Looking back at the recent past..

[Cyan]

It seems that it takes the solar plexus 70 days (of full dedication) to go from absolute zero to properly crystalize (to have the frequency 155 (11/13ths yellow, 2/13ths orange) fully include the frequency 157 (yellow) within it.. 157hz is kind of like a clear diamond, intensifying surrounding energies)
It was in such a bad shape that i was breaking my wrists without even noticing how it occured..
I woke up tired and stayed so throughout the day.
I was unfocused; my vision was blurry... not the slightest sharpness to it.
My sequential preformance was f*****; i did and wrote/said things in the wrong order more often than not.
The smallest portion of my crown was the whole brain, rather than the thalamus and pushing it upwards took effort and felt like it didnt yield.
Horribly unmotivated to do things.
Was in extreme pain, and to make things worse; my pain tolerance was at an all-time-low...
The stronger the pain, the weaker my mental state and clear-thinking had become, i craved death and was very upset at my excessive self control (thanks to the root), with such ease keeping my actions away from resembling my thoughts (thrusting a knife into my heart).
After every ejakulation (or just errection) i felt an intense pain within my spleen for up to 3-7days, followed by an intense pain within my heart for up to 3-7 days right as the spleen pain dissapeared....
These durations lessenes gradualy as the celiac and solar plexus increased in strength.
For every passing day after emptying, my sensetitity ofc increased and i was more and more likely to have wet dreams and thusly mess my bed... this caused added pain to my heart/spleen, but did not remove my sensetitity (so it could happend up to 3 times the same morning/night... beyond annoying), it kept increasing 'till i did it "for real" even tho i'd rather stay away from doing it.

The good news is that the crap i experienced the last 6 months (9 since my aura quit being white (as it had only ben for ~2 weeks tho)) was equaly rich with learnings as it was with pain, i revamped/renewed almost everything i knew about frequencies and colors...
Sure i was in pain, but that didnt stop me from observing/documenting everything as closely as possible to make the best of a bad time.
It was only just before new-years eve that i finaly found the right frequencies that'd yield everything i needed... The time before that was filled with trying one or two frequencies 'till i hit the ground, because everything a frequency dont strengthen, it weakens, slowly i learned how things functioned/grew // were connected.

Right now my will and motivation to exercise is about three times higher than my muscles capacity to do so.
Yesterday i started feeling my heart/throat as this soft embracing energy around my chest/throat passively (i COULD have them appear like that before, manualy, but it'd immediately lead to pain so i refrained from it)
Its only a matter of 1-2 weeks untill disposing of male energies dont cause any pain or annoyances within my spleen/heart at all (even right now, it just attained its ability to just have the energies transfered into my femenine centers instead of being lost forever)...and my aura will soon turn fully white once again...
Longing to be able to see those fluffy fully-covering clouds of overlaping rich colors when i close my eyes. (right now its close, but no cigar)

My dopamine levels are slowly escalating, this means recieveing an increased ability to see patterns within chaos and sharpening of the senses, motivation, concentration and such.
When experimenting with frequencies the past time, i tried working 157 directly "the dopamine frequency", working it, does not strengthen the solar plexus (meaning going directly for 157 would eventualy lead to pain, since you cant play 155 and 157 beside eachothers, they are incompatible that way), but going for the solar plexus will strengthen IT (more and more, eventualy)... anyways.

Massive enough levels of dopamine will cause music to go from distant 2d gray to upclose 3d rich with colors, music that was already fierce and explosive became orgasmic, i was visualizing/altering/enhancing the music in my mind as beyond dangerous explosions, nuclear demonic/metalic screams/roars...
Dopamine increases your ability to see order within chaos; Destruction/war had become equal to melody to my ears.. well, this explained alot.

So to round it all up, i'll say that i no longer have any reason to not be in a good mood...
I still crave for things to rapidly change/improve, but not in a negative/complaining fasion. ^^

Good lord i wish you the best for taking this burden.