Random Archetype Insights

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Don't you think that making the choice, deep within, means to always making the choice to serve others, no matter what? And then, if/when one encounters catalysts, one can balance/work with them later, in for instance meditation/contemplation etc? But when in the situation so to speak, one chooses automatically to always serve other selves, because of that choice already made/realized/accepted on all levels of the self? So yeah, one pushes oneself to serve in one way, but can court the deep mind later, in for instance meditation, on the other hand?

Yes, I think I agree, but I also think it's a matter of finding one's deepest path. What if, when you court the deep mind, you realize that it would prefer a different form of service? Or maybe it's feeling the need for rest... But you may have committed yourself to a certain course of service and not be able or not want to switch directions, at least not immediately.

I really liked what you have said here. Being a mom to a five-year old and working long night shifts at a hospice, where people are dying, I face catalysts sometimes, that are presenting situations which are beyond my ability to meet my own expectations of myself.

This whole study of the choice has given me, I suspect, an unrealistic view of that making the choice means, as you say, relentlessly pushing the self to serve in a certain way. But perhaps it is also about that one has not fully discovered all the desires of the self, and therefore, not made that choice on all levels of the self....? Once it is done and the choice is made, one does not have to push the self anymore, as it will be an automatic choice in each moment to serve other selves? Until then there is a wisdom to be learned perhaps (which I believe was stated in one of the Q'uo sessions) that being is doing? I dunno...

I think you're right that it gets into a question of being and doing. I think when we start out on the path we can have a tendency to equate service with doing, but doing can interfere with our ability to court the deep mind.