my biggest issue

[kdsii]

Yep. Patrick's got it right!
That's been my biggest issue too, is the constricted feeling/vibrations that I get stuck in.
You can never 'get a grip' on peace, only let go of the want of it.
Peace is just as frustrating to catch is fear is to push away.
Both are solved by being here and now - not in wishing the present is something that it's not.

This planet is one of super-concentrated catalyst.
Not all planets have a mix of holy martyrs and genocidal dictators.
This was a choice of our Logos, and is probably why you're here, if you're not native.

I think a being would come here for one of two reasons:

1. To learn compassion for those in misery, and even the evil ones
or
2. There is also plenty of STS progress to be made. Think Darfur and the Middle East.
From STO perspective this is awful, what they do to others, but still...
Learning to show compassion unconditionally is our goal.

Since only the now exists. You can only free your Self NOW. Don't wait on any external conditions. I know that it's easy to say and more difficult to do. But this doing is exactly how you win this game, how you see the love in the moment and how you can be happy right here and now.