12-01-2009, 07:07 PM
Thank you for the replies, everyone.
I would like to say I am not trying to judge any way of thinking, but it was something that was on my mind and I felt the need to express it.
I am not so much speaking of the effect our attitudes have on STS entities. I guess to say I don't care if they don't care seems tactless, but I am thinking more of the emotional constipation it can cause within those seeking to clear their chakras when the self feels the need to view the world in an extremely polarized fashion...that there *must* be a bad guy, an evil, something to fear. I've seen people start to meet their shadow selves and crumble because they can't accept that darkness is a part of them and it's supposed to be that way. You are never going to become perfect because you already are perfect. All you can do is expand that perfection in different directions and share it with others.
I suppose a lot of this stems from the fact that I’ve been getting some greetings from said “dark side” lately. At first I vehemently resisted it, attempting to thrust out my power and banish the thing from my house because it was causing me a great deal of grief. I was appalled when this only seemed to make the presence stronger and more distracting. Finally, guided by some choice words of wisdom, I decided to change my tactics. I forced myself to envision the thing in all its horrific glory (they really like appearing as grotesque monsters…which I have to admit usually works in scaring me) and embrace it. I said “I will love you no matter what you do to me. You can cause me all the pain you want, but you cannot make me stop loving you.”
Almost immediately the pressure vanished. While I was pushing against the negative it pushed back ever harder, but when I completely surrendered myself and opened my heart to accept whatever I might receive with love, the wave simply passed over me and moved on. Did this visitor decide to change his ways and convert to STO? I doubt it. Did I feel better about myself afterward? Yes. In spite of the giving over of love, my primary concern in this situation was myself and how I could avoid reacting in a negative manner.
This is what the negative is there for. Once the fear of it can be neutralized it allows for expansive soul growth. Being able to imagine the worst happening and then realizing that you would still be at peace with yourself if said tragedy happened brings a sense of contentment that has really helped me in just getting through the day.
I still don’t think this describes what I am feeling in my heart with complete accuracy. Words are so cumbersome. I need to invent an extra language with new words to describe all these feelings I have that can’t be put into words.
I would like to say I am not trying to judge any way of thinking, but it was something that was on my mind and I felt the need to express it.
I am not so much speaking of the effect our attitudes have on STS entities. I guess to say I don't care if they don't care seems tactless, but I am thinking more of the emotional constipation it can cause within those seeking to clear their chakras when the self feels the need to view the world in an extremely polarized fashion...that there *must* be a bad guy, an evil, something to fear. I've seen people start to meet their shadow selves and crumble because they can't accept that darkness is a part of them and it's supposed to be that way. You are never going to become perfect because you already are perfect. All you can do is expand that perfection in different directions and share it with others.
I suppose a lot of this stems from the fact that I’ve been getting some greetings from said “dark side” lately. At first I vehemently resisted it, attempting to thrust out my power and banish the thing from my house because it was causing me a great deal of grief. I was appalled when this only seemed to make the presence stronger and more distracting. Finally, guided by some choice words of wisdom, I decided to change my tactics. I forced myself to envision the thing in all its horrific glory (they really like appearing as grotesque monsters…which I have to admit usually works in scaring me) and embrace it. I said “I will love you no matter what you do to me. You can cause me all the pain you want, but you cannot make me stop loving you.”
Almost immediately the pressure vanished. While I was pushing against the negative it pushed back ever harder, but when I completely surrendered myself and opened my heart to accept whatever I might receive with love, the wave simply passed over me and moved on. Did this visitor decide to change his ways and convert to STO? I doubt it. Did I feel better about myself afterward? Yes. In spite of the giving over of love, my primary concern in this situation was myself and how I could avoid reacting in a negative manner.
This is what the negative is there for. Once the fear of it can be neutralized it allows for expansive soul growth. Being able to imagine the worst happening and then realizing that you would still be at peace with yourself if said tragedy happened brings a sense of contentment that has really helped me in just getting through the day.
I still don’t think this describes what I am feeling in my heart with complete accuracy. Words are so cumbersome. I need to invent an extra language with new words to describe all these feelings I have that can’t be put into words.