I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from November 2, 2003:

Our question today concerns free will. We would like to know what Q’uo could tell us about maintaining free will and why free will is the first distortion of the Law of One. Why not the second or third distortion? Why did the Creator of all things feel that free will was the most important of the distortions in order to be listed first?

(Carla channeling)

We are those of the principle known to you as Q’uo, and we greet you in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator, in Whose service we come to you. May we say what a privilege it is to be called to your circle of seeking? As the shadows lengthen upon your world in the environment of this instrument, we rest in the beauty of the combined energy and essence of each of your souls as you blend and meld into a true circle of seeking. It is a great blessing for us to be here and to share our thoughts with you. As always, we ask that you may use your discrimination in listening to those things which we have to say, for those things which we offer are opinions and are not to be confused with some source of final wisdom or absolute knowledge.

Youask this evening concerning free will and why it has been called, in the words of the Ra, “the first distortion.” And we are glad to speak upon this topic. It is certainly a challenging and interesting topic, for it is the penetrating simplicity of the Law of One that it does begin with the free will.

Firstly, we shall address the subject from the standpoint of what this instrument would call logic, although it is a specific kind of logic which is perhaps not entirely linear. The creation is, shall we say, a figment of the imagination of the Creator. The Creator exists in a state of absolute rest within which all things occur, a primal paradox to be sure. The first distortion of this perfect balance and peace is choice, or the use of the will. In this case, it was the will of the Creator to know Itself. Consequently, it is that distortion which precedes the great original Thought, for that original Thought is an active thought, a creative and destructive thought, a powerful, active principle. The one known as D was speaking earlier concerning Love and Light and saying that the fundamental energy was Love, that wisdom was important, yet Love in the end was more important. In actuality the Love that is the one great original Thought, the Logos is that which is completely beyond that which the word “love” can express and completely beyond that which the word “wisdom” can express.

Itis as though one were attempting to name that which cannot be seen, held, heard, or in any way imagined. Consequently, the first distortion, that distortion moving away from utter potentiality and utter peace and rest, is that freedom of will, employed first by the Creator Itself, to know Itself. In making this choice the Creator became, shall we say, the one great original Thought. It is more of a shift between potentiality and actuality or kinetic reality, shall we say. However, from this Thought, which was Love, there came into being that material which the Creator used to build Its universe, and that is Light. Consequently, when we greet you in the Love and in the Light of the one infinite Creator, we are greeting you with the very stuff of the creation itself and placing ourselves, and you and all things, within this framework of all that is, which does indeed exist only in the sense that, as the one known as G was speaking earlier, the word “now” exists.

The creation may be thought of, in a way, as that moment in which all of time and all of space has its heartbeat of a moment. The illusion is that there is a vast march of consecutive moments, consecutive nows, that create years, and decades, and centuries, and millennia and eons. It is just as useful, however, in terms of spiritual growth, to think of the momentariness or the circularity of time. For each of you is far from being a prisoner of space and time. Within your noonday perception it would appear that you have many limits: you are just this tall, just this wide, you have just these experiences, just this knowledge, and just these actions to make up the passing of a normal day. Yet in reality, there is communication occurring, even in the daylight consciousness, between conscious and unconscious perceptions, between the limited consensual reality and the surrounding and permeating metaphysical reality that escapes the senses of the physical world but speaks very clearly to those great centers of knowledge and experience that lie deep within what this instrument would call the frontal lobes, that area which has such great strength and power to offer to the consensual reality self. So, there is always, in any situation, a part of you that has escaped all of the limits that seem to hem you in. There is no time at which you are truly a prisoner of your body.

Certainly, it may seem so. Certainly, within each of the memories within this circle there live those times when the self was very limited, unable to move because perhaps a bone was broken and needed mending, or there was an illness that laid one low, and there was a need to recover quietly. There are many ways that an entity can feel limited and trammeled and yet, always, there exists that continuing communication with all of those forces of the creation which indwell each tiny speck and iota of creation; for all things are alive. That intelligence, which is Light, is infinitely full of information and, as the physical vehicle of the self moves through the dance of the daily life, the interaction between that metaphysical side of self and the daylight self is continually going on. The communication can indeed be encouraged by the choices made by each of you. And the first of these choices, as the one known as G said, is simply to ask to be aware of the communication that is going on. Each asking alerts the unconscious and expresses to it a preference. The unconscious portion of self receiving this permission is then given strength. That is how faith builds upon itself, by using it as if it were a muscle. When muscles are not used, they become flabby and, sooner or later, an unused muscle will atrophy and become dysfunctional. So, it is with the power of faith, which, in a way, may be described as that certainty that there is communication between the seen and the unseen or perhaps more simply, that certainty in the unseen.

The group question for this session was: “Why did the Creator of all things feel that free will was the most important of the distortions in order to be listed first?” Q’uo began their reply by saying that they wanted to speak to the question from a non-linear standpoint by saying that the creation is a figment of the imagination of the Creator as the Creator exists in a state of absolute rest within which all things occur which is a primal paradox, and the first distortion of this perfect balance is the choice of the Creator to use Its will to know Itself so that it is that distortion which precedes the great original Thought, for that original Thought is an active thought, a creative and destructive thought, a powerful, active principle of the Love of the Logos which is completely beyond that which the word “love” can express. Q’uo continued by saying that the first distortion is moving away from utter peace and rest and is that freedom of will that was first used by the Creator to know Itself, and in making this choice the Creator became the one great original Thought which is more of a shift between potentiality and actuality, but from this Thought of Love there came into being the Light which the Creator used to build Its universe so that when Q’uo greets us in the Love and in the Light of the one infinite Creator, they are greeting us with the very stuff of the creation itself and placing themselves, us, and all things within this framework of all that is, which exists only in the sense that the word “now” exists. Q’uo went on to say that the creation may be thought of as that moment in which all of time and all of space has its heartbeat in a moment so that the illusion is that there is an infinite progression of consecutive nows that create years, and decades, and centuries, and millennia, and eons, but it is just as useful in terms of spiritual growth to think of the circularity of time because each of us is not a prisoner of space and time even though it would appear that we have many limits of our physical body’s size, the thoughts of our mind, and the experiences of our normal day, but in reality, there is communication occurring at all times between our conscious and unconscious perceptions, between the limited consensual reality and the surrounding and permeating metaphysical reality that escapes our senses of the physical world but speaks very clearly to that great center of knowledge and experience that lies deep within our frontal lobes, that area which has such great strength and power to offer to the consensual reality self, so there is always a part of us that has escaped all of the limits that seem to restrict us because there is no time at which we are truly a prisoner of our body. Now Q’uo said that it may seem that within each of the memories within this circle there live those times when the self was unable to move because a bone was broken and needed mending, or there was an illness, and there was a need to recover quietly so that there are many ways that we can feel limited, and there is always that continuing communication with all of those forces of the creation which indwell in each iota of creation, for all things are alive, and that intelligence, which is Light, is infinitely full of information and, as our body moves through the dance of the daily life, the interaction between that metaphysical side of ourself and the daylight self is continually going on so that communication can be encouraged by the choices made by each of us, and the first of these choices is to ask to be aware of the communication that is going on, and each asking alerts our unconscious and expresses to it a preference so that the unconscious portion of ourself that receives this permission is given strength, and that is how faith builds upon itself, by using it as if it were a muscle, and the use of faith may be described as that certainly that there is communication between the seen and the unseen. On September 8, 2021, Q’uo described the value of our use of faith:

There is an intelligent energy at work to attract just such experiences that are a perfect match for what the individual needs to learn and to use as its growth in an upward fashion. The use of faith connects both the awareness of the connection the individual has with the basic earth energy with its own spiritual purpose in that incarnation. Simply by having faith that this process is eternal and matched to the individual and its needs for growth—growth toward love and understanding and greater compassion—speaks to how the simple concept of faith, a turning over the process to a greater consciousness of which the individual is a part, is at work. On some level, each individual is aware that there is a great process going on—of growth, maturity, and greater awareness toward love and light—and can trust that process to take place.

It is very possible to catch this as if it were a cold, by contact with other entities who have it. And that is why so often it is helpful for spiritually motivated people to gather in groups such as this one, to share the awareness that moves too deeply for words in the being of each and yet will not be denied. There is strength in a group of entities, all of whom have agreed to posit, as at least a possibility, the reality of there being greater, deeper, higher vistas, views, and truths concerning the self than are immediately apparent within an environment that seems steeped in trivia, inanity, and folly. We are most pleased to see groups such as this one and may we say how powerful such groups are, not only to help each other within the group, although this is certainly the case, but also the energy created by a group such as this one as it seeks truly is as that light which lightens the darkness, that lighthouse which stands upon the promontory, blessing all with its guidance.

Our first point, then, is that free will is the first distortion because it is the first distortion, that distortion which made all the other distortions possible, which made creation possible, which made each of us and you here present, possible. There is a second and equally profound thread of thought concerning this first distortion of free will. This entity worships in a Christian manner and within this particular mythological system there is a three-fold designation to Deity—the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit. One may gaze at the Father as the one great original Thought. One may gaze at the Son as that Thought made into something, that Thought made into light. One may gaze at the Holy Spirit as the personification of free will. These are not directly logical connections, and we would not ask you to attempt, literally, to understand that which we are saying. We are simply attempting to show a kind of connection between the Christian way of thinking about the mystery of Deity and the similar construction within the so-called Law of One concerning that same mystery. When those within the Christian system, writing early in church history, were attempting to describe the Spirit, when the one known as Jesus was talking about the Spirit, there were similes to fire and to the wind, those things which are not controlled, those things which “bloweth as it listeth,” the wind of Spirit, the flame or fire of Spirit, coming down into the crown chakra and down into the system of those who pray to that Spirit. They are asking for the wind to blow them, for the fire to burn them. They are asking for transformation; they are asking for change; they are asking to be changed; and they are asking the agent of that change to visit them.

Itis difficult to think of free will as that which must be asked for, and yet it is important to move into a space within the self where one is able to lay all aside except the desire to know the truth. And in that place of utter humility and unknowing, in that stance of a person with empty hands waiting to receive, the request may be made for that enlivening, empowering Spirit that is free will. It is yours if you claim it. It is yours if you ask. Again, if you do not ask, if you do not claim it, little by little that muscle atrophies, and it becomes more and more difficult to move with the winds of Spirit, to move into changes that are truly moving you towards the center of yourself, helping you to know more, and that more deeply, about yourself. So one may look at this first distortion not simply as an unnamed wind or a random fire but as one’s very own wind and fire. For the whole concept of guidance from the inner planes is wrapped up in that asking which is done by free will. One cannot drag oneself, reluctantly, to embrace transformation. It certainly can happen that way, for the energies of transformation are absolutely unstoppable. Evolution will occur automatically. It is just rather slow compared to the rate of change that is possible when an entity has decided to cooperate and to lean into the process of transformation.

Again and again, it is necessary to come to the center of self with open hands, empty hands, full of unknowing, full of all of the colors that have painted your world within the last little while, whether those colors be bright and cheerful chintzes or deep purples and browns and blacks coming from difficult experiences. All of these gifts may be taken into that place and laid before the infinite One, so that you have empty hands; you have an open heart; and you are on your knees, in terms of being without pride, without arrogance, without the need to be sure or to be right. In that state you may ask that guidance system which is yours, that personification of free will which is yours, “What is the truth? Who am I? Why am I here? Whom shall I serve?”

And each time of asking is its own experience. Perhaps you shall not hear words. Perhaps you shall not have an experience that you can talk about; perhaps you shall. But those things that you ask, when you ask the Spirit, are far too deep for words. They move far beneath personality and that brittle shell of civilization and culture that are as the clothing that you wear in order to relate within this incarnation to those about you. And finally, you stand naked, glorious in the beauty of the self, that self that is a spark of the one infinite Creator. And when you can stand there, or kneel there, content just to be you and to feel that yearning and that asking rise up, then truly have you offered the greatest gift to the Creator that you possibly could. For that Creator truly wishes to know you. And It can only know you as you know yourself. What It knows about you is that which It has already experienced. What It does not know about you is that which you have not experienced, that which you have not run into. It is as though within that so-seductive appearance of personality, and face, and body there lies an undiscovered country of enormous size, with mountains, and plains, and rivers, and deep underground caverns, all of which are yours to explore. And that which is free will is your guide.

Then Q’uo said that it is possible to become aware of this communication with our subconscious, and that is why it is helpful for spiritually motivated people to gather in groups such as this one, to share the awareness that moves too deeply for words in the being of each and yet will not be denied because there is strength in a group of entities, all of whom have agreed to assume the possible reality of there being  higher views and truths concerning ourself than are immediately apparent within an environment that seems full of  trivia and folly, and Q’uo was pleased to see groups such as this one because such groups are a help to each other within the group, but the energy created by a group such as this one is like that lighthouse which stands upon the top of a hill blessing all with its guidance. Q’uo continued by saying that the first point is that free will is the first distortion because it is the first distortion which made all the other distortions possible, which made creation possible, which made each of us possible, and they said that there is a second thread of thought concerning this first distortion of free will which Carla worshipped in the Christian manner and within this particular system there is: “a three-fold designation to Deity—the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit. One may gaze at the Father as the one great original Thought. One may gaze at the Son as that Thought made into something, that Thought made into light. One may gaze at the Holy Spirit as the personification of free will.” Q’uo said that these are not logical connections, and they would not ask us to literally attempt to understand that which they were saying which was to show a connection between the Christian way of thinking about the mystery of Deity and the similar interpretation within the Law of One concerning that same mystery so that when those within the Christian system, writing early in church history, were attempting to describe the Spirit that Jesus was talking about there were comparisons to fire and to wind, those things which are not controlled, those things which “bloweth as it listeth,:” “the wind of Spirit, the flame or fire of Spirit, coming down into the crown chakra and down into the system of those who pray to that Spirit. They are asking for the wind to blow them, for the fire to burn them. They are asking for transformation; they are asking for change; they are asking to be changed; and they are asking the agent of that change to visit them.” Q’uo went on to say that free will is that which we must ask for, but it is important to move into a space within the ourself where we are able to lay all aside except our desire to know the truth, and in that place of humility and unknowing we can make the request for that enlivening Spirit that is free will which is ours if we ask for it, but if we do not ask for it that muscle atrophies, and it becomes more difficult to move with the winds of Spirit and to move into changes that are moving us towards the center of ourself and help us know more about ourself, so we may look at this first distortion as our very own wind and fire because the whole concept of guidance from the inner planes is wrapped up in that asking which is done by free will, and we cannot drag ourself to embrace transformation although it can happen that way, for the energies of transformation are absolutely unstoppable, and evolution will occur automatically, but it is slow compared to the rate of change that is possible when we have decided to cooperate and to lean into the process of transformation. Now Q’uo said that it is necessary to come to the center of ourself with empty hands,  full of unknowing, and full of all of the colors that have painted our world within the last little while, and all of these gifts may be taken into that place and laid before the infinite One, so that we have empty hands, an open heart, and we are on our knees, without pride and without the need to be right, and in that state we may ask that guidance system which is ours, that quality of free will which is ours: “What is the truth? Who am I? Why am I here? Whom shall I serve?” Q’uo completed their reply by saying that each time of asking is its own experience where we shall not hear words; perhaps we shall not have an experience that we can talk about; perhaps we shall, but those things that we ask of the Spirit are far too deep for words because they move far beneath our personality shell of the culture that are the clothing that we wear in order to relate within this incarnation to those about us, and finally we stand naked in the beauty of ourself that is a spark of the one infinite Creator, and when we can kneel there content just to be ourself and to feel that asking to rise up, then truly have we offered the greatest gift to the Creator that we possibly could, for the Creator truly wishes to know us, and It can only know us as we know ourself so that which It knows about us is that which It has already experienced, but what It does not know about us is that which we have not experienced, and it is as though within that seductive appearance of our personality, face, and body lies: “an undiscovered country of enormous size, with mountains, and plains, and rivers, and deep underground caverns, all of which are yours to explore. And that which is free will is your guide.” On May 13, 1984, Latwii spoke of the nature of our free will:

These are general guidelines, my friend, and if it be realized that the free will of each entity during the incarnation is equal to the programming before the incarnation, then it may be discovered that there is what one might call a dynamic tension or balance that exists between that which has been determined before the incarnation and the free will that is exercised during the incarnation.

The free will, of course, also is covered by the programming, yet the programming may also be altered by the free will. Thus, an entity at any time within the incarnation may be moved by two seemingly separate forces, the programming and the free will. The actions of the entity will be the product of the, shall we say, mating of the free will and pre-incarnative programming. To attempt to discover how much a part each plays in forming the actions, the thoughts, and the disposition of the entity is difficult, for both forces, shall we say, are plaited up together as one might see a rope to be, yet each plays its part.

An entity may at any time use certain ritualized techniques to express both the programming and the free will. The techniques may include that which you have described as the prayer or may include what have been called positive affirmations, and may include, for those who are seekers of the rituals to a finer degree, that called the ritualized magical performance, shall we say. In each instance the seeker is calling upon the one Creator in some form to aid the service or the lesson. As this call is made, those preincarnatedly programmed abilities and propensities lend their portion as do the incarnational free will choices. Thus, the product of the ritual is that which includes both forces. The free will may, shall we say, finely tune the general parameters of the preincarnatedly programmed path or attitude.

We believe that this is sufficient for this asking and consequently we would open the meeting at this time to further questions, if there be any. Is there a query at this time?

J: Yes Q’uo, I have a query. Two weeks ago I asked you a question about DNA set ups and you told me that my designation was third and fourth-density set ups but not quite turned on. So, I am asking your opinion about what I can do to turn that fourth-density connection on?

We are those of Q’uo, and we understand your query, my sister. The DNA of which you speak is affected by thought. Consequently, if, by the disciplining of the personality, an entity is able to begin to tune the heart to living in an open, loving, and vulnerable state, such as that state fourth-density entities experience, the perceptions that come into the mind and that tell the body what is occurring are those perceptions which will automatically hook up that which is not hooked up within the DNA strands. The stimulus for the body is the mind, so in working with the mind to move from what this instrument would call mental thinking into heart oriented thinking, it is the movement from third-density to fourth-density thinking. As the heart is allowed to think and to be strong in moving into a major part of the process of perception, the body will follow, being a creature of the mind.

May we answer you further, my sister?

J: No, that’s good.

Q’uo: We thank you, my sister. Is there another query at this time?

T: I have a query, Q’uo. I realize that the channeled meditation is mainly a metaphysical event, [and] my being at a physical distance  is probably not too important, but I was wondering whether there are any precautions or special preparations that would be useful for me to undertake so that I would not hinder the contact or cause any other difficulties?

We are those of Q’uo, and we grasp your query, my brother. We do not find that there is any concern necessary upon your part. Indeed, as you surmised, the physical location does not matter. We did find at one point in our discussion, when we were talking about the beauty of the lengthening shadows, that we became confused because we were also seeing the beauty of the morning, and we had to smile at our own version of being out-of-towners and not quite used to the experience of working with entities who are not in the same physical location. However, this was in no way a hindrance but rather for us something to chuckle at and enjoy. We are always learning from those within third density and once again we discover humor within your technology.

However, in terms of doing anything to better prepare for a contact with this group and with us, the process which this group goes through, of speaking around the circle, seems to be a very powerful and simple means of melding or combining the group so that it is indeed beating as with one heart and asking as with one soul. Consequently, we are pleased that you chose to join in the discussion beforehand and we feel that certainly, other than that, you bring to the group a great deal of light and we are most pleased that you are with us.

May we answer you further, my brother?

T: No, thank you Q’uo, that was very helpful, thank you very much.

Q’uo: We thank you, my brother.

G: Q’uo, I’ve discovered, with the aid of a reading I had through D, a pattern where I am bodily present, but a portion of my consciousness will evacuate in a moment in any conversation, and I was wondering if you might have anything to offer me concerning how that pattern developed within me? Are there any techniques or exercises that I can utilize to stay present and to inhabit my body more fully?

We are those of Q’uo, and are aware of your query, my brother. In terms of the genesis of this particular mental distortion, it is, as in many cases, the far reaches of early childhood which must be moved into in order to see where the pattern has begun. It is quite understandable that when there is disharmony that is present at a level which is painful to experience, the choice of a sensitive entity, in order to protect the self, is to remove the self mentally from the circumstances, since it cannot do so physically. Certainly, the processes of schooling and religious education create further times when it is desirable to put psychic distance between the self and situations which do not please the self for one reason or another. And this also has had its effect upon your personality shell.

The pain which is being avoided is not a physical pain and yet, because of the sensitivity of the particular physical body that you have and its way of being connected to the mind, there is a habit that has been formed which is as the nervousness or tension that another might feel, say, at attempting to move through a door and being unable to get it open. It is a feeling of being closed in or frustrated and yet physically there is nowhere to go to get away from that feeling. Consequently, the trip must be taken mentally. And this habit has become somewhat regularized within your personality shell.

Now in terms of how to work with it, we would suggest that you be creative and start with the premise that you are operating with faulty software and that you need it re-written to some extent. How can one work with one’s mental settings to change the default? That is the question! And we leave it to you, for this is your work to do. You have tools at your disposal. You have the dream work. You have meditation itself. You have prayer. You have many opportunities to connect with guidance, to connect with the guidance that is found in nature and so forth. All of these are at your disposal. We would also suggest the light touch, the gentle nudge, rather than a ruthless or full-scale-house-cleaning-type attempt to change the self. This is not the desirable way of dealing with the self. Rather, see the self as lovingly and as compassionately as a father would see his son or as a mother would see her baby. Ask the self, “What do you need?” And then see what you can do to…

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…satisfy those needs. If there is the need for solitude, cooperate with that need and enter into solitude passionately. If there are suggested to you other things that you may do or things that you may cease doing, follow your instincts, follow your heart, follow that guidance which comes to you.

May we answer you further, my brother?

G: No, that was excellent. Thank you for the most thorough answer, Q’uo.

Q’uo: We thank you, my brother. Your kind words make us blush. Is there a final query at this time?

S: I have a question. I guess you’ve heard the story I told earlier. I’ve been looking for other thoughts, other opinions, other ideas about what is going on with me and my life. I would very much like to get your thoughts and ideas, what you see from your perspective.

We are those of Q’uo, and are aware of your query, my brother. From our perspective, my brother, we see beauty. We see strength and courage. We see deep humility. We see gentleness and yet at the same time we see strength. We would ask that you may see these things about yourself as well. See that beauty which is yours. Let that beauty light you and light your way. See the sweetness and the kindness and the gentleness that has been your gift throughout your incarnation. And let yourself feel that kindness, that gentleness, that sweetness. You need that for yourself at this time.

Picture yourself holding yourself as if you were a baby. Rock that baby, and rock that baby, and rock that baby again. And rock that baby all night if that baby is upset, because sometimes only human touch, only the human love of a parent can get a child through a cranky night. Perhaps we could say that we see you cutting new teeth, as children will do. It is a very painful process. One cannot move with one’s normal comfort. One does not understand why it must hurt so badly because one is, after all, just a baby. We would say that this is the equivalent of that which has occurred within you. It is a natural process. It is a process that promises good growth and new “teeth.” However it is a process that is most difficult to move through.

So, we would ask that you nurture yourself. Realize, whenever you can, that there is a tremendous amount of love around you, not simply from friends such as these within this circle or from family but from a very extended family of those who are with you as guidance and simply those who are with you because they have been attracted to your goodness and to your seeking. This support system is strong to save and quick to respond, and we encourage you to use it. We, ourselves, are available at any time to give you a deeper meditation or a stronger feeling of presence. Lean into the help that is there and above all, believe in yourself, believe in this process, and know that each dark night ends with a beautiful sunrise.

May we answer you further, my brother?

S: I appreciate your kind words. I’ve even got some that you had spoken two years ago that I keep with me and read. I do appreciate the support and the kindness. From my perspective it’s so hard to see, but thank you for now.

Q’uo: We thank you, my brother.

It is with profound gratitude that we say our goodbyes to this group. Thank you for the pleasure of your company. Thank you for sharing with us your hopes and your questions and allowing us to share with you as well. We leave each of you in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. Adonai. Adonai.

This morning I went to the front yard of my neighbor across the street and spread birdseed under the birdfeeders so that the deer and the squirrels could also have birdseed to eat because the bird feeders are squirrel and deer proof.

This afternoon I had a zoom meet with my two friends of over 50 years where we caught up on what has been going on in our lives since our last meeting. Then we read from the Ra Contact in Session #42 and from Living Buddha Living Christ by Thich Nhat Hanh. We had a great time together as always.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

February 18

The Hardy And Careless Lover

I am of the principle of Jesus the Christ, and I greet you in the full consciousness of divine Love.

What protection have you from the events and circumstances of this day? Do you indeed need protection? Must umbrellas keep you from the rain of internal weather? Must you indeed armor yourself so that you never shiver, so that you are never cold or miserable? Are these estates indeed to be so avoided?

Perhaps it is better to see oneself as a hardy and careless lover of all conditions of life and take no thought for the umbrella, the warm coat, and all the armor of emotion.

It is often said, “Fear not, for I am with you.” We are of the principle of Jesus the Christ. And when this entity said, “Fear not,” He did not suggest that you would not be rained upon or shiver from the cold but only that you would not be alone or overwhelmed by experience.

Stride forth, then, into the world, recognizing its difficulties and affirming them in peace.

We leave you in that peace which does indeed pass all understanding, now and forever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from October 19, 2003:

The question today has to do with fear and love. We are assuming that fear and love are on a spectrum of… there’s a connection between them and we would like Q’uo to give us some information about how we can deal with fear, any kind of fear. Fear of doing something we haven’t done, the fear of doing something that seems difficult. V mentioned that focusing on the love aspect tended to make the fear dissipate. Is that correct? Is there anything else we can do to deal with the fear when we feel that it’s taking too much influence in our lives?

(Carla channeling)

We are those known to you as the principle of Q’uo, and we greet you in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator, in Whose service we come. We wish to thank each of you for creating this time and space to seek the truth. We are humbled before your energy, your beauty, and the focus of your desire. We are most grateful that you have called us to your circle of seeking. Please know we are happy to share our opinion with you, with the request that at all times you listen with great discrimination, accepting those truths that sound good to you for further consideration and banishing all those that do not sound good to you from your mind. This will allow us to speak freely, knowing that you do not see us as authorities, but rather as those having a certain kind of conversation: a conversation about ideas and about those concepts that move too deep to be expressed directly in words, those concepts of which the one known as D was speaking earlier, the various archetypes, whether they be four or twelve or twenty-two, that in some way or another give one another structure or ways to think about the Creator and one’s relationship to the Creator.

There are two questions posed within the energy of this instrument’s mind, although we have only the one on the tape recording which was done prior to our speaking, and we find it interesting that although these two subjects seem to be so far apart in nature, they benefit from being looked at together. The two subjects, being that of fear versus love and what the nature of various kinds of nature spirits is, would seem on the face of it to have little or nothing in common. And yet, indeed there is a great essence which they share.

The great jihad of the struggle of love and fear is that rock upon which many have shipwrecked their lives, their spiritual ambitions, and their hopes of progressing according to some self-made, or authority-driven plan. Energy gets stuck. Energy that has been bruised and stricken defends itself. Everything that can be imagined has energy if it is imagined. This is not to say that when we are speaking of nature spirits we are speaking of imaginary beings, for we are not. Rather, they are imaginary in the same way that you are imaginary. You are illusory in a certain order, or grade, of illusion. You vibrate in a certain series of energy fields or spheres, which have their own order and their own purpose. And they communicate with each other throughout that grade or gamut of energy vibration. Consequently, all physical bodies are communicating.

The same is true of the first-density entities and the second-density entities among your peoples. These too, birds, animals, trees, and plants of each kind, have their own nature, their own essence, their own energy. And insofar as they are given life, there exists within them a corresponding spirit to your spirit. Is the spirit of a flower, or a tree, or a stone or the wind, the same thing as your spirit? Not at all. In the case of the elementals of first-density, there is a tremendous amount of infinite wisdom in such strong and powerful purity that there is an essence that is indescribable to entities as transparent and ephemeral as living flesh. That energy of fire, the energy of wind, the energy of earth, the energy of water, is that of the everlasting element, not simply in its physical characteristics but in the corresponding spirit of those characteristics. You have only to sit at the edge of a great body of water to begin to know or become acquainted with the essence of water. You have only to stand in the high wind or to bow beneath it and, indeed, crawl on hand and knee to shelter against such a wind to understand the kind of energy that the wind offers. And the same can be seen of the energies of fire, and of earth.

This group has spent a couple of days exploring caves recently and has a special reason to become more and more aware of the power of the everlasting rock-ness. Many are the spirits that can be seen from these elements. They are seen by an eye that is not physical because their energy is that of the metaphysical energy that occupies time/space. Consequently, it has no body in space/time but only the impression, or the shadow, of the truth of such an entity. It is as though you were attempting to prove that you had ideas, ideals, hopes and dreams. Can you show them to someone? No. Do you still have them? Oh yes. In just this way, the mountain, the ocean, or the wind has the expression, the thoughts, the hopes, the ideals, the process of its nature, and because it has no hampering of self-awareness, it never moves from love. It remains blissful in its ignorance of any other choice and simply expresses its essence in a dynamic combination with those energy fields of time/space and of space/time that it may meet. Consequently, as you walk in nature or down the urban sidewalk, you are coming in contact with the sprites of the air, and the undines of water and the salamanders of fire and the gnomes of earth, all unknowing because you cannot see them with the eyes of daylight. There are always special people who can see into inner planes, for weal or for woe.

Now let us say here that in discussing the inner planes, we discuss a universe vaster than the physical universe and greatly populated with a very wide gamut of personalities. The most tremendous wisdom, compassion, and mastery lives within the inner planes. We ourselves dwell in, shall we say, a parking garage in fifth density, as it were, as we are involving ourselves with your vibrations at this time. We are part of that network of inner planes that includes all of the spirits that seek to serve. Those within first and second density, those within fourth, fifth and sixth density; all seek to serve by their very nature. It is impossible for them not to be prompted to share energy and therefore to serve.

The group question today was: “V mentioned that focusing on the love aspect tended to make the fear dissipate. Is that correct? Is there anything else we can do to deal with the fear when we feel that it’s taking too much influence in our lives?” Q’uo began their reply by saying that the great battle between love and fear is that rock upon which many of us have shipwrecked our spiritual ambitions and hopes of progressing according to our plan or one made by others because our energy gets stuck, and it defends itself so that everything that we can imagine has energy if we imagine it, and this energy is that of nature spirits which are not imaginary beings any more than we are imaginary, for we also are illusory in that we vibrate in a certain series of energy fields which have their own purpose, and the nature spirits communicate with each other throughout that grade of energy vibration, so all physical bodies are communicating. Q’uo went on to say that the same is true of the first-density entities and the second-density entities among our people because birds, animals, trees, and plants have their own energy, and as they are given life, there exists within them a corresponding spirit to our spirit although it is not the same as our spirit so that in the case of the elementals of first-density there is infinite wisdom in such purity that there is an essence that is indescribable to us as transparent living flesh, and  that energy of fire, wind, earth, and water is that of the elements, not simply in their physical characteristics but in the corresponding spirit of those characteristics so that we only have to sit at the edge of a great body of water to begin to know about the essence of water, and we only have to stand in the high wind to shelter against such a wind to understand the kind of energy that the wind offers, and the same can be seen of the energies of fire, and of earth. Q’uo continued by saying that our group has spent a couple of days exploring caves recently and has a special reason to become more and more aware of the power of the everlasting rock-ness that contains many spirits that we can see within these elements so that they are seen by our eye that is not physical because their energy is metaphysical energy that exists in time/space, so it has no body in space/time but only the impression of the truth of such an entity, and it is as though we were attempting to prove that we had  hopes and dreams that cannot be seen so that in this same way the mountain, the ocean, or the wind has the expression of their thoughts, hopes, and the process of their nature, and because they have no limiting of self-awareness, they never move from love. Then Q’uo said that they remain blissful in their ignorance of any other choice and simply express their essence in combination with those energy fields of time/space and of space/time that they may meet, so as we walk in nature or down the urban sidewalk, we are coming in contact with the sprites of the air, the undines of water, the salamanders of fire, and the gnomes of earth which we cannot see with our physical eyes, but there are those with special abilities who can see into the inner planes for good or for bad. Then Q’uo said that in discussing the inner planes they are discussing a universe larger than the physical universe which contains a wide variety of personalities, wisdom, compassion, and mastery which lives within the inner planes so that Q’uo dwells in a parking garage in fifth density they are involving themselves with our group’s vibrations at this time, and they are part of that network of inner planes that includes all of the spirits that seek to serve: “Those within first and second density, those within fourth, fifth and sixth density; all seek to serve by their very nature. It is impossible for them not to be prompted to share energy and therefore to serve.” On December 16, 1979, Hatonn described the nature of the inner planes:

The inner plane theory of your people is very old. It is as old as the pyramids, and it was a gift to your people by the Confederation from many, many thousands of years ago. The pyramids themselves were used in penetrating into the inner planes of existence. A very simple analogy which this instrument has frequently used is that of the television set. You have at this moment, within your domicile, a television set although it is potentially able to show you a world it is not doing so now because it has not been activated. This instrument or anyone in the room might activate it, and they might choose a channel of existence of which they enjoy the view. They will see one world on one channel, another world on the next, and so on, each channel seemingly coming from the same television set, but each world becoming completely different and completely oblivious to all the other worlds.

So, it is with the inner planes. You and all of those things in your world are energy fields, and you have energies, and certain vibrations we call those vibrations that belong to the third octave of existence. There are also other octaves of existence within your octave of existence. There are seven levels, and some of these levels are not visible, just as one channel would not be visible to another. The skill and art of penetrating into the inner planes is a hidden art. It is hidden for a reason. Each of you is here to learn the lessons of love, and as you penetrate into the inner planes, the lessons of love become very obvious, and thus your existence here becomes quite changed.

Thus, except for those occasional virtuosos, shall we say, who penetrate into the inner planes without conscious effort, for the most part they are closed to people upon your plane of existence. The method for achieving entrance into higher or, shall we say, denser, more Light, more beautiful realms of existence is a mixture of certain disciplines of the person’s visualization, applied study, meditation, and a constant will to know the truth in order to serve others. If you have this desire, you will find people who will help you in your search. For us to give you this information is not necessary for the instrument has within her library volumes which deal with this subject which are available for you to read.

Those elementals of second density are far more complex and far less solid in their nature, as would be expected from beings which are, like yourselves, those who live and die fairly quickly. However, the subtlety of second density, with its movement to the light and its relationships within the tribe or pack, create a far more exotic and far more whimsical panoply of figures and of stories in which those figures have found each other and have joined worlds. And so, creation becomes added to creation becomes added to creation, and, in the inner planes, there are many exotic kingdoms which have been created so that the essences of all of these energies, in the relationships with various humans and their cultures, can play. There is a tremendous joy and a feeling of play about the free essences of plants, animals, wind, storm, ocean, and so forth. When an entity becomes self-aware in third density, she becomes cut off from the joy, the play, and the ever-continuing presence of all of the other members of the inner plane.

Each of the sub-planes of those inner planes has its own environment. Those who are able to sift through the planes have that experience, that feeling, of almost going through different grades of water as they move through the sub-planes to that precise vibration of energies that is equivalent to their most comfortable place within the inner planes. Entities who are able to do this come into a land of milk and honey to which they may go in their meditations. Each of you has one, and each of you has, in that vibration, helpers, those whose delight it is to find a way to make that experience which you—that individual soul, that very unique soul—will have to be joyful, playful, and as the one known as J was saying earlier, a product completely of the spontaneity of the now. The energies that lie all about third-density humans as they earnestly struggle with their catalyst are energies that encourage the deepest response to the feeling which lies in the environment about the self.

Coming to a moment is coming to a banquet. How shall you enjoy the rich array of incoming experience? Shall it be a thing of love and joy and laughter, or shall it be a thing of fear and defending? Each of you is painfully aware that you are not a flower; you are not the wind; you have not been a tree for years and years. And as a person you have been cast forth into an illusion which is bound to hurt, and disturb, and upset any shred of routine and surety that you may have, for all things pass and the experience of the third-density entity within the illusion is that infinitely renewable feeling of being behind the power curve, unaware of those things which it would have been good to know in order to plan for this change that seems somehow to be taking place. The one known as John wrote in a song, “Life is what happens to you while you’re making other plans.” This is the cartoon-like nature of the catalyst that is available within your third-density world. It is always aimed at moving you from a balanced and comfortable place into a place where there is a risk to take, a challenge to meet, a cliff to walk off of, so that you may have the experience of choice. That is the one thing that is your glory and your challenge. You have the responsibility that is God-like: of choosing how you shall go on, how you shall think, how you shall meet the day, how you shall treat yourself if you’re not happy with how you met the day, and how you shall treat those other-selves that are a part of you. Shall you see them as other? Or shall you see them as the self?

There is a great journey to be taken in that regard, for third density begins as the great ape that you are is barely beginning to move into the traditional, cultural societies, forming tribes, forming instinctively those tribes that describe self and other as the tribe and not the tribe. That great sadness that we see within your political and societal planning these days is that seeming return to late second-density where there is tribe versus tribe with no hope of communication and parity becoming possible between them. Consequently, each entity moving through the various sub-levels of third-density is attempting, more and more, to move from the uneducated idea of self, as only self and other-self that looks just like you because it is the same tribe, to self being the same as other-self, because self and other-self are both ensouled parts of the same Creator.

The education between those two points is vast, immense, and unimaginable. Each of you has spent lifetime upon lifetime attempting, with a pure heart and a good will, to penetrate the mystery of oneness. In a world where nothing looks like it is one with you, how can you catch on to what is not being seen? How can you hear what is not being said, what cannot be said, for there are no words? The secret is energy, that energy about which the one known as J will speak, sharing her passion for the beautiful simplicity of the healing touch, and not even the healing touch, but the energy of the healing heart. Indeed, it is that environment that is beyond words that moves into that walk of faith that exists only in midair. For in that particular discipline, as in so many disciplines that go under the modality of the laying on of hands, the true healing is not in a touch, but rather, in the love that that energy of the touch carries, because of the work that that particular instrument has done as a messenger of healing.

Then Quo said that the nature of elementals of second density is more complex and less solid as would be expected of beings who live and die fairly quickly, but the subtlety of second density, with its movement to the light and its relationships within the pack, creates a far more exotic collection stories in which those figures have found each other and have joined worlds so that creation becomes added to creation, and in the inner planes, there are many kingdoms which have been created so that the essences of all of these energies, in the relationships with various humans and their cultures, can play, and there is a joy and a feeling of play about the essences of plants, animals, wind, and storm, so when an entity becomes self-aware in third density, she is cut off from the joy, the play, and the presence of all of the other members of the inner plane. Q’uo continued by saying that the sub-planes of the inner planes have their own environment, so if we can sift through the planes we will have that feeling of going through different grades of water as we move through the sub-planes to those energies that are equivalent to our most comfortable place within the inner planes, and then we come into a land of milk and honey where we may go in our meditations, so each us has one, and each of us has helpers whose delight it is to find a way to make that experience which we will be joyful and a product of the spontaneity of the now, and the energies that lie all about us as we struggle with our catalyst are energies that encourage the deepest response to the feeling which lies in the environment about ourself. Q’uo went on to say that coming to a moment is like coming to a banquet, and we wonder how we shall enjoy the rich incoming experience, whether it is full of love and joy, or shall it be a thing of fear and defending? Q’uo said that each of us is aware that we are not a flower, or the wind, and we have not been a tree for many years, and as a person we have been born into an illusion which is bound to disturb any kind routine and surety that we may have, for all things pass, and our experience within the illusion is that continuing feeling of being behind the power curve and unaware of those things which it would have been good to know in order to plan for this catalyst of change that is available within our third-density world and is always aimed at moving us from a comfortable place into a place where there is a challenge to meet, so that we may have the experience of choice that is our glory and our challenge so that we have the responsibility that is God-like: “of choosing how you shall go on, how you shall think, how you shall meet the day, how you shall treat yourself if you’re not happy with how you met the day, and how you shall treat those other-selves that are a part of you. Shall you see them as other? Or shall you see them as the self?” Then Q’uo said that there is a great journey to be taken in determining how we shall see others because third density begins as our great ape nature is just beginning to move into the cultural societies and instinctively forming tribes that describe us as part of our tribe and others as not part of our tribe, and Q’uo said that they saw great sadness within our political and social planning that seemed to be returning to the late second-density where it is tribe against tribe with no hope of communication and equality  becoming possible between them so that each of us that is moving through the sub-levels of third-density is attempting to: “move from the uneducated idea of self, as only self and other-self that looks just like you because it is the same tribe, to self being the same as other-self, because self and other-self are both ensouled parts of the same Creator.” Now Q’uo said that the education between those two points is vast and unimaginable, and each of us has spent lifetimes attempting, with a pure heart and a good will, to penetrate the mystery of oneness so that in a world where nothing looks like it is one with us: “How can you catch on to what is not being seen? How can you hear what is not being said, what cannot be said, for there are no words?” Then Q’uo said the secret is energy, that energy of the healing touch, the energy of the healing heart, and it is that environment that is beyond words that moves into that walk of faith that exists only in midair because in that particular discipline the true healing is in the love that that energy of the touch carries, because of the work that the healer has done as a messenger of healing. In 17.18, Ra described the nature of true healing:

Those who heal may be of any density which has the consciousness of the spirit. This includes third, fourth, fifth, sixth, and seventh. The third density can be one in which healing takes place just as the others. However, there is more illusory material to understand, to balance, to accept, and to move forward from.

The gate to intelligent infinity can only be opened when an understanding of the instreamings of intelligent energy are opened unto the healer. These are the so-called Natural Laws of your local space/time continuum and its web of electromagnetic sources, or nexi, of instreaming energy.

Know then, first, the mind and the body. Then as the spirit is integrated and synthesized, those are harmonized into a mind/body/spirit complex which can move among the dimensions and which can open the gateway to intelligent infinity, thus healing self by light and sharing that light with others.

True healing is simply the radiance of the self causing an environment in which a catalyst may occur which initiates the recognition of self, by self, of the self-healing properties of the self.

The energy of other-selves can be a palpable thing and interestingly enough, you can affect the energy of others. How can you do this? You may do it mechanically by thinking to yourself, upon looking at someone else, “This too is me. This is my brother, and I love him,” or alternately, “Thou art God.” Or alternately, as this instrument often says, “You are my mirror.” You too are a mirror. What you forget, because you are sitting within your own space, is that you are radiating. Each within this circle is very powerful, has done a good deal of work, no matter what the biological age of those in the circle. Each of you has a metaphysical essence that is powerful. As you allow that feeling of your own self to open up, as you simply allow yourself to be yourself, to flower, to look out of yourself at the beauty of all of those around you, as you listen to each energy and “feel into” the energy of those who are speaking in desultory tones about the room, you can begin to make those heart connections with each mirror, with each part of yourself, thanking each part of yourself, knowing that if you were to pursue that particular person, that particular relationship, that would be a very valuable mirror that you could not get from anyone else. Each person then becomes a treasure trove of undiscovered things, undiscovered simply because you have not spent the time to open up to that person and to share what the energy has to offer each of you in that dynamic between you.

When you can, for the first time, move from an intellectual appreciation of the oneness in all to a feeling within your own heart that as you are looking at the Creator as the Creator, there is a magical occurrence that reduces fear. That magical occurrence is love, a feeling of love that springs forth like a fire. In the glow of that fire there is communication from essence to essence, and the hearts of those that you are speaking to know that you love them. And there is that within their being that again opens, and then they love you back. And the supportive energy of that relationship, once begun by the open heart, is irresistible. Trust the energy that is yourself. We do not say, “Put aside all fear.” We would not do that to entities that might feel undefended, and naked, and vulnerable beyond their ability to enjoy creation and existence. We are aware that for some it is powerful even to take part of the armor away, to lighten it, to shorten it, to leave it off for small periods of time. Have the feeling when working with fear of “a little is a lot,” because it is so difficult to judge the self, and it is so seldom accurate when attempted that we would suggest, rather, focusing simply upon the process, upon giving it a good try and upon being extraordinarily good to yourself no matter what the perceived outcome.

What you are attempting to do as you filter the experiences of your life through the processes of the disciplining of the personality is to become easier and easier with yourself, and easier on yourself, while at the same time, remaining honest concerning your process; that is to say, it is well to be ruthlessly honest with yourself and with the Creator, in your continuing conversation with the Creator, but it is not a good idea, no matter what your basic feelings of irritation may be at the self, to berate the self, or to lose respect for the self, or to act in such a way that there is the expression to the self of dissatisfaction, of feeling that the self is unworthy. These things are all too easy to promulgate within the inner life. They are those stumbling blocks that trip up your feet and keep you from moving forward. They have been put there by voices not your own, but in many cases, you have accepted them, internalized them, and made them live far past their time of truth, if there ever was a time of truth for some of those deeply painful childhood insults. See the pain and the suffering that has been endured by you, that has caused fear to become a habit returned to again and again. See with eyes of love and compassion.

This instrument carries a doll frequently when it is at home. It talks to the doll, and it asks the doll to tell her its dreams. It is in this way that this particular entity seeks to undo damage done to her as a child by those who did not make her feel wanted, needed or listened to. There are ways to work on these difficulties that can be perceived as perhaps being the foundation for those fears that now trouble the seemingly grown and adult life. It is most helpful to open heart and mind together to the processes of seeing where these threads of fear take you. They are the breadcrumbs along the trail that will lead you to a deeper appreciation of self and a deeper ability to interpolate and amalgamate the self of all of those perhaps slightly separated parts of self that have moved away from other parts of self because of wounding, because of difficulty in holding the energy of self completely together.

Now Q’uo said the energy of others can be a real thing, and we can affect the energy of others by mechanically thinking to ourself when we look at someone else: “This too is me. This is my brother, and I love him,” or alternately, “Thou art God.” Or alternately, as this instrument often says, “You are my mirror.” because we are also a mirror, but  what we forget, since we are sitting within our own space, that each within this circle is powerful and has done a good deal of work, no matter what their biological age, and each of us has a powerful metaphysical essence so as we allow that feeling of ourself to open up and be ourself, and as we listen to each energy and “feel into” the energy of those who are speaking in superficial tones about the room, we can begin to make those heart connections with each mirror as a part of ourself; and thanking each part of ourself; and knowing that if we were to pursue that relationship it would be a valuable mirror that we could not get from anyone else; so that each person becomes a valuable supply of undiscovered things because we have not spent the time to open up to that person and to share what the energy has to offer each of us in that dynamic between us. Q’uo continued by saying that when we can move to a feeling within our own heart that as we are looking at the Creator, as the Creator, there is a magical occurrence that reduces fear, and that magical occurrence is a feeling of love that springs forth like a fire, and in the glow of that fire there is communication from essence to essence, and the hearts of those that we are speaking to know that we love them, so there is that within their being that opens, and they love us back so that the supportive energy of that relationship, once begun by our open heart, is irresistible so we should trust the energy that is ourself. Q’uo did not say, “Put aside all fear.” because they would not do that to entities that might feel undefended and beyond their ability to enjoy their existence because Q’uo was aware that for some it is powerful to take part of the armor away, to lighten it, and to leave it off for small periods of time since when we are working with fear that “a little is a lot” because it is so difficult to judge ourself, and it is seldom accurate when we attempt it that Q’uo suggested that we simply focus upon giving the process a good try and being good to ourself no matter what the perceived outcome. So Q’uo said what we are attempting to do as we process the catalyst of our life through using the disciplining of the personality is to be ruthlessly honest with ourself and with the Creator, but it is not a good idea to berate the ourself, or to have the feeling that we are unworthy since these things are those stumbling blocks that trip up our feet and keep us from moving forward, and they have been put there by voices of others, but we have accepted them and have given them life far past their time of truth for some of those deeply painful childhood insults, so we should see with our eyes of love that which has caused fear to become a habit returned to again and again. Q’uo said that Carla carries a doll frequently when she is at home, and she talks to the doll and asks it to tell her its dreams, and this is the way that she seeks to undo damage done to her as a child by those who did not make her feel wanted or listened to so that there are ways to work on these difficulties that can be perceived as being the foundation for those fears that trouble the adult, and it is helpful to open the heart and mind together to see where these threads of fear take us because they will lead us to a deeper appreciation of ourself and a deeper ability to merge ourself with all of those separated parts of ourself that have moved away from other parts of ourself because of wounding and because of difficulty in holding the energy of ourself completely together. On November 13, 2003, Q’uo spoke about where the threads of fear come from:

In the matter of physical ailments, the body is always the creature of the mind. Certainly, this instrument has done a good deal of work, moving back into the early days of her incarnation and discovering those threads of fear and crassness and roughness that, even before this entity was born, created for her a disgust of the ways of thinking that exist within consensus reality, or the outside world as you know it. Let us say simply that it is well to become aware of the self as an entity which has come into an environment with which it is not particularly familiar and in which it is not comfortable. The choice to come into this arena of catalyst and choice was a heartfelt one and it came from a desire to serve; and so you and this instrument and many others have come through the densities, knocking at the door of third-density incarnation asking to serve, asking to walk among those native to third density on planet Earth at this time in order to do all that you may, in your humble way, to join in the response that you truly felt to the suffering of the planet Earth and of its people.

We would at this time ask if there is a continuing query upon this subject or if there are other questions at this time. We are those of Q’uo.

J: Hi, Q’uo, this is J. I really appreciate what you said, and I just wanted to ask you a quick question. I was told this weekend that I’m an adult indigo, and I was wondering if you could speak to this, and if that’s why I have been so attracted to doing energy work and vibrational medicine. Does it have to do with the fact that I am an adult indigo?

We are those of Q’uo, and are aware of your query, my sister. That phraseology is acceptable as a way of designating a particularly opened-up and lively, shall we say, energy of the merkabah or the—I give this instrument an image of the spirals of the DNA and that there is more light there than is normally carried. We are having difficulty because of the phraseology of “indigo child.” There are those who are wired strictly for third density; there are those who come into incarnation with some of the wiring for fourth density already in place and simply needing to be, shall we say, hooked up, and that is your designation. There are others who are completely activated and some of those designated as indigo children are of the latter type, others being of the middle type.

May we answer you further, my sister?

J: No, that’s all for now, thank you very much.

Q’uo: We thank you, my sister. Is there another query at this time?

T: Yes. I have said several times that the need for polarity in our illusion can be fulfilled by using the memory. In other words, you don’t have to have good and bad or good and evil right directly in your experience every day. You can look at the negative aspect and draw from your memory of negative aspects in your life, in the past. Will that suffice for the polarity that is necessary to stay in this illusion? Could you comment please?

We are those of Q’uo, and are aware of your query, my brother. Indeed, there are those whose discipline is such, and whose imagination has focused, so that this is possible. For, shall we say, the majority of entities, a purely inner vision lacks satisfaction, whereas we would say that, as the one known as V had noted in conversation not too long ago, the function of the video game is so to populate an imaginary battlefield with imaginary enemies that one may bash heads in glorious carelessness of the propriety of doing so in the outer culture, for there is only the image that is being bashed. Nevertheless, when it is done as a spiritual practice it is amazingly efficient. The key is the imagination and the discipline to make the connection between those energies which need disciplining and the seeming abandon of the so-called video game.

May we answer you further, my brother?

T: No, thank you, that’s fine.

We are those of Q’uo, and we thank you, my brother. Is there another query at this time.

G: Q’uo, if it’s not too large for this working I was wondering if you can comment on how one can distinguish between one’s own feelings and those of another? How can one protect against the negative feelings of others, and how one can transmute those feelings taken on from others within the self?

We are those of Q’uo, and are aware of your query, my brother. You are indeed correct that it is a larger query than some, and perhaps we shall make this the last query of this particular session because of that fact. For most entities brought up within your culture, the difficulties of knowing what feelings are one’s own and what feelings are not, is not a problem because there is a characteristic self-involvement that dictates that there will be no confusion between the feelings of self and the feelings that are not of the self. However, when one has begun a process of opening and sensitizing the self to that which is more real, more true, more beautiful, more to be admired, the self does become less aware of the boundary between one’s own universe and the universes of others. This is due to the fact that there is no boundary between the universe of the self and the universe of others except those boundaries that are created by the mind of the person.

If it is assumed, as this instrument often does without realizing it, that all are one, and all are thinking as one, then one sees one universe and one’s feelings naturally move in that one big happy universe where all is known; all is good; and all is loved. This instrument has done a great deal of work in the past few years learning how to make boundaries so that it is able, as a person, to take care of itself and also to have the ability to love others as the self as opposed to thinking that all feelings were her own, and all needed to be addressed equally. It is a very confusing universe to one who has become unable to make those boundaries between self and other-self, and as you have said, my brother, it is especially difficult when those feelings which are being imported into your system from a system of another are perceived as negative. It becomes a most uncomfortable and pertinent question as to how to make the boundaries that create comfort zones within the situation where there is overlap in aura, as there is in virtually every urban setting, and certainly in a household such as you enjoy at this time, where there is a constant presence within the dwelling of people whose auras do indeed overlap.

This is not, per se, a negative or positive thing. It can be either. What is occurring in a situation where there are overlapping auras is that there is the opportunity to exchange energy. The downside of this exchange of energy is when the exchange…

[Side one of tape ends.]

(Carla channeling)

[A portion of the channeling was not recorded.]

The question of how to determine one’s own boundaries can become very subtle. It may be as easy as physically removing the self from an environment, repeatedly, to see what changes may occur when one is in the environment and then out of it. It may be that there is talking to do to the self; that there are voices within the self that need to speak and say, “This is not me,” and, “This is me,” and, “Let me get you to understand this point of view even though it is not me.” One can have some interesting conversations around the campfire of self and in some cases talking out loud to the self, about the self, one may begin to hear the true self and hear what one has picked up as a rider, and hear the difference between what really is the self and what has been simply picked up and started to be carried around on the coattails of the self.

There is also the entire arena of physical cleansing that is helpful in creating boundaries, the smudging of the self with the sacred sage; the ritualistic immersion in meditation of the preferred kind in which that question is put to the self, “Show me myself, show me the shape of myself.” There are many ways to ask and indeed, for each person this is a very personal and very idiosyncratic work. Be open with the self, feel confident in following the intuitions and the hunches of self. Use journaling, use the dream process of writing the dreams down and thinking about them, use the conversation of others, and use all of those mute signs of the energy of the environment about you, the wind and the birds and so forth, all of those messengers that have spirit and wish to share energy with you.

There comes out of all this amalgamation a growing sense of being able to be a discriminator, and that is a very important feeling to gain. So, we greatly encourage those disciplines that put one in touch with one’s own powers of discrimination. It is a beautiful thing to know that all is one; but also that each of you is unique; each of you has your own shape; your own bloom, your own pollen, your own scent. Nobody like you ever was; nobody like you ever will be again. Only you have that breath to breathe, those words to say. We bless each of you as you move into your hopes and your dreams. May you walk with faith; may you walk with joy; and may you know that you are never alone; and as the one known as D so often says, that you are loved more than you can imagine.

D asked: “Q’uo, if it’s not too large for this working I was wondering if you can comment on how one can distinguish between one’s own feelings and those of another? How can one protect against the negative feelings of others, and how one can transmute those feelings taken on from others within the self?” Q’uo began their reply by saying that for most of us who are brought up within our culture that discovering what feelings are ours and what feeling are not ours is not a problem because there is the nature of our self-involvement that dictates that we will not be confused between our feelings and the feelings of someone else, but when we have begun a process of opening ourself to that which is more true and more beautiful we become less aware of the boundary between our own universe and the universes of others, and this is due to the fact that there is no boundary between the universe of ourself and the universe of others except those boundaries that are created by our minds. Q’uo went on to say that if we assume that all are thinking as one, then we see one universe, and our feelings naturally move into that one big universe where all is known; all is good; and all is loved, and Carla had done a great deal of work in the past few years learning how to make boundaries so that she is able to take care of herself and also to have the ability to love others as herself as opposed to thinking that all feelings were her own, and all needed to be addressed equally because it is a very confusing universe for us if we have become unable to make those boundaries between ourself and others, and it is especially difficult when the feelings which we feel are coming into our system from another person’s system that we feel are negative, and the question is how to make the boundaries that create comfort zones as there is an overlap in auras, especially in virtually every urban setting, and certainly in a household where there is a constant presence within the dwelling of people whose auras do indeed overlap with ours. Q’uo continued by saying that this could be a negative or a positive thing so that what is occurring in a situation where there are overlapping auras is that there is the opportunity to exchange energy, and the question of how to determine our boundaries can become very subtle because it may be as easy as physically removing our self from an environment, repeatedly, to see what changes may occur when we are in the environment and then out of it, or it may be that we can talk to ourself; that there are voices within ourself that need to speak and say, “This is not me,” and, “This is me,” and, “Let me get you to understand this point of view even though it is not me.” Or we can have some interesting conversations around the campfire of ourself by talking out loud about ourself, and we may begin to hear our true self and hear what we have picked up as a rider, and hear the difference between what really is ourself and what has been simply picked up and started to be carried around on the coattails of ourself. Then Q’uo said that there is also the physical cleansing the home that is helpful in creating boundaries; the smudging of ourself with the sacred sage; the meditation of the preferred kind in which that question is put to ourself, “Show me myself, show me the shape of myself.” And there are many ways to ask and indeed, for each of us this is a very personal and unique work, so we should be open with ourself and feel confident in following our intuition and use: “journaling, use the dream process of writing the dreams down and thinking about them, use the conversation of others, and use all of those mute signs of the energy of the environment about you, the wind and the birds and so forth, all of those messengers that have spirit and wish to share energy with you.” Q’uo completed their reply by saying that there comes out of all of these thoughts a growing sense of our being able to be a decision maker which is a very important feeling to gain so that Q’uo encouraged those disciplines that put us in touch with our own powers of discrimination because it is a beautiful thing to know that all is one; but also that each of us is unique; and: “Nobody like you ever was; nobody like you ever will be again. Only you have that breath to breathe, those words to say. We bless each of you as you move into your hopes and your dreams. May you walk with faith; may you walk with joy; and may you know that you are never alone; and as the one known as D so often says, that you are loved more than you can imagine.” On May 21, 1995, Q’uo spoke of how we all are loved:

At this time many, many of those not incarnate in physical vehicles flock within the inner planes of your globe. To those who ask for help they flock by the millions to offer their candle power to heighten the inner light of those in need. Yours is third density. Ask for help and help will be given you. Reach out the hand, and it will be full of invisible but real love. You are loved, not because you have achieved but because you exist, a child of the infinite Creator. You are enfolded, snuggled, by invisible nurturing arms. Every cell of your body is perfect. Your truth is that all is perfect. There is no striving necessary, for all is well.

We are motes that dance in the sunlight, but we love you with our whole heart. Ask for help. Serve each other. And the light generated shall be beautiful indeed. As you suffer, as you experience loss and limitation, all is well. Turn often to the perfection, to the integrity, and to the healing health of praise and thanksgiving within the present moment, for all that you see and know and do is done upon holy ground. That is the floor beneath the scenery.

We leave you in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. We are known to you as the principle of Q’uo. Adonai. Adonai vasu.

This morning I ran some errands with my first stop being at Anderson’s Supply to drop off my garden tiller to be repaired as it won’t start. My second stop was at Paul’s Fruit Market where I bought some food for myself. My third stop was at Walgreen’s Drug Store where I bought some trash bags and some Pepsi-Zero.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

February 17

Unexpected Messengers Of Love

I am the Spirit of Love ,and I greet you in the consciousness of Christ.

It is given to us to come down like rain upon the thirsty souls of those who seek to winnow Light from darkness and spread the darkness in the nether regions, exalting Light to shine forth across the great sky of planetary consciousness.

The powerful Light-focusing abilities of the Spirit are not predictable, for the Spirit of Love has within It whisperings of Love’s wisdom which often turn the impulses of those overshadowed by Love in ways which may seem devious. Yet it is Love’s way to employ the seemingly crooked path from time to time in order that Love may break through in an entirely new place and in a completely new way. The serpent in Eden was a messenger of Love.

We leave you in peace, both now and ever. Amen

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

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I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from October 5, 2003:

We are going to take potluck this evening and hope that Q’uo will speak to the group energy. We’ve gone around the circle today, and we’ve shared a lot of very intense, interesting, involved, and complex information dealing with personal lives, opening the heart, and new directions, and we would like Q’uo to take a look at these energies, look at our hearts and speak to the concerns that are foremost in our own spiritual journeys.

(Carla channeling)

We are those of the principle known to you as Q’uo, and we greet you in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator, in Whose service we are and in Whose service we delight. We thank you with all of our hearts for calling us to your circle of seeking this day and are glad to share our humble thoughts with you as long as each is able to agree to listen carefully for those thoughts that appeal and those that do not, keeping the first and leaving behind the second. We appreciate this, as it gives us the freedom to speak our minds and share our opinions without feeling that we are attempting to infringe upon your free will or to speak as authorities since we honestly feel that we are not authorities but friends. We offer our thoughts with a hope that they may help, that they may be of service, and that they may be useful in your process.

But, my friends, that is that which our thoughts are made of: processes such as ours, yours, and the Creator’s. It is unknown to us, just as it is unknown to this instrument, what we shall say at any particular session of working. When we are given the opportunity to speak according to the energy in the circle, it is a marvelously freeing thing in that it enables us to lift from the logical association of subjects into a more feeling and sense-oriented way of attempting to work with those things which lie beneath the words, which can be used to describe situations, reaching down into the feelings and the structures of those feelings that have existed for some time and that have shaped those ears and those eyes that each of you brings to new catalyst, so that the person that experiences the momentary catalyst is experiencing that catalyst through the eyes of a lifetime of coloration. Many times the skill involved in processing experiences involves not accepting the first structures as being the whole truth of the situation, either its surface appearance or its deeper meaning.

We thank you for lifting up from the iron grip of logical ratiocination  and intellectual processes. For when an entity is dealing with a new and unknown situation, as the one known as S has said, there is the desire to make progress. And in that desire to make progress, the ruthlessly literal third-density biocomputer/mind, as opposed to the consciousness of each entity, wishes to apply logic to those things which defy logic because of their novelty. When one is wishing to begin a new structure, certainly one may go into the work having some idea as to what that new structure will be. For instance, this channel had spoken earlier concerning the way a new structure of a spiritual circle or a communal spiritual group might be organized, pointed, and motivated. Yet, because of the fact that this is a structure that has yet to be built and because of the fact that it can only be built by those involved in the new structure during the catalyst and the process of so building that structure day by day, the grasping mind of the instrument has nothing immediate upon which to take hold.

Similarly with each within this circle who is beginning a new pattern, it is as that entity who is moving into a new abode, a new structure within which to live the entire gamut of third-density incarnative life from the smallest, simplest, and most nitty-gritty of chores and activities having to do with the natural functions of the human body and fulfilling the needs of the human body for sustenance and warmth, all the way to the most abstruse imaginings of one who truly desires to make of the life a gift to the Creator in so many ways, small and large. Each within this group gazes now at a life that is completely new. In many ways this is beginning to become the standard situation among your peoples at this time. For, as many in the group have noted in the conversation preceding this meditation, the world is moving ever more swiftly and ever more intensely in its great rush towards the culmination of what this instrument has often called third-density life.

We are not saying that there will come a great catastrophe, and all will be finished. However, we are saying that the energies that are moving into place in order to birth the fourth density of your planet Earth move in ever-decreasing circles of attraction to that moment when fourth density shall be the officer of the day, shall we say, rather than third density. There shall be a time in your not-too-distant future when those efforts that you have made to become aware of what it is to open the heart will have culminated in that which can be done within incarnation in third density at this time upon your planet as you know it. Beyond that point there may be years and years of service and learning for those within this circle. However, the nature of that learning and the nature of the service will no longer carry the burden of the attempt to graduate from third to fourth density. For indeed, those who are able to live in an open-hearted way to a sufficient extent during this time of transition will be able to live within the fourth-density atmosphere.

However, those who are not able so to begin to open their hearts will find that the difference between the vibratory level within the consciousness and the vibratory level within the environment shall be great enough that the discomfort of living within the fourth-density Earth energy shall be too much for the physical vehicles to enjoy without significant distortion, which shall in many cases shorten lives that would otherwise have been far longer and more open to many options involved in structures of those with open hearts. In this atmosphere it becomes more and more obvious that, in the face of new structures, there is only one directive that we may offer that you may trust completely. That directive is to open the heart.

We are going to take potluck this evening and hope that Q’uo will speak to the group energy. We’ve gone around the circle today, and we’ve shared a lot of very intense, interesting, involved, and complex information dealing with personal lives, opening the heart, and new directions, and we would like Q’uo to take a look at these energies, look at our hearts and speak to the concerns that are foremost in our own spiritual journeys. Q’uo began their reply by saying all thoughts are made of the processes of opening our hearts to find new directions, so neither Q’uo nor Carla knows what Q’uo will say in any session, and when they have the chance to speak to the energy in the circle they feel more free to move from logical subjects to the more sense-oriented way of working with the concepts that are beneath words and down into the structure of feelings that have existed for some time and have shaped the way that we see and hear new catalyst we experience through our eyes of a lifetime of seeing it colored in a certain way so that many times it is more skillful not to accept our first perception of new catalyst as being the whole truth of the catalyst in either its surface appearance or its deeper meaning. Then Q’uo thanked the group for moving away from intellectual processes because when we are working with an unknown situation there is a desire to make progress, and our third-density mind wishes to apply logic to those situations which defy logic, so when we are attempting to begin a new process we will have some idea as to what this new structure will be, but: “because it is a structure that has yet to be built and because it can only be built by those involved in the new structure during the catalyst and the process of so building that structure day by day, the grasping mind of the instrument has nothing immediate upon which to take hold.” Q’uo went on to say that as each of us within this circle is beginning a new pattern it is as if we are moving into a new place to live the rest of our third-density life from the simplest of chores of fulfilling the needs and functions of our body all the way to the most obscure desire to make our life a gift to the Creator in every way that we can, so that each of us within this group now looks at our life as being completely new so that in many ways this is beginning to become a common situation among our people at this time because our world is moving more swiftly and intensely towards the end of the third density. Q’uo continued by saying that if we are not able to begin to open our hearts we will find that the difference in the vibration of our consciousness and the vibration of the environment will be great enough that we will experience discomfort when we try to live within the fourth-density Earth energy because it will be too much for our bodies to enjoy without being distorted, and this will shorten our lives which could have been longer with more options involved in the structures that would have been available if we had opened our hearts, so Q’uo said that we should open our hearts. On April 2, 2000, Q’uo spoke of the advantage of opening our hearts:

And, yet, we find that if we can move into that awareness that sees all entities and souls and all behavior as distortions of Love, no matter how we feel about the actions involved we can continue to open our hearts and allow the Love of the infinite Creator to flow through us and out into loving that distorted entity that is attempting to act negatively towards us. No matter how opaque the negative action may seem from the human standpoint, the rising to a level where all are seen as souls places the mind in a position which gives it the capacity to grasp that all is truly one, that all is truly well, and that all will truly be well.

Thisinstrument said earlier, speaking for herself, that she found it impossible to keep the heart open for a prolonged length of time; that there was the natural cycle of ego and so forth that would call to any seeking soul those temptations that would take love and replace it with fear. And such temptations are many and varied. Some are obvious, some are subtle. The true nature of such temptations becomes clear usually only when one is in the middle of having closed the heart and then having discovered the closing of the heart and beginning to work backwards from that place of being stuck, or being over-stimulated, or being blocked, so that the uses of hindsight may help the seeker discover the genesis of the conflict that has caused the previously open heart to move once again from love to fear.

We give this instrument the picture of a moonlit ocean. The water is black, sparkling with that infinitely subtle pattern of white that comes from starlight and wave motion. The roar of the ocean, being so familiar, becomes silence, and the pounding of the deep becomes stillness. And the soul, in its frail barque, is as the Indian braving the ocean in his canoe. How dare such a feeble and easily extinguished light set off into the darkness! There is the guidance of stars and the song that is not heard but felt, of the ocean speaking to itself, of that great power and magic of water hoarding its information, rolling with the movement of the stars, responding to each and every cosmic energy. And these subtle but very real energies strengthen and focus the attention of the Indian in the boat in this tiny bark canoe. Does this entity, this representative of the seeking soul, choose to have fear of the deep? Does this entity choose to share itself with the deep? Where is this entity going?

The stars do not concern themselves with the movement of the canoe. They smile their cheerful smile, coming from out of the past and into the future with their light and their information. The energies of fire gently wrap themselves about this figure as he allows his craft to move with the waves or attempts to direct it with his paddle. Each spirit moves across a great and infinitely deep ocean of energies and structures, and these entities and the structures, in their shadow form, have form. In their less shadowy reality, which is still illusion, they have no form, but only the shapes of the feelings that have been experienced while working with the moment and its structure, and its past, its present, and future.

Wemight suggest to each the growing familiarity with each thought, especially those thoughts that repeat and reappear in the mind. It is well known, in many different ways, that what one says to oneself is heard. And we would take this opportunity to say once again that each of you is a powerful and magical person. Each has words of power, and each has been speaking these words of power to the self for many years. In many cases those things which have become habitually said to the self have to do with structures that existed far into the incarnational past of the seeking soul and voices that originally were outer voices—the voices of parents, teachers, authority figures, and friends—are allowed to become those voices that have been internalized and validated by the self, not to the self’s advantage but indeed, to the self’s detriment.

Some examples are quite obvious. If this instrument says to itself each time that it forgets something that it is a fool, it will not only be forgetful, but it will feel unworthy. Take this example, and apply it to those things which each says to herself. They may be true in a literal or surface way and yet, as you note those particular truths, is there a positive advantage to prioritizing this information? What is it? If there is a positive way to absorb this information, has the voice within you found that positive way, or has it allowed laziness and carelessness to blunt the great power of choice for you? Choose carefully that which you communicate to yourself about yourself and, if you find yourself moving into patterns that create feelings of unworthiness, stop–not to correct what may be a true set of facts–but rather to gaze at that little node wherein lie the nerve endings from the past, the circumstances of the present, and the ideals and hopes of your future.

Then Q’uo said that Carla had said earlier that she found it impossible to keep her heart open for a prolonged length of time because there is a natural cycle of ego that would call temptations to seeking souls that would take love and replace it with fear, and some are obvious, and some are subtle so that the true nature of such temptations only becomes clear when we are in the middle of having closed our heart, and when we have discovered that we closed our heart we will need to work back from the place of being stuck or over-stimulated and see what catalyst caused us to close our hearts and move from love to fear. Q’uo went on to say that they are giving Carla the picture of a moonlit ocean where: “the water is black and sparkling with that infinitely subtle pattern of white that comes from starlight and wave motion. The roar of the ocean, being so familiar, becomes silence, and the pounding of the deep becomes stillness. “and the soul, in its frail boat is as the Native American, braving the ocean in his canoe and risking death, sets off into the darkness, but it has guidance from the stars and the feeling of the song of the ocean speaking to itself of the magic of its water full of information rolling with the movement of the stars and  responding to all cosmic energies, and these energies strengthen and focus the attention of the Native American in its tiny canoe, so: “does this entity, this representative of the seeking soul, choose to have fear of the deep? Does this entity choose to share itself with the deep? Where is this entity going?” Q’uo continued by saying that the stars are not concerned with the movement of the canoe, so they smile their cheerful smile that comes from the past and into the future with their light full of information, and their energies of fire gently wrap themselves around the Native American as he allows his craft to move with the waves, or attempts to direct it with his paddle, so that each spirit moves across a deep ocean of energies, and these entities in their shadow form, have form, but in their less shadowy reality they have no form, but only the shapes of their feelings that have been experienced while working with the moment and its past, its present, and its future. Now Q’uo suggested that we should become more familiar with those thoughts that repeat in our mind because we hear what we have said to ourselves, and Q’uo reminded us that we are a powerful and magical being that has words of power that we have been speaking to ourselves for many years, and in many cases those words which we have said have to do with ourself and with structures that existed far into our incarnational past, and the voices that originally were outer voices: “the voices of parents, teachers, authority figures, and friends—are allowed to become those voices that have been internalized and validated by the self, not to the self’s advantage but indeed, to the self’s detriment.” Now Q’uo said that examples of our thoughts of ourself from our past connecting to us now are quite obvious so that if Carla says to herself each time that she is a fool if she forgets something, she will not only be forgetful, but she will feel unworthy, so that we can take this example and apply it to those things which we say to ourself which may be true in a literal way and yet, as we discover these truths: “is there a positive advantage to prioritizing this information? What is it? If there is a positive way to absorb this information, has the voice within you found that positive way, or has it allowed laziness and carelessness to blunt the great power of choice for you?” So we should choose carefully that which we communicate to ourself about ourself, and if we find ourself moving into patterns that create feelings of unworthiness, stop–not to correct what may be a true set of facts–but rather to gaze at that little connecting link for the nerve endings from the past, the circumstances of the present, and the ideals and hopes of our future. On November 26, 1989, Q’uo described the potential of the feelings of unworthiness:

We are no more worthy than you. We are all seekers, all pilgrims, and all imperfect. We could suggest that one may look forward to a time when one is not so, shall we say, imperfect, as seen by the self, but we assure you that these feelings of unworthiness, insecurity, and other feelings of this kind are designed completely by yourself before the incarnation to teach you to love, and to love that which is imperfect is to make it worthy.

Examine your soul. All that is, is within you, the bad, as you would call negative emotions and ideas, and the good, as you would call positive emotions and ideas. But the source of your worth is that which makes the universe One, and yourself a citizen as important as any, as worthy as any. You are a part of the infinite Creator; you are worthwhile, necessary and beloved. May you love yourself enough to move the imperfections out of the way of your service, and never ever to hold a grudge against the self, but to forgive the self, to intend a newness which is less imperfect in the ways of doing things.

What can sitting with this node of activity and process yield for the honest and, in a way, ruthless seeker of inner balance? In each case where there is a perceived node of feelings and process, there is pay dirt. There is treasure to be found. And it is worth the time that it takes to rest within that pattern, in terms of being able to become more and more skillful in knowing the self and in seeing those habits and triggers from yesteryear, shall we say, that have crept into the present mechanism of the way the mind works, hears, and sees, all of which are choices very much up for grabs many times. It is not that we wish to cause self-doubt or to invalidate the thoughts that you have and the feelings that you feel. Rather, we ask you to stay with them, to experience through intensity and time, allowing energy to move as it will and as it must, neither hurrying it nor resisting but rather embracing it with as much love as you can and thanking it for the opportunities, be they challenging, or pleasant, or elating, as they come up and as it is time to deal with them.

Keep in mind that no matter what it feels like you are never running in circles. You are always on a spiral. You cannot stay in the same place. In terms of physical things, certainly, an entity can choose to stay in one place and end up pushing up the daisies not ten feet from where he last went to sleep. These things are possible for the physical body. However, your spirit, that consciousness, which is part of the Godhead principle, cannot stay still. It can move forward in a direction that seems fair, or it can move forward in a direction that seems de-structurizing and debilitating. The one thing that the spirit cannot do is stay in one place. Like the water upon which this barque of being flows within incarnation and out of it, there is no staying still. Even when one is moored, one tends to go to the ends of the mooring rope, as the influences in the water move that spirit evermore, not resting, not stopping but moving with the gentle patience of eternity.

Let the sun be away when it seems to be night, and let the moon be that witness that says to you that the sun is a reality that shall cycle into the awareness once again, in its time. Allow the roll of the pain that you are experiencing to continue so that the night hours are spent in an engaged and embracing way that enables one to be grateful for the sleeplessness of the dark night of the soul. Know, by the moonlight, that there is a sun that is still reflected into your node of catalyst. And let that reflection, dim though it may be, be that witness for the Light and Love of the infinite Creator and the rightness of the plan of the Creator for you. Then you are able to release the fear of the night, and the fear of the water, and the fear of being at the mercy of an ocean that seems, at least on the surface, to be a dangerous place to be. This instrument would say, “life is hardball.” There are no soft pitches for the school of Love on planet Earth.

The tangles will come. This is why you jumped into Earthly incarnation. You were not unaware of the difficulties of living within an illusion and being cut off from that embedded knowledge of rightness, and goodness, and identity that you have lost in entering the Earth plane. These things are now unprovable, unknowable and only trusted by faith. We speak of a mystery. It is a mystery that necessarily involves both suffering and joy, both the deeps of night, and the brightest noonday. The contrasts are amazing, and as this instrument said earlier, it is a very bright experience within the Earth plane in these days of great Light, both for service to self and for service to others. Entities all about you, and you, yourself, are attempting to deal with a great bounty. That bounty is an opportunity to move profoundly within a short time both in learning and in service, beginning to move from being one who does not use the paddle to one who decides upon a course and indeed starts applying the paddle with great diligence and passion.

As each of you becomes more and more familiar with the way the new structures of being and living feel, each will have many opportunities to get to know the self better, to become more self-supporting, to fall in love with the self, as this instrument would say. May you find the self that you are to be half as beautiful as we find you to be. As you begin to see more and more clearly into yourself, you shall indeed see things in yourself of which you shall not be fond. We ask you not to be discouraged. Each of you has all things within. To expect never to encounter the shadow part of self is to expect far too much from the very dynamic energies of any human existence within illusion. The creation is designed to bring you out of yourself and into empty rooms where there is as yet no structure. Let those times be your friends, for they are part of a greatly beneficial and satisfying process.

Now Q’uo said that when we can see the connections between our feelings and processes there is a treasure to be found, and it is worth the time that it takes us to rest within that pattern to become more skillful in knowing ourself and in seeing those habits and triggers from our past that have appeared in the present mechanism of the way our mind works, hears, and sees, all of which provide us a variety of choices, so Q’uo said they did not want to cause us self-doubt or to invalidate the thoughts that we have and the feelings that we feel because they wanted us to stay with them, to experience them, and to allow their energy to move as it must—neither hurrying it nor resisting it—but embracing it with as much love as we can and thanking it for these opportunities, whether they are challenging or pleasant, as they come up when it is time to deal with them. Then Q’uo said that no matter what it feels like we are never running in circles but are always on an upward spiral so that we cannot stay in the same place, yet in terms of physical things we can choose to stay in one place because these things are possible for our physical body, but our spirit, which is part of the Godhead principle, cannot stay still. Q’uo said that it can move forward in a direction that seems fair, or it can move forward in a direction that seems debilitating, but the one thing that our spirit cannot do is stay in one place since it is like the water upon which this boat of being flows within our incarnation and out of it, and there is no staying still, but it moves with the gentle patience of eternity. Q’uo continued by saying that we should allow the sun to be gone when it is night, and let the moon be that witness that says to us that the sun shall cycle into our awareness in its time, so we should allow the pain that we are experiencing to continue so that the night hours are spent in an engaged way that enables us to be grateful for the sleeplessness of the dark night of the soul, and we can know, by the moonlight, that there is a sun that is still reflected into our connections of catalyst, so we can let that reflection be a witness for the Light and Love of the infinite Creator and the rightness of the plan of the Creator for us so that we are able to release our fear of the night, the fear of the water, and the fear of being at the mercy of an ocean that seems, at least on the surface, to be a dangerous place to be. Q’uo went on to say that the tangles will come since this is why we entered our Earthly incarnation even though we were aware of the difficulties of living within an illusion and being cut off from that inner knowledge of the rightness and identity that we lost in entering the Earth plane. Q’uo said that these things are unknowable and can only be trusted by faith in a mystery that involves both suffering and joy, both the deeps of night, and the brightest noonday, and the contrasts are amazing, and it is a very bright experience within the Earth plane in these days of great Light, both for service to self and for service to others so that entities all about us, and we as well, are attempting to deal with a great bounty that is: “an opportunity to move profoundly within a short time both in learning and in service, beginning to move from being one who does not use the paddle to one who decides upon a course and indeed starts applying the paddle with great diligence and passion.” Now Q’uo said that as each of us becomes more familiar with the way the new structures of being and living feel, we will have many opportunities to get to know ourself better and to fall in love with ourself, and as we begin to see more clearly into ourself, we shall see things which we will not like, so Q’uo asked us not to be discouraged because each of us has all things within us, and never to expect to encounter the shadow part of ourself is to expect too much from the dynamic energies of any human experience within the illusion of third density because the creation is designed to bring us out of ourself and into empty rooms where there is no structure, so we should let those times be our friends, for they are part of a greatly beneficial and satisfying process. On November 10, 2007, Q’uo suggested how we can fall in love with ourself:

What is being refined in the refinery of souls that is Earth? What is the soul within third density? A synonym for “soul” might be “heart.” And we have often suggested to you that you are on a journey into your own open heart. Christ is waiting for you within your own heart. As you allow the surface of self to fall away, you become empty enough to fall in love with yourself. You begin to see that all these details of self, wretched though they may be in some cases, and glorious in others, fall away to nothingness before the self’s desire to seek the presence of the one infinite Creator.

And so the self within incarnation becomes merry and lighthearted, whether in sunshine or in rain; whether in good times or evil. For the self remembers that it is on a journey whose destination is sure. And thusly, through all the changes and chances of mortal life, that seeking soul may be confident and quiet within, full of faith and knowing that all is well. And this, too, is grace.

We would at this time open the meeting to further queries if there are any. Is there a question at this time?

G: Q’uo, if it’s possible could you describe to me what I faced within myself two nights ago during an hour and half bout of tears, and if an experience like that is something that should be sought or should be allowed to happen as it comes on its own?

We are those of Q’uo, and are aware of your query, my brother. We may say about your experience that certainly it includes those things of which you are letting go, those shifts within your own definition of yourself that require the loss of structures that were in place and that are no longer appropriate. We may also say that it is extremely positive to move through such times and we see, in the way that you shepherded yourself through this time, that love of self that opens the heart and teaches it how to love others as well. The time of such movement cannot be planned. It is only necessary to set the mind towards service and love and the heart towards living, open, and vulnerable to the catalyst that arises in a moment. The natural rhythms of experience shall bring to you those moments as they are appropriate.

May we answer you further, my brother?

G: No, that was excellent. Thank you, Q’uo.

Q’uo: We thank you, my brother.

G: I am full of questions! Q’uo, if an entity’s power is not “over” another, or even over oneself, then what is truly the power of a positively polarizing entity?

We are those of Q’uo, and are aware of your query, my brother. The power of a service-to-others entity is that power to love without reservation. The way of love is simple in the extreme in its effect. However, as the one known as S noted, in the energy system of a physically incarnate entity, there are many ways to become hindered or blocked, in which one becomes the one who cuts off the power for oneself. There are many ways to choose to diminish the forces of love within the self. It is a challenge indeed to find those ways in which love has been too tightly held or too dearly given, given as a miser or a pinch-penny, or given without thought when thought might create a better gift.

The province of power is the province of essence. The basic source of power is that knowledge of self that enables one to stand on one firm place and say, “This is who I am.” Once that becomes a joyful and amalgamated, integrated sense, there is within the self a metaphysical center to which an entity may return by taking thought. What is the use or the goal of power? For service-to-others entities it is the power to help others. For a service-to-self entity it is the power to manipulate the environment for the benefit of the self. In both cases there is an environment to be manipulated. For the positive entity, that which is to be manipulated is not physical but rather is the stuff of consciousness itself. Therefore, an entity seeking power in the service-to-others polarity shall be seeking to know in order to serve and to create changes in consciousness rather than changes in status or other aspects of a physical environment.

May we answer you further, my brother?

G: Before I ask again, I’d like to open the questions to anybody else that may have one.

[Pause]

Okay, Q’uo, assuming that the work of power is the work of higher energy centers, I know that green ray is the great resource of all spiritual work, and that the blue and indigo-ray activities await only the will of the seeker once green ray has been activated. My question is, the moment that love is felt, can an entity “move up,” so to speak, and immediately do blue and/or indigo-ray work in that moment, if only for what I would call a short period of time? Or does the state of the open heart need to be reliable and consistent for work to proceed into the higher rays?

We are those of Q’uo, and are aware of your query, my brother. The ability to do work in consciousness is momentary, and there can be times of brilliance and clarity for any soul who is able even momentarily to enter the heart. It is to be noted, however, that the more work that is done in the first three energy centers, and that on a daily basis, the more opportunity that a soul may have to rest within the open heart. The stumbling blocks to living open-heartedly are only partially “out there,” only partially the effect of catalyst that is incoming to the consciousness of the seeker. Again, the places where energy is held in the energy body often have to do with the past and those things that are, to all intents and purposes, dead. Yet, somehow, the function of memory has enabled them to have a spurious and untrue life within an entity, which has for the most part moved from those stumbling-block areas of misperception concerning the self.

When the evening of the day comes we have recommended before through this instrument that it is well to examine, as one may, the points which hooked one during the previous day’s experience, either for happiness or for woe. Gaze into the way the mind works when it is triggered. Find those triggers. Name them. Get to know them. Begin accepting yourself for having them. Begin attempting to create for the self a safe place where these things can be looked at…

[Side one of tape ends.]

…for however long they need to stay. In reality, much of getting to know the self is not pushing the self around as much as it is gently sitting around the campfire with all of these different parts of self and allowing each to tell its story. For there is good in many different points of view within, all of which may come together in ways that are not helpful. Yet each item within the mix is helpful to consider, helpful to gaze at, perhaps over time. It is a subtle thing to become more familiar with the self without judging the self, and this is the goal of one who is attempting to free up those stuck places within. Once one is relatively balanced within the energy body from red, orange, and yellow then the heart is able to get full energy and that full blast of unconditional Love that the Creator puts out in infinite quantity and quality at all times. Energy is finally able to move through into the heart in a powerful way.

Many who attempt to do work in consciousness are working on that green ray, working to get the heart to open, without taking the tedious and often unrewarding time to enter into the self in an ever-deeper way, making the connections that explain patterns that are long-standing and gradually finding ways to remove the triggers that are hidden within everyday experiences and processes.

G asked: “My question is, the moment that love is felt, can an entity “move up,” so to speak, and immediately do blue and/or indigo-ray work in that moment, if only for what I would call a short period of time? Or does the state of the open heart need to be reliable and consistent for work to proceed into the higher rays?” Q’uo began their reply by saying that our ability to do work in consciousness is momentary, and there can be times of clarity for us if we are able to enter our heart even briefly, but the more work that we can do in the first three energy centers the more opportunity that we may have to rest within our open heart because the stumbling blocks to living open-heartedly are only partially the effect of catalyst that is incoming to our consciousness since the places where energy is held in our energy body often have to do with the past and are dead, but the function of our memory has enabled them to have an untrue life within us which has moved from those stumbling-block areas of misperception concerning ourself. Then Q’uo recommended it is well for us to examine the catalyst which we experienced during the day that was happy or sad, and the look at the way our mind works when it is triggered in order to find those triggers, and accept ourself for having them …[Side one of tape ends.]…for however long they need to stay so that we can get to know ourself by gently sitting with these different parts of ourself and allowing each to tell its story. Q’uo continued by saying that there is good in many different points of view within us, all of which may come together in ways that are not helpful, but each point of view is helpful to consider because it is a subtle thing to become more familiar with ourself without judging ourself, and this is our goal as we  attempt to free up those stuck places within us, and once we are relatively balanced within the energy body from red, orange, and yellow then our heart is: “able to get full energy and that full blast of unconditional Love that the Creator puts out in infinite quantity and quality at all times. Energy is finally able to move through into the heart in a powerful way.” Q’uo completed their answer by saying many of us who attempt to do work in consciousness are working to get our heart to open without taking the time to enter into ourself in an ever-deeper way to make the connections that explain our life long pattens and finding ways to remove the triggers that are hidden within our everyday experiences. On July 5, 1992, Q’uo described the nature of how we can accomplish work in consciousness:

The means of clearing the centers or chakras of energy by the use of the polarization of the mind is that process whereby you take that desire and move through each chakra in turn, utilizing this desire to find those distortions or imperfections of manifestation within each center of energy, and seek for that moment to visualize or imagine the balanced expression of energy that is appropriate for you at that time in that center, assigning to each center those properties that are appropriate for each center, beginning as we said, with the first, or red-ray center, and looking at this center as that which is the love of life, the expression of the desire to be, to move, to breathe, to do.

Moving to that center of interpersonal relationship next, that of the orange-ray, where you put yourself in balanced relationship with one other being at a time, so that there is the one-to-one exchange of energies.

Moving therefrom to the yellow-ray center where you are in relationship with many others, with groups of beings with whom you share interest, energy and activity.

Moving from this center to that of the heart, the green ray where your love of others extends beyond any group that you may have association with to all entities simply because they exist.

Moving from this center to that of the throat and the blue ray of communication, where the love that you feel for all creation is expressed in a means of communication that is freely given, and which speaks in inspirational tones to those about you as a result of your feeling of the love of the green-ray center.

The indigo-ray center being that of the brow, where there is the work in consciousness that each seeker achieves when it begins to use the force of its will and faith to move its attitudes and perceptions into alignment with the ideals that are its guiding star.

Therefrom moving to the violet-ray center where the totality of the being is expressed as a measure, a mark, or a register of the entity. By utilizing this desire to serve others in balancing and harmonizing each center of energy, you have cleared this path for the flow of the Love and Light, or the prana of the one Creator to move cleanly through your centers of energy, in order that you may be a smoothly functioning reflector and creator of the Love and Light of the one Creator.

We find that this instrument’s energy begins to wane and so we will leave this group at this time, thanking this instrument for its service and thanking each within the circle for the crystalline beauty of their beings. Your colors and energy are beautiful to us in ways we cannot ever express and our love for you is great. We thank you for your love of seeking the truth. As you seek, every door shall open.

We leave this instrument and this group in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. We are known to you as the principle of Q’uo. Adonai, my friends, adonai.

This morning Anna and I synchronized our computers and listened to Carla channel Ra in Session #68 where the entire session was devoted to Carla’s nearly leaving her body during a public channeling meditation where she was channeling those of Latwii and was asked a question that she didn’t know the answer to and wished that she was channeling Ra. Our negative fifth-density entity was hoping to be able to take her into negative time/space, stop the Ra contact, and gain Carla’s light for its own use. Fortunately, Latwii was able to keep this from happening by continuing to channel through Carla.

This afternoon I went outside and got the garden hose out of the basement and attached the sprayer so that I could clean the filters for the fountain on the fishpond as the weather is going to get very cold for the next week or two, and I want to be sure the filters can keep the fountain running as high as possible without going out of the pond while much of the water is frozen.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

February 16

Be Of Good Cheer

I am of the principle of Jesus the Christ, and I greet you in the full consciousness of divine Love.

This day is a gift that is full of life. Your senses would have you believe that there is much that is not alive or responsive to the radiance of Love. On the contrary, mindfulness of the radiant Love of the Father is as relevant and important to the soul’s health in the picking up of a speck of dust as it is in the preparation of the finest treatise or most charitable action.

All things live in the consciousness of Love and all things respond to your radiance, which can only come through you as you are mindful of the infinite Father.

Thus, be of good cheer, not compartmentalizing the day or hurrying through a chore which seems less important than another. For all is equally important to the conscious seeker of Love.

In that love and peace we leave you, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo channeling comes from September 21, 2003:

Our question today has to do with mated relationships. We would like Q’uo to give us some information that might give us a better idea as to the potential of a mated relationship. What difficulties might one expect in entering into a mated relationship? What kind of attitude is most helpful in dealing with the difficulties? Please add anything else that might be of use or interest concerning mated relationships.

(Carla channeling)

We are those of the principle known to you as Q’uo, and we greet you in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator in Whose service we are. We thank you for the great privilege of being called to your circle of seeking this day, and we find the beautiful experience of joining your meditation to be a real pleasure. Blessings to each of you and many, many thanks for clearing the time in your schedule to spend time seeking for the truth. Truly those who seek with an open and loving heart shall be answered. Those who knock with empty hands shall find the door opening. We ask but one thing before we share our opinions with you, and that is that you do realize that our thoughts are simply that, opinions. They are fairly settled, and we are glad to share them, but we have found that truth is a various thing, a thing that is part of a personal and intimate network of true things for each entity. And we ask each entity to respect their own universe, their own creation, and to be guardians of what goes into that creation and becomes a part of the network and the fabric of living. Examine each thought and, if it pleases you, work with it. This is why we come to you, so that we may share these thoughts. But if they do not please you, we humbly ask you to leave them behind without a second thought, for we would not be a stumbling block to any. With this said, we are most happy to speak upon the most large subject of the mated relationship and its possibilities and challenges.

We found the conversation preceding this time of working most interesting and were pleased to hear the one known as R say that when she was seven years old, she decided that she loved herself and wanted herself and was there for herself, and that this was the foundation of her ability to love and to be loved in the rest of her incarnational experience. May we agree with the one known as R that this indeed is the foundation for all relationships. This instrument has often spoken of the first challenge of spiritual seeking as being that of falling in love with the self. Not because the self has become perfect. Not because the self has many virtues. Not because of anything except the fact of being. Each entity is a being of a certain kind. That certain kind happens to be a very specialized way of structuring a being. It is multi-leveled. There is a portion of the being that you are that comes from eternity and that dwells in infinity so that there is no limitation to the circle of self. It is infinite and eternal. Out of that being has come a spark of that soul stream that is you. And you have found a habitation within a temple of flesh and bone. And again, as the one known as R has said, it is as a vehicle that is able to motivate, to move you physically through the many levels of physical, emotional, mental, and spiritual catalyst that you have received and that you will continue to receive during your incarnational experience.

This self is at once the most simple of things and a complicated thing. In its simplicity, the self of all beings is that of a spark of the creative or Godhead principle so that each of you is a perfect, unique expression of the Creator, as if the Creator was colored with your particular way of loving, expressing, and being. Each is as this note, or to be more precise, chord. As the vibrations of your being, which have their own element or range, find their ways to harmonize the various energies of the various chakras the infinite Love and Light of the one Creator moves through those chakras that are colored with your special blockages and over-energizings, and other distortions from a totally balanced energy center. There is nothing neutral about each of you. And this is a wonderful thing. The vividness of those chords of being that each of you is, is a beautiful, breathtaking thing.

Eachof you is that entity that is vibrating as a melody, or as the scent of a flower. This is your gift, this very simple, very momentary expression of the essence of self. This is your gift in each moment, and in each moment, there is a new self, a new registering of coloration of being. It is not that all of the notes change, for indeed in many ways, that with which you move into incarnation is that which you take from incarnation. The bones, shall we say, are the same, coming in and going out. The changes that have been made, that can only be made in third density, the density of experience you now enjoy, are in the way the energies are balanced within each chakra and from chakra to chakra, so that these bones are fleshed out with different garments every day. Some of the changes are very slight, other changes, that you may feel are very slight, go deeper, and have a more profound energy to them that makes a bigger change than you are aware on what this instrument would call the soul level.

Sothis is the simple being that you are. You are a vibration of the Logos. You are a sub-sub-Logos, a part of the creative principle. And each of you is that which includes all other beings, not simply upon your planet but within the entire creation of the infinite One. To narrow the focus a bit is to discover, in great profusion, the complexities of these connections between that which lives, and dies and that which is just visiting the experience of living and dying while it is picking up the lessons that were prepared for this time of incarnation, and attempting to use this particular vibration that you experience for finding the self, finding ways to love, finding the grace to allow the self to be loved. In the explication and exploration of these large subjects come many, many lessons, one after another after another.

In the school of life, as this instrument would call it, there are many tests. Some of these tests are never perceived by the student. Other of the tests are perceived all too well, and become great causes of concern, thereby snarling and sometimes baffling the energies that otherwise would be free to work. It is, as the one known as V would say, a puzzle to be solved, in many cases. The experience of a tangle or a difficulty, as this instrument was speaking of earlier, is an opportunity to gaze upon the self in the mirror of perceived experience and perceived difficulty, looking at the nature of the experience, the nature of the perceived blockage, or over-activation within self, or within other self, and the finding of the way through the maze that does not partake of judgment, that does not partake of the consciousness of sin or error, and yet that stays persistently and accurately upon the focus of self so that the maze is followed not from either emotion or intellect but rather from the heart.

Our question today has to do with mated relationships. We would like Q’uo to give us some information that might give us a better idea as to the potential of a mated relationship. What difficulties might one expect in entering into a mated relationship? What kind of attitude is most helpful in dealing with the difficulties? Please add anything else that might be of use or interest concerning mated relationships. Q’uo began their response by saying that R’s experiences as a child were that she was able to love herself; that she wanted herself; and that this had become the foundation of her ability to love and be loved for the rest of her life and was the foundation for all relationships, and that Carla has often spoken of being able to fall in love with herself was the first challenge in becoming a spiritual seeker because each of us is a being of a certain kind where a portion of our being dwells in infinity, and then there is that part of us that is a spark of that soul stream that has taken a home within our bodies that is our earthly identity which is able to help us move physically through many levels of physical, emotional, mental, and spiritual catalyst. Q’uo went on to say that our self is both the most simple of things and a complicated thing, and in our simplicity we are a spark of the Godhead principle so that each of us is a unique expression of the Creator in our way of loving, expressing, and being, and each of us is a chord, and as the vibrations of our being find our unique ways to harmonize the energies of the various chakras, the infinite Love and Light of the one Creator moves through those chakras that are colored with our unique distortions from a totally balanced energy, so there is nothing neutral about any of us which is a wonderful thing because the vividness of those chords of being that each of us is, is a beautiful, breathtaking thing. Q’uo continued by saying that each of us is that entity that is vibrating as a melody, and this is our gift, this very simple expression of the essence of ourself in each moment, and in each moment we are a new registering of coloration of our being, and not all of our notes change, for in many ways that which we bring into our incarnation is that which we take from our incarnation so that the changes that we have made can only be made in the third density of experience we now enjoy and exist: “in the way the energies are balanced within each chakra and from chakra to chakra, so that these bones are fleshed out with different garments every day. Some of the changes are very slight, other changes, that you may feel are very slight, go deeper, and have a more profound energy to them that makes a bigger change than you are aware on what this instrument would call the soul level.” Then Q’uo said that we are a vibration of the Logos, a sub-sub-Logos that is a part of the creative principle, and each of us is that which includes all other beings within the entire creation of the infinite One, and as our focus is narrowed a bit we can discover the complexities of these many connections between that which lives and dies in us, and that which is just visiting the experience of living and dying while we are picking up the lessons that we prepared for this time of incarnation, and we are attempting to use this particular vibration that we experience for finding ourself and finding ways to love and to be loved, and in the exploration of these large subjects come many lessons, one after another. Now Q’uo said that in the school of life there are many tests, and we never perceive some of these tests, but we perceive other of the tests so well that they become great causes of concern that baffle our energies which otherwise would be free to work so that it is a puzzle to be solved, and this experience of a difficulty is an opportunity for us to gaze upon ourself in the mirror of perceived difficulty, looking at the nature of the perceived blockage or overactivation within ourself, or within an other self, and then finding a way through the maze that does not partake of judgment or the consciousness of sin or error, and yet stays accurately upon the focus of ourself so that the maze is followed, not from either emotion or intellect, but rather from our heart. On October 22, 1995, Q’uo spoke of how in third density we learn how to love and be loved:

The awareness of self and the inward-turning gaze are the hallmarks of third density. As each density has its lessons, so the lesson of third density is that lesson of finding ways to love and to be loved, not only in relationships of one person to another but also in relationship of groups of people to other groups. Yours is a density that begins with primitive, small and scattered communities and by the end of the cycle becomes an environment of great, clearly defined, and very conscious groups of entities.

The heart itself has a working knowledge of these complexities that create the mazes of a puzzle to be solved. And there is no maze created that does not have a solution. Within these boundaries of self lie not only complexities but complexities of various levels of profundity within the essential self so that there is much skill, when dealing with the self up close, in being able to slip from level to level and being able to work the maze, from level to level, so that there is a feeling of movement through time, movement through the spaces of self, movement not linear in nature but rather that movement which may seem to be very tedious and turning back upon itself and winding tortuously. Yet, in terms of the maze of self, such wanderings within the self are skillful, and useful, and very productive. Therefore, the first work, when gazing upon the mated relationship, is the work of coming into a fuller and fuller awareness of the self, of falling in love with the self, of becoming able to see the self without pride or humility but rather as that which is, that which has met the day, that which will express in honesty and sincerity for that day. When the self can meet the self and smile and go, within the mind, “Oh good, I get to spend time with me today,” then the self is ready to spend time with an other self.

The one known as G has not asked about relationship in a vacuum but rather within a situation in which the heart is leaping like a stag, happy and joyful in the rushing energies of honest and deeply felt, unconditional love. Therefore, as we speak, we are not dealing with the ins and outs of making the commitment for the mated relationship. We are responding to this query assuming that the relationship is positive, mutually felt to be positive and inclusive of a third entity, that entity being the one infinite Creator. Mated relationships are a triad. They are not two partners against the world. Rather they are a temple that has been enlarged so that two entities’ lives may be dedicated to that which is larger than themselves, larger than their worldly hopes, constituting that ark which contains those things that one couple wishes to save from the flood of the everyday. Into this ark of mating each may pour their ideals, their hopes, their dreams, their desires, their intentions, and every precious truth and spark of beauty that they have found, and loved, and made their own. Two entities offering these gifts to each other and to the Creator create a temple with a dome of light that, as that mated couple works through time and through circumstances which try every nerve and every part of the self, becomes stronger and stronger.

This instrument’s memory of self becomes that which is the memory of two selves, as one. And this plinth of shared memory is a substantial platform upon which to build the journey of seeking. This instrument has often said, the mated relationship is the fast track to spiritual evolution. And why is that? If you can think back to the last time that you were alone and had to deal with a situation without help, you can remember those feelings of isolation, even though one is never isolated from the Creator of all things. Nor is one isolated from a guidance system that is strong to help. Yet when one is alone there is a sense of the light failing, and the atmosphere becomes close and stuffy because there is simply no air, no mirror, no light. There is not that life that another entity brings into the dealings of self with self. In the interior of self without an entity to serve as an accurate mirror, the mirrors within the self may be very distorted and may not show the truth. There may be too much interference from previous assumption that has not been let go when those assumptions were no longer accurate.

Think back to the last time that you dealt with a situation with a friend, with a mate, with a partner, and that partner, that mate became a mirror or a teacher to you, and you had the gift of sight, the sight that is not insight, for it comes by projection and reflection. Yet that sight, perhaps called “outsight,” is as the insight that has been the gift of that entity in the mated relationship whose catalyst it is not and who simply is able to gaze into your eyes, see you in the situation and reflect back that which she sees. The blessing of this shared vision becomes the greater the less clear one’s own vision is. So mated relationships, and indeed close partnerships of all kinds, if based within spiritual parameters, have a wonderful, flexible ability to have two seemingly imperfect and confused people become to each other the knight in shining armor and the lady in shining armor, those who are wiser than they know because love has entered into them, and that guidance system that is not working for the other self is able to work through the love within the heart of that entity for the other in ways of creating the opportunity to find a novel and creative way to witness to the truth and the love that is seen in the other self.

The makeup of the human heart is such that as the one known a R has said, when there is the ability to share with another self, that which is burden to one, by that very sharing, by that very hearing, by that exchange of energy, the sharpness of the pain of living is lightened, and the suffering that one perceives one to be undergoing is cut in half. All things that can be spoken of can be healed. The great gift of a mated relationship is that all things can be spoken of and may be spoken of. There is permission given from one open heart to live fully as one. Were only two to become one, this is indeed a great thing. Yet, the added gift of the mated relationship is that there is normally some sort of ceremony within which the Creator is invited to join the union and to give life to the union that if so dearly wished it may be seen simply as a blessing by those who attend the religious service and gaze upon such ritual as a social exercise of indeed a business proposition in which a contract is made with no small print and a long term. The value, however, within the spiritual or metaphysical universe, that universe that does partake of infinity  and eternity, is that metaphysical values are specifically brought into the relationship to enhance the pairing so that it becomes a much stronger three-legged entity that can stand on its own and be that house in which two entities may live, the walls of which are made of hopes, and dreams, and love, but the floor of which is made of real effort, substantial work, and deep sacrifices between each to each.

Then Q’uo said our heart has a working knowledge of these complexities that create the nature of the puzzle that we need to solve, and there is no puzzle that does not have a solution so that within these boundaries of ourself lie complexities of various levels of profundity within our basic self so that there is much skill in our being able to slip from level to level and to be able to work the puzzle from level to level so that there is a feeling of movement through time and through the spaces of ourself which is not linear but which may seem to be very tedious and turning back upon itself, but such wanderings within ourself are skillful and very productive so that the first work, when gazing upon the mated relationship, is the work of of falling in love with ourself and of becoming able to see ourself without pride or humility but rather as that which has met the day, that which will express in honesty and sincerity for that day, and when we can meet ourself and smile and say within our mind: “Oh good, I get to spend time with me today,” then we are ready to spend time with an other self. Q’uo went on to say the question about relationships focuses within the situation in which our heart is leaping like a deer, happy and joyful in the energies of deeply felt unconditional love so that we are not dealing with the ins and outs of making the commitment for the mated relationship, but we are responding to this query assuming that the relationship is mutually felt to be positive and inclusive of a third entity which is the one infinite Creator because mated relationships are a triad: “a temple that has been enlarged so that two entities’ lives may be dedicated to that which is larger than themselves, larger than their worldly hopes, constituting that ark which contains those things that one couple wishes to save from the flood of the everyday. Into this ark of mating each may pour their ideals, their hopes, their dreams, their desires, their intentions, and every precious truth and spark of beauty that they have found, and loved, and made their own.” so that two entities offering these gifts to each other and to the Creator creates a temple with a dome of light that, as the mated couple works through time and through circumstances, tries every nerve of the self, becomes stronger and stronger. Q’uo continued by saying that every time there is a difficulty in a relationship, and the energies are allowed to move between the couple, and the Creator is included in all discussions, no matter how difficult the catalyst or how long the resolution takes, the dome of light is being strengthened because the journey is being made from heart to heart and always with the realization that the Creator and the Creator’s Love is a huge part of the relationship, and Carla had memories of when she and Jim had come together in tears, or in joy, or in difficulty, and offered each other honesty that was painful, or wonderful, or puzzled again and again and found the light in each other that had failed for the self because of the good mirror of information that was needed by both of them. Now Q’uo said that Carla’s memory of herself becomes the memory of two selves working as one, and this foundation of shared memory is the platform upon which to build the journey of seeking so that Carla has often said the mated relationship is the fast track to spiritual evolution because if we can think back to the last time that we were alone and had to deal with a situation without help, we can remember feeling like we were isolated–though we are never isolated from the Creator–nor are we from our guidance system that is always available to help us, but when we are alone there is a sense of the light failing, and: “In the interior of self without an entity to serve as an accurate mirror, the mirrors within the self may be very distorted and may not show the truth. There may be too much interference from previous assumption that has not been let go when those assumptions were no longer accurate.” Q’uo suggested that we think back to the last time that we had to deal with a situation with a friend or a mate, and that mate became a mirror to us, and we had the gift of sight that is not insight, for it comes by projection and reflection, yet that sight, perhaps called “outsight,” is as the insight that has been the gift of that entity in the mated relationship whose catalyst it is not, and who is simply able to gaze into our eyes, to see us in the situation and reflect back that which is seen, so the blessing of this shared vision becomes greater the less clear our own vision is, so mated relationships, and close partnerships of all kinds, if based upon spiritual parameters, have an ability to have two imperfect people become to each other the knight in shining armor and the lady in shining armor: “those who are wiser than they know because love has entered into them, and that guidance system that is not working for the other self is able to work through the love within the heart of that entity for the other in ways of creating the opportunity to find a novel and creative way to witness to the truth and the love that is seen in the other self.” On August 29, 2001, Q’uo spoke of the nature of the mated relationship:

The mated relationship is a specific kind of service, an experience of mutual desire for seeking the one Creator, for serving the one Creator, and for sharing the life pattern out of which seeking and service are born. Thusly, you may consider the words which we have spoken concerning the occupation and its service as being applicable to the mated relationship as well. There is the need to love and to be loved which is as normal and natural a function of the human being as is the sleeping, the eating, the breathing, and the moving about within your illusion.

The experience of being of service with the mate is one which has a great deal of joy and direction in that each in the mated relationship feels a kind of wholeness which is not present outside the mated relationship when one is alone. Although it is quite possible for each entity to be of great service and to seek with great purity in a solitary fashion, the yoke of such honor/duty/experience is more easily borne when shared.

In opening oneself to such a relationship there is the need to become truly open, to prepare the self for change and to be willing to accept the changing currents and depths of the river of life. For once there is an expectation to which one holds strictly or dearly, then that expectation can become an obstacle to this opening of the self to that which the potential mated relationship brings to the self.

Thusly, it is well, when considering the possibilities of the mated relationship, to truly examine the heart’s desires. For when allowed to express truly, these desires may move far past the boundaries of mental contemplation. Thusly, the romantic involvement within your illusion has oftentimes been seen to originate in the stars, shall we say, so that forces outside of the self are given the opportunity to move the self as the wind and the weather move a sailboat upon your sea.

The makeup of the human heart is such that as the one known as R has said, when there is the ability to share with another self, that which is a burden to one, by that very sharing, by that very hearing, by that exchange of energy, the sharpness of the pain of living is lightened, and the suffering that one perceives one to be undergoing is cut in half. All things that can be spoken of can be healed. The great gift of a mated relationship is that all things can be spoken of and may be spoken of. There is permission given from one open heart to live fully as one. Were only two to become one, this is indeed a great thing. Yet, the added gift of the mated relationship is that there is normally some sort of ceremony within which the Creator is invited to join the union and to give life to the union that is so dearly wished. It may be seen simply as a blessing by those who attend the religious service and gaze upon such ritual as a social exercise or indeed a business proposition in which a contract is made with no small print and a long term. The value, however, within the spiritual or metaphysical universe, that universe that does partake of infinity and eternity, is that metaphysical values are specifically brought into the relationship to enhance the pairing so that it becomes a much stronger three-legged entity that can stand on its own and be that house in which two entities may live, the walls of which are made of hopes, and dreams, and love, but the floor of which is made of real effort, substantial work, and deep sacrifices between each to each.

And we would speak of sacrifice, for there is within the human experience that which can be perceived in many cases as sacrifice, which ensues from the commitment to a relationship. The essence of love in the sense of the Love of the infinite Creator is open-hearted giving and open-hearted receiving of energy which passes freely between two people. Within this atmosphere then, two people turn and face living a life together. And as the everyday life moves on from the committed relationship’s start, those energies that have been working through each to create and direct the path of seeking for each become those energies that intertwine in new and original ways because of the proximity of the two and because of the continuing accretion of shared memory and shared catalyst.

There is that figure in the archetypal mind which has the entities upon the wheel of life and as the wheel of life is turning, the entities are turned upside down, and all the money in their pockets is falling out and falling upon the fruitful earth. And indeed, in marriage, the wheel turns and sometimes one is receiving the gifts of others, and sometimes is losing the coins out of one’s pockets, perhaps on purpose, perhaps not. Yet, it may be perceived when one is at the top of the wheel, upside down and serving by giving, that one is being badly used, that one is sacrificing and not simply able, because of that position on the wheel, to offer a certain kind of love and support to the whole. It is well to be able to gaze steadily at the possibility, going into mated relationship, that there will be times of substantial, apparent sacrifice for, as this instrument has said many times, if two people feel that they are sacrificing almost a hundred percent for the relationship, with the other entity doing almost nothing, then it is possible that they are each doing their share. It is very difficult from close up to see the self and its efforts in balance with the efforts of the other self. It is sometimes hard to see the efforts of an other self and easy to see the efforts of self, and again there are times when the self is already seen as failing in a certain situation, and therefore the self is seen as not giving enough and the other self is seen as being overbalanced towards the giving.

We do not know, and could not say if we did, what the catalysts shall be for any mated pair as they begin to ride this ark of hopes and dreams along that endless ocean of perceived experience within incarnation. It is only possible for those upon the ark that they have made by their mutual love, to shine the wood of it, to polish the brass, to clean the head, to trim the sail, to keep the keel even and steady, and to gaze at the stars with sextant in hand, remembering your hopes and dreams and renewing, daily, that pride in being that makes the chores of living as one joyful. We encourage, in the dailiness of a mated relationship, the continual return to the place of marriage where two souls united with the Creator to create the temple of a lifetime of dedicated and committed loving. Move into the silence of that tabernacle which is within the heart. Move into that shared silence in which each may hear the Creator speak. Let Love be that which it is, but allow a Love which you know not to undergird and support that which you know now as Love. For Love has infinite lessons to offer and the more one is able to open the heart to the infinite consciousness that is Love, the more one is able to open even further and even further. So that, as this instrument would say, one comes into one’s bliss, and more and more is at rest and at peace within.

Now Q’uo said that the makeup of our heart is such when we have the ability to share with another self, that which is a burden to one of us, by that sharing and that exchange of energy, the suffering that we are undergoing is cut in half so that the great gift of a mated relationship is that we can speak of anything that we wish to which gives us permission from our open heart to live fully as one with another, and another gift of the mated relationship is that there is a ceremony where the Creator is invited to join the union and to give life to the union so that the value of the ceremony within the spiritual universe is that metaphysical values are brought into the relationship to enhance the mated relationship: “so that it becomes a much stronger three-legged entity that can stand on its own and be that house in which two entities may live, the walls of which are made of hopes, and dreams, and love, but the floor of which is made of real effort, substantial work, and deep sacrifices between each to each.” Q’uo went on to say that there is within the human experience that which can be perceived as sacrifice which comes from our commitment to the relationship and to the essence of love in the sense of the Love of the infinite Creator that is our open-hearted giving and receiving of energy which passes freely between our mate and us so that within this atmosphere two people turn and face living a life together, and as our life moves on from our committed relationship’s start, those energies that have been working through each of us to create our path of seeking become energies that intertwine in new ways because of our closeness with our mate and because of the increase of shared memory and shared catalyst. Q’uo continued by saying that there is the figure in the archetypal mind which has the entities upon the wheel of life, and as the wheel of life is turning, the entities are turned upside down, and all the money in their pockets is falling upon the fruitful earth, and in marriage the wheel turns, and sometimes we are receiving gifts of others, and sometimes we are losing the coins out of our pockets, but it may be seen when we are at the top of the wheel that we are being badly used, that we are not able to offer love and support to our relationship, so it is well for us realize that in our mated relationship there will be times when we feel that we are sacrificing everything for our relationship with our mate doing nothing, so then it is possible that we are each doing our share so that it is difficult from close up to see our efforts in balance with the efforts of our mate, and again there are times when we are seen as failing in a certain situation, and we are seen as not giving enough, and our mate is seen as being overbalanced towards the giving. Q’uo said that they did not know what the catalysts shall be for us as we begin to ride this ship of hopes and dreams in the ocean our experience within our lives together, and it is only possible for us to sail in the boat that we have built by our mutual love and to keep it functioning well and to remember our hopes and dreams and to exercise our pride in being able to make the chores of living a joyful experience. Q’uo completed their reply by encouraging us to return daily to the place of marriage where we unite with the Creator to create the temple of a lifetime of dedicated and committed loving and to move into the shared silence of the tabernacle which is within our heart where each of us may hear the Creator speak, and let Love be that which it is, and allow a Love which we do not know to support that which we know now as Love, for Love has infinite lessons to offer, and the more we are able to open our heart to the infinite consciousness that is Love, the more we are able to open even further, so we come into our bliss, and we are at rest and at peace within. On December 29, 1997, Q’uo described what it can mean for us to be at peace within:

That sun within that warms the soul waits for each to come to its own heart and knock and enter. The joy of opening the heart cannot be described. The experience of flying free of judgment, borne on the arms of compassion, is a heavy one. And this is the response that best addresses the difficulties of your planet. To the outer person, this sounds patently absurd. How can meditation, or prayer, or the centering within the self upon love affect a deadening ocean, a deadening land, a deadening atmosphere, and all the numerous other difficulties your culture is aware of? And yet, it is at being at peace within, and thusly being free to open the heart and allow the Love and Light of the infinite One to move through the self and out into the world: this is, by far, the most effective answer that you can give to the world of concerns everyday. For each of you is as a star. Each eternal, each unique, and each [inaudible] truly perfect. Incarnation and learning are peculiar things. It does seem peculiar to want to come into a darkened world, and spiritually speaking, there is some darkness upon your planet at this time, which you were speaking of earlier.

We thank the one known as G for this query, and at this time we would open the meeting to any other queries that any might have the desire to ask at this time. We are those of Q’uo.

J: Hi Q’uo, this is J, and I wanted to say hello. I wanted to ask a question about something I read in an interesting article today that stated that there might be beings that aren’t necessarily someone that we know that has a post set up north of Russia and it said these beings protect the Earth from asteroids, maybe from other interferences, and I was just wondering if you could confirm that or speak of it anyway?

We are those of Q’uo, and are aware of your query, my sister. We find that this energy is both true and untrue in terms of that which you have read, and to explicate, we would say that there are many energies within the inner planes which are detailed to work with perceived difficulties that might impinge upon those dwelling within third-density Earth at this time. These energies are not physical and cannot be found in dwelling places and so forth. Yet they are real, they are simply not those within third-density or physical bodies. This entity would call them angelic but this does beg the question of their nature, for we find no real word that lacks emotional energy for beings without bodies, shall we say. These energies, however, are positive, loving and very articulated.

May we answer you further, my sister?

J: No thank you, that’s good for now, thank you.

Q’uo: We thank you, my sister. Is there another query at this time?

G: Q’uo, beyond entering or moving through an initiation through the Great Pyramid, is there anything that an entity can do to become an initiated and purified channel of the Law of One that is as substantial and definitive and transformative? Can an intense desire affect the same type of change?

We are those of Q’uo and aware of your query, my brother. We cannot give you a general answer for entities besides yourself. We can say that there is for each self the possibility of creating and sustaining a successful effort towards realization. However, entities are variously blocked with regard to subtler work. There are densities and sub-densities within the inner planes where the structures of realization are promulgated and crafted by guidance systems that wish to aid and serve you in your evolution which must come into play when entities are within a certain frame of mind and when they have experienced a certain preliminary set of necessary…

[Side one of tape ends.]

These experiences may not come at the time that they are useful but like treasures, they are stored away against the proper moment and then, in that moment, entirely unpredictably for the most part, the frame of mind and the moment and those things which have needed to be ingested beforehand, in terms of experience, all come together and an epiphany results. We cannot say that there is one ritual which, when done with integrity and impeccability, will yield the result that you wish. We can only say that energies build to a moment and, in that moment, there is a crystallization of previous experience, and realization that occurs. It is a great gift and a great blessing. And in your case we may say that there are no adhering limitations or blockages which would keep the soul stream that lies beneath your personality shell from coming to that moment with those things which are necessary for realization. We simply suggest that the energy of faith be remembered and centered upon when there is doubt that one is able to become a purified instrument. Each is able to purify the self. That indeed is the very nature of the refinery that is the school of Earth.

May we answer you further, my brother?

G: No, thank you Q’uo.

R: May I ask, I seem to be many people in one physical body and there are times that I feel that I am a fraud, and I have wondered how this can be because I have thoughts and often desires that seem foreign. I wondered if there is an explanation?

We are those of Q’uo, and are aware of your query, my sister. Indeed, the explanation is fairly simple, my sister. When an entity is honest, and has insight, and has moved through many experiences, it is natural to feel that one has become wiser, and wiser, and wiser. However, it is also true that in spite of or around any integrated, conscious, daylight personality there lies that which, culturally speaking, is simply not accepted or admitted among your peoples, and that is the full 360-degree self which contains every shadow, every evil, every darkness that can be imagined by the mind, the heart, or the soul of human beings. All of those things that have ever been imagined, good or bad, according to various people’s lives, are part of that which is R and equally that which is Carla, or Jim, or J. There is no lack of evil, so-called, within the heart of any, for all were greatly accepting of and wanting this precise 3-D self that has all of the light and all of the dark. As experiences continue to flow in, there are moments when the integration falters and thoughts are separated out into the shadow side and the positive side. Neither side is a fraud. Both sides are real. The action of the self towards other self expresses that which is the perceived truth of the self. Many, many shadow, dark, evil parts of the self, then, stay within the self, are processed only by the self, there being no need to have the outer mirror of other self in order to be able to see one’s shadow self. The challenge then becomes internal. When the self is perceived as self-inconsistent, then whatever is perceived as the “bad self” is to be taken into the arms of that self which you experience as yourself so that you can rock that unloved portion of self in the arms of true compassion; so that you can say, “I fell in love with you a long time ago.”

Then there is the joy of telling that shadow the story that will charm it and will allow it to find its freedom within the interior portions of self where it can begin to be transformed into that power and grit of self, that, purified of the baser darkness, uses the power of darkness to assist the will of the daylight self.

May we answer you further, my sister?

R: Thank you.

Q’uo: Is there a further query at this time?

T: Q’uo, if it’s possible and appropriate, would you be able to touch me with your energies so that I could feel you?

[Pause]

We are those of Q’uo, and we have touched you.

T: Thank you.

Is there a final query at this time?

V: A couple of years ago I asked about the nature of the entity I know as Turquoise, and I wonder if Q’uo would speak to whether enough has changed in my perception, in my environment, and my incarnation to be able to answer that query?

We make this entity smile, my sister. We are those of Q’uo, and we may say only that you are quite correct, that this matter is upon the cusp at this time, and that you are dealing with it in a brilliant manner. We are sorry that we cannot speak further at this time, but there is that which shall take place within your process before we are able to speak without infringement. We thank you, my sister.

We are those of Q’uo, and we thank you again for the lovely experience of sharing in your meditation. We pray you may go forth from this meeting in joy and in peace. We are always with you by request as you meditate, to strengthen your meditation and to make the room of silence just a bit more sturdy and safe. We are those of Q’uo. We leave you in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. Adonai, adonai.

This morning I went over to my neighbor’s yard across the street and put birdseed on the ground under the bird feeders.

This afternoon I shoveled three loads of crushed rock from the corner of my next-door neighbors’ yard into my seed spreader and dumped the crushed rock at the end of my driveway. The snow removal company that I hired a few weeks ago to clear my driveway and parking areas put most of the combination of snow and crushed in this location, and most of it is still frozen from the cold weather of the last couple of weeks.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

February 15

The Kingdom Of Words

I am the spirit of the consciousness of Love, and I greet you in the name of Jesus the Christ.

There is a difficulty in the way in which we make ourselves known through this instrument. That difficulty extends to any who values too highly the citizens of the kingdom of words, for words do not equal understanding, nor is any number of words enough to grant the seeker entry to the kingdom of heaven.

When the spirit of Christ moves purely, It moves without concept and is, rather, the clean, clear wind of Logos, a Thought which remains unmanifest regardless of how many manifestations may shape themselves through free will from the living light furnished by Love.

Depend not upon words and, even more, depend not upon created words from within your own being, for there are many ways in which the seeker after truth may build houses which seem to hold truth, houses of words and concepts which rise high yet fall as would cards when the wind of the Spirit blows across the construction of your Earthly life.

Seek first the attitude change which comes from the contact with the Spirit of Love.

We wish you sublime and lasting peace, now and always. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from September 17:

(Carla channeling)

We are those known to you as the principle of Q’uo, and we greet you in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator in whose service we are, and by whose joy we are enlivened. We thank the one known as T for requesting this time of asking and we are most happy to share our opinions with the request that, as always, all the things we have to say be carefully reviewed and examined for their helpfulness to you personally. For many things are interesting, but there are those few things which are indeed yours by that internal and intuitive process of discrimination that the spirit has for those things which impinge upon its evolution. There is a resonance to those things that fit into that subjective search for the truth that is ever and always the same. If this can be done then we may feel free completely to share our opinions as what they are, mere opinion, those thoughts of a friend rather than those great teachings of some authority.

May we ask for your first query, my brother?

T: Q’uo has often spoken of the validity of both dramatic and non-dramatic forms of service to others. At this stage in my development, I feel that I may possibly be of service in just being and radiating love. Can you comment on this?

We are those of the principle known as Q’uo, and we are able, my brother, to comment on this. We would suggest that your sense of the paramount importance of the faculty of being is indeed the correct impression, not only for yourself but for all souls involved in incarnational experiences upon the Earth plane at this time. The function of the illusion is, in some part, to distract one from the essence of the self. It is the delight of the machinations of the forces of what this instrument would call “consensus reality” to bring into the awareness a nimiety of detail that so exceeds the ability of the conscious mind to assimilate in a direct or linear fashion, so that the mind shall be put to the task of prioritizing and sorting incoming data and so that the heart may have the opportunity to be sought when the mind has become useless as an instrument of wisdom by virtue of its over-stimulation.

The effect of this structure of illusion is that the self tends to be tempted towards a state of permanent distraction, thereby blunting or lessening the impact of the spiritual portion of the mind, the body, and the spirit in its interconnection within the emotional body. In the face of this condition of distractive environment, it becomes the central challenge of all entities seeking to live life well to begin to penetrate the glamour of the constant rain of detail, and to find beneath the details of an everyday existence those markers that only give a hint upon the surface of their depth and their sacredness within the very framework of the destructive elements of life as it is normally lived. It is a matter of a turn of the mind so that while a portion of the mind continues to deal with those physical priorities that are necessary for the movement of the honors and duties of a life lived in accordance with ethical beliefs…

[Pause, waiting out a disturbance in another part of the house.]

We are those of Q’uo, and find that this instrument has been somewhat distracted from her train of thought and so we shall begin again.

Thesemarkers are as the iceberg, barely sticking up into the sea of chaotic detail of an everyday life, yet these markers are everywhere, as the whitecaps upon the waves, and yet unlike the whitecaps, they do not go away. They merely are obscured from time to time by the swells and the restlessness of that archipelago of infinite detail that is the ocean of consensus reality. Consequently, the challenge of being within a lifetime of doing becomes the challenge of simple and utter focus and attentiveness to that sea of detail, not being in any way overwhelmed by the flood but rather trusting in the craft of self, that frail barque of body and sensibility and awareness that is you within incarnation. The challenge is to have the persistent vision to gaze into and through all detail, seeing and appreciating the momentary interest of each detail, yet always looking for that whitecap of indication that this contains a marker that moves down through the shallow surface of life into the depths of the being of the self, so that one may, many times within an hour, and many, many times within a day, take those arrows that lead downward into the self and ride them as far as you can, opening the intuition, opening the heart, and allowing the self to move as spirit would have you move.

There is a tremendous amount of trust of the self and of guidance involved in this technique, yet it is one which we offer to you because of the way that your particular mental, physical, and emotional make up creates for you genuinely advantageous, shall we say, “fast trains” to the depth of being which are marked by these little whitecaps that flash in the sun, that are not after all foam and spume as part of the water, but are instead that which comes barely out of the water but extends in much larger bulk beneath the water. Discerning between the evanescent whitecaps of detail that are whipped up from the bergs or avenues that lead down into the essential self is subtle work, yet it is that which, once opened as a technique, becomes ever more pliable and flexible and easy, shall we say, for the use of the person within the rush and the turmoil of a normally lived Earth life, as this instrument would describe it.

Dramatic service, as this instrument has termed it, is no less service than the service of being. It, however, addresses a different level of the tree of life, as this instrument would term it; a level that is closer to the archetypal and therefore more powerful to serve, although within your human consensus reality terms, such work as an essential being offers has virtually no recognition or respect. And many will be the time in which you as a soul stream, within incarnation, are quite fully engaged in being of service and are wholly caught up in the honor and duty thereof, yet will find others about the self not able in any way to grasp that which is being done within the mind or to value it were they to be given an explanation of this technique. We suggest that it is well to disregard the opinion of others who do not at this particular point in your space/time dwell with you, for this particular service has both the glory and the great challenge of being utterly unique. No one, in all of the infinite creation, not even your own soul stream in other incarnational experiences, has developed this particular essence, this particular group of colors or collection of scents. There is a tactile, sensual aspect to being for which it is impossible for this instrument to find words; that is, we cannot find words within this instrument’s mind to express the particularly personal and deeply intimate nature of the service of being. It is a demanding discipline to seek, to find, to accept, to love, and to give up the self.

The question from T: “Q’uo has often spoken of the validity of both dramatic and non-dramatic forms of service to others. At this stage in my development, I feel that I may possibly be of service in just being and radiating love. Can you comment on this?” Q’uo began their reply by saying the effect of this third-density illusion is that we are distracted by details that reduce the effect of the spiritual portion of our mind, body, and spirit in their connections with our emotional body so that in this distracting environment it becomes our challenge—if we wish to live a good life–to begin to penetrate the constant rain of detail and to find, beneath the details of an everyday existence, those markers that give a hint upon the surface of their depth and their sacredness within the very framework of the distracting elements of our life as we normally live it, and it is a matter of a turn of our mind so that while a portion of our mind continues to deal with those physical priorities that are necessary for the movement of the honors and duties of our life lived in accordance with ethical beliefs…

[Pause, waiting out a disturbance in another part of the house.]

We are those of Q’uo, and find that this instrument has been somewhat distracted from her train of thought and so we shall begin again. Q’uo went on to say that these markers are like an iceberg, barely sticking up into the sea of chaotic detail of our everyday life, yet these markers are everywhere, as the whitecaps upon the waves, and yet unlike the whitecaps, they do not go away, and they are occasionally hidden by the swells and the restlessness of that infinite detail that is the ocean of consensus reality so that our challenge of being within a lifetime of doing becomes our challenge of utter focus on that sea of detail, not being overwhelmed by the flood but rather trusting in the craft of ourself, that frail ship of our body and  awareness that we are within incarnation so that our challenge is to have the persistent vision to gaze into all detail and see the momentary interest of each detail, yet always looking for a marker that moves down through the shallow surface of our life into the depths of the being of ourself so that many times throughout the day we may take those arrows that lead downward into ourself and ride them as far as we can and open our intuition, our heart, and allow ourself to move as spirit would have us move. Q’uo continued by saying there is a tremendous amount of trust of ourself and of guidance involved in this technique, yet it is one which they offered to us because of the way that our mental, physical, and emotional makeup creates for us helpful “fast trains” to the depth of our being which are marked by these whitecaps that flash in the sun, that are that which barely comes out of the water but extends in greater size beneath the water, and discerning between the whitecaps of detail that are whipped up from the avenues that lead down into our essential self is subtle work, and it is that which becomes more flexible and easy for our use within the rush and the turmoil of our normal Earth life. Then Q’uo said that dramatic service is no less service than the service of being because it addresses a different level of the tree of life that is closer to the archetypal and more able to serve, although, within our consensus reality, such work that an essential being offers has no respect, and many will be the times in which we as a soul stream are fully engaged in being of service and are caught up in the honor and duty of doing so, yet we will find others about ourself are not able to grasp that which is being done within the mind or to value it were they to be given an explanation of this technique, so Q’uo suggested that it is well to disregard the opinion of others who do not at this point in our space/time dwell with us, for this service has the glory and the challenge of being utterly unique, and no one, in all of the infinite creation, not even our own soul stream in other incarnational experiences, has developed this essence so that there is a sensual aspect to being, and we cannot find words to express the deeply intimate nature of the service of being because it is a demanding discipline to seek, to find, to accept, to love, and to give up the self. On August 24, 2005, Q’uo described the service of being:

The other way in which we would respond to your query is simply to say that the fundamental service of all of those who polarize towards service to others is the service of being yourself, most deeply, most honestly, and most humbly. The beingness of one who has achieved a clarity within is a beingness which radiates according to the amount of energy that you allow through your chakra body or your electrical body. You are constantly doing energy work on behalf of the one infinite Creator as you breathe and be who you are. This is the fundamental and central gift that you are giving in this life. This instrument has said many times that the outer gifts pale in comparison to this central gift.

There is in this instrument’s experience the repeated occasion of what she calls Holy Communion, in which the one known as Jesus the Christ describes Itself as the body that is broken for many, which one takes in remembrance of that being. This entity also offers Its own blood, which is shed for many so that the being may take on this persona of the Christ, and in the way of “As above, so below,” become that which is held in utter ideal. Within each self there is the Christ or the Christed consciousness that is the very essence of self. That self of Christhood is pure and is uncolored by that energy or entity which wears the cape, or coat, or cloak of Christhood. Each entity, in coming into incarnation, is as that being which is the Christ, yet which may be in any stage of development within the heart of the incarnational being.

Consequently, the hope of one who is seeking to serve in the ministry of being is seeking to open the self up from the level of the personality shell, with all of its limitations, its desires, and its needs, so that, more and more, the self may descend from the surface of self, which is those honestly felt things which bear little of truth, to that inner level of self that opens, and opens again, and opens again, as the self is able to become honest with the self, to gaze within especially those shadow portions of the self, so that, as those shadows are found, they are welcomed, accepted, loved, and used to move ever deeper into a state of unconditional love of the self as it is perceived by the self to be imperfect. To have love for the self at this level flies in the face of culture and nature in terms of the human tendency towards thinking less of the self and more of outward authority figures and other perceived judges of the self.

The environment for work upon the self needs to contain safety. To be safe for the self to the self from the level of self is a challenge that will continue until the moment of realization occurs in which you as an entity are able to know beyond question that you truly are part of the Godhead principle and that, as you dig in the perceived dirt and earth of your humanity, that which you toss up is not the best you will see, and that which is hidden is worth the digging. So, you may think of yourself as digging for buried treasure. Yet always, when the digging is done, and the self is at last satisfied with that work which the mind and the feelings can do, there is the infinitely shorter route to realization of the true nature of the self that is involved in moving into the open heart and sitting within that tabernacle in which the Creator is always waiting, to share silence with that Creator, to share being with that Creator that is the deepest part of you and is therefore never away from you.

Consciousness is that which you partake in, in the semblance and illusion of individuality. As you hook into that consciousness from the eccentric surface of your personality shell, you become more and more able to trust that path of light that leads from that crooked and sometimes tormented surface to the still, clear, lovely waters of the deep self. It is not that the one known as T has no capacity or opportunity for dramatic service in the sense of teaching or offering other outer gifts to be shared by those in need upon the Earth plane. Each entity within this circle came into incarnation with some plans in that regard, with some hopes of sharing deeply felt gifts with those who might appreciate them. Yet those dramatic gifts have a way of being offered only when the time has been put in, in clearing the energies, in disciplining the personality, in falling in love with the self, and more than all else, in becoming aware of the way the self is, the way it feels when one is in that holy of holies in which all things are one.

Becomemore and more conversant with moving through the levels of being, knowing that perhaps for many a month after starting to gaze at the various depths of perception, there will be some real question about what level the thought is upon at a particular time, and ah! the mind has many twists and turns to cause the surface mind to misperceive. However, there is always a stream of information coming from the system of guidance that is your own, and this stream will for the most part be in synchronicities and coincidences that point up certain trains of thought that isolate and underline, shall we say, or emphasize certain key concepts. Once the entity begins looking for such, the incidence of them begins to rise until one begins to feel that indeed the universe never stops speaking to the self. And indeed, this is so.

Then Q’uo said in Carla’s experience of what she calls the Holy Communion is where Jesus the Christ describes Itself as the body that is broken for many, and which is taken in remembrance of that being, and Jesus also offers His own blood, which is shed for many so that Carla may take on this persona of the Christ, and in the way of “As above, so below,” become that which is held as a pure ideal so that within each of us there is the Christed consciousness that is the very essence of ourself, and that self of Christhood is pure and is uncolored by that entity which wears the cape of Christhood so that when we come into incarnation we are as that being which is the Christ, yet we may be in any stage of development within the heart of our incarnational being. Now Q’uo said that our hope as we are seeking to serve in the ministry of being is seeking to open ourself up from the level of our personality shell, with all of its limitations, its desires, and its needs, so that, more and more, we may descend from the surface of ourself, which is those honestly felt things which bear little of truth, to that inner level of ourself that opens as we are able to become honest with ourself, to gaze within those shadow portions of ourself so that as those shadows are found, and are loved, and are used to move ever deeper into a state of unconditional love of ourself as it is perceived by ourself to be imperfect, then we can have love for ourself at this level that flies in the face of the human tendency towards thinking less of the self and more of outward authority figures and other perceived judges of the self. Q’uo went on to say the environment for work upon ourself needs to contain safety, and this is a challenge that will continue until the moment of realization occurs in which we are able to know we truly are part of the Godhead principle and that, as we dig in the dirt and earth of our humanity, that which we find is not the best we will see, and that which is hidden is worth the digging so that we may think of ourself as digging for buried treasure, and when the digging is done, and we are satisfied with that work which our mind and feelings can do, there is the infinitely shorter route to realization of the true nature of ourself that is involved in moving into our open heart and sitting within that tabernacle in which the Creator is always waiting, to share silence with that Creator, to share being with that Creator that is the deepest part of us and is never away from us. Q’uo continued by saying that consciousness is that which we partake in within the illusion of individuality, and as we tune into that consciousness from the surface of our personality shell, we become able to trust that path of light that leads from the distorted surface to the clear and lovely waters of our deep self, so each of us came into incarnation with hopes of sharing our deeply felt gifts with those who might appreciate them, but these gifts have a way of being offered only when we have been able to discipline our personality, to fall in love with ourself, and to become aware of the way that our self feels when we are in the holy of holies where all things are one. Q’uo said that we should become more familiar with moving through the levels of our being, knowing that it may be many months after starting to look at the various depths of our perception that we will have a question about what our level of thought is upon at any time, and we will discover that our deeper mind has many ways to cause our surface mind to misperceive, but there is always information coming from the system of guidance that is our own, and this stream will be in coincidences that point out certain trains of our thought that emphasize key concepts so that once we begin looking for them, the their frequency begins to rise until we feel that the universe never stops speaking to us, and this is so. On May 20, 2005, Q’uo described how our system of guidance works:

This teamwork extends beyond you and the one known as T into unseen realms, for there are those of your social memory complex within unseen realms both inner and outer, that is, both native to this planet and beyond this planetary orb, that are also involved in helping you and the one known as T move forward in those goals to which you both have dedicated yourself towards accomplishing within this incarnational experience. In this way, you are set up very solidly in terms of being surrounded by many unseen friends and with a very strong system of guidance that is available to you.

We are, however, aware that your query involves the reason for your awareness of other entities’ patterns, and we would at this time offer a few comments on the kind of service for which you provided yourself with this information as a part of, shall we say, your personality shell. Before incarnation, you and your guidance system together spoke in many different ways concerning the hopes that you personally had for your service to the people of planet Earth. You responded greatly to the concept of helping all of humankind and yet there is a portion of your soul stream that wished to bring service down to the small details and to the individual entities that you would meet within this incarnation. It was your hope that, by giving yourself these awarenesses of the subconscious material involved in the entities with whom you came in contact, you would be able to see into these patterns in a way that was filled with compassion and unconditional love.

May we ask for your next query, my brother?

T: Thank you, Q’uo. I think you answered many of my questions. My next question is, can you comment on ways in which I can best support the development of the community here at L/L Research?

We are those of Q’uo, and are aware of your query, my brother. As we, shall we say, riffle through the pages of this instrument’s mind, it is at the surface of this instrument’s mind that the one known as T serves as he speaks, as he sits. He has been a part of this group for the last several of your days. During the weeks of visitation, there have been energies exchanged upon many levels. There has been the obvious exchange that strikes the eye of physical interaction and the sharing of energy moving in a common goal that is greater than the self. There have been those energies exchanged which move far below that surface energy, which are far more important in their energies. Those would indeed be in the areas where the one known as T has, in its own process, in its own studies, developed a steadiness and a sturdiness of stability and dedication which enables him to remain in a most equitable and, as this instrument would say, cheerful state whether faced with an enjoyable and easily contained challenge or with a seeming disaster or a situation which seems to have become too complex to handle easily.

This ability to enjoy the process of dealing with items large and small, be they physical, emotional, mental, or spiritual, is that energy within a mixture of rays, in terms of chakra points, which this particular group does not have in abundance. Consequently, the chemistry, shall we say, or the coloration of energies as they are exchanged around the circle of community are of such a nature as to clarify and strengthen the energies and stability within the energies of those with whom energy is exchanged.

At the same time, there is within the group an abundance of certain energies which the one known as T has in lesser degree than perhaps others within the circle of community and is of service therefore to the community in being able to accept and appreciate those love offerings of energy in which inspiration and to some extent information is exchanged that creates a sense of appreciation and a sense of being at home, which in turn reflects back into the group in a way that increases the energy of all. This particular entity fits into the circle of growing group energy which the entity known as L/L Research has begun to build with this new grouping in a way that is most beneficial. So, these are obvious ways in which the energy exchange with those of the community is being helpful. There is always the possibility of developing those energy exchanges, of creating more linkage and, by collaboration, more focuses for the shared energy that is being raised into a dome of light by this group.

May we answer you further upon this point, my brother?

T: Yes, thank you, Q’uo. Can you talk a little bit more about how I can collaborate with the group to raise this dome of light?

We are those of Q’uo, and are aware of your query, my brother. While there is what this instrument would call the luxury of presence, it is well to share presence, to share beingness, and to share tasks. When the space/time continuum moves to that point at which the one known as T is upon the other side of your beautiful planet from this particular group, then it will be that this same energy exchange may continue within the heart, for once entities have connected and bonded in the emotional, and mental, and physical, and spiritual bodies, as each within this group has with the one known as T, there is a connection that cannot be broken, neither in life nor in death. Each has become part of the net of being that is the other and indeed each within this particular group has worked together before and so there is that sense of camaraderie and being warriors together, not against any but for the light.

As to the nature of collaboration, as to the nature of shared support, we would suggest that each day and each choice shall be that which blooms and develops and leads to other choices and other decisions which in turn develop that shared energy. The thing to remember always is that there is a general, well-thought-out plan not for one particular project but for one general shared mission of lightening the planet with beingness and with other, more outer, services as well as seems indicated by the highest and best guidance that one is capable of receiving from day to day to day. Thusly, we could not offer one specific answer but rather the suggestion to look within the self for those things which might forward or further collaborative projects that the group as a whole has begun and to feel free at all times to share impressions, to make suggestions from those feelings that come from being guided that such-and-such resonates and is a good thing to bring up, is a good intuition to share.

May we answer you further, my brother?

T: Thank you, Q’uo. Can you suggest ways in which I might refine my current form of Gaia meditation?

We are the Q’uo, and are aware of your query, my brother. We find that this is too close to your process for us to be able to comment upon it at this time other than by saying that there are materials upon this organization’s website and upon other websites which deal with the quest for a planetary visualization of peace and of planetary restoration that can be sought while the self is tuned not just to those suggestions but to that which draws sparks from the inner fire of self. So, our suggestion would be, first, to find that inner fire to refine the focus of desire and, when it is one-pointed and singular, to open the self to some suggestions from others and to find those threads which lead to other threads which lead to a feeling that, yes, this feels very rich for me, this is my method of bonding with the Earth, of loving Gaia, of relating intimately to those energies of restoration, peace and safety that are the hallmarks of fourth density.

May we answer you further, my brother?

T: Thank you, Q’uo. Can you provide any information on the spiritual theology I have been told that I taught in ancient times linked to the obsidian stone?

We are those of Q’uo, and find that to work upon your process does indeed cross the boundaries of infringement on your free will. We would, however, confirm that this is an interesting avenue to investigate, not just in terms of thought but in terms of feeling.

May we answer you further, my brother?

T: Can you help me to understand in which areas I have yet to forgive myself and how I can best achieve this forgiveness and acceptance?

We are those of Q’uo, and are aware of your query, my brother. We make this instrument smile with our smile, for truly this is a most central query and one which cuts to the heart of process, for forgiving oneself is forgiving the world. Working on peace in the world is a matter of seeking that place of peace within the self where the self is forgiven. Entities within incarnation upon planet Earth tend to build for themselves a defensive shell designed to protect the self against the slings and arrows of outrageous parents, teachers, and other critics of the small child. The criticism begins early and stays late, and so the self becomes more and more embattled behind the armor of defensiveness. And this is held together with the rivets of fear. There is the fear that one is not good enough. There is the fear that one will never be good enough, but good enough for what? That question is seldom asked because it has no answer. How can one be good enough in a situation in which each and every human, by virtue of its incarnation into the state of humanhood, is imperfect? The human animal, as it were, is designed to be imperfect. It is not intended that any human being learn the ways of love to such an extent that they become flawless. It is not intended; it is not expected by those who appreciate and love each and every soul stream that is taking incarnation at this time upon planet Earth. You are greatly…

[Side one of tape ends.]

(Carla channeling)

The challenge of forgiving the self, then, is not an individual challenge based upon those items which remain unforgiven. For there is always that which is unforgiven, since it has not yet been discovered. No matter how many times you as an entity are triggered by fear and the working of, what this instrument would call, old tapes that have to play within the head once they are started of the old, unforgiving voices of authority within childhood which somehow have become the interior voices of self, there remains something as yet undiscovered that will, one fine day, rear up out of the sunlight and astonish you with the depth of your imperfection. And you will, once again, be offered the choice of judgment or forgiveness of the self. We do not discourage the faculties of review or oversight. It is perfectly acceptable and useful to critique the self and to say, “I would prefer I had not done this,” or “I would prefer I had done this and yet I have not.” These perceived errors are very helpful because they help the entity you are to behave better.

Yet we attempt in forgiving the self to move beneath the level of behavior so that you as a being are able to link together the good things about yourself with the perceived imperfections of the self, seeing that you cannot have the one without the other. You cannot have the virtues without their shadows, seeing that every virtue, self-perceived as virtue, if stood on its head and placed in a situation which makes it turn backwards or athwartships, will result in the shadow side of that virtue, which will be astoundingly imperfect. So, we are unable to suggest specific areas for the work of forgiving the self. Rather, we suggest that in every area where you catch yourself in the process of judging the self, it useful, then, to take the time at some point as close as possible to this time of perception, to move back into that situation and that equation of evolving process that is occurring, with an eye to moving beneath both the imperfection and whatever virtue you may identify as the flip-side of that imperfection, to the sacrament of being and essence that lies beneath both the imperfection and the balancing virtue. For each perceived virtue, if balanced within the self, will reveal its shadow, and vice-versa.

We do mean to be necessarily confusing here. We may take a simple example of the feeling of impatience. Where is that coming from? It is well to look at such a perceived imperfection. And yet what is the virtue that makes entities impatient but a well-perceived sense of duty, a well-disciplined sense of planning and scheduling and prioritizing, and many other aspects which are extremely virtuous and full of character? The idea of forgiving the self is not to find a strand here, and a strand there, and a strand in the third place of perceived unforgiven self and pluck those out. It is to embrace such perceived moments with the hope of opening the self to the unity of that imperfection with the perfection it balances, so that you may see that you are not a “good” being and attempting to destroy the “bad” being that may exist beneath the floor of the “good” being. Rather, you are attempting to become a full, circular, and robust self that knows its shadow side, knows its virtues, and knows that neither is the true tale of the self but only the process that is occurring to allow the self to move ever deeper into that self, that interior road to the center of self that lightens as it goes until, in the very center of self, in the heart of self, in the tabernacle of the Creator within the self, there is a stunning, flooding white Light that melts every consideration and allows one to rest in adoration and faith.

Then T asked: “Can you help me to understand in which areas I have yet to forgive myself and how I can best achieve this forgiveness and acceptance?” Q’uo began their reply by saying that working on peace in the world is a matter of seeking that place of peace within ourself where we are forgiven, and that we tend to build defensive shells designed to protect ourself against criticisms and attacks from adults around us when we are children so that we become more and more embattled behind the armor of defensiveness which is held together by the fear that we will never be good enough even though we don’t know what we need to do to be good enough, and every human is designed to be imperfect, so it is not intended that any human being learn the ways of love so they become flawless as this was not intended; it is not expected by those who appreciate and love each and every soul stream that is taking incarnation at this time upon planet Earth. Q’uo went on to say that the challenge of forgiving ourself is not an individual challenge based upon those items which remain unforgiven because there is always that which we have not forgiven since we haven’t discovered those parts of ourself, and no matter how many times we experience fear and the replaying of old tapes of the unforgiving voices of authority from our childhood, which have become the interior voices of ourself, that one day they will speak out of the blue and reveal the depth of our imperfection, and we will, once again, be offered the choice of judgment or forgiveness of ourself, so Q’uo did not discourage the faculties of review or oversight because it is perfectly acceptable and useful to critique ourself and to say: “I would prefer I had not done this,” or “I would prefer I had done this and yet I have not.” These perceived errors are very helpful because they help the entity you are to behave better.” Q’uo continued by saying that in attempting to forgive ourself that we move beneath the level of behavior so that we are able to link together the good things about ourself with the seeming imperfections of ourself to see that we cannot have one without the other, and if we took some virtues and see them in a different light they will result in the shadow side of that virtue which will be obviously imperfect, so Q’uo was unable to suggest specific areas for our work of forgiving ourself, but they suggested that in every area where we catch ourself in the process of judging ourself it is useful to take the time as close as possible to this time of perception to move back into that situation that is occurring: “with an eye to moving beneath both the imperfection and whatever virtue you may identify as the flip-side of that imperfection, to the sacrament of being and essence that lies beneath both the imperfection and the balancing virtue. For each perceived virtue, if balanced within the self, will reveal its shadow, and vice-versa.” Q’uo completed their thoughts by saying that we should look at where our feeling of impatience is coming from and consider the possibility that it might come from a well-perceived sense of duty or a well-disciplined sense of prioritizing, and other behaviors which are virtuous and full of character so that the idea of forgiving ourself is to embrace such perceived moments with the hope of opening ourself to the unity of that imperfection with the perfection it balances, so that we may see that we are not a “good” being which is attempting to destroy the “bad” being that may exist beneath the floor of the “good” being, but we are attempting to become: “a full and robust self that knows its shadow side, knows its virtues, and knows that neither is the true tale of the self but only the process that is occurring to allow the self to move ever deeper into that self, that interior road to the center of self that lightens as it goes until, in the very center of self, in the heart of self, in the tabernacle of the Creator within the self, there is a stunning, flooding white Light that melts every consideration and allows one to rest in adoration and faith.” On February 15, 2004, Q’uo spoke of the nature of the center of self which each of us is:

Move with us, if you will, in the clockwise motion about the circle, feeling the energy of the group moving, growing, and forming a temple of light about you. Now continue that exercise, but move only within the orbit of your being, and feel the part of the temple of the group that you are. Feel that smaller temple whose light moves into the group energy. Now, move deeper and deeper within that holy and sacred space within until you come to the very center of that being that you are and rest there. Stop, and sense into that quiet, living center of self which is your heart. Here is your place of rest, recuperation and healing. Here is your place to reach out your hand to the Creator and to feel Its hand in yours before the reaching has ever been done. This is the center of your connection to guidance, truth, and stability. Were we never to speak with you another word, were there no perceived authority to offer wisdom, this center of self would be entirely sufficient to guide you, in terms of that which your desires for this incarnation were before you ever came into the experience of life with its hectic breath and its beating heart (and we may say, because of this instrument’s allergies, its itching nose). Before all of the sensations of life, the center is the place of rest and the platform from which one may spring into action, spring into expanded being, spiral into those lessons to be learned and those services to be performed.

May we answer you further, my brother?

T: Thank you, Q’uo. Can you offer any advice in relation to the two Vipassana retreats that I plan to complete?

We are with this instrument. We are those of Q’uo, and are aware of your query. We would offer three suggestions. Firstly, we would suggest attention to the details of sleep so that there is the opportunity given to the body to rest completely at times deemed appropriate by you so that you are able to withstand the catalyst of intensive realization. Secondly, we would suggest in the matter of clothing that care be taken to be comfortable so that the chafing and other disturbing of the skin by the clothing is kept to a minimum, again in order to remove a stumbling block from a one-pointed focus upon the work itself. Thirdly, we would suggest working with body and structures that support the body in various ways to identify and, as far as possible, improve the sitting posture, for there is within the discipline of Vipassana meditation, or any prolonged sitting meditation, the challenge of the inner body and its previous habit of movement being so firmly overset in such a short amount of time.

These three minor details, when seen to, set the stage for that which is your process during this period. Certainly, we cannot suggest to you those spiritual tools and resources which are part of your learn/teaching process at this time. We simply ask you to have faith in the ability of the self to discern that which it needs to hear amidst possibly a welter of detail it does not need to hear, trusting always that sense of rightness for the self. We wish you the joy of such intensive work, my brother.

May we speak further upon this?

T: Thank you, Q’uo. If the instrument still has sufficient energy, can you give me any information on Earth chakras near Brisbane, Australia and maybe how I might be able to use them to enhance my practice?

We are those of Q’uo, and are aware of your query, my brother. We find that in the particular entity that you are, your most helpful portals will be those involved in the nearness of water and, if at all possible, the nearness of crystals. The caves and grottos which may contain crystals especially are helpful. The coincidence of hollowed spaces and water create portals anywhere so that we feel that these perhaps are your best opportunities in terms of your geographical location and your own system of sensitivities which includes that towards water.

We have energy left within this instrument for one last query at this time and would ask for it.

T: You mentioned crystals. Are there any certain types of crystals which may be beneficial to have near me, perhaps when I practice within my home?

We are aware of your query, my brother. May we say that water itself is the crystal to which you are most strongly attuned. Other crystals may aid from time to time, and we would suggest a testing of the self, either with pendulum or simply with presence and familiarity with certain crystals in choosing those stones which you feel to be most apt for you at a given time. We find that in your energy environment, the environment of your energy body, there is a very stable, cyclical turn of energy that ever spirals and is ever changing, so far from being a settled or fixed being in terms of energy body, you as an entity are always in motion and consequently, the stones that have crystallized down into solid matter are less powerful for you than charged water.

May we answer you further, my brother?

T: Only if the instrument has sufficient energy. I have felt a connection with water, and I think you have really answered my question but there were a lot of coincidences with water-based events in my past. Was that a symbol of my connection with water?

We are those of Q’uo, and may confirm this, my brother.

May we say what a pleasure and privilege it is to speak with you and to each within this circle! We thank you with all our hearts for taking the time, and the energy, and the focus to be with spirit, to be with guidance, to be with those forces of love and wisdom as you know them. We are poor messengers indeed, yet we offer ourselves in the hopes that we may be of some help, and we thank you for the tremendous… we cannot find a word within this instrument’s mind, but it is a treasure that we hold dear to our hearts to have this time with you. We thank you. We leave each, as always, in the love and the light of the one infinite Creator. We are with you by request whenever you enter the silence of that great tabernacle of the heart. We leave you in the love and the light of the one infinite Creator. We are those of the Q’uo. Adonai vasu borragus.

This morning I vacuumed the first floor of my home, and then I drove up to OfficeMax in the Springhurst Shopping Center to buy a couple of toner cartridges for my printer because the old cartridge had run out of toner.

On February 14, 2014, Carla gave me a big valentine that she had made, with the help of a friend, in which she wrote a poem for me:

It could have been a dream of mine but then

I surely would have wakened quickly when

You swept me up in your strong, able arm

To save me from the threat of mortal harm.

But off we galloped in the morning mist

And still I sleep a seeming dream of bliss,

So surely I have been awake today,

And just as surely, we’re not made of clay,

But images that spirit gives us free

That say that you are you, and I am me.

How I love you, bravest, strongest horseman

And thank thee with all my love and more than

That, in all my life to come, and more

“Tis you I’ll always cherish and adore.”

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

February 14

The Power Of Love

I come upon this instrument as the principle of Jesus the Christ. I greet you in the divine Love of perfect consciousness and peace.

How strong are your hands, how able your minds, and how you glory in your energies and your abilities! Remove your attention from these things for but a moment and find yourself prostrate before the power of Love.

This is a day among your people devoted to love. And each chooses to give love to others. In your prostration, realize the true nature of love, which has not to do with ability or strength or any manner of human usefulness. But rest all your confidence in the infinite compassion and Love which is the true nature of that Love you so desire to give and receive.

Feel that Love and compassion pour through you. Abandon yourself to it and become an instrument of it. And as you receive this consolation, so the face of the earth may be renewed.

We leave you in the infinite power, peace and love of Jesus the Christ, now and forever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from September 7:

The question today has to do with change and how we respond to change. We’ve talked around the circle today, and it’s the common theme for everyone that there have been a lot of changes. And as we look at the situation in the world today, we see rapid changes, some of them violent, drastic, and catastrophic. We were wondering if there is a particular response to change that could be recommended? We are forming a community. It seems to be a very good thing to do in the way of providing support and inspiration and encouragement and reinforcement to individuals. People seem to have a way, whether they live together or talk together at work, of sharing their energies and lending their support to each other. Could you talk to us about change, and community, and the best way to respond to change?

(Carla channeling)

We are those known to you as Q’uo, and we greet you, with great delight, in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator, in whose service we are. It is a great pleasure to be called to your circle as you convene your public meetings, and we cannot thank you enough. We thank each of you for the beauty of your vibrations, for the pureness of your hearts, for reserving the time for the seeking of truth, and for the steadiness of your dedication which has caused you to create this time from your busy life.

It is a great blessing to us to be called to you and to be able to share those thoughts that we would share. We ask only that each who hears these words realize they are the words of friends rather than those of authorities. Therefore, in order to allow us the freedom to speak our thoughts, we ask that you discriminate carefully with each and every thought that we share, choosing to remember those which seem to be helpful to you and discarding the rest without a second thought. We are most pleased to share on this most timely question of change, how to respond to change well and how to think of change.

The first change that each experiences within incarnation is that change which brings one into incarnation. As this instrument has noted from time to time, the birth is as the dropping from the plane, with or without parachute. There will be a landing! And there will be an ending to the incarnation. That which arises from dust goes again to dust. In truth, the experience of incarnation itself, is an experience rooted in, steeped in, and moving towards change. It is not a circumstance but rather a progression, a developmental cycle; if we could use your terminology, a grade of your school, visited for a semester. This is your course, Life 331-B. We joke about the number, but the concept is true as far as we know.

There are certain organized features of the change within an incarnation. There is an organization of lessons, shall we say, a curriculum, that was chosen by you and your higher self prior to incarnation. Those who incarnated at this particular time within your planet’s density have incarnated because there was a desire for a more intensive experience of change and transformation and the opportunities for rebalancing the wisdom and the energy within the energy body of the self that was irresistible. Consequently, each of you has chosen certain courses for the particular term that is your incarnation. These courses or lessons or curricula have names such as “Loving Without Condition,” “Creating Sacred Space,” “Sanctifying the Rays of Living,” including the ray of survival, the ray of relationship, the ray of working, the ray of communicating, and so forth. Different entities have chosen to take somewhat different courses. Each has a different course load, a slightly different experience.

Yeteach is moving through a process that is very regular, and guarded, and safe from the standpoint of the spirit or the soul stream of the self. However, within incarnation this is not obvious. Consequently, the illusory experience of taking this course of Life 101 is much more chaotic in its feeling, in its perceived nature, than would be the perception of yourself outside of incarnation and outside of the veil of illusion that is this particular organization of time and space in such a way that it is, shall we say, space/time rather than time/space.

Thusly, the first thing we would say about the way to deal with the concept or the perception that one is in a process of change is to remember the structure that supports this perception. That structure is your eternal and infinite soul stream, that energy that is you, now and forever. A part of that energy has moved into the habitation of the physical body or vehicle, and at this time you are inextricably intertwined, energetically, with this physical vehicle. Yet you are not this physical vehicle. You simply reach into the physical vehicle with the ties and bonds of your dedication of self to the incarnation and connections within the energy body that move into the connections in each chakra. As you present yourselves to us at this time, you sit in the jars of clay, shall we say, that are the vehicles of your physical body, which cannot contain the rainbow self that is your energy, or energetic body. This rainbow self shimmers, and glows, and exceeds the boundaries of physicality. And in the balance of each of those chakras, we see much that is not apparent within the veil of third-density illusion.

One interesting exercise to use, when one wishes to learn more about the self and where the self is blocked, is simply to rest with the self in a meditative state until one is able to begin to see how the energies of the body are balanced. There is perhaps the technique of asking oneself, “Let me see my energy,” and then allowing the rainbow (red, orange, yellow… ) to come to life in your inner vision as you call the colors, so that you are able, in an intuitive way, in a direct way, to gain access to that part of you which is not verbal and which is far more connected to the truth of your energy body. This can be evoked simply by asking, with great faith, that you are asking an actual part of the self that can respond. The talent here is not in technique but in the trust and the “allowing-to-be-true” of the technique. It is not a skill of the mind but rather a skill, as the one known as G has said, of the will, or of the heart and the will together.

The group question for this session was: “Could you talk to us about change, and community, and the best way to respond to change?” Q’uo began their reply by saying the first change that we experience within our incarnation is by incarnating into our body, so our experience of our incarnation itself is an experience of constant cycles of change until our incarnation ends. Then Q’uo said that there is a curriculum of our lessons that we chose with our higher self prior to our incarnation so that all of us who have incarnated at this time within our planet’s density have incarnated because there was a desire for a more intensive experience of change and the opportunities for us to rebalance wisdom within our energy body so that each of us has chosen courses for our incarnations, and these lessons are: “Loving Without Condition,” “Creating Sacred Space,” “Sanctifying the Rays of Living,” and include the red ray of survival, the orange ray of relationship, the yellow ray of working, the ray blue ray of communicating, and so forth so that different entities have chosen to take somewhat different courses, and each of us has a slightly different experience. Q’uo went on to say that each of us is moving through a process that is safe and guarded from the viewpoint of our soul stream, but within our incarnation this is not obvious so that our illusory experience of taking this course in Life 101 is more chaotic in its feeling than would be the perception of ourself outside our incarnation and outside of the veil of forgetting that is an organization of time and space in such a way that it is, shall we say, space/time rather than time/space. Q’uo continued by saying that the way to deal with the concept that we are in a process of change is to remember the structure that supports this perception of our infinite soul stream that is our true identity, and a part of that energy has moved into our physical body so that at this time we are completely energetically intertwined with our physical body as we reach into our body with the bonds of our dedication of ourself to our incarnation and connections within our energy body that move into the connections in each chakra, and as we present ourselves to Q’uo at this time, we sit in jars of clay that are the vehicles of our body which cannot contain our rainbow self that is our energetic body, and our aura shimmers and exceeds the boundaries of physicality, and in the balance of each of our chakras Q’uo saw much that is not apparent within the veil of third-density illusion. Now Q’uo said that one exercise we could use when we wish to learn more about ourself–and where we are blocked–is to rest with ourself in meditation until we are able to see how the energies of our body are balanced and asking ourself “Let me see my energy,” and then allowing the rainbow of colors to  appear in our inner vision so that we are intuitively able to gain access to that part of us which is not verbal and more connected to the truth of our energy body, and this can be evoked by having faith that we are asking an actual part of ourself that can respond. Q’uo said that the talent here is not in technique but in faith that the “allowing-to-be-true” of the technique which is not a skill of our mind but rather a skill of our heart and our will together. On September 10, 2010, Carla spoke of the nature of our energy body:

The Love and the Light of the infinite Creator is moving through our energy body in inexhaustible supply at all times. We can’t run out. By stopping the flow of Love through us, by clutching and contracting around our woes and our problems—which we all have—what we can do is stop that flow into the heart, and then we can’t get our hearts open all the way. The fuel is Love. It’s right here. It is inexhaustible. We don’t have to hoard it. All we have to do is live in such a way that our energy bodies are clear so that we get that energy through us at all times.

When one is aware of and centered within the fundamental perception of the structure of incarnation, then one is aware that one is within a process of change; that one has chosen what one wishes to examine during the process of change; and that one is then free to trust the lessons that appear before the face, to lean into them in terms of doing the homework, of doing the mental analysis, of going to the library of self and asking those questions which need to be asked, of doing the research that needs to be done in order that one feels one is beforehand with one’s lessons. That may mean, for you in particular, the process of getting meditation more into a daily habit, or the process of journaling one’s dreams, or journaling one’s thoughts, or the use of other techniques with which you wish to examine the life as it is lived and to ask of the self, “Who are you? Why are you here? What is your mission?” The energies of reaction to change, which may include much panic, and feeling of loss, and the stumbling effect of not knowing the path ahead, can be mitigated. The simple trust that all is well, and that this that you experience, whatever it may be, is valuable, worthy of attention, and worthy of your best effort, is very helpful in smoothing and regularizing the process of change that is inevitable and desirable.

Aswe said earlier, there is at this time a particularly intensive process of change moving through the planetary energies as a whole. It is the end of several cycles within your planet, small and large. The planet itself transits at this time. Consequently, many of you came here in incarnation at this time with extra-curricular activities planned having to do with service to others, service to the planet, and/or service to the people of the planet. We put before you these two slightly different vectors of service to others because that is the mix that we are experiencing within this circle. There are those within the circle that feel that they are Earth natives, that that they have a love of Earth, an affinity for the Earth, and a long association with this particular planet that you call Earth, which we call Atlantis, actually, this being the name of your planet among the metaphysical or time/space entities which live within what you would call circular time and have experienced the entire gamut of the various experiences of your planet through what you would call your past and what you would call your future.

The energy of your people is that energy that is called Atlantis. And this at this time becomes more pointedly relevant in that your peoples as a whole are visiting at this time and attempting to rebalance those energies of Atlantis; those energies that fed into the build-up of the civilization of Atlantis; the civilization that learned technology and skills of the scientific kind and did not learn the disciplines of the personality that would enable them to make use of such technical expertise in a way that was positive and unconditionally loving. The very stuff of your density is love. The overriding lesson of your density is love. And yet, it is not a romantic love, it is not the love of brothers. It is not any love that you can imagine or speak of or wrap your words around and contain. It is that love which is the infinite Word. It is that Love which is the one infinite Creator. It is that Love that destroys and creates equally, generously, and eternally. The concepts of love and wisdom seem separate, yet they are simply two shadows within illusion. That truth which lies beyond all illusion is the infinite Love of the one Creator. Consequently, when you are attempting to learn love without end, sacrificing, giving, crucifying the self for others to the extreme of the myths of humankind for describing unconditional love, this is but one aspect of Love.

There is the aspect of love also wrapped in fear, in negativity, in contraction, in darkness, in the shadows, in the depths within the self that gives substance and structure to the whole and creates within infinite Light and unconditional Love a place, a habitation, not for the soul only but for physical vehicles, for physical feelings, experiences, and intensities as well. In other words, one of the blessed aspects of third-density incarnation is the ability to feel pain, the ability to be confused, the very precious ability to lose the self, and to be forced out of the mental constructs of a lifetime of learned untruths and half-truths that your outer civilization offers to each of you.

Q’uo said when we are aware of the structure of our incarnation, then we are aware that we are within a process of change by trusting the lessons that appear before us, analyzing them, and asking those questions which need to be asked in our daily meditations or in keeping a journal of our dreams to help us ask questions like “Who are you? Why are you here? What is your mission?”, and this will help us to deal with change, with feeling panic and loss by knowing that all is well, and whatever we experience is valuable and helpful in smoothing the process of change that is inevitable and desirable. Then Q’uo said that this is a time of our planet moving through a process of change as the last of three 25,000 year cycles is near its end, and the planet itself transits at this time so that many of us incarnated at this time with plans to be of service to others, to the planet or both, and Q’uo said that there are those within the circle that feel that they are Earth natives with a long and loving association with Earth which Q’uo called Atlantis since this is the name of our planet among the metaphysical entities which live within what we would call circular time and have experienced all of the  experiences of our planet through what we would call our past and what we would call our future. Q’uo went on to say that the energy of our people is that energy that is called Atlantis, and this is important to consider because the population of Earth is attempting to rebalance those energies of Atlantis that learned the technology of the scientific kind without learning the disciplines of the personality that would allow them to use their technical expertise in a way that was positive and loving because the nature and lessons of third density is love, that Love which is the one infinite Creator, and it is that Love that destroys and creates equally, generously, and eternally, so when we: “are attempting to learn love without end, sacrificing, giving, crucifying the self for others to the extreme of the myths of humankind for describing unconditional love, this is but one aspect of Love.” Q’uo continued by saying that there is the negative aspect of love in the third density that is wrapped in darkness and the depths within ourself that gives substance and structure to the whole and creates within us infinite Light and unconditional Love as a place for our soul, and for our physical bodies, and their experiences as well so that one of the blessed aspects of third-density incarnation is our ability to feel pain, to be confused, and the ability to lose ourself and to be forced out of the mental constructs of a lifetime of learned untruths and half-truths that our outer civilization offers to each of us. On February 6, 2003, Q’uo described the nature of the energies of Atlantis:

This began to cycle in Atlantis and has moved through its complete cycle at this time. In all three cycles, then, there has been almost no harvest and as your peoples approach the end of this present cycle of time, which is the final opportunity for harvest within this particular planetary third density, the energies of Atlantis remain. There had been incarnations of groups of entities which first did the bidding of these space pirates in Atlantis. Not yet once, but as the gazing eye looks at history this group can be found again and again. Within those of Babylonia, within those of Rome, within those of Germany, within those of Germany once again, and now within that which is the United States.

These energies have grouped, gathered, and arisen as a natural event, since graduation is at hand, and these entities are attempting to graduate in service to self. Consequently, once again millions and millions of earth natives who are otherwise very close to being harvested have been entrained in their minds and in their thinking by the discussion of subjects that lead the mind to war and to the just reasons for it, thereby once again placing these millions of entities in the uncomfortable space of being dimly aware that their true freedom is being taken from them, but truly having no real capacity to figure out what is going on and why there is no rest or peace for them.

It may seem perverse for the self to cheer for the self when the self realizes it is greatly confused, and stumbling, and wandering as the one known as S has said, and yet this too is a blessing. It is the blessing of opportunity. It is the blessing of darkness. For each of you has within you the potential to be a light that enlightens the darkness, that illumines the shadows, not chasing them away but simply exposing them for what they are. Darkness is rounded in light and light rounded in darkness. That is the way of your circadian cycle. Yet we ask you to see beyond the light and the dark, to see into the nature of your lessons, of your service, of love itself. To see that which is “beyond variation,” as this instrument read in her church service this morning.

TheCreator comes from Light with no variation due to change. There is no change in the One Who is all things. Change is an illusion, which is very helpful in the process of the Creator knowing Itself, and for this process the Creator has given Itself to you, to this instrument, to all, in discrete, illusory sparks of Light that can experience, and register that experience, and feel and create from those feelings a process of refining, and deepening, and purifying, until those emotions become truth. And that which before was the babbling of children, becomes, in the ordered experience of the true and deep emotion, a giving of the self that is a harvest of a lifetime. For as the truer, deeper emotions begin to be refined from the welter of shallow feeling, those emotions begin to contain information which is as food to the Creator, a delightful and refreshing food that informs the Creator of Itself.

Now each of you, in this rainbow self that you have, is constantly creating and re-creating the truth of yourself. You are in a constant state of flux. The “name” of yourself is this complex of vibrations, this rainbow self. When your passing moods strike you, they may well change some of the colors of yourself and tell less of the truth about you. So, it is well, when you think of how to respond well to change, to look at the self and ask the self, “Of all of these aspects of the present scene are there those that could be harmonized within the self? Could I, speaking as each of you, find a way to add harmony, to rebalance for more truth, to more center a relationship, a conversation, a group situation, in a way that balances the energies of love, wisdom, will and so forth?”

The time is such that until far beyond the end of each of your incarnations, experiences shall be very intense, for the energies of change have begun long ago, and are now in full swing and move towards a conclusion that is not a moment in time precisely, and yet there is a point at which your planet shall be fourth-density positive, and those who are within third density upon the planet shall only be able to endure and remain within the planetary atmosphere because they have begun living and thinking in a fourth-density-compatible manner. So, the third thing that we would say, concerning responding to change, is to ask yourself, “If I were in fourth density, how would I perceive this situation?” As the one known as Ra has said to this group before, “Where is the love in this moment?”

This is the thinking of fourth density. It is that thinking that assumes total acceptance of all beings, total equality of all soul streams, total oneness with everyone, and an inability not to harmonize. When one, as a third-density self, feels the disharmony, one may be aware that one is simply living, and thinking, and reacting according to the illusion of third density. We ask that you consider this as one of two choices. One of indeed infinite choices! But the other choice that we would recommend is that choice of moving into the sacred region of the heart. For the heart has never left the unconditional Love of the one infinite Creator that exists within first density, second density, third density, fourth density, fifth density, and so on. Third density is that density wherein the mind portion of the body/mind/spirit complex is veiled. The body is not veiled; the spirit is not veiled: the mind is veiled. This is simply to produce the ability to experience this process of change, this feeling of chaos, this experience of illusion, of disillusion and recombining and creating the self as one goes. We do not have, in higher densities, that privilege. Consequently, we cannot work vividly, quickly, and effectively to retune or to rebalance our energies. Rather, we are refining the choices already made.

Then Q’uo said that it may seem perverse for us to cheer for ourself when we realize that we are confused and stumbling, but this is the blessing of darkness that we have the potential to be a light that illumines the darkness and exposing it for what it is that is rounded in light just as light is rounded in darkness as in our cycles of day and night, so Q’uo asked us to see that our lessons, our service, and love itself are beyond the light and the dark. Q’uo went on to say that the Creator comes from Light with no variation due to change because there is no change in the One Who is all things so that change is an illusion which is helpful in the process of the Creator knowing Itself, and for this process the Creator has given Itself to all beings as unique, illusory sparks of Light so that we can experience the catalyst of deepening and refining our emotions until they become truth, and which gives us the harvest of our lifetime so that as our deeper emotions are refined they contain information which helps the Creator to know Itself. Q’uo continued by saying that each of us in our rainbow energy body is creating and re-creating the truth, and since we are in a constant state of change our “name” is this rainbow of energies, and when we experience different moods they can change some of the colors of ourself and tell less of the truth about us, so when we think of how to respond well to change we can look at ourself and ask: “Of all of these aspects of the present scene are there those that could be harmonized within the self? Could I, speaking as each of you, find a way to add harmony, to rebalance for more truth, to more center a relationship, a conversation, a group situation, in a way that balances the energies of love, wisdom, will and so forth?” Now Q’uo said these times are such that at the end of each of our incarnations, our experiences shall be very intense, for the energies of change are now in full swing and move towards a time when our planet shall be fourth-density positive, and those who are within third density upon the planet shall only be able to remain within the planetary atmosphere because they have begun living in a fourth-density-compatible manner, so the third thing that Q’uo said concerning responding to change, is to ask ourself, “If I were in fourth density, how would I perceive this situation?” As the one known as Ra has said to this group before, “Where is the love in this moment?” Q’uo said that the thinking of fourth density assumes total oneness with everyone, and an inability not to harmonize so that when we feel disharmony we may be aware that we are living and reacting according to the illusion of third density, so Q’uo asked that we consider this as one of two choices, and the other choice they recommended was that of our moving into the sacred region of our heart because our heart has never left the unconditional Love of the one infinite Creator that exists within all of the densities, and third density is that density where our mind is veiled in order for us to have the ability to experience this process of change and of chaos and recombining and creating our self as we go forward. In 16.50, Ra said that in fourth density that we are unable not to harmonize:

Questioner: Thank you. Is it possible for you to give a small description of the conditions [in] fourth density?

Ra: I am Ra. We ask you to consider as we speak that there are no words for positively describing fourth density. We can only explain what is not and approximate what is. Beyond fourth density our ability grows more limited still until we become without words.

That which fourth density is not: it is not of words, unless chosen. It is not of heavy chemical vehicles for body complex activities. It is not of disharmony within self. It is not of disharmony within peoples. It is not within limits of possibility to cause disharmony in any way.

Approximations of positive statements: it is a plane of a type of bipedal vehicle which is much denser and more full of life; it is a plane wherein one is aware of the thoughts of other-selves; it is a plane where one is aware of the vibrations of other-selves; it is a plane of compassion and understanding of the sorrows of third density; it is a plane striving towards wisdom or light; it is a plane wherein individual differences are pronounced although automatically harmonized by group consensus.

There are other entities within this circle that are not Earth natives but rather those that have chosen to return for a program having the experience of learning and service. Again, some of you may have come to work with the planet, for it is being birthed into fourth density as we speak. Some of you may have come to work with the planetary ethos at this time. For there is great energy forming at a global level within many, many peoples of many different cultures and ways of thinking. Yet, the unification of this energy is beginning to be marked, and that is simply that all souls count, all beings deserve the same respect and honor, all entities are sacred. This energy is a simple, almost primitive realization, that realization of the goodness of the self and the goodness of other selves and of the world. And this basic realization is summed up within your Christian Old Testament statements by the very questionable God—as this instrument would call it—Jehovah, who kept observing as He created that “this was good.”

So we ask you to move into the realization, more and more, that you are the chooser of your experience; you are the creator of your truths; and you can indeed move more and more, as you experience the feelings of the open heart more and more, into that open heart, into the rush of infinite energy that is moving through that heart at all times, into that atmosphere of support that the one known as G spoke of that exists not without the self, but within the self, and that is only projected outside the self in order to be visible, in order to be seen, in order to be understood. For who can understand one’s own heart? Yet we ask you to trust that heart and whenever you can, move into that space of remembrance of who you are, of remembrance of yourself as a spark of Creatorship, of “Creator-in-training-ness,” as this instrument has said before. That is your true nature. You are very young. Yet you are moving inevitably and inexorably towards your Source, your ending, the one infinite Creator. You are gaining spiritual mass and at this particular time, your goal is to be yourself, for within the heart of self lies this truth, that is fourth-density reality.

And may we say that all densities grow in reality, yet all remain illusory. Each illusion, as it moves towards the octave of Creator-ness, becomes more able to contain truth. As the Light itself changes, it is able to hold more information. We ask you to imagine your heart opening and yourself allowing the portions of your mind that are not at this time awakened, to be awakened, of resting, and asking for more. For truly those who ask shall receive, and to those who knock, the door shall be opened. There is this energy of fourth-density that is actually currently at least as strong within your planetary atmosphere as the third-density energies of chaos and revolution.

Your question spoke of the tremendous changes going on within your world at this time. Indeed, we do see the energies of your peoples ripening towards the destruction of entities by their brothers and sisters, moving into larger-scale slaughter of innocents. We see this as a possibility. We see the possibility also, of a grassroots movement, as this instrument would call it, that is impossible to stem, that is a true revolution of energies melding and entities coming together in harmony to work together for restoration, for equality, for justice, for truth, and for the cause of being. How we encourage this, how we urge you to lean into this. This is where your sense of the group’s being important comes into play. Fourth-density energy, unconditional love energy, is embattled within a third-density atmosphere. In fourth density, entities work together, harmonizing, combining, each giving their own best, with the result being far better than any of the entities within the circle of creation’s individual skill, because that which joins together is not added but multiplied and multiplied again. The group effect is tremendously supportive. This is part of why your particular group has been together for some time, and why energies are moving into it at this time.

Q’uo said there are entities within this circle that are not Earth natives but those that have chosen to return for a program of having the experience of learning and service; some may have come to work with the planet that is being birthed into fourth density; some may have come to work with the planetary essence;  for there is great energy forming at a global level within many peoples of different cultures and ways of thinking, and the unification of this energy is beginning to be marked because all souls deserve the same respect and honor, and all entities are sacred so that this energy is a simple realization of the goodness of the self and the goodness of other selves and of the world. So, Q’uo asked us to move into the realization that we are the chooser of our experience; we are the creator of our truths; and we can move more and more into our open heart as we experience the feelings of our open heart and the feeling of infinite energy that is moving through our heart at all times and into that atmosphere of support within ourself which is only projected outside the self in order to be visible and understood, for who can understand one’s own heart? So Q’uo asked us to trust our heart and move into that space of remembering we are a spark of Creatorship because this is our true nature, and we are moving inevitably towards our Source, the one infinite Creator, and we are gaining spiritual mass and our goal is to be ourself, for within the heart of ourself lies this truth that is fourth-density reality. Q’uo went on to say that all densities grow in reality, yet all remain illusory, and each density, as it moves towards the octave of completion becomes more able to contain truth so that as the Light itself changes, it is able to hold more information, so imagine our heart opening so that we allow the portions of our mind that are not at this time awakened to be awakened and asking for more information, for those who ask shall receive, and to those who knock, the door shall be opened because there is fourth-density energy that is currently at least as strong within our planetary atmosphere as the third-density energies of chaos and revolution. Q’uo completed their reply by saying our question spoke of the tremendous changes going on within our world at this time, and Q’uo saw the energies of our people moving towards war and the destruction of entities by their brothers and sisters and the killing of innocents as a possibility, but they also saw the possibility of a grassroots movement that is impossible to stop which is a true revolution of entities coming together in harmony to work together for equality, for truth, and for the cause of being, and this could be encouraged by our sense of a group that is important because the fourth-density energy of unconditional love is reduced within a third-density atmosphere whereas in fourth density entities work together, and each gives their best with the result being far better than any individual’s skills because those which join together are not added but are multiplied so that the group effect is tremendously supportive, and  this is why our group has been together for some time, and why energies are moving into it at this time. On May 22, 2006, Q’uo described the fourth-density energies on Earth at this time:

The planet herself has an energy system, which is in the midst of a tremendous ending and beginning, shall we say. For the energies of third density, as this instrument was saying before this contact began, are so heavily interpenetrated now with fourth-density energy, that the vibrations of Love are having a powerful unseen effect on all entities in their inner energy systems, or what this instrument would call the chakra system. Because of the fact that fourth-density energy contains truth without reserve, the effect upon third-density entities is a marked increase in those entities receiving into their conscious awareness material with which they do not wish to be in. This energy of truth sometimes does not feel like unconditional love. Indeed, in third density, unconditional love cannot be seen to contain that truth; rather, it contains the creative structures of those yearning for truth. The yearning is very helpful to entities who wish to cooperate with the interpenetrating energy of fourth density.

When you know why you are being faced with that about yourself which you particularly did not wish to deal with, then it becomes easier to accept the fact that it is now time to deal with that issue and simply get on with doing that. How you do that is certainly up to you. We do not have advice for you on the techniques of coming to terms with what is in your picture right now.

We can only say to you that the way of energy is to attract to the self that which is needed for spiritual growth. You have entered and have been experiencing for some time a profoundly effective growth environment. This time of dusk and dawn on Planet Earth is a tremendous growth environment – a hotbed, if you will – where the soil is just right, the seeds in your heart are planted, and everything is laid on for growth. However, in growth there is always surrender. Surrender of those things which no longer serve you. Surrender to change and transformation.

It is time, as the one known as Jim said in the discussion preceding this meditation, and we would agree. It is time for those of like mind and like heart to come together, to serve together, to learn together, and to support each other. This entity has a favorite song:

Love one another as I love you, Care for each other as I care for you. Bear each others’ burdens, Share each others’ joys. Love one another and bring each other home.

What is “home,” my friends? Home is that place where you belong. Belong to each other and open your arms, that all entities may belong to you. And take care of each other, and care for each other and bring your planet home.

We would at this time transfer this contact to the one known as Jim that more questions may be asked. We thank this instrument and would leave it in love and in light and transfer at this time. We are known to you as Q’uo.

[Pause]

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and we greet each again, in love and in light, through this instrument. At this time it is our privilege to offer ourselves to attempt to speak to any further shorter queries which may be presented to us. Is there another query at this time?

S: I have one. When, in your spiritual seeking, you hit a brick wall, stumble and fall and you’re not sure what to do to get up, where to go, what to do, do you have any suggestions and ideas of how to get back, brush yourself off, and move forward?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query my brother. Oftentimes when the seeker of truth finds that there has been the brick wall of which you speak placed within its path there is the possibility of doing nothing until one is moved by an inner desire to continue the journey. There is the possibility of exploring within the self what are the new priorities, what is it that moves one in any direction. What is it that gives the sense of purpose and meaning to the self as it seeks…

[Side one of tape ends.]

I am Q’uo, and am once again with this instrument. Is there another query at this time?

Carla: I have a question from B. It says next time you’re online to the Confederation, please ask, “What aspects of consciousness were developed by the use of fourth-density social memory, from a fourth-density perspective?”

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query my sister. We find this query to be a very interesting one in which we may explore an idea or two. The social memory aspect of consciousness is that which begins to explore the intimate work entities may share, one with the other, by relying upon those resources which each brings to the group consciousness. Thus, it is much more likely that the group consciousness will be informed concerning any particular point of view when there is a great variety of experiences upon which to draw, in confronting or dealing with any particular situation. We have found in our own experience that there is much of the support that may be shared in the motivation, shall we say, to explore those areas which are new to us by doing so as a group consciousness.

[Pause]

[The instrument excuses himself from channeling anything further.]

(Carla channeling)

We are with this instrument, and we are those known to you as Q’uo. We attempted to contact this instrument after the one known as Jim created the changing of the tape and this instrument was puzzled by the surprise of a new routine and did not respond. Consequently, we recontacted the one known as Jim, and this entity attempted to continue to speak. However, this entity, in its integrity, quite rightly expressed the desire to leave the contact as it did not feel it was performing its function as an instrument with the highest of purity. And may we say that this often occurs and is very seldom owned up to. When entities are moving from the impressions of telepathic perception, indeed, the line between good contact and questionable contact is, for the most part, the hair’s difference between alertness and trust in the self and, for whatever reason, the movement from that rest into a state of energy movement or strife. Once energy begins moving in terms of the human personality shell, it is far more difficult to keep a telepathic contact, for the single-mindedness or single-pointedness of thought that enables an entity to lay the self aside and to respond simply to that which is given is sometimes very much lacking. For this instrument, it is more stable as a setting than most, and so we pick the contact up at this point as there is energy within the circle that requires, if possible, a slower termination of the contact. And so, we would ask again through this instrument if there are any further queries at this time?

G: Q’uo, in the Law of One series, Ra says that there is an incompatibility between the third and fourth densities in respect to the electrical body. They say that if a third-density entity had full awareness of the fourth density, that its electrical body would fail. So, my question is, how aware in third density can we be of the fourth-density energies?

Q’uo: We are those of Q’uo, and we grasp your query, my brother. Entities within third-density vehicles are protected from full realization of the fourth-density energies of the electrical nature for the reason that they are unable to express or to have the wiring for the running of those energies in their fourth-density form. It is perhaps confusing that we encourage you to live within fourth density in your third-density self. And yet the shadow of fourth density, cast in third density, is sufficient, just as the light under the door that is closed still signifies the awareness of the light in the room and the awareness of the room in which that light resides. What we are suggesting is that you look at the light under the crack of that door and know by faith that that room is lit and that light is true.

May we refine upon this answer my brother?

G: Not at this time, thank you Q’uo.

Q’uo: We thank you, my brother.

G: If no else has one, Q’uo, before, during the beginning of the round-robin discussions, I was becoming very jittery, very nervous, my heart was beating hard, and I was becoming extremely cold, and I have a hunch that its beyond standard nervousness. I was wondering if I was the subject of a psychic greeting?

We are those of Q’uo, and are aware of your query, my brother. In the manner of your speaking, this is correct. We are also aware that you are cognizant of the internality of such greeting. That is, that it comes from that portion of the self that is the mirror of those energies, for the self indeed contains all energies that are possible to express. Consequently, there was indeed that which you may call a greeting, and it was indeed of the psychic type, and at the same time we encourage the awareness that such greetings are not those of enemy energies. Those greetings are of that which feels unloved. So we encourage the response of opening the arms and hugging to the heart that shadow, that coldness, that jitteriness and accepting and loving it as it is. We suggest that this shall tend to balance and integrate these energies that seem to be attacking, so that they may become those energies that support and defend the self.

May we answer further my brother?

G: No, thank you, Q’uo.

Q’uo: My brother, we thank you greatly. Is there another query at this time?

G: If the instrument still has energy, I have another one. Q’uo, in the Law of One series Ra says that “… our very being is hopefully a poignant example of both the necessity and the near-hopelessness of attempting to teach.” I was wondering if you could expound upon that any further?

Q’uo: We are aware of your query, my brother. As that known to you as Q’uo, we encompass a great deal of teaching. The energies of the ones known as Hatonn have long taught; the energies of the ones known as Latwii and those known as Ra, have long taught. And indeed, those of Hatonn and those of Latwii accept as their teacher those of Ra. Consequently, we have bonds of teaching and of learning even within our principle. And our entire beau geste as a principle is to teach and yet, if we were to use this instrument’s slang, we would say, “LOL.” It is to laugh, it is to chuckle, for how can we teach? What do we know? We know only opinion. We can only toss our words into the wind and hope that some helpful aspect transfers from creation to creation, for we speak across worlds.

We gaze at each of you in your creation. You are masters. Few of you know it. We hope to encourage you to be aware of your nature, yet we have only a simple story to tell. We have only one basic thought to share. You are one, we are all one and that one thing is Love. We attempt to be creative, we use channels such as this one so that we may flash all of the colors of that channel’s personality and weave such tales as that person’s energy and personality shell have to give. Yet our story is the same, and it is inadequate to fuel the realization and the transformation of a single entity.

Yet we shine out our light and we ask you to shine your light, to tell your shining truth when you feel it within. And when your shining truth is that you know nothing, let that shine, let that be a good thing to shine. For it is, in our way of perceiving, an excellent thing. So, we teach those who are already masters and who have forgotten. You who are learning could take our places, were the veil to drop. Yet you have placed yourself in this darkness which you experience, so that you can change.

Consequently, to teach is almost hopeless and yet, what else does a human or the spirit have to share? The rest is love and has no words. When there is the attempt to share, it must be that sharing through the structures and the limitations and the exigencies of logic depending from each structure. These limitations are almost hopeless; that is, they create a hopeless situation in which one throws pebbles at the great eternal truth that is too simple to articulate.

May we answer you further, my brother?

G: No, thank you Q’uo.

Q’uo: Is there a final query at this time?

T: If the instrument has energy and the answer does not infringe upon my free will, about a month ago one evening before I went to bed, I had a tremendous emotional energy and wonder if that was a kind of initiation? Are you able to comment upon that at all?

Q’uo: We are aware of your query, my brother, and are able to confirm that this was a type of initiation. May we answer you further, my brother?

T: Are you able to explain the basis of that initiation, the effect that it was taking?

Q’uo: We are able, my brother, only to say that there is crystallization of those energy centers that this instrument would call orange and yellow. The vector of this change, then, is towards the opening of the heart. We find that this is the limit of that which we are able to share with you at this time.

As the energy wanes, we thank this circle. Our hearts go out to this circle, for each in your own way has struggled with much in this latest season of transformation, chaos, and change. We ask that you take heart and that you rest in knowing that no mistakes have been made ,and that all is on track in your curriculum. Whatever it feels like, each has done beautifully and has been brave and true. We would simply encourage you to continue with faith in yourself, faith in your catalyst, faith in the rightness of the plan. Rest in that faith, rest in the memory of those times when you were immediately connected with that understanding. And trust, through the dark night, through the difficult time, through the confusion. The trees bow before the wind, the seasons change. The winter comes and the leaves must fall, and all seems to die, only to rise again in the resurrection of shoot coming through dark earth into the light of spring. All is well. We meet you in meditation, in that house of prayer, as this instrument calls it, where all time is One, and all beings One.

It has been a pleasure to speak with you and again we encourage you to think carefully before accepting anything that we or anyone else has to say, living, dead, terrestrial, or extra-terrestrial. Guard your thinking and discriminate, for your truth is a living thing. We are with you in that holy war, that holy seeking that is the struggle that has been called the jihad. Move forward, trusting that the darkness and the light are one and the same thing.

We leave this instrument and this group in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. Adonai. We are those of Q’uo.

This morning I ran a couple of errands with my first stop being at Paul’s Fruit Market to buy some food for myself. My second stop was at Walgreen’s Drug Store to buy a case of bottled water and some Kleenexes.

This afternoon I used a combination of my backpack blower, seed spreader, garden rake, and shovel to begin moving the crushed rock out of my neighbor’s yard that was put there about a month ago when I hired a snow removal company to remove the heavy snow from my driveway and parking areas in front of my home.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

February 13

Love Overwhelms All Details

I who greet you in the full consciousness of Love am of the principle of Jesus the Christ.

It is the wish of Love that each of you should partake abundantly in the waters of blessed life and happiness. Yet perfect happiness is like strong wine, excellent to some and too strong for others. For the happiness of the peaceful and love-filled spirit is one rounded with sorrows and other shadows, yet shot through with the gleam of recognized Love.

Thusly, even if one gazes at a battlefield or at any seeming disaster, one still has the opportunity to call upon the Spirit of Love. For in Christ’s name even a blood-strewn battlefield may contain the shape of peace and Love. The nature of spiritual consciousness is such that Love overwhelms all details and by its warming hues makes glad the hearts of those who gaze upon bleak things. Let your happiness, therefore, lie within the Spirit of Love and the consciousness of Jesus the Christ.

We leave you in true peace, that peace which cannot be disturbed by misfortune. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from August 24, and this session was held at the Belknap campus of the University of Louisville:

(Carla channeling)

I am Q’uo. Everything: the body, the sound, the music of life, the color of it, all of these things that fill in the colors and the shapes and the form of consciousness: all of these things exist as vibration. You, yourself, exist as energy fields of vibration within which are many other energy fields. The energy field of the body itself, the energy fields of the organs and of each cell of each organ and each portion of the body, the energy cloud, shall we say, that is made up of this circle of seeking, the energy of your planet, the energy of your solar systems and of the creation of the Father as a whole, in its infinite reaches, and the Creator, Itself—all of these things are energy. All these things are vibrations and complexes of vibratory levels working in harmonics and sub-harmonics together to create the shape of the world that you see before you as you open your eyes, and that create the shape of the world that you cannot see whether your eyes are open or shut.

All that is visible, all that is invisible, is vibration. The vibration of the Father, as this instrument is wont to call the Godhead principle, is a singular vibration which we are used to calling that term, the Logos, which is a term in this instrument’s vocabulary from its Christian heritage—Logos, the Word, the Word which is Love, unconditional Love. That vibration is the vibration of the Creator. Those vibratory nexi that manifest as each person here, each of you being a sub-logos, in part, of the infinite Creator, have the goal of moving in vibratory level more and more close to the vibration of the Logos, to the energy of unconditional Love. Regardless of what outer gifts you have, this gift is at the heart of your experience of yourself as an essence, of your getting to know yourself as a true being. As you are able to come more and more into an awareness of what the energy of unconditional Love feels like, you are coming closer and closer to your own heart.

The days begin to grow shorter at this time, and your planet turns on its axis in such a way that the seasons turn with it, the days grow shorter, and the dark grows larger until winter comes to your planet. And in the heart of that winter there is always that moment of what this instrument calls Christmas when attention is paid to a tiny child that is Love made visible within this instrument’s religion, that time when Jesus, the Christ, comes into the world as a tiny, helpless baby. We ask each of you here to open your heart and to see yourself in a manger, a new being, my friends, a soul, fresh, untouched, inviolate, waiting, hoping to be loved, to be recognized, to be swaddled and nurtured and held and taken care of and protected.

Thischild within you is the spiritual self that you came into this world to find, to embrace, and to nourish and nurture with your outer life and your inner life, always opening to the vibration of unconditional Love that floods the heart when there is no resistance, that waits within the heart, that is surrounding the manger of spirit within you. Pay attention to that child that is your spiritual self, for it is tender and young, and while you have become experienced and wise in the ways of the world, perhaps that has caused defenses to rise within each of you so that you are defended and armored against those who would hurt you. Yet, to those who dwell in unconditional Love, there is no man, no woman, who is an enemy. There is no entity whatsoever that is not part of those souls which are yours to love, to help, and to wish well on their way if they perhaps do not agree, but never to armor against, to defend against, or to harden the self against. For the gift of the heart, the gift of love, is that it is fearless. It does not need to defend; it does not need to protect, for it rests in the vibration of unconditional Love.

We would take a moment to experience the silence with you. We ask you to allow that silence to blossom within you, that you may feel that Love of which we speak. We shall pause. We are those of Q’uo.

Q’uo began by saying that everything exists as energy fields of vibration: our body and its organs and cells of its organs, this circle of seeking, the energy of our planet, the energy of our solar systems, and the Creator, Itself. Q’uo said that all these things are complexes of vibratory levels working together in harmonics and sub-harmonics to create the shape of the world that we see before us as we open our eyes, and that create the shape of the world that we cannot see whether our eyes are open or shut. Then Q’uo said that all that is visible and invisible is vibration, and the vibration of the Creator is the singular vibration of the Logos, or Love, and these vibrations manifest as each person so that each of us, being a part of the infinite Creator, has the goal of moving closer to the vibration of the energy of unconditional Love, and regardless of what outer gifts we have, this gift is at the heart of our getting to know ourself as a true being, and as we are able to come more into an awareness of what the energy of unconditional Love feels like, we are coming closer and closer to our own heart. Q’uo continued by saying that the days begin to grow shorter at this time, and in the heart of winter there is always that moment of what Carla called Christmas when attention is paid to a tiny child that is Love made visible within this instrument’s religion: “that time when Jesus, the Christ, comes into the world as a tiny, helpless baby. We ask each of you here to open your heart and to see yourself in a manger, a new being, my friends, a soul, fresh, untouched, inviolate, waiting, hoping to be loved, to be recognized, to be swaddled and nurtured and held and taken care of and protected.” Q’uo went on to say that the child within us is our spiritual self that we came into this world to find and nurture with our outer and inner life, always opening to the vibration of unconditional Love that flows through our heart when we don’t resist it, that surrounds the manger of the spirit within us so that we may pay attention to that child that is our spiritual self, for it is tender and young, and while we have become experienced in the ways of the world, that may have caused defenses to rise within each of us so that we are armored against those who would hurt us, yet if we dwell in unconditional Love, there are no entities that are not part of those souls which are ours to love and to wish well on their way even if they do not agree with us but should never to armor against them, for the gift of the love of our heart is that it is fearless, for it rests in the vibration of unconditional Love. On December 26, 1982, Latwii spoke of the nature of unconditional Love:

The entity expressing the unconditional love has no action within that is held, but allows the free expression of the compassion similar to that which one might feel for the newborn infant in its innocent actions. Such an infant is easily seen as worthy of unconditional Love. When one can feel such, shall we call it, emotion, for any entity at any time for any reason, then that balance of unconditional love has been achieved.

[Pause]

We are those of Q’uo, and are again with this instrument. Continuing to feel that energy within you, now, we ask that youbegin to allow it to rotate about the circle from you to the person to your left and so forth, receiving the energy from the person on your right and moving it on. Feel that energy begin to spiral and grow; feel that sacred space that has been called into being by the one known as M, and then fill it with the flame of love unconditional. We would speak to you, as this energy rotates and builds, about mission. We do not mean to imply that anyone comes into the world with a contract, “I will do this, and this, and this, and then I shall be ready to abandon life.” Rather, we suggest that each of you, before this incarnation, along with your guidance, sat together and planned, oh, what a glorious plan, choosing parents and mates, and siblings, and friends, and that which is called among your people, enemies, all so that certain lessons, which you had decided upon beforehand, would have regular opportunities to be visited and revisited. For there are certain things which each of you hopes to learn, to work on, not simply learning for the first time, but refining and exploring the subtler reaches of these themes of incarnation for which you did take on flesh. There are other gifts which you chose because you felt perhaps they would be helpful at this particular time, at this particular juncture.

The learning and the service bring certain people, certain lessons, certain themes into the life again and again, and we ask that you do not be discouraged when you see these lessons seeming to repeat. Rather, think to yourself that you are spiraling, you are visiting these lessons again, not at the same place, for you are not at the same place, nor is the lesson in the same place, but, rather, each time you visit it, if you are working with the lesson, you learn more; you go further; you become wiser, you become more compassionate; or you simply become more balanced between the all-embracing love of compassion and the more intelligently-guided wisdom of compassion touched with that wisdom which suggests limitations, boundaries, precision, where before there may have been a vagueness or an unsureness. These do not add up to a “mission”. These add up to a life experience in which the possibilities are literally infinite but in which there are, as Dr. Thompson said, certain avenues which open up before one as the blooming of a flower, and things begin to fall in place, and there is that feeling that one has caught the rhythm of destiny, and one is now cooperating with it.

What we suggest, if you do not sense where destiny is taking you, is simply, each day, to sit in meditation and listen. The silence expresses much, as well as those undertones and overtones that your dreams, and your visions, and the street signs and the birds and all of the information thickly strewn in life seems to bring to you. The silence organizes and reorganizes and gradually there comes an inner sense almost as if the creature within you that has energy has found a way to take a deep breath, not the physical breath but the metaphysical breath of, “I can expand; it is safe.” Move into that space whenever you can. Certainly, attempt it daily, for there is information for you in that silence. And that guidance system that loves you, is part of you and is always with you will find it easier and easier to touch the life of you with this and that hint and inkling until you find it easier and easier to cooperate with the forces of what seem to be destiny but indeed are rich in free will.

We ask simply, if you think about mission, that you think first of the mission that is common to all who take breath upon the planet. You came to love and to be loved; you came to learn about unconditional Love; you came to choose between love and fear. When you see fear within yourself, your mission is to sit with that fear, not necessarily to kick it out. You may not be ready. But, strand by strand, you take it away just at the rate of speed which makes you comfortable. That idea that continues, the idea that lifts and helps, is that idea that love is the truth, and that fear is independent of that truth. So, where there is fear, all openings to love that can shine light upon that darkness are encouraged.

Then Q’uo said that the people in the circle should continue to feel that energy within them, and then allow the energy to rotate clockwise around the circle, and then feel that energy begin to grow into that sacred space that has been called into being by the one known as M, so we can fill it with the flame of love unconditional so that, as this energy builds, Q’uo could speak to the mission of the group where before this incarnation each of us sat together with our guidance and planned a glorious choosing of mates, parents, siblings, friends, and enemies along with our guidance, and certain lessons which we had decided beforehand would give us regular opportunities to visit them because there were certain things which each of us hopes to learn and to explore the subtler nature of these themes of our incarnation. Q’uo continued by saying that we should not be discouraged when we see these lessons repeating with certain people and themes, but we should think of how we are learning more about these lessons  and becoming more balanced between love and wisdom which suggests limitations and boundaries where before we may have experienced a vagueness, but now our life experience has infinite possibilities, and there is that feeling that we are  now cooperating with our destiny. Q’uo suggested that if we do not sense where destiny is taking us that we should sit in meditation and listen because the silence reveals our dreams, visions, and coincidences that give us the information that we need, and gives us a sense that our inner being has found a way to feel that it is safe to be ourselves, so we should meditate daily because our guidance system loves us so that we will find it easier to cooperate with the forces of what seem to be destiny but indeed are rich in free will. Q’uo asked us to think about our mission as being common to all who live on our planet which is that we came to love and to be loved;  to learn about unconditional Love; and we came to choose between love and fear, so when we see fear within ourself, our mission is to sit with that fear, and strand by strand, we take it away at the rate of speed which makes us comfortable so that we can realize that love is the truth, and that fear is not a part of that truth. On April 2, 2006, Q’uo spoke about the relationship between love and fear:

We would talk about Earth as a spiritual distillery. This is a concept that we were speaking about in a channeling session done recently. It is helpful to understand, when one is an Earth being, what the situation is, what the rules of the game are, for there are rules to the game. There is a very simple dynamic that entities may observe.

All things have their opposite. The choice is a choice between the two largest dynamics that govern and help to create your experience. Those are the dynamics between the light and the dark, love and fear, helpfulness and greediness, service to others and service to self.

Those are two distinct paths. We would encourage people to choose the path that they wish to take and then to take it as purely and as honestly as possible today and tomorrow and the next day for the rest of our life. Your school is a simple one. The subject itself is extremely difficult to comprehend. That is why you have a lifetime to work on it.

Before we leave this instrument, we would ask if there would be perhaps three or four questions that we may answer?

M: [Reads from an audience card.] Okay, the first question is, “Why must the children suffer so?”

We are with this instrument and are aware of your query. All of those within this particular plane of existence, all those who are in the flesh and experiencing the energies of a physical body, are also prone to experience suffering, and indeed it often seems unfair, for the children experience the suffering without having the choice of creating the situations that produce the suffering. There are those children who are born into times of war who must suffer therefore. There are those children that are born into those structures of family which seem to create abuse of various kinds and consequently create suffering for an innocent. There are as many instances of innocents suffering as there are innocents, for all do suffer.

The question of suffering is indeed a universal question, and the response that we would offer is that each entity deliberately chooses to enter into a physical vehicle and to forget almost everything that the entity is aware of before incarnation. This instrument has called it the veil of forgetting. There are other terms for it, but, as Wordsworth the poet has said, “We’ve come, each entity, into the third density streaming clouds of glory which rapidly dissipate with the onset of breath into the body.” Focus upon your own birth cries and remember the first suffering that you felt, the cold air, the shock of having to take breath within the lungs, the loss of the warm darkness and the rude intrusion of life. Suffering begins early within the third density and continues in some form or another for almost all those who are in incarnation as the personality aligns experience to some degree or another. The why of it is wrapped up in the purpose of losing that memory. It is important to lose the memory, to become stupid, and to be quite confused, and dismayed, and taken aback, because it is that point of deconstruction of the self which is that which sets the stage for transformation.

Each of you hoped to rebalance that balance between love and wisdom when you came into this incarnation. You hoped to refine yourself. It is as though each of you has within you a wonderful gem, yet, in order to polish that gem, much surface material must be taken away. And so, the suffering is that which blasts, and chips, and picks at the outer shell that is not the gem, knocking away all of those things that are not the real you. The suffering is that sense of pain as the emotions and the mental structures are in the process of changing. It is the change that is the root of most of the suffering of your species. It is the kind of pain that exercise creates. It is flexing the muscles, perhaps beyond the capacity of the muscles before this exercise. Yet, each time that entities undergo this suffering, they learn or have the opportunity to learn more about how to sit with that suffering, how to take it in, to love it, to work with it, and to allow it to seep through the self, doing those things that it came to do, easing the imbalances in the energy body and approving the overall situation which exists in your soul stream, not simply in this time and space. But you are doing work which transmits itself to the infinite and eternal stream of energy that you are.

The question was: “Why must the children suffer so?” Q’uo began their reply by saying that all of those within the third density are likely to experience suffering, and it seems unfair that children experience suffering without creating the situations that produce suffering like being born into times of war or who suffer abuse within their family experience, so there are as many instances of innocents suffering as there are innocents, for all do suffer. Q’uo went on to say that the question of suffering is a universal question because each of us chooses to enter into our incarnation and forget almost everything that we knew before our incarnation as we move through the veil of forgetting, so we should focus upon our own birth and remember the first suffering that we felt with the cold air, the shock of having to take breath within the lungs, and the loss of the warm darkness, so suffering begins early within the third density and continues for the rest of our lives as our personality works with experience, and the reason for loosing our memory is for us to become confused and dismayed so that the point of our loosing our memory is that it sets the stage for our transformation. Q’uo continued by saying that each of us hoped to rebalance that balance between love and wisdom when we came into this incarnation so that it is as though each of us has within us a wonderful gem, but in order to polish that gem much surface material must be blasted away from our outer shell that is not our true self, so our suffering is that sense of pain as emotions and mental structures are in the process of changing, and it is change that is the cause of most of our suffering, but each time that we undergo this suffering we have the opportunity to learn more about how to deal with suffering by learning to love it, and allowing it to seep through our self, and doing those things that it came to do by easing the imbalances in our energy body and approving the overall situation which exists in our soul stream, not simply in this time and space, but we are doing work which transmits itself to the infinite and eternal stream of energy that we are. On September 5, 2010, Carla described the nature of our energy body:

The Love and the Light of the infinite Creator is moving through our energy body in inexhaustible supply at all times. We can’t run out. By stopping the flow of love through us, by clutching and contracting around our woes and our problems—which we all have—what we can do is stop that flow into the heart, and then we can’t get our hearts open all the way. The fuel is love. It’s right here. It is inexhaustible. We don’t have to hoard it. All we have to do is live in such a way that our energy bodies are clear so that we get that energy through us at all times.

Is there another question, my sister?

M: [Reads from an audience card.] “What would benefit me the most to hear or know at this time?”

We are those of Q’uo, and are aware of your query, and we would say to you: all is one. Hold to that sense of unity within yourself. Know that all that is good and positive to you is you and all that is distasteful and hateful to you is you and that all things whatsoever are you. Look at this instrument, see the Creator; look in your mirror, see the Creator; look into the eyes of the person next to you and see the Creator; look into the eyes of your dearest enemy and see the same Creator; look into the sky, look into the depths of the sea, look into all of the elements and see only, and always, and ever the Creator. You are all things. We would say that this would be that thought which would be most helpful, and we thank the entity that has asked that query, for it has many good vibrations within, and we appreciate that exchange of energy very much.

May we ask, my sister, if there is one more query?

M: [Reads from an audience card.] “Would you speak to the entering of the fifth dimension and the process of our and the Earth’s transition?”

We are those known to you as Q’uo, and we are delighted to speak of those shifts which are at present occurring. The terminology varies from instrument to instrument and structure of myth to structure of philosophy, or whatever, and so this instrument would perhaps call the next density the fourth density rather than the fifth. However, this instrument is aware of those who use the system in which the fifth is that which is opening at this time, and this instrument is of the opinion that these are relatively acceptable terms to use interchangeably in this general context.

The next density is the density of love or understanding, to use general terms. This density is that which seeks to learn the lessons of love. Unconditional love is the chief lesson of your density. Once an entity has grasped the beauty of unconditional love, once the entity has placed itself into a practice of self-sacrifice, of loving others to the extent that they would give their lives for the others, if they could, in order to spare them, once this has been taken as the path that is desired, then the earthly journey becomes a life of service, a life of giving and, increasingly, a life of receiving. For, as the one known as Dr. Thompson says, all that is given out comes back again in a way that is irresistible and cannot be stopped, so that you are soon surrounded with the lessons of how to accept love from others. For you have learned how to love others. When you are at this state, then you are ready to live in a more love-filled atmosphere, and that is what the next density is in relation to third density.

The fourth density, then, has a different kind of light, a light that is more densely packed with light, so that there is actually more light in an atom, in a particle, of that energy. It is that shift which is now occurring upon your own planet. Your entire planetary system has spiraled into a brand new area of space/time in which the energies are different; the energies are shifting. There is dramatic change, and your entire planet is recreating itself from birthing itself as the fourth-density planet. Consequently, as each entity reaches the point of leaving the Earth plane through the normal processes of what you would call death, there is the opportunity at this time to graduate from third density and move into the fourth density and what is often called ascension. In this process of ascension, the soul energy that is you, the essence of you, takes up a fourth-density body for its next incarnation and therefore takes up a whole different environment with a whole new set of lessons. So, in general, moving into the next density is as moving into the next grade in school. It is an exciting thing to move ahead and start the first day of the school year, when all the lessons are brand new, and all the lessons seem good. And this is the experience to which you may look forward, as you look into that next life that may come after this one.

The question was: “Would you speak to the entering of the fifth dimension and the process of our and the Earth’s transition?” Q’uo began their reply by saying they were delighted to speak of those shifts which are at present occurring, and the terminology that describes this shift varies from instrument to instrument, and Carla would call the next density the fourth density rather than the fifth, but Carla is aware that some people would say that the next density is the fifth density, and she feels that either of these terms is acceptable. Q’uo continued by saying that this density is that which seeks to learn the lesson of unconditional love and is the chief lesson of our density, and we have placed ourself into a practice of self-sacrifice so that our earthly journey becomes a life of giving and of receiving love, for: “all that is given out comes back again in a way that is irresistible and cannot be stopped, so that you are soon surrounded with the lessons of how to accept love from others. For you have learned how to love others. When you are at this state, then you are ready to live in a more love-filled atmosphere, and that is what the next density is in relation to third density.” Q’uo went on to say that the fourth density is more densely packed with light, and our planet is recreating itself as it gives birth to itself as a fourth-density planet so that as each of us reaches the point of leaving the Earth plane through the processes of death, and there is the opportunity at this time to graduate from third density and move into the fourth density, and in this process our soul energy takes up a fourth-density body for our next incarnation and exists in a whole different environment with a new set of lessons, so moving into the next density where all the lessons are brand new is the experience to which we may look forward as we look into the next life. In 16.50, Ra described the nature of the fourth density:

Questioner: Thank you. Is it possible for you to give a small description of the conditions [in] fourth density?

Ra: I am Ra. We ask you to consider as we speak that there are no words for positively describing fourth density. We can only explain what is not and approximate what is. Beyond fourth density our ability grows more limited still until we become without words.

That which fourth density is not: it is not of words, unless chosen. It is not of heavy chemical vehicles for body complex activities. It is not of disharmony within self. It is not of disharmony within peoples. It is not within limits of possibility to cause disharmony in any way.

Approximations of positive statements: it is a plane of a type of bipedal vehicle which is much denser and more full of life; it is a plane wherein one is aware of the thoughts of other-selves; it is a plane where one is aware of the vibrations of other-selves; it is a plane of compassion and understanding of the sorrows of third density; it is a plane striving towards wisdom or light; it is a plane wherein individual differences are pronounced although automatically harmonized by group consensus.

We take this time to thank you once again. It is a pleasure to share our thoughts with you. And, once again, we ask you please to take those thoughts of ours which seem fair to you and to leave the rest behind without a second thought, for we would not be a stumbling block before you.

If you wish to deepen your meditative state, you are always welcome to call the Confederation of Brothers and Sisters of Sorrow. We are happy to lend our energies to your meditation that you may feel a deeper sense of stillness inside. We are happy to come to you in dreams and to be part of your guidance. You have only to ask. We, however, do not wish to speak through any but simply to share vibration at this level.

We thank you for this time together. It has been a blessing to us. We leave each of you in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. We are known to you as those of Q’uo. Adonai. Adonai.

This morning, I went to the bank and mailed a birthday card by Overnight Delivery to a friend who turned 45 recently.

This afternoon I want to let everyone know that it was a week ago today that I took Bosco to the vet to have him euthanized because he had stopped eating. As all of you know, who have lost a pet in any kind of situation, there is so much grief that comes from their being gone. My grief is lessening a bit now and has been helped by so many good friends sending me their condolences. I also took a lot of pictures and videos of Bosco starting last August when it became obvious that with all of the diseases he had that he would be leaving his body within the near future, and I get a lot of pleasure looking at these pictures and videos. If any of you have lost a pet recently, I send you my condolences and my hope that all of our pets have now become third-density beings because of the bond of love between us.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

February 12

The Softness Of Love

I am of the principle of Jesus the Christ, and I greet you in the consciousness of divine Love.

My children, why do you grieve the spirit of Jesus the Christ? Why must you turn from charity and harden your hearts?

This day we ask that each communication between two children of the infinite and most glorious Creator be full of the softness of Love and compassion.

My children, do not harden your hearts in any wise toward any soul for any reason but turn from the hardening effects of the surface of things and gaze deeply into the heart of each circumstance to find infinite Love abiding therein.

This is a truth found only in faith. May you, in faith, call upon the Spirit of Christ.

We shall be with you in the peace of Christ, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from July 17:

Question from G: How may I be free of my own self-created prison walls and free of the resulting pain that keeps my energies internal and my heart, that wants to connect, so distant from others? How may I be free to love, to love at will, and free to channel love as universally and unconditionally as did the one known as Jesus?

(Carla channeling)

We are those of the principle known to you as Q’uo. We greet you in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator, in whose name we come to you this evening. We thank you for the great privilege of being allowed to share our thoughts with you at this time. To be called to your group is a great privilege, never more so than at this time, as we feel the purity of desire within this group is most gratifying. We are extremely happy to share our thoughts with each of you with the request, as always, that the utmost care be taken to discriminate between those thoughts which may seem fair for a time and yet may not be, and those thoughts which truly do resonate and do seem to be those personal truths that are meant for this time and this circumstance especially.

There is a tremendous skill within each of you, that listening ear and understanding heart that can discern and can know, in that knowing that is beyond proof, that this is for you, that is not for you. That is that judge whom you must trust more than any other party, for it is a unique thing to be incarnate within this illusion, and it is central to the more subtle reaches of understanding, if we may call it that in this density, that the trust be first within the guidance of the self. Only after that primary judge has been accepted as the true arbiter of that which is true for you personally can you rest and enjoy the interesting opinions and concepts of many others who may indeed have part of the truth that is yours, and may not.

We are delighted to share with you upon the subject of true freedom. It is a much overused and misused word. For what is freedom? In the context of third density, it is an illusion to speak of true freedom, in that the circumstance of incarnation, in and of itself, is that which may seem to be as the prison, through the bars of which one may gaze upon eternity without being able to slip the bars of the cage and enter its untrammeled reaches. And yet that too is an illusion. What is true freedom? To examine this, one must examine what is the nature of the self. What is the nature of the self that is free to love? We ask you to move into a space within your mind in which every stumbling block is removed, all direction is lost, and from which all concept of color, or distance, or size is missing, so that which you are, that infinite spark of the Divine, is able to rest upon the waves of unknowing. These are the underground caves of freedom. These are the dark waters where there is no light, where prayers are true, and the delusions and illusions of color and form have no meaning.

Whathas meaning in these caverns of self that lie beyond limit? Rest and know the strength, the absolute power, the infinity of self. Feel the self that has no need of boundaries, that has no need of bone, or flesh, or the illusory energy fields of form, texture, and color, all of the details so dear to the eye, and the ear, and the senses. This state is as close as we can come with words at this time to describing the Creator that exists without the need for expression. In this state of absolute freedom from form, there are no boundaries, there are no limits, there is no personality, there is no distraction, there is no imperfection, all is truly one, and everything is infinitely possible.

Lift the hand of the mind as if it were reaching for a string of a balloon and tug down to limit, to color, to personality through densities and dimensions, one after the other in a kaleidoscope—down, inward, until you reach the moment before this incarnation, before these details, before these personalities, when you decided, out of all the wisdom you had amassed, out of all the possibilities you could imagine, that this particular planetary sphere, this particular time, these particular relationships and these particular goals of service and learning are the very things out of all of the infinite possibilities available that you would choose at this time for your learning, for your joy, for your evolution. It is this juncture at which you both placed yourself in servitude and opened the doors to a different kind of freedom. For within the trammels of what this instrument would call this Earthly veil, lie the opportunities to love, imperfectly, brokenly, foolishly, again and again feeling the stumbling ways of humanhood, the clumsiness of limitation, the challenges of dwelling in a world where many things seem to be known which do not make sense, and few things are known which make any sense.

The question for this session was: “Question from G: How may I be free of my own self-created prison walls and free of the resulting pain that keeps my energies internal and my heart, that wants to connect, so distant from others? How may I be free to love, to love at will, and free to channel love as universally and unconditionally as did the one known as Jesus?” Q’uo began their reply by saying that there is a skill within each of us that comes from our inner listening ear and the wisdom of our heart that can know beyond any proof what is true for us and what is not true for us, and we must trust these feelings as the guidance of ourself, and then we can enjoy the interesting opinions of others who may or may not have a part of truth that is ours. Q’uo went on to say that they were delighted to share with us the subject of what true freedom is because in the third density true freedom is an illusion because our incarnation is much like a prison, and we can only gaze through its bars upon eternity without being able to get out of the bars of the cage to experience and move into eternity, yet that too is an illusion because to know what true freedom is we must discover the nature of ourself that can love freely, so Q’uo asked us to “move into a space within your mind in which every stumbling block is removed, all direction is lost, and from which all concept of color, or distance, or size is missing, so that which you are, that infinite spark of the Divine, is able to rest upon the waves of unknowing. These are the underground caves of freedom. These are the dark waters where there is no light, where prayers are true, and the delusions and illusions of color and form have no meaning.” Q’uo continued by saying that we can discover what has meaning for us in these caverns within ourself by resting there and knowing the strength, the power, and the infinity of our self that has no need of boundaries, flesh, or the energy fields that are so necessary for our senses, and in this state we are the Creator that exists without the need for the expression of boundaries, personality, or imperfections because all is truly one, and everything is infinitely possible. Then Q’uo said to imagine that the hand of our mind as if it were reaching for the string of a balloon, and then tug down to limit and color our personality through the densities one after the other in a rainbow of colors and then inward until we reach the moment before this incarnation when we decided that this planetary sphere, these relationships, and these goals of service and learning are the very things that we would choose for our learning, joy, and our evolution, and it is at this time when we placed ourself in service and opened the doors to a different kind of freedom, for within the difficulties of this Earthly veil are opportunities to love foolishly again and again and feel the challenges of dwelling in a world where many things seem to be known which do not make sense, and few things are known which make any sense. In 54.24, Ra spoke of the nature of our evolution:

The purpose of incarnative existence is evolution of mind, body, and spirit. In order to do this it is not strictly necessary to have catalyst. However, without catalyst the desire to evolve and the faith in the process do not normally manifest, and thus evolution occurs not.

Therefore, catalyst is programmed, and the program is designed for the mind/body/spirit complex for its unique requirements. Thus it is desirable that a mind/body/spirit complex be aware of and hearken to the voice of its experiential catalyst, gleaning from it that which it incarnated to glean.

A boundary is crossed when an entity chooses to enter incarnation. In some ways it is a boundary from great freedom to infinite limitation. Great vistas of awareness are shut down, closed as if they were slats in a Venetian blind which are simply turned and pulled shut to keep out the Light of true awareness, of unlimited Light, of unlimited knowledge. It is as if the soul coming into incarnation comes in from outdoors and forsakes the illumination of the sun in order to turn on the puny bulbs of 100 watts of artificial light that may or may not be there, depending on whether the power is on, whether the jerry-rigged ways of producing an equivalent light, without the infinite Love being the source of that light, have sway. It is a shock to the system to come into the body, and there is, from the moment of entering the physical vehicle, the necessity to breathe, and to work, and to exist through time as a human being. There is a sense of unutterable loss, and yet it is that which has been chosen. So, gazed at from that simple perspective of choice, the entrance into the morass of limitations and confusion that is the Earth plane is the entrance into true freedom. The entrance into confusion is that pearl beyond price which has been paid for ahead of time by the soul who risks everything in order to learn and to serve.

There is in any incarnation a sense of sacrifice, a sense of loss, and so the question becomes, for what did I take flesh? For what reason was I called to this path? And this is a key question for each entity. What was the motivation? Was it utterly, purely to serve humankind? Was it to serve humankind in a certain way? Was it to serve humankind in a certain way, with certain people? Precisely how was this arrangement created and blessed? May we suggest that an effort of the intellectual mind to organize detail as in an outline and therefore understand, intellectually, the reasons for incarnation is to allow to slip away the opportunity to move beneath the surface of the intellect and beneath the surface of the acculturated, societally vetted, or accepted version of that which the life is and that which the goals of life are. We do not need to express more to you, for we are aware that each within this circle is already aware that those things which the mind can come up with are those things which are not satisfactory as full explanations for the reason for incarnation.

Truly, if you allow the heart to express, the heart itself with every beat, rhythmically, profoundly, simply expresses the truth of incarnation: love, love, love, love, love. The pump that pumps blood through the veins of the physical vehicle moves in waves of love. The second-density body which carries you about has no thought that is not steeped and marinated in love. The second-density vehicle is aware in every cell that it is the Creator, and that it has no need of reasons to exist, or to learn, or to serve, or to suffer, and die. Is it ignorance or is it freedom that allows every cell of your body to give one hundred percent of itself in every moment for its continued existence and no less for the existence of that whole being of which it senses itself to be an integral part. As an entity, one not yet fully in communion with all other entities within its, shall we say, soul group, you have a great lesson to learn from those simple cells of your body, each of which is instinctual and vital with its identity, its every possibility and its readiness to respond to the stimuli that meet it in any given moment, and so does your body, without question, without doubt, respond to that which it perceives. Is it experiencing freedom? Or is it experiencing a mindless, reactionary, slave’s existence?

Let us draw back a step further and gaze at this body that is not you, yet which expresses as a great part of you within the solution. Your body perceives not according to the wisdom of the body alone; rather, the body accepts the information which that entity which you are comes to believe is true. If the entity which is you comes to believe that it cannot feel pain, then it can walk across hot coals or accept the needle in the arm, as has been demonstrated time and again by those who do hypnotism. And each cell of the body is free to ignore as completely unimportant and irrelevant those bodily sensations that otherwise would create great agony. Similarly, that spirit and soul which you are, which is only imperfectly contained within the lantern of the body that holds the candle that is you and the light that is you, is only limited by its perception of its limits. And when that entity that is, at the soul level, the essence of you, is able to rest in peace, in power, within the temple of flesh that has been prepared for it, without strife and without argument, then that which the soul entity perceives is true. And those confusions and difficulties which may seem to be the case upon the outer plane do not have the necessity to impinge upon the inner essence of being that is you.

Then Q’uo said that when we incarnate that we cross a boundary where we move from great freedom to infinite limitation much like our soul comes in from the outdoors and the light of the sun and has to settle on the artificial light of light bulbs that don’t have infinite Love as being the source of their light, so it is a shock to our system to come into our body to breathe, to work, and to exist as a human being with the feeling of loss, but we have chosen this situation so that from that perspective of choice our entrance into the confusion of third density is our entrance into true freedom because it is that pearl of great price which we have paid for when we risk everything in order to learn and to serve. Q’uo went on to say that there is in any incarnation a sense of sacrifice and of loss so that we ask ourselves why we incarnated, if it was to serve others in a certain way, and how was this arrangement created, so Q’uo suggested that our intellectual minds cannot give satisfactory answers to our questions, so we need to move beneath the surface of our intellect and beneath the surface of consensus reality’s version of what our life and our goals are. Q’uo continued by saying that if we allow our heart to express itself it will express the truth of our incarnation as love so that with every beat that it takes it pumps blood through the veins of our body in waves of love because our second-density body is aware in every cell that it is the Creator, and that it has: “no need of reasons to exist, or to learn, or to serve, or to suffer, and die. Is it ignorance or is it freedom that allows every cell of your body to give one hundred percent of itself in every moment for its continued existence and no less for the existence of that whole being of which it senses itself to be an integral part.” Now Q’uo said that as an entity we are not yet fully in contact with all other entities within our soul group, so we have a lesson to learn from the cells of our body each of which is instinctual and ready to respond to the stimuli that meet our body in any given moment, and Q’uo asked if our body is experiencing freedom or the mindless slave’s existence? Q’uo said that that they wanted to look at this body that is not us but which expresses as a great part of us within our incarnation, but it doesn’t perceive  according to its wisdom alone, but our body accepts the information from what we come to believe is true, and if we believe that we cannot feel pain, then we can walk across hot coals and feel no pain as has been demonstrated by hypnotists so that each cell of our body is free to ignore our bodily sensations that otherwise would create great agony. Then Q’uo said that the soul which we are, which is imperfectly contained within the body that holds the light that we are, is only limited by its perception of its limits, and when we are able to rest in peace within the temple of our body that has been prepared for it without strife, then that which our soul perceives is true, and those difficulties which may seem to be the case upon the outer plane do not have the necessity to impinge upon the inner essence of being that we are. On March 23, 2019, Q’uo spoke about the nature of our body:

As each seeker of truth makes itself available to the fourth-density cosmic streamings of Love and understanding that are engulfing your planet at this time, there is a kind of transformation that begins, as you have surmised, within the energetic body so that there is a kind of electrification, you might say, of these cosmic energies that begin to have an effect upon all portions of the mind, body, and spirit complex so that there is the opportunity to raise the level of functioning of the mind, the body, and the spirit in a fashion which is congruent with the instreaming of cosmic energies.

The physical body itself is the last, or shall we say, least, of the portions of the mind/body/spirit complex to be affected as it is a representation of the mind in a more material or mundane form, so that the energies that are first perceived spiritually, and then gravitate to the mind, become available to the body in a more indirect fashion so that the body itself, though having its DNA connections enhanced, is somewhat slower in the expression of these energies in a physical sense.

However, if one is carefully attuned to one’s own body, one may discover that there are certain feelings of the body complex that may be perceived as being an increase in the vibration of the body itself so that the body seems more attuned to the daily round of activities, more able to blend itself in action with the direction of the mind in accomplishing those tasks of a physical nature that are now done more, shall we say, harmoniously, and with a kind of inner rhythm of beingness so that there is a pleasure that is taken emotionally and mentally by the entity as it observes its body being able to move in a more congruent way with the higher vibrations. This type of perception is only available to those who are particularly tuned in, shall we say, to their physical complex. Many entities upon the planet at this time of the third-density nature are somewhat estranged from their body complexes, as the body is often seen as the lesser of the expressions of the One Creator that need, or might benefit from, the attention of the entity to the upkeep of the physical body with the greater portion of attention given to the evolution of the mind and the spirit.

However, we are always glad to suggest to entities that the body complex is that gallant steed which carries you about within the third-density illusion, and this steed needs its care and comfort as well, as the loving expression of the seeker gives that type of attention to its own physical vehicle.

Naturally we are not suggesting that, as an entity becomes spiritually more mature, it may then stop listening to those voices that are around it. We do not for a moment suggest that ignoring those precious other-selves about one is in any way a useful exercise for one wishes to know how one may serve, how one may be served, how one may love, how one may be loved. One does not come into incarnation to avoid catalyst, yet at the same time one does not come into incarnation to become a slave to catalyst. One is neither greater than catalyst, nor less than catalyst, but rather, one is one with the catalyst.

The skill that feeds into the concept of freedom is that skill which is able to see the energies, the thought clusters, and the directions that those thought clusters take in their inferences and their suggestions of further thought. In other words, it accepts all of those thoughts as interesting, useful, beautiful, intriguing, and equal. And all of the thoughts may be enjoyed, appreciated, respected, honored, and followed as one would follow the strengths of a beautiful painting, the motifs of a beautiful piece of music, admiring, appreciating, moving into new places within the mind, within the feelings, because of this catalyst, these works of art that the people around you and their situations offer you in terms of the feeling clusters, the emotional and ethical challenges that are unique to each situation. And as a connoisseur, there is great appreciation in your heart for each offering, whether it may seem to be positive or negative, whether it may seem to be helpful or a hindrance. There is the connoisseur’s appreciation for all the sweet and bitter tastes that make a full palate of experience, and always, whether it is full of light or seemingly full of darkness, there is a feeling of privilege and even thanksgiving that one is able to meet this moment, to have these experiences, to accommodate this utterly unique opportunity, to see the Creator within the endless mystery of appearance.

Why did the Creator choose to make creations? Our comment has often tended to be, “The Creator is attempting to gain in knowledge and appreciation of Itself. The Creator wishes to know Itself. Thusly, it sends forth parts of Itself within illusion to see what will happen and to learn from the colors created in the palate of emotion that you have created through many experiences and incarnations, that contains your beauty and is unique to you, so that you can teach the Creator that which no one else in all of Creation is able to teach. For you are the only one of you in all of the infinite universe; thusly, it is your gift to the Creator, that comes from you, that is greatly desired. You cannot please the Creator by being someone else but only by being most truly and deeply yourself.”

Is that freedom? If so, within incarnation, you are at your most free. You have the chance to make mistakes, to do things wrongly, to become utterly confused, to bomb out, to make mistake after mistake, according to your best light, and yet you do not have the freedom to make the Creator disappointed in you. You have the freedom only to disappoint yourself. But, to the Creator, all that you explore is new and all that you choose is brand new in that moment of choice. How may you be free? My brother, your freedom was never in doubt. It is the life itself, the incarnational illusion that is full of doubt. Is it happening? Is it real? Is it a dream? All of these things are true. It is real. It is happening. It is a dream. It is both valid and illusion, real and imagined, full of power and a vain and empty nothingness. And in these paradoxes, in these impossibilities, in these extravagances that we attempt to place in your mind as being irrational and noumenal, lies a resting place for gathering experience. This is what you have chosen.

Is that freedom? If so, within incarnation, you are at your most free. You have the chance to make mistakes, to do things wrongly, to become utterly confused, to bomb out, to make mistake after mistake, according to your best light, and yet you do not have the freedom to make the Creator disappointed in you. You have the freedom only to disappoint yourself. But, to the Creator, all that you explore is new and all that you choose is brand new in that moment of choice. How may you be free? My brother, your freedom was never in doubt. It is the life itself, the incarnational illusion that is full of doubt. Is it happening? Is it real? Is it a dream? All of these things are true. It is real. It is happening. It is a dream. It is both valid and illusion, real and imagined, full of power and a vain and empty nothingness. And in these paradoxes, in these impossibilities, in these extravagances that we attempt to place in your mind as being irrational and noumenal, lies a resting place for gathering experience. This is what you have chosen.

So perhaps freedom lies in having the most utter faith which is possible for you in the moment. Faith in what? Faith in the self, as limited as that self may seem. Faith in the energies that delivered you to this present moment, as peculiar, odd, and unlikely as they must seem. You are indeed, most free to love at will. The life experience may be seen, in one way, to be that environment in which the will itself, that is, that energy of the soul piercing through the illusion of mass, and time, and space, chooses its light, focuses its love, and opens the door to the great mystery that lies within, that mystery that is love, that is loving, and that is loved.

Now Q’uo said that they were not suggesting that, as we become more spiritually mature, that ignoring the voices of the other selves that are around us is helpful if we wish to know how we may be of service; how we may be served; how we may love; or how we may be loved, and we do not come into incarnation to avoid catalyst, yet we do not come into incarnation to become a slave to catalyst because we are one with our catalyst. Q’uo went on to say that the skill that feeds into the concept of freedom is that skill which accepts all of those thoughts as interesting and equal, and all of the thoughts may be enjoyed as one would follow the strengths of a beautiful painting and move into new places within our mind, and because of this catalyst, these works of art that the people around us offer us in terms of the emotional and ethical challenges are unique to each situation, and there is great appreciation in our heart for each offering, whether it may seem to be positive or negative, helpful or a hindrance because: “there is the connoisseur’s appreciation for all the sweet and bitter tastes that make a full palate of experience, and always, whether it is full of light or seemingly full of darkness, there is a feeling of privilege and even thanksgiving that one is able to meet this moment, to have these experiences, to accommodate this utterly unique opportunity, to see the Creator within the endless mystery of appearance.” Q’uo continued by saying that the Creator chose to make creations because the Creator wished to know Itself, so It sends forth parts of Itself within the illusion to learn from the colors created in the palate of emotion that we have created through many incarnations that contains beauty that is unique to us so that we can teach the Creator that which no one else in all of Creation is able to teach because we are unique in all of the infinite universe, so it is our gift to the Creator to be most truly and deeply ourself. Now Q’uo said that within our incarnation we are free to become confused and to make mistakes, but we do not have the freedom to make the Creator disappointed in us; we only have the freedom to disappoint ourself, and our true freedom is our life itself, the incarnational illusion that is full of doubt as to whether what is happening is real or a dream, and both cases are true, and in this paradox there is a resting place for the gathering of experience, and this is what we have chosen. Q’uo completed their reply by saying that freedom lies in having faith in ourself, faith in the energies that delivered us to this present moment, and the freedom to love at will so that our life experience may be seen to be that environment in which our will that is that energy of our soul that pierces through the illusion of mass, and time, and space, chooses its light, focuses its love, and opens the door to the great mystery that lies within, that mystery that is love, that is loving, and that is loved. On February 5, 1995, Q’uo described the great mystery that is within us:

This is the great mystery of creation. We worship with you this mystery, my brother, and can only shed a limited amount of light upon this topic, for the Creator which has set all energy into motion and has pleased Itself by giving fields of energy which are called entities free will to choose the manner of their being and the way in which they express this being as a manifestation of that being.

We thank the one known as G for this query, and we transfer this contact to the one known as Jim, realizing full well that we have only begun to utter the first sentence, in the first paragraph, of that which we could say concerning this most deep question. Yet the time wanes, the energy wanes, and it is time for us to open the meeting to those questions which the one known as G may continue to have upon his mind. And so, we will leave this instrument, thanking it for its service, transferring this contact to the one known as Jim. We leave this instrument in love and in light. We are those known to you as Q’uo.

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and greet each again in love and in light from this instrument. We would ask the one known as G if he has another query to which we may respond.

G: I certainly do. Thank you Ra, Hatonn, and Latwii for being such loving guides to me during my own journey. My first question is: can you tell me what the splintering agent is that you mentioned in my last reading and what I can do to heal myself of its effects. Is there anything I can do to heal myself of its effects besides engaging in daily meditation so that I may become whole again, restoring the vision and restoring the sight?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. The splintering effect of which we spoke at our previous meeting is a point of view, shall we say, an attitude, which you have adopted or had adopted for yourself in your past. We find that your current experience is one which has caused you to change much of that point of view. There has been much healing of your fractured viewpoint concerning various aspects of yourself and how you would be able to accept these aspects in your daily round of activities. Thus, our recommendation remains that which it was then: to meditate and to consider carefully your point of view as regards the self and the self’s interactions with others.

Is there another query, my brother?

G: Am I by any chance an indigo child or a wanderer of the type with the dual-activated body, or both?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. We would go to the limits of our ability to respond without infringing upon your free will by suggesting that your nature, at its core, is more attuned with the status of one who seeks to serve as a wanderer to distant areas of consciousness. Thus, you are one who has journeyed to a distant point of your own thinking, which is now symbolized by this planetary sphere.

Is there another query my brother?

G: What is the nature of the deep fatigue that comes and goes, and what can I do to increase my energy levels?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query my brother. The…

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I am Q’uo, and am again with this instrument. We shall continue. The fatigue of which you have spoken is a product of the rapid change that has become a part of your daily round of activities, as you have been much involved in the realigning of the physical attributes of this dwelling place. There is a deeper type of change that is symbolized by the rearranging of the physical objects that also is occurring within you at this time. This is the, shall we say, quality of bearing a burden that you have felt as a result of responsibilities, of familial ties. There is the enculturation process that is natural to all third-density beings upon this planet that has, for you, culminated recently in a choice to follow your own lights, shall we say. This choice to move as an independent creature has brought the feeling of a responsibility for your own movement, so that you place a kind of pressure or burden upon your metaphysical shoulders.

This is a somewhat roundabout way of looking at your opportunities for growth. However, we find that each seeker has its own way of approaching the journey that beckons. It is a matter of what is more efficient for you. As you continue upon this journey you will find an ease to your movement which is not now present in its fullest degree, shall we say. As you move more and more freely upon the journey of the change of self that continues until one sees there is a self that does not change, then you shall feel more of this weight removed from your shoulders and your being. It is again a matter of being able to accept yourself and your opportunities for growth.

Is there a further query my brother?

G: Thank you, Q’uo. I have a cluster here. Are my twin soul and I adhering to the pre-incarnatively chosen plan that we had set before us for the course of our earthly relationship? Is there anything more I can do to help her to free herself from her own confusion? And is there a higher road of service that I might walk, higher than the one I currently walk now?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your queries and the concern which generates these avenues of inquiry. We feel that you are well aware that there are no mistakes in any seeker’s journey. There are, however, expectations. Oftentimes, it is more efficient for the seeker to remove expectations and to be able to accept that which occurs as that which is appropriate. However, we are aware that catalyst does not usually work as easily as this simplistic description within your illusion. There is oftentimes much angst between the desire to serve and the actual service as perceived by the self.

The path which you and the entity which you call your twin soul have chosen is indeed appropriate for your own movement into service at this time. We are aware that each would, in what each would call an ideal world, wish to serve in another fashion, one which was more proximate, shall we say, each to the other, in more obvious service and types of learning. Again, there is the matter of allowing catalyst for growth to occur truly. There is, shall we say, a weight or a resistance against which each moves or pushes so that there is an exercising of the spiritual muscles or ability to conceptualize that which is yours to seek and to serve, to give and to receive. There is always a means by which one may serve more efficiently. That is another way of saying there is always growth potential available. It is well to refrain from taking one’s spiritual temperature, judging oneself, attempting to evaluate just exactly where and how one moves upon the path of service to others.

Again, we return to that lighthearted feeling which the childlike nature of the true self demonstrates without effort. This childlike nature has taken on an earthly form, with various abilities to express, various difficulties in expressing. Thus, though there are goals towards which each moves, there is the movement, the perception of the movement, and so on, which when examined without too much dedication to an outcome, can give one a hint, a direction, a possibility. But when focused upon too intensively shall we say, when obsessed about, they may become a stumbling block upon the journey. Thus, do strengths become weaknesses and weaknesses strengths.

Is there another query my brother?

G: Marvelous answer, Q’uo. I have seen enough 1:10’s, 11:10’s, 12:13’s to know that a message is being communicated to me. Can you provide me any sort of insight as to what is trying to be conveyed to me with these one-minute-off “synchronicities”?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. And though this query upon its surface appearance seems to be one steeped in innocence, it is with this query that we must be most careful that we do not infringe upon your free will. Thus, we have only a suggestion that you look at the symbolic nature of the numbers involved and how this symbolism resonates to a certain point of view that you hold towards seeking and serving, of being of service, and of how this is offered.

Is there a further query my brother?

G: Thank you Q’uo. Why do I feel like there are holes, that is, missing pieces of identity and memory in my soul?

I am Q’uo and am aware of your query, my brother. This sensation which you describe as “holes” within the soul of one’s being is a most interesting and perhaps literal way of looking at those portions of the self towards which one moves in the spiritual sense. To regain one’s identity is to fit together many pieces of a great puzzle of many dimensions. When one has a lack of understanding of any portion of this puzzle, there is a hole, shall we say, a gap, a place or way of being that is yet to be discovered. This is the nature of the journey for each seeker of truth—to find the trail of pieces to this puzzle and follow till one is whole, till one is unified, till one feels the unity of self with all other beings. This is a grand journey upon which you travel. Follow that feeling of the hole within until you find that which plugs or fills the hole.

Is there another query my brother?

G: Thank you, Q’uo. Another cluster. Somewhere along the way it seems my memory has been impaired somewhat ,and I was wondering if you could tell me how that happened? Was it injury done to myself by myself? Or the process of ascension? And, how might I be able to regain it enough so that I can again learn and absorb and synthesize new information?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother.

When there has been a forgetting of that which has occurred within the conscious memory, it is either because there was little value to the self in retaining this experience or because there was some difficulty in accepting the experience, so that there was instead of acceptance, rejection. These experiences are critical portions of one’s formative years, shall we say. To explore the primary cause of such rejection, it is often necessary to look within the dream state or the deep meditation, which may uncover these types of traumatic learnings. Thus, we suggest that you take what you can of the current memory, the place where the memory stops, and attempt within your dream state or within your meditative state to take the next step in experience, to open the self to receiving that clue or quality of feeling that will begin to reveal to you that which you have hidden from yourself.

Is there a further query, my brother?

G: Q’uo, you rock. Give me one second, Q’uo.

Carla: Could I ask a question while he is gathering his wits, Q’uo?

I am Q’uo. We would welcome your query, my sister.

Carla: On the question about weariness and food intake and so forth, I’ve been going from the assumption that it might be substances or it might be the quality of love in the food, and so I have focused more on putting love into the food than in being really sensitive about certain substances. Could you make any suggestions as to whether this is a basically good way to value and also if there are substances to which this particular soul either has need for or needs not to have? Is there a possibility that you could share those with me?

I am Q’uo, and aware of your query, my sister. We find that the menu is heavily laden toward the quality of love, which is most nutritious to each seeking soul. We are also aware that the one known as G has a quite clear understanding of his own dietary needs. Perhaps there could be the inclusion of more substances which this entity prefers. However, that which has been prepared is prepared with care, concern, love, and great affection. Thus, we cavil not at the diet and applaud each in his and her approach to the intake of foodstuffs.

Carla: Thank you.

Is there another query at this time?

G: Thank you, Carla, for the very considerate question. Q’uo, can you tell me how I reacted to this world as a child? I ask you because I don’t recall much of my childhood.

I am Q’uo, and aware of your query, my brother. We examine the life pattern of the one known as G, seeing the innocence of the newborn babe carried through into the childhood, so that there was a freshness of learning that was both comforting to the one known as G and somewhat disturbing to those who were the parents, for there was more ability in abstruse areas of comprehension than was expected. Therefore, there has been a loss of innocence and of the ability to grasp new experiences easily and quickly. This is a portion of that filling in of the hole aspect of which we spoke earlier as well as the beginning exploration of the traumatic learning of which we spoke earlier as well. There has continued to be a great thirst for knowledge and for being of service which both were present from the earliest of ages. This is the sum of that which we feel we may offer without infringement.

Is there a final query at this time?

G: That answer is such a gift, thank you, Q’uo. Am I any closer to the course of dessert? Have I moved on, or am I still on my main course? Or am I almost done?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. We find that you are well along the consuming of the main course, which we suggest will be a somewhat lengthy meal within this illusion! From time to time you may find a taste or two of dessert. However, we suggest that prepare yourself for a great feast.

It has been our great privilege to be able to speak to your concerns this evening for we feel that you have a great desire for seeking and serving which needs but little guidance to find its fullest flower within the present environment.

We are those known to you as those of Q’uo. We would take our leave of this instrument of this group at this time. We thank each for inviting our presence this evening. It is a great honor to join you in this circle of seeking. Adonai my friends. Adonai.

This morning I went to my PCP and gave blood and urine samples for my yearly fasting labs.

This afternoon I made an errand run with my first stop being at Feeder’s Supply where I bought more bird seed for myself and for my neighbor across the street. My second stop was at PNC Bank where I made a cash withdrawal. My third stop was at Walgreens’ Drug Store where I bought a birthday card.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

February 11

Blaze A Trail Of Love

I am of the principle of Jesus the Christ, and I greet you in the full consciousness of perfect Love.

This day lies before you, a verdant pasture, a flowering field. Though pathways there are through the wildwood and meadow, yet you may choose your own way and be the first to beat a new trail if those that lie before you do not lead whither you would wish.

There is always more possibility in a situation viewed from the standpoint of Love than in a situation viewed from the condition of humankind. Look up at the golden sun that lights the morning pasture of your day and realize that its perfection lies with you and your perfection with it.

The Spirit enlivens, enhances, and offers each choice that shall be deemed good and necessary by you. May you walk without fear but with the comfort of our companionship into the creative and exciting land wherein each footstep blazes a trail of Love.

The peace of Jesus the Christ I leave with you, now and always. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from May 25:

The question today has to do with the concept of free will, as regards to how the Confederation of Planets in the Service of the One Creator has related to the population of planet Earth for as long as there has been a relationship. Considering all the dirty water, the dirty air, and the nuclear proliferation, warfare, disease, poverty and so forth that are rampant upon our planet now, especially after the graduation of the Harvest, we are wondering, are there any circumstances under which the Confederation of Planets would consider abridging free will and stepping in and cleaning up the air, cleaning up the water, destroying nuclear weapons, providing food and services for people that need it? Or is there some other consideration that we should think about? We would appreciate anything Q’uo has to say on that topic.

(Carla channeling)

We are those known to you as the principle of Q’uo. Greetings in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator, in whose service we are. We greatly thank this group of seeking souls for coming together in meditation and for calling us to your circle. It is such a privilege and pleasure to share your meditation and so heartwarming for us to be able to offer our thoughts to you, humble though they may be. As always, when speaking with you we would ask that you use the utmost discrimination in listening to and considering those things which we offer, for truth is a very personal thing and it is not our intention to remove the joy of learning from your path or to infringe upon the free will of that Godhead principle which is as yet under construction.

Your query this day revolves around that very topic of free will, and so we are delighted to share some thoughts upon this most interesting and very rich topic of conversation. Firstly, we would look at free will without looking further than the creation itself. See the Creator-Self prior to the creation, which includes that which emanates from the Godhead principle in the many, many sparks of the Creator which you see about you as stars, planets, and those entities about you who are yourself and other selves. In this pre-creation Godhead, the Deity’s first distortion from absolute and complete unity was free will. It was this principle which allowed the Creator to ask, “Who am I?” and to follow through on that question by the very personal and utterly committed act of entering that question into the vibrations of Self which the Deity experienced upon asking Itself that question. That which It was able to think was the original Thought and that Thought, as we have said many times, was that pallid word, Love.

Now the Love of a Creator is a Love that cannot be said to be pallid for it creates; it destroys; it makes manifest; it hides; it is mystery; it is experience; it is nothing; it is everything. Yet this Thought has a certain vibration. This vibration has the power to create movement. Movement is that distortion that you call Light. So ,Creator, then Free Will, then the Logos, then Light, in the manifest universe. That is the progression we would describe to you as a way of saying that Free Will is not binding merely upon us. It is the first and primal characteristic of the creation of the Father, or that which this instrument often calls the Logos, or the Godhead principle. It is the nature of the Creator; it is the nature of the Creator’s parts.

The question of intervention contains distortions along certain lines which we would like to explore. Your query had to do with what the situation might be within which we would find it possible or desirable to abrogate the free will of those entities upon your sphere which are imposing these difficulties and distortions upon the hapless remainder of the body of population of humanity upon your planet. However, this query is a query which in its very nature asks that which cannot be answered. For it is not possible for each of you to remove from yourselves the privilege, the responsibility, the honor, and the duty of serving as witnesses to the Light at this location which you now enjoy at this time, and in this situation which you now enjoy.

Upon the level of the surface life, upon the level of your mass media, and the details of politics and policy, it is indeed clear that your sphere is controlled by the few for the sake of the few and to the detriment of many. Gazing at the Earth sphere from the stance of spiritual responsibility or maturity, there is another picture entirely. In this picture, no power is given away to any thought form or actual entity. Rather, each is in relationship with the power, the discipline, and the focus of the self. Insofar as there is no discipline, then there is likely to be very little power. However, your environment is an environment in which the planetary venue was chosen and the ingredients of the life experience of each of you were chosen for an agenda which only peripherally involves the ways of politics, policy, and power. In the outer sense, each of you came here to dig a bit deeper within your particular bit of the Godhead principle, that which you have chosen to filter into incarnational existence within the carriage of the personality shell, welling up within the earthly home of your body, that structure that houses and carries you about.

Each of you came here hoping to use the illusion’s corrosive and harsh ways to thrash, and pound, and uncover the jewels of creatorship within the ore of self. Within the rubble of bits and pieces of the shale of the details of the day and the gravel of, “what I do for a living,” there lie great jewels within each, undiscovered facets of self, undiscovered crystalline formations, nuggets of insight, awareness and realization. Many of these insights are very close to the surface and have been salted within the soil of your most available levels of subconscious mind by the self before incarnation, in order that each of you might have real fruit from the digging, real substance from the probing and the examination of the thoughts of the self. When this work is done deliberately, consciously, and over a period of what you call time, the energetic body of an instrument of Light begins to tune itself as would the piano tuner tune the wire. Tuning, tuning, until the pitch is right for that wire. Each of you has a true pitch and you are tuning that tone of self as you seek the way of the Creator within.

The group question today was: “Considering all the dirty water, the dirty air, and the nuclear proliferation, warfare, disease, poverty and so forth that are rampant upon our planet now, especially after the graduation of the Harvest, we are wondering, are there any circumstances under which the Confederation of Planets would consider abridging free will and stepping in and cleaning up the air, cleaning up the water, destroying nuclear weapons, providing food and services for people that need it? Or is there some other consideration that we should think about?” Q’uo began their reply by saying that they would look at free will as the nature of the creation itself because before the creation the Creator asked who It was and then used Its Free Will to move from total unity into that quality of the original Thought of Love, and then this manifested as the sparks of the Creator which we see about us as stars, planets, and beings such as ourselves. Then Q’uo said that the Love of the Creator is a Love that creates, destroys, and it is a mystery and a vibration that can create movement which is that distortion that they called Light, so that the progression is Creator, then Free Will, then the Logos, then Light, in the manifested universe and is the progression they described as a way of saying that Free Will is not binding merely upon them because it is the first and primal characteristic of the creation of the Father which is the Logos and is the nature of the Creator. Q’uo went on to say that they would like to explore the distortions of the question of that concerned what the situation might be where they would find it desirable to infringe upon the free will of those entities upon our planet which are imposing these difficulties upon the helpless remainder of the population of humanity, so Q’uo said that this query is a query which asks that which cannot be answered because it is not possible for each of us to remove from ourselves the honor and the duty of serving as witnesses to the Light within the third-density illusion. Q’uo continued by saying that upon the level of our mass media and the details of politics and policy it is clear that our planet is controlled by the few for the sake of the few and to the detriment of many, but when they looked at Earth from the perspective of spiritual responsibility there is a different picture, and  in this picture no power is given away to any entity because each of us is in relationship with power and our discipline, and when we have no discipline then we are likely to have little power.  Now Q’uo said that we chose our environment of planet Earth and our incarnational lessons as an agenda which only peripherally involve the ways of politics, policy, and power so that in the outer sense each of us came here to dig deeper within our nature as the Godhead principle which we have chosen to filter into our incarnational experience within our personality shell and the earthly home of our body that carries us around. Then Q’uo said that each of us came here hoping to use the illusion’s  harsh ways to uncover the jewels of creatorship within the ore of ourself, and within the rubble of the details of the day there are nuggets of insight, awareness, and realization within each of us, and many of these insights are close to the surface and have been salted within the soil of our most available levels of our subconscious mind by ourself before this incarnation in order that each of us might gain fruit from the examination of the thoughts of ourself, and when this work is done consciously over a period of time our energetic body of Light begins to tune itself as would the piano tuner tune the wire until the pitch is right for that wire, and each of us has a true pitch, and we are tuning that tone of ourself as we seek the way of the Creator within. On July 5, 1981, Hatonn spoke of the nature of the Creator within us:

My sister, we would answer you by saying that to seek the Love of the infinite Creator in each moment of your life is the greatest service and the greatest learning that can be accomplished upon your plane, for it is the lesson of this dimension to discover the Love of the Creator within all that is experienced within the self, within the life, within the family, within the community, within each activity, each experience and there is, shall we say, an infinite amount of time to discover this Love.

As you dig with a trowel of, “Who am I?” and the weeder of, “What am I doing here?” you are preparing the ground and planting the seeds that blossom into the gifts that you came to share, the essence of self that blossoms into the committed and loving compassion of those dwelling within the illusion but knowing that they are not trapped in the illusion. The one known as E reached for his pillows of Faith and Hope, those words written upon those particular pillows, and we encourage each to take those pillows, those words, those tools, those resources that hearten and strengthen each of you. For you came here to be strong, you came here to offer the power that is yours in active and personal compassion that reaches out and embraces the planet and its peoples. Not because there is a wish to rescue them or to change them in any way but because entities are there to love, just as the you are the object of the love that is all about you, not simply from those entities within the flesh that may express love in their halting words but more, from those entities which are unseen and whose presence uncovers in silence that state of unconditional love in which the self can finally feel safe, secure and able to rest within that holy place that is the heart, the heart of self, the heart of the planet, the entity of self, the entity of the planet. Are these not one thing? Need we intervene to rescue your planet when there are millions of sparks of the Creator upon your planet which are capable of tuning themselves until they burst forth into the most beautiful and harmonious song of Love that the world has ever felt?

Each of those awakening upon your planet at this time, and there are many, is awakening at a time when the aura of fear, terror, and discomfort has never been greater among your peoples. Even under this barrage of fear and negativity, entities are awakening because of the service of those who are already awake, those who find ways to express the thoughts that encourage, and cheer, hearten, and strengthen the light within those with whom they come in contact in one way or another. It is easy to think very quickly of the performers, the singers, the dancers, those who are very visible in public situations as being good examples of those who use their power well. Yet, each time that the one known as G, for instance, offers heart and car ride and help to an entity whose name is not known but whose heart is, the universe has become a sweeter place. Each time that each of you smiles at the stranger who frowns at you, who offers a soft word in response to a harsh one, each gentle or loving act of friend to friend, as in the one known as J, who generously offers her bodywork to this instrument’s most accepting vehicle, is making the world a more tuned and peaceful place in which to dwell.

One cannot address your world’s situation, may we say, to use a cliché, upon the level of the rescue of third density. Entities shall move into early fourth density no matter what happens to your sphere as the density changes, and they will repair the planet with the planet’s cooperation. Indeed many entities even now are repairing their little bit of the planetary surface by loving and talking to the Earth, by cooperating with what this instrument would call nature deities or divas, by relating to the surroundings of self with the understanding that all things are alive, all things work in rhythm and in harmony, and all things except those sunk in the mire of third-density forgetting not only love each other but know that they are one. In this atmosphere, the possibilities of becoming a powerful, magical person are great, and as the time sharpens the focus right unto the moment of birth of fourth density, there is in effect a fourth-density energy that is now as real upon your sphere as the third-density energy. It shows up within the physical world only by creating anomalous effects in terms of physics’ sub-atomic particles but it shows up within the inner life of that wonderful multilayered being that each of you is in a much more clear and obvious way, as the interpenetration of the two densities becomes such that it is much easier for nature, or for the forces of coincidence, to work in order to bring things to your attention which you have asked to be brought to your attention. That is why, in the midst of such challenging times, such times of transformation and change, yet still each of you has had the feeling of entities helping along the way, unseen hands giving a boost and angelic guidance coming through unexpected and unusual means.

The beau geste of each of you at this time is, among other things, to reclaim and recapture your own freedom of will at the level of spiritual endeavor, at the level of will, at the level of choosing to become personally involved in compassion towards entities of flesh, and blood, and bone. Move into active compassion, focus upon the eyes within the photographs of the media rather than the details of horror and terror. Focus upon the process of souls learning, being transformed, and being lifted away into new lessons and new densities. Many are those who have already been cleared out of third density and into a fourth-density environment. Many are those who are coming back at this time with the altered DNA possible with fourth-density consciousness. The so-called indigo children and crystal children are those who have already been harvested and have begun their new life in a new density in which they begin as the equivalent of an indigenous species, within the context of fourth-density life. Each of you has perhaps an overweening opinion of the gadgets and the trickery of the present level of technological expertise of your peoples. Yet, indeed, the next level of expertise flows with cooperation with the Light rather than control of the Light and this in turn opens those abilities which create the impression that that which you think of as advanced technology is, in fact, the knife, the flint pounder, the fishhook.

Much simplicity lies in true love. Living in this simple atmosphere of the open heart, entities are able to do precisely that which they can focus into, love with all their hearts, and release all attachment concerning outcome. This instrument, for instance, has great hopes to serve the planet by the campaign of information and persuasion which would coax all entities into tuning to that harmonic tuning of love and light and personal compassion which is the true tuning for you. Yet she is aware that, of herself, she can do nothing. But what she can do is pray, daily, sincerely, wholeheartedly, “Creator, teach me your ways. Show me the path that you have prepared for me to walk in.” This in a sense is the giving over of the power into guidance, yet it is the taking of power to ask for guidance and to use it.

Then Q’uo said as we seek to answer the questions of who we are and why we are here we are planting seeds within our being that can grow into the gifts that we have come to share in having compassion on those who feel that they are trapped within this illusion, and we should use the tools of Faith and Hope because we have come here to use them to strengthen our love that reaches out to embrace the planet and its people—not to change them in any way–but because they are here to love just as we are the object of the love that is all about us but also by those entities who we cannot see and whose presence shares the state of unconditional love that helps us to feel safe and able to rest within the holy place of our heart and all hearts of people and this planet, for they are all one, and we all can tune ourselves until we burst forth into the most beautiful song of Love that the world has ever felt. Q’uo went on to say that there are many people awakening at this time when fear and discomfort have never been greater, and they are awakening because of the service of those who are already awake and are finding ways to strengthen the light within those that they meet so that each time that we smile at a stranger that frowns at us or when we engage in a loving act of a friend to a friend we are making the world a more tuned and peaceful place in which to dwell. Q’uo continued by saying that we shall move into early fourth density no matter what happens to our planet, and we can heal our planet with the planet’s cooperation because even now many entities are repairing their area of planet’s surface by loving and talking to the Earth, by cooperating with nature deities, by realizing that all things are alive and work in rhythm and harmony and not only love each other but know that they are one so that in this atmosphere we can become a magical person, and now there is a fourth-density energy that is as real upon our sphere as the third-density energy. Q’uo said that this energy shows up within our inner life of that multilayered being that each of us is in a much more obvious way as: “the interpenetration of the two densities becomes such that it is much easier for nature, or for the forces of coincidence, to work in order to bring things to your attention which you have asked to be brought to your attention. That is why, in the midst of such challenging times, such times of transformation and change, yet still each of you has had the feeling of entities helping along the way, unseen hands giving a boost and angelic guidance coming through unexpected and unusual means.” Now Q’uo said the beautiful effort that each of us can make at this time is to reclaim our freedom of will at the level of choosing to become personally involved in compassion towards all entities and move into active compassion and focus upon the process of souls learning, being transformed and being lifted away into new lessons and new densities, and there are many who have already have moved out of third density and into a fourth-density environment, and they are those who are coming back at this time with the altered DNA of fourth-density consciousness, and they are known as the indigo children and crystal children who have already been harvested and have begun a new fourth-density life that flows with cooperation with the Light rather than control of the Light. Q’uo said that living in this atmosphere of the open heart we are able to love with all of our hearts with no desire for an outcome, and they said that Carla had great hopes to serve the planet by asking all entities to tune into that harmonic tuning of love and light and personal compassion which is our true tuning, yet she is aware that, of herself, she can do nothing, but what she can do is: “pray, daily, sincerely, wholeheartedly, “Creator, teach me your ways. Show me the path that you have prepared for me to walk in.” This in a sense is the giving over of the power into guidance, yet it is the taking of power to ask for guidance and to use it.” On August 21, 2005, Q’uo described the value of asking for guidance:

When you as an entity perceive that there is a question as to what is the right thing to do, you may trust that you have awakened your conscience. We would simply encourage you to follow the thoughts that you have when these concerns arise. But we would also encourage you to remember that you came here with the desire to love and to serve, not to judge. So, in pursuit of ethical and moral action, we would encourage a dispassionate, compassionate, and systematically passionate attempt to be an agent of love. We would encourage you to invoke your own creativity and to ask for guidance. For there is always a bigger picture to see, a wider point of view upon which to plant your feet, so that your conscience awakens in you your highest and best response.

This is a different matter than asking to be rescued because each feels powerless before the problems of the world. We assure you, in the ways of spirit, each is profoundly powerful and as each becomes aware of the dynamics and the strength of groups who are together tuning their will to Love, this power and this beau geste shall come clearer and clearer into the vision, so that it can be seen in ways that are difficult to describe but very real. The vision is that the truth can never be hidden, that the Light has never been extinguished by darkness, that all is well, and that there is the profound satisfaction and the responsibility of knowing that the combined energy of groups such as yours, in coming together to affirm Love, Light, and unity, have already made a tremendous difference in the progress of this shift into fourth density.

For two decades of your time at least, we have seen what this instrument would call the rubber band effect, as the light generated by those who are awakening affected the planetary shift. So that it was as if the band was being released very slowly, by a tiny increment each time. This is the reason for the many earthquakes and other changes in the planetary experience, none of which is so earth-shattering that it does indeed shatter the earth or remove the general population. Those who have been actively involved in this lightening of the vibrations of planet Earth are perhaps five percent of the population and yet much has been accomplished because of a few. And that few has begun to grow exponentially as more and more entities begin to wake up and then, by their influence, begin to lighten the atmosphere around them to enable others the freedom from fear which it takes to begin to wake up.

It is not for you to give up your free will nor for us to intervene. Rather it is for you, each of you, to move internally from the third-density perspective to the fourth-density perspective, gazing at this Earth sphere of yours with a fourth-density perspective. Each has a very sturdy point of land to stand upon to gaze at the chaos of your illusion. That land is the firm terra firma of the truth, that which you know. What is it that you know? What is it? When you dig within yourself and come to the center, what is that that you know? It is the Creator. When all is taken aside, and the last veil is parted, that which lies within your heart, that which is your very nature, is the infinite Creator, waiting for you. And in that place of the heart, with the Creator, in that tabernacle of the spirit, the difference between your Free Will and the Creator’s Free Will falls away, and there is a Love that exists that balances, heals, and restores. We encourage each to spend as much time as possible in the precincts of your own heart. For even a moment in that holy of holies that lies within informs and enlivens the day, the experience, the reality, if we may call it that, for an entity.

By free will each of you decided to come to try to make a difference—for yourself by learning, and for the planetary Light by serving. These aspects of learning and service intertwine like the ropes of a strong ship’s hawser and cannot be taken apart. Living, learning, and serving are all wound in together, and there is no telling when one stops and where another begins. We assure you that all is well with your people. The harvest has grown substantially, and we are most pleased to see the situation as it is. From our standpoint things look very good. The vibratory energy of your planet begins to lift. Much has been accomplished. Much has been begun of goodness and substance. It remains for those of you awake to be aware of this time and its possibilities, to follow through day upon day, and act upon act, year upon year, and thought upon thought, decade upon decade, and realization upon realization. That is the real heart of the job, the mission. The service is in the being, and in the being lies the tuning that will bring the Earth and its peoples to health within early fourth density. This is early fourth density; you vibrate now in fourth density. Certainly, your third-density vehicles are having their challenges in accommodating the new vibrations. And yet the body is the creature of the mind. And as your consciousness begins to feel comfortable swimming in the waters of unconditional love, so the bodies shall find themselves more and more able to enjoy fourth-density vibration.

It is in your hands, each of you. We would not take this learning or this service from you. The energies of your planet at this time are, as this instrument has heard it described by her teacher, off on a side track: a time lateral. The train of yellow-ray third-density Earth has been shunted into a lateral experience by the determined and repeated actions of what this instrument would call the Sons of Light and the Sons of Darkness, or those who promote peace and joy and those who promote war and suffering. In the outer sense, these few entities have again and again, upon other planets and upon this one, in many different societies, chosen the ways of war and chosen them for reasons unknown to themselves; being manipulated by those far cleverer than they, who use the suffering and the pain of third density, in its endless repetition of war, as food. It is time to stop feeding fifth-density entities who feed on fear. The only way to move back onto the normal time track of this planet is to find ways to lose fear and to respond to all situations not with hesitation but with confidence, not with the feeling that something needs to be done but with the knowledge that something is being done. It is being done with the mind and with the heart. The power of each to help each in these realizations is great. We are most pleased to encourage each to listen to and to respond to each as the seeking and the processes of learning go on. Each is teacher to each and there is a circle of learning.

Now Q’uo said even if we feel powerless before the problems of the world that we are powerful in the ways of the spirit as we become aware of the strength of groups who are tuning their will to Love so that this beautiful gesture will become clearer in our vision in the ways of spirit so that it can be seen in ways that are difficult to describe but very real, and that truth can never be hidden; that Light cannot be put out by darkness; that all is well; and that there is satisfaction and responsibility of knowing that the energy of groups such as ours to affirm Love, Light, and unity, has already made a tremendous difference in the progress of this shift into fourth density. Q’uo went on to say that for two decades of our time we have seen the rubber band effect occurring, so the planetary shift has been affected by those who are awakening so that it is as if the band was being released very slowly, and: “this is the reason for the many earthquakes and other changes in the planetary experience, none of which is so earth-shattering that it does indeed shatter the earth or remove the general population.” They said that those who have been aiding this lightening of the vibrations of Earth are only five percent of the population, and yet much has been accomplished because of a few, and that number has grown exponentially as more entities begin to wake up and lighten the atmosphere around them to enable others the freedom from fear which it takes to wake up. Q’uo continued by saying that it is not for us to give up our free will nor for Q’uo to intervene, but it is for each of us to go within from the third-density perspective of gazing at our Earth from the fourth-density perspective because each of us has a sturdy point of land to stand upon to gaze at the chaos of our illusion which is that land of the solid ground of the truth which we know in the center of ourself as the Creator, and when the last veil is parted that which lies within our heart is the infinite Creator who is waiting for us, and in that place of our heart the difference between our Free Will and the Creator’s Free Will falls away, and there is a Love that exists that balances and heals, so Q’uo encouraged each of us to spend as much time as possible in the center of our heart because spending even a moment in that holy of holies informs and enlivens our reality. Now Q’uo said that each of us decided to try to make a difference by learning and serving the planetary Light, and these aspects of learning and serving intertwine like the strong ropes of a ship and cannot be taken apart so that  learning and serving are wound together, so Q’uo assured us that all is well with our people because the harvest has grown substantially, and they were pleased to see this because as the vibratory energy of our planet begins to increase it remains for us to be aware of this time and its possibilities and: “to follow through day upon day, and act upon act, year upon year, and thought upon thought, decade upon decade, and realization upon realization” since this is the real heart of the our mission. Q’uo said our service is in our being which contains the tuning that will bring the Earth and its peoples to health within early fourth density, and we vibrate now in fourth density which has caused our third-density bodies to have their challenges in adjusting to the new vibrations, and yet our body is the creature of the mind, so as our consciousness begins to feel comfortable swimming in the waters of unconditional love, and our bodies shall find themselves more and more able to enjoy fourth-density vibrations. Q’uo said that they would not take this learning or this service from us because the energies of our planet at this time are on a time lateral so that the train of yellow-ray third-density Earth has been pulled aside into a lateral experience by the repeated actions of the Sons of Light and the Sons of Darkness, or those who promote peace and joy and those who promote war and suffering these Sons of Darkness have again and again, upon other planets and upon this one: “chosen the ways of war and chosen them for reasons unknown to themselves; being manipulated by those far cleverer than they, who use the suffering and the pain of third density, in its endless repetition of war, as food. It is time to stop feeding fifth-density entities who feed on fear,” so Q’uo completed their reply by saying that the only way we can move back onto the normal time track of this planet is to find ways to lose fear and to respond to all situations with confidence and with the knowledge that something is being done with our mind and our heart, and Q’uo was pleased to encourage each of us to listen and respond to each other as the seeking and the processes of learning go on because each is teacher to each, and there is a circle of learning. On April 14, 2007, Q’uo described the nature of a time lateral:

At the end of the second minor cycle of harvest in third density upon planet Earth, the Council of Saturn became concerned that the solar system as a whole had been able to bring to a normal graduation only one of the planets in this particular solar system that you call the Sun. It decided that it would be helpful to create a time lateral and to place the planet under strict quarantine. It was further decided that all of those entities whose third densities had been interrupted be brought to Earth to join Earth’s cycle leading to harvest.

Accordingly, the metaphysical or time/space portion of your third-density Earth was reconnected to the main track, shall we say, of the progression of time/space and space/time in such a way that it was as isolated and protected a hotbed or greenhouse for growing souls as could be devised. It is precisely as real as the main track of time/space. And indeed, it is equal to the main track in time/space. It is a carefully created alternative track which naturally feeds back into the main track of time/space and space/time progression.

At the conclusion of this time lateral, then, the population of planet Earth shall be ready to take advantage of the opportunity to end the third sub-cycle of harvest and greet the end of that seventy-six-or-so-thousand-year cycle that is a third-density cycle in its completion. Because this is not a physical alteration but a metaphysical alteration, there is no physical marker for the end of the time lateral. And indeed, this time lateral has been very successful compared to experiments in the past. The accumulation of awakening interest in altering the course of the vibration of planet Earth has been late in starting, but has rapidly spread and gained strength in all parts of your globe, in all peoples, cultures and places. Your world is truly waking up.

We would at this time leave this instrument and transfer this contact to the one known as Jim, for there are questions within this group, and we would like to leave this instrument, as her energy becomes somewhat low, and to use the one known as Jim’s rather more capacious physical energies, although we do find that there is a limited amount of energy within the circle of all of those at this time. Consequently, we would thank the one known as Carla and in time transfer this contact to the one known as Jim. We are those of Q’uo, and we leave this instrument in love and in light.

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and we greet each again in love and in light through this instrument. It is our privilege at this time to offer ourselves to speak to any further queries which may yet remain upon the minds of those present. Is there another query at this time?

G: Q’uo, if it’s not too large, I would like to know, metaphysically speaking, from your perspective, from Love’s perspective, what happened in the middle of the last century when the Hindus and the Muslims set down their weapons, ending a downward spiral of violence, death and bloodshed in order to end Gandhi’s fast, in order to save him from the termination of his own life?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query my brother. We find that this experience was one in which there was a great deal of the opening of the…

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I am Q’uo, and we are again with this instrument. We shall continue. These two great faiths, the Hindu and the Muslim, had through the actions and the service of the one known as Gandhi been able to appreciate this entity’s open heart to the degree that they were willing to set aside age-old differences in order that this entity whom they revered so greatly might stop his fast and continue to live among them. For it is well perceived, when there is an entity such as the one known as Gandhi who has opened his heart to that degree, that there is no boundary beyond which love cannot be given. This entity was successful in opening his own heart so that the will of love moved through him in a way which was easily recognized by those whose lives he touched. Thus, when it became apparent that this entity was willing to give his life and the remainder of it for the cause of peace between the warring religious factions, those religious factions found the way to their own heart in relation to this entity and were willing to cease the hostility in order that this entity might cease his fast and remain among them.

This was a shining moment for these religious factions for there has been little before or since that has galvanized them to lay down the differences, as did the one known as Gandhi’s actions.

Is there another query my brother?

G: Not from me. Thank you.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you my brother.

J: Yeah, Q’uo, I have just a quick question. I was hoping that you could give me some clarity on this. Before I came to the Earth is it possible that I came from the Pleiades and the particular star that I am thinking of is Alceon. Can you confirm that for me?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. We find that there has been some influence in your previous incarnations from this particular star system which you call Alceon. Not necessarily that you have originated there but that you have had experiences there as you have had upon the planet Earth.

Is there another query my sister?

J: No, that’s all for now. Thank you for being with us today.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you as well, my sister. Is there another query at this time?

G: I have one, if nobody else does. Q’uo, in seeking love there are different moments in a seeker’s life when he is overcome with the emotion and desire to seek, and find, and feel, and know love, and there’s dry times in between. And I was wondering what you might have to say on the effect of just putting forth the intent to see love, just that motion, just that request. Whether it’s felt in the heart or not, whether it’s just empty words, what kind of effect that has?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. As the seeker of truth moves upon the journey, there is for each seeker those times of increased seeking, increased desire, increased passion for the purpose of the life’s path. It is during these times that there is built within the entity a metaphysical foundation, shall we say, that is added to by each additional seeking desire. Each time the seeker renews its quest for the open heart, for sharing with others the Love that creates all things, then the seeker has added yet another stone, shall we say, to secure the foundation of its metaphysical journey. As you also mentioned, there are those times when there is less passion, less desire, perhaps less expression of the desire to seek Love. These are normal experiences for each seeker. For there are seasons, cycles, periods of increased awareness, increased strength in seeking, increased compassion within the heart. This is as the seed which has been nurtured by attention and has begun to sprout, cracking the hard shell of the exterior, sending forth the first roots, sending forth the first small leaves, beginning to express in the way in which Love has been encoded within each entity, each seed, each seeker.

Thus, you find periods during which there is a great wave of energy that moves through your being. It is at this time that the desire to know, to seek, to share, and to love is nurtured, is brought forth. As you continue to move upon your journey of seeking, you will begin more and more to create this desire for yourself rather than feeling the normal rhythms that move throughout all creation. This is the conscious portion of the journey of seeking. Each entity has the subconscious or unconscious motivation during which the upward spiraling line of Light begins to manifest more through the seeker’s journey. When the seeker has become enough aware of this type of energy moving through its being then there is made a room, or a place for it by the seeker, so that there may be a more, shall we say, conscious application of the energies of awareness. Thus, there is the completion of one portion of the journey; that is, the subconscious movement in rhythm with all creation, that becomes the conscious creation of the mind of the seeker that seeks to know the source of Love within the self, and within all creation, upon a more continual basis.

Is there a final query at this time?

G: Not from me, thank you so much, Q’uo.

Carla: I have a question. This is from K, and she says, “In the story of Job, God seemingly inflicts horrible events onto his faithful believer named Job. With regard to this parable, I have two questions. One, why was the Creator portrayed in such a dark manner? Is this story accurate? And two, does the Creator have a dark side, and what is its nature?

I am Q’uo, and aware of your query my sister. The story which is spoken of in the book of Job, in your holy work known as the Bible, is an example of the entities that were of what we call the negatively-oriented nature, who were attempting to pose as your Creator in order to control the actions of many of the peoples that you may refer to as the Jewish race of that time, who had long-established relations with many sources of information from elsewhere, shall we say.

The experience of the one known as Job was along the lines of giving and taking in order to control the behavior of these entities. There is, of course, a source of Love which is truly of the one Creator which has, as you have mentioned, a complete identity in that it is of all things, both manifest and unmanifest, that which you would call the light and that which you would call the dark. However, there are lesser entities who have traveled from distant star systems to various planetary spheres such as your own Earth and have placed themselves in the position of one which would be the one Creator, in order that they might exercise a kind of control over those entities that they were able to convince to worship them as the one Creator.

We apologize for the somewhat scattered nature of this instrument’s work this day, he is somewhat distracted, and we have been able to utilize this entity only in some degree of effectiveness. We would ask if there may be a final query, my sister?

Carla: OK, just on my own hook, my question would be: Given that I perceive the pyramids with the knowledge that they would be a complete mystery, and given the knowledge that the time for the pyramids is over, I was thinking that the crop circles are one of the Confederation’s ways of actively putting mystery into the fabric of our third-density experience, so that in actuality, in your own way you are continuing to offer mysteries for us to solve or to use. Would you say that that is accurate?

I am Q’uo. I am aware of your query, my sister. Indeed, this is one means by which mystery has been presented to your peoples by some of those in the Confederation of Planets in the Service of the One Infinite Creator. The concept of mystery is the opening into the consciousness which we have found most effective to utilize, and it is that which seems to fuel the desire to seek further along the lines of Love and Light that so many of your peoples now express as a result of coming into contact with various sources of mystery.

At this time we shall take our leave of this instrument and this group. We are known to you as those of Q’uo. We leave each in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. Adonai, my friends. Adonai.

This morning I went outside and used a combination of my backpack blower, shovel, and leaf rake to get the crushed stone out of my pet cemetery and back into the parking area beside the pet cemetery. The crushed rock was part of a snow removal project that I hired a snow removal company to clear the snow from my parking areas in front of my home, in front of the pet cemetery, and  the driveway three weeks ago so that our attendees for our public channeling meditation would be able to park in these areas.

This afternoon I went back outside and once again used my backpack blower, leaf rake, and a five-gallon bucket to remove more crushed rock from the drainage ditch on the other side of the road. Then I emptied three buckets full of crushed rock onto the park of the driveway next to the road.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

February 10

Smoke And Ashes

I am of the principle of Jesus the Christ, and I greet you in the full consciousness of divine Love.

A spark goes forth from the dying embers of the fire of useless thoughts. It flies to the barren ground of the unhearing ear and dies. And all the energy that has been expended is that which has produced only smoke and ashes. This is the material of which much of your experience consists.

Consider well that for which you shall feel passion; that for which you shall generate love; that which shall create in you the flame, the embers, and the spark.

Consider also the ground upon which you choose to build the fire of your caring, your service, and your love. For truly do you wish to serve. And truly shall each ember shoot forth those sparks which may, in turn, breed fires of love.

Choose you the ready ground. Choose, in your thoughts, thoughts that temper your spirit, strengthen your love, and bring you into the consciousness of Jesus the Christ.

May the fire of your spirit burn clear and bright and may each dying thought produce bountiful fruit.

We leave you in peace, both now and evermore. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. The Q’uo quote today comes from May 18:

Our question this week has to do with how we can maintain our spiritual centers in our desire to seek in a spiritual sense, when there are so many things in the world around us to which it seems to be necessary for us to pay attention in a very focused fashion, whether it is the children that we are raising, the family to which we are relating, the job that we are working, or the friends with whom we wish to interact. We would like any information Q’uo could give us about how to maintain this balance between the worldly things that seem to take so much of our time and attention and the spiritual things that we have to work so hard to make time for.

(Carla channeling)

We are those known to you as the principle of Q’uo, and we greet you in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator, in whose service we are. May we say what a great privilege and pleasure it is for us to be able to share in your circle of seeking and to be asked to share, as well, our opinions concerning the balancing of the busy life between the two worlds of doing and being. In order for us to speak freely we would ask one thing of you, and that is that you exercise the most stringent discrimination in listening to those thoughts that we share. We are not those of authority but rather those who are your neighbors, your friends, your brothers, and your sisters.

We have perhaps walked, in your way of thinking, more miles along the road of spiritual evolution, yet we are not those who have infallible opinions, but rather those who are like you: pilgrims upon the road, those who seek the truth. Therefore, in order for our reassurance that we are not infringing upon the free will of any, we would greatly appreciate your using the utmost discrimination in judging whether or not the thoughts we share may have some use for you. If they do not, please leave them behind.

We gaze within this instrument’s mind for the flavor of the experience about which you question in this session, and see that this instrument, as all of those within this room and indeed within your culture, has a marked tendency to find herself physically running out of time, not just from time to time but in each and every day, before the list of things that were hoped for being done within that day is finished. And indeed, often in this instrument’s mind, we see the rueful assurance that a hard working and productive day can go by completely full of hard work yet without even beginning to cross an item off the list of those things that the instrument thought that she was going to do that day. Indeed, the illusion is quite efficient in creating ever more confusion and ever more catalyst for growth, learning and service. As the one known as V has said, the universe is doing its job.

It is our feeling that each creates, before incarnation, a plan for those themes of choice within the incarnation to come being set as default, repeating markers within the life experience. Whatever the lesson of service is, whatever the lesson of learning is, these things are provided as if they were food. Sometimes the food is black and bitter fruit, or so it would seem within the physical life. And yet this fruit is that which is prized in terms of its effectiveness in placing the essence within the entity in situations in which the themes of the incarnation may be explored, and that which M called the processes of spiritual evolution may take place upon whatever level.

Certainly, most of the solid, serious work of spiritual evolution is done with conscious intention. But for the most part, in terms of the content and the substance of the work done, that work is done below the level of consciousness, fed by the intention as if the root or source of the stream were within the mental/emotional/spiritual worlds, shall we say, but springing forth into the life in terms of experience, intuition, dream content, and so forth. Consequently, there seem to be fountains of events of a certain type that periodically or perhaps constantly just keep coming, keep springing forth. And together with those sprays of the water of catalyst come sprays of the minerals within that water which are emotions connected with the events that are occurring, so that as you, as a soul, are flowering, these rains of catalyst and emotion come to feed the fertile soil of your learning. You have every opportunity to grow that crop of knowing, that crop of realization, what this instrument would call “grokking,” that these themes that spiral again and again into the life experience help one to explore.

Let us take a step back now from this query and look at the entity that each of you is, and how that entity experiences, or experiences not, what it sees, and stores in memory. Neither the present nor the past is in the kind of sharp focus that they seem to be within the physical illusion. The one known as D has pointed out that we do not see with our eyes, nor do we hear with our ears. Rather, there is a kind of composite that is made up largely of pre-assumed vision, which fills in the background of most entity’s organs of awareness. But one is not seeing it clearly, indeed one may not notice a great deal of what one is gazing at because of the way the mind receives data and forms it into a picture.

The group question today was: “We would like any information Q’uo could give us about how to maintain this balance between the worldly things that seem to take so much of our time and attention and the spiritual things that we have to work so hard to make time for.” Q’uo began their reply by saying that Carla, and most people in our culture, have the experience of running out of time before they were able to finish their work list for the day, and Carla could spend an entire day working hard without being able to cross one task off of her list which suggested that the illusion was providing more catalyst for learning and service. Q’uo continued by saying that each of us creates a plan of pre-incarnative choices of repeating catalyst within our life experience so that whatever our lessons of learning and service are they are provided as if they were food, and sometimes the food seems like bitter fruit, and yet this fruit is that which is valuable because it reveals the essence of our incarnational lessons so that the process of spiritual evolution make take place on various levels of our experience. Q’uo went on to say that most of our work of spiritual evolution is done with conscious intention, but in terms of the content and the substance of our work is done below the level of our consciousness, fed by our intention as if the source of the stream were within our mental/emotional/spiritual worlds, but they manifest our life in terms of experience, intuition, and dreams so: “there seem to be events just keep springing forth, and with those sprays of the water of catalyst come sprays of the minerals within that water which are emotions connected with the events that are occurring, so that as you, as a soul, are flowering, these rains of catalyst and emotion come to feed the fertile soil of your learning.” Then Q’uo said that they wanted to step back from this query and look at the entity that each of us is, and how we experience what we see and store in our memory because neither the present nor the past has the kind of sharp focus that they seem to be within the physical illusion, and D pointed out that we do not see with our eyes, nor do we hear with our ears, so there is a kind of perception that is made up of pre-assumed vision which fills in the background of most our organs of awareness, but we are not seeing it clearly because of the way our mind receives data and forms it into a picture. On May 18, 1980, Latwii described the nature of the physical illusion:

You can, for instance, decide what you wish to reprogram. But, you will never know in your normal, shall we say, work-a-day state of mind, the mechanics of this reprogramming. It is not so much a state of objectivity that you need to reach, as a state of freedom, and this is not a freedom from yourself. It is a freedom to yourself.

For in reality, in the physical illusion, you are separated from yourself by all the concepts which have been generated in your mind as distortions of the truth, by those about you whom you trusted since your early childhood. These distortions are many and varied, and at a very young age you chose which distortions you felt comfortable in living with. Therefore, various people have various distortions. So, the laughter releases you not to objectivity but to yourself, which is the ultimate subjectivity, since each person’s universe is unique and unreplicable.

The structure of memory, similarly, is such that the true memory is being harvested to the soul quality essence or higher self of each entity and only the shadow of the experience, or shall we say a copy of the data, remains within the biocomputer of the mind. Consequently, much that floods the awareness is the result of poor or actually incorrect information. Therefore, the task of untangling one’s organs of awareness from pre-assumption is a difficult one, a lifelong one, and one that cannot be done without help. We encourage each in this wise, then, to pursue those resources that will aid in allowing the mind to reassess each pre-assumption that can be found within the mind, assessing it anew for its accuracy, its place within the value system which you enjoy and so forth, giving the self the chance to look anew at all of those things which you are quite sure you have gazed at already and concerning which, you have come to a settled opinion. Always, there is new truth for you in situations which are puzzling you. Always, there is a great deal of fertile growth which may occur rather quickly in understanding a certain structure which is puzzling, such as the challenge of the childrearing about which the one known as M was speaking.

The instinct is to assume, since one is within a physical body, and it seems quite obvious that one is a limited entity and must take care of the self as a frail and limited entity; that one must be strong; one must be sturdy; one must be upon one’s guard at all times. Upon one level this is completely and absolutely true. Within the illusion, in terms of extra pairs of hands, when there is one parent in a house with children, those hands need physically to be looking out for those children, doing what needs to be done for those children, and so forth.

However, your query concerns the state of mind within which these duties which are so dear to the heart may be done. It is not the chores themselves, as we gaze around this circle, that seem to be troubling the mind of any within this circle. Each entity within this sitting group seems to have a strong yellow ray, or physical/environmental presence. That energy is flowing well. There is not the begrudging of the working time, or the dislike of that which one is doing, to be stumbling block to enjoying that time of labor to which each has committed the self. Rather, it is the experience of each that the physical doing that consumes the time within the day also seems to consume that space within the mind, the heart, and the being which is spacious, and has that feeling of comfort and emotional security which gives one that point of view which is full of joy, cheerful, and simply having a good time, having what this instrument would call fun with whatever one is doing. Once an entity has moved through those reexaminations of the default settings of the mind, shall we say, one is then perhaps more in touch with where the self meets the process of spiritual evolution today, at this time, at this instant.

Then the soul may begin to become conscious about its choice of points of view. The choice is not what it seems, for it is not the choice between one mental view and another. It is not a choice that can be pinned down to thinking one way or disciplining oneself to behave in one certain way. Rather, it is a growing awareness that the self is magical, and the environment of the self is also magical. In the realization of the profundity and the depth of that magical self there comes a realization that much of the most important part of you, as you view yourself and your gifts, is impersonal, that you are living a personal life with perhaps 20% of your energy and living an imperishable, impersonal life with by far the majority of the life energy that is invested within the personality shell which entities relate to as each of you.

Then Q’uo said that the structure of our memory is such that our true memory is being harvested to our higher self, and only the shadow of the experience remains within our mind so that much of what we are aware of is the result of incorrect information, so our task of clarifying our organs of awareness from presumption is a lifelong one, and one that cannot be done without help, so Q’uo encouraged us in this way to pursue those resources that will aid in allowing our mind to reassess each presumption that can be found within the mind: “assessing it anew for its accuracy, its place within the value system which you enjoy and so forth, giving the self the chance to look anew at all of those things which you are quite sure you have gazed at already and concerning which, you have come to a settled opinion.” Q’uo said that there is always new truth for us in situations which confuse us, and there is always fertile growth for us which may occur quickly in understanding a certain relationship which is confusing such as the challenge of the childrearing. Q’uo continued by saying that our instinct is to assume, since we are within a physical body, that we must take care of ourself as a limited entity so that we must be strong and on our guard at all times which is true within the illusion so that if we are a parent in a house with children, our hands need to be doing what needs to be done for those children. Q’uo went on to say that our query concerns our state of mind in which these duties that are so near and dear to our heart may be done because it is not the chores that seem to be troubling our mind since we seem to have a strong yellow ray, and its energy is flowing well, so we are able to enjoy our time of physical labor. But Q’uo said that it is our experience that this consumes our time within the day and the space within our mind, heart, and being which has the feeling of emotional security which gives us that point of view which is full of joy and having fun with whatever we are doing so that once we have moved through the review of our default settings of our mind we are then more in touch with where ourself meets the process of spiritual evolution. Now Q’uo said that our soul may begin to become conscious about its choice of points of view, and: “The choice is not what it seems, for it is not the choice between one mental view and another. It is not a choice that can be pinned down to thinking one way or disciplining oneself to behave in one certain way.” Q’uo said that there is a growing awareness that our self is magical, and the environment of ourself is also magical so that in our realization of the profundity and the depth of the magical self we realize that the most important part of us, as we view ourself and our gifts, is impersonal, and that we are living a personal life with 20% of our energy and living an impersonal life with the majority of the our energy that is invested within our personality shell which entities relate to as our identity. On March 21, 2003, Q’uo described the nature of the personal life:

We encourage the open-hearted attempt in each day to gaze at the household of the self with first interest upon the lowest of the floors, that level of survival and sexuality that perhaps the cave and the more primitive parts of a house would suggest, the first floor, a ground floor of personal relationships and the family and group relationships that are intimate in the personal life. These small concerns, these incidental chores and experiences of day-to-day life contain most of the grist for the mill of the metaphysical learning which you indeed did come to do.

Youare so much more than you seem. And so much of what each seems to be is only the shadow of the essence of the gifts that are burgeoning forth from that fountain of catalyst and emotion. Each gives so many gifts that each is unaware of through each day. Within the confusion and the turmoil of the rat-race, the crowded schedule, the endless chores, there is no end to the interaction which each has with all the inner sub-densities of this particular experience which you enjoy at this time. At the level where the resource of intent is most effective, intent may be set in such a way as to call in help which is unseen, and which is the other side of the story of that physical persona which is flesh and blood and has only two hands and must be responsible. This help has no hands, has no feet, and for the most part it has no voice. This help is unique in its pattern, its structure, and its way of communicating to you. For each of you is a very special and eccentric kind of “energy ball” that draws to it, because of its beauty, entities from the inner planes which this instrument would call angelic, which wish to help. They wish to help with gifts of spiritual presence, inspiration, laughter, healing, and any number of invisible yet very real sub-rays of that sun of Love, that Logos of unconditional and infinite Love. They will not aid in doing more chores more quickly, but rather the help, when remembered, is as that blessing which pours like rain upon the thirsty soul, smoothing and washing away the corrosive acid of catalyst and offering the healing balm, the inner touch of that company which touches the heart, enters the heart, and settles there, spreading like the Balm of Gilead the feeling that all is well; in the midst of this chaos, all is well.

This instrument at one time had a motto that hung on her wall and it said, “Bless this mess.” And we find that the energies involved in this sentiment have a good deal of the energy of which we are speaking: that feeling that it may look as though I am alone, and yet I am not; this may look like a mess and yet it is a blessing; this may look like confusion; yet all is well. The key to this expanded kind of awareness is remembrance. It is very helpful, as the one known as T said, to place within the consciousness little helpers that bring the mind back to the vital questions, “Who am I and what am I doing here?” Quite often, “Who am I?” is a very provocative question and very pointed. “Am I the mother? Am I the seeker? Who am I? What am I doing here?” Usually when that question is asked it is in the context of a relationship. And we may say that a shortcut to the second question’s answer is to know that love is always the reason that each entity is in a given situation at a given time. Consequently, the question becomes, “Where is the love in this moment and how may I witness to it?” When that realization comes, the ensuing action carries with it the energy of soul growth. For in dealing with the practicalities of the small significant life, the fundamental bases for that life have been invoked and, consequently, the energy body is balanced within the awareness of identity and purpose.

We realize that it is most easy to lose sight of this identity and this purpose as being fundamentally spiritual and, consequently, if there are the heard signals within the day, such as this instrument’s memory of noon whistles and bells to mark the beginning and end of classroom periods or the tones of the clock as it marks off an hour, this kind of sound is a good trigger to place within oneself, so that when one hears that noon whistle, one has a moment of memory and remembrance of who you are and why you are here. It is tremendously centering to have those moments of recollection and truly they need be no longer than a second or two, for to the soul who is eager the possibility of returning to that place of remembrance brings forth a quick and eager response.

Within each entity there is a link between that which is measurable and that which is not. Within the measurable world, within the daylight world of consciousness, entities have the opportunity to choose what they wish to intend. It is a choice which then may be held in remembrance, in intent. If, for instance, one goes into the sleeping state with intention to remember the dreams and explore them, that intention begins to have strength as the new resource is used. If one goes to bed and places a glass of water by the bed and then, holding that glass, one places the intention within that water that asks what this instrument would call the inner alchemist to supply those things that are needed for the next day, and then one takes the time simply to drink that water in thanksgiving, and praise, and in gratitude for the gifts that have been given, that intention sets into motion powerful energies which use the crystalline nature of the water to magnetize intention. Any opportunity that you as an entity have to remember such intentions are important to you. As you simply think upon them, each thinking drives the intention deeper into the subconscious processes that are powerful to prevail in the ways of developing spiritual clarity within one’s life.

Remember that the deeper self is seeing a different kind of light. The inner self is already dwelling within that state of knowing which exists within all densities but your own. The plants, the animals, dwell in a state of complete knowing that all is one, that all is in harmony, that all is working out as it should. Those within the angelic realms of your planet are also full of this consciousness. It is within the physical illusion, that is made with the Light of photons, atoms, molecules, and much, much of what you call space creating this vast illusion that you now enjoy, that power is limited within the physical body. Within the mind, it is operating as the second density, as the fourth density, in a state of unity and awareness of infinite consciousness. In that Light there is no space. In that Light, there is more peace. In that Light which is that shown by unconditional Love by the open heart, the stresses that wind one up like a spring are released gently and repeatedly as the moments of remembrance circle around, and a deep breath may be taken in and out, pulling in the oxygen to the mind, pulling in remembrance to the intention. There is no physical action that is proof against the consciousness that is hungry to remember the vibration of unconditional Love. In the seeking for that one great original Thought of Love, the seeking itself develops its own answer within you so that as you seek, already the answer lies within the open heart.

Now Q’uo said that we are so much more than the shadow of the essence of the gifts that are flowing forth from that fountain of catalyst and emotion, and each of us gives so many gifts that we are unaware of through each day within the confusion of our endless chores, and there is no end to the interaction which we have with the sub-densities of this experience which we enjoy at this time, and at this level where the resource of our intentions are most effective, our intentions may be set in such a way that we can call in help which is unseen, and which is the other side of the story of our physical body. Q’uo said that this help is unique in its way of communicating with us since each of us is an eccentric kind of “energy ball” that draws to us angelic entities from the inner planes which wish to help us with gifts of spiritual inspiration and the invisible rays of the infinite Love of the Logos, but they will not help us to do more chores more quickly, but they will become: “that blessing which pours like rain upon the thirsty soul, smoothing and washing away the corrosive acid of catalyst and offering the healing balm, the inner touch of that company which touches the heart, enters the heart, and settles there, spreading like the Balm of Gilead the feeling that all is well; in the midst of this chaos, all is well.” Q’uo continued by saying that Carla had a motto that hung on her wall, and it said, “Bless this mess.”, and the energies involved in this sentiment have a good deal of the energy of saying this may look like a mess, and yet it is a blessing because the key to this expanded kind of awareness is our remembering who we are and why we are here, and the answer is to know that love is always the reason that each of us is in a given situation at a given time so that the question becomes: “Where is the love in this moment and how may I witness to it?”, and when that realization comes to us the resulting action carries with it the energy of soul growth, for in dealing with the practical nature of the everyday life the: “fundamental bases for that life have been invoked and, consequently, the energy body is balanced within the awareness of identity and purpose.” Q’uo went on to say that it is easy to lose sight of our spiritual identity, and if we hear signals within the day such as bells to mark the beginning and end of classroom periods or the tones of the clock as it marks off an hour, this kind of sound is a good trigger to remember who we are and why we are here, and it centers us to have these moments of recollection which need be no longer than a second or two, for to the soul who is eager the possibility of returning to that place of remembrance brings forth a quick response. Now Q’uo said that within the daylight world of consciousness we have the opportunity to choose what we wish to intend, and it is a choice which we may hold in remembrance so that if we go into the sleep state with the intention to remember our dreams and interpret them, that intention gains strength as the new resource is used, or if we go to bed and places a glass of water by the bed and then we place our intention within that water to ask our inner alchemist to supply our needs for the next day, and then we drink that water in thanksgiving, praise, and in gratitude for the gifts that have been given, that intention sets into motion:  “powerful energies which use the crystalline nature of the water to magnetize intention. Any opportunity that you as an entity have to remember such intentions are important to you. As you simply think upon them, each thinking drives the intention deeper into the subconscious processes that are powerful to prevail in the ways of developing spiritual clarity within one’s life.” Q’uo suggested that we remember that our deeper self is seeing a different kind of light because it is already dwelling within that state of knowing which exists within all densities beginning with plants and animals that dwell in a state of complete knowing that all is one, and that all is working out as it should, and those within the angelic realms of our planet are also full of this consciousness, but it is within our physical illusion that is made with the Light of photons, atoms, molecules, and much space that creates the illusion that we now enjoy and that power that is limited within our physical body. Q’uo completed their reply by saying that our mind is operating as the second density and as the fourth density, in a state of unity and awareness of infinite consciousness, and in that Light there is no space; there is more peace; and: “that Light which is that shown by unconditional Love by the open heart, the stresses that wind one up like a spring are released gently and repeatedly as the moments of remembrance circle around, and a deep breath may be taken in and out, pulling in the oxygen to the mind, pulling in remembrance to the intention. There is no physical action that is proof against the consciousness that is hungry to remember the vibration of unconditional Love. In the seeking for that one great original Thought of Love, the seeking itself develops its own answer within you so that as you seek, already the answer lies within the open heart.” On December 16, 2017, Q’uo said that we can realize the nature of Love is within the open heart:

Each of you in this circle of seeking has become consciously aware that what you desire at the foundation of your being is to be a conscious seeker, is to realize within yourself the nature of Love within the open heart, and to be able to share this love with each entity that you meet in your daily round of activities, for you are consciously aware that all is one, that the Creator exists within each of these entities that you shall meet, and that the Creator within yourself seeks expression as you allow it to. It has been said in your holy works if you but knock upon the door, the door shall be open to you. Your incarnation may be seen as knocking upon that door repeatedly, for it is a door that is opened with perseverance, and each of you has developed this quality of repeated seeking, of undeniability, of inevitability, and as you bring into your daily round of activities this desire to knock upon the door, symbolically, with every action that you take, every person that you meet, every word that you speak, then you become, shall we say, hollowed out, and become a channel for the One Creator to utilize in the various means by which you have provided for your incarnation, previous to your incarnation.

We would at this time rest this instrument, for we feel that we have perhaps said enough on this subject to generate other queries and, consequently, we would at this time leave this instrument and transfer the contact to the one known as Jim. We thank this instrument and leave it in love and in light. We are those known to you as Q’uo.

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and we greet each again in love and in light through this instrument. At this time it is our privilege to offer ourselves in the capacity of speaking to any further queries which may remain upon the minds of those present. Is there a shorter query at this time?

J: May I ask about something that came up in the channeling? It seems you can prepare yourself for the next day by thinking about what you’re going to do before you go to sleep at night. In other words, let it work out through your dreams. Is there anything else that can be said about that, about the dreaming function, and how you can best focus your attention on it to use it to work, and serve, and grow. If there are no other questions, I’d be interested in hearing more about that.

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. It is well, if one wishes to work with the dreams, that one indeed prepare the self to do so. For in working with the dreams, one is working with the deeper portion of one’s own conscious and subconscious mind. At this level of awareness there is a perception of experience as a whole. There is the unification of that which seems broken to the conscious mind that resides within the deeper portions of the mind. And as you are able to work with this portion of your own mind, you develop a pattern or relationship which can be built upon, expanded and relied upon in all future endeavors. It is well therefore to, shall we say, convince the subconscious mind that you do indeed wish to seek that treasure which it has to offer. This may be accomplished by simple things that are repeated; that is, make the suggestion to the conscious mind, to yourself, as it would seem, that as you retire for the night and enter that state called sleep, you wish to remember those dreams which follow, and that you have indeed prepared yourself to work with these dreams by placing, next to your sleeping position, the necessary writing utensil and paper or pad upon which you may record the dream upon waking. Perhaps, as you are more adept at this work, one or two or more times during the night you will be able to write the dream upon the pad, so that when you awaken in the morning, there is a written record that will, shall we say, jog your memory and allow you to access further information as you begin to ponder the dream, to think upon the dream and to record the dream. Record all impressions that come to you at this time, and when you have more time later in your daily round of activities, perhaps you will be able to meditate upon the dream, its imagery, its message, and its importance. If you are able to make this time in your daily round of activities for this process, then you will find that the subconscious mind gives more and more symbology, more information, that you may use to unlock, shall we say, other doors within your mind which also have information which is pertinent to your query.

Is there a further query, my sister?

M: Is it okay if it’s unrelated?

Q’uo: I am Q’uo. Mm-hmm.

M: My husband is having health problems, and I wanted to try and heal him. But I feel for some reason that I’m not sure that it’s okay. I don’t want to infringe on his free will even though he says it is okay. For some reason I am holding myself back. I don’t want to interfere with his free will. I’m wondering if you can shed some light on that.

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. Indeed, there is the concern for free will in this instance, for there is a portion of your own being which is not certain that this is the course of action which you wish to follow. It is first necessary for you to make this decision within yourself, and perhaps the working with your subconscious mind though the dream recording is a portion of that process which you may utilize.

[Side one of tape ends.]

I am Q’uo. We are once again with this instrument. Is there another query at this time?

M: Well, I guess I do have another short one. You had said that I have to ask myself if I have any further blockages, and I know I do. For some reason I’m hesitant to try to do healing. I feel like I’m not qualified to do it. I think it’s because I don’t feel like I know enough to do it. I seem to have a particular blockage about healing. I’m not sure where it’s coming from.

I am Q’uo. We will speak a few words further upon this topic but do not wish, ourselves, to infringe upon your own free will, my sister. As you examine your own opinions concerning healing in general and your ability to accomplish it in particular, we would recommend that you employ a process of essaying, so that you might write down the feelings that you have concerning this healing process. Explore upon the paper that which is upon your mind and within your heart. Allow this process to become a portion of the working with your dreams, so that there is a dialog which is set up between your conscious and subconscious mind. In this way perhaps you will be able to reveal to yourself that which is the major blockage that stands between you and your ability to heal, which, we may comment, is substantial.

Is there another query, my sister?

M: No.

I am Q’uo. We thank you for your query. Is there another query from anyone else?

D: I’m being asked to ask a question in the form of a riddle. It’s not transient. This riddle relates to all the questions of the entity, M, and the content that we’ve talked about. It’s phrased in symbolic language: “What is the difference between the symbol of a sphere and the symbol of a washing machine as it relates to these questions?”

I am Q’uo. We shall allow the one known as M to “work” the riddle. Is there any other query at this time?

V: On a more humorous note and purely transient… Hiccups seem to be obviously catalyst pointing to some function that’s going on in the person’s being or mind, but is there a physical reason for them?

I am Q’uo. And though we are aware of your query we are unaware of the ability to express an appropriate response.

[Laughter]

V: Thank you, Q’uo

Q’uo: May we ask for a final query at this time?

Carla: I’ll just ask the question that I ask from time to time. And that is, do you have any new thoughts upon the adventures that I’m attempting to embark upon? Especially as concerns the gathering of G and E?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. We are most pleased that there is an effort underway to add to the ability of this group to be of service to others, for this time upon your planetary sphere is one which will require a great deal of effort for the healing of Mother Earth and the population that inhabits her at this time. For as you are well aware there has been a great deal of adversary relationship that has in many cases caused a movement away from the path many would have wished to travel before the incarnation began. Therefore, when any group joins in service to the one Creator, there is an increase in the possibility for all entities upon the planet and for each entity that seeks in service to others. As you seek together there is a far greater chance that, as a group entity, you shall find that which you seek. For there are many entities who have incarnated with latent abilities that come to the fore when there is the opportunity to share in service with others. Each entity will add that which is his or her own ability to the group’s energy and will find that there is a multiplication factor that returns the energy in a greater sense so that there is a dynamic ability to grow in ways and degrees that were not previously possible for the individuals within the group, for the group itself, and for the planet as a whole.

We are pleased to be able to work with this group, whatever its number might be, and we remind each in this circle of seeking that we are happy to join you in your private meditations, to help deepen the meditation, if you but ask or request our presence. We will speak no words but will simply offer our conditioning vibration in order that each may feel a deeper sense of the meditative state and a centering of the self therein.

At this time we shall take our leave of this instrument and this group. We are those of Q’uo. We leave each in the love and the ineffable light of the one infinite Creator. Adonai, my friends, Adonai.

This morning I went upstairs and cleaned Benny’s apartment. I used the carpet sweeper to clean the carpet in the hall. Then I swept up all of the kitty litter that was on the floor in her room. My last cleaning was to use the dust mop to clean all three rooms in her apartment.

This afternoon I ran some errands with my first stop being at Kroger’s to buy some Pepsi-Zero and some sharp shredded cheese. My second stop was at The Rainbow Blossom to buy some Vitamin B Complex. My third stop was at Paul’s Fruit Market to buy some food for myself. My last stop was at Walgreen’s Drug Store where I had a picture of Bosco in my iPhone made into two photographs, and then I bought two picture frames to put them in.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

February 9

The Work Of The Spirit

We greet you in the name of Jesus the Christ and in the full consciousness of that Love which creates and sustains all created things.

We are a principle and a thought, and yet there are no two situations in which our breath moves in an identical manner to any other situation. For at one time, it is the Spirit’s work to awaken and at another time to soothe; at one time to brighten and; at another time to point in shadow for the more subtle understanding.

Nay, it is not the activity which can be described which characterizes the energy of the consciousness of Love but rather the life within that unique wind which blows over the situation which characterizes the nature of the Spirit. For the spirit utters life when It speaks. Look, then, to the life-giving Spirit. For all things are dead save in Christ.

We leave you in the living and powerful peace which is yours to enjoy, now and always. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.