My own situation... I just feel like whatever's doing harvest for Earth's 4th density has certain standards for people, and I'd probably be able to meet them if it weren't for certain emotional issues that I'm just hopelessly hung up on, but I am...
I also feel like whatever's doing it is, at the very least, somewhat negatively oriented, and I wonder of this isn't freedom so much as the enslavers trying to move us out of stuffy, s***-and-piss covered cages in a factory farm and into roomy, gold-plated cages with AC and windows. It seems like the focus is less on spirituality and more on technology, which, among other things, indicates a negative orientation, whatever the people at the bottom are led to believe.
Fact of the matter is, these emotional hangups have changed core parts of my personality. Certain experiences have changed me from "he looks scary, but he's a really nice guy", and "he's so generous", to someone who only understands hate, domination, and control. Maybe it's that I'm just a snake with a chipped tooth, biting at everything that comes near me.
But I also don't think those emotional hangups can be healed, or it's at least very unlikely, and the very best I can do is sit in the corner with some painkillers and try to not bite people.
Deep down, I care about others, but I'm not in a position where I can get as deep as that caring resides. I'm sorry for hurting certain people, but the hate/pain I'm in is at a near-singularity level, and it's hard not to be hateful and mean and violent.
At the same time, the so-called Illolminati are a bunch of ball-fumbling fuckups, they have no idea what they're doing with me, and yet they think they're in charge of me and that I should't be allowed to do anything without their supervision. Usually make things worse. I do appreciate when I've received help, but I need to move forward on my own, without the straightjackets and training wheels.
The alternative, I figure, is to bypass harvest and go to my own room, where I can play by myself and not hurt anyone. It's an even better option than reincarnation since my level of toxicity won't have to affect this planetary sphere, or anything other than myself, where it can be controlled.
If there are planes of healing as mentioned in the Ra and Seth materials, then maybe there's a way I could go from there. Or maybe not.
I think there's some advanced magick in my subconscious, but I don't really know how all this works. How does one bypass harvest and create their own vibrational "room" that can survive past third density, something like fifth density?
Perhaps an ambitious goal, but not outside the realm of possibility. But I can't deal with the fundamentalist materialists who won't let me progress unless they "fix" all of my thinking so that I think just like they do, or like the rule-obsessed fundamentalist Abrahamics who think that people should only be allowed to use itelligent infinity if they're filtering and watching things, or not at all because "you don't deserve it" and you have to be flawless in order to deserve such.
Well, if this reality is really infinite, then there might be an option for me here...
tl;dr:
How does byassing harvest work, because I have to do it?
I also feel like whatever's doing it is, at the very least, somewhat negatively oriented, and I wonder of this isn't freedom so much as the enslavers trying to move us out of stuffy, s***-and-piss covered cages in a factory farm and into roomy, gold-plated cages with AC and windows. It seems like the focus is less on spirituality and more on technology, which, among other things, indicates a negative orientation, whatever the people at the bottom are led to believe.
Fact of the matter is, these emotional hangups have changed core parts of my personality. Certain experiences have changed me from "he looks scary, but he's a really nice guy", and "he's so generous", to someone who only understands hate, domination, and control. Maybe it's that I'm just a snake with a chipped tooth, biting at everything that comes near me.
But I also don't think those emotional hangups can be healed, or it's at least very unlikely, and the very best I can do is sit in the corner with some painkillers and try to not bite people.
Deep down, I care about others, but I'm not in a position where I can get as deep as that caring resides. I'm sorry for hurting certain people, but the hate/pain I'm in is at a near-singularity level, and it's hard not to be hateful and mean and violent.
At the same time, the so-called Illolminati are a bunch of ball-fumbling fuckups, they have no idea what they're doing with me, and yet they think they're in charge of me and that I should't be allowed to do anything without their supervision. Usually make things worse. I do appreciate when I've received help, but I need to move forward on my own, without the straightjackets and training wheels.
The alternative, I figure, is to bypass harvest and go to my own room, where I can play by myself and not hurt anyone. It's an even better option than reincarnation since my level of toxicity won't have to affect this planetary sphere, or anything other than myself, where it can be controlled.
If there are planes of healing as mentioned in the Ra and Seth materials, then maybe there's a way I could go from there. Or maybe not.
I think there's some advanced magick in my subconscious, but I don't really know how all this works. How does one bypass harvest and create their own vibrational "room" that can survive past third density, something like fifth density?
Perhaps an ambitious goal, but not outside the realm of possibility. But I can't deal with the fundamentalist materialists who won't let me progress unless they "fix" all of my thinking so that I think just like they do, or like the rule-obsessed fundamentalist Abrahamics who think that people should only be allowed to use itelligent infinity if they're filtering and watching things, or not at all because "you don't deserve it" and you have to be flawless in order to deserve such.
Well, if this reality is really infinite, then there might be an option for me here...
tl;dr:
How does byassing harvest work, because I have to do it?