09-25-2013, 05:38 PM
We have a poetry thread, and I thought it might be nice to have something for prose, too. I have tons of little blips laying around that never made it into full novels, and I'd love to see other people's as well. I already know we have quite a bit of writing talent on this forum.
Some ruminations from earlier today:
He put his arms around me, and his touch was as light as feathers. In the heavy physical realm, his light body was barely tangible. "I don't want to lose you." he said, and I was startled by the amount of human emotion in his voice. I hadn't imagined the higher beings capable of showing something this close to despair.
"You're not going to lose me." I assured him. "Even if I die, I'll be able to come back to you all the sooner."
"Then you haven't understood the true meaning of the visions." The look in his eyes shook me to my core.
Upon his mention, the images rushed back into my head- my body hanging weightless in the air, pure white light streaming out of my eyes and mouth and consuming my entire being.
"Tell me." I urged him, and he stared at the ground. I was half sure I could see crystalline tears forming in the corners of his shining eyes. "David, *please*, tell me."
"This was your choice." He wouldn't meet my eyes.
"That doesn't explain anything!"
He heaved a long sigh."I'm not supposed to tell you." he said, his voice shaking. "It could affect your decisions. It could disturb everything."
"You've already said too much!" I was getting angry now. "You can't come down here and start all...all of THIS, and then pull that high and mighty divine ordinance act. You CAN'T. Tell me!"
He looked into my face for a long time. I could feel the waves of sorrow crashing within his being. "When you came into this incarnation," he finally said, "you agreed to bring something in with you. Within you. You can't imagine the number of beings who contributed pieces of their own essence- how many flames you carry."
"I don't understand." Was he saying I had other souls inside of me?
"You took those seeds so that, if the worst happened, their combined energies could be brought forth, using your own heart as a catalyst. It would create what you might call a weapon of love, with the potential to fully end this war."
"But what's wrong with that? That's good, isn't it?"
His face darkened. "If the process is activated, your body will be disintegrated in the resulting outpouring of energy."
"You know I'm not afraid to die."
"It's far more than that!" His eyes were stormy now. "Don't you see? When the seeds sprout, your consciousness will be fused with the accumulated experience of thousands of souls far more advanced than you and I. It will be a fusion at..." He placed a hand against his head, trying to find the right words. "You might say at an atomic level."
"But what does that mean?"
"It means that you- your personality, your identity, the self you recognize, the self the ones you love recognize- it will be obliterated in the blink of an eye. Your consciousness will immediately transcend the octave. Your will become someone, something entirely different from what you are now."
I stared at him as the words sank in. That's what the old man meant when he said 'ultimate sacrifice'...giving up not only my life, but the very nature of my own soul.
"It's not fair." My body suddenly felt numb. "How can they expect anyone to DO that?!?"
"I told you before. It was you who volunteered for this process. But it doesn't have to be that way! It can still be prevented!"
"How?" A wave of desperation was rising within me.
His eyes looked like dying coals. "I can't tell you."
I wanted to scream. I wanted to hit him, though I knew my touch would pass right through his body. I felt tears streaming down my face. "David, what am I supposed to do?"
His body was beginning to fade. He was running out of energy to manifest himself in my vibration. "It is your choice." he said sadly.
"You can't expect ME to make that kind of decision! I'm just...I'm just a human!"
"It can ONLY be made by you." His voice faded away and he was gone, and I dropped to the ground, the weight of such dreaded responsibility crashing down upon my shoulders. Never in my life had I felt more alone.
Some ruminations from earlier today:
He put his arms around me, and his touch was as light as feathers. In the heavy physical realm, his light body was barely tangible. "I don't want to lose you." he said, and I was startled by the amount of human emotion in his voice. I hadn't imagined the higher beings capable of showing something this close to despair.
"You're not going to lose me." I assured him. "Even if I die, I'll be able to come back to you all the sooner."
"Then you haven't understood the true meaning of the visions." The look in his eyes shook me to my core.
Upon his mention, the images rushed back into my head- my body hanging weightless in the air, pure white light streaming out of my eyes and mouth and consuming my entire being.
"Tell me." I urged him, and he stared at the ground. I was half sure I could see crystalline tears forming in the corners of his shining eyes. "David, *please*, tell me."
"This was your choice." He wouldn't meet my eyes.
"That doesn't explain anything!"
He heaved a long sigh."I'm not supposed to tell you." he said, his voice shaking. "It could affect your decisions. It could disturb everything."
"You've already said too much!" I was getting angry now. "You can't come down here and start all...all of THIS, and then pull that high and mighty divine ordinance act. You CAN'T. Tell me!"
He looked into my face for a long time. I could feel the waves of sorrow crashing within his being. "When you came into this incarnation," he finally said, "you agreed to bring something in with you. Within you. You can't imagine the number of beings who contributed pieces of their own essence- how many flames you carry."
"I don't understand." Was he saying I had other souls inside of me?
"You took those seeds so that, if the worst happened, their combined energies could be brought forth, using your own heart as a catalyst. It would create what you might call a weapon of love, with the potential to fully end this war."
"But what's wrong with that? That's good, isn't it?"
His face darkened. "If the process is activated, your body will be disintegrated in the resulting outpouring of energy."
"You know I'm not afraid to die."
"It's far more than that!" His eyes were stormy now. "Don't you see? When the seeds sprout, your consciousness will be fused with the accumulated experience of thousands of souls far more advanced than you and I. It will be a fusion at..." He placed a hand against his head, trying to find the right words. "You might say at an atomic level."
"But what does that mean?"
"It means that you- your personality, your identity, the self you recognize, the self the ones you love recognize- it will be obliterated in the blink of an eye. Your consciousness will immediately transcend the octave. Your will become someone, something entirely different from what you are now."
I stared at him as the words sank in. That's what the old man meant when he said 'ultimate sacrifice'...giving up not only my life, but the very nature of my own soul.
"It's not fair." My body suddenly felt numb. "How can they expect anyone to DO that?!?"
"I told you before. It was you who volunteered for this process. But it doesn't have to be that way! It can still be prevented!"
"How?" A wave of desperation was rising within me.
His eyes looked like dying coals. "I can't tell you."
I wanted to scream. I wanted to hit him, though I knew my touch would pass right through his body. I felt tears streaming down my face. "David, what am I supposed to do?"
His body was beginning to fade. He was running out of energy to manifest himself in my vibration. "It is your choice." he said sadly.
"You can't expect ME to make that kind of decision! I'm just...I'm just a human!"
"It can ONLY be made by you." His voice faded away and he was gone, and I dropped to the ground, the weight of such dreaded responsibility crashing down upon my shoulders. Never in my life had I felt more alone.