Just had a breakthrough last night.

[EvolvingPhoenix]

Regarding my ex-friend. I had a breakthrough, where I realized she was never truly my friend and I was never truly a friend to her, and while I care enough to change, she doesn't, and even if we reconciled and became friends again, that wouldn't change and she STILL wouldn't value my friendship very much. And that hurts. So bad. But I have GOT to move on and focus on people who DO value me, people who DO value my friendship, People who DO stick around when things get rocky, people who DO make the effort, people who DO care about my friendship and who WANT to be my friends. People who do just as much to connect with me as I do to connect with them. Those are the people that deserve my focus. I love my ex-friend. I will always love her. Whether she believes it or not, cares or not, values it or not, and whether she returns it or not, I love her and will always love her, despite the fact that she doesn't respect or value me. But it's time to move on and let people who value me occupy my mind instead of her. After a year and a half of devoting nearly EVERY thought, every post, every day, to thinking about her, I'm FINALLY moving on. I'm letting go. I forgive myself for everything I did wrong in the friendship and I forgive her too, whether she forgives me back or not. I love her, but I'm done with her. I'm finally moving on with my life.

[ada]

You go EP, you're strong and you can do it!

[AnthroHeart]

I'm glad for you EP.