I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Oxal and Latwii channelings in this session are from January 6, 1985:

(Carla channeling)

I am Oxal. I greet you in the Love and in the Light of the one infinite Creator. It is our pleasure to speak with you this evening. We ask your patience as we work with this instrument, as this instrument is receiving one word at a time, a method of channeling that is new to her, and thus she must learn to trust more and more completely to her own tuning and to our goodwill. Indeed, we ask each of you to become more and more reliant upon your own tuning, your own sense of how things are, and how you wish them to be, for as you seek, so you shall, of course, find. The more finesse used in the seeking, the more pleased you will be with what you find, and the more fruit you may distill from the experiences which make up your life’s patterns and tapestries.

Within your minds there is always the question, “Is there a Creator?” It might surprise you to experience the reversal of that question, “Is there anything which is created?” We say to you that there is that which is created. The next question is, “Why should the Creator of all that there is create that which is thrown apart from the Creator, divided by illusion upon illusion upon illusion, separated by dreams, and fantasies, and phantasmagoria of all kinds?” The answer to that question may be important for you to consider, for within it lies the reason for your being. The ethics of your being lie within other questions. The reason for your being is very simple. You are experiencing, as we are experiencing, as if we were separated from the Creator. If you look out upon a vast bleak landscape, the skeletons of trees without their leaves standing proudly against the winter sky, the dead leaves scurrying along, blown by a bitter wind, you may have some idea of the creation without the created. All is potential; nothing experiences.

In this session Oxal spoke about the nature of our being and the nature of the Creator. They began by saying we ask each of you to depend more upon your tuning, your sense of how things are, and how you wish them to be, for as you seek, so you shall find, for the more finesse used in the seeking, the more pleased you will be with what you find, and the more fruit you may distill from the experiences which make up your life’s patterns. Then Oxal said within your minds there is always the question: “Is there a Creator?” It might surprise you to experience the reversal of that question, “Is there anything which is created?” We say to you that there is that which is created. The next question is, “Why should the Creator of all that there is create that which is thrown apart from the Creator, divided by illusion upon illusion upon illusion, separated by dreams, and fantasies, and phantasmagoria of all kinds?” Now Oxal said the answer to that question may be important for you to consider, for within it lies the reason for your being, but the ethics of your being lie within other questions, so the reason for your being is simple, for you are experiencing it as if we were separated from the Creator, yet if you look out upon a bleak landscape, the skeletons of trees without their leaves standing proudly against the winter sky, the dead leaves scurrying along, blown by a bitter wind, you may have some idea of the creation without the created, for all is potential, and nothing experiences. On May 19, 1995, L/Leema said that as we seek, so shall we find:

As you continue to seek the one Creator and unity of all things, you shall become more and more aware, as you have stated. It is not necessary to speak with those unseen or to have communications of this variety in order to become more aware of your process of seeking. To desire such knowledge and experience is all that is necessary, for it has been written in that holy work previously mentioned that as you seek, you shall find; as you ask, it shall be answered; and as you knock, the doors shall be opened, for this is a law of the universe which functions without exception, for that which you seek is within your own being. You are all things.

The Creator could have simply created beauty according to a pattern of Its own choice. This the Creator did not do. It is our understanding that our Creator is hungry for that which It cannot Itself will, and that is the fruit that you bear in your experiences. Each day as you go through your life within this density and this experience, you bloom a little; you send out petals of anger, forgiveness, Love, kindness, jealousy, and a hunger and thirst for that which is physical and that which is metaphysical. And all these things are to the Creator as flowers, delicate and beautiful, too insubstantial to pluck, but to be watched with great joy. You feel joy, and the Creator feels joy; you feel hope, and the Creator hopes again. All things that you feel are gifts, are your gifts to the one infinite Creator. Do you wish to give good gifts? Then decide in your mind that which is good, but never doubt that to the Creator you are beautiful, for all experience is beautiful, for it is done in freedom, experienced in freedom, and given freely back to the creation.

Do you feel that you have made many errors today, that you have somehow gone astray, that your energies were scattered or low? Now you shall not judge, not in this moment, for in this moment we ask you to realize that that too is a gift which the Creator treasures, for all the colors of emotion and feeling, all the distortions of the one original Thought which can be developed by an independent consciousness are as blooming flowers against the bleak winter landscape of the uncreated. Gaze into the face of the deep, gaze at that which you might call darkness and that which is uncreated and chaotic, inchoate and about to be, and you shall see nothing. And then see yourselves—vivid, beautiful, and lovely, as the vibrant colors of your personal feelings, your highest hopes and your deepest sorrows all brighten the deep. O, waters of the deep, we salute you, for you tread upon the rim of that which is a void, a void which is full of the uncreated perfection of the one original Thought of Love. Yet, Love cannot speak to itself, react to itself or even feel. That is reserved for those like you, my friends, and like me who are as yet partially unaware that we are the Creator. Therefore, we feel and we sense; we do, we think, we act, and those gifts are priceless.

Now Oxal spoke about our relationship with the Creator and with the creation. Then they said the Creator could have created beauty according to a pattern of Its own choice, but the Creator did not do this, and it is our understanding that our Creator is hungry for that which It cannot Itself will, and that is the fruit that you bear in your experiences, so each day as you go through your life within this density, you bloom a little, and you send out petals of anger, forgiveness, Love, and a hunger for that which is physical and that which is metaphysical, for all these things are to the Creator as flowers, delicate and beautiful, too insubstantial to pluck, but to be watched with great joy, so you feel joy, and the Creator feels joy, and you feel hope, and the Creator hopes again, so all things that you feel are your gifts to the one infinite Creator, and if you wish to give good gifts decide that which is good, but never doubt that to the Creator you are beautiful, for all experience is beautiful, for it is done in freedom, experienced in freedom, and given freely back to the creation. Now Oxal said if you feel that you have made errors today, do not judge in this moment, for in this moment we ask you to realize that that too is a gift which the Creator treasures, for all the colors of emotions and all the distortions of the one original Thought which can be developed by an independent consciousness are as blooming flowers against the bleak winter landscape of the uncreated, so gaze into the face of the deep darkness and that which is uncreated and chaotic, and about to be, and you shall see nothing, and then see yourselves as the vibrant colors of your personal feelings, your highest hopes, and your deepest sorrows that all brighten the waters of the deep, so we salute you, for you tread upon the rim of that which is a void which is full of the uncreated perfection of the one original Thought of Love, yet Love cannot speak to Itself, or even feel, for that is reserved for those like you and like me who are partially unaware that we are the Creator, for we feel; we do; we think; we act; and those gifts are priceless. On June 2, 1985, Latwii spoke of the nature of the one original Thought of Love:

My sister, begin first with the foundation of all creation, that is, unity. From this unity the one Creator, the one original Thought of Love, springs all the infinite variety of forms of life and directions for each. Look then to any which seem of a fearful or doubtful nature. See there the Creator that rests as well within your own being. Love that Creator as if It were yourself, for in truth It is. See that which is feared; bathe it in Love, see it as self, bless it, bid it travel its journey, and then bathe your own being in the Love and the Light of the One. In so doing, you have affirmed the unity of all creation, for in truth that is all that there is. To move from that truth and to see any separation is to step upon the grounds which the entities of the negative polarity rule when fear and separation are with the entities there.

Again we thank you that we may speak with you, and we now leave you in the Love and in the Light of the One Who Is All in All. We are known to you as Oxal. Adonai.

(Jim channeling)

I am Latwii, and I greet you, my friends, in the Love and the Light of our infinite Creator. We are most privileged to be asked to join your group this evening, and we thank you for this honor. As always, we hope that our humble service may provide you with some small aid in your journey of seeking the truth. Please remember that our opinions are but that, our fallible opinions. With that disclaimer aside, may we begin with the first query of the evening?

M: Sherlock, we have missed your good, sound advice. We’d be interested in any words of wisdom about, oh, some pending decisions—not on what to do, but how to prepare for those decisions.

I am Latwii, and we thank you, my brother, for your query, and we greet you and those others who have been, shall we say, absent from this group for some time. As you prepare yourself for those decisions which shall determine the outer parameters of your illusion, we may suggest that as you seek to follow the path which is most appropriate for you at this time, and that you seek with a joyful heart and an open mind. This is to say if you attempt to analyze past the point of being able to assimilate that which has been analyzed, you may further confuse your ability—not to make a decision, but to listen to your own inner voice. We can suggest that you do that which can be done, however much or little that may be in the way of attempting to consciously discern how best to be of service to those whom you wish to serve, and how to provide this service most efficiently. Then we suggest that you give over your own will to the greater will of the one Creator which moves through you and seeks through your experience to know Itself. Realize that you cannot make what you call a mistake, but that each path which lies before you offers the opportunity to learn and to serve. To find that path which offers the greatest abundance of these treasures, you must, in the final, shall we say, analysis, give over any dedication to any particular outcome, for as you have sown your seeds as conscientious gardeners, there is a time during which other forces must have the opportunity to work with those seeds which you have sown. As this process occurs, you will notice in your life patterns those signs of the first sprouts. Begin then your watering with your attention and follow those sprouts, and they shall lead you to that table which has been prepared for you.

M asked: “We’d be interested in any words of wisdom about, oh, some pending decisions—not on what to do, but how to prepare for those decisions.” Latwii began by saying as you prepare yourself for those decisions which shall determine the outer parameters of your illusion, we suggest that as you seek to follow the path which is appropriate for you at this time, and that you seek with a joyful heart and an open mind, and this is to say if you attempt to analyze past the point of being able to assimilate that which has been analyzed, you may further confuse your ability—not to make a decision, but to listen to your own inner voice, so we can suggest that you do that which can be done, however much or little that may be in the way of attempting to consciously discern how best to be of service to those whom you wish to serve, and how to provide this service most efficiently, and then we suggest that you give over your will to the will of the one Creator which moves through you and seeks through your experience to know Itself, but realize that you cannot make a mistake, but that each path which lies before you offers the opportunity to learn and to serve, yet to find that path which offers the greatest abundance of these treasures, you must give over any dedication to any outcome, for as you have sown your seeds as conscientious gardeners, there is a time during which other forces must have the opportunity to work with those seeds which you have sown, for as this process occurs, you will notice in your life patterns those signs of the first sprouts, so begin your watering with your attention and follow those sprouts, and they shall lead you to that table which has been prepared for you. On November 7, 1982, Latwii described the general nature of our life patterns:

To begin, may we suggest that there are no accidents. Many experiences appear random. This is because the grand design of your life patterns is greatly hidden from your view. Within your illusion this is necessary so that lessons might be learned with greater efficiency, for in truth all are one, and Love is the heart of each. Yet to learn these lessons there must be the forgetting and the limiting of the view. The means of the passing from this illusion is chosen by each with variations also chosen should certain circumstances come to pass in such and such a fashion. Therefore, the correlation between the life and the death is most clearly seen when it is seen that both are chosen as means for learning the lessons of Love.

May we answer you further, my brother?

M: Not at all. Very eloquently said. Thank you.

I am Latwii, and we thank you, my brother. Is there another query at this time?

Carla: I have one if no one else does. I wondered if you could give me any words of wisdom about teaching how to channel better because I know—tonight for instance, Hatonn was here and Oxal was here, and I was hoping that Hatonn would speak but the other channels in the group didn’t pick it up. I mean, I think they picked it up, they just didn’t channel. And I wondered what I could do in terms of encouraging the people that were in this group? Do you know what I’m asking exactly?

I am Latwii, and we feel we have a grasp of your query, my sister. We may suggest that you have done that which can be done. One cannot cause another entity to manufacture a desire which is not present, for whatever reason it may not be present. You, as one who wishes to serve in a certain way, may note certain dedications to how a situation may progress. It may, for example, be your desire at certain times to see the new instruments be exercised, and this of course is most helpful to those learning the vocal channeling technique, but it must first have a desire to motivate. The new instrument must work its way through the process of hesitation and even the process of fatigue. This, my sister, shall, as it has in the past, happen in its own time. As we have previously spoken to the one known as M, when the seeds of effort have been sown there comes a time during which the gardener must simply exercise patience. One cannot shove the water into the seed, cause the seed to absorb it, then cause the seed to push the sprout through the ground. There are others who have their tasks to perform. May we suggest yours has been well done.

May we answer further, my sister?

Carla: No, I feel silly enough already. Thank you very much.

I am Latwii. We thank you, my sister, and join you in a wonder-filled silliness. May we attempt another query at this time?

L: Yes, Latwii. Would you give me a numerical evaluation of the accuracy of my channeling lately?

I am Latwii, and we are aware of your query, my brother. We shall pause for a moment while we consult our panel of judges. We see the cards are held high. On the scale of 10, we see a 6.2, a 7.1 and a 7.5. My brother, faciousness aside, this a very good rating, for we of the Confederation of Planets in Service to the One Infinite Creator wish to utilize instruments such as yourself to the degree which allows your own experience and means of expressing it to have a, shall we say, balanced sway in the message we provide and the means by which it is expressed, whether an instrument approaches this goal of, shall we say, roughly sixty to seventy percent of our, shall we say, input and thirty to forty percent of the instrument’s own input. Whether an instrument approaches this from one angle or another, may we suggest the progress is ever onward to that fine point of balance. Your journey is one of retracing steps which have previously been taken and have been well-learned. Your current experience and expression of vocal channeling is one which continues to approach this, shall we say, ideal balance.

May we answer you further, my brother?

L: Yes. I have in the past, and still today experience, some qualms about the idea of channeling, partly because of my suspicion that I was not channeling one hundred percent accurately, which I realize you don’t strive to produce, but nonetheless it would be an ideal to reach toward for a person attempting to channel accurately. The other is that since a mixture is desirable, there is an amount of responsibility inherent in adding my own salt to the pot. The fact that your own—I should say, my own personal dilution of your message or another entity’s message to me has an amount of responsibility involved, in that things that I inject could potentially have a bearing on another individual’s—their life, their perception of reality. Could you speak on this subject because I find that I’m uneasy with channeling because of it.

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my brother. We are most happy to be able to speak upon this topic, for it is one which is of major concern to all who seek to serve in the means of being vocal channels. We again repeat the theme which we have discovered this evening: that to give service most effectively, one must eventually give up the dedication as to how it shall be given, and simply be that which may be called the fool, the one who becomes so open in the attempt to serve that one takes no thought as to how the service shall occur. To attempt clarification, may we suggest that as you provide the service of vocal channeling, you cannot make an error which another entity shall use to that entity’s detriment, for, in truth, there are no errors, and any word which you speak will have to, shall we say, meet a rigorous standard of excellence which is unique for each who hears the words. No entity will listen with total acceptance; no entity will listen with total rejection. Each entity present in such a circle brings with it a desire to seek the truth and an openness to listen, else we could not speak. Yet each also brings the filter, the biases, and the preferences for one or another means of providing information, and, indeed, a preference for the kind of information provided. You will speak those words which are most appropriate for those gathered about you.

You are a part of a larger pattern of beingness. Many have called it a synchronistic function. It would seem that by chance you have gathered this evening those about you. This is not so, my brother. You are here with each other entity because of a certain desire to serve and a certain desire to learn. As the magnet attracts the iron filing, each of you have attracted the other for this evening, and have attracted these very words which are now being vibrated within your presence. As you proceed through your own attempt to be of service as a vocal channel, release when possible the fears and doubts which beset you and simply serve as best you can, realizing that your words will simply be seen and taken as guideposts, and will have an effect which is appropriate for each entity. You shall not be able to do irreparable damage, nor shall you be able to lead another along the path faster than that entity is willing and able to journey.

L asked: “I have in the past, and still today experience, some qualms about the idea of channeling, partly because of my suspicion that I was not channeling one hundred percent accurately, which I realize you don’t strive to produce, but nonetheless it would be an ideal to reach toward for a person attempting to channel accurately. The other is that since a mixture is desirable, there is an amount of responsibility inherent in adding my own salt to the pot. The fact that your own—I should say, my own personal dilution of your message or another entity’s message to me has an amount of responsibility involved, in that things that I inject could potentially have a bearing on another individual’s—their life, their perception of reality. Could you speak on this subject because I find that I’m uneasy with channeling because of it.” Latwii said that we are happy to be able to speak upon this topic, for it is one which is of concern to all who seek to be vocal channels, and we repeat the theme which we have this evening: that to give service effectively, one must give up dedication as to how it shall be given, and be one who becomes open in the attempt to serve, so that one takes no thought as to how the service shall occur, and we suggest that as you provide the service of vocal channeling, you cannot make an error which another entity shall use to that entity’s detriment, for there are no errors, and any word which you speak will have to meet a standard of excellence which is unique for each who hears the words, but no entity will listen with total acceptance or with total rejection, for each entity present in a circle brings a desire to seek the truth and an openness to listen, yet each also brings the preferences for one or another means of providing information, and a preference for the kind of information provided, for you will speak those words which are appropriate for those gathered about you. Latwii went on to say you are a part of a larger pattern of beingness, and it is called a synchronistic function, and it would seem that by chance you have gathered this evening those about you, but this is not so, for you are here with each other entity because of a desire to serve and to learn, for as the magnet attracts the iron filing, each of you has attracted the other for this evening and have attracted these words which are being vibrated within your presence, yet as you proceed through your attempt to be of service as a vocal channel, release the fears and doubts which beset you and serve as best you can, realizing that your words will be seen and taken as guideposts and will have an effect which is appropriate for each entity, but you shall not be able to do irreparable damage, nor shall you be able to lead another along the path faster than that entity is willing and able to journey. On April 7, 2002, Q’uo spoke of what it is to be a vocal channel:

The practice of the vocal channel is that practice which one may become more, shall we say, capable of producing as the experience continues. There are along the path of this service various steps or stages of growth which are apparent in some cases and in others not so apparent. You have begun to experience the beginning of a newer phase, shall we say, of serving as a vocal instrument. There are levels of consciousness that are available to each entity and to those who serve as vocal instruments that open doors, that offer great access to pure information or inspiration. Through another door you are beginning to pass.

May we answer you further, my brother?

L: No, thank you. The answer’s been very good for me. I appreciate it.

I am Latwii, and we thank you, as always, my brother. Is there another query at this time?

K: I have a question, and it sort of goes along with L’s question. I have been involved in a group situation such as we are in now for probably six months to a year and have not been a vocal channel in this situation, and I was concerned earlier about also not having practiced meditation as I should, if I would have an effect on the group tonight. How would you rank my abilities at this for channeling and my meditative level?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my brother. We may suggest that the desire to serve as an instrument or vocal channel is that which is most crucial in an entity’s ability to perform that service. Likewise, it is true that one who has the desire to seek the truth has the heart of the purpose of meditation. Whether meditation has been regularly engaged in or not, it is true that meditation is a most helpful and recommended means of preparing oneself for seeking in the manner which each in this group this evening seeks. We might suggest that the very fact we are able to speak to this group this evening suggests that each entity within this circle of meeting has prepared itself to a degree sufficient to allow this meeting to occur.

May we answer you further, my brother?

K: Yes. You answered part of my question, for which I thank you, and I probably should have realized that because, as you put it, everything’s working. If I were to channel tonight, let’s say, what do you think my accuracy would be as compared to in the past?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my brother. We see little virtue in attempting to give a precise equivalent of your accuracy, but we may suggest that when one has not performed a certain task or discipline for a period of time, one may expect a diminishing of the ability to perform that task or disciplining. Yet, if one has in the past performed such a discipline, it will be easier for this entity to learn again that skill, for the pathways of recognition are in place even though not frequently used.

May we answer you further, my brother?

K: One last thing that I’ve been wanting to verify for some time—I hope you can—is that quite often I feel myself talking to a representative of the Confederation, normally Hatonn, and we can carry on a conversation such as, for example, driving over tonight, I expressed my concern to Hatonn as to my meditative ability for tonight, and Hatonn said that they were making certain adjustments so that I would be more in tune with the group. I hope you can—can you verify that this really—that I am communicating with a representative of the Confederation when I do this?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my brother. We do, indeed, wish to be of the greatest service possible at all times, and during this particular time we may suggest that for us to give you a positive or negative answer in this case would not be helpful, for the kind of experience which you describe we note has emotional impact upon you—it is that which you value as a means of seeking. Therefore, we cannot say what the nature or source of your communication is but can leave this determination to your own good nature of seeking, that is to say, the answers which you seek in this regard are within your own grasp and await your own seeking.

May we answer you further, my brother?

K: No. I understand what you’re saying, that I need to challenge the source as I have always done in the past, and if the information gained goes along with my current learning and assists that in a positive manner, then I should accept it to be the genuine article. Thank you.

I am Latwii, and we thank you, my brother. Is there another query at this time?

Carla: Yeah. I’d like to ask about my meditations recently. I’ve been grieving, and it seems that I’m more vulnerable to feeling badly suddenly when I’m meditating or when I’m sleeping. And I wondered if there was a tool that I could use, a metaphysical tool instead of the medicine…

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(Jim channeling)

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my sister. We can suggest that which you have already begun, that is that some form of not only tuning but protection be utilized during these periods of more sensitive experience of your illusion. This would be useful as you meditate and before the sleeping.

May we answer you further, my sister?

Carla: Are you referring to Psalm 91?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my sister. This, in general, is correct. There are many such readings and rituals which you might utilize in this process. That which has been chosen is a quite effective one.

May we answer you further, my sister?

Carla: I just want to button that down. What you’re saying is that that and other inspirational passages, those being read just before meditation and just before sleep, that that would be a beneficial tool?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my sister. This is correct. Such inspirational passages and rituals focus the inner being upon the Light which exists in every experience and moment. When one is undergoing a process of the nature which you describe as the grieving process, it is far too easy to focus upon the darker side of the illusion which also exists in every experience and every moment. This focus then serves as a doorway or opening to the more negative portions of the creation which then allows your experience to be of a darker and a heavier nature. The inspirational readings and rituals, therefore, do not allow such openings and focus one’s attention upon the Light which is ever present.

May we answer you further, my sister?

Carla: Yes. Just on the meaning of one word: ritual. The ritual that we have been doing, the calling of the archangels and the drawing of the star, that was a ritual. And the only other ritual that I know of personally is the ritual involved with my church, morning prayer, evening prayer, some sort of service like that. To which were you referring? The former? That would be my guess.

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my sister. Our use of the word “ritual” was more general than you suppose. Our use of the word was intended to convey the concept of repeating certain words and actions for the purpose of inspiration. The ritual could simply be the reading of the words, could also include any of the activities or patterns of behavior which you have mentioned and could include those which you create yourself which are of a personally inspiring nature or nature which is light or jovial.

May we answer you further, my sister?

Carla: [Inaudible]

I am Latwii, and we thank you, my sister. Is there another query at this time?

S: Yes, Latwii. I have a question. I was wondering if the magical nature of rituals—like that are done at church—do they get their power from the intensity of so many people putting that power into the ritual, or is it more or less done by the individual?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my sister. Any ritual performed by an entity or group of entities derives its power, as you call it, from the purity of intention or desire on the part or parts of those performing the ritual. This purity of desire is built over the span of a life as an entity pursues either consciously or unconsciously the search for truth. As the desire to pursue this search for truth intensifies within an entity, this entity then builds what you have called the magical personality, the manifestation of inner seeking. When this magical personality expresses itself in ritualized form, then there is the metaphysical creation of that desire in accordance with the purity of desire.

May we answer you further, my sister?

S: Well, you could just clarify something for me. In other words, if, say, a person had no real religious ties according to a recognized religion, and this person had a high degree of purity, and were to sit down and make up their own ritual for whatever reasons, using whatever they wanted to use, and it wouldn’t make sense to anyone else, is it the purity and intention that would give this validity? Does this make any sense?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my sister. This, in general, is correct. We may also suggest that the rituals which have been long-established, whether by those institutions you have called the churches of various denomination or whether established by more mystical orders of seeking, have described or created in the metaphysical realms a certain substance or reservoir, a resource which may be called upon when the ritual is utilized. This is useful to those who are new to the magical pursuits. The adept shall over a period of time use not only those long-established and recognized rituals, but shall develop its own ritual which shall eventually be the most powerful for that adept, for it shall be most purely infused with that adept’s own magical personality.

May we answer you further, my sister?

S: No, I think you answered me pretty well. Thank you.

I am Latwii, and we thank you, my sister. Is there another query at this time?

[Pause]

I am Latwii, and we see that we have gathered the harvest of queries for the evening. It has been a bountiful harvest, my friends, and we thank you for producing such luscious fruit. We shall at this time leave this instrument and this group for the nonce. We are with you at your request in your meditations, and our joyful thanks goes to each for allowing our presence this evening. It is a pleasure which we cannot thank you enough for. We are those of Latwii, and we leave you, my brothers and sisters, in the Love and in the Light of our infinite Creator. Adonai vasu borragus.

This morning the quote from The Thunder of Silence is: “Though our sins be scarlet, we are white as snow in the very minute we realize our true identity. True, while we are accepting karma, that is, while we are accepting ourselves as human beings, there may be a law of karma operating in our experience, but that law stops operating as soon as we realize, “I am coming out and becoming separate, and now I am going to live under Grace.” The moment we realize that we are living under Grace, we drop the word “I.” We stop boasting that “I” is good and worthy, and we stop condemning “I” as bad or unworthy.

We even forget the past and come to acknowledge that we did not live an hour ago, and that we cannot live an hour hence. The only time we can live is now, and now we are living under Grace. The past is gone; the future will never be: Now we are under Grace. Now there is no sin, no disease, no death, no iniquity—nothing operating in our consciousness except Love, the Love of God, not your love or mine.

If only we really and truly could come into some measure of realization of the nature of God, how we would throw the years off our shoulders; how we would throw off the memories of our past acts of omission and commission; how we would throw off the memories of our wrong thinking, and begin to understand that now are we the sons and daughters of God. Now in this instant of divine Grace, the entire memory of all our past years is gone. Now we are willing to forget our good deeds as well as our bad ones. We are willing to forget the masquerade, the part we have been playing in this particular production, and drop it along with our costume and all that belongs to it.

God is too pure to behold iniquity. The Master claimed that He came to Earth not to do His own will but the will of the Father. And what is this will of the Father? It is to heal the sick, raise the dead, forgive the sinner. Then, is there a God of punishment? The Master said, “Neither do I condemn thee.” Is there a God of punishment? He said to the thief on the cross, “Today shalt thou be with me in paradise.” Is there a God of punishment? And He said, “They sins be forgiven thee.”

Later this morning I went outside and continued my work on the small stone wall in between the fishpond and the Vanilla/Strawberry Hydrangeas. I was able to complete another two feet on the wall, bringing the total to ten feet.

This afternoon I was once again honored to be a co-host of the European Law of One Telegram Group. Before I read Ra Session #67 to the group, I let them know that today is the eleventh anniversary of the passing into larger life of my wife, Carla L. Rueckert, and I read them a quote from her Autobiography. Then I read Ra Session #67, and some of the questions that were asked of me were: “Is the Ra Contact book that I am reading the original edition?” “What are the archetypes?” “Why did Don keep asking how to serve the negative fifth density being?” and “How does the Banishing Ritual of the Lesser Pentagram work?” Next Wednesday I look forward to studying Ra Session #68 with the European Law of One Telegram Group!

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

April 1

Cost And Fruit

I am of the principle of the consciousness of divine Love, and I greet you in radiant joy.

It is the season of Easter, the time when Jesus’ emergence from the Earth is held in remembrance, and His ascent therefrom rejoiced at. Now is the season of blooming, for just as Jesus grew like a flower from the Earth, so too may we see in each flower that resurrection glory.

In this season may you find much to rejoice at, never regretting the cost of winter but glorying instead in the fullness and promise of spring. Such are the cycles of eternal life. The cycles contain different kinds of blooming and different kinds of growing, but always the pulse of cost and fruit.

We leave you in the peaceful harmony of Jesus the Christ, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of Love and open our hearts minds, and souls to send Love, Light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite Love, Light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our Love, Light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Hatonn and Latwii channelings for this session come from December 30, 1984:

(Jim channeling)

I am Hatonn. I greet you all, my friends, in the Love and in the Light of our infinite Creator. It is a great blessing to be with you this evening and to blend our thoughts with yours. We especially greet those who have not sat within this domicile before seeking the truth, yet know you that no one is new within a circle of Light. Just as a chain is as strong as its weakest link, so the entire whole is new and untried each time of the attempting to seek, as you seek this evening. This shall be the new attempt, and the untried attempt, not that which is stale or old, for you are not who you were yesterday, and so each who comes to this meeting is new. Nevertheless, we greet those who travel to sit and seek truth. We are most apologetic that we are so fallible, for we know that each values our opinions. We ask you to remember that all that is said is opinion and not fact. We have traveled a bit longer on a long path, but the path still wends its way into the far distance for us, and we do not say what we say because we know that we are infallible; we say what we have come to say to be of service, much as you would be of service to a neighbor who asked you for a measure of flour or salt. We offer you the gifts we have in humility, and we thank you for the gifts you heap upon us, for in serving you, we serve ourselves, and through serving you, we learn and progress far more than we could otherwise within the structure of our own experiences.

We would like to tell you a story. If there are pauses, please forgive us. We are working with this instrument word by word and therefore this instrument does not have any inkling as to how we shall proceed. It is somewhat more difficult than receiving concepts but each who attempts this type of service in vocal channeling must needs continue to press towards the goal of becoming a better channel for love and light or that which has been given will be lost. There is no point in a vocal channel’s development, or indeed anyone’s development, when one can say, “Now I may rest; now I may have peace.” When you chose to seek the truth, you forsook peace, each of you. But you gained. What have you gained, my friends? This is for you to answer and to know, for each of you has gained something somewhat different.

And to the story … The clouds had been gathering for a day, and the electric tension of the storm was in the air. A man and a woman stood and watched and questioned, “Shall I stay upon this outcropping of land that is so exposed to the weather? Shall I go safely inland where storm and hurricane can never touch me?” We shall now transfer this contact. As is our custom when shifting rapidly among channels, we shall not salute you, however, we ask, as always, that the channels challenge us in whatever manner is best for each.

(Carla channeling)

Much thought was given as to whether the journey inland should be made, for it was known that storms of this nature carried great destructive winds, and there could be great risk to life for those who remained in the path of the storm. Yet, within the heart there was the desire to face that fury which was fast approaching, for there was adventure and the zest of life within every fiber of the being, and, indeed, within the very air itself. When the time for choice, then, came it was decided that it would be best for the nonce to retire a short distance inland in order that perhaps the best of both worlds could be enjoyed. Perhaps the storm would pass close enough to allow the feeling of excitement and the thrill of participating in such an event to be enjoyed without a threat to life and limb.

In this session Hatonn wanted to tell a story. They began by saying the clouds had been gathering for a day, and the electric tension of the storm was in the air, so a man and a woman stood and watched and questioned: “Shall I stay upon this outcropping of land that is so exposed to the weather? Shall I go safely inland where storm and hurricane can never touch me?” Then Hatonn said we shall now transfer this contact, for as is our custom when shifting rapidly among channels, we shall not salute you, but we ask that the channels challenge us in whatever manner is best for each. Hatonn continued by saying much thought was given as to whether the journey inland should be made, for it was known that storms of this nature carried destructive winds, and there could be a risk to life for those who remained in the path of the storm, yet within the heart there was the desire to face that fury which was approaching, for there was adventure and the zest of life within every fiber of the being, and within the air, so when the time for choice came it was decided that it would be best to retire a short distance inland in order that the best of both worlds could be enjoyed, but perhaps the storm would pass close enough to allow the thrill of participating in such an event to be enjoyed without a threat to life and limb. On March 14, 1982, Latwii describes what the zest for life allows us to be of service to others:

Some upon your planet feel the zest of life in its fullness, for it is perhaps their purpose and their mission to be active and to radiate those resources that are theirs to others, that they might be of a service of a certain nature. Some radiate in yet another manner, without the overt physical manifestations, and experience vitality. The experience of vitality and of health which your people have described as optimal for the physical existence is an experience which does not in itself have any meaning or value, but does when applied to a specific individual then and only then takes on meaning. Many are the ways in which the people of your planet have chosen to be of service. Many are the ways and the lessons to learn these ways of service. For each there is a purpose. For each there is a mission.

We shall transfer.

(Jim channeling)

As the rains fell, the couple in the chosen place of safety pondered the fate of that which had been left behind. There was much which could not be carried, for it was too bulky for transport and many of these items were cherished by this couple, having served long and well in the making of a home. As the storm began to lift and the rains also subsided, this couple made plans to return and to gather that which could be gathered, and survey the scene in order to make the home once again. In the pondering by the couple of what they might find, there was time taken to consider that which was truly valued, each by each, and throughout the experience of the storm it was brought to the attention of each that the Love which bound them together was the most cherished thing in their lives, yet they also knew or supposed that they knew that even a life filled with Love would need some material support.

Hatonn went on to say, and so came the storm, waves thrashing the beaches and winds flattening those objects of nature or people which rear themselves from the plane of the Earth, so all that the couple owned was destroyed, and the damage was everywhere, and the storm laughed, for it was a wind that carried the merciless order to cleanse and to remove, so the laughter finally died down to become a slender whine, as winds fell, and rains began to fill the swollen ocean. Then Hatonn said as the rains fell, the couple in the place of safety pondered the fate of that which had been left behind, but there was much which could not be carried, for it was too bulky for transport, and many of these items were cherished by this couple, having served long and well in the making of a home, so as the storm began to lift, and the rains subsided, this couple made plans to return and to gather that which could be gathered, and they surveyed the scene in order to make the home once again, yet there was time taken to consider that which was truly valued by each, and throughout the experience of the storm it was brought to the attention of each that the Love which bound them together was the most cherished thing in their lives, yet they also knew that a life filled with Love would need some material support. On March 27, 1994, Hatonn spoke of the Love between two seekers:

We believe that the experience of which you speak is that of an entity dimly sensing that which is beautiful beyond description, the Love between two seekers. This Love is close in vibration to divine Love for the Love of those who together seek is completely selfless. The goal for both in such a relationship is each to aid and encourage the other in spiritual seeking. This partakes of the nature of Love itself. Thusly, there is the great feeling of emotion because of the beauty which is sensed.

We now transfer.

(Carla channeling)

Both became very excited as the planning began. There seemed to be so many choices. When their marriage was very young, that which purchases, that which you call money, had been dear and difficult to obtain, and they had felt fortunate to find anything. Now, times had rolled on as the wagon wheel moves in perfect circles along its rutted way, and they could do what they pleased, or so they thought. At each turning there was a discovery that the knitted fabric of their lives was not such that it held unlimited possibility. All building materials, all amounts of space, all whims and fancies could not be afforded. Choices again had to be made. And so another storm grew, this time within. The energy of the storm revolved around how to disburse that of which each who earns their money is a steward. The couple had been tranquil, and yet now it was argumentative, for in the light of the spurious freedom, a freedom from all lack and all limitation, it seemed to each that all that was desired should be able to be obtained, that there should be no hindrance, yet this was not so, for even with only two of the Creator’s entities, only two children of the one Father, there were numerous irreconcilable differences of opinion. And the storm laughed.

We now transfer.

(Jim channeling)

As this couple’s life pattern had progressed through these many cycles of change, there came these times of difficulty, decision, and disagreement which then required the balance of reconciliation in order that the Love which bound each to each might be strengthened and ennobled. Once again, as the couple surveyed the damage of the most recent and most devastating storm yet experienced, it became apparent that another beginning would be necessary, starting from scratch, shall we say, and requiring that all which had been the portion of the couple’s relationship be examined in order that the relationship be built step-by-step out of the strongest of materials in much the same fashion required to replace the dwelling and possessions which had been erased by the hurricane.

Now Hatonn said both became excited as the planning began since there seemed to be many choices, for when their marriage was young money had been difficult to obtain, and they had felt fortunate to find anything, but now time had passed, and they could do what they pleased, or so they thought, but at each turning there was a discovery that the fabric of their lives was not such that it held unlimited possibility because all building materials, all amounts of space, and fancies could not be afforded, but choices had to be made, so another storm grew, this time within, and the energy of the storm revolved around how to disburse that of which each who earns their money is a steward, for the couple had been tranquil, yet now they were argumentative, for in the light of a freedom from all lack and limitation, it seemed to each that all that was desired should be able to be obtained, that there should be no hindrance, yet this was not so, for even with only two of the Creator’s entities there were irreconcilable differences of opinion, and the storm laughed. Now Hatonn said as this couple’s life pattern had progressed through these cycles of change, there came times of difficulty and disagreement which required the balance of reconciliation in order that the Love which bound each to each might be strengthened and ennobled, but as the couple surveyed the damage of the recent storm, it became apparent that another beginning would be necessary, starting from scratch and requiring that all which had been the portion of the couple’s relationship be examined in order that the relationship be built step-by-step out of the strongest materials in much the same fashion required to replace the dwelling and possessions which had been erased by the hurricane. On October 22, 1995, Q’uo described the process of reconciliation:

This is often a painful process in terms of your third-density illusion as this breaking free and breaking through the shell of identity occurs. Thus, there is much opportunity for reconciliation, for forgiveness, for mercy and indeed for compassion. The great healing power of Love, then, is that which aids all in this process, and those which are far-seeing in each grouping will become aware of that healing power, for all spring from it. Some see it and feel it and experience it before others, and these are the way-showers.

We shall transfer.

(Carla channeling)

What did I ever see in him?“ thought the woman. “What can we possibly have in common if we disagree so much?” thought the man. And they looked upon each other and did not behold Love. We could finish this story, my friends, in the way of fairy tales, by explaining that all was made whole, and all was healed as each reached out to the other with the open hand of peace and sympathy. But it is more important to ask you, “What was the greater loss, the loss of every possession or the loss of one human relationship?” My friends, things are never what they seem. We realize this is an old and worn-out statement. The reason is it is so worn is that it is, insofar as we know, the absolute truth. Your third-density experience is made of whole cloth an illusion. No part of it is real. Only that which comes from beyond it and manifests through it has a more lasting reality. All that you can touch and see and taste and hear and catch with the nose’s keen scent is an illusion.

What has delighted you this day? What has discouraged you? What do you think you need that you do not have? Examine the questions pertaining to loss and transformation. You are about to lose that which you call your year. And yet you know, as moon follows upon moon, or you seem to know, that this year will be replaced with yet another cycle. You know, or believe you know, that your island home will rotate in the move upon its axis as it roams the heavens one more time, flying outward and held tightly from and by the great sun body which is the center of your celestial neighborhood. Yet when there are losses, when there is difficulty, do you see the difficulty with the automatic reaction of “auld lang syne”? Do you celebrate knowing the dawning of another chapter? We would be surprised if you were able to accomplish this state of mind on a steady state basis. It is highly unlikely that you could penetrate the illusion to that extent, and so we suggest to you time spent in meditation on a daily basis, for those things which you may count as lost are only those things which are yet again to be found.

Hatonn continued by saying: “What did I ever see in him?“ thought the woman.” “What can we possibly have in common if we disagree so much?” thought the man, so Hatonn said they looked upon each other and did not behold Love, so we could finish this story in the way of fairy tales, by explaining that all was made whole, and all was healed as each reached out to the other with the open hand of peace and sympathy, but it is more important to ask you: “What was the greater loss, the loss of every possession or the loss of one human relationship?” Now Hatonn said things are never what they seem, and we realize this is an old and worn-out statement, so the reason is it is so worn is that it is the truth, for your third-density experience is made of an illusion, and no part of it is real, yet only that which comes from beyond it and manifests through it has a lasting reality since all that you can touch, see, taste, hear and smell is an illusion. Hatonn went on to say examine the questions pertaining to loss and transformation, for you believe you know that your Earth will rotate upon its axis as it roams the heavens one more time, flying outward and held tightly by the great sun body which is the center of your celestial neighborhood, yet when there are losses: “Do you see the difficulty with the automatic reaction of “auld lang syne”? Do you celebrate knowing the dawning of another chapter?” So Hatonn said we would be surprised if you were able to accomplish this state of mind on a steady state basis, for it is unlikely that you could penetrate the illusion to that extent, and so we suggest to you time spent in meditation on a daily basis, for those things which you may count as lost are only those things which are yet again to be found. On January 11, 1987, Q’uo spoke about the value of daily meditation:

In general, we might suggest that each seeker remember the one Creator in each daily experience by spending time communing in the meditative state with the source of all cycles, all changes, and all movement in the evolutionary process. Such time spent in meditation allows the seeker to fashion a regularized channel, shall we say, through its own subconscious mind to those sources of power, shall we say, which manifest themselves as Love and Light, or compassion and wisdom in the metaphysical sense, and when contacted in a regular fashion become an unseen foundation upon which each day might be constructed.

The one original Thought of the Creator is expressed perfectly in your being. Not in an idealistic sense, but in the sense of here and now. Bitterness, wrangling, disputes, argument, debate, and disharmony are all a part of the rough and ready perfection which the Creator praises with all of Its being in you. Each of you is perfect, yet each seeks the one original Thought. Each seeks the harmony, the peace, the joy that it has not or seems to have not. We sit high and dry on a spiritual plane, for all has been made straight for us. All is harmonized in our experience. We seek the Creator in each entity. That is part of the dimension in which we live. Yet we are not uplifted thereby any more than you are uplifted by your inhalations and your exhalations. To you falls the drama of wresting the one original Thought from each storm. Yours is the privilege of becoming. The one original Thought presumes a choice, and each of you makes that choice in each moment. Does the storm toss you away or shall you find the center of that storm? When difficulty laughs raucously, shall you cower? Do you think your circumstances are more than you are? We praise the storm and we praise the calm, but we assure you that those who seek shall not be calm, shall not be unchanged.

Now Hatonn said the one original Thought of the Creator is expressed perfectly in your being, not in an idealistic sense, but in the sense of here and now, and argument and disharmony are part of the perfection which the Creator praises with all of Its being in you, for each of you is perfect, yet each seeks the one original Thought and the peace and joy that it seems to have not, and we sit high on a spiritual plane, for all is harmonized in our experience as we seek the Creator in each entity, so that is part of the dimension in which we live, yet we are not uplifted any more than you are uplifted by your breathing, so to you falls the drama of removing the one original Thought from each storm, and yours is the privilege of becoming, for the one original Thought presumes a choice, and each of you makes that choice in each moment, so we praise the storm, and we praise the calm, but we assure you that those who seek shall not be calm, shall not be unchanged. On February 26, 2000, Q’uo spoke about the importance of making the choice of the original Thought of Love:

When one has chosen the highest path for the incarnation, then one is saying to the self that all else must be subservient to that choice of Love, whatever it may be. One must be willing to risk the loss of those things which may seem, for the moment, to be more important than following the path which is closest to the heart’s desire. This is where the symbol of the Fool within your system of the tarot is seen to be walking from the cliff to be suspended in midair, ready to fall. However, the faith of the Fool sustains the next step, and the next, and the next.

We leave you in that one original Thought. That Thought is your birthright and is your very being. You are Love and Light. There is nothing else. The Love is expressed in your consciousness. The Light is the material which your consciousness uses to create a body, a continuing set of circumstances and a created power that may use circumstances instead of circumstances using you. You cannot stop the laughter of the storm. Its cruel and mocking tongues will follow all who seek the truth, and, indeed, those who are deep asleep. But your nature, your birthright, your power is in that which cannot be denied, that which is from everlasting to everlasting. Choose, my friends, choose with joy, and learn to laugh ever more deeply, resting in arms polished smooth by trust.

I am known to you as Hatonn. I leave you in the love and the light of our infinite Creator. Adonai vasu borragus.

[Side one of tape ends.]

(Jim channeling)

I am Latwii, and I greet you, my friends, in the Love and in the Light of our infinite Creator. We are most privileged to be able to join you this evening in your meditation, and, as always, we humbly offer to you our service of attempting to answer those queries which each has upon the mind. We also echo the words of our brothers and sisters of Hatonn in saying that we have no infallible opinions to offer, for what we have to offer is indeed our opinions. We have also traveled somewhat further upon this road which we share with you as seekers of truth, and we offer that which it has been our joy to gather as our experience and expression of the one Creator. May we begin, then, with the first query?

J: Latwii, can you give me your definition of relationship?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my brother. We see that which you call relationship as the interaction of portions of the one Creator toward a purpose, that purpose being that each should aid the other in realizing the one Creator dwells in both.

May we answer you further, my brother?

J: Does one—in a relationship does one person have to be stronger than the other or weaker? How do relationships balance out in that situation?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my brother. We can suggest that there are, shall we say, no hard and fast rules in a relationship regarding whether one shall be stronger in some sense than another, for within any relationship of two or more entities one must realize that there are many, many factors and characteristics to be considered. Strength and weakness within any factor may be had by either or any party. Those within the relationship shall bring that which they have and that which they are, and share that with each other in the relationship. If one has more of what is called strength in one area or another, then there is the opportunity for the balance to be achieved by another or the other entity in another area.

I am Latwii: May we attempt further response, my brother?

J: Thank you, sir.

I am Latwii, and we thank you, my brother. Is there another query?

N: Latwii, other than meditation and [inaudible] time, is there any, in your opinion, method of removing our own individual blocks?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my brother. We can suggest that any means which one may devise for such removal of, as you have called them, blockages, is quite acceptable and useful to the entity, for the greatest, shall we say, magic that an entity may use in creating changes in its own consciousness is that which the entity creates as its own tool.

Let us attempt clarification. That which you feel within your being needs removal as a blockage may best be balanced or removed in the means which feels right to you. Meditation is a means which is most helpful, for it seats or registers the learning within the deeper portions of the mind of the entity. You may also utilize analysis in a conscious manner; you may also utilize moment-by-moment observation of your experience; you may utilize dreams and hypnosis; you may utilize the criticism of friends and peers; you may utilize the movement within nature, as you call it, in order that the peace of your second-density creation may cause the more balanced alignment of your energy centers to become apparent to you. Each method and many others may prove useful in the removal or balancing of blockages, yet that means which you have mentioned yourself, that being meditation, is the means by which the learning which you gather as a fruit of any effort becomes ingrained and truly takes hold as a seed planted in fertile soil within your being.

May we answer you further, my brother?

N: The second density you refer to, is this the balancing of the chakras?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my brother. We ask your forgiveness for the use of terms which may not be familiar to you. In our reference to the second density, we spoke of that portion of your creation which you might notice as plants and animals and the surroundings which are part of your natural environment as yet untouched by the human hand.

May we answer you further, my brother?

N: Can crystals be utilized to increase the power of healing?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my brother, and we find the answer to this is in the affirmative. May we answer you further, my brother?

N: Can you explain what would be the best method, in your opinion, to utilize these crystals?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my brother. You have asked a question which enters this discussion into a large field of study. There is much practice required in the part of utilizing the crystal for healing purposes. We shall give a very simple synopsis. An entity must develop some ability to sense the configuration of the various energy centers of another who wishes some form of healing. This may be attempted by the use of any type of swinging weight or pendulum, not necessarily a crystal, in order to determine the configuration of an energy center, whether it is blocked in normal configuration or is under or over-activated. The blockage then being discerned, there are means by which the blockage may be attended to. The crystal, when it is chosen by the one who would serve as healer, needs be that which is free enough of flaws that the Light which the one serving as healer shall focus through the crystal will reach the one to be healed in as pure a reflection or refraction of the spectrum as possible. The crystal may be swung upon a chain held in the hand by those who are more adept at the art; the crystal may also be worn around the neck upon a chain so that it rests upon the healer at a point which corresponds to the heart chakra, so that as the healer does its own inner work of balancing its own energy centers, it itself becomes as the crystal and radiates that Light within its being through the crystal to the one to be healed in a manner which manipulates or adjusts the auric field of the one to be healed.

We ask your forgiveness for moving into this particular area in some degree that is complex and does not do justice to the topic.

May we answer you further, my brother?

N: Are there any current written references that you could recommend for further delineation?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my brother. We find that such a request lies beyond what we are able to do, for we do not wish to infringe upon your own free will and ability to seek and choose such references. For us to suggest such a source would perhaps be seen as giving this source a special kind of weight, and we do not wish to bias your choice in this area.

May we answer you further, my brother?

N: Is there any direction you can suggest for increased learning?

I am Latwii, and am aware of your query, my brother. We can suggest that you follow that idea or inspiration which comes to you as a result of your own analysis, contemplation, and meditation, for you have those knowledges within your own being awaiting your own seeking.

May we answer you further, my brother?

N: Thank you.

I am Latwii, and we thank you, my brother. May we attempt another query?

N: Latwii, can you tell us something about the chakras? Do they play an important part in our spiritual growth?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my brother. We may speak briefly upon this topic in hopes that we may clarify rather than confuse. You may look at your being, including your physical vehicle, as a crystal. Each of your energy centers, or chakras, as they are called by your people, are a facet of a crystal which contains more or less blockage at each center. These blockages are your lessons, shall we say, in coded form. As you work upon your own thinking and perceiving and widen the viewpoint, you remove blockages so that which has been called the prana, or the cosmic influx of Love and Light which enters your being at the lower chakra, may pass through your various energy centers in a more and more pure manner. That is to say, as you remove blockages or balance distortion, you allow the Light, the prana, the cosmic energy of the one Creator to enter and move through your being in a manner which promotes or allows the white Light to remain white and allows your beingness to be infused with the fullness of the one Creator. When this process has occurred through each chakra or energy center, beginning at the base and moving through the crown of the head, that experience which many in your mystical traditions of seeking have called by various names—enlightenment, nirvana, samadhi—then occurs as the entity comes to know itself as that which it has been from before time began, the one Creator.

N asked: “Latwii, can you tell us something about the chakras? Do they play an important part in our spiritual growth?” Latwii began by saying you may look at your being, including your physical vehicle, as a crystal, and each of your chakras is a facet of a crystal which contains more or less blockage at each center, for these blockages are your lessons in coded form, and as you work upon your thinking and perceiving and widen the viewpoint, you remove blockages so that which has been called the prana, or the cosmic influx of Love and Light which enters your being at the lower chakra, may pass through your chakras in a more pure manner, so that as you remove blockages, you allow the prana, the cosmic energy of the one Creator to enter and move through your being in a manner which allows the white Light to remain white and allows your beingness to be infused with the fullness of the one Creator, and when this process has occurred through each chakra, beginning at the base and moving through the crown of the head, that enlightenment, nirvana, or samadhi occurs as the entity comes to know itself as that which it has been from before time began, the one Creator. In 17.2, Ra described the nature of enlightenment:

We cannot offer shortcuts to enlightenment. Enlightenment is of the moment, is an opening to intelligent infinity. It can only be accomplished by the self, for the self. Another self cannot teach/learn enlightenment, but only teach/learn information, inspiration, or a sharing of Love, of mystery, of the unknown that makes the other-self reach out and begin the seeking process that ends in a moment. But who can know when an entity will open the gate to the present?

May we answer you further, my brother?

N: No, thank you.

I am Latwii, and we thank you. Is there another query at this time?

B: Latwii, if an entity realizes that they are possibly working on a fifth chakra, such as the throat, can it also be possible that they have missed the second or third chakra in the process of evolvement?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my sister. This is quite possible, my sister. Many of those who are consciously seekers upon the path of enlightenment desire with such great strength to proceed along this path that often seems lesser or more mundane in the work of balancing chakras is ignored for the moment in order to, shall we say, quickly pass to the more interesting and seemingly enlightening pursuit of balancing the higher chakra or energy centers. When this occurs in a manner which is unbalanced, shall we say, it is much as though an entity would attempt to build a roof upon a house which had only two walls. The foundation of each entity’s process of evolution must be built firmly. This means that each entity must take care that each energy center or chakra is given the appropriate attention so that the structure is firmly placed upon solid ground and is constructed in a balanced fashion, each energy center or chakra being attended to as the daily experience dictates, shall we say.

May we answer you further, my sister?

B: Then your suggestion, Latwii, would be that this vehicle should return to first chakra and start again?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my sister. We cannot say that any entity, having omitted any lower chakra, should then return to the first, the second, the third, and so forth. We can suggest that each entity may observe the daily experience, and it can analyze those moments wherein catalyst has not been well used, may note the difficulties, may note the disharmonies, may note any moment in which there was not Love, may then take that observation and analyze the chakra to which it belongs, and focus work then according to this analysis.

May we answer you further, my sister?

B: Thank you very much, Latwii.

I am Latwii, and we thank you, my sister. Is there another query at this time?

P: Latwii, I’ve been recently studying a little bit about angels and came upon the theory that we are, those of us who are humans now, are fallen angels working our way back to, I suppose we could say, the original Thought, and that angels or guardians, perhaps, such as you are helping us get there. With so many things for us to work on, I’m always looking for the ultimate goal. Well, I guess the main question, is there any truth to that about us being fallen angels working towards an angel realm and then another one beyond that?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my sister. May we say that there is some truth in each theory, for no thing or theory exists without some support of truth. In this instance, we may suggest that what is true depends upon one’s point of view. To many upon your planet it would seem that the world you inhabit is, indeed, full of those who have fallen from the grace of the one Creator, for sorrow and suffering abound and ignorance as well, ignorance of what the source of all experience is. From our point of view, humble and limited as it is, we do not see fallen angels when we look upon your people. We see the one Creator in each. Specifically, we see the greatest of opportunities existing in each incarnation for the one Creator which each of you is to gather those experiences that would not be possible should you not exist as you do. You have forgotten that you are the one Creator in order that you can gain these experiences and, thereby, glorify the one Creator by experiences which are richer, deeper, more intense, and of greater variety should you not have forgotten that you are the one Creator.

We ourselves have, shall we say, a certain sort of envy for you that we share with all of those beings which you would call angelic, for in our experience of the one Creator, we do not forget that we are the one Creator, that each entity we encounter is thusly the same. Therefore, our experiences are somewhat more pallid, somewhat more etiolated and, shall we say, watered down. Progress of a spiritual nature, shall we say, in our realms of experience is much slower than it is in yours, for you exist and create Love in a darkness, in a forgetting. This allows much greater evolutionary progress, for it is done without the benefit of the sure knowledge of your connection with all that is. Therefore, we look upon you as those who have not fallen but who have moved in realms not before possible because you have that forgetting which seems in your illusion to be such a great hindrance, but from our point of view is seen as such a great treasure.

P asked: “Well, I guess the main question, is there any truth to that about us being fallen angels working towards an angel realm and then another one beyond that?” Latwii said there is some truth in each theory, for no theory exists without some support of truth, and in this instance that what is true depends upon one’s point of view, for to many upon your planet it would seem that the world you inhabit is full of those who have fallen from the grace of the one Creator, for sorrow and suffering abound as well as the ignorance of what the source of all experience is, so from our point of view we do not see fallen angels when we look upon your people, for we see the greatest of opportunities existing in each incarnation for the one Creator, which each of you is, to gather those experiences that would not be possible should you not exist as you do, for you have forgotten that you are the one Creator in order that you can gain these experiences and glorify the one Creator by experiences which are richer and of greater variety should you not have forgotten that you are the one Creator. Latwii continued by saying we have an envy for you that we share with all of those beings which you would call angelic, for in our experience of the one Creator, we do not forget that we are the one Creator, that each entity we encounter is the same, so our experiences are more pallid and watered down, for progress of a spiritual nature in our realms of experience is much slower than it is in yours, for you exist and create Love in a darkness, in a forgetting, and this allows greater evolutionary progress, for it is done without the benefit of the knowledge of your connection with all that is, so we look upon you as those who have not fallen but who have moved in realms not before possible because you have that forgetting which seems in your illusion to be such a great hindrance, but from our point of view is seen as such a great treasure. On December 4, 1984, Latwii mentioned the value of our forgetting:

Progress of a spiritual nature, shall we say, in our realms of experience is much slower than it is in yours, for you exist and create Love in a darkness, in a forgetting. This allows much greater evolutionary progress, for it is done without the benefit of the sure knowledge of your connection with all that is. Therefore, we look upon you as those who have not fallen, but who have moved in realms not before possible because you have that forgetting which seems in your illusion to be such a great hindrance, but from our point of view is seen as such a great treasure.

May we answer you further, my sister?

P: Yes, please. Is it possible for you, Latwii, to enter our realm, since it seems that you think it is such a great adventure?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my sister. We had portions of our social memory complex within your illusion in the capacity of that which has come to be called wanderer, those beings of other densities who seek to enter yours in order to aid your own evolution by their presence and to aid their own evolution by experiencing the great illusion in which you now move. They also must go through the forgetting process which is the great characteristic of your third-density illusion.

May we answer you further, my sister?

P: Just one more, please. Would it be infringing on our development for you to tell one of us or any of us if we were in fact wanderers, or are we supposed to struggle to find this out on our own?

I am Latwii, and am aware of your query, my sister, and we see that you have answered your own query. May we attempt further response, my sister?

P: No, thank you. I guess I’ll carry on.

I am Latwii, and we shall carry on as well. Is there another query?

B: Latwii, we come from another state. We have traveled, as you are aware, I am sure. Is there—how shall I say this? Can you direct us to some place closer that has another entity from your density that we might speak with again closer to home?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my sister. We must apologize for seeming so short of information of this nature, but to direct one’s choosing in such a manner we see as an infringement upon your own free will. You as a seeker will seek and find that which is of the most helpful nature for your current needs. This seeking shall carry the power of your own desire, and, as the magnet, shall attract to you that which is helpful. Have faith, my sister, that as you have found that which was necessary for your own growth in that which you call your past, so your future shall be populated with the same.

May we answer you further, my sister?

B: No. Thank you very much, Latwii.

I am Latwii, and we thank you, my sister. Is there another query at this time?

Carla: Well, if everyone else is taking a rest, I’d just like to sort of follow up on what J was—It was a neat bit of stepping that you did there, talking about how we find each other and accept each other for what each of us is. However, I was wondering if there was an ideal towards which any couple might strive together if each, I should say, both of the couple were intent upon spiritual evolution?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my sister. The ideal which each entity upon your planet strives for, whether in relationship or in solitude, is the ideal of Love. This is the lesson of your particular illusion, a state of being which words cannot describe, yet which includes an unconditional acceptance and forgiveness of all. This could be called an approximation of Love. As you move within your illusion and within your relationships, you will encounter that which seems unlovable, unforgivable, unacceptable. When you can Love, and forgive, and accept each portion of each entity which you encounter, then you shall be approaching the ideal of unconditional Love.

May we answer you further, my sister?

Carla: Yes, just in my attempt to understand that what you’re saying, is there is no ideal relationship? There is only an ideal attitude of each person towards himself or anyone else, is that correct?

Latwii: Is that correct. I am Latwii, and we applaud your eloquent statement of that which we have attempted to share.

Carla: Very cute.

I am Latwii, and we are happy that you have appreciated our sense of humor which we have some difficulty in transmitting through this somewhat somber instrument.

May we attempt further response?

Carla: No, that takes care of that one. Another question sparked up out of my mind about healing, and I was reviewing in my mind all the healers that I’ve heard of. There are female healers but the largest majority of the ones that I know of are men. Is there some archetypical reason for that? Is there a type of energy which healing demands which women are prone to be low in biologically?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my sister. We may answer in two parts, the first of which may be a simple suggestion that your particular observation of healers has been somewhat biased towards those of the male nature, yet there is some substance to the assumption which you have made. This substance would then be seen as an archetypical reflection, shall we say, for it is to the biological male given the ability to store and transfer energy of …

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This morning the quote from The Thunder of Silence is: “In order to achieve our ultimate goal, the nature of God must be understood; and, therefore, there must be but one question in our thought, and that is: What is God?

First and foremost, we must realize that our prayers and meditations do not influence God—to do good for us or to do evil to us—that we cannot bring the glory of God to ourselves or to anyone else. All that we can do is to recognize that God in the midst of us is mighty, not because of us—it is just that we have been given the grace to recognize the IS, that which already IS. That is why the Master told the disciples not to glory because the devil was subject unto them, but because their names were written in heaven. That is why no one ever dares takes glory unto themselves because of a healing, for no human being has ever brought about a healing—is was brought about by a divine state of spiritual being, which operates, and can operate, only through and as the consciousness of one who knows the nature of God and can, therefore, bring healing into visible manifestation. That is our part in this glorious spiritual work. That is our only part—to know God, to know God whom to know aright is life eternal.

When we know the nature of God as Love and as life eternal, never again will we deal with death, old age, or disease as if it were a reality that we could change by bringing God to it. We shall understand that this has nothing to do with God: It has to do with as ye sow, so shall ye reap. If we believe in a law of sin, a law of matter, or disease, or a law of punishment, that is the experience that we are bringing into our lives and the lives of those who look to us for spiritual guidance.

When we understand the nature of God as Love, we shall understand the word, Grace. Then shall we understand that our good comes by Grace, not by deserving it or being worthy of it. What human being can ever be good enough to deserve God! As a matter of fact, the more of human qualities we have, the more have to be wiped out before we can realize God. We cannot be brought to a place of deserving God—we can only be brought to a place where that part of us which wants to be worthy or appears to be unworthy is thrown out of the way, and our true Selfhood is revealed. Our good—physical, mental, moral, and financial—is ours by divine Grace as the gift of God. We cannot earn it or deserve it; we cannot influence God to give it to us, and no act, or deed, or thought of ours is powerful enough to prevent God from operating and continuing to operate.”

Later this morning I went outside and spread three bales of pine straw in two of the three areas on the ground around the Wuthering Heights Mound the front yard.

This afternoon I went back outside and continued working on the little stone wall between the fishpond and the Vanilla/Strawberry Hydrangea Bushes. I was able to add two feet to the wall, so now it is five feet long. Then I took my speed walk, and when I got home, I opened the mailbox and discovered that the book, Living the Law of One 102: The Outer Work had been delivered as I was told could happen today. After I got into the kitchen I opened the package and looked at the front and back covers, riffled through the pages, and then I began to cry tears of joy that I was able to find Carla’s outline for 102 and continue writing the book that she had planned to write before she passed into larger life eleven years ago tomorrow, April 1, 2015. It will be a few weeks before 102 will be available to purchase or to read for free as a PDF on our website: www.llresearch.org. This is one of the best days of my life!

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

March 31

The Messenger Of Love

I am of the principle of living Love, and I greet you in the consciousness of Jesus the Christ.

I greet you as a messenger sent out before the dawn of each thought in the mind.

I greet you as a new beginning in every moment of the day.

I greet you around trick corners and sudden hurdles. Reach for the arms of comfort in times of distress, for we are there.

We are the principle of Love, and as you speak to us of Love, we come to you with Love. And as our comfort is sweet to you, so is your heart to the Creator, the Father of all things. And so you have the opportunity at each and every dawning to become one with God in Christ through the grace of the Spirit of Love.

We leave you in the peace and joy which are yours to experience through the birthright of Christ, both now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of Love and open our hearts minds, and souls to send Love, Light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite Love, Light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our Love, Light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Hatonn and Latwii channelings come from December 16, 1984:

(Carla channeling)

I am Hatonn. I greet you in the Love and in the Light of our infinite Creator. My heart is glad that my brothers and sisters and I are able to spend this time with you once again; to be called to your presence is something for which we can only thank you again and again, for it is our nature to come only when called and to serve only when asked. In your turn you do us enormous service, for it is in working with groups such as yours that we ourselves, at this particular point in our own development, continue our evolution by refining the compassion we feel for you and insofar as we have wisdom, the wisdom that we share with you. We are those who attempt to learn the lessons of wisdom. You are those who are attempting to learn the lessons of Love, of compassion, of mercy, and so we would retell an old story. This instrument does not know the story, however it is written among your older works.

It is a story we would very much like for you to hear on this particular evening with this particular group. We ask you, before we even begin, to discount all those things which you may hear that do not ring true to your experience and your own inner knowing, but to use those things which do ring true, so take them within and use them, as we offer them in Love. Once upon a time there was a young man. He was determined to learn the truth. He had spent his childhood and his young manhood studying both the natural world and the world within books, and nowhere could he find the metaphysical base for existence that took into account all of his experience and all of his thinking. Nevertheless, this young man was positive that such a work existed, for in his reading he had found traces of others upon the same journey as he, footsteps before him, footprints wearing down the stones of time, so many were those of the number of those who sought the truth of existence. He sold all that he had, and he was a wealthy man. He took his fortune and bought a large ocean-going ship and hired a crew, and he began an odyssey attempting to find the one teacher with the one body of teaching that would contain all that he needed to know about who he was and where he was going.

He sailed all the seven seas and many an ocean. He left his ship and walked toilsomely up many mountains on many continents, and one lined face after another told him a story. It was always and ever the same story, and that was that although he had a ship and they did not, that they were on a journey together and that they had not found what he was seeking. He had not discovered the final solution; he had not plucked the perfect flower. Ultimately, he put his ship to anchor and started up what was considered to be a holy mountain in South America. He walked, and walked, and walked. After weeks of walking and many near escapes with dangerous animals and those who lived in the area and were not pleased with white men, he came to a simple, beautiful mountain tarn, a lake so placid that one could not see that it was not glass. How he had thirsted for such clean and pure water during his dusty trek. He took off his clothing and bathed, thanking the Creator for such a gift, for the water, indeed, seemed somehow blessed and blessed to him.

In this session Hatonn spoke about a young man who was seeking the truth. Hatonn began by saying it is a story we would like for you to hear this evening with this group, and we ask you to ignore all those things which you may hear that do not ring true to your inner knowing but to use those things which do ring true, so take them within and use them, as we offer them in Love, so once upon a time there was a young man who was determined to learn the truth, for he had spent his childhood and young manhood studying both the natural world and the world within books, and nowhere could he find the metaphysical base for existence that took into account all of his experience, but this young man was positive that such a work existed, for in his reading he had found traces of others upon the same journey as he, and so many were those of the number of those who sought the truth of existence, so he sold all that he had, and he was a wealthy man, so he took his fortune and bought a large ocean-going ship and hired a crew, and he began an odyssey attempting to find the one teacher with the one body of teaching that would contain all that he needed to know about who he was and where he was going. Then Hatonn said he sailed all the seven seas and many oceans, and he left his ship and walked laboriously up many mountains on many continents, and one lined face after another told him a story, but it was always the same story, and that was that they were on a journey together, and that they had not found what he was seeking, so he had not discovered the final solution, and he put his ship to anchor and started up a holy mountain in South America, for after weeks of walking and many near escapes with dangerous animals and those who lived in the area and were not pleased with white men, he came to a beautiful mountain, a lake so placid that one could not see that it was not glass, but how he had thirsted for such sparkling water during his dusty trek, so he took off his clothing and bathed, thanking the Creator for such a gift, for the water seemed blessed to him. On August 13, 1989, Q’uo spoke about the final solution that we all seek on our spiritual journeys:

For each of us moves in one kind of illusion or another in which there is much which is other than it seems. The riddles and puzzles of creation within and without are those qualities which draw each of us onward to seek the final solution in unity with all.

However, upon that journey each shall—even with very pure intentions—find that the effort falls short. This is the way of all learning for there is the attempt to offer the self within an illusion in which the self and other self are seen less distinctly and clearly than truly do they exist. Thus, with such hindrances, shall we say, it is to be expected that there will be efforts which fall short. However, to be able to reflect upon one’s experience and to see each portion as a puzzle piece and to refine the fitting of each piece in succeeding efforts to serve is the means by which wisdom is gained.

However, within your illusion the intention, the desire, the motivation, the passion to serve is that which is of most importance, for it is the nurturing of this passion that opens the center of the heart that one may give in an universal and unconditional sense and by so giving express most purely the compassion and unconditional Love which are the foundation for all of creation.

When he came out of the water, his clothing had disappeared. All the colors had changed before his eyes. There were gems in everything—the grass was now emeralds, the sky, the purple of an amethyst, the very far mountains, opals and the lavender and the purple amethyst, and brilliant and deep with color he had never before seen. Instead of his clothing, there was a simple white garment. He put it on and began to walk up a trail which he had not previously noticed. The trail led ever upward. It was dangerous, and there were many times that the young man did not know if he was going to be able to continue upwards. But there was the trail. Someone had made that trail; someone had gone before him, and he continued, inching along bare edges, hanging to the sheer cliff, and finally he had reached the mesa, atop the beautiful mountain.

Upon the top of the mountain was a castle made of stone hewed from the mountain itself. Large portions of it were open to the sky. It was of intricate and beautiful design, arched, and groined. The man he met there was so ancient that he almost seemed to be held up by his robes as he sat in the lotus position. He held what seemed to be a large leather book in his hand. The young man knelt and assumed the lotus position before the old man. “Sire, I am a seeker of that which I do not know,” he said. “I have come to find the one teaching that will inform me on every matter, give me surety and understanding in all particulars of the truth, for I wish to know the complete truth of who I am and where I am going.”

Hatonn continued by saying when he came out of the water, his clothing had disappeared, and all the colors had changed before his eyes, and there were gems in everything—the grass was now emeralds, the sky, the purple of an amethyst, the very far mountains were deep with color he had never seen before, but instead of his clothing, there was a simple white garment, so he put it on and began to walk up a trail which he had not previously noticed, for the trail led ever upward, but it was dangerous, and there were many times that the young man did not know if he was going to be able to continue upwards, but someone had made that trail and had gone before him, and he continued, inching along bare edges, hanging to the sheer cliff, and, finally, he had reached the mesa, atop the beautiful mountain. Hatonn continued by saying upon the top of the mountain was a castle made of stone hewed from the mountain, and large portions of it were open to the sky, yet it was of intricate and beautiful design, arched, and groined, and the man he met there was so ancient that he almost seemed to be held up by his robes as he sat in the lotus position, so he held a large leather book in his hand, and the young man knelt and assumed the lotus position before the old man and said: “Sire, I am a seeker of that which I do not know,” he said. “I have come to find the one teaching that will inform me on every matter, give me surety and understanding in all particulars of the truth, for I wish to know the complete truth of who I am and where I am going.” On October 16, 1983, Q’uo described the some of the nature of the complete truth:

The one known as Jehoshua or Jesus was able in his life pattern to remove the distortions to such an extent that he was able to experience that type of consciousness which may be called Christed, christened, pure. This enabled Him to speak with authority when He said, “I and my Father are one. No one comes unto the Father unless they come by me.” These are the words which are often misunderstood, for many upon your planet feel their meaning is simply that one must just believe in the one known as Jesus the Christ and that known as salvation will be theirs.

This is what might be likened unto the child’s perception of truth. It cannot be said to be untrue, but it cannot be said to be the complete truth, for within those words lie much which is still covered to the simpler perception. The simple believing in an entity, no matter what the entity’s purity, is not sufficient to gain for the one so believing that known as salvation, salvation itself being much misunderstood. Our humble definition of such a term might be that grade necessary for what you call the harvest, a polarity of service which is sufficient to enable the entity to be graduated, for this entity now understands in a conscious manner, or perhaps yet still in an unconscious manner, the need to serve and to evolve in mind, body, and spirit. And it is this evolution, this process of seeking and the fruit yielded therefrom, that is, the service to others, which enables an entity to gain that broadly described as salvation.

The young man gazed hopefully at the ancient who sat before him. The elderly man laughed. “You are not the first who has come looking for such a book,” he said, “and you shall not be the last. I have it,” he said. “Here it is, and take it away with you if you wish.” And he laughed and laughed. The young man’s heart was in his throat. Finally, he was to be able to have authority, to speak with authority, to know and to understand all the mysteries that had confounded him for his whole life long. He scrabbled hastily with the fastenings of the old leather binder. It seemed to take forever to get them free. The binder opened. The young man looked in it. It was an intricately set mirror that he beheld, bound within the leather. For a few seconds he just gazed dumbly at his own image. Then he became angry and threw the binder back to the old teacher. “You told me that you had all that I wanted to know, and then you give me a mirror.” The old man was still laughing. He slipped the leather thongs that held the mirror in its binding most securely, and he looked up at the young man as they were seated. “Young man,” he said, “I have never known a single seeker who did not throw that one total and complete authority back in my face. However,” he said, with a laugh, “I believe you can get those books almost anywhere.”

My friends, it is not always easy to accept your own nature. Most of those who wish to be all that they can be and to seek all that they can seek are disappointed in themselves and find things past and present weighing heavily upon their hearts. Never does it occur that perfection lies within the very eyes that meet each of yours each time that you gaze in the mirror. It is a great study—the self. The eyes are windows to a most complex entity. And yet it is as simple as we have said, to the best of our own understanding. The final authority is yourself. You may find things which illumine, which enspirit, which enliven, which heal, which bind up that which hurts. But you will not find the unalloyed truth except in the wordless depth of your inner silence.

Then Hatonn said the young man gazed hopefully at the ancient who sat before him, and the elderly man laughed: “You are not the first who has come looking for such a book,” he said, “and you shall not be the last. I have it,” he said. “Here it is, and take it away with you if you wish,” and he laughed, but the young man’s heart was in his throat, so finally he was to be able to speak with authority, to understand all the mysteries that had confounded him for his whole life, so he worked quickly with the fastenings of the old leather binder, but it seemed to take forever to get the binder opened, and the young man looked in it, for it was an intricately set mirror that was bound within the leather, and for a few seconds he gazed dumbly at his own image, but then he became angry and threw the binder back to the old teacher, and he said “You told me that you had all that I wanted to know, and then you give me a mirror,” but the old man was still laughing, so he slipped the leather thongs that held the mirror in its binding most securely, and he looked up at the young man as they were seated, so he said “Young man, I have never known a single seeker who did not throw that one complete authority back in my face,” but he said with a laugh, “I believe you can get those books almost anywhere.” Now Hatonn said it is not easy to accept your own nature since most of those who wish to be all that they can be and to seek all that they can seek are disappointed in themselves and find things past and present weighing heavily upon their hearts, for never does it occur that perfection lies within the very eyes that meet each of yours each time that you gaze in the mirror, and it is a great study of the self, for the eyes are windows to a complex entity, yet it is as simple as we have said that the final authority is yourself, for you may find things which illumine, which heal, which bind up that which hurts, but you will not find the one truth except in the wordless depth of your inner silence. On September 3, 1983, Hatonn spoke of the nature of our inner silence:

And so our seeker could grow old and die and never find enough unless the attention had been turned to the inner silence that beckons all who seek, an inner silence so filled with joy that those who have felt it recognize others by that one smile that says to the world, “Yes, I have felt it too, I have known infinite bounty, I have felt the sunshine of a universe scattered carelessly, abundantly and wastefully upon my upturned spirit. I have asked; I have received.” Those who have received radiate that which they have received, and give it again a hundredfold.

We ask for this reason that you meditate and enter into that silence as much as possible daily. This is not a hobby, an avocation, or a means of relaxation, although it can be all of those things too. First and foremost, it is settling down in front of your mirror. To gaze within the self is to behold the universe. The galaxies go on forever within the mind, the heart, and the spirit. We acknowledge the heart and the spirit that brings you together and wish you good hunting with that one original Thought which, although it may be hard to believe, is indeed most clearly and undistortedly scriven within yourselves. This evening we have not talked about those things which are outer. We have not talked about relationships; we have not talked about service, for there is a foundation which we wish to emphasize, and that is meditation. You will note that in the story there was a cleansing, a purification, the bathing in the mountain lake, the donning of white and unblemished garments. My friends, you must be able to accept the portion of yourself which has been cleansed, or to put it another way, which is perpetually cleansed, and allow that self the higher seat within yourself in meditation, for surely there are many small and unimportant details which will flit through your minds, many irrelevant matters. All of these things are acceptable. See them and let them go. There is a portion of you, however, that must abide in what we would call the kingdom of heaven, for such this instrument calls it. Within this kingdom all things are true; all things are cleansed, and part of you has never left that reality, or should we say, that far less murky illusion. Do not satisfy yourself with the casual surface self as you go into meditation. Call upon the self which abides with the most high. Call upon the self, which is cleansed, which dwells forever in a place of utmost beauty and peace.

Now Hatonn said we ask that you meditate and enter into that silence as much as possible daily, for this is a settling down in front of your mirror, for to gaze within the self is to behold the universe where the galaxies go on forever within the mind, the heart, and the spirit, so we acknowledge the heart and the spirit that bring you together and wish you good hunting with that one original Thought which, although it may be hard to believe, is clearly written within yourselves, but this evening we have not talked about those things which are about relationships or about service, for there is a foundation which we wish to emphasize, and that is meditation, yet you will note that in the story there was a cleansing by bathing in the mountain lake, the donning of white and unblemished garments, for you must be able to accept the portion of yourself which is perpetually cleansed, and allow that self the higher seat within yourself in meditation, for there are many unimportant details which will flit through your minds, yet all of these things are acceptable, so see them and let them go, but there is a portion of you that must abide in the Kingdom of Heaven, for within this Kingdom all things are true, and part of you has never left that reality, but do not satisfy yourself with the surface self as you go into meditation, but call upon the self which abides with the most high and which dwells forever in a place of beauty and peace. On August 5, 1984, Hatonn spoke of the nature of the most high that dwells within us:

Within yourself, each of you has the opportunity to experience the deep surfaces, the crevices, the rocks, the valleys, the vales, and the forests of existence. Each has ample opportunity to choose to be misled, to be unhappy, to feel darkness. Each of you also has within you the birthright and the opportunity at all times to seek the high places. Walk then in meditation up your own mountain. Picture yourself cleansing yourself at a clear, cool and refreshing mountain stream. And then clad in cleanly garments, visit the most high place of your being in meditation and in peace. Metaphysical peace does not deny the apparent chaos of a boisterous illusion but rather reaffirms and restates for you once again the perfection of the Creator, the Creator that is in you and the you that is in the Creator. You are old, older than rocks, and sky, and earth, and sea. You are consciousness. You have seen and experienced and chosen many things. Today you may choose again. It is only through meditation that your choices will be consistently positive. And by that we mean that your choices will be consistently those of service to others.

I am with those of Hatonn and I find the energy within the group somewhat low. Therefore, we shall terminate this contact but not without thanking you once again for the opportunity to speak with you and to share our thoughts with you. We are always available. Request us mentally and we shall be with you in meditation. We leave you in the Love and in the Light of our infinite Creator. Adonai. Adonai.

(Jim channeling)

I am Latwii, and I greet you, my friends, in the Love and the Light of our infinite Creator. We are once again most privileged and honored to be asked to join your group this evening. We thank you with a full heart of joy for requesting our presence that we might humbly offer that simple service that is ours to offer. We shall attempt to answer those queries which have importance for your seeking this evening. We, as our brothers and sisters of Hatonn, remind each of you that our words are but our opinions. Please take that which has value and use it as you will and leave that which has no value to you. We wish only to serve where asked and can only give that which is within our grasp to give. With that disclaimer aside, may we then begin with the first query of the evening?

J: Latwii, it’s good to hear your voice. But the story that Hatonn told about a ship and traveling and seeking. This takes a great deal of money. Where would one acquire this kind of money and time to seek the truth?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my brother. May we say we are also most happy to hear your voice as well. My brother, as one looks upon the journey of the seeker, one may see that there are limitless ways to seek the one Creator and to seek that which is called truth. One may, as the hero of the story of which you speak, spend a great deal of time and money, learn many rituals, speak with many sages, climb to the top of many remote mountains, and in general make a great deal of commotion in the process of seeking, and yet until an entity looks within the mirror of the self, the seeking has not begun. There is no amount of money that can purchase the sincere desire to look within the self for that which resides therein. There is no ship, plane, or means of conveyance that can take one where one does not wish to go as a result of one’s own efforts. You may speak with many wise and loving beings, and hear many words of inspiration. Yet, if within your own heart of hearts there is not the desire to look within your own being for that which you seek, all else is as nothing.

So, my brother, you need not worry about the expense or the time required to seek the truth. If you have the desire to seek the truth, you may do so each moment of your existence as you see yourself in each entity that you meet, as you see yourself as the Creator in each situation in which you find yourself. There is no end to the opportunities for seeking the truth, the Creator, and yourself, for all are one thing. You live in that one thing as that one thing.

May we answer you further, my brother?

J: Thank you, sir. From what you said then, the self comes first, and it is that you seek what you need for yourself first, and then and only then can you give to another human being. You have to first seek self-esteem, and then you can only relate that to another human being, and that is what takes up so much time. Am I being clear?

I am Latwii, and we feel you have been clear, my brother, and we feel we have a grasp of your query. You must begin with what you have in order to seek. That is, you will begin with yourself, and you will begin with that which is of concern to you. This usually entails, just as you have spoken, the fulfilment of the needs of the entity. Your young beings, those you have called children, are good examples of this process. There are stages of development which they pass through which require that they be given a great deal from those about them in order that they might be nurtured in their continued growth. As they mature in their years, they do not need as much from others, but are in fact able to give, perhaps to their own children.

You, in your spiritual seeking, begin as the child. You need much in the way of finding out who you are in this illusion, what are your abilities, what are your desires, what opportunities await you. As these, shall we say, more mundane concerns are met by your own seeking, then your seeking becomes refined through your own efforts, so that you begin to concern yourself with what might be called the deeper concerns, the nature of life, the meaning of life, and how you shall serve and how you shall learn. Thus, you proceed as does the child which you have been in each portion of your life, continuing as an upward spiraling line of light to return to that source from which you sprang.

May we answer you further, my brother?

J: Thank you, sir. Are you saying that we should have rational values such as being an objectivist rather than being an altruist?

I am Latwii, and am aware of your query, my brother. We have not specifically said that one “should” do such and such, such as have rational values. We suggest that in the process of your growth as an entity within this illusion, you will begin with such values, beliefs, and standards. From these you shall refine your seeking.

May we answer you further, my brother?

J: But I’m trying to get rid of all my old habits and all my old beliefs, and you’re saying that I have to begin again, start all over?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my brother. We have suggested that you have undergone this process, and now as you continue your seeking, you shall perhaps get rid of certain values and standards or perhaps you shall transmute them so that what once was a value that had certain discrete limitations is now a higher standard that has widened its perspective to include that which was not included before.

May we answer you further, my brother?

J: No, that’s very good sir. Thank you very much.

I am Latwii and we thank you, my brother, as always. Is there another query at this time?

Carla: Well, I just had the … I fastened on the same thing that J did, only differently. I heard—I think I heard it—that he sold all that he had, and I was thinking to myself that maybe it’s a sliding scale, what people pay for seeking is a sliding scale, depending on what you have. Because what you do is, you give it all, I mean, you surrender all of it, whatever it is, so if it’s everything, then it doesn’t matter whether it’s a widow’s mite, like it said in the Bible, or whether it’s millions and millions of bucks. It’s everything, so it’s really the same amount for all of us that seek. That’s the price of seeking, is that we, not necessarily, you know, give up our homes or our creature comforts or anything, but we give up putting them first. Is that right? Did I get that inference from the story?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my sister. This is quite correct, for whatever an entity has in this illusion is but a pittance in comparison to that which the seeker seeks. The pearl of great price is indeed priceless. There is no treasure upon your planet that can match that truth which resides in the heart of each seeker and which is the goal of each seeker.

May we answer you further, my sister?

Carla: Well, now in the Bible when the pearl of great price was mentioned, the man buried it in a field and went and sold all that he had and bought the field, and that was a parable for the kingdom of heaven …

[Side one of tape ends.]

(Jim channeling)

I am Latwii and am once again with this instrument. We apologize for the delay. We shall attempt comment upon the query which you have so graciously asked, my sister. The pearl which is symbolized in this story recorded in your holy work and that treasure which was buried within the field is that truth which is buried within the heart of each entity, for each is a portion of the one Creator and each seeks that source, that Creator from which each has sprung. In the seeking within your illusion there is much which is placed before the seeker to test and challenge the seeker’s desire to seek the truth before all else. What treasures can lure the seeker from this journey? What promises of wealth can lure the seeker away from pursuing that pearl of great price which lies buried within its own being? The field is the entity. The price is the continued seeking for that pearl. All which is sold in order that the field of the self might be redeemed is the great variety of temptations that each seeker will encounter upon the journey. It is a journey which seems quite endless and arduous, yet to the devout that makes the journey, a straight and narrow path. It ends in a moment when that pearl is found and the entity finds that it is one with all things, that it has traveled a great distance and has found itself within itself and within all beings and things.

May we answer you further, my sister?

Carla: Just one question. Are you talking about things like despair and the feelings that we get that aren’t helpful at all? Is that the kind of temptation you’re talking about?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my sister. These of which you speak, indeed, can be great temptations to lure an entity away from the faith that its journey will have an end. Temptations may be any lure away from that journey. Perhaps great wealth shall for a while, as you measure time, cause an entity to forget that which it seeks. Perhaps a talent that an entity has will become the focus of that entity’s efforts, and it shall forget that it seeks the truth.

Carla: Now you’re talking about regular old temptations like power and money, and I never have really related too much to those.

I am Latwii, and we believe that you now grasp the thrust and the breadth and the field of temptations, my sister.

Carla: Thank you.

I am Latwii. Is there another query at this time?

J: Latwii, what’s wrong with power and money, if used in the right way—as long as you don’t control another human being?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my brother. There is nothing wrong with anything, whether the thing be power, money, friends, position, opportunity, and so forth. The seeker shall find its path to be most efficiently traveled when there is one focus upon the traveling. That is what we have metaphorically called the pearl of great price. Although the aforementioned temptations or things are helpful insofar as they are means towards achieving that goal, if, however, they or any one of them should become the focus or the goal so that the goal is forgotten, there is nothing wrong with this situation, however, the seeker shall be, shall we say, somewhat delayed in its journey of seeking until it once again find its focus. We hasten to add, however, that even in the delay there is the great opportunity to learn, so that each experience an entity encounters might be utilized by that entity to enhance the process of seeking.

May we answer you further, my brother?

J: Well, can’t one seek power and money and still be on the right journey?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my brother. We do, indeed, suggest that such is possible. It is possible that one might forget what purpose one intends to use such for. We mentioned this possibility, for within your illusion such accoutrements are usually sought as means and goals in themselves so that the deeper truths are ignored. This is the nature of your illusion. However, this need not be so. An entity which seeks to be of service to others in the positive sense and who seeks first and foremost that which we have called the pearl of great price may use any of these items which we have mentioned to further that seeking and that service.

May we answer you further, my brother?

J: Oh, you just blew my thunder, but I … I don’t want to. Thank you. I don’t want to go on with this anymore ‘cause you’re, uh, having difficulty with this. Thank you, sir.

I am Latwii, and we are most grateful to you, my brother. Is there another query at this time?

Carla: Let me see if I can restate what you said so that J will hear it differently, cause I think I know where the hang-up is, because it says in the Bible, “The love of money is the root of all evil.” And it doesn’t say that “Money is the root of all evil,” at all. It doesn’t say that. It’s the “love” of it. And what you’re trying to say is that when you have a love of position, or a love of possessions, or a love of money, or power, or influence, those things, that means that you basically, you’ve stopped seeking spiritually and you’ve started seeking a god that is temporal, that is going to die with you; you’re not going to be able to take it with you. And that’s the delay that you’re talking about, is that you’re—because of your love of this money or position, you’re just putting off seeking spiritually. Whereas a spiritual seeker might well have money, but if there isn’t an emotional load on it, if it’s considered as a tool, like a carpenter would use a saw or something, if it’s considered simply a means to the end of paying the bills and getting on with things, that’s not a problem, spiritually. It’s the love of it that causes the problem. Is that what you’re trying to say?

I am Latwii, and am aware of your query, my sister. This is the gist of our attempt to speak to this subject. May we hasten to add that we do not judge or condemn any entity which loves the money, the power, or the position, for each entity in each action is the one Creator seeking to know Itself. However long this process may take is quite appropriate to each entity, and we would not suggest that if one seeks these items that one is not a spiritual being. One is at all times the one Creator, perfect and whole in each portion of Its being.

May we answer you further, my sister?

Carla: No, thank you.

J: Latwii, sir, thank you for that answer, because I disagree with Carla. I do love money and do love power, but I’m also seeking the Creator; I’m also seeking knowledge, and I agree with your last statement. Thank you. No offense, Carla.

I am Latwii, and we thank you, my brother and my sister. May we attempt another query at this time?

Carla: I’m out.

I am Latwii, and we find that for the time being we have exhausted those queries which are available this evening for the asking. We thank each present for allowing us to speak and to join our vibrations with yours. It is a great honor to serve in our humble way, and we thank you with a heart full of joy at this opportunity. We are with each of you whenever requested in your meditations, and we look forward to each opportunity to speak as we have this evening. We shall leave this group at this time. We are those of Latwii, and we leave you in the Love and in the Light of the one infinite Creator. Go forth, my friends, rejoicing in this Love and Light. I am Latwii. Adonai. Adonai vasu borragus.

This morning the quote from The Thunder of Silence is: “Everyone on Earth must some day inhabit heaven. Everyone on Earth must some day rise above being a sick and sinful mortal and accept the inheritance of their divine nature, but no one will be able to do this by living under the law, nor will they do it by learning to be a god human being. It cannot be accomplished merely by some human form of worship, not becoming honest or moral. Those are only first steps.

Only by losing our carnal desires, our mortal, selfish, human desires, do we prove that we are making advances toward a higher state of humanhood. Ultimately, there comes a day when we actually attain a realization of the Spirit of God that dwells in us, when we come face to face with It, when It touches us on the shoulder, on the head, or in the heart, when in some way or other, It announces Its presence. From then on, we are no longer simply good men or women; from then on, we are no longer under the law of punishment or of reward. From that time to the end of our days on Earth and throughout eternity, we are under Grace.

Then it is that we begin to catch the first glimpse of this great truth that all we have been doing throughout our many struggling days is living under karmic law, violating it or coming into agreement with it, believing that if we are good today, the good things of the world will flow to us, but that we can cheat ourselves of them tomorrow by being bad.

We are told that if we sin, God will punish us, but that was the Old Testament version of God, and no such teaching appears in the New Testament sayings of Jesus Christ. On the contrary it is made clear that God has more pleasure in one sinner who comes to the realization of God than in ninety-nine people who just walk the Earth as good people. Should it not cause us to stop to think that all the ninety-nine good people do not please God as much as the one sinner?

The God of most people on Earth is a God that punishes evil and rewards good, and there is no such God. We do not have to fear God, and we do not have to attempt to influence God or influence or sacrifice to God. God is the same to the saint and to the sinner. God is Good; God is Love; God is the eternal, immortal, spiritual, creative principle of the universe, its maintaining and sustaining principle.”

This morning I ran some errands with my first stop being at Thieneman’s Nursery where I bought three bales of pine straw mulch. My second stop was at Feeder’s Supply where I bought some bird seed and some AquaSafe. My third stop was at Kroger’s where I bought some food for myself. My fourth stop was at Paul’s Fruit Market where I bought more food for myself. My last stop was at Speedway Gas Station where I filled all of Stanley’s tire with 32 psi of air.

This afternoon I put netting around the Vanilla/Strawberry Hydrangea Bushes in front of the fishpond.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

March 31

The Messenger Of Love

I am of the principle of living Love, and I greet you in the consciousness of Jesus the Christ.

I greet you as a messenger sent out before the dawn of each thought in the mind.

I greet you as a new beginning in every moment of the day.

I greet you around trick corners and sudden hurdles. Reach for the arms of comfort in times of distress, for we are there.

We are the principle of Love, and as you speak to us of Love, we come to you with Love. And as our comfort is sweet to you, so is your heart to the Creator, the Father of all things. And so, you have the opportunity at each and every dawning to become one with God in Christ through the grace of the Spirit of Love.

We leave you in the peace and joy which are yours to experience through the birthright of Christ, both now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of Love and open our hearts minds, and souls to send Love, Light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite Love, Light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our Love, Light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Hatonn and Latwii channelings for this session come from November 18, 1984:

(Carla channeling)

I am Hatonn, and I greet you in the Love and in the Light of our infinite Creator. We thank you and give you many hopes of blessing for the opportunity to speak with you this evening, for the opportunity to share our lives with yours through these few precious vibratory experiences which you call moments of time.

We would like to tell you a story, my friends, of a princess. The heroine could just as easily have been a prince upon some levels of storytelling, but for our parable it is quite necessary that this entity be female. As is the custom in fairy tales about princesses, she was awaiting one man who could stir her heart, a heart that was hard-bitten by many, many years of power and lonely beyond words because of that power. Courtier after courtier, peasant after peasant filed by with their best gifts, hoping to win her favor. She had offers of everything from livestock to pearls to kingdoms, new realms to govern. In none of these things was she at all interested, and sadly at the end of each feast day she would close audience, still powerful and still lonely.

One day an ill-garbed man came to her court. He was not a courtier or a peasant. He was a stranger. His home was the road. He did not understand why his journey had brought him to this place, but when he saw what lay before him, there grew within his heart a great desire to speak his mind and his heart, as all were allowed to do on this great feast day. Having no cap for his head, he tugged at his hair in order to make respect and bowed his knees and in rough words made his plea. “Milady,” he said, “I can give you nothing but my days, my nights, my love, and my road. My feeling for you is such that I am blinded. I cannot see any other, and so you shall have to help me if we are to be together, for the blind need guides, and I offer you my need as well as my love, for I shall be confused. To share my road is a strange thing indeed. Milady,” he continued, “I do not know where I shall be tomorrow, next week, or next year. I have nothing but my flesh and my heart, my mind and my honor, and I give these into your hands. Whether you accept them or not, you are and will always have been my love.”

Hatonn began this session by telling a story of a princess. They began by saying we would like to tell you a story of a princess who could have been a prince upon some levels of storytelling, but for our parable it is necessary that this entity be female, and as is the custom in fairy tales about princesses, she was awaiting one man who could stir her heart that was hard-bitten by many years of power and lonely beyond words because of that power, so courtier after courtier, peasant after peasant filed by with their best gifts, hoping to win her favor, for she had offers of everything from livestock, to pearls, to new realms to govern, but in none of these things was she interested, and at the end of each feast day she would close audience, still powerful and still lonely. Hatonn went on to say one day an ill-garbed man came to her court, but he was not a courtier or a peasant, for he was a stranger, and his home was the road, yet he did not understand why his journey had brought him to this place, but when he saw what lay before him, there grew within his heart a great desire to speak his mind and his heart, as all were allowed to do on this great feast day, so having no cap for his head, he tugged at his hair in order to make respect and bowed his knees and in rough words made his plea, so “Milady,” he said: “I can give you nothing but my days, my nights, my love, and my road. My feeling for you is such that I am blinded. I cannot see any other, and so you shall have to help me if we are to be together, for the blind need guides, and I offer you my need as well as my love, for I shall be confused. To share my road is a strange thing indeed. Milady,” he continued, “I do not know where I shall be tomorrow, next week, or next year. I have nothing but my flesh and my heart, my mind and my honor, and I give these into your hands. Whether you accept them or not, you are and will always have been my love.” On March 7, 2004, Q’uo spoke of the general nature of honor:

We are those of the principle known to you as Q’uo, and we greet you in the Love and in the Light of the one infinite Creator, in whose service we come to you this day. We thank you so much for the privilege, the honor, and the duty of being called to this group this day. It is a blessing to us to be able to serve as we had hoped to, and a call from your group is most welcome. We ask, as always, that each of you guard the portals of your discrimination very carefully, listening to the personal resonance that comes with your unique truth and not for any perceived outer authority. If you are able to guard those things that you keep of what we say and those things that you discard, then we will feel far more free to be able to share with you without infringing upon your free will.

My friends, it is a great folly, or so it seems to be, encased in such flesh as you experience in your density. You feel clumsy and awkward, and so you are, compared to higher density bodies. You feel numb and unable to see the larger picture, and this is so compared to the awareness available at other levels of vibration. Yet yours is the splendor of giving the true generosity that only comes when you truly cannot see and cannot hear the divine but only have faith that there is such a thing as divine Love. In your illusion, may we say that you tend to undervalue your contributions to others. The least of those among you contributes in a vital way. It is not a conscious contribution in many cases, but the contribution of flesh within which a consciousness has been placed, so precious that to think it could be broken as the human body is broken is almost not to be thought, not to be accepted, not to be tolerated. This precious, you say to yourself, cannot possibly be part or parcel of this flesh.

Yes, my friends, you are inextricably bound about the cells of your third-density chemical body. All your acts will be those of entities incarnate who pour out the blood of heart, or mind, or will, or body without knowing the truth. The chances for courage, for polarizing, for serving, for allowing your flesh to become bread for others, are enormous. How little you value yourselves or your circumstances compared to the reality as we see it. If someone gave you a perfect stone—this instrument’s mind does not know precious stones well; we see in her mind diamonds, rubies, emeralds—someone gave you a perfect emerald, and then told you to swallow it and wear it within your body, you would think that person to be mad. And yet that is your consciousness—perfect jewel, a jewel of perfect shape. Not tossed thoughtlessly into a body, but placed with care, with love, with wisdom, into flesh that you may pour out your life beautifully if you wish, having nothing more to go on than deep-felt feeling that this is your road.

Hatonn continued by saying it is a great folly to be encased in such flesh as you experience in your density, for you feel clumsy, and so you are compared to higher density bodies, and you feel numb and unable to see the larger picture, for this is so compared to the awareness available at other levels of vibration, yet yours is the splendor of giving generosity that only comes when you cannot see and cannot hear the divine but only have faith that there is such a thing as divine Love, for in your illusion you tend to undervalue your contributions to others, yet the least of those among you contributes in a vital way, but it is not a conscious contribution in many cases, but it is the contribution of flesh within which a consciousness has been placed, so precious that to think it could be broken as the human body is broken is almost not to be accepted since this precious consciousness cannot possibly be part of this flesh. Then Hatonn said you are bound about the cells of your third-density chemical body, and all your acts will be those of entities incarnate who pour out the blood of heart, mind, or body without knowing the truth, so the chances for polarizing and serving are enormous, but how little you value yourselves or your circumstances compared to the reality as we see it, so if someone gave you a perfect emerald and then told you to swallow it and wear it within your body, you would think that person to be mad, yet that is your consciousness, a jewel of perfect shape, not tossed thoughtlessly into a body, but placed with Love and wisdom into flesh that you may pour out your life beautifully if you wish, having nothing more to go on than deep-felt feeling that this is your road. On September 9, 2023, Q’uo spoke of the nature of our consciousness:

We would suggest that you, in your meditations, ask that presence of the One Creator to move through you in ways that present themselves to you to be of service to others, to other-selves, to other facets or portions of the One Infinite Creator. Within your being is a great deal of the ability to be of this kind of service that will present itself to you if you ask the Creator to do that. And this is a manner in which you can polarize your consciousness in the positive sense so that you become more and more that which you seek: the One Infinite Creator. This is the journey of all entities upon this planet. And this is a journey which we feel that you have traveled a good distance upon. And we would suggest that you ask for more ability and opportunity to utilize those skills which have been given to you. Ask the Creator and the Creator shall respond.

You see, my friends, we must many times use females for those who receive and males for those who offer, for that is the archetypical nature of your sexuality. In actuality, each of you is both receptor and giver, taker and nurturer. Never doubt your worth to those about you. Never doubt that your nurturing is questionable any more than you doubt that there is a land in which princes and princesses have grand fairs. Where did these thoughts come from if there is not a level of knowledge which tells you about yourself? We offer this teaching to you in humility and are so grateful for the opportunity to speak with you. That is all. We can only repeat again and again: O what treasure lies within your bones, what beauty of spirit shines from loin far up into the heavens. There is no distinction, there is no being cut off. The illusion seems to cut you off, but you are a treasure indeed, each of you, just as you are. And in the flesh, you shall learn twenty, nay one hundred times better to serve, to Love, to give and to accept, to take, to receive. Love is completing circuits; it is not necessarily giving.

Then Hatonn said we must use females for those who receive and males for those who offer, for that is the archetypical nature of your sexuality, but actually each of you is both receptor and giver, taker and nurturer, so never doubt your worth to those about you, any more than you doubt that there is a land in which princes and princesses have grand fairs, for there is a level of knowledge which tells you about yourself, and we offer this teaching to you in humility and are grateful for the opportunity to speak with you, yet we can only repeat: O what treasure lies within your bones, what beauty of spirit shines from loin far up into the heavens, but there is no distinction or being cut off, yet the illusion seems to cut you off, but you are a treasure just as you are, and in the flesh, you shall learn a hundred times better to serve, to Love, to give and to accept, for Love is completing circuits. On December 29, 1997, Q’uo described the nature of the third-density illusion:

You are correct in your assumption that the illusion is that which is more than it appears to be, for each does appear to be separate from each other entity and from your environment itself. The unity of all things is the underlying truth in this matter. The illusion of separation exists so that each portion of the one Creator, the personalities who each of you are, may have the opportunity to explore within the one Creator’s boundless field, the opportunities for discovering Love and service for each other, though these may not seem to be the primary reasons for which each was incarnated. The illusion offers many other alternate answers for why each is here: to gather wealth, to be powerful, to do this or that great thing. All of these are but means by which each entity may find the heart of Love and unity within itself. Each uses the artifacts of the illusion to travel the spiritual journey, though all around one the material world is given ascendancy.

We close this circuit and relinquish this instrument at this time. Please be aware that our use of the word Love especially is inaccurate, and our sayings, as always, are only as important to you as they are helpful. We are those of mortal opinion who know nothing for sure. We have only walked the road a bit ahead of you. What road is that, my friends? Keep walking, my friends. You shall see and it shall be a joyful thing. I am Hatonn. I leave you in the love and in the light of our infinite Creator. Adonai, my friends. Adonai vasu borragus.

(Jim channeling)

I am Latwii, and I greet you, my friends, in the name of the one infinite Creator. We greet you in Love and Light. We are privileged to speak to you once again and offer our humble service. Our attempts to answer your queries are but meager efforts, but the one Creator resides in each and makes itself known in such a manner. May we attempt the first query, my friends?

L: Latwii, the intensity of the spirit of power tonight seems to be unusually high. Is there a reason for this?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my brother. This evening this small group has purified its desire to seek what you call the truth in a way which is galvanized, shall we say, by the passing of a brother. It is often the case in such a traumatic situation that those left behind will seek with ever more dedication the riddles and mysteries of the life which seems to have ended for one close. Yet each knows that the life continues and, therefore, redoubles the effort to make, shall we say, sense of it all.

Latwii: May we answer you further, my brother?

L: Yes. One further question. When Christ was crucified, he made the statement, “My God, my God, why hast Thou forsaken me?” To whom did He speak, and what did He mean by this?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my brother. The one known as Jesus the Christ was a mortal, as are all who walk your planet, yet this mortal was the one Creator which had uncovered levels of its being that few upon your planet have approached. As its life pattern reflected more and more that indwelling power and beingness of the one Creator, the path laid out for this entity became clear to it, and this entity then followed that path with great dedication. The path ended in this incarnation for this entity upon that cross, and it spoke as a mortal those words asking the one Creator why it needed to fulfill that destiny, shall we say. For even unto this entity who had realized much of its beingness there remained a mystery as to why the story needed an ending of such a nature that would require it to be nailed to a piece of wood to hang upon and be mocked by many as it gasped its last breaths in physical pain. Yet this entity was lifted up by its own faith in that one Creator which it had found within its being and had attempted to reveal to those who had eyes to see and ears to hear.

May we answer you further, my brother?

L: No, you have given me food for thought. I thank you.

I am Latwii. We thank you, my brother, as always. Is there another query at this time?

Carla: I have a question, but first I would like to challenge you in the name of Christ, not because l think you aren’t great, but because I have an important question to ask you. I challenge you in the name of Christ. Do you come in the name of Christ, Jesus Christ, my Savior?

I am Latwii, and, my sister, we come in the name of Jesus the Christ, the entity of whom we have just spoken. We come in the name of the Christ consciousness, and all those great masters who have sought the one Creator in the positive sense. We appreciate your challenge and applaud your devotion to the one known as Jehoshua.

May we attempt your query, my sister?

Carla: Yes. It’s been on my mind that the Ra work may not be finished. I have in mind two people which, after what I would consider a rather long period of training together, would be able to function with questioning. My questions, therefore, will be split up. First of all, is it possible for you to give any information of this kind?

I am Latwii and am aware, my sister, of the nature of your queries. We may say that we can speak in general terms, for in this instance the query about that which most definitely affects your future.

Carla: All right, one thing at a time. Is it possible that the two entities that I have in mind, the one known as Jim and I, could reach, sustain, and thrive, all except for me, with the level of harmony, health, tranquility and unity that Don, Jim and I experienced that was the basis for the Ra contact? I realize that the instrument knows absolutely nothing about this. This was on purpose, and I would like to say to the instrument, I’m sorry, but I didn’t think it would be wise to tell you what I was thinking. I wanted to go into it from a more general point of view.

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my sister, and it is fortunate that this instrument was not notified beforehand of these queries, for we are sure that it would have been most difficult for it to stand aside should it have had previous warning. We can suggest that the level of harmony that is possible for you and this instrument to achieve is a level which can easily approach that experienced by you and the one known as Don, for it is easier to harmonize fewer energies than many energies. Yet there is a certain level or number of entities necessary to do the kind of work of which you speak.

May we answer you further, my sister?

Carla: Yes. The question was, could these four people sustain that level of harmony and thrive both physically, mentally and emotionally? And the reason I said forget me was that I come in with so many physical handicaps that it would skew the answer. Everybody else is healthy.

I am Latwii, and we fear that we are not aware of salient portions of your query. We are unaware of entities other than the one known as Jim and yourself. May we ask for clarification, my sister?

Carla: I do not wish to say these names out loud. Is it acceptable if I think them?

I am Latwii. This is quite acceptable, my sister.

Carla: I shall do so now.

I am Latwii, and we are grateful that you mentioned that you were going to think of these entities. We appreciate hints. Now to your query, my sister. We see that these entities which you have spoken of before are entities which, indeed, generate and sustain great amounts of harmonic resonance and are entities which could, with great effort and dedication, achieve the level of harmony which would approach that previously experienced in the contact with those of Ra. Whether this harmony would be of the proper pitch is not that which we can either affirm or predict, for the future is most unknown even to those who can see its possibilities.

May we attempt further response, my sister?

Carla: Can you say whether the higher selves of these four beings made agreements to do Ra work before incarnation if necessary?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my sister. We find that there have been agreements made by each of these entities to work in this particular type of contact. The agreements provided for various, shall we say, alternatives or backup probabilities. Whether these can be instituted and manifested is the mystery which lies before you.

Carla: Okay. So, let me see. I’ve gotten so far that I have identified the proper people as far as agreements made before birth, and that part of our agreements were that we would be free to attempt to reach a level of harmony necessary to sustain the Ra workings. Am I correct up to this point?

I am Latwii, and am aware of your query, my sister. We can correct it only by inserting the modifier “some” of these people, rather than “the” people.

Carla: Okay. Now that brings me to my next deep hunch in a series of deep hunches I’ve been working with all this weekend. I have a deep hunch that one of these people is absolutely necessary to the group as a battery for the questioner, for the questioner could not do the work without the battery, without the life energy of this person being involved, I guess, in terms of what Hatonn just said, without the circuit being closed between those two people, so that in essence you would have three people and a battery for that third person.

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my sister. We can suggest that though there may be a specific entity that is capable of serving in the capacity of what you have called a battery, there may be others who, in a joined fashion, may be able to serve in the same capacity.

May we answer you further?

Carla: Well, that surprises me. I would think there would only be one battery for this particular person. Okay. I would think that the training period would probably be …

[Side one of tape ends.]

(Jim channeling)

I am Latwii, and we shall attempt the answer to your query at this time, my sister. We can suggest that the period known to you as a year is a relatively sufficient amount of time during which the energies of each entity may find the ability to harmonize in a manner which then readies the path and the work. We can suggest that this period of time is not fixed but needs to be prolonged enough that honest and clear communication is affected. There is great politeness and concern among even the gentlest and most eccentric of entities. This veneer needs to be penetrated in order that even at the lowest ebb of compassion and wisdom the entities are able to maintain a stable harmony.

May we answer further, my sister?

Carla: Yes, sorry you guys, I hope I’m not going … I would assume that although at the beginning it would actually aid us to use mild mind-altering drugs—I’m speaking of marijuana—that a month before we began work we would have to swear off and stay off. Is that correct?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my sister. In this instance we cannot serve as the doctor making a prescription, even in the negative sense. We find that the information which can provide answer to this query is known to this group.

Carla: Okay.

Latwii: May we attempt another query, my sister?

Carla: Okay. Well, this is the biggie, all right? Is it, in your opinion, at all important that there be more Ra work done? Or is it instead better for us to realize that there are other things to do that we have not yet done. I’m thinking specifically of the fact that we got a new contact from Yadda recently that alerted me to the knowledge that, of course, it is a crowded universe, which I say a lot, but sometimes I don’t pay attention to what I say, and it’s possible that the Ra work is finished. If it is possible for you to give me your human opinion, I would be interested in anything you have to say on that point.

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my sister. Well, now. In our best human opinion, may we suggest that the future has within it a great panoply of possibilities. May we suggest that the most important ingredient for realizing any possibility is the simple desire to be of service without a dedication to what that service should be and how that service shall result. We can see a future in which you begin again that which has become known as the Ra contact. We can see a future in which there is no such contact, yet there is great work possible in furthering the information which has been gathered and continuing the meetings which have been ongoing for a great portion of your time.

We see possibilities in which new contacts are achieved and information therefrom disseminated. We see a future in which each touches many individuals and speaks with compassion and inspiration of the One which indwells in all. We see a future in which the being of each shines brightly as a beacon and illumines the darkness by its very being with no movement required at all. We see a future in which each walks a path which is most appropriate, which is to say, that as one places a foot upon the ground and does so in a thoughtful manner centered upon the one Creator, it will, therefore, be as natural as breathing to place the foot upon the path, one foot after another, until the journey is traveled one step at a time.

We see a future in which all these things are possible, made possible by the firm desire to serve and the free desire for no particular outcome, for as the one Creator moves through each, the will of the one Creator shall be made known, and if each can remove its small self’s will, then the will of the great One shall move through each as a channel, and shall carve its own pattern and write upon your third-density creation the words of illumination that inspire and provoke the seeking of those who dwell in darkness.

May we answer you further, my sister?

Carla: Yes. One last question. Can you weigh without emotion the value of each of these paths as one being the most valuable or do you see them as equal?

I am Latwii, and am aware of your query, my sister. We see the equality of each path, yet we see the uniqueness and the power associated with each path as well. It cannot be said with certainty that to serve a few in a powerful manner is greater or lesser in service than to serve many in a lesser powerful manner. We see the one Creator in each entity awaiting that entity’s seeking of it. We see many ways in which many entities may be inspired to begin that seeking. We see that a great variety of ways is available to each in this group to serve as shepherd, to radiate the Love and Light to those who hunger for this nourishment. We can only ask each to seek in meditation the answers which have been provided for each of you by your greater self, by your very own self as you planned this incarnation and as you hid various signposts along your various possible journeys. Know that each path contains in whole all that you hope to accomplish. If one tool is removed, then another will take its place. Know that all is well. No turn will cause the seeker to be lost from that which is sought, for the one Creator waits not only at the end of each path but along each portion of each path, for it is the One who seeks Itself within Itself. There is none else.

May we answer you further, my sister?

Carla: No, Latwii. Thank you very much, and I thank the instrument.

I am Latwii, and we thank you, my sister, for allowing us to provide our humble service. May we attempt another query at this time?

L: Latwii, excluding yourself, how many entities are in this room?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my brother, and we shall not take offense at being excluded, but shall suggest that there is a great choir of entities which has joined this group this evening. Though all may not be, shall we say, contained by this room, there are endless entities listening, and speaking, and lending vibration to the great symphony of seeking that has arisen from this group this evening.

May we attempt further response, my brother?

L: No, that answers my question. Thank you very much.

I am Latwii, and we thank you, my brother. Is there another query at this time?

[Pause]

I am Latwii. We see that we have exhausted the queries for the evening. We are most appreciative to each present for allowing us a beingness within your group, and for allowing us to put into the poor and inadequate vessels—words—those feelings and concepts which are without bound and can only be understood at the heart of the being. We speak to you in words which we hope will also penetrate the essence of the Love which binds each to each. We cannot speak without distortion, but we hope that the heart of our speaking may be known in your hearts. We thank you in a way which we cannot speak at all for allowing our humble service, and we travel with you on the journey. We ask with you the questions of how to travel that journey. We teach and we learn. We are with you always in your meditations, in your contemplations and in your machinations, we join you in joy and in praise for the One Which Is All. We are those of Latwii. Adonai, my friends. Adonai vasu borragus.

This morning the quote from The Thunder of Silence is: “It is possible to think and think on truth—and up to a certain point that is normal, natural, and right—but then there must come a time when thought stops, a blank comes, almost a vacuum, and then into that vacuum rush the very presence and power of God. We can only come into that Presence stark naked, in a moment of complete silence, when the entire thought processes have stopped, when we have nothing upon which to rely, nothing on which to pin our hopes, but when we have made ourselves barren and completely empty.

That is the moment when we perceive that, even when we cannot know It or feel It or think It, there is an invisible Presence, an intangible Something, which nevertheless is operating, and then from that very Invisibility will come into expression everything necessary to our unfoldment. If we think ourselves to be something, we gravely err. It is only when we come to that place of self-renunciation that the divine Selfhood of our own being revels Itself. Silence is the way.

The Silence is not an absence of sound, but is a state of consciousness which enables us to refrain from mental reaction to what is seen or heard. For example, we may see and recognize a shadow on the wall—an ugly appearance—and yet have no reaction of fear, knowing it to be a shadow.

When consciousness has attained the awareness of one power, one law, one substance, one cause—oneness—we do not respond with fear, doubt, or horror to anything seen or heard, and then it is that consciousness has gone beyond power and attained the Silence—the healing consciousness.”

Later this morning I went outside and used a weedkiller to spray on the weeds in the driveway, the parking areas, and all of the walkways around my yard. Then I hand-weeded the Fern Garden in the back yard.

This afternoon I hand-weeded the small Hosta Garden next to the Fern Garden, and then I hand-weeded the Hosta Garden under the Forsythia Bushes in the far back part of my yard. Then I worked with the small stone wall in front of the fishpond, and I was able to find enough large stones that began at the corner of the stone to complete the first three and one half feet of the stone wall.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

March 29

Your Deepest Name Is Christ

I am of the principle of divine and eternal Love, and I greet you in the most precious name of Jesus the Christ.

You shall, today, meet someone whose name you think you know, and you shall gaze upon the flesh, opaque and mortal, that is the prison of the incarnate soul.

Know as you meet friends, acquaintances or strangers that the name of the body, the personality and the mind which is used to live a life is not truly the deepest name, but that the deepest name of each is Christ.

For each is Christ. Each eye that meets yours is that of God in flesh. All beings are heirs together in eventual realization of Christhood. Jesus the Christ has said, “If you aid any person, you are aiding me.” Let pure compassion melt the sight of flesh and mortality, that you may serve the Christ in all and find the peace and freedom of infinite Love.

We of the Spirit are here for you that, by grace, you may see the better, hear the clearer, and Love the more purely.

We leave you in divine Love and peace, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of Love and open our hearts minds, and souls to send Love, Light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite Love, Light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our Love, Light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Hatonn, Latwii, and Nona channelings for this session come from November 11, 1984:

(Carla channeling)

I am Hatonn. I greet you in the Love and in the Light of our infinite Creator, whom we serve with all of our being. It is an immense privilege to be called to this group this evening. We ourselves have never had anything to tell you, for we in our turn are channels for that which is beyond our own frail understanding. That which we offer to you is offered through us, and only then through this channel. We can speak from no certainty, nor do we wish you to bear our words as a weighty burden, listening to each word and pondering the meanings that may not seem accessible or acceptable to you at this time.

With our thanks and our disclaimer aside, we would speak to you about a fair, a grand and glorious carnival, a bazaar in which all of the merchants display their wares and thousands come to try their luck and to view the excellence that people have made with their hands, and above all to rejoice in the feeling of being part of a happy crowd. In a deep sense, this is part of the motivation for those who incarnate consciously and purposively upon the Earth plane of your third density. You may have many lifetimes, but when you are not within a physical vehicle, it is impossible to remember that the carnival flags can flutter dismally, slowly, and sadly, that pennants may be marred and broken, and that the machinery that governs the merry-go-rounds, the Ferris wheel and all the rides may not always work. As in many, many things, it looks easier in the mind to live an incarnation and to learn the lessons you set for yourself than it is to accomplish the plan you have made. Many of you are ambitious, and your life’s plans have already caused you to experience a great deal of what you would call pain, anguish, suffering, disappointment, and confusion.

Let us stroll together out from the fair onto the street. It is a dark night. The fair is held in a poor section of the city. The chill in the air causes those who have no homes to bundle up against the cold in whatever they may have. You may find someone lying upon the sidewalk, lost in his drink or other intoxication. Shall you sit down and talk to the Creator now, or shall you pass him by? Shall you go back into the carnival and ride and wave your pennants and your flags and your prizes? It is a choice you make, my friends, each day in one way or another, for if you are open to hear the cries of those about you, you will rapidly become aware that there is no day in which the poor, the hungry, the homeless, and the spiritually wasted are not crying out to you personally. And so, you have a brightly lit carnival, and as you stroll through the gates you find a dark carnival. Instead of [inaudible] fine clothes, you have the hand-fashioned rags of the hobo. Instead of the many rides, you have that liquor which intoxicates, or that medicine which is used for oblivion rather than amusement. And what shall you do to be of service?

In this session Hatonn talked about how we deal with living in the carnival of our life and dealing with its difficulties. They began by saying we would speak to you about a glorious carnival, a bazaar in which all of the merchants display their wares, and thousands come to try their luck and to view the excellence that people have made with their hands, and to rejoice in the feeling of being part of a happy crowd, yet in a deep sense, this is part of the motivation for those who incarnate consciously upon the Earth of your third density, for you may have many lifetimes, but when you are not within a physical vehicle, it is impossible to remember that the carnival flags can flutter sadly, that pennants may be broken, and that the Ferris wheel and all the rides may not always work, so as in many things, it looks easier to live an incarnation and to learn the lessons you set for yourself than it is to accomplish the plan you have made, but many of you are ambitious, and your life’s plans have already caused you to experience a great deal of pain and confusion. Hatonn continued by saying let us stroll together out from the fair onto the street, and it is a dark night, and the fair is held in a poor section of the city, so the chill in the air causes those who have no homes to bundle up against the cold in whatever they may have, for you may find someone lying upon the sidewalk, lost in his drink, so: “Shall you sit down and talk to the Creator now, or shall you pass him by? Shall you go back into the carnival and ride and wave your pennants and your flags and your prizes?” Now Hatonn said it is a choice you make each day, for if you are open to hear the cries of those about you, you will become aware that there is no day in which the hungry, the homeless, and the spiritually wasted are not crying out to you, so you have a brightly lit carnival, and as you stroll through the gates you find a dark carnival, but instead of fine clothes, you have the hand-fashioned rags of the hobo, and instead of many rides, you have that liquor which intoxicates, or that medicine which is used for oblivion rather than amusement, and what shall you do to be of service? On December 26, 1981, Latwii described the way that we may decide how to be of service:

I am Latwii, and am aware of your question, my brother, and in this regard we must also reiterate that we cannot give specific advice but can only suggest that if you wish to be of service to one who is in need of your service that you consider carefully the needs of this entity, and in your meditative state seek you this solution, and as you seek to be of service the way shall be made clear from within your own being as to which path would be of most value to this entity.

There was one among you whom you know as a teacher, Jesus, the Christ. This teacher chose the darker circus. Those to whom He reached for discipleship were poor folk indeed—a prostitute, a tax collector, a persecutor, and reviler. And yet He walked into the circus with the bright and shining lights, the gaudy displays, the metaphysical rides. He got upon the merry-go-round and rode the Ferris wheel with those whose lives were bound up in that experience. Nor did He condemn any who so chose to live a life of gratitude and experiential gladness. He spoke in temples. His instructions were based upon a hard rule called the Law and all he did that was different from other teachers within this comfortable world in which the flags flew and waved so prettily was that He pointed out that the heart is more important than the Law. Then He would walk forth into the streets and lift those from the gutter and pavement. Of the many, many stories that are narrated within your holy works, the one to which we would draw your attention is that one wherein the marriage couple awaits the guests for a great feast. When all do not show up, when seats remain empty, this teacher’s instructions are simple: Go out into the streets and gather all that you can find, and yet, if they have not wedding garments, they may not come.

We are aware, my friends, that you have been pulled from your carnival, your gaiety, and your joy to witness one who suffered, and to wonder, “Why? What can I do?” We must leave that question with you, for this entity experienced both fairs, the light and the dark. Like most of you, he contributed all that he knew how to contribute. Like most of you, he became faced with a difficulty. Shall we then condemn those who lie in the gutter because they have not legs upon which to stand? Shall we sneer at the hungry because we have not given them bread? Shall we remove courage and dignity from the infinite and eternal Spirit of one who joined the darker carnival? It is your choice, my friends, and your polarity will surely be affected because of this choice. Far too much has been said about the virtue of caring for the underprivileged who find themselves in darkness. Far too little has been done. When is a spirit not worthy to be fed? When is nobility cut off from the lovingkindness of the Creator?

Then Hatonn said there was one among you whom you know as a teacher, Jesus, the Christ, and this teacher chose the darker circus, for those to whom He reached for discipleship were poor folk: a prostitute, a tax collector, and a persecutor, yet He walked into the circus with the shining lights, and the metaphysical rides, so He rode the Ferris wheel with those whose lives were bound up in that experience, nor did He condemn any who chose to live a life of gratitude, and He spoke in temples, and His instructions were based upon the rule of Law, yet all He did that was different from other teachers within this world which waved so prettily was that He pointed out that the heart is more important than the Law, for He would walk forth into the streets and lift those from the gutter, so of the stories that are narrated within your Bible, the one to which we would draw your attention is that one wherein the marriage couple awaits the guests for a great feast, but when all do not show up His instructions are: Go out into the streets and gather all that you can find, yet if they have not wedding garments, they may not come. Then Hatonn said you have been pulled from your carnival to witness one who suffered, and to wonder: “Why? What can I do?” So, we must leave that question with you, for this entity experienced both fairs, the light and the dark, and like most of you, He contributed all that He knew how to contribute, and like most of you, He became faced with a difficulty, but: “Shall we then condemn those who lie in the gutter because they have not legs upon which to stand? Shall we sneer at the hungry because we have not given them bread? Shall we remove courage and dignity from the infinite and eternal Spirit of one who joined the darker carnival? Hatonn said it is your choice, and your polarity will be affected because of this choice, for too much has been said about the virtue of caring for the underprivileged who find themselves in darkness, and too little has been done, for: “When is a spirit not worthy to be fed? When is nobility cut off from the lovingkindness of the Creator?” On March 5, 2016, Q’uo spoke of how we can deal with one who suffers:

Perhaps the entity seeing such suffering without the ability to affect it wished to empathize with one who suffered, as this is yet an unexperienced phenomenon to the one who witnessed the suffering. Perhaps the desire is to so feel the pain of another—that there is a greater degree of Love for that other and perhaps for all others in general—generated within the heart, the mind, and the spirit of the one witnessing the suffering. Perhaps there is for the one suffering a certain kind of relief or sense of being appreciated and loved when it knows that another Loves it enough to witness the suffering and to be with it in the suffering and to provide companionship.

Though the suffering cannot be ameliorated, the companionship can be offered, the Love can be given, and the experience of a comradeship which has known great trials is shared; and upon the deeper level of both entities there is the satisfaction of knowing that there was a united effort put forward in that experience which had no hope of physical third-dimensional resolution in any convenient sense, shall we say, in any final triumph of suffering being vanquished.

You are on a long voyage, my friends. The carnival shall end for you, as it has for others, in your physical death, and yet you as Spirit shall be free to move ahead to your next experience. One thing only shall be required of you, and that is that you shall review this experience. We ask you both to be easy upon yourselves, and to be honest with yourselves. What has lain before you this day which you have not done to help another? What discipline of learning have you not sought because of pressing considerations that shall not survive your death? How can you be of service? This instrument once composed a short article in which this instrument envisioned the teacher known as Jesus coming back into the inner cities. “He would sit down in the gutter,” wrote this instrument, “and take his peanut butter sandwich, and break it, and it would be food enough for all who came to touch his consciousness with their own.” Your daily bread is but a symbol, my friends, and we ask you to consider again and again the value of the allegorical and symbolic nature of what seems to be reality. Draw back and take the viewpoint of the eternal present. How can you Love each other? How can you listen? How can you accept? How can you offer freedom to those who are wearing another piece of clothing, another physical vehicle?

We are aware that we tread close to reaching the limits of this instrument’s fatigue. We are also aware that the energy in this group this evening is such that we shall only exercise the feelings of contact, for this energy is extremely strong. Therefore, we shall pause at this time and move among you. If you request our conditioning, mentally request such, and as this instrument pauses, this shall be done.

[Pause]

(Carla channeling)

I am Hatonn, and greet you again in Love and Light. We would close through this instrument at this time. We wish to encourage you to live in the realization that you shall leave this caravan of booths and prizes, rides and thrills, and you shall once again have a larger viewpoint. My friends, this is your chance. You have given it to yourself, and you undoubtedly feel at this time that you have perhaps bitten off more than you can chew in terms of processing the catalyst of your life so that you may be a true channel of Love and of Light and of service. Of course you have, my friends. This is the essence of the learning of the lessons of Love: to take more than you can chew, and then to pray your way, to meditate your way, to contemplate, analyze, and cling to your way until strength is given you, not from yourself, but through yourself.

Hatonn continued by saying you are on a long voyage, and the carnival shall end for you in your physical death, yet you as Spirit shall be free to move ahead to your next experience, but one thing shall be required of you, and that is that you shall review this experience, so we ask you to be easy upon yourselves and to be honest with yourselves, for: “What has lain before you this day which you have not done to help another? What discipline of learning have you not sought because of pressing considerations that shall not survive your death? How can you be of service?” Hatonn said Carla once composed a short article in which this instrument envisioned Jesus coming back into the inner cities, and “He would sit down in the gutter and take his peanut butter sandwich, and break it, and it would be food enough for all who came to touch his consciousness with their own,” so your daily bread is a symbol, and we ask you to consider the value of the symbolic nature of what seems to be reality, and take the viewpoint of the eternal present, for: “How can you Love each other? How can you listen? How can you accept? How can you offer freedom to those who are wearing another piece of clothing, another physical vehicle?” Now Hatonn said we wish to encourage you to live in the realization that you shall leave this caravan of rides and thrills, and you shall have a larger viewpoint, for this is your chance that you have given to yourself, and you feel at this time that you have bitten off more than you can chew in terms of processing the catalyst of your life, so that you may be a channel of Love and of Light and of service, for this is the essence of the learning of the lessons of Love: to take more than you can chew, and then to meditate your way, and cling to your way until strength is given you, not from yourself, but through yourself. On June 6, 1982, Latwii described our lessons of Love:

The lessons of your density are the lessons of Love. When enough of your people learn to Love one another, then the entire creation sings and resounds with that harmony, and each atom rejoices and seeks to join more fully with each part of creation. Therefore, by whatever means is available to the entity; each entity might therefore send the Love and Light to the one creation in which your planet resides, to your planet itself, to each entity upon its surface, indeed into the self, and thereby assure the unification of all that is.

There are many kinds of courage. May we say that you have witnessed one kind. In this instance, which is extreme and extraordinary, the one known as Don exhibited a courage most difficult to express. This entity had a wish to protect those about him, and so he did. Many things that you do will also be misunderstood, though less drastic. We urge you to do that which you feel to do, asking only that you center yourself daily in meditation and ground yourself in service to others. Let the flags fly; cheer the band on; ride your rides. Be exhilarated and share the joy of consciousness, and when you walk out into the darkness of a cold and rainy street, know that this too is a carnival full of joy and mystery, and find yourself behind the carnival masks that you may see in the gutter, just as you please yourself by seeing yourself as the graceful participants of a circus.

If all things can become one to you, then you can become one with all things, and you shall have learned the greatest lesson, and you may turn to all those whom you meet and say, “I shall meet you in paradise,” for the realization of that oneness is the most powerful realization in third density. Rejoice, therefore, and Love one another. Celebrate with one another. Share that which you have and that which you feel, and look when you walk out into the sleet, the cold, the frost, and the stench of a hobo’s fire on a bad weather night. Offer your jacket, your hat, your food, your substance insofar as you are able, with gladness at heart and a singleness of mind. See the Creator, and so shall the Creator see you.

Now Hatonn said there are many kinds of courage, and you have witnessed one kind, so in this instance, which is extraordinary, Don exhibited a courage difficult to express, for he had a wish to protect those about him, and so he did, but many things that you do will be misunderstood, though less drastic, so we urge you to do that which you feel to do, asking that you center yourself daily in meditation and ground yourself in service to others, and be exhilarated and share the joy of consciousness, and when you walk out into the darkness of a cold and rainy street, know that this too is a carnival full of joy and mystery, and find yourself behind the carnival masks that you may see in the gutter, just as you please yourself by seeing yourself as the graceful participants of a circus. Hatonn continued by saying if all things can become one to you, then you can become one with all things, and you shall have learned the greatest lesson, and you may turn to all those whom you meet and say, “I shall meet you in paradise,” for the realization of that oneness is the most powerful realization in third density, so rejoice and Love one another, and celebrate with one another, and share that which you have and that which you feel, but look when you walk out into the cold and the stench of a hobo’s fire on a bad winter night, so offer your jacket, your hat, and your food as you are able, with gladness of heart and a singleness of mind, yet see the Creator, and so shall the Creator see you. In 10.14, Ra said that we can see the Creator everywhere:

Questioner: For general development of the reader of this book, could you state some of the practices or exercises to perform to produce an acceleration toward the Law of One?

I am Ra. Exercise One. This is the most nearly centered and usable within your illusion complex. The moment contains Love. That is the lesson/goal of this illusion or density. The exercise is to consciously seek that Love in awareness and understanding-distortions. The first attempt is the cornerstone. Upon this choosing rests the remainder of the life-experience of an entity. The second seeking of Love within the moment begins the addition. The third seeking powers the second, the fourth powering or doubling the third. As with the previous type of empowerment, there will be some loss of power due to flaws within the seeking in the distortion of insincerity. However, the conscious statement of self to self of the desire to seek Love is so central an act of will that, as before, the loss of power due to this friction is inconsequential.

Exercise Two. The universe is one being. When a mind/body/spirit complex views another mind/body/spirit complex, see the Creator. This is an helpful exercise.

Exercise Three. Gaze within a mirror. See the Creator.

Exercise Four. Gaze at the creation which lies about the mind/body/spirit complex of each entity. See the Creator.

The foundation or prerequisite of these exercises is a predilection towards what may be called meditation, contemplation, or prayer. With this attitude, these exercises can be processed. Without it, the data will not sink down into the roots of the tree of mind, thus enabling and ennobling the body and touching the spirit.

We drench you in our Love as if it were a waterfall. It is our great, great joy to have spoken with you, and we now leave this instrument, thanking each who responded to our conditioning and assuring each that each may or may not choose to channel as does this instrument, that each is equally able and equally valued. This instrument merely has more time, as you call it, to have learned the tuning mechanisms, the challenging mechanisms, and the trick of emptying the mind so that we may fill it when this instrument does not know what we are to say. No sentence this instrument has said this evening has been known to her beforehand. There are many, many, many other services just as important. We are here only to inspire, never to instruct. Your instructions shall come from within you. We ask you to join us in the kingdom which you call heaven daily, to listen to that universal self which is you and to experience and come to know that which is yours, that which has been given to you to do—for one man, and for one man, then for all men.

I am known to you as Hatonn. We thank Latwii and Laitos for aiding us in the conditioning. We thank a great teacher known to us as Amira for lending an energy that feeds into this particularly powerful group this evening. We give thanksgiving, and we praise each of you. May your hearts rejoice and be merry, for you are yet able to Love and be Loved, to care and to accept nurturing, to reach out and to enfold, to experience, in short, the carnival of third-density illusion—that grand illusion with many, many mirrors, all of which give you a distorted picture of the one original Thought. Meditate, my, friends, and allow the distortions to fall away.

I am Hatonn. I leave you in the Love and the Light of our infinite Creator. Remember always that your peanut butter sandwiches, like fishes and loaves, are in infinite supply for those who wish never to hunger again. Break them and give them, for it is an infinite universe. Adonai, my friends. Adonai. Adonai. I am Hatonn.

(Jim channeling)

I am Latwii …

[Side one of tape ends.]

(Jim channeling)

…by giving our humble responses to your queries. Without further ado, may we then begin with the first query.

R: Yes, Latwii. Hatonn mentioned courage in relation to what happened, and Don’s wanting to protect those around him. Can you perhaps elaborate on that?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my brother. We are working with this instrument and attempting to channel the concepts in a narrower band than is our usual wont, for this entity feels that it may not be able to serve well in giving information without distortion. Therefore, please bear with us as we bear with this instrument.

The courage which our brothers and sisters of Hatonn spoke of is a courage which may not be apparent to many, but we can assure you that when one is faced with what appears to be a precipice, and when one leads a group on this path—we must pause momentarily.

[The tape was turned over and the recorder restarted.]

(Jim channeling)

I am Latwii and am once again with this instrument. To continue. When one leads a group and faces what appears to be the precipice, the choice must be made as to whether the group might tumble over the edge and all be lost, it would seem, or whether the one leading shall go first, and by going first, indicate to the rest that the precipice is there and can be stepped back from, for one has gone. We shall attempt further clarification. The one known as Don saw what has been described this evening as the dark carnival, and saw the difficulties that awaited should this experience be continued which had begun in the recent of your times as you measure experience. There were those images of destruction which filled the mind of the one known as Don, and this entity wished in his deeper self to reserve as much of that difficulty for himself as possible so that those of his comrades might be spared the added difficulties. The conscious mind made use of this decision in its own distorted fashion, and leapt first from the precipice in order that the others might avoid it.

May we answer you further, my brother?

R: I want to understand correctly. Don’s polarity was in the process of being tampered with, is that what you’re saying, or was he just being inundated with negative images? I’m not sure I understand.

I am Latwii and shall attempt, my brother, to shine some light upon this most complex of concepts. Let us begin by reminding each that the honor of standing close to Light, shall we say, bears also the responsibility to radiate that Light as purely as possible. The honor of the contact which this group experienced with those known as Ra brought with it great responsibility. Each stumbled on this path on numerous occasions, and each then suffered the difficulties. The contact is of a nature which is, shall we say, metaphysically potent. To continue in such a fashion of attempting purity over a long period of what you call time, has the effect of increasing the potential for further stumbling. When stumbling becomes more and more, shall we say, treacherous, it can be then determined that to allow that which has been done to continue in its flowering, there needs be some cessation of the potential for great difficulty. The one known as Don felt the work which had been done would suffice to Light the way for many but could be jeopardized if the entire group fell over the precipice. Therefore, the choice was made to take that step in a distorted fashion.

May we answer you further, my brother?

R: No, Latwii, thank you very much.

I am Latwii, and we are most grateful to you, my brother, for allowing us to perform our humble service. Is there another query at this time?

N: Yeah. Latwii, I would like to ask a question. Don taught me how …

Jim: Hold it, N. Wait a minute.

N: Is something wrong, Jim?

Jim: Yes, hold it a minute.

[Carla faints. Pause.]

Carla: Sorry. Let’s retune a bit. Don liked “Row, Row, Row Your Boat”, “Mammy’s Little Baby.” Sorry, gang, I fainted.

[The group retunes by singing “Shortnin’ Bread.”]

(Jim channeling)

I am Latwii and am once again with this instrument. We appreciate your concern, my friends, for the one known as Carla, and we shall attempt to utilize this instrument in a manner which is not quite so conducive to the trance state by the more rapid repetition of the sound vibration complexes.

Please continue the query, my sister.

N: Latwii, I was wondering about Don and which density he’s in now. He was a very smart man who taught me a lot, and I’m wondering since we’re third density, if perhaps because of his death was in a negative way, if that would contribute to his going to a higher level or entity form?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my sister. We shall attempt to respond to the query which has many portions. Each in this room attempts the lessons of third-density Love. Each learns according to a unique pattern of ability. The one known as Don learned much and taught much in his span of time upon your planet. As his transition from this illusion to the next was of a traumatic and sudden nature, the transition then has been somewhat more difficult. But we may assure each that the transition shall be completed well, and there shall be the clear experience of the one known as Don of his being the one Creator. This point of view shall so illumine the beingness of the one known as Don that the experiences of the previous life now ended shall be seen in a way that shall expose those signposts missed and shall offer the one known as Don the opportunity and the privilege of setting those signposts right by renewing the experience at another of what you call time.

Remember always, my sister, that the view from your illusion is most limited in order that experience of a dramatic nature might be gained, that is not possible when the view is wide and the self is seen as the one Creator. When then, that self is known to be the one Creator, then those treasures of experience gained in the illusion you now inhabit become a true nourishing harvest to the being of the one Creator. Nothing, in truth, is lost. All shall be made whole, and the one known as Don shall move in time and space to experience again those lessons which shall glorify the one Creator. There is, in truth, no positive or negative act. There is the one Creator which knows Itself, and the one known as Don shall, indeed, experience that in each of his life patterns which he shall set for himself. All shall be pursued in joy. Those experiences seen now in this tiny illusion as failures shall be seen as great honors and privileges to be filled with the fullness of the joy of the one Creator at another of what you call time.

N asked: “I was wondering about Don and which density he’s in now. He was a very smart man who taught me a lot, and I’m wondering since we’re third density, if perhaps because of his death was in a negative way, if that would contribute to his going to a higher level or entity form?” Latwii replied each in this room attempts the lessons of third-density Love, and each learns according to a unique pattern of ability, so Don learned much and taught much in his span of time upon your planet, for his transition from this illusion to the next was of a traumatic nature, the transition has been more difficult, but we may assure each that the transition shall be completed well, and there shall be the clear experience of Don of his being the one Creator, yet this point of view shall so illumine the beingness of Don that the experiences of the previous life now ended shall be seen in a way that shall expose those signposts missed and shall offer Don the opportunity of setting those signposts right by renewing the experience at another time. Then Latwii said the view from your illusion is limited in order that experience of a dramatic nature might be gained, but that is not possible when the view is wide, and the self is seen as the one Creator, for when that self is known to be the one Creator then those treasures of experience gained in the illusion you now inhabit become a nourishing harvest to the being of the one Creator, so nothing is lost, and Don shall move in time and space to experience again those lessons which shall glorify the one Creator, for there is no positive or negative act, so there is the one Creator which knows Itself, and Don shall experience that in each of his life patterns which he shall set for himself, and all shall be pursued in joy because those experiences seen now in this illusion as failures shall be seen as honors to be filled with the fullness of the joy of the one Creator at time. On July 23, 1989, Q’uo said that nothing is lost:

So, nothing is wasted, and nothing is lost in processing catalyst in a biased fashion. You are, of course, attempting to hone out of the stuff of which you are made, that is, free will and the Creator-self within, a self in which the will has become disciplined.

Latwii: May we answer you further, my sister?

N: No, thank you, Latwii, very much.

I am Latwii and am grateful to you, my sister. Is there another query at this time?

T: Yes, I have a question. It’s very similar to hers. Then Don’s experience with leaving this illusion in a traumatic way, if I understand you correctly, may be easier or different than a person of a lesser consciousness who would do the same sort of thing? In other words, it would be easier for Don to make this transition and to learn from it than it would be for someone who is not nearly as conscious as he was, is that correct? Or could you just speak on that?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my brother. It may be correct that one who has a greater, shall we say, grasp of the nature of evolution may find it easier to proceed from what has been called a traumatic experience in leaving the incarnation. What we have intended by our previous response is to suggest that for each entity leaving this illusion, the greater view which is then available is that which puts all into perspective. Within your illusion a death is seen as a great event. A death which is traumatic and brought to the self by the self is seen as most disastrous. Yet from another point of view, it can be seen as a great opportunity to find Love where there was no Love, to find Light where there was no Light, to illuminate the darkness with the presence of the one Creator. This, then, is the opportunity which faces the one known as Don. It may be seen as that which you could call karma, yet it can be seen as that which is a great opportunity and a great honor as well as duty.

May we answer you further, my brother?

T: No, thank you very much.

I am Latwii, and we, as always, thank you, my brother. Is there another query at this time?

S: Latwii, I have a question. Is there anything that we can do to help Don, to aid Don without sending a vibration that would cause him to become earthbound or concerned about us?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my sister. We can suggest that each feel the pain of the loss, for as a brother leaves the journey, there is the inevitable feeling of emptiness. Feel that grief and allow that grief to be fulfilled and finished. See then the one known as Don continuing upon his journey, and send this entity the Love and Light which springs from your heart and your very being, that he might have a comfort upon his journey. Wish him well; send him joy; and allow him to depart without the lingering grief. This shall smooth the journey of the one known as Don, and this entity then may continue with that plan he has set before him, as the one Creator moves through him that It might know Itself through his experience.

May we answer you further, my sister?

S: No, thank you.

I am Latwii, and we thank you, my sister. Is there another query at this time?

Carla: Well, along those same lines, I was thinking, since he did commit suicide—of course, he’d been slowly doing it for a long time, but still the ending was sudden—and I wondered if even though the American Book of the Dead had Gnostic qualities about it which certainly isn’t to be recommended, that it might serve as a grounding so that Don would know for sure where he was and where he was going. Do you think it might be helpful in this case, or is that treading too close to the Law of Confusion?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my sister. We can suggest that whatever be done for the one known as Don, that aid might be most helpfully given by simply sending a generalized form of Love and Light in order that there shall be no distraction and no tie to the one known as Don. It is helpful to allow the grieving to find its cessation, then to send the Love and the Light, the peace and the joy, and to wish the departing entity well and when thinking of this entity, to raise this entity into the Light, no matter what experience is remembered, that there shall be no ties which hold this entity to this illusion longer than is necessary.

May we answer you further, my sister?

Carla: Just two things. Alternately I have thought of doing what I would normally do under the circumstances, which would be to go to my own particular Christian denomination’s Eucharist daily for a couple of weeks to make a dedication to his passage. The other thing I had considered doing was to send postcards to the people that are in the meditation group or that had been and knew him, letting them know when we were going to plant the juniper tree that will be Don’s only memorial. Would either of these things hold him back in any way or would either of them help? Because I would like him to be able to go home if there’s anything I can do to help.

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my sister. In this case we find that we must bate our response somewhat in order that we do not infringe upon your own choices. As we mentioned previously, it is most helpful to make any gesture that raises the entity into the Love and Light of the one Creator which is ever available to each. The rituals which attempt to instruct from, shall we say, a distance are those which have the effect of delaying the passage, for the one so communicated with must process the specific information and must make some response. The Love and Light sendings in a generalized form do not require any backward looking, and ease the forward journey. The intent to raise the entity into the Light of the one Creator is that which is most beneficial, whatever the form of the offering.

May we answer you further, my sister?

Carla: No, I think I get the gist of it. The first of my three suggestions would hold him back while he went through the thing, the Gnostic thing. The other two are general, and I’ll keep it in mind, and I sure do thank you.

I am Latwii, and we are most grateful to you, my sister. Is there another query at this time?

J: Latwii, could you say anything more about the nature of the precipice which Don perceived and into which he committed himself so that we would stay back from it?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my sister. This is a concept which is not easy to enunciate, but we shall give it our best shot, shall we say, you will excuse the pun. We do not wish to keep our responses in the somber vibration and shall attempt to lighten them if possible. The precipice which faced the one known as Don is that responsibility which may be too great to fulfill. The work which had been ongoing for some time was that which required in this entity’s mind more than could be offered and have in this entity’s mind, and perhaps have resulted in a greater burden than could be borne, so that the fruits which had been harvested would not be available to those which sought the harvest. This entity then assured that the fruits thus harvested would be available for a greater portion of what you call time.

May we answer you further, my sister?

J: No, I guess not, although I don’t quite understand it all yet.

Carla: Then what you’re saying is, he saw a way that perhaps all of us here in the room who were solidly behind the Ra material might be sucked into a situation that would discredit us in some way or make us unable to function to disseminate the material, and he chose not to do that, not to put it that far along. Is that what you’re saying? More or less?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my sister. We shall once again attempt to utilize this instrument in a way which this instrument finds difficult to accept. We are attempting to move within the bounds of the Law of Free Will and give information which is sought to those which are of great concern and to those who wish to understand that which is beyond the understanding

…

Carla: Well, may I interrupt you long enough to say that I think it’s general knowledge in this room that in the last session we had with Ra, Ra said that unless there was a great deal of praise and thanksgiving, I myself might take this opportunity to have a kidney problem and leave the incarnation. So that’s what I meant by saying that it would be impossible to disseminate the information, because I wouldn’t be here. Go ahead. That’s what I meant. Maybe that gets you away from the Law of Confusion a little bit.

I am Latwii and am grateful for your added comments, my sister. We find that the one known as Don was aware that great difficulties awaited his traveling and the potential for difficulty for each of this group—that is, those involved in what had come to be known as the Ra contact—and foresaw not only his own what you call death, but the death of each of the others within the group when his condition lingered overly long, and therefore wished to avoid that outcome.

May we answer you further, my sister?

Carla: No, thank you.

I am Latwii, and we thank you, my sister. May we attempt another query at this time?

Carla: I’ve got just a little nitty-gritty. I didn’t think I could go in trance as long as I was holding onto somebody’s hand; I thought I could just faint, sort of. It’s not the same thing, is it?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my sister. It is quite correct that the trance is not possible when the physical vehicle is touched, for the mind/body/spirit complex is called to remain with the vehicle, for there is infringement upon the aura which does not allow the exit. The vertigo effect which you have just experienced is that which renders unconsciousness for a short period of time.

May we answer you further, my sister?

Carla: Why the hands? I know other parts of the body won’t work. Or do any other parts of the body work? The feet, the face—I mean, is it something about the hands?

I am Latwii, and am aware of your query, my sister, and we are most pleased that you have asked this query. Consider the difficulties in holding knees or shoulders. Though these perhaps will suffice, they are most difficult to continue.

Carla: So, it’s not just because you have nerve endings in your hands, it’s just that hands grasp and shoulders don’t. Is that what you’re saying?

I am Latwii and again am aware of your query, my sister. This is basically correct, although the hands do have more of an ability to receive and send the vibrations which might intercept the aura and, therefore, impede the exit of the mind/body/spirit complex.

May we answer you further, my sister?

Carla: No. As I used to say, “Groovy.”

I am Latwii. We thank you, my sister. Is there another query at this time?

N: Yes, Latwii, I have another question. It’s concerning the—it appears to me that the people who are close to me who kill themselves are very, very intelligent, and I was worried and wondering. It seems like a lot of people lately who are very intelligent have killed themselves that have been troubled before, and I’m wondering if they maybe see things that we don’t or know things we don’t. Is it that the Earth is in trouble, or are things going downhill quick, or is that just circumstance that happens to be around me a lot?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my sister. Those who have the aptitude for mental analysis are those who seek with a fine-pointed pen, shall we say. Each experience is written with the most minute of detail. Each portion, whether of the positive or the negative experience, is recorded, and observed, and felt with great depth. This is the potential of those with what you have called the mental acuity and intelligence. It is easy with such an ability to focus upon the difficulties, for it is difficulty which seems so apparent in your illusion. Though each difficulty has its solution, solutions do not seem so easily apparent and must be striven for with great dedication.

The propensity to remain with the view of difficulty, then, can be increased for one who has the ability to see the details which may escape another. If one cannot match the great ability to see the difficulty with an equal ability to see the faith, and the praise, and the thanksgiving, and the solution to such difficulty, then the difficulties may grow for such an entity, and if allowed to continue without the praise and the thanksgiving, without the finding of the Love and the Light of the one Creator within that situation, then it is possible for the effect to build an energy of itself which would not be as possible for one who did not observe so carefully and so minutely with the mental acuity.

May we answer you further, my sister?

N: It seems to me that there seems to be so much more killing and suicide, that it seems so hopeless, that, you know, people are just giving up easier and being angrier easier. Is that—are things getting worse or am I just around it more often?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my sister. It is a correct observation that as your planet nears that called the harvest, the experiences of many shall be intensified, for as time for harvest grows short, the work in order to achieve harvest must be accomplished in a shorter time. When time is short, then intensity must replace the time that is no longer available. Great work in consciousness can be done in this short time that remains before the harvest of souls from your planet. There is, of course, the risk that the work shall be more difficult, yet there is the great opportunity to move forward in the process of evolution as has never been possible before upon this planet.

May we answer you further, my sister?

N: No, thank you.

I am Latwii, and we thank you, my sister. Is there another query at this time?

Carla: I’d like to ask you to—as to the instrument’s fatigue, and discover whether or not the instrument should continue channeling.

I am Latwii, and am aware of your query, my sister. As we scan this instrument, we find that there is increasing fatigue and concern upon the instrument’s part that it is not functioning in a clear fashion or it …

[Side two of tape ends.]

(Jim channeling)

…has found the necessity to divide its attention in order that the hand pressure may be increased at the same time that concepts are received and transmitted. We do, however, find that this instrument may continue for another query.

Questioner: I have a query that I would really like to ask. The one known as Jim has been the one that has been pretty much taken for granted in all of this. Everyone has been concerned about Carla. I would like to know if there is anything that we as a support group can do for Jim, and if there is a way that we can do it that would be acceptable to Jim. [Inaudible] Can you give me any suggestion? Prayer is understood, of course.

I am Latwii, and am aware of your query, my sister. We shall ask the one known as Jim to step aside so that the opportunity for Christmas presents at this time do not overcome him. Now to continue. This entity appreciates …

[Laughter.]

I am Latwii, and we shall continue in appreciation of your appreciation. This entity appreciates as well all offerings of service, and can be aided by the one—we struggle for a word that is acceptable to this instrument—heartfelt and sincere sympathy for the one known as Don, and for this entity known as Jim, there is available by simply sending a Light and reminding this entity that all does not have to be done overnight.

May we answer you further?

Questioner: No, thank you, Latwii. Thank you.

I am Latwii, and we thank you and each in this group. We find that it is the appropriate time to take our leave of this instrument and of this group. We thank this instrument for allowing us to speak to subjects which it had great difficulty in allowing the concepts concerning which to be a portion of its experience this evening. This instrument will yet learn humor, and we commend his continued attempt at it. Hard heads are often good heads in the end, with a simple whack or two.

We leave each in the appreciation of the difficulties each feels for the one that has departed. When brothers and sisters travel upon a difficult path, there is great support in the unity each provides, and the joy and laughter which each provides each. When one has departed, there is often the overwhelming grief that fills the vacuum. We hope that we have been able to inspire joy that can follow grief, for within your illusion it is necessary to forget that each and all is the one Creator in order that the one Creator might gain the greatest experiences with the greatest intensity, variety, and depth of possibilities. Thus is the one Creator known to Itself, and glorified by each portion of Itself. No matter what experience is gained, each is a treasure in this great journey of the One through the One to the One, and remember, my friends, that in truth, all is well. The journeys may turn and become seemingly difficult at each turn. Yet, the difficulties themselves are glories to the one Creator, for without them the Creator would be poorer in knowledge of Itself. What, then, can one offer to the one Creator but experience? Be of great joy and cheer in your journeys. Gather your experiences with the confidence that there can be no error too great to balance, no experience too traumatic to give joy for, and no life too short to be an infinite remembrance and glorification to the one Creator.

We are those known to you as Latwii. We leave you now in the everlasting Love and infinite Light of the one Creator which dwells in each entity and each portion of all experience. Adonai. Adonai vasu borragus.

(Carla channeling)

I am Nona and spend only a few moments. We have been called to offer healing in Love and in Light for the sake of our infinite Creator, and in His service we serve, and, therefore, we pray that you with us vibrate and heal the entity for whom this healing has been requested over and over again. We thank you and we thank this instrument and we thank the universe that is such a place as [inaudible] the beauty and [inaudible] of Love. I am Nona.

This morning the quote from The Thunder of Silence is: “What does it mean to accept the spiritual dispensation in our experiences? Unless we understand what it is to accept this dispensation, we cannot be prepared to accept it.

Regardless of the fact that many people pay lip service to a belief in God, many of them do not believe in God. True, they may believe that there is a God or have a belief about God, but they have no faith, no realization, no conviction because the nature of the bondman is to be in bondage to effect—to Love, worship, and fear anything that has form, that is visible as effect. It may be bodily health—the heart, liver, or lungs—or it may be dollar bills, investments, or home, but the Love and devotion and fear of most human beings are always directed at someone or something in the visible realm.

The son of the bondwoman is in bondage as long as some thought, thing, or person is necessary, and that is what constitutes humanhood. The new covenant of the new creature begins in the moment when we realize, “I and my Father are one,” and all that the Father has is mine. I look in no other direction than to the Infinite Invisible. Then what appears from within, I share gloriously, freely, joyously.”

The transition into divine sonship brings about that change from faith in the Infinite Invisible, in that which can never be seen, heard, tasted, touched, smelled—or even thought or reasoned. There has to be a faith without a reason for that faith. There must be an all-consuming inner conviction which agrees with this faith, even while not knowing what it is—an inner instinct, an inner intuition, an inner grace.

“There shall no sign be given”: The signs follow them that believe. When the faith comes; the signs follow. If we are given any sign, anything or any thoughts to which we can cling, then that thing or that thought is that upon which our faith rests instead of upon the Invisible which is God.”

Later this morning I arranged the chairs in the living room to accommodate the attendees for our public channeling meditation this afternoon.

This afternoon our public channeling meditation began at 1 pm with 12 attendees and instruments. After the Round Robin and the instruments were tuned, we played a tuning song, said the Lord’s Prayer and the channeling of Q’uo began. Some of the questions that were asked of Q’uo were: “Should we pray for peace when difficulties like war give us the opportunity to grow by using the catalyst of war?” “How do the different religions worship God?” and “How can I teach kids how to listen better so that they can learn how to write?”

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

March 28

Only This Love Abides

I am of the Holy Spirit of the consciousness of Jesus Christ. I greet you in unconditional and divine Love.

What does the Spirit have to say to the world this day? What comfort and consolation may mere words bring to those who dwell in the shadow of death; who live in constant fear of war and rumors of war?

Only this: Love abides. Where is the Spirit in this chaos of society? Love is in every budding flower; in every passing cloud; in the unfurling leaves of Easter days; in the smiles of children too innocent to know the burdens of intelligence. Love is a comfort within you that dwells in your heart.

As Spirit moves across the waters, so the Spirit of Jesus the Christ moves across the waters of your troubled consciousness, saying, “Peace; be still. Be still and know that I am the Lord, the Master, the chief of a Kingdom not visible upon your Earth, but within each heart that beats.” That is the Kingdom of which the Comforter speaks.

Gaze you, then, not upon the works of man to see the kingdom of the Father, but upon the works of the Father: the temples made of wildflowers, and trees, and the temple of your own heart and consciousness.

Enter into that tabernacle and be silent. And in that silence shall you find comfort, strength, renewal, and transformation.

We leave you in the peace of the Love that knows no bounds and is forever near, both now and always. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of Love and open our hearts minds, and souls to send Love, Light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite Love, Light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our Love, Light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. The Hatonn and Latwii channelings for this session come from October 14, 1984:

(Carla channeling)

I am Hatonn, and I greet you in the Love and in the Light of our infinite Creator. It is a great privilege to be with you, to share in your life experience at this time, and to be able to tread your path with you for this brief time as we, in speaking words through this instrument, attempt to do that which is beyond words, that is, to evoke a sense of mystery, of consciousness, so that we may aid you in your curiosity and encourage you in your seeking. Poor indeed is the man who has never asked a question, for riches do not lie in the answers but in the questions themselves. Therefore, we ask you this evening to examine what questions you have concerned yourselves about during this diurnal period. We do not care what conclusions you may have drawn but wish to focus only upon that which has been in the forefront of the mind this day.

This day are you rich or are you poor? Are your questions those of a petty and mundane nature, or have you instead asked this day for that which draws you outside of the world that you know? How rich you are if you have dressed yourself in seeking as if it were a festive garment and gone forth into your environment clad with the desire to know more, with a wonder as to how to serve better and with the rejoicing question: “How can I perceive such loveliness as this day has offered to me?”

We apologize for the pause. The instrument had become distracted by our message and had begun to analyze it—its own experience. This may make for a wiser instrument but not for a longer contact.

My friends, there is a great interest in your culture in what this instrument would call the bottom line, the final answer, the solution. Those who would be powerful within the illusion are those with a talent for creating situations within which their bottom line works, for you see, my friends, each of you has an inborn series of bottom lines. Each of you has ways of dealing with situations, typical solutions, and normal habits of mind. Without meditation, what occurs is that time and again the entity bounces around from situation to situation until it finds a situation where it fits, where its bottom line is the answer for the question implicit in the situation. This is unconscious and not to be scorned, for it is a way of learning. There is a quicker way of learning and that is to focus upon the questions and not upon the answers. My friends, you know the answers. That which we say to you is so utterly simplistic and so repetitious that you can have no doubt that you know what our opinion of the bottom line is. The bottom line is Love.

In this session Hatonn spoke about the questions that we have about our spiritual journey. They began by saying it is a privilege to be with you, to share in your life experience at this time, and to be able to tread your path with you for this brief time as we attempt to evoke a sense of mystery, of consciousness, so that we may aid you in your curiosity and encourage you in your seeking, for poor is the one who has never asked a question, for riches do not lie in the answers but in the questions, so we ask you to examine what questions you have concerned yourselves about during this day, but we do not care what conclusions you may have drawn but wish to focus upon that which has been in the forefront of your mind this day. Hatonn went on to ask: “Are you rich, or are you poor? Are your questions those of a petty and mundane nature, or have you instead asked this day for that which draws you outside of the world that you know? How rich you are if you have dressed yourself in seeking as if it were a festive garment and gone forth into your environment clad with the desire to know more, with a wonder as to how to serve better and with the rejoicing question: “How can I perceive such loveliness as this day has offered to me?” Then Hatonn said there is a great interest in your culture in what Carla would call the bottom line, so those who would be powerful within the illusion are those with a talent for creating situations within which their bottom line works, for each of you has an inborn series of bottom lines, and each of you has ways of dealing with situations, but without meditation what occurs is that time and again the entity bounces around from situation to situation until it finds where its bottom line is the answer for the question implied in the situation, but this is unconscious and not to be scorned, for it is a way of learning, so there is a quicker way of learning, and that is to focus upon the questions and not upon the answers since you know the answers, so that which we say to you is so repetitious that you can have no doubt that you know what our opinion of the bottom line is, for the bottom line is Love. On June 27, 1993, Q’uo describe the nature of Love:

The Creator created a great original Expression or Thought. This we have called the Logos or Love. This principle, this Love, created all that there is by the quantizing articulation of Light. Yet all that is created is of the nature of its parent source, which is Love. The reason for offering Love, appreciation, a blessing and thanksgiving to the infinite One is that the entity within incarnation is attempting to form its vibratory frequency more and more like that of the vibrational frequency of the one great original Thought, which is Love. The closer the seeker comes to matching that vibratory frequency, the more that entity will be perceived as offering praise and thanksgiving. This is true far beneath any articulation of words or even what you consider thoughts. Rather, it is in the nature of the way creation is built. That is, original Thought expresses in Love, thanks, blessing, praise, and rejoicing. Thusly, it is not a Creator hungry for praise and thanks that requires homage of its worshippers, but rather it is Love, it is reflected in Love, and in that infinite reflection lies truth.

But what is the question? What will you ask? What avenues will you seek? How much of the truth do you want to know within this fragile cage of your physical bodies? What great heart do you wish to realize? What great spirit do you wish to encompass? Will that fragile being that you are, full of earth and breath, be able to contain your deepest and highest hopes? How far can you reach? Meditation is a form of reaching within the vast infinity of your own being with the mute question, the question that has no words, and because it has no words and is not in any way articulated, it is the pure question and you will receive the purest answer with it, for you listen in silence just as you ask in silence, and you shall be answered also in silence but with a power that transcends our ability to express that which is creative, peaceful and energetic.

You here seek for nothing less than the key which shall open to you your universe, your creation, your Creator, and in asking for the Light, you ask that which transforms each of you into a source of that Light. The principle is simple, and difficult to grasp because of its simplicity. You are what you seek, therefore the choice of what you seek is all-important. We ask that you remove yourself from the question of what subjects you have sought answers regarding during this day. Take a longer view, each of you, and ask yourself, “With what attitude or point of view did I seek and ask regarding each subject, each situation, each relationship, each seeming difficulty or moment of joy?” That which is within you has an intimate and ultimate power. So, seek you well, for you shall be aware of what you now ask. You shall receive that which you seek. Be oh so very careful in your seeking, for we would not guide you upon a tour of many planes and dimensions, many masters and teachers and wise ones, many wanderers and circuses and shows full of spectacular fireworks. It goes without saying that there are techniques by which you can use your seeking in order to experience that which is novel, exciting, and seemingly significant. We wish to home you back to the one beacon that lies within yourself that is a pure Light and a pure Love, that which lies behind all the displays of the journey upon which you have set your foot. We, in fact, offer a sort of surface service ourselves. Our speaking through instruments such as this one is novel. However, it is much less novel and far more open to doubt than our appearing among your people and speaking as if we were infallible. Therefore, since we wish to aid you and must needs use communication of some kind, we choose the least showy display, the least gaudy method of sharing a philosophy which is not an end in itself but is only meant to point you to your own senses of discrimination, of determination, of faith and hope.

Hatonn continued by saying: “What is the question? What will you ask? What avenues will you seek? How much of the truth do you want to know within this fragile cage of your physical bodies? What great heart do you wish to realize? What great spirit do you wish to encompass? Will that fragile being that you are, full of earth and breath, be able to contain your deepest and highest hopes? How far can you reach?” Then Hatonn said meditation is a form of reaching within the infinity of your being with the question that has no words, and because it has no words it is the pure question, and you will receive the purest answer with it, for you listen in silence just as you ask in silence, and you shall be answered also in silence but with a power that transcends our ability to express that which is creative, peaceful, and energetic. Hatonn went on to say you seek the key which shall open to you your creation, your Creator, and in asking for Light, you ask that which transforms you into a source of Light, and you are what you seek, so the choice of what you seek is important, and we ask that you remove yourself from the question of what subjects you have sought answers to this day, and ask yourself: “With what point of view did I seek and ask regarding each subject, each situation, each relationship, each seeming difficulty or moment of joy?” Now Hatonn said that which is within you has a power, so seek well, for you shall be aware of what you seek, for you shall receive that which you seek, but be careful in your seeking, for we would not guide you upon a tour of many dimensions, many masters, and many wanderers, for there are techniques by which you can use your seeking in order to experience that which is significant, yet we wish to bring you back to the one beacon that lies within yourself that is pure Light and Love, that which lies behind all the displays of the journey upon which you have set your foot, for we offer a service by speaking through instruments such as Carla is novel, but it is more open to doubt than our appearing among your people and speaking as if we were infallible because we wish to aid you and need to use communication of some kind, so we chose the least showy way of sharing a philosophy which is not an end in itself but is meant to point you to your sense of discrimination, of faith and hope. On July 16, 2005, Q’uo spoke of the nature of faith and hope:

You are the secret agent of energies such as faith and hope. As entities about you see that you are undismayed by the apparent chaos around you, that you are hopeful in the face of all that you do not at all deny but instead, embrace, there comes to Light within entities which dared not hope before the attractive possibility of hope. As entities see you launching yourself into the mid-air of a fool, leaping into the abyss by faith alone and then, as they notice that you are riding that abyss in joy, there awakens within beings to which faith was previously a stranger that possibility of another way of looking at the illusion of planet Earth. As you penetrate the illusion, your eyes seeing clearly the Light and Love of the one infinite Creator, those who look into your eyes know what they cannot express and see what they cannot describe, and, for the first time, they believe in the possibility of faith.

We share with you one thing—the original Thought of the one Creator. We share with you ways to put yourself more in line with the shadow of that great Thought. We set your feet upon the path that leads from shadow into Light. We can direct you no further than yourself. The meditative and gently analytical methods of touching that tangent which you have with the one original Thought and with processing in a useful way your own experiences is our gift to you. It is an answer of sorts. What was your question? Never trust answers, for the only generalizations that work are those so simple and so controlled as to have little metaphysical use. Over and over you may say to yourself as if it were an answer that is infallible, “I am learning a lesson of Love. I am learning a lesson of Love.” This has value. But to the seeker there is far more value in saying, “What am I perceiving, what am I learning, where is Love now, right now in this moment?” You cannot tell yourself what you are learning; you must ask. And the answers may well be different than those you would create for yourself. Free yourself from the limitation of your own expectations and ask—with care, with sincerity, and with constancy. All else shall follow.

Then Hatonn said we share with you the original Thought of the one Creator, and we share ways to put yourself in line with the shadow of that great Thought, so we set your feet upon the path that leads from shadow into Light, but we can direct you no further than yourself, and the meditative method of touching that contact which you have with the one original Thought and with processing in a useful way your experiences is our gift to you, for it is an answer of sorts, but never trust answers, for the only generalizations that work are those so simple as to have little metaphysical use, so you may say to yourself as if it were an answer that is infallible, “I am learning a lesson of Love. I am learning a lesson of Love,” and this has value, but to the seeker there is more value in asking: “What am I perceiving, what am I learning, where is Love now, right now in this moment?” Hatonn said you cannot tell yourself what you are learning; you must ask, and the answers may be different than those you would create for yourself, so free yourself from the limitation of your expectations and ask with sincerity, and all else shall follow. On February 15, 1976, Hatonn revealed where Love is:

Where is Love in this situation? If you are quiet and if you meditate, truth will come to you. The water will become evident. And that portion of your consciousness will be made whole by your understanding of Love. Know ye, my friends, that we are all one. In pain or in pleasure, healing is in knowing that the Creator lies in every breath of air that you breathe, in every plant that gives you pleasure, in every bite of food that gives you health, in all of the friends and all of the enemies you are looking at the Creator. All is one.

We leave this instrument, grateful that this instrument has been able to clear its mind that we may use it. This is an ongoing process for each of you and we recommend it, for each of you is a channel, a pipeline, if you will, and that which flows from you is that which has come through you. You share your consciousness with all the energies which you have developed. You develop your energies and attract the principles of those energies by the process of asking, of reaching, of hope, of beginning again each and every moment that you stumble.

We thank you, my friends, for being yourselves. It is a great and honorable thing to be in company with you. It is now appropriate that we leave, for this instrument is fatigued. We leave you only in the sense that we shall refrain from speaking through an instrument. Ours is one energy, the principle of which you have attracted by your asking. We are with you as comforters, as strengtheners, as comrades, as those who Love each of you at any time that you may wish that companionship. We are those of Hatonn, and we leave you now in the Love and the Light of the one great original Thought that is the Creator, the creation, and the created. Adonai, O Creation. Adonai, O Creator. Adonai, Questioners. So, we greet you. Adonai.

(Jim channeling)

I am Latwii, and I greet you, my friends, in the love and in the light of our infinite Creator. We are privileged once again to be asked to join your group, and we thank each of you for so asking. Our service, as you know, is a simple one which we sometimes seem to make complex, and that is the attempt to answer those queries on your minds which you as seekers have interest in. May we begin, then, with the first query for this evening?

J: Latwii, I have a query. I thought my dog’s ears were getting better, but I find that they are not. Can you tell me what’s going on?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my brother. As we look upon this entity which is described as the dog, we see the ears which have the continuing difficulty of the parasitical infection. For the second-density creature, there is little symbolism in such a difficulty. It is, shall we say, for such a creature, a world in which there are many diseases and physical challenges to overcome by one means or another. This particular difficulty with the ears serves the purpose of allowing this entity to receive the attention from you and other third-density beings which then causes an investment for individualization of this entity, thus increasing its chances of harvest, shall we say. It is often the case that the means by which such a second-density creature chooses to receive the opportunity of investment are means which the third-density entity will find to be discomforting. To the one known as the dog, upon its basic level of awareness, the infection of the ear, then, is a means by which it expands its beingness. To you, the owner of this entity, shall we say, such a means is not apparent and is indeed perplexing. The interaction between the two of you is the dog’s purpose fulfilled, that is, to be invested, and also is a portion of your purpose fulfilled, that is, to learn to give Love.

May we answer you further, my brother?

J: Does that mean that the ear is never going to be healed?

I am Latwii, and am aware of your query, my brother. We cannot say whether this infectious situation shall be healed, for the future is quite full of possibility. We may say that this second-density creature shall continue in its efforts to gain investment and individualization, whether they be along this line or another.

May we answer you further, my brother?

J: Well, I have done everything possible. I have taken it to veterinarian schools, I have taken it to veterinarians to have cultures taken; I have bought medicines; and I really want to heal this dog, and nothing’s happening. Is it the dog himself that doesn’t want to get well or cured?

I am Latwii and am aware of this query, my brother. We may say that this creature has a desire for growth which utilizes that called a disease, and that this desire for its own evolution is the greatest force within its being.

May we answer you further, my brother?

J: Well, I don’t understand, but—listen, let me go on to the second query that I have. I had a dream the other night, and I dreamed that I was here in meditation. But while I was here in meditation, I was all nude, I didn’t have any clothes. Everybody was very gracious and made believe that they didn’t see anything, and I cannot understand the dream. I would like to know what it meant.

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my brother. We find that our response must be considered under the Law of Confusion, that is, we do not wish to work so much of this riddle for you that your own efforts then will not produce the fruit which is available. We may suggest, however, that one look upon the newborn infant. This entity is not swaddled upon the birthing. It enters the world of its experience without clothing. It enters pure and fresh without the feeling of shame or guilt and is, therefore, ready to embark upon a new adventure. As it embarks upon this adventure, it shall learn to wear various kinds of clothing for various purposes. As you look at your experience in this group, look you then to the new portion of your being which seeks to be born.

May we answer you further, my brother?

J: Very good. I have a better perspective now. May I ask you a question about the Christ? I have read four different versions of people who have contacted Christ, and each one was different. What can you tell me about this?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my brother. We may say that the one known as Jesus the Christ is an entity which has great bearing and influence upon the peoples of this planet, for its incarnation was completed in a fashion which set a model, shall we say. This entity prepared a way which each may utilize in some fashion, as each is the seeker of that of which the one known as Jesus Christ was also a seeker and He did find that which He sought. As those entities of your planet who have interest in this entity and its particular means of seeking travel their own path of seeking, many are of such strong desire to know the one known as Jesus the Christ and to know this entity’s path that they are, indeed, in contact with this entity in some form or manner, for all entities of the nature of the Christed one who are called by the seekers are then responsible for answering in some manner the call. It is an honor to be called, and a duty to respond.

But the difficulty for many of your people in understanding such response are the many distortions which each entity holds in regards to the one known as Jesus and the path that a Christed one may follow. Therefore, the response to such a call is filtered through the various beliefs, habits, and rituals of the one who calls. In few instances is the response received in its pure form. It is as though one of your sociological experiments is completed upon the metaphysical level, that is, a circle of entities partake in an experiment in which one entity begins to whisper into the ear of another a story, and when the story is completed, then the entity first hearing the story whispers into another ear, until at the end of many translations of this story, the final story has some resemblance and some distortion in respect to the original story.

May we answer you further, my brother?

J: How is one to know the original story, then?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my brother. One may find the closest approximation to the original story by seeking in such a manner that one goes within the self, and seeks, and calls, and waits with patience, for all calls are answered. No seeker is abandoned to seek alone. In this manner may you find your own desire, your own call, and your own answer. Do not be discouraged if your answers seem to differ from those about you. Within your illusion each has distortion. That is not to cause discouragement, but is able …

[Side one of tape ends.]

(Jim channeling)

I am Latwii and am once again with this instrument. To continue our response. Do not be discouraged by distortion. It is the nature of your illusion and allows your experiences to occur. If there were no darkness and no distortion, there would be no experience.

May we answer you further, my brother?

J: No, that’s very good. I have some other questions, but I think I’ll hold them off for awhile because this is too much for me to digest. May I come back some other time with a few more questions, sir?

I am Latwii, and am most honored to attempt response to any query at any time. It is our honor, my brother.

J: Thank you.

Latwii: Is there another query at this time?

Carla: I have two questions. One is minor, and one is I also had an odd bit of a dream stick with me. I dreamt that I had been writing a letter, and I translated it at the same time into another language. The translation was in italics. When I got to the end, instead of signing my name, I drew a heart in the original language, and underneath it I drew the same heart in italics. And I wondered what it is that I am attempting to translate.

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my sister. Again, we give that which does not infringe. You may look at that which is the translation, see the words upon the page, grasp the feeling from the words. It is not the individual word or words which carries the point, but the feeling of the entire message, for you have italicized the complete message and, therefore, have placed emphasis or weight upon its total being. Look then to your own being, and see what feelings arise as you scan the message. Look there to your heart, and see what is the feeling that grows as you continue to look upon the message. Then take that which you have found by this investigation and see where in your own waking life there is a feeling of this nature, and see then how it might be translated into the action which is the fabric of your experience.

May we answer you further, my sister?

Carla: Not on that point, thank you. The question that was not trivial, but which you probably can’t answer any more than you already have, is how can I be of any more service than I already am to Don?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my sister. We see in such a situation the great desire to serve. We see the difficulty in knowing what is the best service. This is the difficulty for each entity inhabiting your illusion, for nothing is plain, and the darkness of knowing that all is the Creator is that which promotes the Creator’s experience. As you find one who has long sought the one Creator now seems to sit upon a rock along the trail and seeks no further, one would then ask the self if there might be some way in which this entity was falling short of its seeking and could then be aided by another to rejoin the path of the seeker. This assumes that one can err, and that one can fall short, and in one sense we can assure that such is true at all times for all seekers, for your illusion is so well constructed that all shall fall short of their goals. Yet each in some fashion continues to seek, for each is still the one Creator, and in this regard can commit no error, for even sitting upon a stone, the one Creator experiences sitting upon a stone. Yet another may still wish to aid an entity who not only sits upon a stone, but may seem to another to be wounded. How to aid the one who is wounded and sitting upon a stone, not seeming to tend its own wound? We suggest that the offers be made, that service as best as one can describe it be offered, that all offers be made without dedication to any particular result, for who can say what path another should travel? One can only be and offer being to another, and then trust that all is well if it is truly so that all is one.

The greatest difficulty that an entity who wishes to aid another will face is the difficulty of accepting whatever depends from the situation, for many are the desires for another’s well-being, and many are the attempts to fashion that well-being for another, yet it is not possible to learn for another. One may only present the self in service without dedication, for this is Love. There are no conditions and no guarantees in your illusion, my sister.

May we answer you further?

Carla: No.

I am Latwii, and we thank you, my sister. Is there another query at this time?

J: Latwii, may I please ask you one more question about my dog’s ears? Is there anything that I can put into the ear that would help to eliminate the parasite?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my brother. We are quite without degree when it comes to the field of veterinary medicine. We feel that those efforts which have been made by those of this profession are, within our limited scope of knowledge, the most that can be done. In many cases you will find the disease which lingers past all treatment; then it is that one must look to the deeper nature of the disease, its symbol and potential. To this particular topic we have previously spoken. We ask your forgiveness for not being able to prescribe any effective treatment.

May we answer you further, my brother?

J: No, thank you. It’s just that I’m obsessed with this, and I want to get all of it. Thank you very much, sir.

I am Latwii, and we thank you, my brother, sir. May we attempt another query?

[Pause]

I am Latwii, and we find that for the nonce we have exhausted those queries at the precise moment that the feline creatures are gathering their own energies for action. We thank each for allowing our humble service to be rendered within this group once again. It is our great joy and privilege to join you upon these occasions, and we treasure each. We shall leave this group as is our custom, in the Love and in the Light of the One Which Is All. We are those of Latwii, and we leave you at this time in that Love and Light. Adonai, my friends. Adonai vasu borragus.

This morning the quote from The Thunder of Silence is: “This moment is now. This moment—this now—we have the opportunity to reject our humanness and accept the divinity of our being. But it is beyond our immediate capacity to do that at this moment. Later on tonight we shall discover that it is also now, and in that nowness, we are again face to face with the opportunity to accept or reject the divinity of our being. If we are not prepared to receive it then, there will be tomorrow afternoon, net year, or the year after; and each time that the opportunity to realize our divine being comes to our thought, it will be now. A hundred years from now, it will be now to us.

Now is always the time to accept our divinity, but while that now may come to us at this moment, to some it may have come years ago, and to some it may come years later. Whether or not it comes at this particular hour of the clock or some other hour, whenever it comes, it will be now. Each of us has to face every moment of every day unto eternity, and those of us who, for one reason or another, are not able at this particular time to accept the covenant of our liberty, the liberty wherewith we are “clothed upon” when we accept Christhood, will still have a new and fresh opportunity throughout all ages.

Those who have gone on before us as human beings and have left our visible sight, some in gross spiritual darkness and some in actual sin and degradation, also exist now, and they too, have the same opportunity now that they had when they rejected it here on Earth, only now they may have developed a greater capacity to accept it.”

Later this morning I vacuumed the first floor of my home.

This afternoon I went outside and walked around the yard and picked up the small tree limbs that have blown down in recent rainstorms, and I put them in a garbage can. Then I spread Epsom Salts around the fishpond to repel raccoons because last night’s rain washed the Epsom Salts away that I put around the fishpond two days ago.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

March 27

A Nation Of Priests

I am the principle of Jesus the Christ, and I greet you in the full consciousness of divine Love.

The concept of nations among your people has not been aided by the Holy Spirit’s work within those who long ago formed the nation you call Israel.

Let the Spirit of Christ proclaim that humankind is a nation of priests, an order holy to God. The state of Israel was not intended literally, nor do any nations, namings, or boundaries form a portion of the full and perfect consciousness which is Love.

Nay! Rather, Love is that city within each which, like Jerusalem of your holy works, shines with the gems, pearls, and precious metals, seas of crystal and Light without limit. The kingdom of heaven, not the kingdom or nation of Israel or any other place, is the native land of humankind.

Its comforts reach out to you. Its beacon calls. And all the memories of home thrill one’s spirit as one gazes about the confusingly alien landscape of the smaller life of Earth-bound things.

Think not that a holy nation must needs conquer or be conquered. For the only nation that shall be holy shall be the nation with open arms and free consciousness to Love all as priests of God in Christ should indeed do. Only in undifferentiated Love may peace come to comfort the pilgrim.

We leave you in peace, now and forever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of Love and open our hearts minds, and souls to send Love, Light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite Love, Light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our Love, Light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Hatonn channeling for this session come from October 7, 1984:

(S channeling)

I am Hatonn, and we are pleased to greet you this evening in the Love and in the Light of the one infinite Creator. We have been with this instrument for some time as requested, and we are grateful for the opportunity to speak a few words through her this evening. We are grateful also for your gracious invitation and we are pleased to be able to offer to your group our service.

We find that we often have difficulty in finding new and more exquisite ways of praising that message which is invariably simple and always the same. We are not always able to speak in a manner that is precise, for the same simple message may seem to some to be tedious or repetitive. However, we assure you, dear friends, that the message is the message of Love, and no amount of words can ever express that which is so simple than to use the word Love. The meaning of the word often gets lost upon your planet and few seldom stop and think about this word when it is heard or spoken.

The immensity in this single simple word is truly overwhelming. The thought or the energy that goes into this word is, indeed, more powerful than we are able to express. The energy that is received when this word is truly felt is a powerful influence. To picture Love as a very small and insignificant four-letter word is to deprive that word of its true and deeper meaning. Take not this word lightly. Take this word to heart and within your own consciousness expand that simple word to its ever-reaching potential. Let not those four small letters get lost in a haze of many letters. Let them stand out and shine with the power that is truly within the thought behind the word. Its immensity is truly beyond comprehension. We shall leave this instrument at this time and once again we thank her for this opportunity. I am Hatonn.

(Carla channeling)

I am Hatonn, and I greet you in the Love and the Light of our infinite Creator. We shall continue through this instrument. We speak of the one original Thought. The simplicity of our message is deceptive. It deceives in that it is far more difficult to do those things which are simple, yet deep, than to accomplish those things which may take many steps, but which are laid out before you as it were so that each step was well known. We can give you no recipe for grasping, experiencing, or manifesting Love. We can only offer the tools of inspiration through messages such as this one and the inward silent listening which is called meditation or prayer. Sometimes when we speak to a small group, we are able to speak more to the heart of individual’s needs, and that is so this evening. We would begin the, shall we say, variation upon a theme of the incredible relief of [inaudible] by moving backwards in your way of thinking until you reach that you feel is before all other things real. Shall you call this island in space which is to your heart real? It would seem to be real. Shall we call the steady progression of seasons and your time real? The progression would seem to be quite real and dependable. Yet you are not seeking because you wish to find the real things that you can hold. You are seeking as do all because of the firm suspicion, if not downright belief, that behind that which is touchable there lies that which is more real which created that which you see and experience.

It is the fervent hope of most who ponder such things that this force, principle, or other reality have some structure and [inaudible], so that each of you is not living in anarchy and chaos, and, indeed, we believe that that is the case. And we have termed that which is behind all things, that which has created all things, that which is the one original Thought. Of course it beggars the imagination. It is too simple. We shall through this instrument explore one portion of the nature of the Creator for a while, for that particular variation has been on the mind of the instrument and has a margin of interest for the rest.

In this session Hatonn spoke of how we can manifest the Love of the Creator on our spiritual journey. They began by saying we speak of the one original Thought, and the simplicity of our message is deceptive, for it deceives in that it is more difficult to do those things which are simple, yet deep, than to do those things which take many steps, but which are laid out before you, so that each step was well known, but we can give you no recipe for manifesting Love, so we can offer the tools of inspiration through messages such as this one and the silent listening of meditation or prayer, for  sometimes when we speak to a small group, we are able to speak more to the heart of an individual’s needs, and that is so this evening, so we would begin the variation upon a theme of the relief of [inaudible] by moving backwards until you reach that which you feel is before all other things real, so: “Shall you call this island in space which is to your heart real? Shall we call the steady progression of seasons and your time real?” Now Hatonn said the progression would seem to be real and dependable, yet you are not seeking because you wish to find the real things that you can hold, but you are seeking as do all because of the belief that behind that which is touchable there lies that which is more real which created that which you see and experience. Hatonn went on to say it is the hope of most who ponder such things that this force or other reality have some structure and [inaudible], so that each of you is not living in anarchy and chaos, and we believe that that is the case, so we have termed that which has created all things, that which is the one original Thought, for it beggars the imagination, and we shall through Carla explore one portion of the nature of the Creator for that variation has been on her mind and has some interest for the rest. On November 21, 1982, Latwii described the nature of the one original Thought:

Consider that what you seek is a portion of the one original Thought. That Thought is unity. That Thought of the one Creator has allowed each portion of Itself to travel through free will within the creation of the one original Thought. The journey takes many turns. Yet within each moment, Love exists. Within each moment, the Creator resides in full at all times. That this is not recognized does not diminish its truth. Such difficulties provide the stimulus for the inner seeking as the outer world begins to fade, for it becomes apparent to the seeker that Love may best be found within the heart of the being. Love then found there might be radiated, as a beacon shines light in the darkest portion of the night. Sorrow and suffering then motivate those feeling the suffering to seek more and more within, more and more in that portion of your illusion which Love inhabits purely and always readily available.

We would speak to the virtue of a characteristic that is often thought among your people to be a hindrance. That characteristic is what you may call weakness. Within your third-density experience, again and again compliments, and the regard of others are given to those who are seen to be strong: strong-willed, strong in ambition, strong to endure, strong to wait, strong in the face of adversity, powerful with people, with events, and with the forces of unplanned adversity which often appear to be emergencies. Far too little credit is given to the characteristic known among your people as weakness. There is a saying within this instrument’s memory, “If you can keep your head when all around you are losing theirs, you may lack awareness of the situation.” Weakness is frequently the appearance which an entity gives who has such a firm grasp upon the situation that the entity is aware there is nothing that can be done, and that, therefore, there is nothing to do about something. It often may appear that such a person is weak, but in actuality the person is far stronger than the one who thinks, struggles, and attempts to control others and forces which are beyond any reasonable control. Let us use as an example that weakest of all the elements. For earth is heavy, fire light, and the air whispering. Water, as it rains on the cedars, bespeaks of that which does not have strength.

Then Hatonn spoke of the concept of weakness. So, they said we would speak to the virtue of a characteristic that is often thought among your people to be a hindrance, and that characteristic is weakness, so within your third-density experience the regards of others are given to those who are strong-willed and powerful with people, with events, and with the forces of unplanned adversity which often appear to be emergencies, for little credit is given to the characteristic of weakness, and there is a saying within Carla’s memory, “If you can keep your head when all around you are losing theirs, you may lack awareness of the situation,” for weakness is the appearance which an entity gives who has a firm grasp upon the situation that the entity is aware there is nothing that can be done, and there is nothing to do about it, yet often it may appear that such a person is weak, but in actuality the person is stronger than the one who struggles and attempts to control others and the forces which are beyond reasonable control, so let us use as an example that weakest of all the elements, for earth is heavy, fire light, and the air whispering, but water, as it rains on the cedars, speaks of that which does not have strength. On April 18, 1993, Q’uo spoke of the concept of weakness:

For each seeker there is the cycle of experience which manifests in mind, body, and spirit energy levels, and their continual shifting from strength to weakness as catalyst is processed within the environment of your third-density illusion. Thus, there are times when each seeker will find that it is more fully infused with this vital energy or the combination of energy of mind, body, and spirit.

There will be times when the seeker finds itself low and somewhat disabled by its lethargy. There will be far more times where the seeker will find itself moving between these extremes, as the cycles of each energy complex move independently and harmoniously with each other. We find that there are many factors which may be commented upon in relation to your current condition. However, the most fundamental feature of your experience of lowered energy levels is that you are within the trough or downward portion of the overall experience of your mind, body, and spirit energy levels or, again, as we have called this combination, the vital energy level.

[The remaining channeling becomes increasingly inaudible. Ellipses indicate inaudible portions.]

We do not mean to confuse you by looking at the waters and the wind as people. No, my friends, we speak now of water as it goes about the business of gentle rain which soaks into the earth, runs into the ocean, and is evaporated. This has a tremendous … for personal growth. If the ground is … with … or paved with concrete, water attempts no … but is instead attracted without … to one of two things. The living … for … or the force of … to gravity which calls it be lower … Already we have described the incredible Creator-healer … force for he goes …

But let us look … In your imagination … imagine the feeling that … The earth begins … Water … The infinite … Water is without … It is not … it will not … And as it … As you gaze at each … imagine the … the water which moves in streams … There are many changes, shall we say within your illusion … Those who choose to … This entity has for several of … Then slowly … weeks of … to leave … And yet … Whereas the seeming strength of … would have … There is a progression within each … Within this progression there are … The desire to give service to others …

[Inaudible to the end of the tape.]

This morning the quote from The Thunder of Silence is: “In our humanhood, we are the people of the bondwoman, in subjection to the flesh and its claims, in bondage to the things, thoughts, and activities of the flesh, whether it be this flesh of the body or the flesh called money or other forms of human living. Living in and through the flesh as the offspring of the bondwoman, we are under the laws of matter the laws of economics, and the laws of race, religion, and nationality—under the covenant “which gendereth to bondage.” The other covenant is that of our spiritual adoption, which comes through a conscious activity within our own consciousness and at a time when we are prepared for that transition because the transition from humanhood to spiritual sonship is made only by Grace.

When a person says that they would like to be a child of God and be free of the burdens of the flesh, usually they do not really mean it. What they mean is that they would like to be free of the burdens of the flesh but retain the pleasures and the profits of the flesh. It is for this reason that as human beings we cannot choose to be children of God.

But there does come a time in the consciousness of every one of us—with some now and with some many lifetimes from now—when, through an inner Grace, we are able and willing not only to be rid of the ills of the flesh but also of the pleasures and profits of the flesh, and to become acquainted with our spiritual identity or Selfhood, with that new creature—not of the one made healthy, not the old one made honorable, but a new creature which is born of the Spirit. This is the transitional experience.

To be born of the Spirit means to be reborn through a transition of consciousness and this rebirthing can occur while we are on this very plane of consciousness known as the Earth, or it can take place after we have left this sphere. It is well to remember that if we fail to make the transition here, there will always be the opportunity for us to make it hereafter because in the kingdom of God there is no time. There it is always now, and this now is always presenting itself to us with fresh opportunities.”

Later this morning I went outside and used the garden hose to fill the fishpond up about six inches since this much water seems to have disappeared once again, but the fountain is still running normally. While the fishpond was filling with water I finished hand weeding the Solomon Seal flower behind the garage. After the fishpond was at its normal level I threw a cup of AquaSafe into the water to neutralize the chlorine.

This afternoon I used  my hedge clippers to trim the dead blooms off of the Vanilla-Strawberry Hydrangeas in front of the fishpond. Then I used Huff and Puff to blow the dead blooms into a pile so that I could put them into a garbage can. Then I used some Windex, a squeegee, and a rag to clean the living room window that looks out into the back yard. Then I cleaned the window behind my chair in the living room.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

March 26

Bloom In Due Season

I am of the principle of the most high; of the consciousness of divine Love. I greet you in peace.

The sun shines, beckoning to spring. Spring comes to the sun as a dove to its dovecote or the weary cow to its barn. For one more cycle the travail of Earth is over. And, born anew from the dead and sleeping land, new life appears, shyly peeking from the safety of the soil’s womb but drawn ever onward by the nourishing warmth of the sun and the blessing of the rain.

So, it is with each of you who are seeds. You are planted in the soil of your humanity. What can you do with the seed that you carry within you? Nothing. You may only improve the soil, cultivate that small plot where your spirit may rise in bud and bloom in due season.

If it be wintertime in your heart, it is time to accept that each seed needs times of deep contemplation and the gathering of energy. But when each sees that first glimmer of sunlight, let your spirit be glad. Let your heart leap for joy within you.

May you prepare your soul in all gladness for the beautiful blossom that lies budded and waiting within you.

We leave you in the peace of Christ Jesus, now and evermore. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of Love and open our hearts minds, and souls to send Love, Light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite Love, Light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our Love, Light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Hatonn and Latwii channelings for this session come from August 26, 1984:

(S channeling)

I am Hatonn, and I am pleased to greet you this evening in the Love and in the Light of the one infinite Creator. We have spent some moments of your time with this instrument as she requested, so that we might be prompt in speaking through her this evening. We hope we have not caused alarm to any who were planning on a longer wait this evening. We are grateful for the opportunity to be with this instrument, as she is sometimes hesitant to allow our vibrations to come through her, but we feel we have a splendid mixing this evening.

We are often surprised by the amount of confusion that overwhelms some of your people at this time, for we sometimes think that it would be so simple if your people were able to escape this confusion by simply allowing themselves to enter their own being where the confusion is less apparent. But this is not always the case. We look upon your planet with Love and hope in our hearts, and we are so honored when the Love from groups such as this is returned to us, and we are grateful for the Love and Light that is shared between us. We are always hopeful and ever looking forward to the next meeting, and we look upon those past meetings with a good feeling in our hearts, and we are humbled by the Love expressed at these times.

The anger upon your planet is often very easy to see, the Love sometimes more difficult. But for us the feeling of Love is very powerful and runs deeply through many of your people. The Love is not always expressed openly in an aggressive manner, but be assured, dear friends, that Love expands and is felt throughout the universe. The continuous pumping of Love, as if from a heart, to the ends of creation is a pulse that is felt by all, and there are times when your planet beats strongly.

We realize that that which is printed in your newspapers is not usually of this nature, and one must realize that the newspaper is not the place to find this feeling. In your quiet states allow yourself to relax and feel the Love as it beats and pulses around and through your very being, for it continues from each entity and it reaches to the ends of creation, and it does not become a smaller quantity as it reaches out further. As the Love pulses, so does it multiply, and so does it become greater, ever moving onward, ever more powerful, and ever making a louder pulse. Become aware of the Love that you send, and allow it to flow freely, for we and all of creation are grateful for that which you are generous enough to send.

We would transfer to another instrument at this time. I am Hatonn.

(Carla channeling)

I am Hatonn. We must adjust to this instrument’s vibrations, if you will allow us to pause briefly.

[Pause]

We greet you once again in the Love and in the Light of the infinite Creator. As this heart of Love pulses, my friends, so does the entire creation pulse, each Logos, as you would call it, pulsing in its own depth of Love and sending forth the slightest variation on the universal signal which is the beat of the universe as it contracts and flows forward. Much has been made of your astrology, but we say to you that the most vital portion of this art is the specific note of the music of the heartbeat which pulses from each of your stars and, in a larger sense, of your galaxy. Indeed, there are influences upon you from the heavens in that you have rhythms, the beating of your heart, the intake of your breath and all your diurnal and monthly cycles. As you go through these cycles, it is as if there were Light beamed upon you, shone through different colored lenses, each color affecting you slightly differently, so that your rhythm sings with a slightly different mellowness or harshness. There is great creativity in the unending variety and equally never-ending predictability of the cycles of these hearts of Love, which shine and send their radiations of Love and Light to the universe, and, as you stand where you may be affected, to you personally.

In your turn, you yourself may affect the universe. Not upon any level that you may understand in a dramatic and mundane way, but you may think of the experience of gazing down at countryside as you fly through the darkness. There is a light here and one there, and you know that you are passing through a very uninhabited place. And suddenly, as you cross the crest of a mountain or a hill, you see before you the lights of a great city. So are your Light groups. Such is the nature of Love that those even two or three, as it says in your holy works, who gather together in order to seek Light and to offer Light and Love to the creation may form a Light that is as exciting and visible as one of your great cities. This is due to the fact that truly a group is not the sum of its parts but is far greater. Each has a vibratory dynamic with each other in a group. Each further has invoked or evoked a principle or a truth. You have evoked that which is truth, that which is Love. Yours is what may be called a universal or cosmic invocation. Other groups may invoke people which have inspired them or forces of nature. When any group meets together in Love and invokes or evokes that which is positive, the Light is born and it pulsates, throbs, enjoins with other lights, other groups, other centers, other great beings which are not of your space and time but are on other planes of existence and which vibrate in harmony with you as you seek Love.

In this session Hatonn spoke about our lessons of Love. They began by saying as this heart of Love pulses, so does the entire creation pulse, each Logos pulsing in its own depth of Love and sending forth the variation on the universal signal which is the beat of the universe as it contracts and flows forward, and much has been made of astrology, but we say that the vital portion of this art is the specific note of the music of the heartbeat which pulses from each of your stars and, in a larger sense, of your galaxy, so there are influences upon you from the heavens in that you have rhythms: the beating of your heart, the intake of your breath, and all your diurnal and monthly cycles, for as you go through these cycles, it is as if there were Light beamed upon you, shone through different colored lenses, each color affecting you differently, so that your rhythm sings with a different mellowness or harshness, for there is creativity in the unending variety and never-ending predictability of the cycles of these hearts of Love, which shine and send their radiations of Love and Light to the universe, and to you personally. Now Hatonn said you may affect the universe but not upon a dramatic or mundane way, but you may think of the experience of gazing down at the countryside as you fly through the darkness, for there is a light here and one there, and you know that you are passing through an uninhabited place, and as you cross the crest of a mountain, you see the lights of a great city, so are your Light groups, yet such is the nature of Love that when two or three gather together in order to seek Light and to offer Light and Love to the creation they may form a Light that is as exciting as one of your great cities, and this is because a group is not the sum of its parts but is far greater, for each has a vibratory dynamic with each other in a group, and each has invoked or evoked a principle or a truth, so you have invoked that which is truth and Love, for yours is a cosmic invocation, but other groups may invoke people which have inspired them or forces of nature, so when any group meets together in Love and invokes or evokes that which is positive, the Light is born, and it pulsates with other lights, other groups or other great beings which are not of your space and time but are on other planes of existence and which vibrate in harmony with you as you seek Love. On November 3, 1985, Hatonn spoke of the value of Light groups:

When groups of entities meet together, the Light blazes far, far brighter than by merely addition, for each gives each strength, clarity, and purity of being, each giving unto each the gift of Light. That is why your so-called Light groups are crucial, always have been, and always shall be. They are centers, if you will, of focus for that which is lightest in all people to have a safe place to be vulnerable and to shine forth in the darkness.

We who have served with the Confederation of Planets in the Service of the Infinite Creator within your sphere of influence for some time, as you call it, have seen more, and more, and more lights glowing in the darkness. Their radiance is growing brighter and there are beginning to be networks formed, networks of Light, traceries like lace encircling the darkened spiritual metaphysical planes of your Earth world. However, we do not want to emphasize overly much the function of the group, for each entity goes forth from the group and yet is still an entity holding as in the holograph all of the Light of consciousness, all of the fresh and living radiance of the one original Thought.

Indeed, my friends, as you seek you present a beautiful and glorious feast for our eyes and for our hearts, and we wish to take this opportunity to encourage you, knowing how many times you feel that you have fallen and failed but yet knowing the determination to seek once more, always and ever, that which is Love. The nature of Love has been approached in so many ways within your philosophers’ works, your so-called religions, your poems, and your books. It has been dismembered and analyzed by those who call themselves psychologists and scientists, and yet we say to you that Love is not at all understood. We say this to you, knowing that this, to your sorrow perhaps, you know all too well, for you seek to learn the lessons of Love, and the lessons are elusive. We would offer to you this evening only a short tale that may illustrate one way of looking at the manifestation of the original Thought of the Creator, a manifestation that is available to all who seek with no exceptions, for it is within you. It is, shall we say, an over-the-counter commodity, its simplicity so staggering that the mind can hardly deal with the true nature of the manifestation of Love.

And so, we shall begin by saying, “Once upon a time,” as you begin your stories. Once upon a time there was a king. He was not a great king; he was not a cruel king; he was a mediocre king. There were many about him. There was the queen who gave great feasts and parties and entertainments so that her king could make a toast proud of his house, and his wealth, and his generosity. There were those who counseled him, giving the best advice another could, spending many, many hours and days at a time pondering questions of state and enabling the king to prosper in his kingdom. There were those who went out to collect taxes, so that the king’s coffers might be full. Sometimes they might take a bit too much, but after all, it was for the king, whom they loved and whom they wished to serve. And so it went, the many servants of the king excelling and loving the king or begrudging every minute of hard labor because to be a king seems so much better than to be a servant. The least of all in the kingdom was one who had a deformity and was unable to walk without great difficulty. Her back was hunched, and one eye looked east while the other looked west. All reviled her, including the king. She waited at the gates of the great city, which housed the palace, and begged. And she blessed all who went by, those who gave money and those who did not.

Then Hatonn said as you seek, you present a glorious feast for our eyes and hearts, and we wish to take this opportunity to encourage you, knowing how many times you feel that you have failed, yet knowing the determination to seek once more, always and ever, that which is Love, so the nature of Love has been approached in many ways within your philosophers’ works, your religions, and your books, and it has been analyzed by psychologists and scientists, yet we say to you that Love is not understood, but we say this to you knowing that you know this well, for you seek to learn the lessons of Love which are elusive, but we would offer you a short tale that may illustrate one way of looking at the manifestation of the original Thought of the Creator, a manifestation that is available to all who seek with no exceptions, for it is within you, and it is an over-the-counter commodity, its simplicity so staggering that the mind can hardly deal with the true nature of the manifestation of Love. Hatonn continued by saying once upon a time there was a king, but he was not a great king or a cruel king; he was a mediocre king, and there were many about him, and there was the queen who gave feasts and parties, so that her king could make a toast proud of his house, his wealth, and his generosity, so there were those who counseled him, giving the best advice they could, spending many hours and days pondering questions of state and enabling the king to prosper in his kingdom, and there were those who went out to collect taxes, so that the king’s coffers might be full, but sometimes they might take too much, but it was for the king, whom they loved and whom they wished to serve, so it went, the many servants of the king excelling and loving the king or begrudging every minute of hard labor because to be a king seems so much better than to be a servant, yet the least of all in the kingdom was one who had a deformity and was unable to walk without difficulty since her back was hunched, and one eye looked east while the other looked west, and all reviled her, including the king, but she waited at the gates of the great city, which housed the palace, and begged, and she blessed all who went by, those who gave money and those who did not. On January 6, 1991, Q’uo described the nature of Love:

When the experience of the one infinite Creator has been collected, reaped, and gathered, blessed, thanked, and honored, then a portion of the self is aware, in a way that it cannot express in words, of the nature of Love, of the Creator, and of the self. Then, this immediate, ineffable experience, which is not learning, but the result of learning, may be broken, opened, as infinite as it is, and offered as Love within the illusion, to the illusion itself, to those one meets within the illusion, and to the self.

What the paths are for is to deliver the relativistic self over to the worshipful and open and faithful heart. When that state has been achieved, even momentarily, by the seeking entity, the experience of unity with the infinite Creator is had, and stored, and remembered. It is at that point that all paths become one, just as all manifestations of Christed consciousness tell different stories, but in their essence are all one.

Hatonn continued by sayingThis situation is a description of different ways you look at Love. It is assumed that there is an object of Love, in our story, the king. Some take the object of Love and give the best of their hearts, some the best of their minds, some the gifts of their greed, some as little as they can. But the one who truly Loves gives Love with no object. We are aware that your minds ask you, “How can I acquire this high-sounding principle? I seek to Love and to serve many entities but truly a few special ones. They are the object of Love, and I wish to know how to seek to serve with heart, with mind, with gifts, with what I can.” Love is more simple than that, my friends. To Love, to serve, involves moving with the heartbeat and being careless of the object. The heart does not always know how to serve, nor does the mind, nor can any gift be predictably correct to reinforce Love and to manifest its brightness and its joy. The heartbeat that pulses within each for each, from each and to each, is one original Thought. This Thought lives and has Its being in you and each of you and in all that is.

Then Hatonn said some take the object of Love and give the best of their hearts, some the best of their minds, some the gifts of their greed, some as little as they can, but the one who truly Loves gives Love with no object, and to Love and to serve involves moving with the heartbeat and being careless of the object, for the heart does not always know how to serve, nor does the mind, nor can any gift be predictably correct to reinforce Love and to manifest its brightness and its joy, so the heartbeat that pulses within each for each, from each to each, is the one original Thought that lives and has Its being in you, and each of you, and in all that is, so as the quiet of evening settles about you, and you feel the Love within this group, within this domicile, we seemingly leave you, although you know that we never can be apart from you, for if we are all one, and if the universe is the Creator: “How could we ever truly be apart? How could any people of any relationship ever be apart?” Then Hatonn said Love that which is, whether blessed or cursed by those images of yourself who pass you, so we encourage you to Love, for the activity of Loving is the sharing of the Creator with the Creator. On July 15, 1984, Hatonn described the value of how to Love and to serve:

When the freedom that you seek is the freedom to Love and to serve, you stand on firm ground—not safe ground, my friends, for to Love is not easy; to serve is most difficult; to communicate is treacherous; to share deeply of yourself is painful, and yet, Love abides and draws you to it, for you are that which Loves and that which is Love. You are both sides of the magnet which is the creation. The great attractive force is the same force that created you, and that force is Love.

Do you wish to be free? Then prepare yourself for a bumpy ride through life but a joyous one, for when you give and count not the cost, you purchase that which has no price. It is written in your holy works: “You who sow in tears shall reap in joy.” May your tears be blessed; may your joy be great; and may your seeking be filled with the Love and the Light which are the manifestations of the one infinite Creator which speaks through us to you and from you to us, echoing and re-echoing over and over the great rhythms of thanksgiving.

We leave you in this Love and the Light which is its manifestation. I am known to you as Hatonn. We ask, as always, that you be aware of our foolishness and seek not either to convince yourself or to convince others of anything which we may say. Allow those things which seem inspirational or helpful to you to sink deep within for there are underground rivers within you which are fed by inspiration. Allow those things which are not helpful to fall away quickly with no second thoughts. Know that we Love you and that we thank you for your Love for each other and for us and for the truth which is the Creator. Adonai, my friends. Adonai

(Jim channeling)

I am Latwii, and I greet you, my friends, in the Love and in the Light of our infinite Creator. We are privileged once again to be asked to join your group in our attempt to serve you by attempting to answer those queries which are upon your minds as you seek truth. We are honored to follow those of Hatonn and feel that if we can achieve half the inspiration that our brothers and sisters of Hatonn have achieved that we shall, indeed, have added some measure of inspiration to your journeys. May we begin with the first query at this time?

S: Yes, Latwii, I have a question for you which you may feel free to answer in a general manner. I was wondering about the origin of the children who are being born to those who are wanderers at this time. Could you tell me anything about that?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my sister. This query is one which is not easily answered, for there are a great number of sources of these children, for it is the nature of the entity that you call a wanderer to attempt to be of service to others. This attempt may take any form. When children are a portion of this attempt, again there are many ways in which a so-called wanderer may serve. It may be that the child has a special need which the wanderer shall by nature be more able to provide, and therefore an agreement shall be made, and the child shall find shelter and nurture within the Love and being of the wanderer. One may suppose that such an entity as you have mentioned would have the child which would be of a special vibrational nature, perhaps one readying itself for graduation or perhaps one having been graduated and preparing itself to become the new population of your planet or perhaps even another of what you have called wanderer.

And this is, of course, possible that any or all of these sources may be drawn to such an entity as you have described. But we may also suggest that services are required by a great variety of entities at this time, entities which may need to feel and experience in the incarnation great difficulties in order that difficulties may find balance, and Love may become the manifestation of difficulty. It may be that an entity would wish such a parent if the entity were one which had frequently lost track of its incarnational course in that which you have called its past, and would wish to join one or two who may be able to provide a more firm compass bearings, shall we say, through which the incarnation might find its full expression. As you see, there are, indeed, a number of sources from which those called wanderers may find entities coming into its sphere of influence from. There are, of course, others as well. We have spoken to the general run or way of things, shall we say.

S asked: “I was wondering about the origin of the children who are being born to those who are wanderers at this time. Could you tell me anything about that?” Latwii replied there are a number of sources of these children, for it is the nature of the wanderer to attempt to be of service to others, and this attempt may take any form, so when children are a portion of this attempt, there are many ways in which a wanderer may serve, for it may be that the child has a special need which the wanderer shall be more able to provide, and an agreement shall be made, and the child shall find shelter and nurture within the Love and being of the wanderer, yet one may suppose that such an entity as you have mentioned would have the child which would be of a special vibrational nature, perhaps one readying itself for graduation or perhaps one having been graduated and preparing itself to become the new population of your planet or perhaps even another of what you have called wanderer. Then Latwii said it is possible that any or all of these sources may be drawn to such an entity as you have described, but we suggest that services are required by a variety of entities at this time, entities which may need to feel and experience difficulties in the incarnation in order that difficulties may find balance, and Love may become the manifestation of difficulty, for it may be that an entity would wish such a parent if the entity were one which had frequently lost track of its incarnational course in its past, and it would wish to join one or two who may be able to provide firm compass bearings through which the incarnation might find its full expression, and as you see, there are a number of sources from which wanderers may find entities coming into their sphere of influence, and there are others as well, so we have spoken to the general way of things. On August 7, 2012, Q’uo spoke of the value of experiencing difficulties:

There may be many, many times when the chinks in your armor of Light are intensified by the natural resistance of what this instrument calls the “loyal opposition.” And you may experience difficulties and dark nights. Yet, my friends, is not each dawn a new day? It is indeed. As you awaken on each new day, know that it is a new universe, a new world, and a completely new beginning. Nothing is ever old to those who are awake to Love. Everything is new now.

May we answer you further, my sister?

S: Well, I was wondering if I could pin you down enough to say which group that you have previously spoken of would comprise the larger percentage?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my sister. Let us see, as we survey the so-called demographic statistics. We find that the greatest source of the new entities which you call children who are incarnating in those households in which there is an entity which you have called the wanderer is that entity which is nearing the graduation and has a certain kind of lesson or balance that is needed in order that the graduation might be achieved.

May we answer you further, my sister?

S: That research was wonderful. Still along the same lines somewhat, a thought occurred to me that parents are generally loving and very giving towards their children, while children, at a young age especially, tend to be somewhat selfish and self-centered and really do a lot of absorbing because they really need that at that particular time, but I was wondering if it ever happens that a negative entity would choose to be born into a household where there would be positive parents, because it would have such a great potential of absorbing so much Love or would … is that the kind of situation where it’s kind of an agreement that’s made beforehand, so it would be likely to be agreed upon beforehand, I would think? Does that make any sense at all?

I am Latwii, and am aware of your query, my sister. We find the thread of logic in what you say, and can suggest that such a situation is most unlikely, for the entity which you have described as being of a negative polarity is of a nature which would not find the nurturing within such a household as you have described as being that which was helpful to …

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(Jim channeling)

I am Latwii and am with this instrument once again. It would seem that the opportunity to absorb Love which is freely given would be the ideal situation for a negative entity. Yet the negatively-oriented entity would find the harmony and freely given Love to be somewhat repugnant to its nature, wishing instead to test its desire for separation and control upon those whose desire was of a similar nature, thereby being a test of, shall we say, so-called equals in which the strength of separation could be gained. Therefore, the situation in which a negatively-oriented entity would find most desirable for its incarnation would be one in which the polarity of the parents would be either negative or neutral, and disharmony would be possible.

May we answer you further, my sister?

S: No, I think you’ve worked on my logic very well. Thank you, Latwii.

I am Latwii, and we thank you, my sister, as always. May we attempt another query?

Carla: Well, just following that up. If you had extraordinarily positive parents, wouldn’t the entity that wanted to learn one more lesson and therefore—and also you mentioned, had lost track of its incarnational course many times—and was, therefore, trying for one last shot before graduation, wouldn’t such an entity that had a bunch of rough edges seem to such positive entities to be negative, even though it was just kinda blah compared to really rotten kids, just because of the sensitivity of the parents?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my sister. It may be that such an entity would be perceived by its parents, as you call them, to be of such a nature as you have mentioned. It may be that such an entity would be perceived in a variety of ways depending upon the sensitivities of those called parents. We believe this is the gist of your query.

May we answer further, my sister?

Carla: Just a point that I’m curious about. What would you call parents?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my sister. We would call those which you call parents, more according to the sound vibration, teacher.

May we answer you further?

Carla: No. No, thank you.

I am Latwii, and we thank you, my sister, as always. It is a pleasure to hear your voice. May we attempt another query at this time?

S: Well, yes, along the same lines. If these children have come here because there is something that they need to do in order to graduate, are the parents, maybe by pre-incarnative choice or otherwise, partially responsible for the children becoming aware of this, or would you see the parents’ main job is to Love these children and to … I’m sorry, I’m not making a lot of sense. What I’m trying to say is are these children mainly on their own, I mean, are they pretty much responsible for their own ability or inability to graduate?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my sister. We may suggest that the answer to this query is both yes and no. We shall attempt to explain. It is true that each entity is, indeed, in charge of its own lessons and pace of learning them. But it is also true that an entity wishing to learn ballet is unlikely to engage in a course in which football is taught. Thus, it is that entities will before the incarnation determine the general guidelines, shall we say, or parameters within which the lessons and services shall be learned and provided. When an entity has found, shall we say, a match between its needs and the needs of another, then an agreement can be made, and free will can be observed in full sway, for each entity shall find the greater opportunity for its needed catalyst to be provided during the incarnation with entities of a like mind, shall we say, rather than if agreements were to be attempted between entities whose general guidelines were quite dissimilar.

May we answer you further, my sister?

S: Well, yes. Then it’s possible that one reason that my children chose me to be a mother was so that they would be exposed to my type of religion rather than being born into a Catholic house. Is that kind of what you’re saying?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my sister. This is the gist of our response. It would be perhaps the choice of entities such as your children to enter into a household such as your own which is able to provide a somewhat broader perspective upon that which you have called religion or philosophy than to have joined a household where the perspective was of a more restricted nature, and the truth was seen to be of a narrower nature.

May we attempt further response, my sister?

S: No, thank you, Latwii. Somehow, you’ve made it a little easier to be a parent this evening. Thank you.

I am Latwii and thank you, my sister. We look forward to the next PTA meeting. May we attempt another refreshing answer?

Carla: I just have one follow-up to that whole thing, and that is that when coincidence control has heavily managed the planning of one’s family instead of one’s own logic, can that same coincidence control be trusted when one thing changes, and that is that the person becomes aware that there is the potential for one more soul out there, or do things change so that the mother and father need to then make a conscious decision instead of letting coincidence control and pre-incarnative agreements rule the day?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my sister. We might suggest that that quality that you have called coincidence control is a much more personal quality than you might have imagined, for it is the case before incarnation that a most general guideline is laid out for the incarnation by the entity, its, shall we say, guides and its higher self. And during the incarnation there are, shall we say, alternate possibilities that present themselves when another possibility has been chosen or perhaps has not been chosen, so that there is, during the incarnation, a constant interplay of possibilities which swing into action and appear as the coincidence when the time is right. It may be that a certain lesson can be learned in many ways, and that many ways are chosen as possibilities so that should the first, shall we say, bus be missed, there shall be another soon with the same destination.

May we answer you further, my sister?

Carla: In other words, [inaudible]? No, that’s fine. Thank you.

I am Latwii, and we again thank you, my sister. Is there another query at this time?

Carla: Well, if nobody’s going to jump right in there, I had a fascinating thing happen to me. In the middle of what seems like a sad thing—my grandmother is very ill with a stroke which just happened this week, and I was sitting with her and she saw things. She saw many, many angels that were flying about the room. She saw something around, just above my head and around it as she described as snowflakes and rectangles that were lit up like neon or something like a movie marquee flashing. She saw something that was of an indigo-blue-green mixed color right around my forehead. She saw lace that was whirling around my neck, and I asked what color it was and she said red. And she saw a twelve or thirteen-year-old boy, dark hair, dark eyes that was standing right beside me.

I was very interested in this and wondered if she was the victim of extremely poor eyesight, hallucinating, or seeing those things on other planes that we call chakras and the blocking of chakras which I would interpret the red around the throat to be and perhaps entities that are with me for some reason and with her for obvious reasons, the angels I mean.

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my sister and am aware that it is a query that moves into the concept of the infinity of the universe. Therefore, we find our ability to speak coherently upon the various points of your query somewhat limited by both words and sensibility. We shall attempt general commentary upon those qualities of your query which we feel competent to investigate.

It is the casewith entities such as your grandmother who are preparing to leave your plane of existence that they shall find, as the old body and senses are beginning to be shed, that they do not lose as much as they gain. The eyes which once looked upon a world of three dimensions now see that world not only in a different Light but see that which you might call another world as well as they begin their transition from one to the other. Those colors and shapes which were noted about your being may be seen as, shall we say—we give this instrument the picture of a Baskin Robbins and quite confuse him. But you are, indeed, like such an establishment which has many flavors or qualities of being, and during one portion of time or month you may have a variety of them on sale, shall we say. There may be various qualities within your being or nature which at one time are evident to those with eyes to see, and which sparkle in brilliance as their nature is expressed by you. At another time you may find other qualities taking precedence over the ones which had sway at a previous time.

The beings which have been noted by this entity may be likened unto the travelers which join the pilgrim for a portion of its journey. Just as you move through your third-dimensional illusion and gather about you certain friends and acquaintances and spend time with them on occasions, just so, there are those entities of other realms, shall we say, who travel with you in much the same fashion. Though unseen and to most unapparent in any regard, yet do they journey with the seeker and add their portion of being to the seeker’s journey. These entities may range from that which is commonly known as the guide or angelic presence to astral souls who have recently been within your third density in a manifested incarnation and who may now find a helpful experience in their own journey to be that of joining you for a portion of yours, and who add their own nature of helpfulness to your journey in a manner which is unseen and quite likely not apparent in any way except to those with certain sensitivities such as your grandmother is now developing as a result of the transition which she is accomplishing.

S asked: “I was very interested in this and wondered if she was the victim of extremely poor eyesight, hallucinating, or seeing those things on other planes that we call chakras and the blocking of chakras which I would interpret the red around the throat to be and perhaps entities that are with me for some reason and with her for obvious reasons, the angels I mean.” Latwii said that it is the case with entities such as your grandmother, who are preparing to leave your plane of existence, that they shall find that they do not lose as much as they gain, and the eyes which once looked upon a world of three dimensions now see that world not only in a different Light but see another world as well as they begin their transition from one to the other, so those colors and shapes which were noted about your being may be seen as many qualities of being, and during one portion of time you may have a variety of them, and there may be various qualities within your being which are evident to those with eyes to see and which sparkle in brilliance as their nature is expressed by you, but at another time you may find other qualities taking precedence over the ones which had sway at a previous time. Now Latwii said the beings which have been noted by this entity may be likened unto the travelers which join the pilgrim for a portion of its journey, and just as you move through your third-dimensional illusion and gather about you friends and spend time with them, so there are entities of other realms who travel with you in the same fashion, but unseen and to most unapparent in any regard, yet do they journey with the seeker and add their portion of being to the seeker’s journey, for these entities may range from that which is the guide, or angelic presence, to astral souls who have recently been within your third density in a manifested incarnation, and who may now find an helpful experience in their own journey to be that of joining you for a portion of yours and who add their own nature of helpfulness to your journey in a manner which is unseen and not apparent in any way except to those with certain sensitivities such as your grandmother is now developing as a result of the transition which she is accomplishing. On March 31, 1991, Q’uo spoke of the nature of an angelic presence:

First of all, let us remove the relatively shallow purpose of the number three. There are three points to a triangle. There were three wise men. Three women came to the tomb on Easter morning. The Sanctus is sung three times. And in the story of Christianity that has devolved into a body of dogma the one infinite Creator is divided into three things: the Creator, the savior and the accompaniment or angelic presence that guides each entity in everyday life. The number three is a way of expressing all that there is, not in fullness but by emblematic intentions. Three is the number that expresses an entire class or genre of a particular quality or action, yet universalizes the particular.

May we answer you further, my sister?

Carla: Just one question, and I thank you for that answer. Fascinating. When I was thirty-two I almost decided to conceive a child. I came very close to deciding to do that. It would have involved a great deal of personal upheaval, leaving, and so forth. However, I really wanted to have a child, impractical as it was. I decided against it because I really couldn’t leave Don, and I couldn’t stick him with a kid that wasn’t his, so I didn’t do it. And I was wondering, because the age was right, if that spirit is the child that was waiting to be born to me and has now decided to stay with me on an astral plane?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my sister. We find in this case that our ability to speak is somewhat limited due to our desire to maintain the free will of your current incarnation.

Carla: Let me put it another way. Does it ever happen?

I am Latwii, and we may respond in the affirmative that such a situation is possible and does occur from time to time, the entity not having been born into the incarnation choosing to remain with the incarnated potential parent in a, as you have mentioned, astral form so that experience may yet be shared with this entity, yet shared in a manner quite unlike the third-dimensional experience which each of you now find yourselves within. It may be that such an entity could do what you call a double time or experience by not only remaining in an astral form with the first, shall we say, choice of parents but also incarnating with another set of parents and having a dual experience, though the astral experience would not be immediately available to the incarnated portion of the entity’s self.

May we answer you further, my sister?

Carla: If one were to have an astral child like that, how would one serve the child?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my sister. Well, we might suggest that the food bill would not be increased, but there would, indeed, be that which is called the spiritual food which would be made available to this entity in the form of the world of experience available in thought. The fruit of the mind, then, would be the food upon which such an astral entity would find nourishment, and, indeed, the nourishment there could be of a quite substantial nature, for not all thought finds its way into manifestation and therefore does not become available to those third-dimensional children, whereas it would be much more available to an astral child, shall we say.

May we answer further, my sister?

Carla: Does the astral incarnation end when the parent’s physical incarnation ends?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my sister. This is variable according to the choices and agreements which have been made between the entities involved. It is not, shall we say, set such as your third-dimensional incarnation which may have more, shall we say, concrete boundaries to the agreement.

May we answer you further, my sister?

Carla: That’s really a bad pun. No, thank you.

I am Latwii, and we thank you, my sister, and apologize for bad puns, but at this point in this instrument’s development we are happy with any pun that we can get through.

May we attempt another query at this time?

J: I’d like to ask a question, Latwii, and it’s good to hear your puns. About my dog’s ear. I think it’s improving, but I’m not sure. I think it’s what I want to see. Can you give me any new information on it?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my brother, and we are quite pleased to hear your voice once again. We can suggest in this particular situation that the healing which is desired for the ear of your dog is a healing which will take a good deal more time, for in the experience of providing the healing for this entity, this entity is gaining more than healing. There is the Love and the affection which is naturally shown to one which has this kind of, shall we say, disease or disablement. Therefore, this entity gains a great deal of the investment of your Love and caring as you attempt to complete its healing.

May we answer you further, my brother?

J: Thank you.

I am Latwii, and we thank you, my brother. Is there another query at this time?

[Pause]

I am Latwii, and we find that once again we have exhausted those queries which each of you have so generously brought with you this evening. We thank you, as always, for the honor of sharing our humble opinions with you. These opinions are our foolish attempt at service, and we remind each to take that which has value and leave that which has none. We hope that we have provided you with some aid in your seeking, and we shall be most happy to join you at any time during your meditations that you might wish our presence. We also now seem to leave you, yet shall remain with you in that Love and Light of the one infinite Creator. We are those of Latwii. We are your own selves journeying with you through the One to the One in joy, in peace, and in power. Adonai, my friends. Adonai vasu borragus.

This morning the quote from The Thunder of Silence is: “The entire message of this book is based on the principle that there is an inner Grace which does not operate through, or by, physical might or mental powers. This Grace, of which most people are unaware, operates only when faith in anything and everything has been relinquished, even including faith in a God from whom the world has been waiting since the beginning of time.

There have been many in the history of the world who have known this secret, and each of these of whom we have knowledge has imparted it to a group of people who became their disciples or followers. In every instance, however, after one or two generations, the teaching was adulterated, and its heart and soul disappeared from the face of the Earth, only to be revealed to someone again at a later age, after which the same process was repeated.

In the face of this, it is natural to ask whether it is worthwhile to attempt to teach it again. It is worthwhile to travel thousands of miles year in and year out to carry such a message to the world, if only a few people receive and demonstrate it, and then let it pass from the Earth again? And my answer to that is that the circumstances are different today.

In all past generations, the world could look forward to the discovery of an increasingly greater power, and in each generation some greater power was discovered, but today with atomic power an actuality the world is faced with the ultimate of power. Who can envision anything beyond nuclear power? Is there anything beyond this, or has the world now reached the end of its search for power?

The truth in The Thunder of Silence can be found in the New Testament. Readers of this book, however, cannot expect that the mere reading of it will enable them to live by its revealed principles. Those who feel no response to the unfoldment presented here will, of course, be more than satisfied with one reading, but those who feel a thrill of recognition in their first reading should make this book their constant companion day and night, Sundays and holidays until their materialistic state of consciousness begins to yield and surrenders itself as the transcendental Consciousness takes over the mind, body, and everyday experience of their lives.

More than thirty years of experience have demonstrated beyond doubt that this change of consciousness can take place in any person who continues to abide in this message. Such a change of consciousness must take place within the reader before they will find it possible to live by the I-say-unto-you of the Sermon on the Mount.

The purpose of this book is to reveal transcendental Consciousness and, thereby, develop individual consciousness to that place where one can truthfully say, “I live, yet not I, but Christ liveth in me.” This purpose can be achieved only by dwelling—living, moving, and having one’s being—and by continuously abiding in the Word.”

Later this morning I went outside and hand weeded the Peony Garden beside the fishpond and half of the Solomon Seal Garden at the back of the garage.

This afternoon I was once again honored to co-host the European Law of One Telegram Group meeting. Today I read Session #66 of the Law of One to the group, and then I gave my opinion in answering questions such as: “When did you perform the Banishing Ritual of the Lesser Pentagram during the Ra contact?” “Do you ever get sick?” “When will Living The Law of One 102: The Outer Work be available?” and “How do you perform the Exercise of Fire?” This was the best session that I have had with the European Law of One Telegram Group!

Later this afternoon I made an errand run to stop at Kroger’s to buy some food for myself.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

March 25

Love As Motivation

I am of the principle of Jesus the Christ, and I greet you in the fullness of the consciousness which is divine Love.

That consciousness is the ground of being of all who may hear our voice. That single word, Love, created all that there is. The image of Love draws each seeker on; with visage veiled and beguiling; with footsteps infinitely retreating before the advancing soul.

For that consciousness which is pure, and creative, and all powerful is that consciousness which is its own source; that Light which shines through the ages; that factory of all that there is, and that home to which all that there is shall return.

Do not sentimentalize the Love of Jesus the Christ, for He left His Spirit with you not only to comfort you but to excite and motivate each soul to act in that same consciousness and live in that same Light and energy.

Know that your feet rest upon Love, the ground of your being and that that creative energy is the active principle. The passive principle is peace.

In that peace we leave you, both now and forever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of Love and open our hearts minds, and souls to send Love, Light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite Love, Light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our Love, Light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. The Hatonn and Latwii channelings for this session are from August 19, 1984:

(Carla channeling)

I am Hatonn, and I greet you in the Love and in the Light of our infinite Creator. What a blessing it is to blend our energies and lives with yours as we flow along the never-ending river of Love and Light. This evening we would speak with you about that which one might call a kind of reality that is hard to discover within the heavy chemical illusion within which you live, think, and act. It has been sometimes called the Kingdom of Heaven. The most apparent condition of this reality which each seeks is more closely aligned with what you would call truth than is your experience—day by day is its harmony.

As we speak to you now, there are millions of life forms about you that are vibrating in harmony with you that have changed slightly in their pitch and tone and entendre in order to be in harmony with your vibrations. The very particles of air, furnished as they are with Light which is their chief characteristic, and the energy of Love which moves that Light scintillates in a dazzling display of harmony which ascends and ascends until all is white and Light, and there is no more for the eye to see. This is occurring about you at this moment. We are aware that you would like to become familiar with this experience and to leave behind experiences of disharmony, and banality, and folly with which the incarnation you now experience has provided you. The experiences of these energies have been had, and they are being had, and they will be had by many in these, shall we use the phrase, latter days, due to ingestion of chemicals which alter the rhythms of the mind so that the mind may become aware of that which is more real by one step than your illusion.

In this session Hatonn wanted to speak about the nature of reality. They began by saying we would speak with you about that which is a kind of reality that is hard to discover within the heavy chemical illusion within which you live, think, and act, and it is called the Kingdom of Heaven, so the nature of this reality which each seeks is aligned with the truth that is your experience which is its harmony. Hatonn went on to say as we speak to you there are millions of life forms about you that are vibrating in harmony with you that have changed in their pitch and tone in order to be in harmony with your vibrations, and the particles of air, furnished as they are with Light which is their chief characteristic, and the energy of Love which moves that Light shines in a dazzling display of harmony, which ascends until all is white Light, and there is no more for the eye to see, for this is occurring about you at this moment, so we are aware that you would like to become familiar with this experience and to leave behind experiences of disharmony and folly with which the incarnation you now experience has provided you, yet the experiences of these are being had, and they will be had by many in these latter days, due to ingestion of chemicals which alter the rhythms of the mind, so it may become aware of that which is more real by one step than your illusion. In Session 6.1, Ra spoke of the experience that can come from the ingestion of chemicals:

There are many upon your plane who have a random hole or gateway in their spirit energy field, sometimes created by the ingestion of chemicals such as, what this instrument would call LSD, who are able, randomly, and without control, to tap into energy sources. They may or may not be entities who wish to serve.

These harmonious vibrations are also an illusion, my friends, so it is simply that it is a denser illusion, far more filled with Light and, therefore, more pleasing. How wondrous it would be if within your physical bodies, awake and alert, you could still perceive the flowers and the trees nodding and rejoicing in rhythm to your footsteps and your thoughts, feelings, the musical interactions of air, and earth, and water, and sunshine, as these elements adjust themselves to all that is about them and to the one underlying vibration which is the original Logos and from which all harmony stems.

The Kingdom of Heaven is one of harmony. It is fourth density. It is remembered by many. Many yearn for it as they would a home. Beyond harmony is unity, the white Light of which we spoke, being far more naturally the experience of one whose true home is within fifth density, and many there are who yearn to abide in that comforting presence always and who lack the awareness in the waking state. We have spoken to you many times of meditation, and, therefore, you know that we shall say that these experiences are within you to remember, not to gain, and that meditation is like the key that opens the door. It is a reaching out and turning of the latch. Regardless of how well one meditates, one is still reaching, and, therefore, these experiences may begin to come. Very often they begin to come in a distorted manner, and not in the waking state, as much as in the hypnogogic or sleeping state, either in dreams or in half-waking visions. They may be personified by a teacher who is attempting to help you gain what you seek or by a certain symbol which haunts you. Pursue these distortions with the knowledge that they are the road within your own self which will guide you past the blocks that you have set up against yourself to keep you from remembering.

Hatonn went on to say these harmonious vibrations are also an illusion, so it is that it is a denser illusion, far more filled with Light and more pleasing, and how wondrous it would be if within your physical bodies you could perceive the flowers and the trees nodding and rejoicing in rhythm to your footsteps and your thoughts, feelings, and the musical interactions of air, earth, water, and sunshine, as these elements adjust themselves to all that is about them and to the one underlying vibration which is the original Logos and from which all harmony stems. Hatonn went on to say beyond harmony is unity, the white Light being naturally the experience of one whose true home is within fifth density, and many there are who yearn to abide in that comforting presence and who lack the awareness in the waking state, so we have spoken to you of meditation, for  you know that we say that these experiences are within you to remember, and that meditation is the key that opens the door, for it is a reaching out and turning of the latch, but regardless of how well one meditates, one is still reaching, and these experiences may begin to come in a distorted manner in the sleeping state, either in dreams or in half-waking visions, and they may be personified by a teacher who is attempting to help you gain what you seek or by a certain symbol which haunts you, so pursue these distortions with the knowledge that they are the road within yourself which will guide you past the blocks that you have set up against yourself to keep you from remembering. On April 9, 1989, Q’uo spoke of the sleeping state and dreams as a way of gaining more information about ourselves:

We must suggest that one look within one’s own being within the state of meditation or of prayer, and for those who are accomplished at working with their dreams within the sleeping state there might be sought information in these areas that is not readily accessible to the conscious mind. The part which desires with great intensity to know the nature of its own being and the purpose of its being shall, with dogged persistence, continue to seek within the meditative or prayerful state this information which the subconscious mind contains in full and which it will release in symbolic form to the conscious mind in order that the conscious mind might be informed in the manner by which it has sought information.

The sleeping experience is not understood among your people. We find in Carla’s memory a recently read article on the subject of sleep. In the sense in which we are discussing sleep, the greater percentage of those upon your sphere sleep eight hours a day, as this instrument would say, for they do not use the time within sleep to learn, to seek, and to experience harmony, unity and Love. This process may begin within sleep, and one may begin seeking because the subconscious and sleeping self has pushed through in dreams those things which cause an entity to begin to question the apparent reality within which there are so many shadows and so many unexplained and unresolved discrepancies.

It may happen the opposite way. There are those whose minds are stronger than their intuition, and for these the intellect first becomes curious. For these entities the journey towards total commitment to seeking may be longer, as the intellect is devious by nature and tends to hold a percentage of what you call judgment back. Within the dreaming state, and within the intuitional state while awake, there is no holding back of the judgment, but only the experience. Judgment is done after the fact, not during, thus the experience is undiluted. We say to you, my friends, you dwell in a universe so beautiful, so harmonious, so unified, so totally full of Love, that words are never enough to begin to acquaint you with the character of that which you may call reality. You experience one reality which by its very nature has the potential of transcending space and time. That is the sexual orgasm. If you could imagine this experience as a steady state, you would begin to understand the character and the nature of reality. There is a great hunger to experience this in each seeker, and we encourage this hunger, and we urge you onward. Once you have experienced one moment of this reality, you will not subjectively doubt the validity of your seeking.

Hatonn continued by saying the sleeping experience is not understood among your people, so we find in Carla’s memory a recently read article on the subject of sleep, and in the sense in which we are discussing sleep, the greater percentage of those upon your sphere sleep eight hours a day, for they do not use the time within sleep to learn and to experience harmony, unity, and Love, and this process may begin within sleep, for one may begin seeking because the subconscious and sleeping self has pushed through in dreams those things which cause an entity to begin to question the apparent reality within which there are many shadows and many unresolved discrepancies. Now Hatonn said it may happen the opposite way because there are those whose minds are stronger than their intuition, and for these the intellect first becomes curious, for these entities the journey towards total commitment to seeking may be longer, as the intellect is devious by nature and tends to hold a percentage of judgment back, so within the dreaming state, and within the intuitional state while awake, there is no holding back of the judgment but only the experience, yet judgment is done after the fact, thus the experience is undiluted, for we say that you dwell in a universe so beautiful, so unified, so full of Love, that words are never enough to begin to acquaint you with the nature of reality, and you experience one reality which has the potential of transcending space and time, so that is the sexual orgasm, but if you could imagine this experience as a steady state, you would begin to understand the nature of reality, for there is a hunger to experience this in each seeker, and we encourage this hunger, and we urge you onward, and once you have experienced one moment of this reality, you will not doubt the validity of your seeking. On January 29, 1989, Latwii spoke of the nature of the sexual orgasm:

The universe, as far as we know, exists at a steady level of joy. You know it when you experience that which you call the sexual orgasm. That is the steady state of reality. That is the intensity which created the physical vehicle in which you now express. That is the beginning of one way of understanding the Creator.

We take you, therefore, to the vast meadows of fragrant existence that lie before you in time and space. We ask you to drop those things which you have in your hands: all the worries, the concerns, the qualifications, the distinctions, and the limitations which you think you have and by which you think you should abide. The strength of the universe is one. Its fragrance, its beauty; its joys are one. The experience of this one original Thought will continue to be available, and we urge you to pursue it in meditation, in vision, and by dedication of the self in whatever state and in whatever experience within your illusion, to the seeking of reality, if we may use that term, for truly we speak relatively. We know a bit more than you as we have experienced more, but for us to talk of reality would be foolish, for we have not seen the end and the beginning nor have our teachers. The mystery of the universe remains hidden in the Creator and therefore, hidden in all of us.

Rejoice, then, that you have within you that which you seek. Know that the answers are simple, too simple for the mind. Know, too, that you will often be hard put within your illusion to manifest any awareness of those things which you seek, of those ideals to which you have dedicated yourself. It is the nature of your illusion to block, and block, and block again every pathway so that you may express Love in the removal of blockage. It is the intention of your higher self that the pride within you be humbled, that the humility within you be made proud, that the plain may be made complex and the complex plain. In other words, my friends, your higher self wishes you learn the lessons of Love and these lessons are not simple. They are as complex and, if you will excuse the misuse of words, three dimensional as a chair or yourself, and all of these things you shall not learn by the mind. You may put all that you wish into your mind, you may think, and contemplate, and guess, and worry, and fret, and yet you shall not feel harmony unless it is by coincidence alone, for the mind is a servant that is too often the master by default. What do you have, my friends, that may seek, that you may trust more than your mind? What shall be the master of your mind? As you seek reality, we ask you to ponder this question, for in the seeker the mind is grossly misused very often, and the far-seeing vision within is cut off, downplayed and mistrusted.

Now Hatonn said we take you to the meadows of fragrant existence that lie before you in time and space, and we ask you to drop those things which you have in your hands: all the worries and the limitations which you think you have and by which you think you should abide, for the strength of the universe is one, so the experience of this one original Thought will continue to be available, and we urge you to pursue it in meditation and by dedication of the self in whatever state and in whatever experience within your illusion, to the seeking of reality, for we speak relatively, for we know a bit more than you as we have experienced more, but for us to talk of reality would be foolish, for we have not seen the end and the beginning nor have our teachers, yet the mystery of the universe remains hidden in the Creator and hidden in all of us. Hatonn went on to say rejoice that you have within you that which you seek, and know that the answers are too simple for the mind, and know that you will be hard put within your illusion to manifest any awareness of those things which you seek, for it is the nature of your illusion to block every pathway so that you may express Love in the removal of blockage, so it is the intention of your higher self that the pride within you be humbled, that the humility within you be made proud, that the plain may be made complex and the complex plain, for in other words your higher self wishes you to learn the lessons of Love, and these lessons are not simple because they are as complex and three dimensional as a chair, and all of these things you shall not learn by the mind, but you may put all that you wish into your mind, and you may contemplate, yet you shall not feel harmony unless it is by coincidence alone, for the mind is a servant that is too often the master by default, so: “What do you have, my friends, that may seek, that you may trust more than your mind? What shall be the master of your mind?” Now Hatonn said as you seek reality, we ask you to ponder this question, for in the seeker the mind is often misused, and the far-seeing vision within is cut off and mistrusted. On October 22, 1995, Q’uo described the nature of the far-seeing vision:

There are, however, within each culture, each religion, each philosophy, those far-seeing individuals who are like unto the hero in any journey or story, that can open up new possibilities to the people by their far-seeing vision. Thus, within each grouping is seeded the potential for the expansion of the vision that includes a larger definition of the identity so that the evolutionary process may continue upon a new level of experience and understanding. It is the struggle of each culture and grouping to break free of that which makes them what they are, or what they were, and to become more than that.

When we are with you, my friends, we experience a great deal of joy, and we wish to thank each, for we too cast our burdens down as we speak with you. We too are able to inspire more than we are inspired by ourselves. We too find the saying easier than the doing. We find these experiences in different ways than you, for our experiential continuum is different. We see the harmony, but we are having our own difficulties in seeing the white Light of fusion, and that we seek, refining upon our grasp of the truth in our own incarnational experience. It is greatly helpful for us to share experience with you and to offer service to you. It is very inspiring to us to see those who are making their choice to serve and to Love the one Creator and the Creator in each of us, and we offer you courage and encouragement, for truly that which you seek is awaiting you. You have shut the door upon a glowing and vibrant harmony, upon the infinity of Light, upon the mysteries that lie beyond all knowing. You have hands; you have a will; so reach out, grasp, and open. This is not often a quick process, unless, as we said before, experienced by means of the so-called mind-altering substances, and when experienced in such a way, the results are unpredictable, and it is sometimes too much of a vision for the spirit of that particular entity at that particular time to experience, and the equivalent of a spiritual injury is done so that the aura, as you would call it, is not then able to bear the full Light without much regrouping, rededication, and researching.

Therefore, seek ye what may be called the Kingdom of Heaven. Whether it be for moments at a time or for hours, let it be daily, and then seek to share whatever you can of your journey with whomever there may be who comes before you and asks, “What is there, my friends, that shall master the mind? And how shall you go about strengthening that faculty?” Ponder this well and with joy. We shall be with you, as you know, at any time that you may wish to ask for our presence mentally. Indeed, if you are alone and do not create a stumbling block by calling out for unseen presences, it sometimes helps entities who are seeking to invoke names aloud that are able to undergird and strengthen the meditative carrier wave, shall we say. We have been anxious to use the instrument known as C. However, we find within this instrument’s mind a request to be able to listen this evening, which we respect. We would, however, like to take a few moments to exercise this channel by means of conditioning and also to make our presence likewise known to each. We shall pause.

Hatonn said when we are with you we experience a great deal of joy, and we wish to thank each, for we too cast our burdens down as we speak with you, so we are able to inspire more than we are inspired by ourselves, for we find saying is easier than doing, yet we find these experiences in different ways than you, for our experiential continuum is different, so we see the harmony, but we are having our own difficulties in seeing the white Light of fusion that we seek and refining our grasp of the truth in our incarnational experience, for it is helpful for us to share experience with you and to offer service to you because it is inspiring to us to see those who are making their choice to serve and to Love the one Creator in each of us, and we offer you encouragement, for that which you seek is awaiting you, but you have shut the door upon the infinity of Light and upon the mysteries that lie beyond all knowing, yet you have hands; you have a will; so reach out, grasp, and open, but this is not a quick process unless it is experienced by means of mind-altering substances, and when experienced in such a way, the results are unpredictable, and it is sometimes too much of a vision for the spirit of an entity at that time to experience, and the equivalent of a spiritual injury is done so that the aura is not able to bear the full Light without regrouping and rededication. Hatonn went on to say seek ye the Kingdom of Heaven whether it be for moments at a time or for hours, and then seek to share whatever you can of your journey with whomever there may be who comes before you and asks: “What is there, my friends, that shall master the mind? And how shall you go about strengthening that faculty?” Now Hatonn said ponder this with joy, and we shall be with you at any time that you may wish to ask for our presence, so if you are alone and do not create a stumbling block by calling out for unseen presences, it sometimes helps entities who are seeking to invoke names aloud that are able to undergird and strengthen the meditative carrier wave. On March 23, 1986, Hatonn described the nature of the Kingdom of Heaven:

You shall spend a very large portion of this creation’s time/space and space/time dwelling upon the fruits of the bitter cup you take in faith now, for although there are heavier illusions than this one, this is the heaviest illusion for those beings which have become conscious of the self. This is the illusion in which we choose whom to serve. Therefore, we draw your gaze not only to the Kingdom of Heaven, as you would call it, where all the good is known and the subjective has become the objective, and that which is solitary within your soul has become common and shared among all souls. We ask you to turn to the illusion, for it is important that you spend these few moments of your infinite experience in compassionate scrutiny and the most honest reaction and interaction to and with the bitter cup which you may be asked to drink. We ask you not to flinch from this experience, but insofar as it is possible at any given moment we ask you to gaze without regret at all which seems bitter and difficult, for this has been given you with the greatest Love and Wisdom.

[Pause]

I am Hatonn, and am once again with this instrument. This instrument is somewhat overcome by the conditioning which was made stronger for others. We are adjusting the contact. My friends, many are the times that we speak to you about the dragons and the chimeras of your illusion, of all the difficulties that you face. There are times when it is best to turn one’s back on consideration of the entire spectrum of your incarnational experience and focus instead upon one single thing. You do not exist because you think. You do not exist because of what you have done. You are not a child of the Creator because of who you know, what power you have, what money may be yours, what influence you may peddle.

You do not belong to the One because of how nice you are, how intelligent, how pleasant, or any other quality or character that you may propose. There is no justification for your existence, nor has there ever been, nor will there ever be. You are a portion of joy which has no reason for being but itself. You experience this joy in a vastly distorted way in your day-to-day experience but never mistake the quality of your life. You are Love. You are joy. You are One. Past all the stumbling blocks that a human mind can conceive there lies a kingdom whose music is haunting you, and whose beauty is just beyond your fingertips. There is mercy within you, mercy that forgives all that is within the human portion of yourself, mercy that is like a pointer saying, “You need no justification. Come and follow joy.”

Then Hatonn said this instrument is overcome by the conditioning which was made stronger for others, so we are adjusting the contact, and many are the times that we speak to you about all the difficulties that you face, for there are times when it is best to turn one’s back on consideration of the entire spectrum of your incarnational experience and focus upon one single thing, but you do not exist because you think, because of what you have done since you are not a child of the Creator because of who you know, what power you have, or what money may be yours. Hatonn went on to say you do not belong to the One because of how nice you are, how intelligent you are, or any other quality that you may propose, and there is no justification for your existence, nor has there ever been, nor will there ever be, for you are a portion of joy which has no reason for being but itself, and you experience this joy in a distorted way in your day-to-day experience but never mistake the quality of your life, for you are Love, joy, and you are One, yet past all stumbling blocks that a human mind can conceive there lies a kingdom whose music is haunting you, and whose beauty is beyond your fingertips, but there is mercy within that forgives all that is within the human portion of yourself, mercy that is like a pointer saying, “You need no justification. Come and follow joy.” On November 15, 1990, Laitos spoke of the nature of joy:

The subject of joy is one of which you heard us speak upon many times before, as it is the outgrowth of the life which is lived in a balanced fashion and which has successfully weathered many metaphysical storms, shall we say. It is that natural state of being for the uncreated universe in that portion of yourself that maintains contact with the Creator, that has yet to be moved into action and separation of any kind. Thus, at the foundation of each entity’s being there is this quality which undergirds all which does move and seek within creation. This kind of joy is that which is, shall we say, virgin, pure, and undiluted. It has as its motivating factor, shall we say, the thrill of being, the exaltation that each tiny portion of the creation exudes as a matter of the fact of its existence—the entire creation sings.

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[Side one of tape ends.]

(Carla channeling)

Then turn back into your world, into space and time as you experience it and be the conditional limited entity that you can be,  and be careful of yourself and loving, insofar as you are able, to others. Be yourself, my friends. Be yourself with that which shall not pass away from you. In this we leave you, for that which does not pass is that which you are and that which you wish to experience, the Love and the Light of the One who is all and in all. I am Hatonn. I leave this instrument regretfully, realizing that we have been verbose, and yet it has been such a pleasure to speak with you. Our hearts leap with you as you experience the yearning for truth, for joy, comfort, and for peace. We can now only say to you, you do not seek that which does not exist; that which you seek is within you and is awaiting the reaching. Adonai, my friends. Adonai vasu borragus.

(Jim channeling)

I am Latwii, and I greet you, my friends, in the Love and in the Light of our infinite Creator. We are overjoyed to be asked to join your group this evening. Once again it is our privilege and our pleasure to respond to your call. We, as always, hope to impart some bit of assistance in attempting to answer those queries which you have brought with you. May we then, without further delay, ask if we might attempt the first query?

Carla: What was that question we were going to ask?

[Group discussion.]

Carla: We had a question before this meditation that we didn’t have any idea about the answer to, and at one point we were wondering if you could answer the question, but I’m so absentminded I forgot what we were asking. Could it have been about the coincidence of the 1947 beginning of the modern UFO era, and also of the possible peak of the harvesters or the wanderers? Can you comment on that in any way?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my sister. And though this query is not that which you had at first intended to query upon, we can, indeed, comment upon this subject. We find that in the observation of your people and your planet that the Confederation of Planets in the Service of the One Infinite Creator has from time to time attempted to provide service in answer to the call of your people, and this service has taken various forms. In order to provide a service which has, shall we say, endurance and hope of raising those vibrations which are somewhat of a fluctuating nature between the negative and positive, a great portion of the plan of service to your people has been for various individualized portions of our Confederation to enter into those manifested planes of your third-density experience as third-density beings, those you know of as wanderers. These entities, with the memory of their heritage forgotten for the length of the incarnation in order that their service might be, shall we say, earned and purely given, have come that they might bring in some form those abilities to seek and serve which are their birthright, and this wave, as you speak of the occurrence which followed your so-called second great war, was undertaken at that time because it was at that time that the call of your people was of the proper, shall we say, frequency and strength to enable the great influx of wanderers to incarnate and provide those services which each his sought since to provide.

The calling was affected by that second great war, and was affected in the manner of a great desire sweeping your planet for peace, the second great war having unleashed the destructive powers of separation and control to a great extent upon much of the surface of your planet. Therefore, it was the desire of many of your people in a conscious fashion, as well as in an unconscious fashion, to do whatever could be done to achieve peace and harmony. Therefore, the time and calling, shall we say, were ripe for the response to come in the form of what you have called wanderers.

Carla asked: “I forgot what we were asking. Could it have been about the coincidence of the 1947 beginning of the modern UFO era, and also of the possible peak of the harvesters or the wanderers? Can you comment on that in any way?” Hatonn began by saying we find that in the observation of your people and your planet that the Confederation of Planets in the Service of the One Infinite Creator has attempted to provide service in answer to the call of your people, and this service has taken various forms, so in order to provide a service which has endurance and hope of raising those vibrations which are of a fluctuating nature between the negative and positive, and a portion of the plan of service to your people has been for various individualized portions of our Confederation to enter into those manifested planes of your third-density experience as wanderers, so these entities have come that they might bring in some form those abilities to seek and serve which are their birthright, and this wave followed your second great war, and it was undertaken at that time because it was at that time that the call of your people was of the proper frequency and strength to enable the great influx of wanderers to incarnate and provide those services which each has sought to provide. Hatonn went on to say the calling was affected by that second great war in the manner of a great desire sweeping your planet for peace, the second great war having unleashed the destructive powers of separation and control to a great extent upon much of the surface of your planet, so it was the desire of many of your people in a conscious fashion, as well as in an unconscious fashion, to do whatever could be done to achieve peace and harmony, for the time and calling were ripe for the response to come in the form of what you have called wanderers. In 12.26, Ra described the nature of wanderers:

Questioner: Thank you. Well, you spoke of wanderers. Who are wanderers? Where do they come from?

I am Ra. Imagine, if you will, the sands of your shores. As countless as the grains of sand are the sources of intelligent infinity.

When a social memory complex has achieved its complete understanding of its desire, it may conclude that its desire is service to others with the distortion towards reaching their hand, figuratively, to any entities who call for aid. These entities, whom you may call the Brothers and Sisters of Sorrow, move towards this calling of sorrow. These entities are from all reaches of the infinite creation and are bound together by the desire to serve in this distortion.

May we answer you further, my sister?

Carla: Only if it’s possible for you to tell me what the question was that we were going to ask and then answer it.

I am Latwii and am aware of that which you are not, for we have the advantage of Carla’s mind which has the quality of that game which you have recently undertaken, the Trivial Pursuit, and we find in her mind the remembrance of that query having to do with another instrument which has the incarnational vibration of Jane Roberts. It was given as a portion of information that this entity had been visited and, shall we say, overtaken to some degree by an entity of the negative vibration, and it was upon your mind, shall we remind you, as to whether this information might be correct.

We feel that this is a fair statement of the query. We shall now ask if there is some further elaboration upon the query which you wish to make. Thus, we may attempt response to a query which has been asked us, and not respond to that which we have asked for you.

Carla: What you said, could you make a comment, either to verify it or to comment upon it?

[Sound of firecrackers going off nearby.]

I didn’t mean that kind of comment.

[Firecrackers continue for a while longer.]

I am Latwii, and we were waiting for the drum roll but had to settle for a firecracker barrage. We are aware of your query, my sister, and are aware that your concern for such an occurrence is great and sincere. We, however, are not those who specialize in verifying the validity or non-validity of those rumors which may circulate among seekers from time to time. We can state in general that any entity who seeks to be of service to others by means of vocalized channeling, whether of a telepathic or trance nature, is an entity which is undertaking a great responsibility and is somewhat at risk. There is the honor of standing close to Light, but there is also the responsibility of reflecting and radiating that Light as purely as is possible. No negative entity may do anything to another being, but any being may provide an entry into its own being by creating its own negative thoughts which may then be intensified by one of negative polarity.

This is a, shall we say, risk which any instrument assumes either consciously or unconsciously when such a service begins. It is well for each instrument so choosing to serve to develop those means of protecting the self as the service is given. Such means of protection are available on your planet and are found within many, shall we say, esoteric teachings that are available to those who seek to be of service. It is well to investigate, remembering at all times that the praise and thanksgiving and seeing each entity as the one Creator are the greatest protections.

May we answer you further, my sister?

Carla: Yeah. I just had one more question. I never can predict whether you can answer these or not, but I’ve been feeling very dizzy lately, and I actually fainted once, and I wondered if there was some other than physical cause, or all a part of the dizziness, or whether it was a simple physical complaint?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my sister. We find in this instance that we may speak in general, and we note that the dizziness factor which has been a portion of your experience from the new times of your incarnation through your work in trance channeling has reappeared in yet another form or intensity of experience for you. We can suggest that your current situation within this group of working might be examined for those general trends or emotive feelings which then might be symbolized by the dizzying of the perceptive abilities and the momentary loss of control of the physical vehicle.

May we answer you further, my sister?

Carla: I suppose I’ll have to read that. I’ve been looking at it from the standpoint of where I’m blocking in order to create a request for intensification of an already existing dizziness. I haven’t been able to determine whether it’s blue ray, indigo ray, or even green. Could you give some guidelines on that? I certainly have been blocking some communication because I don’t want to discourage Don. I’ve been blocking indigo because I just feel cruddy sometimes when things get strange, and I’ve been blocking green simply because I find myself pulled really quickly towards martyrdom if I reach out to Don too much without protecting myself. So, it could be any of the three. The guidelines, not just on this particular instance but on how you analyze blockages of this nature.

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my sister. We appreciate the multiple-choice selection of colors. We shall do our best to lend the proper hue to our response. We may speak again in general and suggest that for each entity within your illusion the great lesson from which all lessons spring is the lesson of Love. This lesson has as one of its primary features the ability to accept that which is apparently not acceptable, for is not all the Creator? Is there any portion of the one Creator that is not acceptable? As you move through your illusion and see that which is apparently not acceptable, it is then your great opportunity to take that situation or thought and examine it that you might become it and feel it also to be the one Creator, whole and perfect. Thereby you learn that which you have come to learn, not only to accept but to be that which seems unacceptable and quite alien to the self.

May we answer you further, my sister?

Carla: No, Latwii, you just took all the fun out of dumping on people. That’s very helpful. Thank you.

I am Latwii, and we thank you, my sister. We would at some date perhaps share a bit of gossip that we have about various entities, but since you do not know them, we must, for the nonce, refrain. Is there another query which we might attempt to answer?

C: Latwii, would you give comment on the … you see, we’ve been feeling other presences in the house in which we now live. Do you suppose you could comment on what these are—about their nature?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my brother. We find in this instance that the presences which have become apparent to you within your new dwelling are those which been with this dwelling for a significant portion of what you call time. The entities previously inhabiting your new dwelling, by virtue of their nature of expression, had drawn to them entities of a varied spectrum, shall we say. These entities are basically of a harmless nature, yet are not the kind of entity which one would look to for inspiration of the spirit kind, shall we say. These entities are those which move through their existence in a somewhat random form, not having yet regularized those means of seeking which are available to them. We could suggest that if there is the desire to purify the new dwelling and call to your experience there entities of a more inspirational and positive nature, that you could undertake that type of cleansing which has been used within this particular dwelling, and which is available in written form in material which you may find here.

May we answer you further, my brother?

C: No, thank you.

I am Latwii, and we thank you, as always, my brother. Is there another query at this time?

Carla: I guess I have a question. I’ve got a newly dead child, and a grandmother who is probably going to die very soon. I was wondering what work I can best do for them spiritually and mentally?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my sister. We can suggest general principles in this kind of situation where the desire to serve is a desire to serve one who is leaving your illusion and is making that transition which you have called the death. First, we would suggest that you work through your own grief for such an entity in a conscious or perhaps a prayerful manner before attempting to provide service to such an entity, for such service is best presented without those heavy feelings of grief which are the first natural response of your peoples to one’s leaving of the illusion.

Then we can suggest that within the prayerful state, the contemplative state, or within the meditative state you might, in joy, and praise, and thanksgiving for the passing, send these feelings of joy and praise and Love to the one who passes from your illusion. This will provide food, shall we say, a milieu or environment in which the entity may be strengthened in its continuing journey of seeking the One.

We might also suggest that as you have sent joy, praise, thanksgiving, and Love to such an entity, you may also visualize this entity surrounded in the white Light of the one Creator and you might send the mental suggestion to this entity that it remain in this white Light for as long as is possible, that it might rejoice in this Light, that it might find peace in this Light, that it might be directed by this Light to its next experience as the one Creator.

May we answer you further, my sister?

Carla: No, thank you.

I am Latwii, and we thank you, my sister. Is there another query at this time?

[Pause]

I am Latwii, and we find that we have for the moment completed those queries which were upon the minds of those present, and we are most grateful for such an opportunity to provide a simple service to each of you. We thank you, as always, for inviting our presence. We rejoice with you as you seek what is called truth. We remind each that our words are approximations of that truth. The whole and undistorted truth rests in your being. We hope to have pointed the way for you to find it more clearly there. We shall now take our leave of this instrument and of this group, leaving you always in Love, in Light, in peace, and in power. We are those of Latwii. Adonai. Adonai vasu borragus.

This morning the quote from The Thunder of Silence is: “Sometimes that readiness comes only because of the futility and frustration that have gone before. Every sin, every disease, and every lack that have ever touched our lives have been a necessary part of our entire experience without which we would not have been made ready or prepared to receive the unfoldment of a truly spiritual message. I say this knowing that some of us have been down into the very depths where sins, disease, and lack are greatest, while others had very little with which to contend. Yet whatever the degree of the severity of the problem each one has had, it is perhaps the degree that each one has needed. Some cannot go up to the heights of spiritual vision until they have gone all the way down physically, mentally, morally, or financially. Some have had to go only halfway down, and some probably much less than that; but whatever depths you and I have known, that was the experience necessary for us to reach the heights.

Some of you may yet have to be pushed and prodded very hard and involved in a great many serious problems  before you will be able to embrace the principles set forth in this book; whereas some of you will absorb them very easily and without having any harassing problems to overcome. That, too, depends upon what degree of unfoldment you bring to this work.

This message is proved true only as it is individually demonstrated, and because of that it should be easy to understand why attempting to organize a religion around such a teaching or asking people to join anything as intangible as this would in  no way contributes to the objective of The Infinite Way which is that these principles permeate human consciousness and become tangible in individual experience. If any attempt were made to organize this teaching, it would be of benefit to no one; if monthly or annual dues were paid, it would be to no purpose; if mighty temples were built to enshrine these principles, or statues erected of the man who taught them, it would be of no avail.

One thing alone will demonstrate this teaching—realizing what the principles are and then taking the into your heart, and mind, and soul, and body, living with them, moving and having your being in them, with them, and through them, until they become demonstrable principles within you. Then you become the Light of this world, a world which may be bounded only by your immediate family or community, or which may be one so vast in its scope that it includes the entire globe. No two will be led in the same way; no two will evolve in the same manner. It all depends upon the degree of your individual unfoldment.”

Later this morning I went outside and hand-weeded the Yellow Creeping Jenny Garden in the back yard.

This afternoon I used my Whip Lash to weed the Astilbe Garden, and then I used Huff and Puff to blow the weeds into a pile. Then I put the weeds into a garbage can. Then I went on an errand run with my first stop being at Walmart where I bought five bags of Epsom Salts. My next stop was at Walgreen’s Drug Store where I bought some Windex.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

March 24

The Ore Of Humankind

I am of the Spirit of Christ, and I greet you in the full consciousness of Love.

The gem-like quality of the pilgrim’s soul may be seen seldom with your dark physical eyes, for the ore of humankind is rough, and the exterior of most gem-like souls is pitted, darkened, and scarred by erosion and age.

It is the function of the Spirit of Love to enhance one’s eyesight when gazing at gold and gems in the rough. There is a vision which comes only to those who refuse to trust their physical eyes.

May you ask this boon of the Spirit of Christ, for each time that you see the Christ in another, you have become Christ to that other, and the gem that is your pilgrim’s soul is polished and faceted by deed and thought.

We leave you in the peace and comfort of love. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of Love and open our hearts minds, and souls to send Love, Light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite Love, Light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our Love, Light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Oxal and Latwii channelings for this session come from August 12, 1984:

(Carla channeling)

I am Oxal. I greet you in the Love and in the Light of our infinite Creator. We gratefully acknowledge our opportunity to work with the one known as S. Ours is not an easy contact, and we were attempting to practice with this instrument. We thank the one known as S for her cooperation, and will now speak for a few of your moments through this instrument. We thank each of you for calling us this evening. We are those who are more involved in the questions of the mind than the heart. We may suggest to each that our being called does not mean that each here has learned the lessons of the heart. It means only that there is a great call for wisdom, for clarity, and freedom from illusion.

It is perceived among your people that the heart cannot give freedom from pain, that the heart cannot see clearly, and that the heart is useful only as a means of generating experience, much of which is painful. This perception of your illusion may well be true. That is for each of you to say. For what is the heart? We with our wisdom gaze at compassion and realize that that balance between compassion and wisdom shall be our next lesson. But let us for a moment assume that there is in many of your people an excess of compassion which causes pain and then a desire to seek. Very well, my friends, the pain has its first meaning, for seeking is the activity of the deity. It is in some ways the definition of the Creator, the sign of the creation. A tree may appear to be rooted and still, yet does not each leaf seek the Light? So, you feel that love is so weak a tool that you must instead seek wisdom.

We shall share that which we feel to be correct with you, admonishing you that our opinions are fallible; therefore, take from our statements those things which are helpful and toss away the rest, for are we not all one, and is this knowledge not inside you that you seek now? Is this peace that you seek not also within you? Do you think perhaps that you are like a mountain—at the bottom there are verdant fields of Love, at the top, the peak places of wisdom. We say to you, your perceptions of wisdom will be greatly skewed until you learn the lessons of Love, and, therefore, we of Oxal wish to speak to you of Love from the standpoint of wisdom.

In this session Oxal spoke about the balance between Love and wisdom. They began by saying it is perceived among your people that the heart cannot give freedom from pain, that the heart cannot see clearly, and that the heart is useful only as a means of generating experience, much of which is painful, and this perception of your illusion may be true, so that is for each of you to say, for with our wisdom we gaze at compassion and realize that that balance between compassion and wisdom shall be our next lesson, but let us assume that there is in many of your people an excess of compassion which causes pain and then a desire to seek, for the pain has its first meaning since seeking is the activity of the deity, so it is in some ways the definition of the Creator, the sign of the creation, for a tree may appear to be rooted, yet each leaf seeks the Light, so you feel that Love is so weak a tool that you must seek wisdom. Oxal went on to say we shall share that which we feel to be correct with you, reminding you that our opinions are fallible, so take from our statements those things which are helpful and toss away the rest, for we are all one, and this knowledge that you seek is inside you as is this peace that you seek, and you think that you are like a mountain, and at the bottom there are fields of Love, and at the top are the peak places of wisdom, but we say your perceptions of wisdom will be skewed until you learn the lessons of Love, so we of Oxal wish to speak to you of Love from the standpoint of wisdom. On June 26, 1982, Latwii describe our lessons of Love:

The lessons of your density are the lessons of Love. When enough of your people learn to Love one another, then the entire creation sings and resounds with that harmony, and each atom rejoices and seeks to join more fully with each part of creation. Therefore, by whatever means is available to the entity, each entity might, therefore, send the Love and Light to the one creation in which your planet resides, to your planet itself, to each entity upon its surface, indeed into the self, and thereby assure the unification of all that is.

Let us look at perfect compassion. Let us look at a perfectly smoothly running, perfectly timed universe. Perfect compassion, which we call Love, for want of a better word, is power. It is power that has been so disciplined, guided, and considered that all things work together in harmony. That which powers the universe is not understood. That which powers the universe is Love. Wisdom is the vibration which Love uses. It is the material the artist uses to create experience for those who are conscious. Therefore, as you wish to learn the one original Thought, so you wish to learn all that there is. Wisdom is the refining of Love into its shapes, designs, its nuances, and its shadows. There is, shall we say, a ship with its sails furled upon a great sea. It may seem that you who are on the ship are victims of the wind and the waves, and your lack of knowledge of navigation and astrogation. However, there is within each of you an innate guide, a rudder, shall we say, that steers you if you will let it. That which steers you is not a wisdom but an association with Love, that Love which is the original Thought of the one Creator. Your voyage may seem endless, perilous, difficult, pointless, and confusing. This, my friends, is the voyage of one who has not yet picked up that association which forms the rudder of experience.

[Pause]

We apologize for the delay. We are feeding this instrument concepts that it is having difficulty enunciating. This in itself is an example of how the wisdom baffles the working of the deeper part. This instrument’s intellect does not see any association between the next concept and the previous one. Therefore, the instrument questions the concept, and we must pause in order to tune this instrument as we are talking and regain the line of our poor speech.

There is a call in this group this evening that stems from a very deep place, that place before time was or space. It is the call of the soul or spirit to the conscious self. We may take the voyager through space and through time, but it is that which is beyond space and time which will yield the simplicity, the peace, and the power which is sought. The fruit is single. We are all Love and we all distort that Love. We are each unique, and yet we are each perfect, both as we are and perfect in the literal sense of being, in part, beyond space and beyond time, a part of the Creator. That is why you already know each answer you seek. If we inspire you, it is but a remembering. And yet, that which you need to remember is buried, and therefore, in meditation, you sit and wait.

Oxal went on to say let us look at perfect compassion in a smoothly running, perfectly timed universe, for Love is power, and it is power that has been disciplined so that all things work together in harmony, but that which powers the universe is not understood, and that is Love, and wisdom is the vibration which Love uses, for it is the material the artist uses to create experience for those who are conscious, so as you wish to learn the one original Thought, you wish to learn all that there is, yet wisdom is the refining of Love into its shapes and its shadows, so there is a ship with its sails furled upon a great sea, and it may seem that you who are on the ship are victims of the wind and the waves, and your lack knowledge of navigation, but there is within each of you a guide that steers you if you will let it, but that which steers you is not wisdom but an association with Love which is the original Thought of the one Creator, so your voyage may seem endless and confusing, yet this is the voyage of one who has not yet picked up that association which forms the rudder of experience. Now Oxal said there is a call in this group that stems from a deep place that was before time was, and it is the call of the soul to the conscious self, so we may take the voyager through space and time, but it is that which is beyond space and time which will yield the peace and the power which is sought, but the fruit is single, for we are all Love, and we all distort that Love, and we are each unique, yet we are each perfect, both as we are and perfect in the literal sense of being beyond space and time, a part of the Creator, so that is why you know each answer you seek, for if we inspire you, it is but a remembering, yet that which you need to remember is buried, so in meditation you sit and wait. On September 4, 2010, Carla said that we are all part of the Creator:

So back to free will. What an incredible thing to know that we are all part of the Creator! We’ve all been sent out to gather intelligence; to see what we feel; to choose what to desire, to gather experiences and then to offer the whole incarnation back to the Creator as His food, or, as Ra would say, It’s food.

Those who seek, learn the meaning of the word patience. You seek the same thing over and over again. You seek to find the truth, the Love, the power within your daily experience which may well seem false, disturbing, and powerful only in its ability to cause pain. So many of your people, my friends, live in a narrow world, bounded by that which is seen, and heard, and felt. This group seeks that which is beyond the boundaries of the prison which is called your lifetime. Yet, my friends, we say prison, for you are indeed behind the bars of an illusion, the illusion that you were born in, and you will die in, and you will be no more. Within that illusion there are few good reasons for having faith, for behaving ideally, or for holding ideals. Yet the instinct of those who seek has put them in touch with the awareness that the true self, and, indeed, the majority of the self is outside the prison already.

You have put yourself in this situation and you have within you that which may remove you from the prison. We do not speak of death, although that certainly will remove the bars. We speak of your own ability to seek. What shall you seek? Observe yourself in any situation and let that observer within you ask, “What do you seek?” Do you seek love? Do you seek to become a messenger of love? Or do you perhaps seek that which may be well within the bounds of those who are still asleep and do not even know they are in prison? There are many apparent powers—money, position, relationships, the feeling of being in an appropriate place, and yet what is the true power? Look at each of those subjects and you shall see those things that change are not true but temporal. You seek peace, and within this world those same things that give you power are said to offer peace, and yet, do they? Ask yourself if any peace of a lasting and infinite nature occurs within the bounds of the temporal world.

Oxal went on to say those who seek learn the meaning patience, for you seek the same thing over and over again, so you seek to find the truth, Love, and power within your daily experience which may seem false and disturbing in its ability to cause pain, and so many of your people live in a narrow world, bounded by that which is seen, heard, and felt, but this group seeks that which is beyond the boundaries of the prison which is called your lifetime, yet we say prison, for you are behind the bars of the illusion that you were born in, and you will die in, so within that illusion there are few good reasons for having faith or for holding ideals, yet the instinct of those who seek has put them in touch with the awareness that the true self, and the majority of the self is outside the prison already. Oxal went on to say you have put yourself in this situation, and you have within you that which may remove you from the prison, but we do not speak of death, for we speak of your ability to seek, so observe yourself in any situation and let that observer within you ask: “What do you seek?” Do you seek love? Do you seek to become a messenger of love? Or do you perhaps seek that which may be well within the bounds of those who are still asleep and do not even know they are in prison? There are many apparent powers—money, position, relationships, the feeling of being in an appropriate place, and yet what is the true power?” Now Oxal said look at each of those subjects, and you shall see those things that change are not true but worldly, for you seek peace, and within this world those same things that give you power are said to offer peace, so ask yourself if any peace of a lasting and infinite nature occurs within the bounds of the worldly experience. On May 10, 1981, Hatonn spoke of the value of our seeking peace:

If you seek peace, know this: it is truly worth that which is paid for, and yet it may sometime seem like loss. Rest, then in your meditation, in the true peace of Love, and as you find your understanding causing you to act in such a way as to cause those about you to observe a difference in your actions, understand that those who radiate Love may also be counted as fools.

We have spoken also this evening of service. A great part of the peace that is true peace is service to others. Moment by moment you have unending opportunities to view your situations as opportunities to be of service, to sow a seed of calm, of Love, of kindness. Again, many times you may be countered as a fool, but my friends, it is the fools of this world who shall be in salvation. Only a fool can Love without judging. Only a foolish person can desire to serve those who are unlovable and can pray for those who are unattractive and cold in their misery.

Be fools, then. And join a joyful host of such fools, for those who Love will always be such. It is to be remembered that those ways of judging among your people are greatly various. It is to be remembered that it is impossible to judge, but through the grace of the inner Light and Love available to you, it is possible, indeed, to Love.

We shall say to you once again there is peace; there is power. Those things are to be sought carefully. You are those who Love. You do not Love in perfection as your conversation noted previously, and yet you attempt. In each attempt, is power and peace. The power of Love is unmistakable, healing, and radiant. Those who live in light manifest it. People are attracted to them and enjoy their company. It is not they, but the love channeled through them which is attractive. There is peace in loving that cannot be found by buying and selling, giving and taking. In bargaining there is no peace. In loving, alone, is there peace. If you love yourself completely you are at peace. If you wish to serve others in Love completely, you are at peace. Between these two points, in one degree or another, you shall not be at peace.

Therefore, we urge you at least once in your day to say to yourself, “Ah, the bars of my cage shall not hold me well, for I shall sit beyond space and time, and I shall seek Love; I shall seek the truth; and I shall do it in silence.” For there is, indeed, as one your holy works as said, a still, small voice that enables seeking to continue and flourish within you. We are those who learn the lessons of wisdom, and we see you as those tossed by the Creator which is yourself into the depths of your prisons, or to move back to our other analogy, those lost upon an endless sea. The point is that you are kept, somehow, apparently, from your freedom. In our seeking towards wisdom we see your people as those who now have the opportunity to face once again towards the same Creator that has flung you upon the water and cast you into prison. In meditation you may break forth from prison in contemplation and inspiration, in dreams, in converse with others who are seeking; you will find those things, those coincidences, those sentences which strike you, which tell you where to move your rudder, in which direction to go.

Oxal continued by saying there is peace and power, and they are to be sought carefully, for you are those who Love, but you do not Love in perfection, and yet you attempt to, and in each attempt is power and peace, yet the power of Love is unmistakable, healing, and radiant, for those who live in Light manifest it, so people are attracted to them and enjoy their company, but it is not they but the Love channeled through them which is attractive, and there is peace in loving that cannot be found by buying and selling, for in bargaining there is no peace, so only in loving is there peace, but if you Love yourself completely you are at peace, and if you wish to serve others in Love, you are at peace, so between these two points you shall not be at peace. Now Oxal said we urge you once in your day to say to yourself, “Ah, the bars of my cage shall not hold me well, for I shall sit beyond space and time, and I shall seek Love; I shall seek the truth, and I shall do it in silence,” for there is a still, small voice that enables seeking to flourish within you, so we are those who learn the lessons of wisdom, and we see you as those tossed by the Creator which is yourself into the depths of your prisons, or those lost upon an endless sea, so the point is that you are kept from your freedom, and in our seeking towards wisdom we see your people as those who have the opportunity to face the same Creator that has flung you upon the water and cast you into prison, but in meditation you may break forth from prison, and in converse with others who are seeking you will find those coincidences which strike you, which tell you in which direction to go. On September 28, 1996, Q’uo spoke of the value of meditation to seek direction from that still, small voice within us:

This is the central question of this meeting, for it has been asked of us when and how to know that still, small voice, and it is this voice that we could suggest that one listen to in order to know those times when it is appropriate to jump and those times when it is appropriate to wait. Thus, in all situations in which there is doubt it is our recommendation that one practice meditation. Meditate upon the action or inaction, for as long as it is necessary for you to hear that voice and to feel that impulse in one direction or the other. As we stated previously, it may happen in a moment. It may take a great deal of time, and while this process is going on again, we counsel faith that the process itself, and the action itself, and the entire incarnation will unfold as each should, for this is not a universe in which chance plays a significant part. It may seem so for many, but in the overall scheme if one could look with far-seeing eyes outside the incarnation one would see that there is the hand of the Creator in each event. That, indeed, not even a small sparrow falls to the ground without the knowledge of the Creator. Thus meditate, my sister. Meditate, and have faith, and go forth confidently.

That is the rhythm of each density. You are flung, out and you learn to return. It is you, yourself, who has placed you, each of you, as you are now, experiencing what you are now, dealing with what you are dealing with at this point. Turn then, to meditation and find out why. Climb the mountain slowly, slowly, my friends and see each step clearly. What you are doing at this point, what you are thinking, how you are seeking, how you are feeling; these are your tools. These are tools that can give you beauty beyond measure, that can make you rejoice, even, perhaps, as you weep. Before your footsteps lie the mountain, but you must climb it one step at a time, one day at a time, one moment at a time.

We rejoice now with you as we experience the vibration of this group and share our Love with you. We are very blessed to be able to speak this evening, to listen through the ears of this instrument to the cicadas and the murmur of your [inaudible]. Such beauty, my friends, in a single moment; it is almost too much to believe for us, for we do not experience your illusion. We seek a different kind of beauty and must learn to become aware differently. The beauty about you now, the beauty within you now, the power, the peace and the Love within you now is very striking to us, and we give thanks that we are able to join you.

Now Oxal said that is the rhythm of each density when you are flung out, and you learn to return, and it is you who has placed each of you, as you are experiencing what you are now, dealing with what you are dealing with at this point, so turn to meditation and find out why, but climb the mountain slowly, and see each step clearly, for what you are doing, thinking, seeking, and how you are feeling are your tools, and these are tools that can give you beauty beyond measure, that can make you rejoice, even as you weep, so before your footsteps lie the mountain, but you must climb it one step at a time. Oxal continued by saying we rejoice with you as we experience the vibration of this group and share our Love with you, for we are blessed to be able to speak this evening, to listen through the ears of Carla to the cicadas, and there is so much beauty in a single moment that is almost too much to believe for us since  we do not experience your illusion, for we seek a different kind of beauty and must learn to become aware differently, and the beauty about you now, the beauty within you now, the power, the peace and the Love within you now is very striking to us, and we give thanks that we are able to join you. On November 14, 1982, Hatonn spoke of the nature of Love within us:

The doors you wish to open to the outside world of service must first be opened from the inside, for your truth awaits the opening of that door. That truth cannot come to you. You must come to it, or at least open the door to it. It takes a mere moment to mentally open the door within. It takes one gentle thought to open a universe of Love within you. And with a universe of Love within you, my friends, what service can you help but be? Then you will not miss the chance to smile, and oh, my friends, what a lovely dance a smile makes. You will not miss a chance to reach and touch those who may need it. Indeed, my friends, there are many times when you feel that you are being of no service whatever because someone is aiding you, and you feel that you are on the receiving end and cannot possibly be of service. My friends, when with a grateful heart you receive, you have greeted the Creator in manifestation.

We would leave you now, having spoken far too long, we fear. We leave you in all that there is, Love and Light, the Love and the light of the One Who is All. I am known to you as Oxal. I leave this instrument. Adonai.

(Jim channeling)

I am Latwii, and I greet you, my friends, in the Love and in the Light of our infinite Creator. We are most privileged to once again join your group for the purpose of attempting to answer those queries which may be of aid in your seeking. We thank each for so inviting our presence. And we remind each that our humble words are but fallible opinions which we offer in hopes that they might be of some small service to you. May we then begin with the first query?

S: Yes, Latwii, I have a question from R, who will read your answer. He wanted to know if you could make any comment or give information about the faces he’s been seeing in his meditations. They’re all different, and they change; it’s not like he’s seeing the same faces over and over again. But he wanted your comment.

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my sister. We find in this instance that we are once again relegated to the role of speaking in general terms in order that the free will of the one known as R might be preserved as he continues his journey of seeking. Each entity shall find within the meditative state certain experiences that are of significance upon the journey of seeking the truth, as you call it. These particular visions or faces which the one known as R has been experiencing are those portions of a larger process which is underway, shall we say, within this entity. One may look at each experience within your illusion as a symbol of that which is a deeper truth. This is also true within that state which you call meditation, though this state is capable of producing experiences of a greater clarity, shall we say, than your normal waking state. These images might be fruitfully used, we suggest, by the one known as R if they are looked at for a symbolic value, for a certain resonance which each contains. This resonance then may be placed by the entity with certain life experiences or lessons which are seeking expression at this time within this entity.

May we answer you further, my sister?

S: Well, since I’m not really sure, I guess I’ll just go with what you’ve given me because it sounds like it’ll be very helpful to him. I did have another question, though, on a different subject. About a month ago, R and I were almost on a daily basis having minor aches and pains back and forth and back and forth to the point where it became comical. We were making jokes about it and I would say, “Is your knee getting better now, because mine’s beginning to hurt?” I would like to know if you could give me any information about the possibilities of us maybe subconsciously attempting to heal each other or if there’s another explanation?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my sister. Again, to speak in general terms, we may suggest that it has been well said that those who together seek shall far more surely find. It has been your experience which you have shared with the one known as R to intensively seek …

[Side one of tape ends.]

(Jim channeling)

I am Latwii and am once again with this instrument. To continue our response. You may look at these experiences, as we have suggested before, for their symbolic value. As you proceed in your seeking together you shall find that the catalyst which you use is catalyst which you share. Those aches and pains, as you have called them, are indeed offering opportunities for the healing, as you have suggested. This is the purpose of all catalyst and experience, to speak generally. All distortions, all that is not whole, may be made whole and clear by the successful use of catalyst. Those experiences which you have shared of the physical discomfort are symbolic, and reach deeper into your shared experience and are representative of certain lessons which you share together upon levels other than the physical.

May we answer you further, my sister?

S: Well, if the aches and pains go away, does that mean that we have been successful in using the catalyst?

I am Latwii, and am aware of your query, my sister. In general, we would suggest that this assumption is correct. The catalyst which has not been well used in the mind is then given to the body that it might be noticed more fully and more fully utilized. This is not to say that should such physical representation of the catalyst disappear that the catalyst has been completely used, but is to say that it has been used to the point of clarity so that further symbolic manifestation in the physical body is not necessary.

May we answer you further, my sister?

S: Well, yes. You could clarify one more thing for me. Are you saying then that because we as a couple have spent a lot of time together there are some lessons that we chose to learn together, and that if both of us are not successful at any particular time … wait, that’s not what I mean. Okay, first of all, is what I’ve just said correct, and second of all, do we then have to work on the catalyst as a unit rather than as individuals?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my sister. To speak to the first portion of your query, it is basically correct that you have chosen to learn certain lessons together, and that you have, as you progressed through your learning process, come not only to see each as a mirror for the other but have come to see the self in the other.

To speak to the second portion of your query, it is a most efficient means of learning for an entity to learn with another in order that this mirroring effect might be utilized to accelerate the learning process. It is quite possible to learn as a solitary being, but without the mirrors of other selves to show the self the intricacies of the self, the self then is more likely to miss the refining ability that mirrors provide.

May we answer you further, my sister?

S: No, that’s been very illuminating. Thank you.

I am Latwii, and we thank you, my sister. Is there another query at this time?

Carla: I’d like to follow up on S’s [inaudible]. It seemed to me that you were intimating, but not saying, that this couple, like many couples, have been not just through this incarnation together but through others and that that way … my question is, then, is the previous experience with each other necessary before you get to the point to where you are really working together, and what’s catalyst for one becomes catalyst for the other, and they’re sympathetic and so forth?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my sister. We can suggest that your assumption is in a great portion correct, for those entities which have had experience as the mated pair before this incarnation shall find that there is a great reservoir or resource which may be called upon by the deeper portions of the entity as the incarnation proceeds and as the mated relationship attempts to refine the process of evolution.

May we answer you further, my sister?

Carla: Yes, just one final thing. In observing certain couples, I cannot see any karmic bonds. These are the couples that seem to be doing the best work together. Certainly R and S strike me as one such. Is the karma free … I guess what I’m really trying to ask is, is there a portion of the third density where mated pairs that have worked through the karma and have become free from karma as we understand it, then come back in order to become what some people have called masters or to find true balance, in other words, is a karma-less state a prerequisite for this particular lesson, that is, working as a couple?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my sister. We may suggest that that state which you have described as karma-free might be more clearly described as balanced karma. That is to say that entities of the mated relationship nature which have chosen to once again incarnate as mated pair are much more able to provide the services and learn the lessons chosen before the incarnation when the karma is what we would call balanced, rather than being out of balance so that one entity would need to assume a role that is more distorted from, shall we say, equality than the other in order that certain lessons left incomplete from previous incarnations might be balanced in the current incarnation.

May we answer you further, my sister?

Carla: Was that an affirmative answer? I get lost in your answers sometimes. Did you basically say, “Yeah”?

I am Latwii, and we beg your forgiveness for being somewhat abstruse from time to time. Yet, as we use this instrument’s mind, we find that there are certain concepts that, though helpful, do have certain tendrils of abstractness about them. We have attempted to suggest that your basic assumption was correct, yet we wished to make hopefully clearer the situation of entities that are utilizing the mated relationship efficiently, that is, their karma has been balanced rather than removed. To remove karma is to remove experience, and it is to remove a great reservoir or resource that is a great aid in the incarnation.

We might further suggest that as entities have gained experience as mated pairs in previous incarnations, and have balanced their karma, then the portion of the next incarnation devoted to the personal lessons grows smaller, and the portion devoted to providing services for others grows larger.

May we answer you further, my sister?

Carla: No, thanks.

I am Latwii, and we thank you, my sister. Is there another query at this time?

[Pause]

I am Latwii, and we find that we have for the moment exhausted the queries, and we are most appreciative for the opportunity to be of whatever service is possible by our humble words. We apologize for seeming to be without our normal humor and for seeming so formal in our replies. We are hopeful that as we continue to utilize this instrument that it shall be able to widen its own perceptive abilities and allow that which is of a lighter nature in our own being to shine through in our responses, for it is a great joy and a pleasure for our group to be able to make contact with your own, and we wish to give this joyful feeling expression whenever possible. We are those of Latwii, and we shall now leave this group and instrument, rejoicing in the Love and in the Light of the One within all. Adonai, my friends. Adonai vasu borragus.

This morning the quote from Joel Goldsmith’s The Thunder of Silence is: “The only real strength there is, is in conscious union with God and in a realization of the true nature of spiritual power. When we have that realization, one with God becomes a majority. One individual having the spiritual understanding of the nature of God becomes a law of harmony, health, and supply unto thousands and thousands of people all over the world. That is where the strength is—in union with God.

For centuries, country after country has been seeking its freedom. Many a country has temporarily found what it thought was freedom only to find itself enslaved later on by something more powerful than that from which it had broken free.

It is not possible to get free from anything This is a hard saying, bitter in the mouth and even more bitter in the belly. There are thousands of people trying to free themselves from husbands or wives, thinking that when that particular freedom is gained their lot is going to be a better one. Sometimes it is, temporarily; but even if it is, it is only a human solution, not permanent and real, because no one ever gets free. To become free from one thing is to become attached to another thing. There is no freedom from anything. The only complete freedom is a freedom in Christ.

To leave one religious organization to join another is to find freedom from one only to become involved in another. That is not freedom. Nor can a person find spiritual freedom by leaving one country for another, even though they may improve their material lot as has been demonstrated by the millions of immigrants to the North American continent who have improved their physical well-being. The mere change of locale, however, does not necessarily mean peace, happiness, safety, or security because not one of these can be found in flags, countries, or continents—they cannot even be found in health or wealth, but only in the realization of God, which brings a release from fear of what people can do, or from circumstances or conditions. Harmony is found, not by exchanging one condition of bondage for another, but by coming out from under the law and living under that Grace which is the gift of God. For a while, unfortunately, there remain the thousand on our left and the ten thousand on our right who will not accept the grace of God and who brought forth from the Master His sorrowful, “O Jerusalem, Jerusalem . . . how often would I have gathered thy children together, even as a hen gathereth her chickens under her wings, and ye would not!“ This is the one remaining sorrow after we have attained our own freedom, this sorrow of looking at our parents, children, sisters, or brothers, our husband or wife, our fellow countrymen, and thinking, “Why can’t you accept this thing that I have found?” But the longer we are on this path the easier it will be for us to understand that it is not possible for anyone to embrace truth except in proportion to their readiness for it.”

Later this morning I went on an errand run with my first stop being at The Home Depot where I bought some more netting. My second stop was at Thieneman’s Nursery where I bought a pair of gardening gloves. My third stop was at Feeder’s Supply where I bought more bird seed. My fourth stop was at Kroger’s where I bought some food for myself. My fifth stop was at Paul’s Fruit Market where I bought some more food for myself. My sixth stop was at Speedway Gas where I filled all of Stanley’s tires with 32 psi air, and I filled his tank with premium gasoline.  My last stop was at Walgreen’s Drug Store where I picked up a prescription and bought some Tylenol, some Haggen Dasz ice cream, and some napkins.

This afternoon I weeded the Day Lily patch along the south side of the garage, and I filled a five-gallon bucket with the weeds. Then I put the bucket at the end of the driveway.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

March 23

Look Again

I am of the principle of Jesus the Christ, and I greet you in the full consciousness of Love.

Divinity may seem to have no part in your experience as you awaken to yet another day of traffic, work, chores to do and lists to be made and scratched out. Yet it is the prayer of the Spirit of the living Christ that divinity may be at all times in utterly close proximity to each spirit, however concerned with the mundane, however overwhelmed with the everyday chores of a busy life.

You will find the Spirit between the motes of dust, within the glimmer of moisture upon a cobweb, rounding like fog at the corners of the heart.

Our prayer is our presence. Do not turn from dust and chores and dailiness to seek the living waters of spiritual food but, rather, gaze at them more closely, for there is no day so busy nor prison so closely bound that the Spirit is not within each task and each bar.

We would rescue that state of mind, which does not relish earthly things yet sees none other, from inward blindness by saying, “Look again.” For shall not divine Love penetrate and, with your desire, have strength to transform each and every action which you may take this day?

We leave you in that striving which is the peace of Christ, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of Love and open our hearts minds, and souls to send Love, Light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite Love, Light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our Love, Light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.