What does it FEEL LIKE to contact intelligent energy/intelligent infinity?

[AnthroHeart]

Cyan, I don't know if we can break the game. But I do recall seeing a computer printer morph into some creature and levitate. This was eyes open, and I wasn't on anything. I think somewhere in me I was controlling it.

All my experiences seem to revolve around being in hell. Not a burning hell, but a psychological one. It's like I'm trying to prove that I'd go through hell to get what I desire. It used to be anthros. I wanted to be an anthro, so I was willing to go through hell to become one.

That's pretty much changed, but I've been through probably 6 or 7 different hells. One of them got hot, but it wasn't fiery.

I've been in a few heavens as well. I remember working mentally with Ra, putting together some energy patterns like a puzzle. I came to a point where I couldn't contain the energy any more, and Ra helped me to take apart the energy patterns piece by piece.

Honestly, I don't know what's truth or not. That's why I'm on a med to block these visions that are pretty strong and recurred fairly often. But still I feel the indigo and heart energy coming through. I may have more experiences, but just more under control. The meds help me to keep the energy flowing at a controllable rate.

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Gemini,

I feel it neccesary to put on my "priest" hat here which i usually avoid like anything related to priests.

Do you think "God/logos" would make a game that you can actually break?