Are Two Souls Better Than One?

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Hello my dear brother Jim

Dear Lana my sister,

I'm more than happy to elaborate, and so I shall...

Let me begin with a little background info. I finished my book at the end of 2010, and decided to see what it would be like to choose NOT to believe in my beliefs and see where that led me...

It didn't go well and I sunk into a prolonged period of depression, confusion and frustration, not to mention my fair share of continued "psychic greetings".

I finished my book in September 2010. =)

Yeah, all these beliefs about love and unity... Sometimes the beauty of them is just so overwhelming that I keep wondering if that is all really true... or just my imagination or "wishful thinking" or something like that... But if really putting faith into these beliefs and trying to transform them into a knowing, I guess that it would really make life easier... But it's about working with faith and will, and about trusting instead doubting, and it ain't easy.

And I had my fair share of continued "psychic greetings" too, to be honest... At one point during my life they lasted for over three years!

It got to the stage, where it just all got too much to bear and so yesterday, out of sheer desperation, I cried out mentally to my Higher-Self / Social Memory Complex saying something along the lines of "I can't take this anymore - if you are really there - help me!"

Yesterday after almost 24 hours of extreme shower of catalysts and disconnection with everything, I cried out too. And what I said was: "F*** this! I am the Creator, and this is how I feel!" And I let through all the suffer and all the pain inside of me. It was overwhelming... Sometimes it is so impossible to feel love and to be connected to any source of light, but all that you feel is this pain and suffering... It was quite an interesting experience in that of starting to acknowledging and accepting this suffer and pain... but I keep wondering if this is really necessary... This veil is so thick sometimes that it is just impossible to feel any connection to the Creator, no matter how much you want it or try...

Then a few hours later, whilst meditating, the mental conversation began. I challenged them a few times in the name of my Higher Self, as this to me, is the highest truth I'm happy using for the challenging process. After challenging them, I told them to go away and they said "no", which I took to mean that they wouldn't go because the were, or represented my Higher Self.

I asked, "who are you?" and their reply was "we are you".

The conversation continued with them pointing out that telepathic communication with one's Higher Self is the same thing as communication with one's Social Memory Complex ( at least for those of us whom are 6th d Wanderers ).

They proceeded to offer much comfort and reassurance and a few good belly laughs!

Because of this communion, I no longer feel abandoned and I have now been reminded that they are always there for me, always have been and always will be!

These are wonderful words, Jim. Thank you.

I re-read my own thread today and was thinking about those experiences that I had myself with my social memory complex... It feels like an eternity now... Among many things, this is what I wrote after my contact with my social memory complex: "What I thought later is that how lonely I have been feeling. How painful it has been to be separated from the group. And maybe it will all come back later again. The pain, and the feeling of separation, and the missing. But what I think for the moment is that how can we be separated when our Higher Self is closer to us than our own heartbeat, or our own breathe? And that this Higher Self is merged and unified with the vibration of the whole group? It is everpresent. But behind the door."

Thank you for this reminder, my dear brother! Maybe it is time for me to try to re-connect to this beloved source again myself...

I sincerely hope that you all have a wonderful and rewarding time at Homecomming!

Love and Light dear sister.

Massa med karlek

Jim

Oh, we will, my brother! And thank you. I wish you could be there with us too. But you will be in thought and spirit.

Massor med kärlek, min vackra broder,
Lana.