03-07-2012, 07:16 PM
It is difficult, I feel that I am very heavily impacted by external perceptions of me as being evil, or manipulating, because it is not in the essence of my intention or being at all. It makes me feel like everything I have been doing and working towards, and the Light I have found, is just another illusion, and that I'm once again on the "wrong path". I just don't know what to do with myself anymore.