08-11-2014, 10:31 AM
So I had quite the mind blowing interaction with someone that I'm hanging out with/seeing/not sure what you'd call it. Anyways, this pairing of us started rather innocent such as a fun night out. What wasn't expected was the intense connection that we shared which enabled a quick evolution of a fun night out to all the mushy cuddling and her staying over a few times.
So she came over last night after a little bit of woe is me crap I was whining about. My mind was continuing to bother me with racing thoughts and once things got heated, I suddenly just stopped. She was quick to realize how tense I was. As we were laying there, she could tell I was bothered and she asked if I wanted her opinion on the matter. What she said, hit me like a freight train. She pinpointed reasons for my nervousness to a level that I pretty much knew myself but also in a way that made me open my eyes a bit about things I hadn't connected. It mainly dealt with a glaring relationship issue that I've experienced over the years along with some feelings of unworthiness related to actually being in a relationship and contributing to it.
I just laid there for a few minutes just taking in what she said because I was quite shocked to hear it explained so accurately yet I never told her what I had been thinking.
So she came over last night after a little bit of woe is me crap I was whining about. My mind was continuing to bother me with racing thoughts and once things got heated, I suddenly just stopped. She was quick to realize how tense I was. As we were laying there, she could tell I was bothered and she asked if I wanted her opinion on the matter. What she said, hit me like a freight train. She pinpointed reasons for my nervousness to a level that I pretty much knew myself but also in a way that made me open my eyes a bit about things I hadn't connected. It mainly dealt with a glaring relationship issue that I've experienced over the years along with some feelings of unworthiness related to actually being in a relationship and contributing to it.
I just laid there for a few minutes just taking in what she said because I was quite shocked to hear it explained so accurately yet I never told her what I had been thinking.