The Dream Thread

[Avocado]

I had a dream that I was passing through an airport from one plane to the next. The airport intersected with access to the great pyramid and I had a chance to walk through the shallow portions of the structure. I told my mom on the phone that I wanted to go meditate inside it but I was forced not to due to time constraints. Then, by my gate, a bunch of people were eating chilli dogs and they looked amazing. I decided against it because it was such a heavy food.

I feel a similar force pushing me along despite my interest to just stop, take a breather. Despite this I am consciously making an effort at self-optimization. I have good and bad days but...

I feel a motherly caring force growing in me. And so I use this as my balance point. I felt very saintly for a week and then crashed. When I was feeling at my lowest the motherly voice in me interjected and it was an instant communication within my temple that made me completely settle down and accept self. I can take care of myself and self-optimize even when I'm in the bottom of a wave. I've been practicing acceptance of the shadow-self for many moons now but the new co-existing lesson is acceptance and integration of this embracing, motherly-self.

I'm sure a lot of you have come to thrive with such feelings present in the heart. now I get why most beings polarize positive...because it feels AWESOME

so what can I do to further cultivate this within me?