12-17-2009, 02:18 PM
I hear you all on this one... awhile back we almost wound up in a homeless shelter... if it were not for an international prayer group that I am a member of and participant I do believe our landlord would have evicted us... as it is we are hanging on by a sheer thread economically. We have had to make some hard choices.
The only organic food we eat now is that which is on sale or reduced at the grocery store or food we manage to find and gather.
We unplug just about everything at night to save on the electric bill... This has cut our electric bill by 30.00 usa per month... I know to some here that is not a lot of money but to us a family of 5 in the working poor category this is a weeks worth of groceries. We also turn off our hotwater heater at the fuse box so that it is not drawing power except when we turn the breaker on to heat hot water for showers and washing dishes--- 2 hours a day is all it is on for! We turn out all our lights except for the room we are in and the hall light (pesky kiddos are afraid of the dark)! We get most everything off of freecycle.org and have managed to work it out so people drop it off to us on their way to or from work... so we do not have to travel or we simply just do without. For Christmas I managed to save 5.00 a week from our food budget so that I could get each kid 3 santa gifts and the rest is freecycle stuff... or stuff my husband or I have made for the kiddos. It is a challenge and sometimes I am able to meet that challenge with all the LOVE in my HEART and other times I just sit and cry for awhile or on my really bad days I go out and shout to the HEAVENS to come and GET US OFF THIS ROCK! But those days are far and few between and now that I am shifting even more into greater awareness those days come very infrequently.
We have one car.
We borrow all of our movies and books from the library.
The car is used only for the commute to work and back and to do errands around the town that I can not walk to with 3 kids in tow and no sidewalks... It is interesting...
We eat a lot of pasta, rice, and beans. The adults do not eat any fresh veggies except the ones the kiddos do not eat... We also pray over our food with a food blessing. " We bless this food with LOVE so that it nourishes our souls and enriches our bodies...." We do the same with our water. So far our meager supplies seem to be lasting a lot longer... it is amazing how much one can stretch 1lb of ziti and one can of stewed tomatoes. LOL
It is a challenge. So many of us are in this same spot. And it SUCKS!!!! But we can choose to make the best of it and reach out to others in our communities and come together to collectively pool resources or we can eat s*** and die. It is really a matter of perspective one of which I find myself vacilating between the despair of this insane and stupid situation and feeling that everything will be okay. It is only through COMMUNITY with others that these issues can begin to be resolved.
Many wanderers are survivors of abuse on many levels.. You are not alone in this at all.
And through it all we still laugh and play... we still find connection with our loved ones... we make art and beauty and sing and pray and everyday the sun is still shinning and the trees stand tall bending with the breeze. Life goes on.
Suicide can be seductive... it seems like it would be ohhh so much easier without all the committments... and then there is that pesky life review and then well suicide most definately would indicate a self choosing remediation of 3D... I am choosing to see this one through... The NEW EARTH is EMERGING and as all seeds that are just beginning to grow it will take time to see the EVIDENCE but it is HERE! Be still and know that you are God.
Definately put down the alcoholic poisions and take up some AAA! Alcohol takes you off line and makes you vulnerable to the STS bastards always waiting in the wings to just tip the balance into their favor... is that what you want to be a slave to them... Choose to be strong for you already are STRONG.
fairyfarmgirl
The only organic food we eat now is that which is on sale or reduced at the grocery store or food we manage to find and gather.
We unplug just about everything at night to save on the electric bill... This has cut our electric bill by 30.00 usa per month... I know to some here that is not a lot of money but to us a family of 5 in the working poor category this is a weeks worth of groceries. We also turn off our hotwater heater at the fuse box so that it is not drawing power except when we turn the breaker on to heat hot water for showers and washing dishes--- 2 hours a day is all it is on for! We turn out all our lights except for the room we are in and the hall light (pesky kiddos are afraid of the dark)! We get most everything off of freecycle.org and have managed to work it out so people drop it off to us on their way to or from work... so we do not have to travel or we simply just do without. For Christmas I managed to save 5.00 a week from our food budget so that I could get each kid 3 santa gifts and the rest is freecycle stuff... or stuff my husband or I have made for the kiddos. It is a challenge and sometimes I am able to meet that challenge with all the LOVE in my HEART and other times I just sit and cry for awhile or on my really bad days I go out and shout to the HEAVENS to come and GET US OFF THIS ROCK! But those days are far and few between and now that I am shifting even more into greater awareness those days come very infrequently.
We have one car.
We borrow all of our movies and books from the library.
The car is used only for the commute to work and back and to do errands around the town that I can not walk to with 3 kids in tow and no sidewalks... It is interesting...
We eat a lot of pasta, rice, and beans. The adults do not eat any fresh veggies except the ones the kiddos do not eat... We also pray over our food with a food blessing. " We bless this food with LOVE so that it nourishes our souls and enriches our bodies...." We do the same with our water. So far our meager supplies seem to be lasting a lot longer... it is amazing how much one can stretch 1lb of ziti and one can of stewed tomatoes. LOL
It is a challenge. So many of us are in this same spot. And it SUCKS!!!! But we can choose to make the best of it and reach out to others in our communities and come together to collectively pool resources or we can eat s*** and die. It is really a matter of perspective one of which I find myself vacilating between the despair of this insane and stupid situation and feeling that everything will be okay. It is only through COMMUNITY with others that these issues can begin to be resolved.
Many wanderers are survivors of abuse on many levels.. You are not alone in this at all.
And through it all we still laugh and play... we still find connection with our loved ones... we make art and beauty and sing and pray and everyday the sun is still shinning and the trees stand tall bending with the breeze. Life goes on.
Suicide can be seductive... it seems like it would be ohhh so much easier without all the committments... and then there is that pesky life review and then well suicide most definately would indicate a self choosing remediation of 3D... I am choosing to see this one through... The NEW EARTH is EMERGING and as all seeds that are just beginning to grow it will take time to see the EVIDENCE but it is HERE! Be still and know that you are God.
Definately put down the alcoholic poisions and take up some AAA! Alcohol takes you off line and makes you vulnerable to the STS bastards always waiting in the wings to just tip the balance into their favor... is that what you want to be a slave to them... Choose to be strong for you already are STRONG.
fairyfarmgirl