A Newbie Checking in...

[Maryanne Z]

I wanted to check in and say hello. I have no idea what I'm doing here...I am usually a loner, and I am still trying to figure out this website. I have so much I want to share, and I have a hard time knowing what is of interest to you. I am hoping someone will (gently) steer me in the right direction for sharing on this website. I am unsure what to post...

What I DO know is when I read the Ra material, something inside me lights up and it's almost like a remembering, rather than reading something new. When I read about Wanderers, I felt comforted that someone finally put a definition to something I have felt for years, and I cried tears of relief. It reminded me of a book I read in the 80's by Ruth Montgomery called 'Strangers Among Us" which made me feel 'at home' and comforted.

I speak to guides every night before I sleep, and every morning when I wake up. There are some times during my spiritual guidance/inquiry meditations when I feel almost completely alone, and sometimes when I feel there is 'standing room only' in my room. I FEEL them and they speak to my soul (I am not one who sees beings from other dimensions, although on occasion I have caught glimpses in my peripherals, or have briefly see shapeless images or lights). I have occasional visual experiences of solid objects (the overpass of the freeway, large oak trees, random objects) looking like a mass of energy--sorry, that's the best explanation I can give without starting a new thread--this is a new experience for me, about 4 months old.

There are familiar ages/numbers and incidents in my life which correspond to happenings I have read in Ra and other material: My addictions were extinguished when I was 33 years young--Jesus's body was extinguished at age 33. Lincoln agreed to exit his body and relinquish to a higher entity at age 44 ("Walk-ins" per R. Montgomery)--I was 44 when I had a spiritual experience which changed my complete being, purpose, and focus. And since that day I 'saw the light' everything in my life changed and has been getting stronger (it's been 12 years now).

The last 12 years of my spiritual studies have opened my eyes and taken me in directions I never would have chosen for myself. I don't even know where to start...it seems so BIG and vast. There is so much reading I want to do...my nightstand has books from ancient Sanskrit, Dahlia Lama, Ra, Bodhisattva, Taylor Caldwell, etc...and there just is not enough time in my day to dive into it all. I seem to be accelerating faster than I can keep up with the information.

I spend almost every morning in prayer and meditation (some morning sessions are shorter due to work); and I spend my days in service to others (fitness instructor, mentor for lost souls, and caregiver). I found a new passion (in the last 2 years)...or should I say IT FOUND ME! I was led to be a Caregiver for our elders, and being with them during the last 'leg of their journey' has opened up something deep inside my spirit. I have explored the ideas of reincarnation and soul-splitting and was 'told' in mediation that one of my tasks is to help heal and enlighten souls before they leave this existence (lots more on this idea if you are interested...).

My mantra for the last 15 years has been "Heal the Planet" which I believe is done through LOVE and enlightening and serving others...that's why when I read Ra, I was delighted to know there are others who study the same philosophy.

I guess that's it for now (it's hard to believe I shared so much!)...hoping for some feedback. Please be gentle...this is my first attempt at connecting with anyone at this level... in light and love... MZ

P.S. How does the "Thread Subscription" work? What does that mean?

[Aion]

Thread subscription means you will receive messages when there are replies to the thread. Also, welcome to the forums.

I might offer a first response as a question, that being what would you like to be doing here?

[The_Tired_Philosopher]

Subscriptions send emails to keep you up to date on a thread's activity or pm's.

If you desire to sit down, and type out your 'story' everyone will point you to the Wanderer Stories forum, http://www.bring4th.org/forums/forumdisplay.php?fid=3

And we would all love to hear it I imagine

Watch out for a bit of insensitivity or misunderstanding while here, these topics can be very personal and some of us aren't as openminded as the introductions to the Forum might advertise or as the guidelines ask us to be.  But typically, no one is outright mean or cruel (that I've seen recently anyways).

Its a bit quiet now a days but there's regulars who check in and keep the endless B4 Party going.

And not everyone is service oriented (like me, I actually have mixed views on polarity).  So, otherwise, you typically get what you give, so if you're nice, this place will be very, very nice for you.

[Aion]

^ He's probably talking about me, I'm a hard-ass.

[Ankh]

I was led to be a Caregiver for our elders, and being with them during the last 'leg of their journey' has opened up something deep inside my spirit.  I have explored the ideas of reincarnation and soul-splitting and was 'told' in mediation that one of my tasks is to help heal and enlighten souls before they leave this existence (lots more on this idea if you are interested...).

Thank you for sharing your story, Maryanne Z! I recognized many things from it myself. For instance, I was 33 when I found Ra material. I cried floods for a long time after finding it, and it changed my life forever.

If you would like to elaborate about the piece you wrote above, I would be grateful! I work as a nurse at palliative care, and any insight you would like to share about it, would be of much interest to me.

Welcome to the forum, dear sister! /

[Maryanne Z]

^ He's probably talking about me, I'm a hard-ass.

Thank you for making me feel welcomed and for making me smile!

[Maryanne Z]

Thread subscription means you will receive messages when there are replies to the thread. Also, welcome to the forums.

I might offer a first response as a question, that being what would you like to be doing here?

I guess my first objective would be to listen, read, and learn from others ideas and experiences on this site and see if this is the correct 'fit' or place for me. I aspire to spiritual growth and am searching for ways to help heal the planet which will make a huge impact. I have traveled to many other countries and the task is so large...and sometimes I feel so small...

[Maryanne Z]

I was led to be a Caregiver for our elders, and being with them during the last 'leg of their journey' has opened up something deep inside my spirit.  I have explored the ideas of reincarnation and soul-splitting and was 'told' in mediation that one of my tasks is to help heal and enlighten souls before they leave this existence (lots more on this idea if you are interested...).

Thank you for sharing your story, Maryanne Z! I recognized many things from it myself. For instance, I was 33 when I found Ra material. I cried floods for a long time after finding it, and it changed my life forever.

If you would like to elaborate about the piece you wrote above, I would be grateful! I work as a nurse at palliative care, and any insight you would like to share about it, would be of much interest to me.

Welcome to the forum, dear sister! /

Thank you for your kind and generous welcome, dear sister!

Last year, when 'the Universe' moved me to work with elders, I found myself working at a 'facility' in a position of loving and caring for many elder people during the last days of their existence. I was drawn to them; I was inspired to speak, touch, and comfort them in their last hours; I was impelled to help them release their regrets and misgivings before their passing; and it felt like my actions were guided from divine spirit...higher entity, higher self. I felt honored to be with them in their last hours and their passing was magical, and impacted me greatly in a positive and spiritual way.

I spent a lot of time in meditation and prayer and asking my 'teachers, guides, angels, and gods' to explain what this is all about. I have also been wondering how to heal the planet in a way that affects masses of people at a time, rather than one-by-one. Of course, I never quite know for sure if it's my creative imagination or higher selves talking, but the answers I received several months ago were quite far fetched for me to come up with on my own: When a body dies and the soul is released, it can split into many 'pieces'...maybe hundreds? maybe thousands? maybe?? So the reincarnation of one person can affect hundreds, or thousands, or?? of new beings making their way to be reborn. So the spiritual healing of ONE person before they make their transition can exponentially help heal the planet in a BIG way.

This is, as are many other thoughts and ideas of reincarnation, just a theory...something that came to me from 'out there somewhere'. So...I thought this might be a forum where I could share these types of messages I have been receiving over the past years, and see if anyone else has had similar communications or ideas...phew...that was exhausting...I've never tried to write what was stuck in my head like that before! Thank you for listening...

[Maryanne Z]

Subscriptions send emails to keep you up to date on a thread's activity or pm's.

If you desire to sit down, and type out your 'story' everyone will point you to the Wanderer Stories forum, http://www.bring4th.org/forums/forumdisplay.php?fid=3

And we would all love to hear it I imagine

Watch out for a bit of insensitivity or misunderstanding while here, these topics can be very personal and some of us aren't as openminded as the introductions to the Forum might advertise or as the guidelines ask us to be.  But typically, no one is outright mean or cruel (that I've seen recently anyways).

Its a bit quiet now a days but there's regulars who check in and keep the endless B4 Party going.

And not everyone is service oriented (like me, I actually have mixed views on polarity).  So, otherwise, you typically get what you give, so if you're nice, this place will be very, very nice for you.

Thank you very much for responding and for the 'advice' . I noticed there was not a lot of action on this website the last few days and I thought it just might be the holidays. By the way...I have a friend who can be a bit 'harsh' at times and I refer to those comments as 'Orion moments'!!

[Ankh]

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Last year, when 'the Universe' moved me to work with elders, I found myself working at a 'facility' in a position of loving and caring for many elder people during the last days of their existence.  I was drawn to them; I was inspired to speak, touch, and comfort them in their last hours; I was impelled to help them release their regrets and misgivings before their passing; and it felt like my actions were guided from divine spirit...higher entity, higher self. I felt honored to be with them in their last hours and their passing was magical, and impacted me greatly in a positive and spiritual way.

I spent a lot of time in meditation and prayer and asking my 'teachers, guides, angels, and gods' to explain what this is all about.  I have also been wondering how to heal the planet in a way that affects masses of people at a time, rather than one-by-one.  Of course, I never quite know for sure if it's my creative imagination or higher selves talking, but the answers I received several months ago were quite far fetched for me to come up with on my own:  When a body dies and the soul is released, it can split into many 'pieces'...maybe hundreds? maybe thousands? maybe??  So the reincarnation of one person can affect hundreds, or thousands, or?? of new beings making their way to be reborn. So the spiritual healing of ONE person before they make their transition can exponentially help heal the planet in a BIG way.

This is, as are many other thoughts and ideas of reincarnation, just a theory...something that came to me from 'out there somewhere'.  So...I thought this might be a forum where I could share these types of messages I have been receiving over the past years, and see if anyone else has had similar communications or ideas...phew...that was exhausting...I've never tried to write what was stuck in my head like that before!  Thank you for listening...

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Would you like to share more details about your experiences when caring for elder people? Did you share your beliefs with them? Or did you do something else perhaps when working with them?

I feel drawn to healing the planetary sphere too! Very drawn. But I don't know if I ever get there in this life-time, cause when thinking about it - life feels too short and understanding comes too slowly, but I do have, insh Allah, half of my life left.

When I picture healing the planetary sphere, it is Ra's words that I am thinking of. Here are some of what they said about healing the planetary vibrations:

"When the positive adept touches intelligent infinity from within, this is the most powerful of connections for it is the connection of the whole mind/body/spirit complex microcosm with the macrocosm. This connection enables the, shall we say, green-ray true color in time/space to manifest in your time/space. In green ray thoughts are beings. In your illusion this is normally not so.

The adepts then become living channels for love and light and are able to channel this radiance directly into the planetary web of energy nexi. The ritual will always end by the grounding of this energy in praise and thanksgiving and the release of this energy into the planetary whole."

They also said this about raising planetary vibrations:

"The type of meditation which may be called visualization has as its goal not that which is contained in the meditation itself. Visualization is the tool of the adept. Those who learn to hold visual images in mind are developing an inner concentrative power that can transcend boredom and discomfort. When this ability has become crystallized in an adept the adept may then do polarizing in consciousness without external action which can affect the planetary consciousness. This is the reason for existence of the so-called White Magician. Only those wishing to pursue the conscious raising of planetary vibration will find visualization to be a particularly satisfying type of meditation."

Being able to do above would be ultimate manifestation of my incarnation, but as mentioned, I'm not sure that I can get there. But regardless of that, I believe that with each balance or portion of discipline of my mind that I achieve, it does indeed affect the planetary whole, or as Ra said that aiding the self in polarization is to aid the planetary vibration:

"This is done in the knowledge that to aid the self in polarization towards love and light is to aid the planetary vibration."

I understand this in small terms right now. For instance, by experience, I understand that I need to take care and be wise with physical energy of my body complex before going to work, if I want to be of that service that I desire. It means that I need to rest, eat properly etc. before I go to work. But also, the mind complex needs to be "fed". I need to meditate, contemplate and pray to set my mind complex into the desired configuration in order to be able to serve as I intend or require of myself.

The next question is why would I want to do this? To go to such lengths and do so much work for others? My understanding is that if I am kind to others, it affects me in positive way; I am being kind to myself at the same time. In some instances I can really see how we indeed are really one. In short, yeah, I do understand Ra's statement of aiding myself in polarization is to aiding the planetary vibration. Plus, since I am one with this planetary vibration as an incarnated entity, I do ligthen it up when polarizing towards love and light. But there are still small steps... Slow understandings... (I wish we could have our 900 years life-spans right now!)

Anyways, thank *you*, for listening! Hope my rant made some sense.

[Aion]

^ He's probably talking about me, I'm a hard-ass.

Thank you for making me feel welcomed and for making me smile!

If anyone bullies you let me know and I'll take care of it.

We try to have some fun around here once in awhile.

[Aion]

I was led to be a Caregiver for our elders, and being with them during the last 'leg of their journey' has opened up something deep inside my spirit.  I have explored the ideas of reincarnation and soul-splitting and was 'told' in mediation that one of my tasks is to help heal and enlighten souls before they leave this existence (lots more on this idea if you are interested...).

Thank you for sharing your story, Maryanne Z! I recognized many things from it myself. For instance, I was 33 when I found Ra material. I cried floods for a long time after finding it, and it changed my life forever.

If you would like to elaborate about the piece you wrote above, I would be grateful! I work as a nurse at palliative care, and any insight you would like to share about it, would be of much interest to me.

Welcome to the forum, dear sister! /

Thank you for your kind and generous welcome, dear sister!

Last year, when 'the Universe' moved me to work with elders, I found myself working at a 'facility' in a position of loving and caring for many elder people during the last days of their existence.  I was drawn to them; I was inspired to speak, touch, and comfort them in their last hours; I was impelled to help them release their regrets and misgivings before their passing; and it felt like my actions were guided from divine spirit...higher entity, higher self. I felt honored to be with them in their last hours and their passing was magical, and impacted me greatly in a positive and spiritual way.

I spent a lot of time in meditation and prayer and asking my 'teachers, guides, angels, and gods' to explain what this is all about.  I have also been wondering how to heal the planet in a way that affects masses of people at a time, rather than one-by-one.  Of course, I never quite know for sure if it's my creative imagination or higher selves talking, but the answers I received several months ago were quite far fetched for me to come up with on my own:  When a body dies and the soul is released, it can split into many 'pieces'...maybe hundreds? maybe thousands? maybe??  So the reincarnation of one person can affect hundreds, or thousands, or?? of new beings making their way to be reborn. So the spiritual healing of ONE person before they make their transition can exponentially help heal the planet in a BIG way.

This is, as are many other thoughts and ideas of reincarnation, just a theory...something that came to me from 'out there somewhere'.  So...I thought this might be a forum where I could share these types of messages I have been receiving over the past years, and see if anyone else has had similar communications or ideas...phew...that was exhausting...I've never tried to write what was stuck in my head like that before!  Thank you for listening...

The greater collective of an individual Soul with all its fragments is healed and made more whole any time any single fragmented is integrated back in to that greater self. Some see life as the process of collecting your soul together again. This also explains why there are multiple individuals who may perceive the same past life, each being a fragment of that soul, perhaps.

I have also considered it from the perspective of images or gestalts created as 'memories' in the collective mind. Perhaps some combination of both.