09-03-2015, 05:33 AM
The problem is I feel like I'm in an illusion. And it often feels hellish. Terrifying. Like heaven and hell are part of the illusion.
I have a hard time believing in the OIC, I don't doubt all is one like I doubt that that one is the OIC.
I simply have a hard time believing the OIC desires things that I have become aware of. Sometimes, I feel like not existing would be better.
What kind of Creator desires the ceasing of existence?
Thus when I find stuff like this that feels right and helps me see how Love connects us all... it helps me believe all is well.
Otherwise, as time passes and I contemplate more and experience more I feel more desire to be loving.
But I intimately ultimately wish to know the truth of the OIC. What is it? It is not I except that I come from and am it, but I Am Distortion. What is TRUE and REAL? Perhaps even the OIC is a distortion of the Truth.
I have a hard time believing in the OIC, I don't doubt all is one like I doubt that that one is the OIC.
I simply have a hard time believing the OIC desires things that I have become aware of. Sometimes, I feel like not existing would be better.
What kind of Creator desires the ceasing of existence?
Thus when I find stuff like this that feels right and helps me see how Love connects us all... it helps me believe all is well.
Otherwise, as time passes and I contemplate more and experience more I feel more desire to be loving.
But I intimately ultimately wish to know the truth of the OIC. What is it? It is not I except that I come from and am it, but I Am Distortion. What is TRUE and REAL? Perhaps even the OIC is a distortion of the Truth.