(05-04-2012, 03:34 PM)Ashim Wrote: This is my suggestion to you dear Lulu.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L2Wx230gYJw
OMG Ashim! I love you. You just made my day with your link ... now one of my permanent tools ... PERFECT for me ... thank you.
(05-04-2012, 01:53 PM)Lulu Wrote:(05-04-2012, 12:39 PM)Valtor Wrote: Lulu my friend, my statement has nothing to do with 3d.
Social memory complexes begins in 4d. And there is nothing like what you described in 4d positive.
thank you for letting me know...
Sorry for my crankiness, it's just f*cking disturbing how much I can feel others. I am so disgusted and angry about having to feel the sickness (anxiety, stress, projections) of others that I am about to become the meanest negative entity on the planet --if that is possible. Just so it will have to be solved and they will be held accountable to how they are effecting others. If blissing out and loving them worked, believe me, I would have been more then happy to have kept on doing that, but it doesn't. It actually causes ME to be MORE sensitive and helpless in the environment of others.
I have the choice to abandon ship. Which always sounds heavenly but rather cruel to a few that I do care about, who do try to be accountable. OR become a hermit again and ever ONLY be around people who do not affect me in a negative way (nearly impossible). OR find a way to call in other beings to assist in this issue no matter what is the outcome or detriment of the others, solely to serve myself as the creator, as one. (white lights and all those shield techniques are completely useless, I've tried them all. I'm about to call in Satan and his legions to do their work).
I will feel refreshed and happy until I am in the presence of others, then get so sick around some people that I sometimes almost throw up. Then I come take it all out on you guys ;-) and start feeling stuff from you. By the way these are normal healthy people, some that eat perfect vegan diets some that are seekers etc...
Anyways --if I vanish it's because I might need to take a break.
LuLu, I sincerely hope you don't "vanish" because I find inspirational beauty and courage in your unveiled honesty....experiences that I too can relate and thus feel less isolated ... all because of your example ... to be exactly who you are ... at any given moment...regardless how you might be perceived or judged by others! In other words .... you deeply inspire me to find my own courage to be authentic; without regard!!! Many hugs and much love!