04-03-2013, 02:28 AM
(This post was last modified: 04-03-2013, 02:38 AM by Adonai One.)
I just sleep on the sofa in my family's living room, in my regular clothing. Not only that, I don't even go to bed at a normal hour. Even when I had a normal job, it was the night-shift. I go to bed at 5-in-the-morning and wake up at 10 or noon. My family doesn't even think I truly sleep at all because of this.
Why do I do this? Because I feel vulnerable while sleeping and I am scared of the dark. Yes, I know it's all the creator -- even the darkness -- but that does not cure this primal fear of mine. Even when I see things, I try to muster up all the acceptance and love I have but I still feel uncomfortable. Thus I take the easiest path and avoid sleeping in the dark. It's not a huge burden to live this way but I want to know this:
Is this something that spiritually needs to be resolved or is it just a primal quirk? Will I truly gain anything spiritually by forcing myself to sleep in darkness at night?
Why do I do this? Because I feel vulnerable while sleeping and I am scared of the dark. Yes, I know it's all the creator -- even the darkness -- but that does not cure this primal fear of mine. Even when I see things, I try to muster up all the acceptance and love I have but I still feel uncomfortable. Thus I take the easiest path and avoid sleeping in the dark. It's not a huge burden to live this way but I want to know this:
Is this something that spiritually needs to be resolved or is it just a primal quirk? Will I truly gain anything spiritually by forcing myself to sleep in darkness at night?