessel through which It moves. When possible, remove your own will that the greater will of the one Creator might move through you and seek to share the heart of the teachings that these entities revere, that of the master known as Jesus, that we each should Love one another. If entities suffering what you may call discord and strife may remember that the heart of each being is Love, and the face of each being is the one Creator, then there is the calling by each to the underlying unity and harmony which binds each to each even through the illusion of strife and discord.

May we answer you further, my sister?

Questioner: Thank you. I shall do what you have suggested. I agree with all that you have said.

I am Latwii, and we thank you, my sister and remind you that our words are but our expressions of Love. We offer them freely and suggest to each that the value that might be there be used where possible, and where value is not seen, that those words be forgotten. Is there another query at this time?

Carla: I have one, just right on the heels of that one because I was thinking, and I went through the same thing, and I listened really carefully to what you said, but I still didn’t find my way out of the maze within my own mind. The church that I grew up in and, therefore, I was so close to because I had friends that were in the congregation, were fighting over an organ. Some of them wanted a new organ and some of them did not want a new organ, and about twenty-five people left the church over that organ—that was the choir, the whole choir. Now the weird thing was that within the year they got a new organ, but in the meantime, there had been this terrible breakage of people that had been going to that church all their lives. And we all tried to act as peacemakers and give good advice, and we failed. And that’s just the truth, and I wonder what… Can you speak to the apparent failures of our good intentions, the sometimes-heartbreaking reality that occurs?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my sister. As each seeker and, indeed, each group of seekers moves through the pattern of life set before the incarnation began, these seekers shall find the times of seeming difficulty where the belief, the faith, the Love, and the wisdom of each is tested. For how can one know what is the heart of one’s being unless there is the test? When one has moved upon the path of the seeker for a great portion of time, then the tests become somewhat more severe, shall we say, and the seeker is faced on many occasions with what you have called the failure, and yet this is a matter of perspective, my sister, for as one has attempted to Love and to give of the self without thought for the self but only with thought for others, then one has expressed the heart of Love. And if Love has been expressed, how can there be failure in truth?

Though your illusion may not bear fruit, as you feel it should, is any within your illusion wise enough to know how the fruits of the one Creator shall be formed and shall be born? All you can do, my sister, is Love and continue to Love through all seeming failures, through all difficulties, and let that Love bind you with others and all others, and let that Love be the shining star which lights your way, however difficult the journey, however winding the road. Within your illusion you shall not see the world about you respond as you think it should, for it exists as an illusion that when Love is born it might be tested. The times that are tranquil and full of peace are, indeed, restful, yet they do not test Love. Love is strengthened in those times of turbulence.

Carla asked: “The church that I grew up in and, therefore, I was so close to because I had friends that were in the congregation, were fighting over an organ. Some of them wanted a new organ and some of them did not want a new organ, and about twenty-five people left the church over that organ—that was the choir, the whole choir. Now the weird thing was that within the year they got a new organ, but in the meantime, there had been this terrible breakage of people that had been going to that church all their lives. And we all tried to act as peacemakers and give good advice, and we failed. And that’s just the truth, and I wonder what… Can you speak to the apparent failures of our good intentions, the sometimes-heartbreaking reality that occurs?” Latwii replied as each group of seekers moves through the pattern of life set before the incarnation began, these seekers shall find the times of difficulty where the faith, the Love, and the wisdom of each is tested, for when one has moved upon the path of the seeker for some time, then the tests become more severe, and the seeker is faced with failure, yet this is a matter of perspective, for as one has attempted to Love and to give of the self without thought for the self but only with thought for others, then one has expressed the heart of Love, and if Love has been expressed, how can there be failure in truth? Latwii went on to say though your illusion may not bear fruit as you feel it should, so all you can do is Love and continue to Love through all seeming failures, and let that Love bind you with all others, and let that Love be the shining star which lights your way however difficult the journey, for within your illusion you shall not see the world about you respond as you think it should, for it exists as an illusion that when Love is born it might be tested, for the times that are full of peace are restful, yet they do not test Love since Love is strengthened in those times of turbulence. On January 3l, Q’uo described the heart of Love:

As we spoke to this it is most important that one recognize the creative power and responsibility that is perfect in one’s perception, and form that perception as best as one can with the foundation firmly rooted in the loving acceptance of what one sees as the Creator. With this foundation set, then, in Love, one may construct any action that the conscious mind can form, and act upon this action as the means by which the heart of Love may be made manifest. Therefore, if any ritual, or image, or procedure is engaged as a means by which protection for the self might be offered, it is our suggestion that Love be the motivation, for in such fashion thus one may Love and do as one will.

May we answer you further, my sister?

Carla: No, thank you.

I am Latwii, and we thank you, my sister. Is there another query?

Questioner: I have a daughter, twelve years old. The father of my daughter, A. I’m very concerned as to why he never wanted to see her. I had to force him to see her when she was two, and before she was born, we had a very good relationship. But after the birth of my daughter, the relationship turned into bitterness. I have tried communicating with him to see if there is anything that I have done that we could talk about to iron out whatever bad feelings there might be, so my daughter can have a communication with him. But he refuses to talk with her, to see her. What can I do about that?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my sister. We can comment in a general fashion upon this subject but cannot give specific advice, for the pattern of service which is presented to each of the three of you is most sacred and holds treasures that are for your discovery. We may comment by suggesting that if one is able to…

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(Jim channeling)

I am Latwii and am once again with this instrument. To continue. If one can see within such a situation that there is Love, even though it might be difficult to find, and if one can see that the one Creator in full moves in each, then one can begin with this faith in the perfection of that which seems imperfect, for each there is the opportunity to share Love, and the test may be difficult, yet it is there, and Love is with it, so for one there is a great opportunity to forgive and express the compassionate aspect of Love, and for another there is the opportunity to accept responsibility and to Love through that aspect, yet for another there is the opportunity to find Love where there seems to be rejection, for in each life pattern there is what seems to be a lack of Love, but this is an illusion which each has helped to create in order that Love might eventually be found to accept each within this situation, so to forgive each and to see each as the Creator is to lay the groundwork, shall we say, for the nurturing of Love, so that when possible it might make itself known as each seeks within the self for the solution to solve what seems a most difficult problem.

May we answer you further, my sister?

Questioner: Is there anything that I can do or say to him to create this feeling of Love to come forth for [inaudible]?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my sister. To simply Love and accept another as he is, is the most that can be done when another does not wish to communicate with you. To keep the door open and the heart open is all that can be done until that entity walks through that door and finds the Love within your heart.

May we answer you further, my sister?

Questioner: Thank you.

I am Latwii, and we thank you, my sister. Is there another query at this time?

K: Yeah, I have a question about the people who are starving to death in Africa. Where is the Love of the Creator in that? It seems to me it would be an overly harsh and severe test to put these people through.

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my brother. Indeed, my brother, upon your planet at this time there are multitudes of entities who suffer daily the greatest of difficulties and degradations, the sicknesses, diseases, hunger, oppression, separation from those that are loved. This is the lot of many within your illusion, and each in some way partakes of what seems a most unloving life and pattern of living. Yet, within your illusion there is the restriction of the viewpoint. Within your illusion you cannot see with the wide-ranging eye that sees the patterns not only of this life but of those lives and lessons which stretch far back into what you call time. It is not possible for your entities and people to see in such a manner or else the Love of the Creator would be much more easily discovered and expressed. Yet even within the situation within which you have described, there is not only the Love of the one Creator, but the one Creator moving in portions of Itself, finding the balance within this illusion for other lessons not well learned in another illusion.

As you see one portion of the Creator suffering the great difficulty, you with your limited perspective are not able to see that from which this situation sprang. As we look upon those entities who inhabit your planet, we see that there has been a great migration of souls from many portions of your universe. This planet upon which you dwell is one which houses those who have had difficulties within the third-density experience which attempts to learn the lessons of Love. These entities have migrated to your planet in order to once again attempt the great lesson of choosing to Love the self or to Love other selves. Many are the lives, cycles and sagas that each entity upon your planet has undertaken. The journeys have not been easy; many have been the difficulties. Those difficulties now apparent are those which are hoped by the entity suffering that will balance the previous difficulties in order that the harvest and graduation into what you have called the density of Love might be accomplished, for each upon your planet at this time is old in experience and each has the opportunity to learn these lessons of Love and to move from this density of forgetting into the experience of remembering once again that the one Creator dwells in all. These great difficulties are the tests which provide the opportunities for graduation.

K asked: “I have a question about the people who are starving to death in Africa. Where is the Love of the Creator in that? It seems to me it would be an overly harsh and severe test to put these people through.” Then Latwii said upon your planet at this time there are many entities who suffer difficulties, sicknesses, and separation from those that are loved, and this is the way of many within your illusion, and each in some way partakes of what seems unloving, yet within your illusion there is the restriction of the viewpoint, for you cannot see with the wide-ranging eye that sees the patterns not only of this life but of those lives and lessons which stretch back into time, but it is not possible for people to see in such a manner, or else the Love of the Creator would be more easily expressed, yet even within the situation within which you have described, there is not only the Love of the one Creator, but the Creator moving in portions of Itself, finding the balance within this illusion for other lessons not well learned in another illusion. Latwii continued by saying as you see one portion of the Creator suffering difficulty, you are not able to see that from which this situation sprang, so as we look upon those entities who inhabit your planet, we see that there has been a migration of souls from many portions of your universe, for this planet upon which you dwell is one which houses those who have had difficulties within the third-density experience which attempts to learn the lessons of Love, and these entities have migrated to your planet in order to again attempt the lesson of choosing to Love the self or to Love other selves, yet many are the lives and cycles that each entity upon your planet has undertaken, but the journeys have not been easy, and many have been the difficulties which are now apparent that are hoped by the entity suffering that will balance the previous difficulties in order that the graduation into the density of Love might be accomplished, for each upon your planet at this time is old in experience, and each has the opportunity to learn these lessons of Love and to move from this density of forgetting into the experience of remembering once again that the one Creator dwells in all, for these difficulties are the tests which provide the opportunities for graduation. On December 9, 2023, Q’uo described the nature of graduation into the fourth density of Love and understanding:

The population of your planet Earth is a population which has moved through many times of the third-density experience upon other planets. There are many that have now begun to feel the awakening of the spiritual journey on a conscious level so that there are many now that are achieving that level of 51% service-to-others that will, if maintained, allow a graduation into what you know of as the fourth density of Love and understanding.

May we answer you further, my brother?

K: Yeah, I’m still a little bit confused in that I can accept a percentage that has probably been with any segment of society since the dawn of creation on this planet, but why so many souls together numerically in one place at one time are going through this? I have a tough time rationalizing the overwhelming massive numbers of people that are dying right now.

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my brother. As we spoke previously, many are the sources of planetary influences which have contributed their populations to your own planet in order that these entities might once again be exposed to the illusion of forgetting. Great numbers in your estimation have come from these planetary influences and have together, as seekers of truth, experienced those conditions which created the distortions and imbalances within their life patterns that they now find the necessity and opportunity of balancing once again. Once again together they journey; once again together they provide themselves the opportunity to learn; once again they find that Love supports their every moment of existence even though it seems that there is no Love.

May we answer you further, my brother?

K: Are you saying that they’re knocking a time line against the harvest, and that’s why they’re doing what they’re doing now? The time grows short in this particular cycle?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my brother. Indeed, as what you call time grows shorter, and the harvest grows near, the opportunities for covering a certain distance must be intensified in order to do more work in consciousness. Were there more time, as you call it, the lessons might be attempted in a less intensive manner. Yet these entities, as each upon your planet, are greatly desirous of completing this illusion and learning, indeed, how to Love, and have, therefore, determined that the remaining period of time might best be utilized in this intensive manner.

May we answer you further, my brother?

K: No, thank you.

I am Latwii, and we thank you, my brother. Is there another query at this time?

S: Latwii, it would appear to me that this would be an opportunity to serve those in those portions of the world that are suffering, be it money or would it be more effective to send Love and Light to help them on their way? Can you speak to that?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my sister. There are many ways to be of service to such entities. To those who are starving, indeed, it is quite fit that food be given, that medicine be given, that the physical needs be tended to in order that the mind might find the rest in which to contemplate the mystery of life and that consciousness then might move more freely through a vehicle which is supported in its barest needs. These entities then provide those other populations of your planet with the opportunity to be of service. Thus, you see various portions of the one Creator offering opportunities to other portions of the one Creator to know Itself through Love.

May we answer you further, my sister?

S: Thank you.

I am Latwii. Is there another query at this time?

Carla: Well, I’d like to follow up on that one because it seems to me that the news is kind of managed. There are people starving to death here in this town tonight, for one reason or another, people that live on the streets. Any big city has them. One can give food, one can send Light. I guess my question basically is, is there more starving and misery now because of the nearness of the end of the cycle, or has it always been like this in the world? History would have us believe that there has been a lot of this sort of thing through the generations.

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my sister. That which you have called history as it has been recorded by your people is but a very short span of the entire length of your planet’s third-density cycle. Indeed, within the last five thousand years, a period of time which seems great in length within this circle, you are speaking of a period that is but a small fraction of your planet’s entire cycle of seventy-five thousand years. Thus, within this small fraction of time, the intensification of catalyst and experience has continued so that those entities of what you may call seniority of vibration who have the possibility of being graduated from your illusion may accomplish these tasks and lessons within the shortening period of what you call time. Thus, you are correct in your assumptions, my sister.

May we answer you further?

Carla: No… So you’re saying that all of recorded history is basically that of the end times? As we know it.

I am Latwii, and this is correct, my sister. We find that this instrument is rapidly growing fatigued and would suggest that if it were possible for another to assume the channeling of our attempts to answer your queries that this would be appropriate at this time. If this is not possible, then we shall take our leave of this group. We shall attempt to transfer this contact at this time. I am Latwii.

(L channeling)

I am Latwii. I am now with this instrument, and I greet you in the Love and the Light of the infinite Creator. At this time, we shall be happy to continue our efforts to be of service to those present in offering our opinions and what meager wisdom we possess to those who desire to pose questions. Are there any questions?

Carla: Well, I’m kind of curious as to what starving to death is the balance for. What behavior, or what error, what bias had to be balanced by starving to death?

I am Latwii, and I am aware of your question. My sister, in your world at this time there are many who find themselves to be possessed of that which potentially could be shared with other selves. This, in essence, is an opportunity for service. There are many who, upon experiencing that which you call death, are given an opportunity to reflect upon their lessons in the previous life and perceive overlooked opportunities to be of service and sharing that which they felt they possessed. As you are aware, the rapid approach of harvest allows little time in which to provide oneself repeated opportunities for sharing through the experiencing of multiple lifetimes. Therefore, certain entities choose to incarnate under conditions which have a high probability of…

We shall pause.

[Side two of tape ends.]

(L channeling)

Certain entities choose to incarnate under conditions with a high probability of deprivation. This has a two-fold potential for learning. The first is quite obvious—an increased perception of the effects resultant from an entity’s failure to be of service through sharing with other selves. Second, an opportunity to be of service to other selves by sharing what meager resources are available to the entity with his or her other selves, a prospect which is quite difficult, yet reaps much reward in the development of the entity. The entity in essence thus provides themself with what might be termed a crash course in brotherhood in hopes to maximize his or her growth on the path of service to others in a minimal amount of time, that is, the time remaining prior to harvest.

May we answer you further, my sister?

Carla: No, thank you.

Latwii: We thank you. Is there another question.

K: Yeah, I have question, probably the same question but from a different perspective. What is it within the nature of man that makes him make war on his fellow man on a repetitive basis?

I am Latwii. My brother, what is it in man that enables him to perceive both himself and his other selves as separate entities, both from one another and from their Creator? It is that lack of perception, my brother, which is both a lesson in your density and an opportunity to progress along either the line of service to others or service to self. If one chooses the path of service to self, then one is not deterred by the awareness that the pain is inflicted upon oneself. However, if one chooses the path of service to others, one is greatly benefited in that the awareness must be perceived by intention, an intention in analogy to the knight who in seeking the holy grail never allows his glance to waver for a moment from the miraculous image. My brother, this failing is intentional, this lack of automatic perception enables you as an entity to seek either grail: the grail of self-service or the grail of service to others.

May we answer you further?

K: Yeah. The Christian community has a concept of original sin, and I’ve often thought that it’s possible that if in fact that exists, that what it is is the inability of man to get along with his fellow man. Could you speak to that, please?

I am Latwii. I am aware of your question. My brother, the concept of sin is the result of a contamination of information by those who would seek the path of service to self. There is no sin, my brother. There simply is a set of conditions within which the entity exists and is provided with the opportunities to make choices—ideally, choices leading to further polarization in one direction or the other.

May we answer you further, my brother?

K: No, thank you.

Latwii: We thank you, my brother. Is there another question?

J: Greetings, Latwii. May I ask if the death camps in Germany during World War II, as well as the current famine, is this not consideration to increase the total awareness of all entities?

I am Latwii, and I am aware of your question. My brother, the situations which you describe are the result of choices made by entities incarnate at times in which these situations exist or did exist. It would not be accurate to describe them as conditions established for the enhancement of awareness of other entities, for in truth, they are the ongoing lessons of both the recipients of the unpleasant influences and those performing those acts. It is not common, to our knowledge, for such intensive experiences to be established for the enhancement of others present in a manner similar to that of a football team performing for the crowd. This, to our knowledge, is not an effective path toward self-development of the audience.

May we answer you further, my brother?

J: Thank you very much. Then you’re saying that the increased awareness is only involving those who are involved per se individually, and not a general heightening awareness such as was mentioned concerning the UFO’s.

Latwii: My brother, the enhanced awareness is the increase of opportunity to be of service for those who are not direct participants. The opportunity to be of service which is provided by these situations is a benefit for those made aware and given an opportunity to serve. However, the situations you describe were not established solely for that purpose. Rather, the opportunity for service among those such as are present is more aptly described as a ramification of the situation rather than the focal point of its existence. The focal point, my brother, is for those who in your words are on the scene.

May we answer you further?

J: Yes. Then eliminating the consideration for physical conflict in the area of the famine, from what we’re told, it’s almost impossible to get food in and get it to the people that need it. That is, just donating food would not be an adequate consideration or money for food, whatever, other than the resultant possible physical conflict. Is that true or not?

Latwii: My brother, all things are possible. Therefore, it would not be accurate to state that the situation as you describe it is fixed. We would suggest that you examine the possibility that those who seek to be of service to themselves by withholding or preventing the distribution of physical sustenance might waver in their dedication to service to self and distribute these items. This possibility, although low in probability, still exists. Other possibilities would include the determination by those in the seats of power to distribute food to those in need despite the artificial boundaries of nations. This possibility, although fraught with danger, also exists.

May we answer you further, my brother?

J: May I diverge just a bit to ask you if there was some major catastrophe, oh, prior to five, six thousand years ago, such as the rotation of the poles of the Earth, that caused all prior information to be eliminated?

I am Latwii, and would like to ask that your question be phrased more clearly in that we are not certain as to the time locus of your question.

J: Approximately five to six thousand years ago our first recorded, present recorded written knowledge became somewhat available. There seems to be some lack of information that preceded approximately five to six thousand years ago. And I was just wondering if there was a major catastrophe that might have occurred—or perhaps it was not a catastrophe, perhaps it was a harvest—but some major physical condition involving the Earth that eliminated most of the prerecorded material that may have existed prior to five…

[Tape ends.]

This morning the quote from The Thunder of Silence is: “We can stop the operation of karmic law at any moment in our life when we recognize that we have set this law in motion by our own thoughts and deeds or by the acceptance of racial or religious or national consciousness and then begin renouncing it. The way to break the karmic law is through repentance and by living constantly in an atmosphere of Love and forgiveness. Then we are no longer human or mortal because we no longer harbor thoughts and deeds of mortality.

Only one thing can free us from the law of as ye sow, so shall ye reap—to stop sowing. The only way to stop sowing is to recognize our spiritual identity because then we need not reach out, scheming, plotting, planning, grasping, or even desiring that which another has, but we can be beholders and watch what wonderful ways God has of providing for us without depriving another.

In The Infinite Way we recognize that there is a law, but we also recognize that there is something called Grace. Let me illustrate it in this way. If we have not been taught in modern metaphysics, we are subject to material laws because there are laws of matter to plague us on this human plane—laws of climate, infection, heredity, environment, time and space. Every human being in the world is under the law of time. In fact, all we have to do is to look at a calendar long enough, and we begin to feel weary, weak, and depleted.

Those of you who have had any experience at all with metaphysical or spiritual healing have already learned that these laws of matter are not power in the presence of spiritual understanding. They are theories and beliefs, but there is a Grace which sets them aside. That does not mean that on the human level there is not a law of matter; it does not mean that there is not a law of mind: It merely means that there is a state of Grace that sets aside both the laws of matter and the laws of mind.”

This morning I changed out the blue sheets and pillow cases for the green ones. Then I washed the blue sheets and pillow cases, put them in the dryer, and ironed the flat sheet and pillowcases.

Then I went outside and worked on the small stone wall between the fishpond and the Vanilla/Strawberry Hydrangeas. I was able to increase the length of the stone wall by about five feet.

This afternoon I went back outside and completed another three feet of the stone wall.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

April 3

Comfort Ye

I am the Spirit of Jesus the Christ and of the principle of full, creative Love. We greet you with thanksgiving and blessing and urge you also to find the blessings in this very hour, in this exact moment which lies before you.

When one thinks with one’s mind and reacts to one’s bodily needs, one is trapped in an area which is finite. Spiritual life is far different. We pray that you may, indeed, be comforted, realizing that the nature of spiritual comfort can be difficult.

For is it not written in the Holy Bible that the Comforter, encouraging the comfort of the people, ate locusts and wild honey and died a petty and horrible death? The Creator’s peace is a peace that knows no end of strife until the breath leaves the body. The principle of Love is of this character.

May you find your peace, your strength, and your courage, as though all events, emotions, and occasions were far more alike than different.

“Comfort ye. Comfort ye, my peoples.”

Indeed! Words of comfort, ultimately given from the cross. In resurrection we shall see each other face to face and will know each other for the great comfort that we have been, all to each other.

We leave you in peace, now and always.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of Love and open our hearts minds, and souls to send Love, Light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite Love, Light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our Love, Light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. The Laitos channeling for this session comes from January 22, 1985:

(Carla channeling)

I am Laitos. I greet you in the Love and in the Light of the infinite Creator. We thank you that you have called us that we may be with you and are most eager to work you at this time. We would at this time begin working with the one known as N. While we speak through this instrument, we shall be attempting adjustments in order that we may bring our carrier wave into synchronicity with this instrument’s own so that the instrument, N, may become aware of our presence in some way which will be unique to him as always.

Meanwhile, we would like to speak a bit about channeling and about being an instrument. There is a saying among your peoples, “Nothing ventured, nothing gained.” This is extraordinarily true of metaphysical work of all kinds. The one who takes no risk is the one who will not advance. The more carefully one guards one’s gifts, the less that gift will come to mean, and the less good that gift will come to offer. It is as though there was inflation in spiritual gifts so that it is necessary always to attempt more and more regardless of what has gone before. Therefore, one which has little must attempt enough that that little may become a bit more. One which has already had much must attempt a great deal. The responsibility for spiritual seeking is that eternal upward spiral. Seeking does not end. The road does not end. The journey goes on and on, as far we know, forever.

During that journey you shall meet those who are your companions along the way, those who wish as you do to serve, and with them you seek not only the truths that undergird and strengthen your life but also the application of those truths in an ethical manner so that the life experience may be productive, not in the physical sense, but in the spiritual sense, for when we speak of giving of the spiritual gifts, the greatest gift which you give may well be your personality, your character, the way that you are without any effort except that of continually repeating the search for a refinement of the truth. However, there are those who seek to serve in the manner which you call vocal channeling, and for this we are grateful for without such voices ours would be still except to the very few who are able to hear words that are not spoken.

In this part of this session Laitos spoke of spiritual gifts. They began by saying we would like to speak about channeling, and there is a saying among your people, “Nothing ventured, nothing gained,” and this is true of metaphysical work of all kinds, for the one who takes no risk is the one who will not advance, so the more carefully one guards one’s gifts, the less that gift will come to mean, and the less good that gift will come to offer, yet it is as though there was inflation in spiritual gifts so that it is necessary to attempt more regardless of what has gone before, and one which has little must attempt enough that that little may become a bit more, but one which has already had much must attempt a great deal, for the responsibility for spiritual seeking is that eternal upward spiral, so seeking does not end, and the journey goes on forever. Now Laitos said during that journey you shall meet those who are your companions along the way, those who wish as you do to serve, and with them you seek not only the truths that undergird and strengthen your life but also the application of those truths in an ethical manner so that the life experience may be productive, not in the physical sense, but in the spiritual sense, for when we speak of giving of spiritual gifts, the greatest gift which you give may well be your personality, your character, the way that you are without any effort except that of continually repeating the search for a refinement of the truth, but there are those who serve in the manner of vocal channeling, and for this we are grateful, for without such voices ours would be still except to the very few who are able to hear words that are not spoken. On November 14, 1993, Q’uo spoke of the nature of spiritual gifts:

Given the amount of spiritual gifts which you have, the parable would suggest moving further, attempting more, striving to be even more full of service, using all that you have to offer, ever more of that which is the bloom and blossom of your own inner spiritual life. The currency of the spiritual life, the money, is the energy with which the seeker is willing to accomplish the attempt of doing that which the seeker’s unique spiritual gifts suggest for his proper vocation. One entity may have a dramatic spiritual gift, a gift of healing, for instance. Another may have the spiritual gift of nurturing and spend the life dwelling with the children and the spouse and extended family. That one who is in the process of living the devotional life has done the excellent thing. However, this excellence lies equally with that entity who has the modest gift, that does not shine before the eyes of all people, if that entity offers heart and flesh in the attempt to give that which they have.

And that is why you are here this evening, and, therefore, we shall attempt to continue with the one known as N. May we say to our brother, we thank you and we bless you in your efforts on behalf of your brothers and sisters of third density. Whatever the results of these efforts, your own intention will be bright and will shine so that those who see you may see through you to the source of that Light that is your greater self, perhaps a self that you wish that you were but feel that you are not. This is always incorrect. All are perfect and all is perfect at this moment. That which seems uncontrolled, biased and quarrelsome among nations is, indeed, only that which gives balance to the angelic, lovely, kind, compassionate, and saintly actions of other nations and other people. Things are not in need of fixing. Each entity is in need of finding and sharing the Love of the infinite Creator. It is for this reason that all have incarnated. It is for a more specialized type of service that we now gather, and yet the goals are always and ever the same, to be one with the Creator and to be one with your fellow people. Underpinning all of this is the goal of being one with yourself, of affirming yourself, loving yourself, and preparing yourself for the discipline of service to others.

We shall now transfer to the one known as N, cautioning the instrument not to analyze. When a thought comes into the mind, the thought is felt precisely as if it were your thought. It is a matter of subjective concern for all new instruments that your thought and our thoughts feel the same. You must, therefore, challenge the contact, and if it stays, go ahead with it, meanwhile remaining in a tuned and disciplined focus of concentration, very much conscious, not at all in trance. Let your body relax and let your mind rest, but let the consciousness be one-pointed, as if you were attempting to catch a long thrown baseball. You catch the baseball and you pitch it again as accurately as possible. Only when you have pitched it and your glove is empty can you catch another baseball.

So it is with the channeling. When you receive a concept, say the concept that you receive. At that point you will be available for another concept to be let forth within your mind. It is this technique which we use with almost all channels, this entity being somewhat of an anomaly, as it wishes to have a more advanced type of contact after much experience. The type of contact which the new instrument wishes to experience is completely adequate to the delivery, explanation and exploration of the one message that we have come to bring, a message that can be said in countless ways, and each new spirit which dedicates itself to offering these messages thus gives the one message of Love and Light a new voice that is very precious. Again, we ask you to stop analyzing, my brother, and simply speak those words which you hear. We shall now transfer. I am Laitos.

[Pause]

(Carla channeling)

I am once again with this instrument. I am Laitos. We greet you once again in Love and Light. May we ask the one known as N to relax and cease analyzing. This instrument has come a good way since our last time of working. The defenses, however, which a characteristically analytical mind has against the speaking of things not already known is most naturally a stumbling block. We ask that the one known as N to continue to attempt to remove that stumbling block by relaxing and studiously refrain from analyzing again. We now transfer to the one known as N. I am Laitos.

[Pause]

(Carla channeling)

I am Laitos. I am again with this instrument. We feel we are making progress with the one known as N, and would try once more to say one phrase. We wish to say our identification through this instrument. We shall attempt to do so now. I am Laitos.

N: I think I hear, “I am Laitos,” but I don’t know.

Carla: Okay.

(Carla channeling)

I am Laitos. May we say to the one known as N that one who channels is a fool stepping off the cliff into thin air. It is necessary for the preservation of free will that our contact not be unmistakable but be subtle. Once the first step is taken, subjective proof may begin to come forth. At first, however, it is usually the case that there is a great deal of faith involved in speaking the first few words and messages. We shall attempt once again to speak through the new instrument, emphasizing we wish only to speak the one phrase, and that there is no absolute proof that this is coming to the instrument. Once the experiment has been done, there may be much more upon which the instrument may wish to ponder. Again, we shall transfer to the one known as N. I am Laitos.

(N channeling)

I am Laitos. I greet you in the Love and Light of the one infinite Creator.

(Carla channeling)

I am Laitos and am once again with this instrument. We are having to share this instrument’s consciousness with the playful second-density creatures which you call cats that frolic about your feet. Theirs is a happy vibration, and we are grateful for it. We are grateful also to the one known as N, who has made great progress this evening. Our humble thanks and our promise to continue working at any time that may be possible. We shall pause at this time before the question-and-answer period so that this instrument’s mind may be put to rest concerning the rustling of various papers of unknown origin. I am Laitos.

[Pause]

(Carla channeling)

I am Laitos. We apologize for the inconveniences. However, my friends, those who speak in Love and Light must needs do so in a dark world where there are many distractions. Such distractions as those of the playful kittens, therefore, are welcome in that they are good teaching tools for circumstances are not always the very best. Indeed, they are usually far from the best. And yet, somehow, there are heroes and saints, healers, and those who Love with purity everywhere one turns, even in this dark world.

We shall transfer now to the one known as Jim. I am Laitos.

(Jim channeling)

I am Laitos and greet you once again in love and light. We would now open this session to any questions which those present might wish to ask. May we attempt any queries at this time?

N: Are there others that take many sessions before they can adequately channel?

I am Laitos and am aware of your query, my brother. We might say that your progress is quite good. We have worked with many instruments over a long period of what you call time and have noted that your experience is quite normal, and we are most pleased that you have been able to receive our vibration and speak our identification. Many there are who take a good deal longer to accomplish these feats.

May we answer you further, my brother?

N: The message just seems to be there, but I’m not really sure that it’s there or whether I’m repeating the introduction that I’m expected to be repeating. It’s sort of an unusual consideration for me.

I am Laitos, and we feel that within your comment there is a query which we might also comment upon. Your perception of our introduction and our vibration is quite accurate, for though we are, indeed, quite real, the reality of the metaphysical realm is a reality which is not tangible or provable within your own manifested material reality. Your senses, your perceptions, and your thoughts are all focused upon a world which might be held, and touched, and seen, and tasted, and smelled. Our reality, on the other hand, is that which requires a sense quite beyond any of your five common senses, but we must operate as best we can through those means of perception which are at your disposal.

The most effective manner in which we might contact those of your people is in this manner now being utilized, that is the mind-to-mind thought transfer. In this manner of communication we speak our thoughts; we send our concepts; and they are received in your mind in much the same manner as your own thoughts become apparent to you. If you will take but a moment to consider the phenomenon of your own thinking and speaking, you will discover that at each moment in which you partake of speech you are channeling from some portion of your being thoughts of a nebulous nature which you attempt to translate into words in order to communicate with another entity. You are not consciously aware of the source of these thoughts. You do not know the next complete sentence which you will speak. In much the same manner, we contact your mind and transfer our thoughts. You will not be able to discern a great difference between our thoughts and yours, thus the concept of the fool who steps into space, unknowing of whether there shall be a place to put the foot, unknowing as to whether the next word shall make sense when viewed with those words previously spoken, thus the necessity for faith that such can occur. This faith balances the will, the desire which you have expressed to learn this service.

N said: “The message just seems to be there, but I’m not really sure that it’s there or whether I’m repeating the introduction that I’m expected to be repeating. It’s sort of an unusual consideration for me.” Laitos replied by saying your perception of our introduction and our vibration is accurate, for though we are real, the reality of the metaphysical realm is a reality which is not provable within your material reality, for your thoughts are all focused upon a world which might be held, and touched, and seen, and tasted, and smelled, but our reality is that which requires a sense beyond any of your five common senses, but we must operate as best we can through those means of perception which are at your disposal. Laitos went on to say the most effective manner in which we might contact those of your people is in the mind-to-mind thought transfer, for in this manner of communication we speak our thoughts, and they are received in your mind in the same manner as your own thoughts become apparent to you, so if you will take a moment to consider the phenomenon of your own thinking and speaking, you will discover that at each moment in which you partake of speech you are channeling from some portion of your being thoughts of an unclear nature which you translate into words in order to communicate with another entity, but you are not consciously aware of the source of these thoughts, and you do not know the next sentence which you will speak, for in the same manner, we contact your mind and transfer our thoughts, yet you will not be able to discern a difference between our thoughts and yours, thus the concept of the fool who steps into space, unknowing of whether there shall be a place to put the foot, unknowing as to whether the next word shall make sense when viewed with those words previously spoken, thus the necessity for faith that such can occur, so this faith balances the will, the desire which you have expressed to learn this service.

When one has chosen the highest path for the incarnation, then one is saying to the self that all else must be subservient to that choice of Love, whatever it may be. One must be willing to risk the loss of those things which may seem, for the moment, to be more important than following the path which is closest to the heart’s desire. This is where the symbol of the Fool within your system of the tarot is seen to be walking from the cliff to be suspended in midair, ready to fall. However, the faith of the Fool sustains the next step, and the next, and the next.

May we answer you further, my brother?

N: Thank you very much. Then, as I take it, I am more or less focused on the five physical senses to such a fairly great extent that I have trouble with other considerations such as clairaudience, or at least this seems to be one of the big thoughts, is eliminating the five physical senses in my particular case. Is that sort of what the situation is or is it all thought?

I am Laitos, and we appreciate your query, my brother, and comment by suggesting that you are not alone in this particular way of experiencing your illusion, for if your people were aware of all the life-forms about them and the constant communication between these forms, there would be a great difficulty in functioning in a practical manner within your illusion, and a great difficulty in learning those lessons which are your opportunity to learn. The, as you call it, human being upon your planet must be able to screen out this great symphony of communication that is ever-present about it, and be very finely focused through its five senses in order to utilize your illusion.

The development of senses beyond the five is a practice which allows an entity to carefully open its field of perception in order that the one Creation in its joyful singing and experiencing might then be revealed to the entity in ways which enhance the evolutionary progress of each entity. Your particular means of perception and utilization of the five senses is not unique only unto you, therefore, my brother, you share it with your kind for a particular purpose, and as you now attempt to expand your ability to perceive and serve, you shall find there is a great deal of perception that awaits your adventurous seeking.

May we answer you further, my brother?

N: Thank you very much. Yes. Are there ways to expand my ability to perceive in terms other than channeling? I ask this for several reasons. I have meditated for quite some time, but still I have not seemed to realize anything more than what might be considered nebulous results. The other thing is that when I go to sleep at night, I hear nothing. I do not dream as other people do. It seems I go into oblivion. Would you care to comment at all as to an analysis of this consideration?

I am Laitos, and we shall attempt this, my brother. You may utilize any means which you desire to utilize in expanding your own sensory perceptions, and, as they are called, extrasensory perceptions. The means of such utilization is not the important factor in what you would call a success. The most important factor is the desire and discipline in using whatever means is chosen. For, indeed, the initial results shall be quite nebulous, and in order to make the results more formed and apparent, one must constantly seek in a disciplined manner to do this. Many fall short of the desire and discipline necessary and move quickly from one technique to another shortly to convince themselves that either the techniques do not work or their own mind is too dense. Yet both assumptions are false, for any entity with the proper desire and discipline may utilize any means of awakening those senses which wait within each portion of the one Creator.

As to your concern that your sleep is without dreams and carries you to that portion of existence you have described as oblivion, we might suggest that your experience during sleep is not necessarily without the dreaming, for many such as yourself experience the dream yet do not remember it. The failure or lack of remembering may have many, shall we say, causes or reasons. In this area we may speak only in general, for your own particular reasons for not remembering the dreams are a portion of your means of evolving in mind, body, and spirit. If again your desire to remember your dreams and your discipline in attempting such remembering were focused enough, you would, indeed, remember that work which is accomplished in your sleep and which does take the form of dream.

May we answer you further, my brother?

N: Thank you very much. I take it that perhaps I am trying to do too much. I am not focusing. I am, as you say, going helter-skelter rather than pursuing one particular single line. The other thing is about the dream. I have told myself to remember the dreams, and have tried to concentrate on this, and occasionally I will, but it’s very seldom. Do you have any comment in that respect?

I am Laitos, and we may comment by suggesting that your summation and estimation of your abilities to remember your own dreams is fairly accurate.

May we answer further, my brother?

N: The only other query was the fact that am I perhaps going too much helter-skelter and trying to read too many different articles at one time or listen to too many different tapes, and what might be the best course without influencing free will?

I am Laitos, and we shall attempt this most difficult balance between making a suggestion and avoiding the influencing of your own free will. As the seeker which you are moves through its life experience there shall be many sources of illumination and inspiration brought before its attention by the power of its seeking. You are as the magnet, and your seeking draws close to you those sources of information which may be of value to you. As the seeker views the resources which are about it, the book, as you have called them, and tapes, the entities, the concepts, from whatever sources available, let then the seeker use these catalysts as beginning points from which its own uniquely fashioned journey shall move.

We view, then, a tapestry of your own making according to your own understanding, shall we say, and unto that understanding be faithful and true in your pursuit of that which you seek, the one Creator, full and balanced within your life experience. You are able not only to gather information but to weave it into an unified whole, a pattern which is of your own making and which to you makes, shall we say, sense.

May we answer you further, my brother?

N: Thank you very much. I don’t wish to tire the instrument. Perhaps we can discuss this further at a later date. Thank you very much.

[Side one of tape ends.]

(Jim channeling)

I am Laitos, and we greet you once again in Love and Light. As we see that we have exhausted the queries for this evening, we shall at this time take our leave of this instrument and this group, thanking each for the great honor which you bestow upon us by allowing us to blend our vibrations with yours. It is with great joy that we exercise the new instrument known as N, and we look forward to future exercising of this instrument, and can once again remind this entity that its desire to perform this service is as a great light within the metaphysical realms. Though it cannot be seen with any of your sensory apparatus, we can assure that it does shine quite, quite brightly. We leave you now in the Love and in the Light of the one infinite Creator. I am Laitos. Adonai, my friends. Adonai.

This morning the quote from The Thunder of Silence is: “When the Master gave us the true spiritual religion, He threw nine of those commandments out the window, dropped them entirely and substituted for them the First Commandment: “Thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy mind,” and added to this first one another ancient commandment, “Thou shalt love thy neighbor as thyself.” These are the only two commandments to which Jesus gave any spiritual significance, and they are a guide to us in our humanhood.

To “love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy mind” would be to bring ourselves into obedience to God and God’s laws. To love our neighbor as ourselves completely removes us from karmic law because we would then neither think nor do an injustice, a wrong, or an evil to another any more than we would do it unto ourselves or that we would wish to have it done unto ourselves. To pray to God to harm or injure another is a form of pagan ignorance, and to pray to God for one’s own personal gain is but another form of paganistic stupidity.

Therefore, in our relationship with one another we are living completely in the sense that we are one, or as the Master counseled, “Call no man your father upon the Earth: for one is your Father, which is in heaven.” If we look upon one another as brothers and sisters, there is then no karmic effect being generated within us because our life is a life of love, service, devotion, and sharing.

If our relationship with one another is pure, we want nothing from anyone but the opportunity to work, share, or in some way be an instrument of blessing to our other Self. In return we ask for nothing. The opportunity of sharing, loving, and co-operating is enough because all that the Father has is ours, and the Father has means of bringing our supply to us without our desiring it or asking for it.

Such an awareness of our true identity creates a spiritual bond among all those who are on this path. In such a bond, no one is thinking of taking advantage of anyone else; no one is thinking in terms of self-gain of self-aggrandizement, or of any form of self except the idea of a sharing of the Self.”

Later this morning I went outside and continued working on the stone wall between the fishpond and the Vanilla/Strawberry Hydrangea. I was able to complete another eight feet of the wall.

This afternoon I ran some errands with my first stop being at Feeder’s Supply where I bought some cat food. My second stop was at Paul’s Fruit Market where I bought some food for myself. My third stop was at Speedway Gas where I put 32 psi of air in all of Stanley’s tires. My last stop was at Walgreen’s Drug Store where I bought some Kleenexes and some Pepsi-Zero. When I got home I used Whip Lash to trim all of the weeds around the fishpond and in Little Locust Creek.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

April 2

Give Thanks!

I am of the consciousness of the most high. I greet you in the realization of unconditional Love, the consciousness of the Christ.

The morning has come again. For what can you give thanks? If there is no sunshine to praise, then praise the clouds and rain.

If you cannot give thanksgiving for the plenteousness of water and the shade of the trees in an oasis, give thanksgiving instead to the clean, clear, lucid, and deep desert wherein may be found plain answers and the untangling of many a mystery.

If you seem tossed about on the stormy ocean, and find that you cannot praise this condition, praise instead the endlessness of that ocean and the infinity and freedom of the water.

For all things made by the Creator are equally to be praised. All moods, feelings, and thoughts of those conscious beings whom He made are equally worthy.

Therefore, in whatever condition you find yourself, give thanks. But chiefly give thanks for the Creator which has made all things. For in all things lies Love; the Love of the consciousness of wholeness, healing, and peace which is the gift in embodiment of Jesus the Christ.

May you feel blessed regardless of circumstance, because you are a witness to the creation. You may not understand it, but you may praise it in faith and hope, and in that Spirit shall you be consoled.

We leave you in the peace and consolation of the Spirit of unconditional and infinite Love, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of Love and open our hearts minds, and souls to send Love, Light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite Love, Light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our Love, Light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Oxal and Latwii channelings in this session are from January 6, 1985:

(Carla channeling)

I am Oxal. I greet you in the Love and in the Light of the one infinite Creator. It is our pleasure to speak with you this evening. We ask your patience as we work with this instrument, as this instrument is receiving one word at a time, a method of channeling that is new to her, and thus she must learn to trust more and more completely to her own tuning and to our goodwill. Indeed, we ask each of you to become more and more reliant upon your own tuning, your own sense of how things are, and how you wish them to be, for as you seek, so you shall, of course, find. The more finesse used in the seeking, the more pleased you will be with what you find, and the more fruit you may distill from the experiences which make up your life’s patterns and tapestries.

Within your minds there is always the question, “Is there a Creator?” It might surprise you to experience the reversal of that question, “Is there anything which is created?” We say to you that there is that which is created. The next question is, “Why should the Creator of all that there is create that which is thrown apart from the Creator, divided by illusion upon illusion upon illusion, separated by dreams, and fantasies, and phantasmagoria of all kinds?” The answer to that question may be important for you to consider, for within it lies the reason for your being. The ethics of your being lie within other questions. The reason for your being is very simple. You are experiencing, as we are experiencing, as if we were separated from the Creator. If you look out upon a vast bleak landscape, the skeletons of trees without their leaves standing proudly against the winter sky, the dead leaves scurrying along, blown by a bitter wind, you may have some idea of the creation without the created. All is potential; nothing experiences.

In this session Oxal spoke about the nature of our being and the nature of the Creator. They began by saying we ask each of you to depend more upon your tuning, your sense of how things are, and how you wish them to be, for as you seek, so you shall find, for the more finesse used in the seeking, the more pleased you will be with what you find, and the more fruit you may distill from the experiences which make up your life’s patterns. Then Oxal said within your minds there is always the question: “Is there a Creator?” It might surprise you to experience the reversal of that question, “Is there anything which is created?” We say to you that there is that which is created. The next question is, “Why should the Creator of all that there is create that which is thrown apart from the Creator, divided by illusion upon illusion upon illusion, separated by dreams, and fantasies, and phantasmagoria of all kinds?” Now Oxal said the answer to that question may be important for you to consider, for within it lies the reason for your being, but the ethics of your being lie within other questions, so the reason for your being is simple, for you are experiencing it as if we were separated from the Creator, yet if you look out upon a bleak landscape, the skeletons of trees without their leaves standing proudly against the winter sky, the dead leaves scurrying along, blown by a bitter wind, you may have some idea of the creation without the created, for all is potential, and nothing experiences. On May 19, 1995, L/Leema said that as we seek, so shall we find:

As you continue to seek the one Creator and unity of all things, you shall become more and more aware, as you have stated. It is not necessary to speak with those unseen or to have communications of this variety in order to become more aware of your process of seeking. To desire such knowledge and experience is all that is necessary, for it has been written in that holy work previously mentioned that as you seek, you shall find; as you ask, it shall be answered; and as you knock, the doors shall be opened, for this is a law of the universe which functions without exception, for that which you seek is within your own being. You are all things.

The Creator could have simply created beauty according to a pattern of Its own choice. This the Creator did not do. It is our understanding that our Creator is hungry for that which It cannot Itself will, and that is the fruit that you bear in your experiences. Each day as you go through your life within this density and this experience, you bloom a little; you send out petals of anger, forgiveness, Love, kindness, jealousy, and a hunger and thirst for that which is physical and that which is metaphysical. And all these things are to the Creator as flowers, delicate and beautiful, too insubstantial to pluck, but to be watched with great joy. You feel joy, and the Creator feels joy; you feel hope, and the Creator hopes again. All things that you feel are gifts, are your gifts to the one infinite Creator. Do you wish to give good gifts? Then decide in your mind that which is good, but never doubt that to the Creator you are beautiful, for all experience is beautiful, for it is done in freedom, experienced in freedom, and given freely back to the creation.

Do you feel that you have made many errors today, that you have somehow gone astray, that your energies were scattered or low? Now you shall not judge, not in this moment, for in this moment we ask you to realize that that too is a gift which the Creator treasures, for all the colors of emotion and feeling, all the distortions of the one original Thought which can be developed by an independent consciousness are as blooming flowers against the bleak winter landscape of the uncreated. Gaze into the face of the deep, gaze at that which you might call darkness and that which is uncreated and chaotic, inchoate and about to be, and you shall see nothing. And then see yourselves—vivid, beautiful, and lovely, as the vibrant colors of your personal feelings, your highest hopes and your deepest sorrows all brighten the deep. O, waters of the deep, we salute you, for you tread upon the rim of that which is a void, a void which is full of the uncreated perfection of the one original Thought of Love. Yet, Love cannot speak to itself, react to itself or even feel. That is reserved for those like you, my friends, and like me who are as yet partially unaware that we are the Creator. Therefore, we feel and we sense; we do, we think, we act, and those gifts are priceless.

Now Oxal spoke about our relationship with the Creator and with the creation. Then they said the Creator could have created beauty according to a pattern of Its own choice, but the Creator did not do this, and it is our understanding that our Creator is hungry for that which It cannot Itself will, and that is the fruit that you bear in your experiences, so each day as you go through your life within this density, you bloom a little, and you send out petals of anger, forgiveness, Love, and a hunger for that which is physical and that which is metaphysical, for all these things are to the Creator as flowers, delicate and beautiful, too insubstantial to pluck, but to be watched with great joy, so you feel joy, and the Creator feels joy, and you feel hope, and the Creator hopes again, so all things that you feel are your gifts to the one infinite Creator, and if you wish to give good gifts decide that which is good, but never doubt that to the Creator you are beautiful, for all experience is beautiful, for it is done in freedom, experienced in freedom, and given freely back to the creation. Now Oxal said if you feel that you have made errors today, do not judge in this moment, for in this moment we ask you to realize that that too is a gift which the Creator treasures, for all the colors of emotions and all the distortions of the one original Thought which can be developed by an independent consciousness are as blooming flowers against the bleak winter landscape of the uncreated, so gaze into the face of the deep darkness and that which is uncreated and chaotic, and about to be, and you shall see nothing, and then see yourselves as the vibrant colors of your personal feelings, your highest hopes, and your deepest sorrows that all brighten the waters of the deep, so we salute you, for you tread upon the rim of that which is a void which is full of the uncreated perfection of the one original Thought of Love, yet Love cannot speak to Itself, or even feel, for that is reserved for those like you and like me who are partially unaware that we are the Creator, for we feel; we do; we think; we act; and those gifts are priceless. On June 2, 1985, Latwii spoke of the nature of the one original Thought of Love:

My sister, begin first with the foundation of all creation, that is, unity. From this unity the one Creator, the one original Thought of Love, springs all the infinite variety of forms of life and directions for each. Look then to any which seem of a fearful or doubtful nature. See there the Creator that rests as well within your own being. Love that Creator as if It were yourself, for in truth It is. See that which is feared; bathe it in Love, see it as self, bless it, bid it travel its journey, and then bathe your own being in the Love and the Light of the One. In so doing, you have affirmed the unity of all creation, for in truth that is all that there is. To move from that truth and to see any separation is to step upon the grounds which the entities of the negative polarity rule when fear and separation are with the entities there.

Again we thank you that we may speak with you, and we now leave you in the Love and in the Light of the One Who Is All in All. We are known to you as Oxal. Adonai.

(Jim channeling)

I am Latwii, and I greet you, my friends, in the Love and the Light of our infinite Creator. We are most privileged to be asked to join your group this evening, and we thank you for this honor. As always, we hope that our humble service may provide you with some small aid in your journey of seeking the truth. Please remember that our opinions are but that, our fallible opinions. With that disclaimer aside, may we begin with the first query of the evening?

M: Sherlock, we have missed your good, sound advice. We’d be interested in any words of wisdom about, oh, some pending decisions—not on what to do, but how to prepare for those decisions.

I am Latwii, and we thank you, my brother, for your query, and we greet you and those others who have been, shall we say, absent from this group for some time. As you prepare yourself for those decisions which shall determine the outer parameters of your illusion, we may suggest that as you seek to follow the path which is most appropriate for you at this time, and that you seek with a joyful heart and an open mind. This is to say if you attempt to analyze past the point of being able to assimilate that which has been analyzed, you may further confuse your ability—not to make a decision, but to listen to your own inner voice. We can suggest that you do that which can be done, however much or little that may be in the way of attempting to consciously discern how best to be of service to those whom you wish to serve, and how to provide this service most efficiently. Then we suggest that you give over your own will to the greater will of the one Creator which moves through you and seeks through your experience to know Itself. Realize that you cannot make what you call a mistake, but that each path which lies before you offers the opportunity to learn and to serve. To find that path which offers the greatest abundance of these treasures, you must, in the final, shall we say, analysis, give over any dedication to any particular outcome, for as you have sown your seeds as conscientious gardeners, there is a time during which other forces must have the opportunity to work with those seeds which you have sown. As this process occurs, you will notice in your life patterns those signs of the first sprouts. Begin then your watering with your attention and follow those sprouts, and they shall lead you to that table which has been prepared for you.

M asked: “We’d be interested in any words of wisdom about, oh, some pending decisions—not on what to do, but how to prepare for those decisions.” Latwii began by saying as you prepare yourself for those decisions which shall determine the outer parameters of your illusion, we suggest that as you seek to follow the path which is appropriate for you at this time, and that you seek with a joyful heart and an open mind, and this is to say if you attempt to analyze past the point of being able to assimilate that which has been analyzed, you may further confuse your ability—not to make a decision, but to listen to your own inner voice, so we can suggest that you do that which can be done, however much or little that may be in the way of attempting to consciously discern how best to be of service to those whom you wish to serve, and how to provide this service most efficiently, and then we suggest that you give over your will to the will of the one Creator which moves through you and seeks through your experience to know Itself, but realize that you cannot make a mistake, but that each path which lies before you offers the opportunity to learn and to serve, yet to find that path which offers the greatest abundance of these treasures, you must give over any dedication to any outcome, for as you have sown your seeds as conscientious gardeners, there is a time during which other forces must have the opportunity to work with those seeds which you have sown, for as this process occurs, you will notice in your life patterns those signs of the first sprouts, so begin your watering with your attention and follow those sprouts, and they shall lead you to that table which has been prepared for you. On November 7, 1982, Latwii described the general nature of our life patterns:

To begin, may we suggest that there are no accidents. Many experiences appear random. This is because the grand design of your life patterns is greatly hidden from your view. Within your illusion this is necessary so that lessons might be learned with greater efficiency, for in truth all are one, and Love is the heart of each. Yet to learn these lessons there must be the forgetting and the limiting of the view. The means of the passing from this illusion is chosen by each with variations also chosen should certain circumstances come to pass in such and such a fashion. Therefore, the correlation between the life and the death is most clearly seen when it is seen that both are chosen as means for learning the lessons of Love.

May we answer you further, my brother?

M: Not at all. Very eloquently said. Thank you.

I am Latwii, and we thank you, my brother. Is there another query at this time?

Carla: I have one if no one else does. I wondered if you could give me any words of wisdom about teaching how to channel better because I know—tonight for instance, Hatonn was here and Oxal was here, and I was hoping that Hatonn would speak but the other channels in the group didn’t pick it up. I mean, I think they picked it up, they just didn’t channel. And I wondered what I could do in terms of encouraging the people that were in this group? Do you know what I’m asking exactly?

I am Latwii, and we feel we have a grasp of your query, my sister. We may suggest that you have done that which can be done. One cannot cause another entity to manufacture a desire which is not present, for whatever reason it may not be present. You, as one who wishes to serve in a certain way, may note certain dedications to how a situation may progress. It may, for example, be your desire at certain times to see the new instruments be exercised, and this of course is most helpful to those learning the vocal channeling technique, but it must first have a desire to motivate. The new instrument must work its way through the process of hesitation and even the process of fatigue. This, my sister, shall, as it has in the past, happen in its own time. As we have previously spoken to the one known as M, when the seeds of effort have been sown there comes a time during which the gardener must simply exercise patience. One cannot shove the water into the seed, cause the seed to absorb it, then cause the seed to push the sprout through the ground. There are others who have their tasks to perform. May we suggest yours has been well done.

May we answer further, my sister?

Carla: No, I feel silly enough already. Thank you very much.

I am Latwii. We thank you, my sister, and join you in a wonder-filled silliness. May we attempt another query at this time?

L: Yes, Latwii. Would you give me a numerical evaluation of the accuracy of my channeling lately?

I am Latwii, and we are aware of your query, my brother. We shall pause for a moment while we consult our panel of judges. We see the cards are held high. On the scale of 10, we see a 6.2, a 7.1 and a 7.5. My brother, faciousness aside, this a very good rating, for we of the Confederation of Planets in Service to the One Infinite Creator wish to utilize instruments such as yourself to the degree which allows your own experience and means of expressing it to have a, shall we say, balanced sway in the message we provide and the means by which it is expressed, whether an instrument approaches this goal of, shall we say, roughly sixty to seventy percent of our, shall we say, input and thirty to forty percent of the instrument’s own input. Whether an instrument approaches this from one angle or another, may we suggest the progress is ever onward to that fine point of balance. Your journey is one of retracing steps which have previously been taken and have been well-learned. Your current experience and expression of vocal channeling is one which continues to approach this, shall we say, ideal balance.

May we answer you further, my brother?

L: Yes. I have in the past, and still today experience, some qualms about the idea of channeling, partly because of my suspicion that I was not channeling one hundred percent accurately, which I realize you don’t strive to produce, but nonetheless it would be an ideal to reach toward for a person attempting to channel accurately. The other is that since a mixture is desirable, there is an amount of responsibility inherent in adding my own salt to the pot. The fact that your own—I should say, my own personal dilution of your message or another entity’s message to me has an amount of responsibility involved, in that things that I inject could potentially have a bearing on another individual’s—their life, their perception of reality. Could you speak on this subject because I find that I’m uneasy with channeling because of it.

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my brother. We are most happy to be able to speak upon this topic, for it is one which is of major concern to all who seek to serve in the means of being vocal channels. We again repeat the theme which we have discovered this evening: that to give service most effectively, one must eventually give up the dedication as to how it shall be given, and simply be that which may be called the fool, the one who becomes so open in the attempt to serve that one takes no thought as to how the service shall occur. To attempt clarification, may we suggest that as you provide the service of vocal channeling, you cannot make an error which another entity shall use to that entity’s detriment, for, in truth, there are no errors, and any word which you speak will have to, shall we say, meet a rigorous standard of excellence which is unique for each who hears the words. No entity will listen with total acceptance; no entity will listen with total rejection. Each entity present in such a circle brings with it a desire to seek the truth and an openness to listen, else we could not speak. Yet each also brings the filter, the biases, and the preferences for one or another means of providing information, and, indeed, a preference for the kind of information provided. You will speak those words which are most appropriate for those gathered about you.

You are a part of a larger pattern of beingness. Many have called it a synchronistic function. It would seem that by chance you have gathered this evening those about you. This is not so, my brother. You are here with each other entity because of a certain desire to serve and a certain desire to learn. As the magnet attracts the iron filing, each of you have attracted the other for this evening, and have attracted these very words which are now being vibrated within your presence. As you proceed through your own attempt to be of service as a vocal channel, release when possible the fears and doubts which beset you and simply serve as best you can, realizing that your words will simply be seen and taken as guideposts, and will have an effect which is appropriate for each entity. You shall not be able to do irreparable damage, nor shall you be able to lead another along the path faster than that entity is willing and able to journey.

L asked: “I have in the past, and still today experience, some qualms about the idea of channeling, partly because of my suspicion that I was not channeling one hundred percent accurately, which I realize you don’t strive to produce, but nonetheless it would be an ideal to reach toward for a person attempting to channel accurately. The other is that since a mixture is desirable, there is an amount of responsibility inherent in adding my own salt to the pot. The fact that your own—I should say, my own personal dilution of your message or another entity’s message to me has an amount of responsibility involved, in that things that I inject could potentially have a bearing on another individual’s—their life, their perception of reality. Could you speak on this subject because I find that I’m uneasy with channeling because of it.” Latwii said that we are happy to be able to speak upon this topic, for it is one which is of concern to all who seek to be vocal channels, and we repeat the theme which we have this evening: that to give service effectively, one must give up dedication as to how it shall be given, and be one who becomes open in the attempt to serve, so that one takes no thought as to how the service shall occur, and we suggest that as you provide the service of vocal channeling, you cannot make an error which another entity shall use to that entity’s detriment, for there are no errors, and any word which you speak will have to meet a standard of excellence which is unique for each who hears the words, but no entity will listen with total acceptance or with total rejection, for each entity present in a circle brings a desire to seek the truth and an openness to listen, yet each also brings the preferences for one or another means of providing information, and a preference for the kind of information provided, for you will speak those words which are appropriate for those gathered about you. Latwii went on to say you are a part of a larger pattern of beingness, and it is called a synchronistic function, and it would seem that by chance you have gathered this evening those about you, but this is not so, for you are here with each other entity because of a desire to serve and to learn, for as the magnet attracts the iron filing, each of you has attracted the other for this evening and have attracted these words which are being vibrated within your presence, yet as you proceed through your attempt to be of service as a vocal channel, release the fears and doubts which beset you and serve as best you can, realizing that your words will be seen and taken as guideposts and will have an effect which is appropriate for each entity, but you shall not be able to do irreparable damage, nor shall you be able to lead another along the path faster than that entity is willing and able to journey. On April 7, 2002, Q’uo spoke of what it is to be a vocal channel:

The practice of the vocal channel is that practice which one may become more, shall we say, capable of producing as the experience continues. There are along the path of this service various steps or stages of growth which are apparent in some cases and in others not so apparent. You have begun to experience the beginning of a newer phase, shall we say, of serving as a vocal instrument. There are levels of consciousness that are available to each entity and to those who serve as vocal instruments that open doors, that offer great access to pure information or inspiration. Through another door you are beginning to pass.

May we answer you further, my brother?

L: No, thank you. The answer’s been very good for me. I appreciate it.

I am Latwii, and we thank you, as always, my brother. Is there another query at this time?

K: I have a question, and it sort of goes along with L’s question. I have been involved in a group situation such as we are in now for probably six months to a year and have not been a vocal channel in this situation, and I was concerned earlier about also not having practiced meditation as I should, if I would have an effect on the group tonight. How would you rank my abilities at this for channeling and my meditative level?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my brother. We may suggest that the desire to serve as an instrument or vocal channel is that which is most crucial in an entity’s ability to perform that service. Likewise, it is true that one who has the desire to seek the truth has the heart of the purpose of meditation. Whether meditation has been regularly engaged in or not, it is true that meditation is a most helpful and recommended means of preparing oneself for seeking in the manner which each in this group this evening seeks. We might suggest that the very fact we are able to speak to this group this evening suggests that each entity within this circle of meeting has prepared itself to a degree sufficient to allow this meeting to occur.

May we answer you further, my brother?

K: Yes. You answered part of my question, for which I thank you, and I probably should have realized that because, as you put it, everything’s working. If I were to channel tonight, let’s say, what do you think my accuracy would be as compared to in the past?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my brother. We see little virtue in attempting to give a precise equivalent of your accuracy, but we may suggest that when one has not performed a certain task or discipline for a period of time, one may expect a diminishing of the ability to perform that task or disciplining. Yet, if one has in the past performed such a discipline, it will be easier for this entity to learn again that skill, for the pathways of recognition are in place even though not frequently used.

May we answer you further, my brother?

K: One last thing that I’ve been wanting to verify for some time—I hope you can—is that quite often I feel myself talking to a representative of the Confederation, normally Hatonn, and we can carry on a conversation such as, for example, driving over tonight, I expressed my concern to Hatonn as to my meditative ability for tonight, and Hatonn said that they were making certain adjustments so that I would be more in tune with the group. I hope you can—can you verify that this really—that I am communicating with a representative of the Confederation when I do this?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my brother. We do, indeed, wish to be of the greatest service possible at all times, and during this particular time we may suggest that for us to give you a positive or negative answer in this case would not be helpful, for the kind of experience which you describe we note has emotional impact upon you—it is that which you value as a means of seeking. Therefore, we cannot say what the nature or source of your communication is but can leave this determination to your own good nature of seeking, that is to say, the answers which you seek in this regard are within your own grasp and await your own seeking.

May we answer you further, my brother?

K: No. I understand what you’re saying, that I need to challenge the source as I have always done in the past, and if the information gained goes along with my current learning and assists that in a positive manner, then I should accept it to be the genuine article. Thank you.

I am Latwii, and we thank you, my brother. Is there another query at this time?

Carla: Yeah. I’d like to ask about my meditations recently. I’ve been grieving, and it seems that I’m more vulnerable to feeling badly suddenly when I’m meditating or when I’m sleeping. And I wondered if there was a tool that I could use, a metaphysical tool instead of the medicine…

[Side one of tape ends.]

(Jim channeling)

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my sister. We can suggest that which you have already begun, that is that some form of not only tuning but protection be utilized during these periods of more sensitive experience of your illusion. This would be useful as you meditate and before the sleeping.

May we answer you further, my sister?

Carla: Are you referring to Psalm 91?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my sister. This, in general, is correct. There are many such readings and rituals which you might utilize in this process. That which has been chosen is a quite effective one.

May we answer you further, my sister?

Carla: I just want to button that down. What you’re saying is that that and other inspirational passages, those being read just before meditation and just before sleep, that that would be a beneficial tool?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my sister. This is correct. Such inspirational passages and rituals focus the inner being upon the Light which exists in every experience and moment. When one is undergoing a process of the nature which you describe as the grieving process, it is far too easy to focus upon the darker side of the illusion which also exists in every experience and every moment. This focus then serves as a doorway or opening to the more negative portions of the creation which then allows your experience to be of a darker and a heavier nature. The inspirational readings and rituals, therefore, do not allow such openings and focus one’s attention upon the Light which is ever present.

May we answer you further, my sister?

Carla: Yes. Just on the meaning of one word: ritual. The ritual that we have been doing, the calling of the archangels and the drawing of the star, that was a ritual. And the only other ritual that I know of personally is the ritual involved with my church, morning prayer, evening prayer, some sort of service like that. To which were you referring? The former? That would be my guess.

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my sister. Our use of the word “ritual” was more general than you suppose. Our use of the word was intended to convey the concept of repeating certain words and actions for the purpose of inspiration. The ritual could simply be the reading of the words, could also include any of the activities or patterns of behavior which you have mentioned and could include those which you create yourself which are of a personally inspiring nature or nature which is light or jovial.

May we answer you further, my sister?

Carla: [Inaudible]

I am Latwii, and we thank you, my sister. Is there another query at this time?

S: Yes, Latwii. I have a question. I was wondering if the magical nature of rituals—like that are done at church—do they get their power from the intensity of so many people putting that power into the ritual, or is it more or less done by the individual?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my sister. Any ritual performed by an entity or group of entities derives its power, as you call it, from the purity of intention or desire on the part or parts of those performing the ritual. This purity of desire is built over the span of a life as an entity pursues either consciously or unconsciously the search for truth. As the desire to pursue this search for truth intensifies within an entity, this entity then builds what you have called the magical personality, the manifestation of inner seeking. When this magical personality expresses itself in ritualized form, then there is the metaphysical creation of that desire in accordance with the purity of desire.

May we answer you further, my sister?

S: Well, you could just clarify something for me. In other words, if, say, a person had no real religious ties according to a recognized religion, and this person had a high degree of purity, and were to sit down and make up their own ritual for whatever reasons, using whatever they wanted to use, and it wouldn’t make sense to anyone else, is it the purity and intention that would give this validity? Does this make any sense?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my sister. This, in general, is correct. We may also suggest that the rituals which have been long-established, whether by those institutions you have called the churches of various denomination or whether established by more mystical orders of seeking, have described or created in the metaphysical realms a certain substance or reservoir, a resource which may be called upon when the ritual is utilized. This is useful to those who are new to the magical pursuits. The adept shall over a period of time use not only those long-established and recognized rituals, but shall develop its own ritual which shall eventually be the most powerful for that adept, for it shall be most purely infused with that adept’s own magical personality.

May we answer you further, my sister?

S: No, I think you answered me pretty well. Thank you.

I am Latwii, and we thank you, my sister. Is there another query at this time?

[Pause]

I am Latwii, and we see that we have gathered the harvest of queries for the evening. It has been a bountiful harvest, my friends, and we thank you for producing such luscious fruit. We shall at this time leave this instrument and this group for the nonce. We are with you at your request in your meditations, and our joyful thanks goes to each for allowing our presence this evening. It is a pleasure which we cannot thank you enough for. We are those of Latwii, and we leave you, my brothers and sisters, in the Love and in the Light of our infinite Creator. Adonai vasu borragus.

This morning the quote from The Thunder of Silence is: “Though our sins be scarlet, we are white as snow in the very minute we realize our true identity. True, while we are accepting karma, that is, while we are accepting ourselves as human beings, there may be a law of karma operating in our experience, but that law stops operating as soon as we realize, “I am coming out and becoming separate, and now I am going to live under Grace.” The moment we realize that we are living under Grace, we drop the word “I.” We stop boasting that “I” is good and worthy, and we stop condemning “I” as bad or unworthy.

We even forget the past and come to acknowledge that we did not live an hour ago, and that we cannot live an hour hence. The only time we can live is now, and now we are living under Grace. The past is gone; the future will never be: Now we are under Grace. Now there is no sin, no disease, no death, no iniquity—nothing operating in our consciousness except Love, the Love of God, not your love or mine.

If only we really and truly could come into some measure of realization of the nature of God, how we would throw the years off our shoulders; how we would throw off the memories of our past acts of omission and commission; how we would throw off the memories of our wrong thinking, and begin to understand that now are we the sons and daughters of God. Now in this instant of divine Grace, the entire memory of all our past years is gone. Now we are willing to forget our good deeds as well as our bad ones. We are willing to forget the masquerade, the part we have been playing in this particular production, and drop it along with our costume and all that belongs to it.

God is too pure to behold iniquity. The Master claimed that He came to Earth not to do His own will but the will of the Father. And what is this will of the Father? It is to heal the sick, raise the dead, forgive the sinner. Then, is there a God of punishment? The Master said, “Neither do I condemn thee.” Is there a God of punishment? He said to the thief on the cross, “Today shalt thou be with me in paradise.” Is there a God of punishment? And He said, “They sins be forgiven thee.”

Later this morning I went outside and continued my work on the small stone wall in between the fishpond and the Vanilla/Strawberry Hydrangeas. I was able to complete another two feet on the wall, bringing the total to ten feet.

This afternoon I was once again honored to be a co-host of the European Law of One Telegram Group. Before I read Ra Session #67 to the group, I let them know that today is the eleventh anniversary of the passing into larger life of my wife, Carla L. Rueckert, and I read them a quote from her Autobiography. Then I read Ra Session #67, and some of the questions that were asked of me were: “Is the Ra Contact book that I am reading the original edition?” “What are the archetypes?” “Why did Don keep asking how to serve the negative fifth density being?” and “How does the Banishing Ritual of the Lesser Pentagram work?” Next Wednesday I look forward to studying Ra Session #68 with the European Law of One Telegram Group!

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

April 1

Cost And Fruit

I am of the principle of the consciousness of divine Love, and I greet you in radiant joy.

It is the season of Easter, the time when Jesus’ emergence from the Earth is held in remembrance, and His ascent therefrom rejoiced at. Now is the season of blooming, for just as Jesus grew like a flower from the Earth, so too may we see in each flower that resurrection glory.

In this season may you find much to rejoice at, never regretting the cost of winter but glorying instead in the fullness and promise of spring. Such are the cycles of eternal life. The cycles contain different kinds of blooming and different kinds of growing, but always the pulse of cost and fruit.

We leave you in the peaceful harmony of Jesus the Christ, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of Love and open our hearts minds, and souls to send Love, Light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite Love, Light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our Love, Light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Hatonn and Latwii channelings for this session come from December 30, 1984:

(Jim channeling)

I am Hatonn. I greet you all, my friends, in the Love and in the Light of our infinite Creator. It is a great blessing to be with you this evening and to blend our thoughts with yours. We especially greet those who have not sat within this domicile before seeking the truth, yet know you that no one is new within a circle of Light. Just as a chain is as strong as its weakest link, so the entire whole is new and untried each time of the attempting to seek, as you seek this evening. This shall be the new attempt, and the untried attempt, not that which is stale or old, for you are not who you were yesterday, and so each who comes to this meeting is new. Nevertheless, we greet those who travel to sit and seek truth. We are most apologetic that we are so fallible, for we know that each values our opinions. We ask you to remember that all that is said is opinion and not fact. We have traveled a bit longer on a long path, but the path still wends its way into the far distance for us, and we do not say what we say because we know that we are infallible; we say what we have come to say to be of service, much as you would be of service to a neighbor who asked you for a measure of flour or salt. We offer you the gifts we have in humility, and we thank you for the gifts you heap upon us, for in serving you, we serve ourselves, and through serving you, we learn and progress far more than we could otherwise within the structure of our own experiences.

We would like to tell you a story. If there are pauses, please forgive us. We are working with this instrument word by word and therefore this instrument does not have any inkling as to how we shall proceed. It is somewhat more difficult than receiving concepts but each who attempts this type of service in vocal channeling must needs continue to press towards the goal of becoming a better channel for love and light or that which has been given will be lost. There is no point in a vocal channel’s development, or indeed anyone’s development, when one can say, “Now I may rest; now I may have peace.” When you chose to seek the truth, you forsook peace, each of you. But you gained. What have you gained, my friends? This is for you to answer and to know, for each of you has gained something somewhat different.

And to the story … The clouds had been gathering for a day, and the electric tension of the storm was in the air. A man and a woman stood and watched and questioned, “Shall I stay upon this outcropping of land that is so exposed to the weather? Shall I go safely inland where storm and hurricane can never touch me?” We shall now transfer this contact. As is our custom when shifting rapidly among channels, we shall not salute you, however, we ask, as always, that the channels challenge us in whatever manner is best for each.

(Carla channeling)

Much thought was given as to whether the journey inland should be made, for it was known that storms of this nature carried great destructive winds, and there could be great risk to life for those who remained in the path of the storm. Yet, within the heart there was the desire to face that fury which was fast approaching, for there was adventure and the zest of life within every fiber of the being, and, indeed, within the very air itself. When the time for choice, then, came it was decided that it would be best for the nonce to retire a short distance inland in order that perhaps the best of both worlds could be enjoyed. Perhaps the storm would pass close enough to allow the feeling of excitement and the thrill of participating in such an event to be enjoyed without a threat to life and limb.

In this session Hatonn wanted to tell a story. They began by saying the clouds had been gathering for a day, and the electric tension of the storm was in the air, so a man and a woman stood and watched and questioned: “Shall I stay upon this outcropping of land that is so exposed to the weather? Shall I go safely inland where storm and hurricane can never touch me?” Then Hatonn said we shall now transfer this contact, for as is our custom when shifting rapidly among channels, we shall not salute you, but we ask that the channels challenge us in whatever manner is best for each. Hatonn continued by saying much thought was given as to whether the journey inland should be made, for it was known that storms of this nature carried destructive winds, and there could be a risk to life for those who remained in the path of the storm, yet within the heart there was the desire to face that fury which was approaching, for there was adventure and the zest of life within every fiber of the being, and within the air, so when the time for choice came it was decided that it would be best to retire a short distance inland in order that the best of both worlds could be enjoyed, but perhaps the storm would pass close enough to allow the thrill of participating in such an event to be enjoyed without a threat to life and limb. On March 14, 1982, Latwii describes what the zest for life allows us to be of service to others:

Some upon your planet feel the zest of life in its fullness, for it is perhaps their purpose and their mission to be active and to radiate those resources that are theirs to others, that they might be of a service of a certain nature. Some radiate in yet another manner, without the overt physical manifestations, and experience vitality. The experience of vitality and of health which your people have described as optimal for the physical existence is an experience which does not in itself have any meaning or value, but does when applied to a specific individual then and only then takes on meaning. Many are the ways in which the people of your planet have chosen to be of service. Many are the ways and the lessons to learn these ways of service. For each there is a purpose. For each there is a mission.

We shall transfer.

(Jim channeling)

As the rains fell, the couple in the chosen place of safety pondered the fate of that which had been left behind. There was much which could not be carried, for it was too bulky for transport and many of these items were cherished by this couple, having served long and well in the making of a home. As the storm began to lift and the rains also subsided, this couple made plans to return and to gather that which could be gathered, and survey the scene in order to make the home once again. In the pondering by the couple of what they might find, there was time taken to consider that which was truly valued, each by each, and throughout the experience of the storm it was brought to the attention of each that the Love which bound them together was the most cherished thing in their lives, yet they also knew or supposed that they knew that even a life filled with Love would need some material support.

Hatonn went on to say, and so came the storm, waves thrashing the beaches and winds flattening those objects of nature or people which rear themselves from the plane of the Earth, so all that the couple owned was destroyed, and the damage was everywhere, and the storm laughed, for it was a wind that carried the merciless order to cleanse and to remove, so the laughter finally died down to become a slender whine, as winds fell, and rains began to fill the swollen ocean. Then Hatonn said as the rains fell, the couple in the place of safety pondered the fate of that which had been left behind, but there was much which could not be carried, for it was too bulky for transport, and many of these items were cherished by this couple, having served long and well in the making of a home, so as the storm began to lift, and the rains subsided, this couple made plans to return and to gather that which could be gathered, and they surveyed the scene in order to make the home once again, yet there was time taken to consider that which was truly valued by each, and throughout the experience of the storm it was brought to the attention of each that the Love which bound them together was the most cherished thing in their lives, yet they also knew that a life filled with Love would need some material support. On March 27, 1994, Hatonn spoke of the Love between two seekers:

We believe that the experience of which you speak is that of an entity dimly sensing that which is beautiful beyond description, the Love between two seekers. This Love is close in vibration to divine Love for the Love of those who together seek is completely selfless. The goal for both in such a relationship is each to aid and encourage the other in spiritual seeking. This partakes of the nature of Love itself. Thusly, there is the great feeling of emotion because of the beauty which is sensed.

We now transfer.

(Carla channeling)

Both became very excited as the planning began. There seemed to be so many choices. When their marriage was very young, that which purchases, that which you call money, had been dear and difficult to obtain, and they had felt fortunate to find anything. Now, times had rolled on as the wagon wheel moves in perfect circles along its rutted way, and they could do what they pleased, or so they thought. At each turning there was a discovery that the knitted fabric of their lives was not such that it held unlimited possibility. All building materials, all amounts of space, all whims and fancies could not be afforded. Choices again had to be made. And so another storm grew, this time within. The energy of the storm revolved around how to disburse that of which each who earns their money is a steward. The couple had been tranquil, and yet now it was argumentative, for in the light of the spurious freedom, a freedom from all lack and all limitation, it seemed to each that all that was desired should be able to be obtained, that there should be no hindrance, yet this was not so, for even with only two of the Creator’s entities, only two children of the one Father, there were numerous irreconcilable differences of opinion. And the storm laughed.

We now transfer.

(Jim channeling)

As this couple’s life pattern had progressed through these many cycles of change, there came these times of difficulty, decision, and disagreement which then required the balance of reconciliation in order that the Love which bound each to each might be strengthened and ennobled. Once again, as the couple surveyed the damage of the most recent and most devastating storm yet experienced, it became apparent that another beginning would be necessary, starting from scratch, shall we say, and requiring that all which had been the portion of the couple’s relationship be examined in order that the relationship be built step-by-step out of the strongest of materials in much the same fashion required to replace the dwelling and possessions which had been erased by the hurricane.

Now Hatonn said both became excited as the planning began since there seemed to be many choices, for when their marriage was young money had been difficult to obtain, and they had felt fortunate to find anything, but now time had passed, and they could do what they pleased, or so they thought, but at each turning there was a discovery that the fabric of their lives was not such that it held unlimited possibility because all building materials, all amounts of space, and fancies could not be afforded, but choices had to be made, so another storm grew, this time within, and the energy of the storm revolved around how to disburse that of which each who earns their money is a steward, for the couple had been tranquil, yet now they were argumentative, for in the light of a freedom from all lack and limitation, it seemed to each that all that was desired should be able to be obtained, that there should be no hindrance, yet this was not so, for even with only two of the Creator’s entities there were irreconcilable differences of opinion, and the storm laughed. Now Hatonn said as this couple’s life pattern had progressed through these cycles of change, there came times of difficulty and disagreement which required the balance of reconciliation in order that the Love which bound each to each might be strengthened and ennobled, but as the couple surveyed the damage of the recent storm, it became apparent that another beginning would be necessary, starting from scratch and requiring that all which had been the portion of the couple’s relationship be examined in order that the relationship be built step-by-step out of the strongest materials in much the same fashion required to replace the dwelling and possessions which had been erased by the hurricane. On October 22, 1995, Q’uo described the process of reconciliation:

This is often a painful process in terms of your third-density illusion as this breaking free and breaking through the shell of identity occurs. Thus, there is much opportunity for reconciliation, for forgiveness, for mercy and indeed for compassion. The great healing power of Love, then, is that which aids all in this process, and those which are far-seeing in each grouping will become aware of that healing power, for all spring from it. Some see it and feel it and experience it before others, and these are the way-showers.

We shall transfer.

(Carla channeling)

What did I ever see in him?“ thought the woman. “What can we possibly have in common if we disagree so much?” thought the man. And they looked upon each other and did not behold Love. We could finish this story, my friends, in the way of fairy tales, by explaining that all was made whole, and all was healed as each reached out to the other with the open hand of peace and sympathy. But it is more important to ask you, “What was the greater loss, the loss of every possession or the loss of one human relationship?” My friends, things are never what they seem. We realize this is an old and worn-out statement. The reason is it is so worn is that it is, insofar as we know, the absolute truth. Your third-density experience is made of whole cloth an illusion. No part of it is real. Only that which comes from beyond it and manifests through it has a more lasting reality. All that you can touch and see and taste and hear and catch with the nose’s keen scent is an illusion.

What has delighted you this day? What has discouraged you? What do you think you need that you do not have? Examine the questions pertaining to loss and transformation. You are about to lose that which you call your year. And yet you know, as moon follows upon moon, or you seem to know, that this year will be replaced with yet another cycle. You know, or believe you know, that your island home will rotate in the move upon its axis as it roams the heavens one more time, flying outward and held tightly from and by the great sun body which is the center of your celestial neighborhood. Yet when there are losses, when there is difficulty, do you see the difficulty with the automatic reaction of “auld lang syne”? Do you celebrate knowing the dawning of another chapter? We would be surprised if you were able to accomplish this state of mind on a steady state basis. It is highly unlikely that you could penetrate the illusion to that extent, and so we suggest to you time spent in meditation on a daily basis, for those things which you may count as lost are only those things which are yet again to be found.

Hatonn continued by saying: “What did I ever see in him?“ thought the woman.” “What can we possibly have in common if we disagree so much?” thought the man, so Hatonn said they looked upon each other and did not behold Love, so we could finish this story in the way of fairy tales, by explaining that all was made whole, and all was healed as each reached out to the other with the open hand of peace and sympathy, but it is more important to ask you: “What was the greater loss, the loss of every possession or the loss of one human relationship?” Now Hatonn said things are never what they seem, and we realize this is an old and worn-out statement, so the reason is it is so worn is that it is the truth, for your third-density experience is made of an illusion, and no part of it is real, yet only that which comes from beyond it and manifests through it has a lasting reality since all that you can touch, see, taste, hear and smell is an illusion. Hatonn went on to say examine the questions pertaining to loss and transformation, for you believe you know that your Earth will rotate upon its axis as it roams the heavens one more time, flying outward and held tightly by the great sun body which is the center of your celestial neighborhood, yet when there are losses: “Do you see the difficulty with the automatic reaction of “auld lang syne”? Do you celebrate knowing the dawning of another chapter?” So Hatonn said we would be surprised if you were able to accomplish this state of mind on a steady state basis, for it is unlikely that you could penetrate the illusion to that extent, and so we suggest to you time spent in meditation on a daily basis, for those things which you may count as lost are only those things which are yet again to be found. On January 11, 1987, Q’uo spoke about the value of daily meditation:

In general, we might suggest that each seeker remember the one Creator in each daily experience by spending time communing in the meditative state with the source of all cycles, all changes, and all movement in the evolutionary process. Such time spent in meditation allows the seeker to fashion a regularized channel, shall we say, through its own subconscious mind to those sources of power, shall we say, which manifest themselves as Love and Light, or compassion and wisdom in the metaphysical sense, and when contacted in a regular fashion become an unseen foundation upon which each day might be constructed.

The one original Thought of the Creator is expressed perfectly in your being. Not in an idealistic sense, but in the sense of here and now. Bitterness, wrangling, disputes, argument, debate, and disharmony are all a part of the rough and ready perfection which the Creator praises with all of Its being in you. Each of you is perfect, yet each seeks the one original Thought. Each seeks the harmony, the peace, the joy that it has not or seems to have not. We sit high and dry on a spiritual plane, for all has been made straight for us. All is harmonized in our experience. We seek the Creator in each entity. That is part of the dimension in which we live. Yet we are not uplifted thereby any more than you are uplifted by your inhalations and your exhalations. To you falls the drama of wresting the one original Thought from each storm. Yours is the privilege of becoming. The one original Thought presumes a choice, and each of you makes that choice in each moment. Does the storm toss you away or shall you find the center of that storm? When difficulty laughs raucously, shall you cower? Do you think your circumstances are more than you are? We praise the storm and we praise the calm, but we assure you that those who seek shall not be calm, shall not be unchanged.

Now Hatonn said the one original Thought of the Creator is expressed perfectly in your being, not in an idealistic sense, but in the sense of here and now, and argument and disharmony are part of the perfection which the Creator praises with all of Its being in you, for each of you is perfect, yet each seeks the one original Thought and the peace and joy that it seems to have not, and we sit high on a spiritual plane, for all is harmonized in our experience as we seek the Creator in each entity, so that is part of the dimension in which we live, yet we are not uplifted any more than you are uplifted by your breathing, so to you falls the drama of removing the one original Thought from each storm, and yours is the privilege of becoming, for the one original Thought presumes a choice, and each of you makes that choice in each moment, so we praise the storm, and we praise the calm, but we assure you that those who seek shall not be calm, shall not be unchanged. On February 26, 2000, Q’uo spoke about the importance of making the choice of the original Thought of Love:

When one has chosen the highest path for the incarnation, then one is saying to the self that all else must be subservient to that choice of Love, whatever it may be. One must be willing to risk the loss of those things which may seem, for the moment, to be more important than following the path which is closest to the heart’s desire. This is where the symbol of the Fool within your system of the tarot is seen to be walking from the cliff to be suspended in midair, ready to fall. However, the faith of the Fool sustains the next step, and the next, and the next.

We leave you in that one original Thought. That Thought is your birthright and is your very being. You are Love and Light. There is nothing else. The Love is expressed in your consciousness. The Light is the material which your consciousness uses to create a body, a continuing set of circumstances and a created power that may use circumstances instead of circumstances using you. You cannot stop the laughter of the storm. Its cruel and mocking tongues will follow all who seek the truth, and, indeed, those who are deep asleep. But your nature, your birthright, your power is in that which cannot be denied, that which is from everlasting to everlasting. Choose, my friends, choose with joy, and learn to laugh ever more deeply, resting in arms polished smooth by trust.

I am known to you as Hatonn. I leave you in the love and the light of our infinite Creator. Adonai vasu borragus.

[Side one of tape ends.]

(Jim channeling)

I am Latwii, and I greet you, my friends, in the Love and in the Light of our infinite Creator. We are most privileged to be able to join you this evening in your meditation, and, as always, we humbly offer to you our service of attempting to answer those queries which each has upon the mind. We also echo the words of our brothers and sisters of Hatonn in saying that we have no infallible opinions to offer, for what we have to offer is indeed our opinions. We have also traveled somewhat further upon this road which we share with you as seekers of truth, and we offer that which it has been our joy to gather as our experience and expression of the one Creator. May we begin, then, with the first query?

J: Latwii, can you give me your definition of relationship?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my brother. We see that which you call relationship as the interaction of portions of the one Creator toward a purpose, that purpose being that each should aid the other in realizing the one Creator dwells in both.

May we answer you further, my brother?

J: Does one—in a relationship does one person have to be stronger than the other or weaker? How do relationships balance out in that situation?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my brother. We can suggest that there are, shall we say, no hard and fast rules in a relationship regarding whether one shall be stronger in some sense than another, for within any relationship of two or more entities one must realize that there are many, many factors and characteristics to be considered. Strength and weakness within any factor may be had by either or any party. Those within the relationship shall bring that which they have and that which they are, and share that with each other in the relationship. If one has more of what is called strength in one area or another, then there is the opportunity for the balance to be achieved by another or the other entity in another area.

I am Latwii: May we attempt further response, my brother?

J: Thank you, sir.

I am Latwii, and we thank you, my brother. Is there another query?

N: Latwii, other than meditation and [inaudible] time, is there any, in your opinion, method of removing our own individual blocks?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my brother. We can suggest that any means which one may devise for such removal of, as you have called them, blockages, is quite acceptable and useful to the entity, for the greatest, shall we say, magic that an entity may use in creating changes in its own consciousness is that which the entity creates as its own tool.

Let us attempt clarification. That which you feel within your being needs removal as a blockage may best be balanced or removed in the means which feels right to you. Meditation is a means which is most helpful, for it seats or registers the learning within the deeper portions of the mind of the entity. You may also utilize analysis in a conscious manner; you may also utilize moment-by-moment observation of your experience; you may utilize dreams and hypnosis; you may utilize the criticism of friends and peers; you may utilize the movement within nature, as you call it, in order that the peace of your second-density creation may cause the more balanced alignment of your energy centers to become apparent to you. Each method and many others may prove useful in the removal or balancing of blockages, yet that means which you have mentioned yourself, that being meditation, is the means by which the learning which you gather as a fruit of any effort becomes ingrained and truly takes hold as a seed planted in fertile soil within your being.

May we answer you further, my brother?

N: The second density you refer to, is this the balancing of the chakras?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my brother. We ask your forgiveness for the use of terms which may not be familiar to you. In our reference to the second density, we spoke of that portion of your creation which you might notice as plants and animals and the surroundings which are part of your natural environment as yet untouched by the human hand.

May we answer you further, my brother?

N: Can crystals be utilized to increase the power of healing?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my brother, and we find the answer to this is in the affirmative. May we answer you further, my brother?

N: Can you explain what would be the best method, in your opinion, to utilize these crystals?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my brother. You have asked a question which enters this discussion into a large field of study. There is much practice required in the part of utilizing the crystal for healing purposes. We shall give a very simple synopsis. An entity must develop some ability to sense the configuration of the various energy centers of another who wishes some form of healing. This may be attempted by the use of any type of swinging weight or pendulum, not necessarily a crystal, in order to determine the configuration of an energy center, whether it is blocked in normal configuration or is under or over-activated. The blockage then being discerned, there are means by which the blockage may be attended to. The crystal, when it is chosen by the one who would serve as healer, needs be that which is free enough of flaws that the Light which the one serving as healer shall focus through the crystal will reach the one to be healed in as pure a reflection or refraction of the spectrum as possible. The crystal may be swung upon a chain held in the hand by those who are more adept at the art; the crystal may also be worn around the neck upon a chain so that it rests upon the healer at a point which corresponds to the heart chakra, so that as the healer does its own inner work of balancing its own energy centers, it itself becomes as the crystal and radiates that Light within its being through the crystal to the one to be healed in a manner which manipulates or adjusts the auric field of the one to be healed.

We ask your forgiveness for moving into this particular area in some degree that is complex and does not do justice to the topic.

May we answer you further, my brother?

N: Are there any current written references that you could recommend for further delineation?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my brother. We find that such a request lies beyond what we are able to do, for we do not wish to infringe upon your own free will and ability to seek and choose such references. For us to suggest such a source would perhaps be seen as giving this source a special kind of weight, and we do not wish to bias your choice in this area.

May we answer you further, my brother?

N: Is there any direction you can suggest for increased learning?

I am Latwii, and am aware of your query, my brother. We can suggest that you follow that idea or inspiration which comes to you as a result of your own analysis, contemplation, and meditation, for you have those knowledges within your own being awaiting your own seeking.

May we answer you further, my brother?

N: Thank you.

I am Latwii, and we thank you, my brother. May we attempt another query?

N: Latwii, can you tell us something about the chakras? Do they play an important part in our spiritual growth?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my brother. We may speak briefly upon this topic in hopes that we may clarify rather than confuse. You may look at your being, including your physical vehicle, as a crystal. Each of your energy centers, or chakras, as they are called by your people, are a facet of a crystal which contains more or less blockage at each center. These blockages are your lessons, shall we say, in coded form. As you work upon your own thinking and perceiving and widen the viewpoint, you remove blockages so that which has been called the prana, or the cosmic influx of Love and Light which enters your being at the lower chakra, may pass through your various energy centers in a more and more pure manner. That is to say, as you remove blockages or balance distortion, you allow the Light, the prana, the cosmic energy of the one Creator to enter and move through your being in a manner which promotes or allows the white Light to remain white and allows your beingness to be infused with the fullness of the one Creator. When this process has occurred through each chakra or energy center, beginning at the base and moving through the crown of the head, that experience which many in your mystical traditions of seeking have called by various names—enlightenment, nirvana, samadhi—then occurs as the entity comes to know itself as that which it has been from before time began, the one Creator.

N asked: “Latwii, can you tell us something about the chakras? Do they play an important part in our spiritual growth?” Latwii began by saying you may look at your being, including your physical vehicle, as a crystal, and each of your chakras is a facet of a crystal which contains more or less blockage at each center, for these blockages are your lessons in coded form, and as you work upon your thinking and perceiving and widen the viewpoint, you remove blockages so that which has been called the prana, or the cosmic influx of Love and Light which enters your being at the lower chakra, may pass through your chakras in a more pure manner, so that as you remove blockages, you allow the prana, the cosmic energy of the one Creator to enter and move through your being in a manner which allows the white Light to remain white and allows your beingness to be infused with the fullness of the one Creator, and when this process has occurred through each chakra, beginning at the base and moving through the crown of the head, that enlightenment, nirvana, or samadhi occurs as the entity comes to know itself as that which it has been from before time began, the one Creator. In 17.2, Ra described the nature of enlightenment:

We cannot offer shortcuts to enlightenment. Enlightenment is of the moment, is an opening to intelligent infinity. It can only be accomplished by the self, for the self. Another self cannot teach/learn enlightenment, but only teach/learn information, inspiration, or a sharing of Love, of mystery, of the unknown that makes the other-self reach out and begin the seeking process that ends in a moment. But who can know when an entity will open the gate to the present?

May we answer you further, my brother?

N: No, thank you.

I am Latwii, and we thank you. Is there another query at this time?

B: Latwii, if an entity realizes that they are possibly working on a fifth chakra, such as the throat, can it also be possible that they have missed the second or third chakra in the process of evolvement?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my sister. This is quite possible, my sister. Many of those who are consciously seekers upon the path of enlightenment desire with such great strength to proceed along this path that often seems lesser or more mundane in the work of balancing chakras is ignored for the moment in order to, shall we say, quickly pass to the more interesting and seemingly enlightening pursuit of balancing the higher chakra or energy centers. When this occurs in a manner which is unbalanced, shall we say, it is much as though an entity would attempt to build a roof upon a house which had only two walls. The foundation of each entity’s process of evolution must be built firmly. This means that each entity must take care that each energy center or chakra is given the appropriate attention so that the structure is firmly placed upon solid ground and is constructed in a balanced fashion, each energy center or chakra being attended to as the daily experience dictates, shall we say.

May we answer you further, my sister?

B: Then your suggestion, Latwii, would be that this vehicle should return to first chakra and start again?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my sister. We cannot say that any entity, having omitted any lower chakra, should then return to the first, the second, the third, and so forth. We can suggest that each entity may observe the daily experience, and it can analyze those moments wherein catalyst has not been well used, may note the difficulties, may note the disharmonies, may note any moment in which there was not Love, may then take that observation and analyze the chakra to which it belongs, and focus work then according to this analysis.

May we answer you further, my sister?

B: Thank you very much, Latwii.

I am Latwii, and we thank you, my sister. Is there another query at this time?

P: Latwii, I’ve been recently studying a little bit about angels and came upon the theory that we are, those of us who are humans now, are fallen angels working our way back to, I suppose we could say, the original Thought, and that angels or guardians, perhaps, such as you are helping us get there. With so many things for us to work on, I’m always looking for the ultimate goal. Well, I guess the main question, is there any truth to that about us being fallen angels working towards an angel realm and then another one beyond that?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my sister. May we say that there is some truth in each theory, for no thing or theory exists without some support of truth. In this instance, we may suggest that what is true depends upon one’s point of view. To many upon your planet it would seem that the world you inhabit is, indeed, full of those who have fallen from the grace of the one Creator, for sorrow and suffering abound and ignorance as well, ignorance of what the source of all experience is. From our point of view, humble and limited as it is, we do not see fallen angels when we look upon your people. We see the one Creator in each. Specifically, we see the greatest of opportunities existing in each incarnation for the one Creator which each of you is to gather those experiences that would not be possible should you not exist as you do. You have forgotten that you are the one Creator in order that you can gain these experiences and, thereby, glorify the one Creator by experiences which are richer, deeper, more intense, and of greater variety should you not have forgotten that you are the one Creator.

We ourselves have, shall we say, a certain sort of envy for you that we share with all of those beings which you would call angelic, for in our experience of the one Creator, we do not forget that we are the one Creator, that each entity we encounter is thusly the same. Therefore, our experiences are somewhat more pallid, somewhat more etiolated and, shall we say, watered down. Progress of a spiritual nature, shall we say, in our realms of experience is much slower than it is in yours, for you exist and create Love in a darkness, in a forgetting. This allows much greater evolutionary progress, for it is done without the benefit of the sure knowledge of your connection with all that is. Therefore, we look upon you as those who have not fallen but who have moved in realms not before possible because you have that forgetting which seems in your illusion to be such a great hindrance, but from our point of view is seen as such a great treasure.

P asked: “Well, I guess the main question, is there any truth to that about us being fallen angels working towards an angel realm and then another one beyond that?” Latwii said there is some truth in each theory, for no theory exists without some support of truth, and in this instance that what is true depends upon one’s point of view, for to many upon your planet it would seem that the world you inhabit is full of those who have fallen from the grace of the one Creator, for sorrow and suffering abound as well as the ignorance of what the source of all experience is, so from our point of view we do not see fallen angels when we look upon your people, for we see the greatest of opportunities existing in each incarnation for the one Creator, which each of you is, to gather those experiences that would not be possible should you not exist as you do, for you have forgotten that you are the one Creator in order that you can gain these experiences and glorify the one Creator by experiences which are richer and of greater variety should you not have forgotten that you are the one Creator. Latwii continued by saying we have an envy for you that we share with all of those beings which you would call angelic, for in our experience of the one Creator, we do not forget that we are the one Creator, that each entity we encounter is the same, so our experiences are more pallid and watered down, for progress of a spiritual nature in our realms of experience is much slower than it is in yours, for you exist and create Love in a darkness, in a forgetting, and this allows greater evolutionary progress, for it is done without the benefit of the knowledge of your connection with all that is, so we look upon you as those who have not fallen but who have moved in realms not before possible because you have that forgetting which seems in your illusion to be such a great hindrance, but from our point of view is seen as such a great treasure. On December 4, 1984, Latwii mentioned the value of our forgetting:

Progress of a spiritual nature, shall we say, in our realms of experience is much slower than it is in yours, for you exist and create Love in a darkness, in a forgetting. This allows much greater evolutionary progress, for it is done without the benefit of the sure knowledge of your connection with all that is. Therefore, we look upon you as those who have not fallen, but who have moved in realms not before possible because you have that forgetting which seems in your illusion to be such a great hindrance, but from our point of view is seen as such a great treasure.

May we answer you further, my sister?

P: Yes, please. Is it possible for you, Latwii, to enter our realm, since it seems that you think it is such a great adventure?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my sister. We had portions of our social memory complex within your illusion in the capacity of that which has come to be called wanderer, those beings of other densities who seek to enter yours in order to aid your own evolution by their presence and to aid their own evolution by experiencing the great illusion in which you now move. They also must go through the forgetting process which is the great characteristic of your third-density illusion.

May we answer you further, my sister?

P: Just one more, please. Would it be infringing on our development for you to tell one of us or any of us if we were in fact wanderers, or are we supposed to struggle to find this out on our own?

I am Latwii, and am aware of your query, my sister, and we see that you have answered your own query. May we attempt further response, my sister?

P: No, thank you. I guess I’ll carry on.

I am Latwii, and we shall carry on as well. Is there another query?

B: Latwii, we come from another state. We have traveled, as you are aware, I am sure. Is there—how shall I say this? Can you direct us to some place closer that has another entity from your density that we might speak with again closer to home?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my sister. We must apologize for seeming so short of information of this nature, but to direct one’s choosing in such a manner we see as an infringement upon your own free will. You as a seeker will seek and find that which is of the most helpful nature for your current needs. This seeking shall carry the power of your own desire, and, as the magnet, shall attract to you that which is helpful. Have faith, my sister, that as you have found that which was necessary for your own growth in that which you call your past, so your future shall be populated with the same.

May we answer you further, my sister?

B: No. Thank you very much, Latwii.

I am Latwii, and we thank you, my sister. Is there another query at this time?

Carla: Well, if everyone else is taking a rest, I’d just like to sort of follow up on what J was—It was a neat bit of stepping that you did there, talking about how we find each other and accept each other for what each of us is. However, I was wondering if there was an ideal towards which any couple might strive together if each, I should say, both of the couple were intent upon spiritual evolution?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my sister. The ideal which each entity upon your planet strives for, whether in relationship or in solitude, is the ideal of Love. This is the lesson of your particular illusion, a state of being which words cannot describe, yet which includes an unconditional acceptance and forgiveness of all. This could be called an approximation of Love. As you move within your illusion and within your relationships, you will encounter that which seems unlovable, unforgivable, unacceptable. When you can Love, and forgive, and accept each portion of each entity which you encounter, then you shall be approaching the ideal of unconditional Love.

May we answer you further, my sister?

Carla: Yes, just in my attempt to understand that what you’re saying, is there is no ideal relationship? There is only an ideal attitude of each person towards himself or anyone else, is that correct?

Latwii: Is that correct. I am Latwii, and we applaud your eloquent statement of that which we have attempted to share.

Carla: Very cute.

I am Latwii, and we are happy that you have appreciated our sense of humor which we have some difficulty in transmitting through this somewhat somber instrument.

May we attempt further response?

Carla: No, that takes care of that one. Another question sparked up out of my mind about healing, and I was reviewing in my mind all the healers that I’ve heard of. There are female healers but the largest majority of the ones that I know of are men. Is there some archetypical reason for that? Is there a type of energy which healing demands which women are prone to be low in biologically?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my sister. We may answer in two parts, the first of which may be a simple suggestion that your particular observation of healers has been somewhat biased towards those of the male nature, yet there is some substance to the assumption which you have made. This substance would then be seen as an archetypical reflection, shall we say, for it is to the biological male given the ability to store and transfer energy of …

[Tape ends.]

This morning the quote from The Thunder of Silence is: “In order to achieve our ultimate goal, the nature of God must be understood; and, therefore, there must be but one question in our thought, and that is: What is God?

First and foremost, we must realize that our prayers and meditations do not influence God—to do good for us or to do evil to us—that we cannot bring the glory of God to ourselves or to anyone else. All that we can do is to recognize that God in the midst of us is mighty, not because of us—it is just that we have been given the grace to recognize the IS, that which already IS. That is why the Master told the disciples not to glory because the devil was subject unto them, but because their names were written in heaven. That is why no one ever dares takes glory unto themselves because of a healing, for no human being has ever brought about a healing—is was brought about by a divine state of spiritual being, which operates, and can operate, only through and as the consciousness of one who knows the nature of God and can, therefore, bring healing into visible manifestation. That is our part in this glorious spiritual work. That is our only part—to know God, to know God whom to know aright is life eternal.

When we know the nature of God as Love and as life eternal, never again will we deal with death, old age, or disease as if it were a reality that we could change by bringing God to it. We shall understand that this has nothing to do with God: It has to do with as ye sow, so shall ye reap. If we believe in a law of sin, a law of matter, or disease, or a law of punishment, that is the experience that we are bringing into our lives and the lives of those who look to us for spiritual guidance.

When we understand the nature of God as Love, we shall understand the word, Grace. Then shall we understand that our good comes by Grace, not by deserving it or being worthy of it. What human being can ever be good enough to deserve God! As a matter of fact, the more of human qualities we have, the more have to be wiped out before we can realize God. We cannot be brought to a place of deserving God—we can only be brought to a place where that part of us which wants to be worthy or appears to be unworthy is thrown out of the way, and our true Selfhood is revealed. Our good—physical, mental, moral, and financial—is ours by divine Grace as the gift of God. We cannot earn it or deserve it; we cannot influence God to give it to us, and no act, or deed, or thought of ours is powerful enough to prevent God from operating and continuing to operate.”

Later this morning I went outside and spread three bales of pine straw in two of the three areas on the ground around the Wuthering Heights Mound the front yard.

This afternoon I went back outside and continued working on the little stone wall between the fishpond and the Vanilla/Strawberry Hydrangea Bushes. I was able to add two feet to the wall, so now it is five feet long. Then I took my speed walk, and when I got home, I opened the mailbox and discovered that the book, Living the Law of One 102: The Outer Work had been delivered as I was told could happen today. After I got into the kitchen I opened the package and looked at the front and back covers, riffled through the pages, and then I began to cry tears of joy that I was able to find Carla’s outline for 102 and continue writing the book that she had planned to write before she passed into larger life eleven years ago tomorrow, April 1, 2015. It will be a few weeks before 102 will be available to purchase or to read for free as a PDF on our website: www.llresearch.org. This is one of the best days of my life!

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

March 31

The Messenger Of Love

I am of the principle of living Love, and I greet you in the consciousness of Jesus the Christ.

I greet you as a messenger sent out before the dawn of each thought in the mind.

I greet you as a new beginning in every moment of the day.

I greet you around trick corners and sudden hurdles. Reach for the arms of comfort in times of distress, for we are there.

We are the principle of Love, and as you speak to us of Love, we come to you with Love. And as our comfort is sweet to you, so is your heart to the Creator, the Father of all things. And so you have the opportunity at each and every dawning to become one with God in Christ through the grace of the Spirit of Love.

We leave you in the peace and joy which are yours to experience through the birthright of Christ, both now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of Love and open our hearts minds, and souls to send Love, Light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite Love, Light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our Love, Light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Hatonn and Latwii channelings come from December 16, 1984:

(Carla channeling)

I am Hatonn. I greet you in the Love and in the Light of our infinite Creator. My heart is glad that my brothers and sisters and I are able to spend this time with you once again; to be called to your presence is something for which we can only thank you again and again, for it is our nature to come only when called and to serve only when asked. In your turn you do us enormous service, for it is in working with groups such as yours that we ourselves, at this particular point in our own development, continue our evolution by refining the compassion we feel for you and insofar as we have wisdom, the wisdom that we share with you. We are those who attempt to learn the lessons of wisdom. You are those who are attempting to learn the lessons of Love, of compassion, of mercy, and so we would retell an old story. This instrument does not know the story, however it is written among your older works.

It is a story we would very much like for you to hear on this particular evening with this particular group. We ask you, before we even begin, to discount all those things which you may hear that do not ring true to your experience and your own inner knowing, but to use those things which do ring true, so take them within and use them, as we offer them in Love. Once upon a time there was a young man. He was determined to learn the truth. He had spent his childhood and his young manhood studying both the natural world and the world within books, and nowhere could he find the metaphysical base for existence that took into account all of his experience and all of his thinking. Nevertheless, this young man was positive that such a work existed, for in his reading he had found traces of others upon the same journey as he, footsteps before him, footprints wearing down the stones of time, so many were those of the number of those who sought the truth of existence. He sold all that he had, and he was a wealthy man. He took his fortune and bought a large ocean-going ship and hired a crew, and he began an odyssey attempting to find the one teacher with the one body of teaching that would contain all that he needed to know about who he was and where he was going.

He sailed all the seven seas and many an ocean. He left his ship and walked toilsomely up many mountains on many continents, and one lined face after another told him a story. It was always and ever the same story, and that was that although he had a ship and they did not, that they were on a journey together and that they had not found what he was seeking. He had not discovered the final solution; he had not plucked the perfect flower. Ultimately, he put his ship to anchor and started up what was considered to be a holy mountain in South America. He walked, and walked, and walked. After weeks of walking and many near escapes with dangerous animals and those who lived in the area and were not pleased with white men, he came to a simple, beautiful mountain tarn, a lake so placid that one could not see that it was not glass. How he had thirsted for such clean and pure water during his dusty trek. He took off his clothing and bathed, thanking the Creator for such a gift, for the water, indeed, seemed somehow blessed and blessed to him.

In this session Hatonn spoke about a young man who was seeking the truth. Hatonn began by saying it is a story we would like for you to hear this evening with this group, and we ask you to ignore all those things which you may hear that do not ring true to your inner knowing but to use those things which do ring true, so take them within and use them, as we offer them in Love, so once upon a time there was a young man who was determined to learn the truth, for he had spent his childhood and young manhood studying both the natural world and the world within books, and nowhere could he find the metaphysical base for existence that took into account all of his experience, but this young man was positive that such a work existed, for in his reading he had found traces of others upon the same journey as he, and so many were those of the number of those who sought the truth of existence, so he sold all that he had, and he was a wealthy man, so he took his fortune and bought a large ocean-going ship and hired a crew, and he began an odyssey attempting to find the one teacher with the one body of teaching that would contain all that he needed to know about who he was and where he was going. Then Hatonn said he sailed all the seven seas and many oceans, and he left his ship and walked laboriously up many mountains on many continents, and one lined face after another told him a story, but it was always the same story, and that was that they were on a journey together, and that they had not found what he was seeking, so he had not discovered the final solution, and he put his ship to anchor and started up a holy mountain in South America, for after weeks of walking and many near escapes with dangerous animals and those who lived in the area and were not pleased with white men, he came to a beautiful mountain, a lake so placid that one could not see that it was not glass, but how he had thirsted for such sparkling water during his dusty trek, so he took off his clothing and bathed, thanking the Creator for such a gift, for the water seemed blessed to him. On August 13, 1989, Q’uo spoke about the final solution that we all seek on our spiritual journeys:

For each of us moves in one kind of illusion or another in which there is much which is other than it seems. The riddles and puzzles of creation within and without are those qualities which draw each of us onward to seek the final solution in unity with all.

However, upon that journey each shall—even with very pure intentions—find that the effort falls short. This is the way of all learning for there is the attempt to offer the self within an illusion in which the self and other self are seen less distinctly and clearly than truly do they exist. Thus, with such hindrances, shall we say, it is to be expected that there will be efforts which fall short. However, to be able to reflect upon one’s experience and to see each portion as a puzzle piece and to refine the fitting of each piece in succeeding efforts to serve is the means by which wisdom is gained.

However, within your illusion the intention, the desire, the motivation, the passion to serve is that which is of most importance, for it is the nurturing of this passion that opens the center of the heart that one may give in an universal and unconditional sense and by so giving express most purely the compassion and unconditional Love which are the foundation for all of creation.

When he came out of the water, his clothing had disappeared. All the colors had changed before his eyes. There were gems in everything—the grass was now emeralds, the sky, the purple of an amethyst, the very far mountains, opals and the lavender and the purple amethyst, and brilliant and deep with color he had never before seen. Instead of his clothing, there was a simple white garment. He put it on and began to walk up a trail which he had not previously noticed. The trail led ever upward. It was dangerous, and there were many times that the young man did not know if he was going to be able to continue upwards. But there was the trail. Someone had made that trail; someone had gone before him, and he continued, inching along bare edges, hanging to the sheer cliff, and finally he had reached the mesa, atop the beautiful mountain.

Upon the top of the mountain was a castle made of stone hewed from the mountain itself. Large portions of it were open to the sky. It was of intricate and beautiful design, arched, and groined. The man he met there was so ancient that he almost seemed to be held up by his robes as he sat in the lotus position. He held what seemed to be a large leather book in his hand. The young man knelt and assumed the lotus position before the old man. “Sire, I am a seeker of that which I do not know,” he said. “I have come to find the one teaching that will inform me on every matter, give me surety and understanding in all particulars of the truth, for I wish to know the complete truth of who I am and where I am going.”

Hatonn continued by saying when he came out of the water, his clothing had disappeared, and all the colors had changed before his eyes, and there were gems in everything—the grass was now emeralds, the sky, the purple of an amethyst, the very far mountains were deep with color he had never seen before, but instead of his clothing, there was a simple white garment, so he put it on and began to walk up a trail which he had not previously noticed, for the trail led ever upward, but it was dangerous, and there were many times that the young man did not know if he was going to be able to continue upwards, but someone had made that trail and had gone before him, and he continued, inching along bare edges, hanging to the sheer cliff, and, finally, he had reached the mesa, atop the beautiful mountain. Hatonn continued by saying upon the top of the mountain was a castle made of stone hewed from the mountain, and large portions of it were open to the sky, yet it was of intricate and beautiful design, arched, and groined, and the man he met there was so ancient that he almost seemed to be held up by his robes as he sat in the lotus position, so he held a large leather book in his hand, and the young man knelt and assumed the lotus position before the old man and said: “Sire, I am a seeker of that which I do not know,” he said. “I have come to find the one teaching that will inform me on every matter, give me surety and understanding in all particulars of the truth, for I wish to know the complete truth of who I am and where I am going.” On October 16, 1983, Q’uo described the some of the nature of the complete truth:

The one known as Jehoshua or Jesus was able in his life pattern to remove the distortions to such an extent that he was able to experience that type of consciousness which may be called Christed, christened, pure. This enabled Him to speak with authority when He said, “I and my Father are one. No one comes unto the Father unless they come by me.” These are the words which are often misunderstood, for many upon your planet feel their meaning is simply that one must just believe in the one known as Jesus the Christ and that known as salvation will be theirs.

This is what might be likened unto the child’s perception of truth. It cannot be said to be untrue, but it cannot be said to be the complete truth, for within those words lie much which is still covered to the simpler perception. The simple believing in an entity, no matter what the entity’s purity, is not sufficient to gain for the one so believing that known as salvation, salvation itself being much misunderstood. Our humble definition of such a term might be that grade necessary for what you call the harvest, a polarity of service which is sufficient to enable the entity to be graduated, for this entity now understands in a conscious manner, or perhaps yet still in an unconscious manner, the need to serve and to evolve in mind, body, and spirit. And it is this evolution, this process of seeking and the fruit yielded therefrom, that is, the service to others, which enables an entity to gain that broadly described as salvation.

The young man gazed hopefully at the ancient who sat before him. The elderly man laughed. “You are not the first who has come looking for such a book,” he said, “and you shall not be the last. I have it,” he said. “Here it is, and take it away with you if you wish.” And he laughed and laughed. The young man’s heart was in his throat. Finally, he was to be able to have authority, to speak with authority, to know and to understand all the mysteries that had confounded him for his whole life long. He scrabbled hastily with the fastenings of the old leather binder. It seemed to take forever to get them free. The binder opened. The young man looked in it. It was an intricately set mirror that he beheld, bound within the leather. For a few seconds he just gazed dumbly at his own image. Then he became angry and threw the binder back to the old teacher. “You told me that you had all that I wanted to know, and then you give me a mirror.” The old man was still laughing. He slipped the leather thongs that held the mirror in its binding most securely, and he looked up at the young man as they were seated. “Young man,” he said, “I have never known a single seeker who did not throw that one total and complete authority back in my face. However,” he said, with a laugh, “I believe you can get those books almost anywhere.”

My friends, it is not always easy to accept your own nature. Most of those who wish to be all that they can be and to seek all that they can seek are disappointed in themselves and find things past and present weighing heavily upon their hearts. Never does it occur that perfection lies within the very eyes that meet each of yours each time that you gaze in the mirror. It is a great study—the self. The eyes are windows to a most complex entity. And yet it is as simple as we have said, to the best of our own understanding. The final authority is yourself. You may find things which illumine, which enspirit, which enliven, which heal, which bind up that which hurts. But you will not find the unalloyed truth except in the wordless depth of your inner silence.

Then Hatonn said the young man gazed hopefully at the ancient who sat before him, and the elderly man laughed: “You are not the first who has come looking for such a book,” he said, “and you shall not be the last. I have it,” he said. “Here it is, and take it away with you if you wish,” and he laughed, but the young man’s heart was in his throat, so finally he was to be able to speak with authority, to understand all the mysteries that had confounded him for his whole life, so he worked quickly with the fastenings of the old leather binder, but it seemed to take forever to get the binder opened, and the young man looked in it, for it was an intricately set mirror that was bound within the leather, and for a few seconds he gazed dumbly at his own image, but then he became angry and threw the binder back to the old teacher, and he said “You told me that you had all that I wanted to know, and then you give me a mirror,” but the old man was still laughing, so he slipped the leather thongs that held the mirror in its binding most securely, and he looked up at the young man as they were seated, so he said “Young man, I have never known a single seeker who did not throw that one complete authority back in my face,” but he said with a laugh, “I believe you can get those books almost anywhere.” Now Hatonn said it is not easy to accept your own nature since most of those who wish to be all that they can be and to seek all that they can seek are disappointed in themselves and find things past and present weighing heavily upon their hearts, for never does it occur that perfection lies within the very eyes that meet each of yours each time that you gaze in the mirror, and it is a great study of the self, for the eyes are windows to a complex entity, yet it is as simple as we have said that the final authority is yourself, for you may find things which illumine, which heal, which bind up that which hurts, but you will not find the one truth except in the wordless depth of your inner silence. On September 3, 1983, Hatonn spoke of the nature of our inner silence:

And so our seeker could grow old and die and never find enough unless the attention had been turned to the inner silence that beckons all who seek, an inner silence so filled with joy that those who have felt it recognize others by that one smile that says to the world, “Yes, I have felt it too, I have known infinite bounty, I have felt the sunshine of a universe scattered carelessly, abundantly and wastefully upon my upturned spirit. I have asked; I have received.” Those who have received radiate that which they have received, and give it again a hundredfold.

We ask for this reason that you meditate and enter into that silence as much as possible daily. This is not a hobby, an avocation, or a means of relaxation, although it can be all of those things too. First and foremost, it is settling down in front of your mirror. To gaze within the self is to behold the universe. The galaxies go on forever within the mind, the heart, and the spirit. We acknowledge the heart and the spirit that brings you together and wish you good hunting with that one original Thought which, although it may be hard to believe, is indeed most clearly and undistortedly scriven within yourselves. This evening we have not talked about those things which are outer. We have not talked about relationships; we have not talked about service, for there is a foundation which we wish to emphasize, and that is meditation. You will note that in the story there was a cleansing, a purification, the bathing in the mountain lake, the donning of white and unblemished garments. My friends, you must be able to accept the portion of yourself which has been cleansed, or to put it another way, which is perpetually cleansed, and allow that self the higher seat within yourself in meditation, for surely there are many small and unimportant details which will flit through your minds, many irrelevant matters. All of these things are acceptable. See them and let them go. There is a portion of you, however, that must abide in what we would call the kingdom of heaven, for such this instrument calls it. Within this kingdom all things are true; all things are cleansed, and part of you has never left that reality, or should we say, that far less murky illusion. Do not satisfy yourself with the casual surface self as you go into meditation. Call upon the self which abides with the most high. Call upon the self, which is cleansed, which dwells forever in a place of utmost beauty and peace.

Now Hatonn said we ask that you meditate and enter into that silence as much as possible daily, for this is a settling down in front of your mirror, for to gaze within the self is to behold the universe where the galaxies go on forever within the mind, the heart, and the spirit, so we acknowledge the heart and the spirit that bring you together and wish you good hunting with that one original Thought which, although it may be hard to believe, is clearly written within yourselves, but this evening we have not talked about those things which are about relationships or about service, for there is a foundation which we wish to emphasize, and that is meditation, yet you will note that in the story there was a cleansing by bathing in the mountain lake, the donning of white and unblemished garments, for you must be able to accept the portion of yourself which is perpetually cleansed, and allow that self the higher seat within yourself in meditation, for there are many unimportant details which will flit through your minds, yet all of these things are acceptable, so see them and let them go, but there is a portion of you that must abide in the Kingdom of Heaven, for within this Kingdom all things are true, and part of you has never left that reality, but do not satisfy yourself with the surface self as you go into meditation, but call upon the self which abides with the most high and which dwells forever in a place of beauty and peace. On August 5, 1984, Hatonn spoke of the nature of the most high that dwells within us:

Within yourself, each of you has the opportunity to experience the deep surfaces, the crevices, the rocks, the valleys, the vales, and the forests of existence. Each has ample opportunity to choose to be misled, to be unhappy, to feel darkness. Each of you also has within you the birthright and the opportunity at all times to seek the high places. Walk then in meditation up your own mountain. Picture yourself cleansing yourself at a clear, cool and refreshing mountain stream. And then clad in cleanly garments, visit the most high place of your being in meditation and in peace. Metaphysical peace does not deny the apparent chaos of a boisterous illusion but rather reaffirms and restates for you once again the perfection of the Creator, the Creator that is in you and the you that is in the Creator. You are old, older than rocks, and sky, and earth, and sea. You are consciousness. You have seen and experienced and chosen many things. Today you may choose again. It is only through meditation that your choices will be consistently positive. And by that we mean that your choices will be consistently those of service to others.

I am with those of Hatonn and I find the energy within the group somewhat low. Therefore, we shall terminate this contact but not without thanking you once again for the opportunity to speak with you and to share our thoughts with you. We are always available. Request us mentally and we shall be with you in meditation. We leave you in the Love and in the Light of our infinite Creator. Adonai. Adonai.

(Jim channeling)

I am Latwii, and I greet you, my friends, in the Love and the Light of our infinite Creator. We are once again most privileged and honored to be asked to join your group this evening. We thank you with a full heart of joy for requesting our presence that we might humbly offer that simple service that is ours to offer. We shall attempt to answer those queries which have importance for your seeking this evening. We, as our brothers and sisters of Hatonn, remind each of you that our words are but our opinions. Please take that which has value and use it as you will and leave that which has no value to you. We wish only to serve where asked and can only give that which is within our grasp to give. With that disclaimer aside, may we then begin with the first query of the evening?

J: Latwii, it’s good to hear your voice. But the story that Hatonn told about a ship and traveling and seeking. This takes a great deal of money. Where would one acquire this kind of money and time to seek the truth?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my brother. May we say we are also most happy to hear your voice as well. My brother, as one looks upon the journey of the seeker, one may see that there are limitless ways to seek the one Creator and to seek that which is called truth. One may, as the hero of the story of which you speak, spend a great deal of time and money, learn many rituals, speak with many sages, climb to the top of many remote mountains, and in general make a great deal of commotion in the process of seeking, and yet until an entity looks within the mirror of the self, the seeking has not begun. There is no amount of money that can purchase the sincere desire to look within the self for that which resides therein. There is no ship, plane, or means of conveyance that can take one where one does not wish to go as a result of one’s own efforts. You may speak with many wise and loving beings, and hear many words of inspiration. Yet, if within your own heart of hearts there is not the desire to look within your own being for that which you seek, all else is as nothing.

So, my brother, you need not worry about the expense or the time required to seek the truth. If you have the desire to seek the truth, you may do so each moment of your existence as you see yourself in each entity that you meet, as you see yourself as the Creator in each situation in which you find yourself. There is no end to the opportunities for seeking the truth, the Creator, and yourself, for all are one thing. You live in that one thing as that one thing.

May we answer you further, my brother?

J: Thank you, sir. From what you said then, the self comes first, and it is that you seek what you need for yourself first, and then and only then can you give to another human being. You have to first seek self-esteem, and then you can only relate that to another human being, and that is what takes up so much time. Am I being clear?

I am Latwii, and we feel you have been clear, my brother, and we feel we have a grasp of your query. You must begin with what you have in order to seek. That is, you will begin with yourself, and you will begin with that which is of concern to you. This usually entails, just as you have spoken, the fulfilment of the needs of the entity. Your young beings, those you have called children, are good examples of this process. There are stages of development which they pass through which require that they be given a great deal from those about them in order that they might be nurtured in their continued growth. As they mature in their years, they do not need as much from others, but are in fact able to give, perhaps to their own children.

You, in your spiritual seeking, begin as the child. You need much in the way of finding out who you are in this illusion, what are your abilities, what are your desires, what opportunities await you. As these, shall we say, more mundane concerns are met by your own seeking, then your seeking becomes refined through your own efforts, so that you begin to concern yourself with what might be called the deeper concerns, the nature of life, the meaning of life, and how you shall serve and how you shall learn. Thus, you proceed as does the child which you have been in each portion of your life, continuing as an upward spiraling line of light to return to that source from which you sprang.

May we answer you further, my brother?

J: Thank you, sir. Are you saying that we should have rational values such as being an objectivist rather than being an altruist?

I am Latwii, and am aware of your query, my brother. We have not specifically said that one “should” do such and such, such as have rational values. We suggest that in the process of your growth as an entity within this illusion, you will begin with such values, beliefs, and standards. From these you shall refine your seeking.

May we answer you further, my brother?

J: But I’m trying to get rid of all my old habits and all my old beliefs, and you’re saying that I have to begin again, start all over?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my brother. We have suggested that you have undergone this process, and now as you continue your seeking, you shall perhaps get rid of certain values and standards or perhaps you shall transmute them so that what once was a value that had certain discrete limitations is now a higher standard that has widened its perspective to include that which was not included before.

May we answer you further, my brother?

J: No, that’s very good sir. Thank you very much.

I am Latwii and we thank you, my brother, as always. Is there another query at this time?

Carla: Well, I just had the … I fastened on the same thing that J did, only differently. I heard—I think I heard it—that he sold all that he had, and I was thinking to myself that maybe it’s a sliding scale, what people pay for seeking is a sliding scale, depending on what you have. Because what you do is, you give it all, I mean, you surrender all of it, whatever it is, so if it’s everything, then it doesn’t matter whether it’s a widow’s mite, like it said in the Bible, or whether it’s millions and millions of bucks. It’s everything, so it’s really the same amount for all of us that seek. That’s the price of seeking, is that we, not necessarily, you know, give up our homes or our creature comforts or anything, but we give up putting them first. Is that right? Did I get that inference from the story?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my sister. This is quite correct, for whatever an entity has in this illusion is but a pittance in comparison to that which the seeker seeks. The pearl of great price is indeed priceless. There is no treasure upon your planet that can match that truth which resides in the heart of each seeker and which is the goal of each seeker.

May we answer you further, my sister?

Carla: Well, now in the Bible when the pearl of great price was mentioned, the man buried it in a field and went and sold all that he had and bought the field, and that was a parable for the kingdom of heaven …

[Side one of tape ends.]

(Jim channeling)

I am Latwii and am once again with this instrument. We apologize for the delay. We shall attempt comment upon the query which you have so graciously asked, my sister. The pearl which is symbolized in this story recorded in your holy work and that treasure which was buried within the field is that truth which is buried within the heart of each entity, for each is a portion of the one Creator and each seeks that source, that Creator from which each has sprung. In the seeking within your illusion there is much which is placed before the seeker to test and challenge the seeker’s desire to seek the truth before all else. What treasures can lure the seeker from this journey? What promises of wealth can lure the seeker away from pursuing that pearl of great price which lies buried within its own being? The field is the entity. The price is the continued seeking for that pearl. All which is sold in order that the field of the self might be redeemed is the great variety of temptations that each seeker will encounter upon the journey. It is a journey which seems quite endless and arduous, yet to the devout that makes the journey, a straight and narrow path. It ends in a moment when that pearl is found and the entity finds that it is one with all things, that it has traveled a great distance and has found itself within itself and within all beings and things.

May we answer you further, my sister?

Carla: Just one question. Are you talking about things like despair and the feelings that we get that aren’t helpful at all? Is that the kind of temptation you’re talking about?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my sister. These of which you speak, indeed, can be great temptations to lure an entity away from the faith that its journey will have an end. Temptations may be any lure away from that journey. Perhaps great wealth shall for a while, as you measure time, cause an entity to forget that which it seeks. Perhaps a talent that an entity has will become the focus of that entity’s efforts, and it shall forget that it seeks the truth.

Carla: Now you’re talking about regular old temptations like power and money, and I never have really related too much to those.

I am Latwii, and we believe that you now grasp the thrust and the breadth and the field of temptations, my sister.

Carla: Thank you.

I am Latwii. Is there another query at this time?

J: Latwii, what’s wrong with power and money, if used in the right way—as long as you don’t control another human being?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my brother. There is nothing wrong with anything, whether the thing be power, money, friends, position, opportunity, and so forth. The seeker shall find its path to be most efficiently traveled when there is one focus upon the traveling. That is what we have metaphorically called the pearl of great price. Although the aforementioned temptations or things are helpful insofar as they are means towards achieving that goal, if, however, they or any one of them should become the focus or the goal so that the goal is forgotten, there is nothing wrong with this situation, however, the seeker shall be, shall we say, somewhat delayed in its journey of seeking until it once again find its focus. We hasten to add, however, that even in the delay there is the great opportunity to learn, so that each experience an entity encounters might be utilized by that entity to enhance the process of seeking.

May we answer you further, my brother?

J: Well, can’t one seek power and money and still be on the right journey?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my brother. We do, indeed, suggest that such is possible. It is possible that one might forget what purpose one intends to use such for. We mentioned this possibility, for within your illusion such accoutrements are usually sought as means and goals in themselves so that the deeper truths are ignored. This is the nature of your illusion. However, this need not be so. An entity which seeks to be of service to others in the positive sense and who seeks first and foremost that which we have called the pearl of great price may use any of these items which we have mentioned to further that seeking and that service.

May we answer you further, my brother?

J: Oh, you just blew my thunder, but I … I don’t want to. Thank you. I don’t want to go on with this anymore ‘cause you’re, uh, having difficulty with this. Thank you, sir.

I am Latwii, and we are most grateful to you, my brother. Is there another query at this time?

Carla: Let me see if I can restate what you said so that J will hear it differently, cause I think I know where the hang-up is, because it says in the Bible, “The love of money is the root of all evil.” And it doesn’t say that “Money is the root of all evil,” at all. It doesn’t say that. It’s the “love” of it. And what you’re trying to say is that when you have a love of position, or a love of possessions, or a love of money, or power, or influence, those things, that means that you basically, you’ve stopped seeking spiritually and you’ve started seeking a god that is temporal, that is going to die with you; you’re not going to be able to take it with you. And that’s the delay that you’re talking about, is that you’re—because of your love of this money or position, you’re just putting off seeking spiritually. Whereas a spiritual seeker might well have money, but if there isn’t an emotional load on it, if it’s considered as a tool, like a carpenter would use a saw or something, if it’s considered simply a means to the end of paying the bills and getting on with things, that’s not a problem, spiritually. It’s the love of it that causes the problem. Is that what you’re trying to say?

I am Latwii, and am aware of your query, my sister. This is the gist of our attempt to speak to this subject. May we hasten to add that we do not judge or condemn any entity which loves the money, the power, or the position, for each entity in each action is the one Creator seeking to know Itself. However long this process may take is quite appropriate to each entity, and we would not suggest that if one seeks these items that one is not a spiritual being. One is at all times the one Creator, perfect and whole in each portion of Its being.

May we answer you further, my sister?

Carla: No, thank you.

J: Latwii, sir, thank you for that answer, because I disagree with Carla. I do love money and do love power, but I’m also seeking the Creator; I’m also seeking knowledge, and I agree with your last statement. Thank you. No offense, Carla.

I am Latwii, and we thank you, my brother and my sister. May we attempt another query at this time?

Carla: I’m out.

I am Latwii, and we find that for the time being we have exhausted those queries which are available this evening for the asking. We thank each present for allowing us to speak and to join our vibrations with yours. It is a great honor to serve in our humble way, and we thank you with a heart full of joy at this opportunity. We are with each of you whenever requested in your meditations, and we look forward to each opportunity to speak as we have this evening. We shall leave this group at this time. We are those of Latwii, and we leave you in the Love and in the Light of the one infinite Creator. Go forth, my friends, rejoicing in this Love and Light. I am Latwii. Adonai. Adonai vasu borragus.

This morning the quote from The Thunder of Silence is: “Everyone on Earth must some day inhabit heaven. Everyone on Earth must some day rise above being a sick and sinful mortal and accept the inheritance of their divine nature, but no one will be able to do this by living under the law, nor will they do it by learning to be a god human being. It cannot be accomplished merely by some human form of worship, not becoming honest or moral. Those are only first steps.

Only by losing our carnal desires, our mortal, selfish, human desires, do we prove that we are making advances toward a higher state of humanhood. Ultimately, there comes a day when we actually attain a realization of the Spirit of God that dwells in us, when we come face to face with It, when It touches us on the shoulder, on the head, or in the heart, when in some way or other, It announces Its presence. From then on, we are no longer simply good men or women; from then on, we are no longer under the law of punishment or of reward. From that time to the end of our days on Earth and throughout eternity, we are under Grace.

Then it is that we begin to catch the first glimpse of this great truth that all we have been doing throughout our many struggling days is living under karmic law, violating it or coming into agreement with it, believing that if we are good today, the good things of the world will flow to us, but that we can cheat ourselves of them tomorrow by being bad.

We are told that if we sin, God will punish us, but that was the Old Testament version of God, and no such teaching appears in the New Testament sayings of Jesus Christ. On the contrary it is made clear that God has more pleasure in one sinner who comes to the realization of God than in ninety-nine people who just walk the Earth as good people. Should it not cause us to stop to think that all the ninety-nine good people do not please God as much as the one sinner?

The God of most people on Earth is a God that punishes evil and rewards good, and there is no such God. We do not have to fear God, and we do not have to attempt to influence God or influence or sacrifice to God. God is the same to the saint and to the sinner. God is Good; God is Love; God is the eternal, immortal, spiritual, creative principle of the universe, its maintaining and sustaining principle.”

This morning I ran some errands with my first stop being at Thieneman’s Nursery where I bought three bales of pine straw mulch. My second stop was at Feeder’s Supply where I bought some bird seed and some AquaSafe. My third stop was at Kroger’s where I bought some food for myself. My fourth stop was at Paul’s Fruit Market where I bought more food for myself. My last stop was at Speedway Gas Station where I filled all of Stanley’s tire with 32 psi of air.

This afternoon I put netting around the Vanilla/Strawberry Hydrangea Bushes in front of the fishpond.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

March 31

The Messenger Of Love

I am of the principle of living Love, and I greet you in the consciousness of Jesus the Christ.

I greet you as a messenger sent out before the dawn of each thought in the mind.

I greet you as a new beginning in every moment of the day.

I greet you around trick corners and sudden hurdles. Reach for the arms of comfort in times of distress, for we are there.

We are the principle of Love, and as you speak to us of Love, we come to you with Love. And as our comfort is sweet to you, so is your heart to the Creator, the Father of all things. And so, you have the opportunity at each and every dawning to become one with God in Christ through the grace of the Spirit of Love.

We leave you in the peace and joy which are yours to experience through the birthright of Christ, both now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of Love and open our hearts minds, and souls to send Love, Light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite Love, Light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our Love, Light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Hatonn and Latwii channelings for this session come from November 18, 1984:

(Carla channeling)

I am Hatonn, and I greet you in the Love and in the Light of our infinite Creator. We thank you and give you many hopes of blessing for the opportunity to speak with you this evening, for the opportunity to share our lives with yours through these few precious vibratory experiences which you call moments of time.

We would like to tell you a story, my friends, of a princess. The heroine could just as easily have been a prince upon some levels of storytelling, but for our parable it is quite necessary that this entity be female. As is the custom in fairy tales about princesses, she was awaiting one man who could stir her heart, a heart that was hard-bitten by many, many years of power and lonely beyond words because of that power. Courtier after courtier, peasant after peasant filed by with their best gifts, hoping to win her favor. She had offers of everything from livestock to pearls to kingdoms, new realms to govern. In none of these things was she at all interested, and sadly at the end of each feast day she would close audience, still powerful and still lonely.

One day an ill-garbed man came to her court. He was not a courtier or a peasant. He was a stranger. His home was the road. He did not understand why his journey had brought him to this place, but when he saw what lay before him, there grew within his heart a great desire to speak his mind and his heart, as all were allowed to do on this great feast day. Having no cap for his head, he tugged at his hair in order to make respect and bowed his knees and in rough words made his plea. “Milady,” he said, “I can give you nothing but my days, my nights, my love, and my road. My feeling for you is such that I am blinded. I cannot see any other, and so you shall have to help me if we are to be together, for the blind need guides, and I offer you my need as well as my love, for I shall be confused. To share my road is a strange thing indeed. Milady,” he continued, “I do not know where I shall be tomorrow, next week, or next year. I have nothing but my flesh and my heart, my mind and my honor, and I give these into your hands. Whether you accept them or not, you are and will always have been my love.”

Hatonn began this session by telling a story of a princess. They began by saying we would like to tell you a story of a princess who could have been a prince upon some levels of storytelling, but for our parable it is necessary that this entity be female, and as is the custom in fairy tales about princesses, she was awaiting one man who could stir her heart that was hard-bitten by many years of power and lonely beyond words because of that power, so courtier after courtier, peasant after peasant filed by with their best gifts, hoping to win her favor, for she had offers of everything from livestock, to pearls, to new realms to govern, but in none of these things was she interested, and at the end of each feast day she would close audience, still powerful and still lonely. Hatonn went on to say one day an ill-garbed man came to her court, but he was not a courtier or a peasant, for he was a stranger, and his home was the road, yet he did not understand why his journey had brought him to this place, but when he saw what lay before him, there grew within his heart a great desire to speak his mind and his heart, as all were allowed to do on this great feast day, so having no cap for his head, he tugged at his hair in order to make respect and bowed his knees and in rough words made his plea, so “Milady,” he said: “I can give you nothing but my days, my nights, my love, and my road. My feeling for you is such that I am blinded. I cannot see any other, and so you shall have to help me if we are to be together, for the blind need guides, and I offer you my need as well as my love, for I shall be confused. To share my road is a strange thing indeed. Milady,” he continued, “I do not know where I shall be tomorrow, next week, or next year. I have nothing but my flesh and my heart, my mind and my honor, and I give these into your hands. Whether you accept them or not, you are and will always have been my love.” On March 7, 2004, Q’uo spoke of the general nature of honor:

We are those of the principle known to you as Q’uo, and we greet you in the Love and in the Light of the one infinite Creator, in whose service we come to you this day. We thank you so much for the privilege, the honor, and the duty of being called to this group this day. It is a blessing to us to be able to serve as we had hoped to, and a call from your group is most welcome. We ask, as always, that each of you guard the portals of your discrimination very carefully, listening to the personal resonance that comes with your unique truth and not for any perceived outer authority. If you are able to guard those things that you keep of what we say and those things that you discard, then we will feel far more free to be able to share with you without infringing upon your free will.

My friends, it is a great folly, or so it seems to be, encased in such flesh as you experience in your density. You feel clumsy and awkward, and so you are, compared to higher density bodies. You feel numb and unable to see the larger picture, and this is so compared to the awareness available at other levels of vibration. Yet yours is the splendor of giving the true generosity that only comes when you truly cannot see and cannot hear the divine but only have faith that there is such a thing as divine Love. In your illusion, may we say that you tend to undervalue your contributions to others. The least of those among you contributes in a vital way. It is not a conscious contribution in many cases, but the contribution of flesh within which a consciousness has been placed, so precious that to think it could be broken as the human body is broken is almost not to be thought, not to be accepted, not to be tolerated. This precious, you say to yourself, cannot possibly be part or parcel of this flesh.

Yes, my friends, you are inextricably bound about the cells of your third-density chemical body. All your acts will be those of entities incarnate who pour out the blood of heart, or mind, or will, or body without knowing the truth. The chances for courage, for polarizing, for serving, for allowing your flesh to become bread for others, are enormous. How little you value yourselves or your circumstances compared to the reality as we see it. If someone gave you a perfect stone—this instrument’s mind does not know precious stones well; we see in her mind diamonds, rubies, emeralds—someone gave you a perfect emerald, and then told you to swallow it and wear it within your body, you would think that person to be mad. And yet that is your consciousness—perfect jewel, a jewel of perfect shape. Not tossed thoughtlessly into a body, but placed with care, with love, with wisdom, into flesh that you may pour out your life beautifully if you wish, having nothing more to go on than deep-felt feeling that this is your road.

Hatonn continued by saying it is a great folly to be encased in such flesh as you experience in your density, for you feel clumsy, and so you are compared to higher density bodies, and you feel numb and unable to see the larger picture, for this is so compared to the awareness available at other levels of vibration, yet yours is the splendor of giving generosity that only comes when you cannot see and cannot hear the divine but only have faith that there is such a thing as divine Love, for in your illusion you tend to undervalue your contributions to others, yet the least of those among you contributes in a vital way, but it is not a conscious contribution in many cases, but it is the contribution of flesh within which a consciousness has been placed, so precious that to think it could be broken as the human body is broken is almost not to be accepted since this precious consciousness cannot possibly be part of this flesh. Then Hatonn said you are bound about the cells of your third-density chemical body, and all your acts will be those of entities incarnate who pour out the blood of heart, mind, or body without knowing the truth, so the chances for polarizing and serving are enormous, but how little you value yourselves or your circumstances compared to the reality as we see it, so if someone gave you a perfect emerald and then told you to swallow it and wear it within your body, you would think that person to be mad, yet that is your consciousness, a jewel of perfect shape, not tossed thoughtlessly into a body, but placed with Love and wisdom into flesh that you may pour out your life beautifully if you wish, having nothing more to go on than deep-felt feeling that this is your road. On September 9, 2023, Q’uo spoke of the nature of our consciousness:

We would suggest that you, in your meditations, ask that presence of the One Creator to move through you in ways that present themselves to you to be of service to others, to other-selves, to other facets or portions of the One Infinite Creator. Within your being is a great deal of the ability to be of this kind of service that will present itself to you if you ask the Creator to do that. And this is a manner in which you can polarize your consciousness in the positive sense so that you become more and more that which you seek: the One Infinite Creator. This is the journey of all entities upon this planet. And this is a journey which we feel that you have traveled a good distance upon. And we would suggest that you ask for more ability and opportunity to utilize those skills which have been given to you. Ask the Creator and the Creator shall respond.

You see, my friends, we must many times use females for those who receive and males for those who offer, for that is the archetypical nature of your sexuality. In actuality, each of you is both receptor and giver, taker and nurturer. Never doubt your worth to those about you. Never doubt that your nurturing is questionable any more than you doubt that there is a land in which princes and princesses have grand fairs. Where did these thoughts come from if there is not a level of knowledge which tells you about yourself? We offer this teaching to you in humility and are so grateful for the opportunity to speak with you. That is all. We can only repeat again and again: O what treasure lies within your bones, what beauty of spirit shines from loin far up into the heavens. There is no distinction, there is no being cut off. The illusion seems to cut you off, but you are a treasure indeed, each of you, just as you are. And in the flesh, you shall learn twenty, nay one hundred times better to serve, to Love, to give and to accept, to take, to receive. Love is completing circuits; it is not necessarily giving.

Then Hatonn said we must use females for those who receive and males for those who offer, for that is the archetypical nature of your sexuality, but actually each of you is both receptor and giver, taker and nurturer, so never doubt your worth to those about you, any more than you doubt that there is a land in which princes and princesses have grand fairs, for there is a level of knowledge which tells you about yourself, and we offer this teaching to you in humility and are grateful for the opportunity to speak with you, yet we can only repeat: O what treasure lies within your bones, what beauty of spirit shines from loin far up into the heavens, but there is no distinction or being cut off, yet the illusion seems to cut you off, but you are a treasure just as you are, and in the flesh, you shall learn a hundred times better to serve, to Love, to give and to accept, for Love is completing circuits. On December 29, 1997, Q’uo described the nature of the third-density illusion:

You are correct in your assumption that the illusion is that which is more than it appears to be, for each does appear to be separate from each other entity and from your environment itself. The unity of all things is the underlying truth in this matter. The illusion of separation exists so that each portion of the one Creator, the personalities who each of you are, may have the opportunity to explore within the one Creator’s boundless field, the opportunities for discovering Love and service for each other, though these may not seem to be the primary reasons for which each was incarnated. The illusion offers many other alternate answers for why each is here: to gather wealth, to be powerful, to do this or that great thing. All of these are but means by which each entity may find the heart of Love and unity within itself. Each uses the artifacts of the illusion to travel the spiritual journey, though all around one the material world is given ascendancy.

We close this circuit and relinquish this instrument at this time. Please be aware that our use of the word Love especially is inaccurate, and our sayings, as always, are only as important to you as they are helpful. We are those of mortal opinion who know nothing for sure. We have only walked the road a bit ahead of you. What road is that, my friends? Keep walking, my friends. You shall see and it shall be a joyful thing. I am Hatonn. I leave you in the love and in the light of our infinite Creator. Adonai, my friends. Adonai vasu borragus.

(Jim channeling)

I am Latwii, and I greet you, my friends, in the name of the one infinite Creator. We greet you in Love and Light. We are privileged to speak to you once again and offer our humble service. Our attempts to answer your queries are but meager efforts, but the one Creator resides in each and makes itself known in such a manner. May we attempt the first query, my friends?

L: Latwii, the intensity of the spirit of power tonight seems to be unusually high. Is there a reason for this?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my brother. This evening this small group has purified its desire to seek what you call the truth in a way which is galvanized, shall we say, by the passing of a brother. It is often the case in such a traumatic situation that those left behind will seek with ever more dedication the riddles and mysteries of the life which seems to have ended for one close. Yet each knows that the life continues and, therefore, redoubles the effort to make, shall we say, sense of it all.

Latwii: May we answer you further, my brother?

L: Yes. One further question. When Christ was crucified, he made the statement, “My God, my God, why hast Thou forsaken me?” To whom did He speak, and what did He mean by this?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my brother. The one known as Jesus the Christ was a mortal, as are all who walk your planet, yet this mortal was the one Creator which had uncovered levels of its being that few upon your planet have approached. As its life pattern reflected more and more that indwelling power and beingness of the one Creator, the path laid out for this entity became clear to it, and this entity then followed that path with great dedication. The path ended in this incarnation for this entity upon that cross, and it spoke as a mortal those words asking the one Creator why it needed to fulfill that destiny, shall we say. For even unto this entity who had realized much of its beingness there remained a mystery as to why the story needed an ending of such a nature that would require it to be nailed to a piece of wood to hang upon and be mocked by many as it gasped its last breaths in physical pain. Yet this entity was lifted up by its own faith in that one Creator which it had found within its being and had attempted to reveal to those who had eyes to see and ears to hear.

May we answer you further, my brother?

L: No, you have given me food for thought. I thank you.

I am Latwii. We thank you, my brother, as always. Is there another query at this time?

Carla: I have a question, but first I would like to challenge you in the name of Christ, not because l think you aren’t great, but because I have an important question to ask you. I challenge you in the name of Christ. Do you come in the name of Christ, Jesus Christ, my Savior?

I am Latwii, and, my sister, we come in the name of Jesus the Christ, the entity of whom we have just spoken. We come in the name of the Christ consciousness, and all those great masters who have sought the one Creator in the positive sense. We appreciate your challenge and applaud your devotion to the one known as Jehoshua.

May we attempt your query, my sister?

Carla: Yes. It’s been on my mind that the Ra work may not be finished. I have in mind two people which, after what I would consider a rather long period of training together, would be able to function with questioning. My questions, therefore, will be split up. First of all, is it possible for you to give any information of this kind?

I am Latwii and am aware, my sister, of the nature of your queries. We may say that we can speak in general terms, for in this instance the query about that which most definitely affects your future.

Carla: All right, one thing at a time. Is it possible that the two entities that I have in mind, the one known as Jim and I, could reach, sustain, and thrive, all except for me, with the level of harmony, health, tranquility and unity that Don, Jim and I experienced that was the basis for the Ra contact? I realize that the instrument knows absolutely nothing about this. This was on purpose, and I would like to say to the instrument, I’m sorry, but I didn’t think it would be wise to tell you what I was thinking. I wanted to go into it from a more general point of view.

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my sister, and it is fortunate that this instrument was not notified beforehand of these queries, for we are sure that it would have been most difficult for it to stand aside should it have had previous warning. We can suggest that the level of harmony that is possible for you and this instrument to achieve is a level which can easily approach that experienced by you and the one known as Don, for it is easier to harmonize fewer energies than many energies. Yet there is a certain level or number of entities necessary to do the kind of work of which you speak.

May we answer you further, my sister?

Carla: Yes. The question was, could these four people sustain that level of harmony and thrive both physically, mentally and emotionally? And the reason I said forget me was that I come in with so many physical handicaps that it would skew the answer. Everybody else is healthy.

I am Latwii, and we fear that we are not aware of salient portions of your query. We are unaware of entities other than the one known as Jim and yourself. May we ask for clarification, my sister?

Carla: I do not wish to say these names out loud. Is it acceptable if I think them?

I am Latwii. This is quite acceptable, my sister.

Carla: I shall do so now.

I am Latwii, and we are grateful that you mentioned that you were going to think of these entities. We appreciate hints. Now to your query, my sister. We see that these entities which you have spoken of before are entities which, indeed, generate and sustain great amounts of harmonic resonance and are entities which could, with great effort and dedication, achieve the level of harmony which would approach that previously experienced in the contact with those of Ra. Whether this harmony would be of the proper pitch is not that which we can either affirm or predict, for the future is most unknown even to those who can see its possibilities.

May we attempt further response, my sister?

Carla: Can you say whether the higher selves of these four beings made agreements to do Ra work before incarnation if necessary?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my sister. We find that there have been agreements made by each of these entities to work in this particular type of contact. The agreements provided for various, shall we say, alternatives or backup probabilities. Whether these can be instituted and manifested is the mystery which lies before you.

Carla: Okay. So, let me see. I’ve gotten so far that I have identified the proper people as far as agreements made before birth, and that part of our agreements were that we would be free to attempt to reach a level of harmony necessary to sustain the Ra workings. Am I correct up to this point?

I am Latwii, and am aware of your query, my sister. We can correct it only by inserting the modifier “some” of these people, rather than “the” people.

Carla: Okay. Now that brings me to my next deep hunch in a series of deep hunches I’ve been working with all this weekend. I have a deep hunch that one of these people is absolutely necessary to the group as a battery for the questioner, for the questioner could not do the work without the battery, without the life energy of this person being involved, I guess, in terms of what Hatonn just said, without the circuit being closed between those two people, so that in essence you would have three people and a battery for that third person.

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my sister. We can suggest that though there may be a specific entity that is capable of serving in the capacity of what you have called a battery, there may be others who, in a joined fashion, may be able to serve in the same capacity.

May we answer you further?

Carla: Well, that surprises me. I would think there would only be one battery for this particular person. Okay. I would think that the training period would probably be …

[Side one of tape ends.]

(Jim channeling)

I am Latwii, and we shall attempt the answer to your query at this time, my sister. We can suggest that the period known to you as a year is a relatively sufficient amount of time during which the energies of each entity may find the ability to harmonize in a manner which then readies the path and the work. We can suggest that this period of time is not fixed but needs to be prolonged enough that honest and clear communication is affected. There is great politeness and concern among even the gentlest and most eccentric of entities. This veneer needs to be penetrated in order that even at the lowest ebb of compassion and wisdom the entities are able to maintain a stable harmony.

May we answer further, my sister?

Carla: Yes, sorry you guys, I hope I’m not going … I would assume that although at the beginning it would actually aid us to use mild mind-altering drugs—I’m speaking of marijuana—that a month before we began work we would have to swear off and stay off. Is that correct?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my sister. In this instance we cannot serve as the doctor making a prescription, even in the negative sense. We find that the information which can provide answer to this query is known to this group.

Carla: Okay.

Latwii: May we attempt another query, my sister?

Carla: Okay. Well, this is the biggie, all right? Is it, in your opinion, at all important that there be more Ra work done? Or is it instead better for us to realize that there are other things to do that we have not yet done. I’m thinking specifically of the fact that we got a new contact from Yadda recently that alerted me to the knowledge that, of course, it is a crowded universe, which I say a lot, but sometimes I don’t pay attention to what I say, and it’s possible that the Ra work is finished. If it is possible for you to give me your human opinion, I would be interested in anything you have to say on that point.

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my sister. Well, now. In our best human opinion, may we suggest that the future has within it a great panoply of possibilities. May we suggest that the most important ingredient for realizing any possibility is the simple desire to be of service without a dedication to what that service should be and how that service shall result. We can see a future in which you begin again that which has become known as the Ra contact. We can see a future in which there is no such contact, yet there is great work possible in furthering the information which has been gathered and continuing the meetings which have been ongoing for a great portion of your time.

We see possibilities in which new contacts are achieved and information therefrom disseminated. We see a future in which each touches many individuals and speaks with compassion and inspiration of the One which indwells in all. We see a future in which the being of each shines brightly as a beacon and illumines the darkness by its very being with no movement required at all. We see a future in which each walks a path which is most appropriate, which is to say, that as one places a foot upon the ground and does so in a thoughtful manner centered upon the one Creator, it will, therefore, be as natural as breathing to place the foot upon the path, one foot after another, until the journey is traveled one step at a time.

We see a future in which all these things are possible, made possible by the firm desire to serve and the free desire for no particular outcome, for as the one Creator moves through each, the will of the one Creator shall be made known, and if each can remove its small self’s will, then the will of the great One shall move through each as a channel, and shall carve its own pattern and write upon your third-density creation the words of illumination that inspire and provoke the seeking of those who dwell in darkness.

May we answer you further, my sister?

Carla: Yes. One last question. Can you weigh without emotion the value of each of these paths as one being the most valuable or do you see them as equal?

I am Latwii, and am aware of your query, my sister. We see the equality of each path, yet we see the uniqueness and the power associated with each path as well. It cannot be said with certainty that to serve a few in a powerful manner is greater or lesser in service than to serve many in a lesser powerful manner. We see the one Creator in each entity awaiting that entity’s seeking of it. We see many ways in which many entities may be inspired to begin that seeking. We see that a great variety of ways is available to each in this group to serve as shepherd, to radiate the Love and Light to those who hunger for this nourishment. We can only ask each to seek in meditation the answers which have been provided for each of you by your greater self, by your very own self as you planned this incarnation and as you hid various signposts along your various possible journeys. Know that each path contains in whole all that you hope to accomplish. If one tool is removed, then another will take its place. Know that all is well. No turn will cause the seeker to be lost from that which is sought, for the one Creator waits not only at the end of each path but along each portion of each path, for it is the One who seeks Itself within Itself. There is none else.

May we answer you further, my sister?

Carla: No, Latwii. Thank you very much, and I thank the instrument.

I am Latwii, and we thank you, my sister, for allowing us to provide our humble service. May we attempt another query at this time?

L: Latwii, excluding yourself, how many entities are in this room?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my brother, and we shall not take offense at being excluded, but shall suggest that there is a great choir of entities which has joined this group this evening. Though all may not be, shall we say, contained by this room, there are endless entities listening, and speaking, and lending vibration to the great symphony of seeking that has arisen from this group this evening.

May we attempt further response, my brother?

L: No, that answers my question. Thank you very much.

I am Latwii, and we thank you, my brother. Is there another query at this time?

[Pause]

I am Latwii. We see that we have exhausted the queries for the evening. We are most appreciative to each present for allowing us a beingness within your group, and for allowing us to put into the poor and inadequate vessels—words—those feelings and concepts which are without bound and can only be understood at the heart of the being. We speak to you in words which we hope will also penetrate the essence of the Love which binds each to each. We cannot speak without distortion, but we hope that the heart of our speaking may be known in your hearts. We thank you in a way which we cannot speak at all for allowing our humble service, and we travel with you on the journey. We ask with you the questions of how to travel that journey. We teach and we learn. We are with you always in your meditations, in your contemplations and in your machinations, we join you in joy and in praise for the One Which Is All. We are those of Latwii. Adonai, my friends. Adonai vasu borragus.

This morning the quote from The Thunder of Silence is: “It is possible to think and think on truth—and up to a certain point that is normal, natural, and right—but then there must come a time when thought stops, a blank comes, almost a vacuum, and then into that vacuum rush the very presence and power of God. We can only come into that Presence stark naked, in a moment of complete silence, when the entire thought processes have stopped, when we have nothing upon which to rely, nothing on which to pin our hopes, but when we have made ourselves barren and completely empty.

That is the moment when we perceive that, even when we cannot know It or feel It or think It, there is an invisible Presence, an intangible Something, which nevertheless is operating, and then from that very Invisibility will come into expression everything necessary to our unfoldment. If we think ourselves to be something, we gravely err. It is only when we come to that place of self-renunciation that the divine Selfhood of our own being revels Itself. Silence is the way.

The Silence is not an absence of sound, but is a state of consciousness which enables us to refrain from mental reaction to what is seen or heard. For example, we may see and recognize a shadow on the wall—an ugly appearance—and yet have no reaction of fear, knowing it to be a shadow.

When consciousness has attained the awareness of one power, one law, one substance, one cause—oneness—we do not respond with fear, doubt, or horror to anything seen or heard, and then it is that consciousness has gone beyond power and attained the Silence—the healing consciousness.”

Later this morning I went outside and used a weedkiller to spray on the weeds in the driveway, the parking areas, and all of the walkways around my yard. Then I hand-weeded the Fern Garden in the back yard.

This afternoon I hand-weeded the small Hosta Garden next to the Fern Garden, and then I hand-weeded the Hosta Garden under the Forsythia Bushes in the far back part of my yard. Then I worked with the small stone wall in front of the fishpond, and I was able to find enough large stones that began at the corner of the stone to complete the first three and one half feet of the stone wall.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

March 29

Your Deepest Name Is Christ

I am of the principle of divine and eternal Love, and I greet you in the most precious name of Jesus the Christ.

You shall, today, meet someone whose name you think you know, and you shall gaze upon the flesh, opaque and mortal, that is the prison of the incarnate soul.

Know as you meet friends, acquaintances or strangers that the name of the body, the personality and the mind which is used to live a life is not truly the deepest name, but that the deepest name of each is Christ.

For each is Christ. Each eye that meets yours is that of God in flesh. All beings are heirs together in eventual realization of Christhood. Jesus the Christ has said, “If you aid any person, you are aiding me.” Let pure compassion melt the sight of flesh and mortality, that you may serve the Christ in all and find the peace and freedom of infinite Love.

We of the Spirit are here for you that, by grace, you may see the better, hear the clearer, and Love the more purely.

We leave you in divine Love and peace, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of Love and open our hearts minds, and souls to send Love, Light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite Love, Light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our Love, Light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.