12-27-2020, 03:42 PM
(This post was last modified: 12-27-2020, 03:43 PM by throwawaynegative132.)
(12-27-2020, 01:23 PM)Dtris Wrote:(12-27-2020, 10:21 AM)throwawaynegative132 Wrote:(12-15-2020, 02:30 AM)jafar Wrote:(12-15-2020, 01:10 AM)throwawaynegative132 Wrote: Khan accepted the child that was birthed by his wife as his own when noone else would. He wanted to rest and live a quite life. It was his wife that was filled with rage, she pushed him onto that path. If you look at Khans policies you will quickly realize he wasn't as negative as the world made him out to be. This applies to a great deal of todays elite. They are simply not evil enough. Hency why Khan is just a shipping clerk. You ever wonder what became of his first wife? The one that was known as the Grand Empress?
3d density evil is not refined enough and you can't compare it to 4th density. Khan just like many others could have just as easily switched. There is as much good as there is evil in each and every one of us and if you take a look at Hitler's life you will see exactly the same pattern.
Everyone and everything pushed Temujin towards that path, his father, murderer of his father, kidnapper of his wife, the chinese emperor, rivalling tribes, his own tribe, his own brother, his own best friend, his generals, the Turkic sultan etc...
Every events of his life is well orchestrated towards that path.
If Temujin was born into a peaceful tropical pacific island environment where everyone is peaceful and happy and food are plenty things will be totally different. On the other side if you were born within Temujin's brutal life environment will you do things differently?
Yes we should change the term, the word 'negative' might be incorrect, we should change the word into something like, the path of the Winner! the polarity of the winner! the polarity of the conqueror! the glorious polarity!
I don't know too much about the life story of Borte.. maybe you know more on her life story and feel free to share.
But certainly she's not the 'one' and only 'one' who pushed Temujin into his path.. everyone and every event of his life pushed him towards his path.. the path of the winner.. the path of the conqueror.
Everyone on 4th density STS started out at the bottom.
Just like everyone on 3th density started out by being a weak baby.
In STS world one might climb up the ladder by 'beating' or 'conquering' his / her master.
In similar manner as Temujin has beat and conquered rivalling tribes and ruler.
One might able to do that once the fear has accumulated so much thus he / she starting to find courage.
Again I never judge STS as a 'bad' path.. STS is a valid path.. the path of the winner.. the path of the conqueror.. the glorious path..
Quote:I say all of this because it is very tragic. The reason so many turn to the dark side is not because they are inherently evil but because the world simply broke them and more importantly it is the people who stand by and do nothing while evil is commited proclaiming themselves to be good. They are the true wolves in sheeps clothing. The undecided who are cast into Dantes Inferno.
"Villains, crafted by the neglect of their good deeds, formed by rejection of their righteous intentions, and completed by the swift hammer of judgement of their pure souls. It is not that they were born with blackened hearts, but it was the world they tried to help that eclipsed the last bit of light that remained in their spirits. Villains are forgotten heroes, rejected saviors, good people who were neglected by those they loved."
There are nobody which inherently evil..
That's why STS is a path... a temporary state... in the end they will arrived at the same destination.
If we use a metaphor of hiking...
There are many path to the top of the mountain...
But every path will eventually lead to the top of the mountain in the end..
Quote:For example fourth density believes in fighting wars amongst each other but in fith density that turns out to be a delusion, similarly it turns out that in mid 6th density there were no two paths. All is one after all.
Exactly...
What you just said. I had an epiphany. The environment I was born into. The brutalities I had to endure trough my childhood and youth. Everything and every person I have met have brought me one inch closer to the negative. Perhaps it is like you said. Not a coincidence. Perhaps everything in my life was meant to be like this so I would be pushed towards that path. I have never truly felt love from someone else. All I know is hatred,rage and fear. Finding love would be akin to finding a drop of water in the desert for me. That's what it's felt like my whole life. At some point it was so foreign to me that once I found it it just became blinding to me. Maybe my deep depression about the state of humanity is not about them but my denying of accepting what I have chosen for myself in this life. I never truly thought of it that way. I would have thought that positive people would incarnate into negative environments too but now that you mention it I have yet to see a single person to have done that. All the positive people I know live in happy positive environments with other happy people. It's only me who is the opposite. I've never known anything but fear and hatred. Over time rage built up and my inability to release that has caused a huge blockage. I am worn out. I have chosen a negative environment but it took me a while to become deeply negative although I must say there was a bit of coldness since birth with me. Maybe this life is just to hone a blunt edge of hatred. With my distorted view it is very hard to see the truth of why I chose to be like this in this time and space.
Not everyone who is in those environments is negative. I know plenty of people whose life sucked while young and they decided to be something different and bring love and light with them. I also know people who are wealthy, objectively happy, and are the most selfish and controlling and bring down others to build themselves up. The choice is yours, you can use the experiences to create hate and separation, or love and forgiveness. The experiences in the life and whether they are good or bad is not an indicator of a person's spiritual attainment. Most happy people are just as or less aware of the spiritual world than those who live harder lives. It is easy to be lost in the pleasures of the physical world, while the pain and obstacles often lead to looking for something more.
I have been in a negative environment my entire life. I've grown tired of it. It broke me and I can't even piece myself back together because there is no escaping. I have tried and the future is grim for me(not talking about the world). I don't want to suffer anymore and I don' think I can any longer. I realize I might be a negative influence due to all my pessimism and negativity. I am deeply sorry for that. I see you all have a very different vibe than me. I thought maybe becoming negative myself I would be better able to endure suffering but I was deeply wrong. There is no escape to suffering. All I can think of is why I have chosen this life. From my ego perspective I absolutely can not understand it
I must say I am simply worn out from it all. If it was up to me I'd sleep for a thousand years to recover from this life. My life is not nice. I know there are millions and billions of other people like me out there some of them way worse than me but all I can think of is how could anyone tolerate this? How could you tolerate this just to "maybe" get a reward after you die? To me it all seems like pointless suffering. This life is a form of russian roulette. I don't have faith. I really don't. How could I if even Ra mentioned that the billions of people starving around the world are doing a poor job polarizing in either direction. Too busy just trying to survive the next day. The influx of wanderers who fueled the industrial revolution have failed to give the common man the time needed to reflect and use catalyst to polarize. Instead the negative elite just used it to increase their wealth. I am drifting so I'll stop here. I can not have faith in something that keeps failing. All I'm saying is sometimes there is no higher purpose in suffering. Sometimes suffering is just pointless bullshit. And why should you do that to yourself in the first place? If it's all just mostly chance whether it works out or not...