My Wanderer Path.

[Epsilon5]

MI greet you all in the Light and Love of our One Infinite Creator.

I have had an interesting development in my remembering of my spiritual journey, and I'm not sure exactly what to make of it. As I'm sure you all know, we don't all have many people in our lives with whom we can discuss these things.

I've spent the last week in meditation toward remembering the most recent parts of my journey (prior to this incarnation). I had my suspicions that I may have most recently been 4th or 5th density positive, maybe sixth, or perhaps nearing it.

I was fairly certain I was a wanderer, but I wanted to know more. I'd be perfectly fine coming to know that I'd just come fresh out of 2nd density, or that this is my Nth incarnation in 3rd density. Whatever it was, I just wanted the truth. Interestingly, the answer I got after about a week was something I hadn't considered.

I got the sense that I had most recently been newly graduated into 6th density negative, and was given the choice to re-polarize, somehow, or to end my journey. I probed a little deeper, and I was filled with a (hitherto, for me), unimaginable sense of sadness and remorse, as my mind filled with thousands of things that I had done to progress the incredibly selfish journey so far, well outside of my present incarnation.

I can't change the path that lies behind me, nor do I have that desire. I know that all paths are beautiful, for we are One, and I do not resent our Unity. Nevertheless, this is a hitherto unforeseen personal history to come into my rememberance, and I can change the path that lies before me. I seek the positive, service-to-others path, as I have sought for the last ten years of this incarnation.

If any of you feel so moved to provide loving counsel, I welcome it.

Thank you for being you. We are one.

[Jade]

Hi Epsilon. Interesting experience indeed. You say you cannot change the path of your past, but I do not think that is true. Time is exceedingly fluid and our past is just as mutable as our future. Not to negate the value of your experiences by any means - but I think the biggest step you can take to get past this is self-forgiveness. All of us on the positive path contain all of the negative path within us - and vice versa. Acceptance, love, and gratitude will help you integrate these jarring revelations.

Peace and love, friend! Thanks for joining the unity team.

[Diana]

I agree with Jade. I will add one caveat, that it is (at least for me) very difficult and to forgive one's self, and I find the best way to go about that is to forgive others, which lessons the emotional charge attached to deeds. And when I say forgive, I mean more specifically, detach from. 

I do believe one can change the past. If time is an illusion and a construct for 3D, then outside of 3D, just as you can change things in the moment, you should be able to affect change in the past and future as well. This can be done by changing the way you perceive, and react to, things. 

Welcome!