I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from September 19, 1993:
Group question: The question this afternoon has to deal with what is sometimes called the spiritual desert-like experience, in which one feels that one is in a wasteland and that the sustenance or the spirit in whatever way it was perceived is no longer present, that one is not connected to, or really partaking in that same experience; a feeling of being isolated and alone, abandoned even. We’ve noticed also that in the rushing through our daily round of activities we can also create something like the desert experience, in which we’re not connected to what we’re doing and we’re passing by so quickly that things and people just seems to be barely marking our days, and we’re wondering if the desert experience has a purpose, if it’s part of a spiritual cycle, and how we can be in that cycle and not be overly concerned about it, and just wondering in general what you might have to say about the spiritual desert experience.
(Carla channeling)
I am Q’uo. Greetings to each of you in the name of the One Who Is All. In Love and in Light we and you exist, and in that one creative Love we greet you. In that pure and limitless Light we salute you. We are asked to speak about the spiritual desert experience and are most happy to share our thoughts. However, we ask that each listen to these thoughts with the ear that is tuned by personal discrimination, for each person has his own truth, and to each person who hears that truth it seems as though it were being remembered rather than learned. If our thoughts do not evoke this feeling, then we encourage each to lay them gently aside.
As you rest in this domicile upon this sun-drenched day, listening to the small sounds of silence, there is the sensation of, shall we say, deceleration, as though the mind and its thoughts, which had been racing, were now slowed by the inactivity. We recommend meditation often, and our reason for doing so is precisely its effect upon the spiritual seeker, for the incarnational experience is one of action, and yet, if there is constant action, how can the fundamental nature of the pure self be felt or perceived? And without that self-knowledge, how then can the seeker move skillfully back into action in ways which address the deep concerns of seeking? How can one become more aware of one’s true nature unless one is willing to sit with the self, listening to that inner silence through which spirit and guidance speak to the conscious mind?
The feeling of being not present is a deadening and disturbing sensation, for the essence of your human experience is intense and continuing experience of action taken and choices presented and made to involve yourself in this process of perceiving choices and then making them is to be involved in the most nearly central work of your density of conscious seeking. It fulfills a deep portion of your nature, both to focus upon these perceived choices and to find one’s creative strength in applying choices already made. We say creative because this process of defining the self by its choices is peculiarly open to creative inspiration and insight.
When entities begin to feel hurried in the everyday life, there is the tendency to encourage within the self activities that numb the creative powers of perception. This is in order to avoid pain, for it is painful to spend the waking hours ceaselessly performing actions which the self feels are unimportant. Thusly, even when a meditation period is perceived by the self as being a failure because of an unremitting flow of inner noise, yet still the attempt to sit with the self and listen resensitizes the perceptions of self so that the self within feels stronger and more real. This in turn opens the inner door to the effect of that creative Love which is the one great original Thought.
Thusly, one important way to approach the feeling of the spiritual desert experience is to place within the routines of each day those moments when the only goal is to sit with that inner reality and offer the self to the experience of being present with all that there is, for as you meditate you touch within that gate to eternal things, and the meditation becomes larger and larger until all the starry heavens dwell within the tiniest point of that meditative silence, and literally, the universe, the creation in totality, is tucked into the perception of self, and you are all that there is, and all that there is, is part and parcel of your self.
For each of you perceives that he works upon the small self in the context of the day, the season, the moment, and these moments in the conscious mind seem to add up to a life too quickly experienced and are too soon over. When the self is feeling this disconnection, and the self feels less and less a portion of a beautiful creation, yet how to address the longing felt by one who does feel disconnected?
This instrument was speaking earlier of the feeling which her faith had given her within this spiritual desert experience, and we feel this is a good example of the ways seekers can use those choices already made. If one has the faith in one’s previous perceptions and respects one’s previous conclusions, this certainly aids materially in keeping an entity in balance. However, it is often that part of the desert experience is that one doubts and even rejects one’s previous perceptions and feels to be—we correct this instrument—and feels itself to be stranded, having no continuing beliefs. It is not that the pilgrim soul wishes to turn upon its past and rend it, but rather that the experience of the spiritual desert seems to openly and lucidly delineate a self which has been taken out of all previous patterns which comforted, so that there is in the truth-seeking heart of the pilgrim the solemn and sure belief that all previous states were now left behind. When one’s context is not respected and a new one must be built, then there is a true desert experience.
The group question for this session was: “We’re wondering if the desert experience has a purpose, if it’s part of a spiritual cycle, and how we can be in that cycle and not be overly concerned about it, and just wondering in general what you might have to say about the spiritual desert experience?” Q’uo began by saying that our incarnational experience is one of action, but that the true nature of ourselves can only be discovered in meditation which can then address our deeper concerns of spiritual seeking. They went on to say that making choices is the central purpose of this density, and the manner in which we creatively apply these choices defines who we are. Then Q’uo said that in order to deal with the spiritual desert experience it is important to meditate on a daily basis so that the entire creation is contained within every part of ourself. Q’uo continued by describing the desert experience as one which denies one’s previous perceptions and conclusions, and that new ones must be constructed in order to create a true desert experience. On March 29, 1987, Q’uo spoke of how to deal with the desert experience:
May each experience such lovely pleasures, and may each rejoice in those seasons when such occurs, yet when an individual’s love seems to fail one, when one’s religion or path seems to fail one, it is time to trust the desert experience of deprivation and want, pain and sadness, loss and disillusionment, not taking them as realities, but as illusion, just as the peaceful and contented times are illusions.
If each entity, whether seeking in relationship with another entity or with a societal religious group, could learn as intensively and carefully in each pleasant moment as it learns when faced with painful challenges, challenges would not have to be built into the life experience. But contentment and happiness seem to dull the powers of spiritual observation. Sharpen your ears, your eyes, and your heart, my friends, in good times, and diminish painful experience. Yet when painful experience comes to you, seek to know in faith and will to remember that the desert experience shall give way once again to the experience of plenty and peace.
Therefore, seek during this period not to act in this way or in that, but to remain a listening, watchful, prayerful entity, open first to the voice of the Creator within, and only secondly to these things about one which demand the reaction, the emotion, the manifestation. Create your manifestations insofar as it comes naturally to you in any situation, and know well within yourself when you have not created, but have reacted.
Let us address this state of perception in which previous truths, previous patterns and previous emotions concerning spirit have been left behind, and the seeking self must be invented entirely. What would you do if suddenly you were not the sex you are, or the nationality that you are, the intelligence that you perceive in yourself, or the kind of entity you perceive yourself to be? Would these definitions of self, shall we say, then become irrelevant, or would the seeker need to reinvent each of these ways of thinking about the self? We suggest that the reason qualities such as nationality, sexuality and type of character are valued and are a part of each person’s web of perception is that they are fundamental building blocks of that milieu in which you have come to learn the lessons of love. These are not things you outgrow in third density. These are tools you use often in attempting to better perceive the day-to-day nature of your world.
Thusly, the first thing to avoid when feeling annihilated and full of desert times is the casual flinging away of identity. The small changes of everyday identifications of self are not unspiritual. These homely truths of self are portions of the self which has come to learn those things which are greater than any description of that which goes into them can possibly encompass. You use these building blocks, and many, many others, not simply to distinguish the self from others or each entity from another, but to do work in consciousness in which words are given burdens greater than words can bear. This is the reason poetry and music are so compelling to those sensitive to the freight that they do carry, for the common places within the life do not remain common when one is sitting with them in faith that there is that nature of self which is more than its circumstances or its expression.
In music, the tones create words which carry more feeling, more deep emotion than could be explained. In poetry, the words themselves are twisted together until they make a rope stronger in evocative truth than the words used to make the rope. And when two hearts touch, whether silently or with words, a commerce is achieved from self to self that far outstrips the power of expression, for you are within an illusion in which every possible means of distraction is purposefully placed to allow the full travel of free will to give the self who seeks the largest stage upon which to improvise.
We do not encourage walking away from the world of too much to do. Not for long, my friends, for this is the world into which you came to learn the lessons of love, and this is the incarnation which is your present opportunity to, shall we say, achieve a state of realization which transforms the everyday into that which rings true.
The key here is to respect this incarnation, to respect the times of celebration and the times of suffering, however they may be perceived. You came into this illusion because you wished for these complications and distractions, not to look at them and then turn aside and move out of the world necessarily, but rather to so orient the self that the limitless and unbounded truth that overflows each moment may in the present incarnation be encouraged to express the deeper and deeper nature of the self which transforms all the everyday experiences into those freighted with that precious burden of the immanence of love.
When you feel most trivial, most dry and most disconnected, there is the natural tendency to turn away, to fill the time or the mind with something which may distract and release one from the discomfort. Yet, we do suggest that these feelings be respected, that the time may be well spent, when the self simply sits with these feelings and honors the self as it expresses itself in these sometimes hard or uncomfortable feelings and thoughts. For you are here not to feel good all the time, but to attempt more and more to know the truth of each thing which is perceived, and to honor that truth. The sitting, the meditating, the high and holy words and work, yes, these are truth, but true too is the poorly done, the mishandled, the tumbled, the messed up, as this instrument would say. In the dirt and grime and struggling of day-to-day living lies the most transcendent beauty, the deepest passion, the most intense of perceptions of overarching infinity.
We therefore encourage each to continue in the desert times to hold in respect those positive frames of perception which temporarily seem to have been invalidated; but more than that holding of the past, to continue in a state of mind that does not contain the fear that this dry desert period will continue. If one may become fearless concerning one’s state of mind so that discomfort is seen without fear, then the groundwork has been done for the present moment to touch the heart anew, so that that deep wisdom of the heart may transfigure the perceptive web and suddenly the self feels itself in green pastures, strengthened, straightened and strong once again.
We hope each may cultivate, not an indifference to the state of mind, but rather a willingness to appreciate the difficult times without asking that they be soon over …
[Side one of tape ends.]
(Carla channeling)
…[inaudible] is most fundamentally about respect. This incarnation is but a moment. You have treasure in your moments within this illusion. The unknowing of an incarnational experience is its most potent characteristic. Open your hearts without fear to these times and find yourself striding among the stars, yet still very much focused upon the daily life. You cannot do this by turning from the demands of the illusion, but in turning to them with love and without fear, for each perceives the nature as one who does work, and we say to you your first vocation is the creation and maintenance of your web of that which is true and that which is love.
Now Q’uo likened the loss of our identity of our sex, our nationality, and the nature of our character as to a desert experience where these qualities would be removed, but since they are basic building blocks of that which we use to learn the lessons of love in the third density they cannot be discarded. Q’uo said that the changes in our self-identity are not unspiritual but are a kind of desert experience where we use these building blocks to do work in consciousness which is of a nature that cannot be described in words, but are more accurately described by the emotions of music, or poetry, or the touching of two hearts that provides the ability to avoid the distractions and allow the expression of free will. Then Q’uo suggested that we not ignore the difficulties of our incarnations because they give us the opportunity to discover that each moment contains the true nature of ourselves and the presence of love. They went on to say that if we can experience the desert times without fear that they will continue, and then the groundwork has been laid for the wisdom of the heart to transform our perception so that we feel that we are in green pastures and strong once again. Q’uo completed their reply by saying that we should treasure the difficult moments of unknowing without fear and to focus on that which is true, that which is love. On July 12, 1990, Q’uo spoke of the value of difficult moments:
The responsibilities that form themselves as testings, temperings, tunings, and purifications in your daily round of activities are merely the means by which you shall accomplish these goals. That your experiences become more intense and more difficult is an indication that you are ever moving forward upon the paths which you have chosen. This is not to say that your portion of contentment, pleasure, and joy shall always be small, but that added to these joys will also be those difficult moments that are the times during which the food of a metaphysical nature is being eaten, being processed, and being transformed into a kind of manna that will nourish those portions [inaudible].
We would at this time conclude through the instrument known as Jim. We thank this instrument and would leave it in love and light. We are those known to you as Q’uo.
This morning I refilled the three hummingbird feeders in my yard and the two hummingbird feeders in my neighbor’s yard across the street. Then I used my chainsaw to cut up the large Black Walnut tree limb that fell into the forsythia bushes during our Homecoming Gathering a week and a half ago. I put the smaller parts of the large limb into garbage cans for yard waste pickup, and then I used the biggest parts of the limb, along with the biggest parts of the Black Locust tree limbs that Gary cut up to remodel my wooden pyramid structure in the firepit that has a solar-powered lantern on top of it. I got about three-quarters of the way done before taking a break for lunch.
This afternoon I went outside and completed the pyramid with the fifth layer of logs so now it has five layers of 16-inch logs and is about 8 feet tall. Then I used the watering wand to water the flower gardens along the parking area in the front of the house.
From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:
June 11
Rejoicing And Praising
Greetings in the love of Jesus Christ.
I am of the principle of the consciousness of love in the vibration which comforts this child.
As we have been speaking with you, we have refrained from using the usual appellations of lordship and kingdom, power, and might. We have done this in order that you may perceive that we are part of consciousness, as you are part of consciousness, and are very near to you, not shutting you out but welcoming you into the consciousness which all may share.
Why, then, have words like “Lord” and “Holy” and “Blessed” and “Most High” been given to Jesus the Christ, to his Father, and to that principle of which I am a part?
My children, search within yourselves to see if you can rejoice without praising or worship without exalting. It is a thing man made for his own benefit, the naming and the praising. For we who communicate the consciousness of love wish to offer inspiration and a feeling that there is a true mystery. And mankind, having seen the mystery, must express praise and joy in his own way.
Therefore, as you adore, use all the phrases that lift you up. And lift up love, without self-consciousness but in the knowledge that you are urging yourselves on in a good race. For the more you laugh and rejoice in love, the closer your consciousness is to dwelling within the consciousness and the kingdom of heaven.
Peace be with each of you.
I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:
We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.
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