(12-28-2016, 02:23 PM)IndigoGeminiWolf Wrote: When I sleep, in between REM sleep, I am not aware of myself. But I still exist.
Maybe I didn't explain it exactly like he does in the course. My first time going through his Infinity set.
The way he puts it on his course is: "Infinity is Originally Unaware of Itself"
I agree. We are often unaware of our self -- our identity -- when in-between REM cycles. But lack of awareness of self, doesn't necessarily mean no awareness at all.
I used to believe awareness shut off when we went to sleep, but I've since come to the conclusion that we just don't normally hold onto memories from that state. I've had experiences where I was able to retain trace memories of the state during what I had previously thought was a state of unconsciousness, and to my surprise learned there was consciousness even in that state. It was largely shapeless/formless but there was beingness even in that state. No perception of passage of time. Just the bliss of being in its most simple form. But its also possible I'm wrong and consciousness does really shut off in certain circumstances (I don't believe this is the case, but it is always a possibility).
It appears most of the cosmology Bentinho espouses comes directly from the Ra material itself, so he likely teaches that infinity comes before awareness, because you can certainly interpret the Ra material that way. I don't personally subscribe to that literal interpretation of Ra's exact words, but it is understandable that many people will (whether that is actually correct or not). I just really like to think about metaphysical structures, and I preach, like a broken record, what resonates most with my spirit. I like to hear other peoples differences in perspective. And of course, you can believe as you like. I respond most often to your posts, because you talk about the things that occupy my attention the most, so I become naturally interested or attracted by the subjects you post about.
To my perception, infinity is infinitely aware, but it doesn't perceive itself as an object (no-thing-ness -- nothing can be grasped). When it does perceive itself as an object, it does so as direct result of *will* -- the will or desire to know itself
. It then becomes mind, which is self reflective consciousness
. Pure spirit just radiates infinitely. As spirit looks into the mirror of mind, a reflection of spirit forms which is infinitely absorptive (primal matter -- the negative magnetic pole to spirit). This then becomes the cosmic body of the Logos. And the reflections and inversions of consciousness keep happening until Beingness eventually falls into the distorted versions of mind/body/spirits that you and I are presently enjoying (or perhaps not enjoying
So infinity is originally not self aware. That would be correct from my point of view. It is aware of Being, but not self aware as an object, or an identity. It may seem like a minor distinction, but from my perspective it is worth noting. Perhaps you disagree.