I'm not sure I'm a wanderer in the sense that I am from "somewhere else" - some other planet or place. Carla says in Chapter One of A Wanderer's Handbook:
Whether we style ourselves as ETs or Earth natives, we are those who have awakened spiritually to wander in search of our source and ending. We have awakened to the beauty and the high principles of unity, service and love, and we are searching for ways to bring these elements into our everyday life."
By that definition, I am a Wanderer born into a long line of Wanderers. My parents were ministers both in vocation and in personality. The charitable religious organization in which they were ordained required both partners to serve in equal capacity, and not hold any other job. Because of this requirement, the children of these ministers literally grow up "inside" the church and often follow in their parents footsteps of service. This is exactly what my Mom did, her parents were ministers, and several of my Aunts, Uncles, siblings and cousins have followed that same path.
I, however, am not one of those children. Yes, I did grow up in the church and I studied, sang, taught, and helped carry out the charitable side of the church's mission. But I also questioned! "So when God banished Cain for killing Able, who were those people he met and married?" And I reasoned! When my Dad was upset about the "big bang theory" being taught in school, I wondered, "Daddy, why can't the theory be compatible with what we learn in Sunday School? I can imagine it happening. 'God said let there be light!' And BANG (imagine sound of hand clapping loudly) there was light!" And so on.
My parents and grandparents also sincerely believed and lived their belief that we are all children of the one infinite Creator. In fact our church doctrines say something about one God, creator of all, infinitely perfect . . . . And we were taught that our highest calling is to share with everyone the love that Christ showed us by his example. Not judging, just loving. Love God first and your neighbor as yourself, and your neighbor is defined as everyone else in the world.
Still, my reasoning, my life experiences and my personal interpretations of Bible studies taught me things that weren't exactly in line with what I was taught to believe. I actually remembered the moment of my conception. Imagine my Mom's surprise when her little girl told her about watching her and my Dad "making me" and how happy I was that I chose them to be my parents. From a young age I recalled being another person, a grown up person, with vivid memories of episodes from that lifetime. I was "different". Different from other kids because of my parent’s vocation and different from my family because I didn't quite understand their gospel the same way they did. But I never felt alone. Rather I never WAS alone! I always had "helpers", guardian angels, spirit guides, animal totems, all around me, all the time. There were always there helping me help Mom, who had a very severe form of Ra. And help Dad, who had his hands full with 4 kids, Mom’s illness, and a full time ministry. Together they were living lessons in sharing, giving, serving and above all else, loving.
The Ra Material, for me, was just another confirmation of what I call “the truth” about this life. It came to me at a time that I was letting go of a friendship that seemed always to spur me into taking “negative” actions, and had just made a very painful decision to close the door on another special relationship.
The material was my confirmation that the steps I was taking would get back on my right path of sharing Creator’s love.
And while I recognize that this story is a bit long, it really is only the tip of the iceberg. I’m pretty old (although not as old as norral) and I’ve had a pretty amazing ride so far. Can’t wait to see what Creator brings me next. Bet it’s going to be pretty freaking amazing!
Whether we style ourselves as ETs or Earth natives, we are those who have awakened spiritually to wander in search of our source and ending. We have awakened to the beauty and the high principles of unity, service and love, and we are searching for ways to bring these elements into our everyday life."
By that definition, I am a Wanderer born into a long line of Wanderers. My parents were ministers both in vocation and in personality. The charitable religious organization in which they were ordained required both partners to serve in equal capacity, and not hold any other job. Because of this requirement, the children of these ministers literally grow up "inside" the church and often follow in their parents footsteps of service. This is exactly what my Mom did, her parents were ministers, and several of my Aunts, Uncles, siblings and cousins have followed that same path.
I, however, am not one of those children. Yes, I did grow up in the church and I studied, sang, taught, and helped carry out the charitable side of the church's mission. But I also questioned! "So when God banished Cain for killing Able, who were those people he met and married?" And I reasoned! When my Dad was upset about the "big bang theory" being taught in school, I wondered, "Daddy, why can't the theory be compatible with what we learn in Sunday School? I can imagine it happening. 'God said let there be light!' And BANG (imagine sound of hand clapping loudly) there was light!" And so on.
My parents and grandparents also sincerely believed and lived their belief that we are all children of the one infinite Creator. In fact our church doctrines say something about one God, creator of all, infinitely perfect . . . . And we were taught that our highest calling is to share with everyone the love that Christ showed us by his example. Not judging, just loving. Love God first and your neighbor as yourself, and your neighbor is defined as everyone else in the world.
Still, my reasoning, my life experiences and my personal interpretations of Bible studies taught me things that weren't exactly in line with what I was taught to believe. I actually remembered the moment of my conception. Imagine my Mom's surprise when her little girl told her about watching her and my Dad "making me" and how happy I was that I chose them to be my parents. From a young age I recalled being another person, a grown up person, with vivid memories of episodes from that lifetime. I was "different". Different from other kids because of my parent’s vocation and different from my family because I didn't quite understand their gospel the same way they did. But I never felt alone. Rather I never WAS alone! I always had "helpers", guardian angels, spirit guides, animal totems, all around me, all the time. There were always there helping me help Mom, who had a very severe form of Ra. And help Dad, who had his hands full with 4 kids, Mom’s illness, and a full time ministry. Together they were living lessons in sharing, giving, serving and above all else, loving.
The Ra Material, for me, was just another confirmation of what I call “the truth” about this life. It came to me at a time that I was letting go of a friendship that seemed always to spur me into taking “negative” actions, and had just made a very painful decision to close the door on another special relationship.
The material was my confirmation that the steps I was taking would get back on my right path of sharing Creator’s love.
And while I recognize that this story is a bit long, it really is only the tip of the iceberg. I’m pretty old (although not as old as norral) and I’ve had a pretty amazing ride so far. Can’t wait to see what Creator brings me next. Bet it’s going to be pretty freaking amazing!
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