I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from February 19, 1995:
The question this week has to do with the “Who am I?” question that each seeker asks. We are wondering about the incarnational personality as a focus as to who each seeker might be. The incarnational personality, of course, has connections with the soul identity that has been through many incarnations and has connections with the one Creator as a portion of that Creator. We are wondering if you could tell us something about the incarnational self, who that self is, and use it as a vehicle for evolution.
(Carla channeling)
We are those of Q’uo. Greetings in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. We are most pleased to have been called to your group this day. There are also those energies about which you know as those of Hatonn. However, as this instrument ascertained, the energies of Hatonn are simply to be placed upon the circle of seeking and in a very subtle sense upon that tape recording device which records these words. That carrier wave, shall we say, of meditative quiet and stillness is an helpful one, and those who listen to such a recording such as this one may be offered that silent gift. In addition, we shared a joke with this instrument which caused the challenging process a little longer to deal with. We are always hoping that this instrument will not be too earnest about her challenging, so when she asked us if we came in the name of the one known as Jesus we said, “Oh yes, we stop in the name of love.” But this instrument would not accept that. However, to our minds the one known as Jesus is the one known as Love, for this entity managed during incarnation to express that energy in its fullness.
As always, when speaking with a group, we request that our words be taken with a grain of salt and that the personal discrimination be used. We do indeed thank this group, and deeply, for sharing these moments with us and allowing us to share with you what humble service that we may offer at this time.
The question of self-identity is indeed the signal question of a density devoted to the exploration of self-consciousness. The other experiences gained in first and second density, as powerful and all-encompassing as they have been, are as a simple elementary school class compared to the complexities of self-discovery and self-perception. Being aware of the self’s being is in many ways confusing. There is confusion because of each entity viewing itself through the passing kaleidoscope of circumstance and event about which one spins one’s life threads.
The child, that young soul whose mind is infinite and eternal but whose body is clumsy and small, must determine what of his body makes him who he is and what not of his body but of the mind or of the emotions. This is most puzzling, and the questioning begins for each entity as that soul becomes enough aware of itself within its little world that the focus becomes inward. Those of young ages are frequently viewed by their parents and teachers as those who do not have native wisdom or the ability to think upon abstractions at the age of pre-school, as this instrument would call the years of four and five. Yet by this age the larger part of your people are philosophers in their own small way, picking up questions of life, death, and being and looking seriously and probingly at them for clues as to identity and that ineffable and indescribable sense of belonging that is yearned for but not entirely felt with those identities which the world sees and passes to the young self.
Each year, indeed, each season, which adds to the child’s life its burden of days yields also a crazy quilt of perception and misperception, accurately perceived and inaccurately perceived memory, and the drifting of memory and thought through those inner seasons which color perception so profoundly, usually without being themselves perceived. The burdens that the child has taken up often become invisible yet still are burdens carried, yet carried not within the conscious mind but stowed safely as in a ship’s hold for the long voyage which shall occur before that self is able or ready to open the cargo doors and work with that burden which has laid patiently awaiting such a visit since the childhood.
These hidden storage areas of the self are hidden for good reason. The self is a living entity in a way which transcends current definitions of life, for there is not the embodiment or the gross manifestation in many forms of vivid life which entities upon your sphere tend to attach life to. The life within, as has been pointed out by this group, moves through incarnations, one upon the next, in a journey unimaginably larger than the journey through incarnation. Yet that journeying and questing self that is infinite and eternal is only taken in full realization and seated or embedded within that infinite self through the processes within incarnation through which the mind comes to be more and more acquainted with the self.
Therefore, sitting down and taking the pen and writing upon paper those things known about the self, and those things logically assumed and attempting to infer identity in some mental way—this process is not useful, for the self is not built with the logic of the mind. That self which is the deepest self is a distortion of love and the heart as it opens simply becomes more and more able to resonate to the pure emotions which are that unique distortion of love which is each entity. Thusly, one better feels and intuits one’s way towards a deeper understanding of the identity of the self than work with the logic and the mind can ever produce.
These are subtle matters. And using words is a clumsy option when working in this area, yet we do not have a choice other than these words, so if you will forgive us and this instrument who must, in a way, translate our concepts, we shall continue attempting to throw some light upon this very central subject.
When the entity that each is comes into incarnation it is aware ahead of that time that it will lose its way; it will not remember that way; and it will need to wake up in the life in order to begin that journey of self-discovery. Those such as this circle now present were awakened by the call of that nature which as each grew it uncovered within itself. So, each has gone through several generations of thought concerning self-identity and has discarded many self-identities, finding them too limited and not enough evocative of self-perceived spiritual advancement or evolution. It is good to have started this searching, this pilgrimage, for as entities seek the light, as they are drawn to love, they are also seeking their identity.
The ideals and philosophical arrangements which work to create a more spiritually aware life experience must hang in mystery and in veiling much that the self would know yet cannot know within incarnation. There is no use in incarnations if the work done within incarnation is over and if the puzzle, shall we say, is completely and perfectly solved for an entity, then this entity has just transcended third density and will soon depart from this planet and its physical third-density existence.
It is a prerequisite, shall we say, of incarnation or the continuance of incarnation that the person be working to discover truth, the truth of self, the truth of love: the truth, however that entity describes or phrases it. When school is out the Creator simply allows that entity to move on. So, the one sure thing about entities within incarnation upon your planet at this time is that they are imperfectly known to themselves. This, then, being a prerequisite for life as you know it may be counted a good thing by some although one would not expect a universal “yes.”
The group question for this session was: “We are wondering if you could tell us something about the incarnational self, who that self is, and how to use it as a vehicle for evolution.” Q’uo began their reply by saying that self-consciousness is first experienced in the third density, so the question of who the self is, is quite appropriate for discussion though it is a difficult question to answer. Q’uo went on to say that the young child begins this process by looking at how its mind, its body, and its emotions give it some sense of who it is, and then it moves on to more advanced concepts of life, death, and belonging to different groups. Then Q’uo said that as the years go on the child experiences perceptions well or poorly, colors them with its emotions, and stores them as burdens in the subconscious mind for future reference. Then, when the self is ready to take up the study of what is in reality an eternal self that has been hidden within the deep mind for many incarnations, the nature of the self begins to be revealed when the conscious mind seeks to become more aware of its eternal self. Q’uo suggested that the deeper self is a portion of love—and not the logic of the mind–so it is best sought by the open heart of pure emotions or intuition. They said that the seeker knows before the incarnation that it will forget its true nature, so the seeking of the true nature of the self will go through many permutations as the seeker finds that these perceptions fall short of their intuitive feelings of their spiritual nature and process of evolution. Then Q’uo said that it is a prerequisite of the incarnation that the seeker continues to seek the true nature of the self, and this is a process cloaked in mystery, so it is the nature of the people of our planet to be unaware of the true nature of themselves, but this is a good thing because it ensures that the seeking of truth will continue. On December 12, 2004, Q’uo spoke of the true nature of our self:
It is very difficult from beyond incarnation to believe it possible to forget the true nature of the self and the creation. And yet, memory is the first thing that goes at the beginning of an incarnation. Your incarnation is protected from your own knowledge so that it can be very real to you, and it can have the effect that it is supposed to have and that you are hoping that it will have. However, from within incarnation, this is not a comforting thought. From within incarnation, you simply want the pain to go away, and yet the pain of living is part and parcel of the experience of drawing breath.
There is a road. This instrument is steeped in the Christian traditions, and so she thinks of this road as the King’s Highway. Others might think of it as the Great Way or the Tao. The one known as R was saying earlier that there is protection for those working on the spiritual process. This is true. However, the protection must be claimed, and the work that we have been describing is done before that claiming can take place. The price of admittance to that road is the laying down of all burdens and the taking on of your own truth. In taking on your own truth, you are taking on a self that is perfect, not in the sense of doing nothing wrong, but in the sense of being one with the infinite Creator. The act of laying down and leaving behind the worldly self is key. Once you have laid down your burdens, once you have let your personality go, your sense of justification and rightness and all of those details of self, you come into a consciousness that is real, a consciousness that is yours now and tomorrow and forever. And once you have that self as your significant self, you cannot be moved from the road. It truly is the “royal road” and when you are on it, you are one with all: all that you may perceive as those whom you wish to help, all that you may perceive of as those from whom you wish to learn, all entities, qualities and aspects of the Creator whatsoever.
It does, however, seem to most entities somewhat unfair, in that the deck is stacked against being able to know the truth that is so hungrily sought. Yet we say to you that the spirit within incarnation that is still seeking is that spirit that has the right to manifest within the illusion those gifts that may help that illusion. No one upon your sphere, native or wanderer, is fully realized. Each entity is upon that journey, and so are we, and for us, as larger truths have appeared, things have fallen away, and new mysteries have appeared. So, it has been also for you, and so shall it continue to be.
One may gaze at this identity at the level of its programming and see a very mechanical aspect to self-identity and by this we mean that there exists within the melding made between consciousness and the biocomputer of your brain those ways of perceiving which have been chosen throughout incarnation so far, which have re-written and distorted the way and the priority with which incoming sense data is received and processed. Thusly, on one important level the seeker may find its identity to be an amalgam of those programs which run when the self is presented with sense data. A simplistic example of this would be the cliché which this instrument is aware of concerning the glass of water being half full to the optimist and half empty to the pessimist. By such judgments the self accretes a system for judging incoming perceptions, and it decides and makes choices concerning this incoming data based upon choices previously made which have biased the incoming perceptions before they have arisen to the conscious mind.
So that it is very fruitful to move back into inner work gazing at those things which grab the attention throughout each day, and working with that harvest of daily knowledge of self by observing and contemplating what has been observed. Much healing might be done by the entity who goes back into those early experiences which biased the program, discovering those centers of pain, anger, disappointment, or whatever negative complex of emotions caused that crystallization which distorted the programming in the first place. And we encourage those efforts to know the self by working with the memory and with the dreams which may offer memories which have been forgotten. However, it is equally helpful to surrender all knowledge of self as being utterly irrelevant to the self that wishes to become one with the one infinite Creator, who wishes only to lose itself in that presence, who seeks to tabernacle with the infinite Love that is the one Creator.
Each entity has an identity. Looked at from the highest level each entity is an illusion. And as the densities mount towards the end of an octave those self-realized entities which were so full of emotion in earlier densities and who experienced such ideal states of compassion and wisdom find themselves releasing layer after layer of illusion until in the final gesture of individual personality the self is released into all that there is by desire. We cannot at this point in our own learning imagine what it is like to yearn so for the infinite One that the personality is completely released, but this does in the end occur, as far as we know.
Theoretically, then, if one took no thought at any time and simply stayed comfortable when in incarnation and avoided worry it might be possible never to be concerned with self-knowledge, simply choosing to love the Creator. No entity has as yet taken this shortcut, however, since the physical senses in any density are such as to give the individual clear subjective proof of existence and self-awareness.
Perhaps the best way to advise a seeker to look at the incarnational personality is to suggest that each allow the self the freedom of semi-permeable boundaries, allow the self to go deeply within, encourage the self to move deftly and deeply within the self as the opportunities, the moment come to each. This is not something one can do with a schedule. These moments of clarity come when they will, and we simply urge each to appreciate them and to yield to them when they come, for these are good opportunities to learn. And when the self is not in such a state, we encourage each to allow the questions to rest, for self-discovery is a process which needs time. It is not something which is grasped in a crystallized and gestalt way, but, rather, lies too deep for such experiences. And as long as the self is allowed its natural freedom to be profound at one mood and shallow at another, to be light one day and heavy another, and so forth, this is the best way to study the self. It is a matter of catching it unawares. One cannot gaze forever at the self with profit. One must look away and become spontaneous.
There is that balance between the work and the rest which fuels and feeds the work which we would encourage each to keep in mind. The mundane tasks of everyday life may not reveal the self to the self, and certainly one is not what one does. Yet washing the dishes, teaching, or any activity whatsoever may one moment may mean nothing and another moment reveal profound truth. So, the wise seeker is one who is alert to those moments when the present moment ceases being a moment in time and reveals the infinity of depth and width and breadth that is the truth of each present moment, for the present moment is the only one which exists, and all present moments exist simultaneously. Do not be surprised to find realization occurring in the midst of the smallest and most routine chore, for the inner mountain tops of experience are not those which seem high in the outer world but rather those which have there being and their altitude deep within the self.
As we said, this is a difficult subject, for the truth of personality is a shifting one, yet we honor it greatly, for from it has come all that has been needed by us to evolve to where we are now, and we feel secure in saying that for each entity. This is also tending to be true, that within the everyday and ordinary daily existence lies not one way but many ways to pursue self-discovery. No truth you find of your nature shall ever be complete within incarnation, for there is not the amount of material available to the waking self.
Then Q’uo said that in the process of self-realization larger truths appear within the experience of the seeker, and old portions of the self have fallen away and have been replaced by new mysteries. They continued by saying that the way that the brain and the mind of the seeker distort the sensory data coming into them creates a way of making choices that is repeated in its attempt at self-realization. So, Q’uo suggested that the seeker consider the observations of its daily experience and make connections with the childhood memories of difficulty and distress that distorted the seeker’s perception so that healing of these memories may be accomplished. Q’uo also said that it would be even better to surrender all of these memories and dedicate one’s efforts to becoming one with the Love of the infinite Creator. They said that this is a process of releasing the various illusory levels of the self that continues into the higher densities until the personality of the self is released by the desire for unity with the Creator. Q’uo went on to say that it might be most helpful for the self to create semi-permeable boundaries in which it seeks to go deeply within the self when the opportunity presents itself, and then at another time to go shallower in the study of the self so that there is plenty of time given to allow this process to be spontaneous. Q’uo completed their response by saying that the goal for this type of study of the self is to become aware of the present moment in which any activity one is engaged in might provide a profound moment of self-realization, a mountaintop type of experience that may be generated by the everyday experience so that there are many ways to pursue self-realization which is an endless process. On May 7, 2000, Q’uo described the value of accessing the present moment:
I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. By that statement we mean to say that each moment contains not only love but perfection. If one were to investigate all of the energies that have added themselves into that time period which you call the present moment, if you were able to investigate your own experience leading up to that moment, any such moment would offer you the opportunity of making contact with the one Creator, of experiencing the full presence of the one Creator. Thus, the use of catalyst is the variable which offers to each entity more or less of this opportunity to realize the perfection and the love contained in each moment. Thus, if one is able to fully utilize the catalyst that is presented to one, at any time that one is able to do this the doors to infinity open for you.
However, we have offered enough for a beginning and welcome future queries at a later session. We would at this time transfer this contact to the one known as Jim. We are those of Q’uo, and leave this instrument in love and in light.
This morning Anna and I synchronized our computers and listened to Carla channel Ra in Session #41 where there was a good deal of information about the nature of the energy centers, Ra’s progress through the densities, the nature of space/time and time/space, and the nature of our sun. Then I drove to Greenwood Cemetery here in Lexington, Nebraska for the graveside funeral service for Monte Kiffin, my high school baseball coach who was the reason we won the State Class A Championship in 1963. There were about 50 or 60 friends and family of Monte’s in attendance. A friend of Monte’s family gave a very moving and humorous eulogy for Monte, and a member of our baseball team, who is now a Presbyterian minister, shared his memories of how Monte used various drills of one kind and another to help us get in good physical shape and to know how to handle balls hit to us in different situations.
This afternoon everyone met up at Kirk’s Restaurant located just off of Interstate 80 for a celebration of life gathering where anyone who had memories of Monte got up and shared them with the guests while they were eating lunches from the buffet that had been set up on a table at the front of the room. It was great to hear so many inspiring stories of how Monte could motivate his players to give their best efforts in either football or baseball and work together to win their games. There were also a lot of stories of how Monte liked to have fun with his family, his fellow coaches, and the players. There were six of the players from our baseball team that got together at the end of the celebration to have our picture taken with the trophy from our championship using each of our cell phones so we all could keep this picture as a great memory of our time together today. My experience today will be one of the greatest memories of my life because the funeral and celebration of Monte’s life brought out so much love from everyone’s heart, including my own.
From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:
August 4
The Languages Of Love
I am of that principle of love which has been embodied forth in full manifestation in Jesus the Christ. I greet you in that love and in the living waters of its manifestation even unto this day, this hour and this minute.
This instrument has wondered why we speak both as “I” and as “we.” We are all one principle, yet each seeking entity has its own perceptions of pain and comfort and so to one we shall appear upon one vibration and to another, another, just as your languages differ. Yet all may be used by the spirit to speak words of peace, comfort and transformation.
There is no circumstance, no personality, no mind or spirit or emotion which can keep one who seeks from the fire of love: love that may transform, love that may enable the love that lies within you, each of you.
Know that there is nothing that may keep you from the principle of love.
Know that comfort comes to you as you, in your unique way, ask for it, seek it and are able to hear it.
We leave you, as always, in the one peace which comforts all, now and ever. Amen.
I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:
We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.
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