Just got here

[Lycen]

I tell you when I do eventually find this world within me, I don't think I would deserve it because it would just be too amazing. I certainly need humility at times because when you have this awareness, you realize the power you have to make things change. My biggest fear is hurting someone, and all the challenges that my growth seems to cause in others.

I feel you, have had the same essence of thinking one time or a another, it comes up ever so often. I lack the understanding to "explain" away this unease. But I calm my self withe a feeling/thought: "If I know my growth can be as challenging to others as to me. Then maybe the knowing will let me be considerate and humble as to see further than my self at all times." This is pretty close to what I feel/think.

Also if the action was benign (coming from "heart") then the stress/disturbance your words or actions caused is but a blessing in disguise.
As you acted in harmony, the recipient has the opportunity to recognize its own "blocks".
We can't know the future, so worrying about the "what if's?" of life, to me seems a great folly (though I do that)
I hope this helps somehow, if you want to talk, feel free to do so.
I will find time for you in my selfish moments.