11-30-2013, 01:01 AM
Thank you guys for being so open discussing your marijuana use. I enjoy reading it, mostly because I am still seeking within myself for the answers to the pull it has.
I know that eventually it will fall away but at the time I am not denying myself. I have a few flimsy excuses that I hide behind but the fact is, I'm not sure I need it as a medication anymore. But my husband legitimately does. Even if just a small part, part of me does it to not make him feel self-conscious or off-put.
I had the realization today that using it means that I don't accept myself as-is, and only altered, and I'm not sure I'm okay with that anymore.
I never want to leave it behind entirely, I don't think, but I do look forward to when I don't crave it for daily use.
Hmmm however a jade pipe sounds rad.
I know that eventually it will fall away but at the time I am not denying myself. I have a few flimsy excuses that I hide behind but the fact is, I'm not sure I need it as a medication anymore. But my husband legitimately does. Even if just a small part, part of me does it to not make him feel self-conscious or off-put.
I had the realization today that using it means that I don't accept myself as-is, and only altered, and I'm not sure I'm okay with that anymore.
I never want to leave it behind entirely, I don't think, but I do look forward to when I don't crave it for daily use.
Hmmm however a jade pipe sounds rad.