I'm done with drugs and alcohol

[xise]

Weed definitely helped me think in new ways.

On the other hand, it also slowed my mind and prevented lengthy directed contemplative thought, my desire for social interaction, my desire to try new things. It also gave me a way out of processing a lot of emotions because of it's attention deficient effect on me where I would smoke and just go watch and movie, tv, or play a video game and not think about whatever I was trying to escape from. It became addictive in a certain sense to me. Weed is definitely more of a recreational drug than an enthoegenic or contemplative one for me, although it did serious enhance my enjoyment of music.

Overall, it served a purpose in my life but is a negative influence for me at this point and that's why I've quit (except for maybe a few times a year but even then it's more to share moments with my childhood friends than because I enjoy it).

That being said, shrooms had all of the positive effects without any of the abovementioned negatives (although it definitely caused more paranoia). It's definitely not a party/recreational drug imho, but man it fucking destroys your barriers. I couldn't handle doing that more than maybe once every few months.