12-26-2009, 12:45 AM
I think I am seeing two problems here. Correct me if I'm wrong, and I'm not trying to play Mr. Psychologist here, but this is the conclusion I'm drawing from your post.
You seem to be disturbed by a lack of understanding of the actions of those less awakened. And you seem to be disturbed by a lack of acceptance to your own reaction to the actions.
Does that hit pretty close to the mark? Even though you have come across the LOO and have started to awaken, or realized that you are on the path as I like to say, that doesn't mean that you will be a master of or will be unaffected by catalyst. Actions and reactions still exist. You are right in the middle of yin and yang. You're just fortunate enough to be aware of it! So, these actions and reactions are observed by you, and you have the choice to polarize them positively or negatively.
Some exercises I would offer:
1. When your mother or other people say stupid things, try to realize that they are experiencing exactly what they are supposed to be experiencing in the moment for them to learn.
They have a special opportunity now that you are awakening. They now have the opportunity to be led into a higher state of consciousness by you! Now that you can observe your reaction to the action and choose to react from a higher place than your annoyed ego, they are able to see a conscious reaction to an unconscious action and learn in a new way. The universe is making you a teacher.
2. When you feel annoyed by the way they're acting, try to look inside yourself and ask which part of you is annoyed. Go from bottom to top till you find it: Is this situation life-threatening to me? (red) Am I having trouble allowing my true emotions to be shown in this situation? (orange) Are my relationships with these people suffering in this situation? (yellow) Am I unable to unconditionally love/accept this situation? (green) Am I unable to communicate effectively in this situation? (blue) Am I unable to understand this situation fully? (indigo) Am I unable to remain present in this situation? (violet) Am I whole in this situation? (approaching white) When you find the problem, the answers to all the other "color questions" above it will be "no". Whatever reaction you had/have, learn from it. Find the unconscious part of you that reacted that way and accept it. The next time the situation or a similar one arises, the new acceptance inside will lead to new acceptance outside.
I was feeling similar (like I had no problems being conscious in most situations and feeling wisdom flowing from me in most situations) until about last week when my heart chakra started opening more. Up until then, I didn't realize how powerful the feelings of true love and acceptance were, and now I see how the Buddha was always portrayed as so joyous. In fact, I'm almost scaring myself at how much I feel love/acceptance towards everyone now. But ah well, you have to explore both sides for balance I guess.
I would say what I did to open green that you can do also is to ask yourself with each person you see: "What is stopping me from loving this person unconditionally?" whether the person is old or young, male or female, family or stranger. I think this is similar to the balancing exercises talked about by Ra, and it's amazing how effective they are.
Hope this helps you.
You seem to be disturbed by a lack of understanding of the actions of those less awakened. And you seem to be disturbed by a lack of acceptance to your own reaction to the actions.
Does that hit pretty close to the mark? Even though you have come across the LOO and have started to awaken, or realized that you are on the path as I like to say, that doesn't mean that you will be a master of or will be unaffected by catalyst. Actions and reactions still exist. You are right in the middle of yin and yang. You're just fortunate enough to be aware of it! So, these actions and reactions are observed by you, and you have the choice to polarize them positively or negatively.
Some exercises I would offer:
1. When your mother or other people say stupid things, try to realize that they are experiencing exactly what they are supposed to be experiencing in the moment for them to learn.
They have a special opportunity now that you are awakening. They now have the opportunity to be led into a higher state of consciousness by you! Now that you can observe your reaction to the action and choose to react from a higher place than your annoyed ego, they are able to see a conscious reaction to an unconscious action and learn in a new way. The universe is making you a teacher.
2. When you feel annoyed by the way they're acting, try to look inside yourself and ask which part of you is annoyed. Go from bottom to top till you find it: Is this situation life-threatening to me? (red) Am I having trouble allowing my true emotions to be shown in this situation? (orange) Are my relationships with these people suffering in this situation? (yellow) Am I unable to unconditionally love/accept this situation? (green) Am I unable to communicate effectively in this situation? (blue) Am I unable to understand this situation fully? (indigo) Am I unable to remain present in this situation? (violet) Am I whole in this situation? (approaching white) When you find the problem, the answers to all the other "color questions" above it will be "no". Whatever reaction you had/have, learn from it. Find the unconscious part of you that reacted that way and accept it. The next time the situation or a similar one arises, the new acceptance inside will lead to new acceptance outside.
I was feeling similar (like I had no problems being conscious in most situations and feeling wisdom flowing from me in most situations) until about last week when my heart chakra started opening more. Up until then, I didn't realize how powerful the feelings of true love and acceptance were, and now I see how the Buddha was always portrayed as so joyous. In fact, I'm almost scaring myself at how much I feel love/acceptance towards everyone now. But ah well, you have to explore both sides for balance I guess.
I would say what I did to open green that you can do also is to ask yourself with each person you see: "What is stopping me from loving this person unconditionally?" whether the person is old or young, male or female, family or stranger. I think this is similar to the balancing exercises talked about by Ra, and it's amazing how effective they are.
Hope this helps you.