12-17-2009, 11:00 AM
A bit over a year ago I left my work (oilfield, chemical engineering consultant, management level ) to care for my infant daughter. Six months ago I left my woman due to drug addiction. She had cleaned out my account of more than 35k, so I couldn't continue to make mortgage payments, therefore I lost my half million dollar home which I had more than 3/4 paid for... I had a car accident, and couldn't afford to fix it, so I stopped driving it. I also haven't been able to afford car insurance, so when that ran out I had to take the bus full time. My daughter and I now live in a one bedroom basement room with a bathroom, and share a kitchen with those upstairs. At end month I barely have enough food to feed my daughter, and have lost probably close to 20 lbs myself. I have been in abuse counselling and group therapy for what that relationship did to my psyche.
Is this hard? Only as hard as I allow myself to believe it is. There was a lesson in this, and believe me I have learned it. Where to go from here? I am learning about life again, from a new perspective where money and other such things matter not.
It is all perspective my friend. These trying times are that which we set up for ourselves before incarnation. Learn from it. Allow the natural "self" to come out from this. At the end of the day, all we have is how we met it.
Is this hard? Only as hard as I allow myself to believe it is. There was a lesson in this, and believe me I have learned it. Where to go from here? I am learning about life again, from a new perspective where money and other such things matter not.
It is all perspective my friend. These trying times are that which we set up for ourselves before incarnation. Learn from it. Allow the natural "self" to come out from this. At the end of the day, all we have is how we met it.