Negativity, I've felt it...

[Cyclops]

Fear not for I now do not think this is negative, I went to the L/L library online and found out exactly what I had experienced.

"In most cases of unintended exit of the physical
vehicle, the finer bodies carrying the consciousness
are within the same illusion, or, depending on the
vibratory patterns of the individual, there may be the
precise location which one enjoys in the third
density but the out-of-body experience may be in
fourth density. This still appears to the consciousness
senses as a normal, solid, seemingly third-density
illusion, and though the electrical nature of energies
between people is far more apparent, nonetheless the
work which might be done in this out-of-body
environment is no more or less effectual in creating
new polarity than experiences within the third density
physical vehicle." by Q'uo

It was indeed in my room at the chair and table and computer which I enjoy everyday the most.

"The consciousness, as it were, in the
most natural or easy way of egress from the physical
vehicle may visualize the tucking and rolling motion
of certain practiced falls or yogic postures. When the
physical vehicle is exited and entered with this
visualized method the trauma is minimal." by Q'uo

I didn't have the slightest clue of this and this is why I had the gigantic influx of energy and movement through the table bed and into the head where I felt the energy the most, which then flower down and out of my legs.

"The experiences spoken of in the query, of the
squeezing feeling and the tunnel, are those feelings
associated with a less skillful method of exiting the
physical vehicle." by Q'uo"

Now finally I believe that day yesterday I was like Latwii said, ripe to experience it and touch home base to be re energized, it was a great joy and doubt killer.

"The experience of which you speak is one which contains elements of what you have described as an out-of-body experience, yet there are many such experiences that fall under this general heading. The salient feature of such an experience is not necessarily whether it occurred, either in or out of this or that body, yet is the vividness of the experience, and its impact upon your perception. Such experiences have many purposes, as many as there are entities who have such experiences. In general we may suggest that this experience occurred at a time which you were ripe for it to occur in that you were seeking the nature in a deeper sense of your own being and of the illusion which you inhabit. When an entity experiences certain difficulties within an illusion, it is often helpful for that entity to touch home base, shall we say, and be re-energized by the truer nature of that reality, and that that energizing might strengthen those channels from the conscious to the unconscious mind and allow further experience." by Latwii

I have the hunger now to unlock this again, and I think I know how to do it.. I take each energy center, I make it a ball with hazy smoke around it like dry ice would have, then I would fill this ball all around my vision and magnefy it and solidly place and lock it into place, I would repeat this with each center with these thoughts, red the center for anger, orange the center for self to self, yellow the center for group with self and the relationship, green loving all entities and feeling sorrow for them, blue seeing them as the same as me basically I go into their head and see that they are me and create like me, indigo I just sum up that I balance these rays in the conscious state, then I take the red and violet orbs, lock them and spin them over all of the energy centers, over the indigo.. I believe this unlocks the red-violet shield somehow and transports you out of body when you lose your focus.