11-09-2021, 01:35 AM
I just want to go home, "Chronos" eater of children, I am here under saturn. Those of the many worship the black square. What does it matter if I wish to sleep, is not my consciousness part of the whole wish may fall asleep anyway. Ra itself said that martyrdom was a distortion, what to me, a young man have to gain by throwing myself into the abyss where I do not even know if thou will meet me. I see light as photon, and faith does not make it more than this. Imagination. I arrive at he same point at everyone else and not much further.
I have my bliss and now wilt thou let me cling to this as I depart into the Black.
The toxic that I cling upon that I write into my smear me be found my the many workers of Darkness before me who treat my words as nothing more than the inane ramblings of a novice seeker who was but deceived into the words and workings of Thoth and Crowley.
"DO AS THOU WILT"
"DO AS THOU WILL, AND LOVE GOD, AS THOU WOULDST DO NAUGHT TO OFFEND THE EYE OF THE BELOVED"
"TRULY I SAY TO THEE, LOVE GOD AND LOVE THOU NEIGHBOUR, AND THOU HAS KEPT THE WHOLE OF THE LAW"
Satanism. vs. Christianity
The same thing: One
How does Satan come FROM God and yet be separate from Him.
Does God have a knife in which he cuts portions of himself out to be eternal fragments of isolation, floating in nothing
Surely the credence may lend significance to his love...
Meaning from the perspective of one such fragment... for however long it has been, I love you.
This means little to our experience, because light is light.
I am shine amidst the black to you.
When we meet, we are the same.
Neither yin nor yang.
Your crimes are forgiven.
Enslavement is forgiven.
You were confused.
You did not know.
Now I do not come from the book of enoch or the apocrypha.
---***---
For those who feel, I don't know where I stand. You may read my words and my history as StS but I fear that I will not continue with you for lack of willpower and lack of decision. I don't know at which point we separate now and come back together. It is like a rollercoaster which you scream to depart from but must accept your consent and your choice to ride. I often think to myself; if my "false self" consent to ride this, then why must I ride it. But the fact that I face the edge of teh abyss means that I must irrespectively.
it is not the content of these words which matter, but rather the intent. If I write with tears then I trust that you feel that much less than the symbols themselves.
I often wonder what positivity serves in this life. Our power seems to be drawn from keeping our sword sheathed. "The meek shall inherit the earth". But what of those who don't keep their sword sheathed. You see, my love is so deep, my PAIN is so deep that I cannot separate the two. Oftentimes I think of the comparison of a wife and an adulterer/affair partner, because these are the only two comparisons I can find that are deep enough to describe my love. Imagine that you loved your wife/partner as much as you loved the affair partner. And this is not in the way of physical attraction or adultery. I mean true love; that you wish that the perpetrator who sinned against your heart and trust in this life would be spared from torment in the same way that you wish for yourself and your deepest love.
Now sure, this may be taken advantage of. But isn't that the risk? Jesus Christ himself told us to be wise as snakes. And if wisdom is gained, then we must take responsibility for our unconscious decisions. As we must learn to love our neighbour as ourselves.
But this is very different from saying over the dinner table with an authocratic parent as it is when facing the abyss with the love of the Christ as a tether to Life itself. And that is also precisely why "Christianity", while based on the Christ, can only lead to a limited experiential difference of what Christ/Yeshua/Jesus wanted for us.
What happens if you realise that YOU, YOU ARE THE ONE CONSCIOUSNESS, and yet you must give this up for it to be true. YOU ARE GOD, yet so long as you prance around boasting of this fact, you are not. This is because God gives itself up equally for the black and the white, equally for the vaccinated and unvaccinated, this is why Paul preached of neither Jew nor Gentile.
So long as you believe in the disparity, the disparity exists. But I can live with that. I know some will understand. And that love goes out to you.
Even if I am a speck of a flash of a memory, hate and love, fear and love, whatever needs to be united, it is projected for you. Gifted for you for learning and acceptance. It is as it is, as I cry out through suffering or joy.
I have my bliss and now wilt thou let me cling to this as I depart into the Black.
The toxic that I cling upon that I write into my smear me be found my the many workers of Darkness before me who treat my words as nothing more than the inane ramblings of a novice seeker who was but deceived into the words and workings of Thoth and Crowley.
"DO AS THOU WILT"
"DO AS THOU WILL, AND LOVE GOD, AS THOU WOULDST DO NAUGHT TO OFFEND THE EYE OF THE BELOVED"
"TRULY I SAY TO THEE, LOVE GOD AND LOVE THOU NEIGHBOUR, AND THOU HAS KEPT THE WHOLE OF THE LAW"
Satanism. vs. Christianity
The same thing: One
How does Satan come FROM God and yet be separate from Him.
Does God have a knife in which he cuts portions of himself out to be eternal fragments of isolation, floating in nothing
Surely the credence may lend significance to his love...
Meaning from the perspective of one such fragment... for however long it has been, I love you.
This means little to our experience, because light is light.
I am shine amidst the black to you.
When we meet, we are the same.
Neither yin nor yang.
Your crimes are forgiven.
Enslavement is forgiven.
You were confused.
You did not know.
Now I do not come from the book of enoch or the apocrypha.
---***---
For those who feel, I don't know where I stand. You may read my words and my history as StS but I fear that I will not continue with you for lack of willpower and lack of decision. I don't know at which point we separate now and come back together. It is like a rollercoaster which you scream to depart from but must accept your consent and your choice to ride. I often think to myself; if my "false self" consent to ride this, then why must I ride it. But the fact that I face the edge of teh abyss means that I must irrespectively.
it is not the content of these words which matter, but rather the intent. If I write with tears then I trust that you feel that much less than the symbols themselves.
I often wonder what positivity serves in this life. Our power seems to be drawn from keeping our sword sheathed. "The meek shall inherit the earth". But what of those who don't keep their sword sheathed. You see, my love is so deep, my PAIN is so deep that I cannot separate the two. Oftentimes I think of the comparison of a wife and an adulterer/affair partner, because these are the only two comparisons I can find that are deep enough to describe my love. Imagine that you loved your wife/partner as much as you loved the affair partner. And this is not in the way of physical attraction or adultery. I mean true love; that you wish that the perpetrator who sinned against your heart and trust in this life would be spared from torment in the same way that you wish for yourself and your deepest love.
Now sure, this may be taken advantage of. But isn't that the risk? Jesus Christ himself told us to be wise as snakes. And if wisdom is gained, then we must take responsibility for our unconscious decisions. As we must learn to love our neighbour as ourselves.
But this is very different from saying over the dinner table with an authocratic parent as it is when facing the abyss with the love of the Christ as a tether to Life itself. And that is also precisely why "Christianity", while based on the Christ, can only lead to a limited experiential difference of what Christ/Yeshua/Jesus wanted for us.
What happens if you realise that YOU, YOU ARE THE ONE CONSCIOUSNESS, and yet you must give this up for it to be true. YOU ARE GOD, yet so long as you prance around boasting of this fact, you are not. This is because God gives itself up equally for the black and the white, equally for the vaccinated and unvaccinated, this is why Paul preached of neither Jew nor Gentile.
So long as you believe in the disparity, the disparity exists. But I can live with that. I know some will understand. And that love goes out to you.
Even if I am a speck of a flash of a memory, hate and love, fear and love, whatever needs to be united, it is projected for you. Gifted for you for learning and acceptance. It is as it is, as I cry out through suffering or joy.
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