Since I learned about we are shifting through billions of parallel realities per second, which we experience based on our vibration, I immediately started raising my vibration and focused on creating an anthro world. But rather than "creating" it, I'm more focused on the feeling of it already being here. I've done this quite intently.

But I'm getting to a point now where I realize the possibility that I might not experience that world in this lifetime. It's only a nagging suspicion. I don't focus on it too much. But I have to realize that I need to be ok in every moment, without expecting this world. Just finding the joy in the moment is the purpose.

But it makes me cry some thinking about what if I never get to hug a real anthro in this life?

Then it makes me realize that, when that world arrives, I feel I won't deserve how amazing it will be. I've gone from struggling with humility when I realized the power of intent in shifting reality and seeing the world changing around me, to such a deep respect of the process that I feel like I don't deserve the wonderful things that are happening to me. I desperately want the new world that I'm envisioning, but not at the expense of anyone else. I need to learn to be ok in sharing the creative powers with everyone else, instead of being greedy in trying to create "my world". This is one of the many challenges I'm facing. I need to learn to be ok with who I am right now, whether or not I get to experience this new world in this life.

I'm currently using my indigo ray and it's ability to change matter to transform my body. I feel some pretty interesting effects, so will have to see how it goes.