10-26-2015, 04:52 AM
Or just be cynical of my experience doing as you said.
If such were true a year ago wouldn't be the best time of my life and not. a year ago up to now.
I'm not hopeless by choice, I'm literally confused at what I'm supposed to do and getting desperate to make sense of why I:
A. Suddenly am unhappy when barely a month ago I was overall doing very good
B. Can't make sense of how to go forward to do what I want in the area of the world I'm located in
C. Am trying to no avail to to stop the endless sensations from the endless people that fill up my head and emotions, as in, I'm trying, its not happening. Why?? Why do I need to be empathic and not know how to control it?
D. Must continually reach out when I want to be alone and must continually be alone when I want to reach out.
E. Make not a sliver of sense, understand so much, know so little, feel so much and do so little.
I got to E without a hitch, I'm not just discarding your advice. I have done it, it has failed me or properly put, I keep failing myself trying to utilize what once worked for me and now doesn't.
And I don't get why. Ive changed but how? For what purpose? And I can't figure it out.
And I've been positive with myself but that works out about as well as a kid telling himself he's not lost in the woods and will find his path soon, when he is clearly lost and turned around.
Sorry, I'll be more attentive to not just absently discarding given advice without providing a reason. Your advice is usually very helpful and gives me insight. But this time, it was old info Ive been doing without any change occurring in a way its said to.
And as further stated, the cause being my failures, but I don't understand what I'm doing wrong.
For a good month now I've been trying to get back into the Grove of creating my own reality.
And its been an uphill battle.
If such were true a year ago wouldn't be the best time of my life and not. a year ago up to now.
I'm not hopeless by choice, I'm literally confused at what I'm supposed to do and getting desperate to make sense of why I:
A. Suddenly am unhappy when barely a month ago I was overall doing very good
B. Can't make sense of how to go forward to do what I want in the area of the world I'm located in
C. Am trying to no avail to to stop the endless sensations from the endless people that fill up my head and emotions, as in, I'm trying, its not happening. Why?? Why do I need to be empathic and not know how to control it?
D. Must continually reach out when I want to be alone and must continually be alone when I want to reach out.
E. Make not a sliver of sense, understand so much, know so little, feel so much and do so little.
I got to E without a hitch, I'm not just discarding your advice. I have done it, it has failed me or properly put, I keep failing myself trying to utilize what once worked for me and now doesn't.
And I don't get why. Ive changed but how? For what purpose? And I can't figure it out.
And I've been positive with myself but that works out about as well as a kid telling himself he's not lost in the woods and will find his path soon, when he is clearly lost and turned around.
Sorry, I'll be more attentive to not just absently discarding given advice without providing a reason. Your advice is usually very helpful and gives me insight. But this time, it was old info Ive been doing without any change occurring in a way its said to.
And as further stated, the cause being my failures, but I don't understand what I'm doing wrong.
For a good month now I've been trying to get back into the Grove of creating my own reality.
And its been an uphill battle.