Random Archetype Insights

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This whole study of the choice has given me, I suspect, an unrealistic view of that making the choice means, as you say, relentlessly pushing the self to serve in a certain way. But perhaps it is also about that one has not fully discovered all the desires of the self, and therefore, not made that choice on all levels of the self....? Once it is done and the choice is made, one does not have to push the self anymore, as it will be an automatic choice in each moment to serve other selves?

The very concept of "relentless pushing...in a certain way" has proven, in my experience, to be directly related to the Choice made in the Transformation of the Mind. If one were to treat the unconscious mind as a bride to be courted, one will not push her. Your will in your relation to the bride will be one of devotion to serving her rather than push her like a slave-driver.
Every time I have pushed myself to do something that I thought was an appropriate service, I have found that I would have been wiser to do nothing. This tells me that anything that requires mental pushing lies on the left-hand path in the Transformation of the Mind. On the right-hand path, everything is easy and joyful because there is no pushing. If you explore these concepts, you will find that this Transformation is not as easy as it appears. Each act of pushing is an act of manipulation, even if you are only manipulating yourself. And so often we do things because we think it is "right" or because we "must", not because, from the bottom of our hearts, we want to.

I found this notion of not pushing to be especially true in terms of allowing and accepting in my career--everytime I wanted something that I pursued, it didn't work, but when I just took the opportunities offered, I found that things worked out beautifully--but this is not to say that I didn't have to work hard--but that I did find joy in the working as I could feel myself flowing with the universe instead of against it. It isn't really wise to pit one's will against the machinery of the universe...