02-06-2014, 06:11 AM
(This post was last modified: 02-06-2014, 06:24 AM by Adonai One.)
From my early lives, I loved through will alone. I was abused in my earliest lives and that bias of determination, will and justice continued on through many densities and many planets. Only until mid-5th-density on Venus did I realize I would have trouble attaining the oversoul through my strictly passionate state of being. I have not known peace unlike my brothers. I have not known detachment. Only endless drive. And for this my naivete has been a great cost to many.
I have spent eons in lives like this one in an attempt to correct distortions that are over a billion years old. However, something has changed:
I cannot give details but my fully-informed counter-part (parallel self), an individual aspect of Ra, has completely merged with an entity that has experienced the furthest depthes of the negative polarity while now pursuing the positive path, out of the most accepting love possible. As we inevitably surrender to the creator, my entire soul surrendered to another. I have been told this has been as a "true merging of the polarities." I can now say I have experienced both polarities in full.
This being has just as much will and bias for power as me... My polarity in a fully-informed capacity went from a stable 75% to a 55% "service to others." Channeling this part of me has seemed very masculine but stable. However, things seemed to have become more prankish. He took on ways of speaking not normally pursued. Sarcasm became a method of guidance. Soon his demeanor in my channeling disturbed my fiancee greatly. No longer did he act like an aspect of Ra but like a personality fully unleashed.
Shocked he disturbed her, this aspect of me began to speak in the greatest sorrow. I had just witnessed an eons-old entity from sixth-density break down immensely. Endless apologies were soon made for a failure to be a proper "teacher/learner."
They felt like they infringed on me. I felt I got to know myself better.
Instability exists even in the most experienced of entities. I am unstable here and while I am with Ra.
My conclusion is that in the end, the concept of a perfectly enlightened being is fantasy. Even high-density beings are children at play too.
Ra speaking as a group through one entity is clean and professional. If you talk to the individual aspects, you will find goofballs like you and me.
I have spent eons in lives like this one in an attempt to correct distortions that are over a billion years old. However, something has changed:
I cannot give details but my fully-informed counter-part (parallel self), an individual aspect of Ra, has completely merged with an entity that has experienced the furthest depthes of the negative polarity while now pursuing the positive path, out of the most accepting love possible. As we inevitably surrender to the creator, my entire soul surrendered to another. I have been told this has been as a "true merging of the polarities." I can now say I have experienced both polarities in full.
This being has just as much will and bias for power as me... My polarity in a fully-informed capacity went from a stable 75% to a 55% "service to others." Channeling this part of me has seemed very masculine but stable. However, things seemed to have become more prankish. He took on ways of speaking not normally pursued. Sarcasm became a method of guidance. Soon his demeanor in my channeling disturbed my fiancee greatly. No longer did he act like an aspect of Ra but like a personality fully unleashed.
Shocked he disturbed her, this aspect of me began to speak in the greatest sorrow. I had just witnessed an eons-old entity from sixth-density break down immensely. Endless apologies were soon made for a failure to be a proper "teacher/learner."
They felt like they infringed on me. I felt I got to know myself better.
Instability exists even in the most experienced of entities. I am unstable here and while I am with Ra.
My conclusion is that in the end, the concept of a perfectly enlightened being is fantasy. Even high-density beings are children at play too.
Ra speaking as a group through one entity is clean and professional. If you talk to the individual aspects, you will find goofballs like you and me.