Hi!
Thanks L&L staff for creating this site and sharing all the wonderful material you have in books and online.
I’m currently 61 and trying to work out what to do with the rest of my life now that I have a pension. The Law of One viewpoint of trying to develop more toward positive polarity is helpful.
Growing up in the San Fernando Valley, my childhood was probably typical of suburban experience of the 1950s and 60s. In my high school graduating class of 1,000, we had about four African Americans.
At various times as a youth, I was surprised that people would deteriorate physically, as if I had come from a place where that didn’t happen.
Adulthood started out happily when I joined an Army Band in Monterey, CA in 1972, near the end of the Vietnam war era. I was blessed to be doing something I enjoyed as my daily work (playing trombone). I was grateful to be in a situation where I would not be expected to shoot people. After the term of enlistment ended, I decided to use the GI Bill to study music at a university in San Jose, CA.
The following year, after taking an introductory course in scientology, I decided to become a staff member with them, forsaking my enjoyable musical pursuits. It took me three years before I could gain enough rationality to recognize what kind of group I was in and then I resigned. Cults and cult leaders have an ability to suspend rationality in followers.
I posted online a summary of my scientology experiences at a website for ex-scientologists. Here is an edited version of it, with a glossary of scientology slang terms at the end.
Began reading Edgar Cayce books around 1980 and felt at home with his ideas, as I already accepted reincarnation.
The post-cult 1980s period was difficult for me: various menial jobs, went through an emotional divorce, stayed briefly at homeless shelters. What brought some stability back into my life was getting vocational training on word processing and spreadsheets (1987). This was before the general population was computer literate. I had a fairly easy time finding work as a word processor for about 15 years.
Around 2002 I had a realization that much of what I had learned about history and politics from public schools and the mainstream media was not true or distorted. I felt impelled to start a personal re-education program. I describe some of this process in an essay titled Repairing a Pre-Internet Education.
I began exploring channeled literature:
In 2011 I was fortunate to qualify for a pension. A very welcome event, since job prospects were not good for men in their late 50s without professional training; I had been living in homeless shelters most of 2010 and 2011.
I don’t see current STS institutions being dissolved. It seems that STS and STO are both being empowered at the same time. However, we have an increased freedom to create and switch participation to organizations and systems based on higher values.
The heightened modern connectivity and Internet access to infinite information feels like a precursor to 4th D living.
I am grateful to be on earth during this special time.
Jerry
Thanks L&L staff for creating this site and sharing all the wonderful material you have in books and online.
I’m currently 61 and trying to work out what to do with the rest of my life now that I have a pension. The Law of One viewpoint of trying to develop more toward positive polarity is helpful.
Growing up in the San Fernando Valley, my childhood was probably typical of suburban experience of the 1950s and 60s. In my high school graduating class of 1,000, we had about four African Americans.
At various times as a youth, I was surprised that people would deteriorate physically, as if I had come from a place where that didn’t happen.
Adulthood started out happily when I joined an Army Band in Monterey, CA in 1972, near the end of the Vietnam war era. I was blessed to be doing something I enjoyed as my daily work (playing trombone). I was grateful to be in a situation where I would not be expected to shoot people. After the term of enlistment ended, I decided to use the GI Bill to study music at a university in San Jose, CA.
The following year, after taking an introductory course in scientology, I decided to become a staff member with them, forsaking my enjoyable musical pursuits. It took me three years before I could gain enough rationality to recognize what kind of group I was in and then I resigned. Cults and cult leaders have an ability to suspend rationality in followers.
I posted online a summary of my scientology experiences at a website for ex-scientologists. Here is an edited version of it, with a glossary of scientology slang terms at the end.
Began reading Edgar Cayce books around 1980 and felt at home with his ideas, as I already accepted reincarnation.
The post-cult 1980s period was difficult for me: various menial jobs, went through an emotional divorce, stayed briefly at homeless shelters. What brought some stability back into my life was getting vocational training on word processing and spreadsheets (1987). This was before the general population was computer literate. I had a fairly easy time finding work as a word processor for about 15 years.
Around 2002 I had a realization that much of what I had learned about history and politics from public schools and the mainstream media was not true or distorted. I felt impelled to start a personal re-education program. I describe some of this process in an essay titled Repairing a Pre-Internet Education.
I began exploring channeled literature:
- Laura Knight-Jadczyk
- Barbara Marciniak, Bringers of the Dawn – an introduction to STS and STO in easily understood language
- Law of One books, Wanderers Handbook, messages from Q’uo
- Jane Roberts and Seth
- Esther Hicks and Abraham
In 2011 I was fortunate to qualify for a pension. A very welcome event, since job prospects were not good for men in their late 50s without professional training; I had been living in homeless shelters most of 2010 and 2011.
I don’t see current STS institutions being dissolved. It seems that STS and STO are both being empowered at the same time. However, we have an increased freedom to create and switch participation to organizations and systems based on higher values.
The heightened modern connectivity and Internet access to infinite information feels like a precursor to 4th D living.
I am grateful to be on earth during this special time.
Jerry
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