04-15-2022, 04:13 AM
I would ask for prayer and if you feel it would help then you're welcome to do so. I've prided myself recently as a mystic. What I'm turning out to be is one big mistake. I preach and teach about ego and I feel I'm the biggest one there is. Problem is I see it all and I can't stop. I'm a runaway train. I'm weak, lazy and lots of other things. My whole life I've tried to do what's right, or at least that's what I've convinced myself of. Now I don't know what to do. I know what I need to do, but I got way too much quit in me. I know all the wisdom, Yada Yada yada, I need to lay down on the altar, but this living sacrifice just wants to get right up and eat a sandwich. I wish I could be stopped in my tracks, and maybe it's best for humanity if that were the case, but I have a feeling life's not gonna make it that easy on me, come what may. I'm sick and cold. God have mercy on our souls.