Thanks to everyone for your comments and suggestions!
It seems to be a fear of being separated, cut off from everyone else...of being all alone, with no way to communicate to anyone. That much is clear. But I don't understand why I have this fear.
I don't really think it's a fear of death, because I've faced the possibility of death before and felt no fear of death itself (although I was concerned about leaving before I had completed my work).
In the dreams, I still exist. But I'm all alone, in total silence, unable to make a sound or reach my loved ones.
That's comforting!
I have past life memories too...which is perhaps why I don't fear death. I do, however, feel indignant about forgetting my current personality. Even though I know I will continue to exist, since the personality is lost, that bothers me. Maybe that's it. I'm not sure how to reconcile that. I know Ra said that nothing important is ever lost, but all the energies are distilled into what's important. And yet, it does sort of bother me.
I agree that school dreams might be remnants of actual school experiences in many cases. I've had those types of dreams about jobs I used to have. In my case, however, I'm quite certain that the school dreams are a metaphor for Earth School. My school dreams are vivid, clear and brightly colored, which in my experience is indicative of message from my Higher Self; as opposed to murky, hodge-podge dreams which I interpret as my subconscious working out the stresses of the day.
The stresses I had in school were social stresses, rather than academic stress. I did well academically but dreaded recess! But the dreams all have the same themes, of either learning the lesson (and maybe even teaching it to others) or being caught unprepared.
Although I mentioned the school dreams, I'm pretty clear on their meaning. Those are easy! It's the 'void' dreams I'm having trouble deciphering.
In waking life, I am not isolated at all. So I think it has to do with feeling cut off from Intelligent Infinity.
(12-09-2009, 06:55 AM)ayadew Wrote: Fear is locked away deep inside sometimes... do you have fear of transcendence? A different state of mind which might accidentally trap you? You must have faith that there is nothing to fear, for all is well.
It seems to be a fear of being separated, cut off from everyone else...of being all alone, with no way to communicate to anyone. That much is clear. But I don't understand why I have this fear.
I don't really think it's a fear of death, because I've faced the possibility of death before and felt no fear of death itself (although I was concerned about leaving before I had completed my work).
In the dreams, I still exist. But I'm all alone, in total silence, unable to make a sound or reach my loved ones.
(12-09-2009, 06:55 AM)ayadew Wrote: 3rd density is the 'worst' existence you'll ever have, because you are left only to yourself. In higher/lower it's impossible to shield yourself from the infinite love and perfection.
That's comforting!
(12-09-2009, 06:55 AM)ayadew Wrote: This 'dogma' I base on my own memories of past life.
I have past life memories too...which is perhaps why I don't fear death. I do, however, feel indignant about forgetting my current personality. Even though I know I will continue to exist, since the personality is lost, that bothers me. Maybe that's it. I'm not sure how to reconcile that. I know Ra said that nothing important is ever lost, but all the energies are distilled into what's important. And yet, it does sort of bother me.
(12-09-2009, 02:39 PM)Ali Quadir Wrote: I think the school dreams are just a light version of post traumatic stress that our schools impose on practically everyone. In my dreams it's often a test that comes up that I forgot about.. Which happened to me a lot. Or not knowing where the next class is and not seeing any class mates to follow. Which also happened a lot I was in a big school. So for me it's a remnant of those stressed memories.
I agree that school dreams might be remnants of actual school experiences in many cases. I've had those types of dreams about jobs I used to have. In my case, however, I'm quite certain that the school dreams are a metaphor for Earth School. My school dreams are vivid, clear and brightly colored, which in my experience is indicative of message from my Higher Self; as opposed to murky, hodge-podge dreams which I interpret as my subconscious working out the stresses of the day.
The stresses I had in school were social stresses, rather than academic stress. I did well academically but dreaded recess! But the dreams all have the same themes, of either learning the lesson (and maybe even teaching it to others) or being caught unprepared.
Although I mentioned the school dreams, I'm pretty clear on their meaning. Those are easy! It's the 'void' dreams I'm having trouble deciphering.
(12-09-2009, 02:39 PM)Ali Quadir Wrote: I don't know the void from dreams. But the simple idea it gives me is a feeling of isolation. Usually our dreams draw attention to aspects of life we're not usually aware off. And it could be as simple as not feeling understood in some interaction that causes the void. It could also be the primary trauma of becoming cut off from intelligent infinity.
In waking life, I am not isolated at all. So I think it has to do with feeling cut off from Intelligent Infinity.