Random Archetype Insights

[JustLikeYou]

This whole study of the choice has given me, I suspect, an unrealistic view of that making the choice means, as you say, relentlessly pushing the self to serve in a certain way. But perhaps it is also about that one has not fully discovered all the desires of the self, and therefore, not made that choice on all levels of the self....? Once it is done and the choice is made, one does not have to push the self anymore, as it will be an automatic choice in each moment to serve other selves?

The very concept of "relentless pushing...in a certain way" has proven, in my experience, to be directly related to the Choice made in the Transformation of the Mind. If one were to treat the unconscious mind as a bride to be courted, one will not push her. Your will in your relation to the bride will be one of devotion to serving her rather than push her like a slave-driver. To serve your unconscious mind means to accept yourself exactly as you are. We often think that if we embrace our deepest desires, we will find them irresistible and therefore we will not have the focus to serve others, but constantly indulge in the self. This is not so. It is very possible to look your desires in the face and embrace them as they are, but still say "no" to the proposition of manifesting those desires. In my life I have had to work through an enormous array of sexual desires which would not be appropriate to act out. But in saying "no" to acting out those desires, that does not mean that I must push myself to deny them or push myself to do things that I think are appropriate in order to hopefully nullify those desires. Rather, I have found it more useful to explore those desires until I unearth something that IS appropriate to act out. Every time I have pushed myself to do something that I thought was an appropriate service, I have found that I would have been wiser to do nothing. This tells me that anything that requires mental pushing lies on the left-hand path in the Transformation of the Mind. On the right-hand path, everything is easy and joyful because there is no pushing. If you explore these concepts, you will find that this Transformation is not as easy as it appears. Each act of pushing is an act of manipulation, even if you are only manipulating yourself. And so often we do things because we think it is "right" or because we "must", not because, from the bottom of our hearts, we want to.