why is catalyst so painful?

[jacrob]

"As the entity increases in experience it shall, more and more, choose positive interpretations of catalyst if it is upon the service-to-others path and negative interpretations of catalyst if its experience has been along the service-to-self path."

This reasonates sharply with me! Of late I've been able to flip a switch taking me from morose to neutral in about an hour, which is a vast improvement on weeks or days of darkness.