Thinking about changing polarities

[TheFifty9Sound]

I think the nature of your difficulties are rejection due to trying serve an entity that did not call for service. Especially after first waking up, it can be extremely difficult not to finding the nearest slumbering entity and desperatly trying to shake them awake. This pretty much always fails, and can further entrench them in their sleep. Do not feel bad about wanting to do this, it can be a struggle even for someone awakened for longer than you.

^ This! ^
This is why people get the s**ts with telemarketers, Jehovas Witness' knocking at their doors, and why I'll never, ever, ever, ever, ever, ever read Harry Potter. People hate having things forced upon them.

Just offer your love, and you'll be fine.