Unfeeling

[Peregrinus]

Your excerpt about Stoic philosophy sure has some parallels with the Law of One material. I didn't realize that you had so recently discovered this material. Are you going through the Ra books?

The stoic materials I found on Wiki. Yes, I just found the LOO recently, drawn as though the moth to a series of lights, which ultimately led to the LOO. I am currently on session 89, reading two to three sessions per night before bed. I have just found out and have actual joy/elation in the fact that conversation/channelling still goes on via Q'uo. I still have so much to read, yet the materials are like a mirror of what I already understand/know. I also have many questions, but will not compile them as such until I have read all materials, so as to ensure the channelling time is not of waste, if my questions are to be given consideration of the asking.

Thank you for the Pineal work explanation. Those all look like healthy habits that would be helpful for me as well. I'm already doing some of them. If there is not already a thread here about caffeine, I might start one some time.

Caffeine? Please, do put this post together, with haste. I would enjoy to learn of what you can consider or show to be negative effects of such and one what body system(s) the effects correspond to. I drink coffee, though lately have been drinking some tea, and having worked in China, did drink tea there for a couple years, though I have always enjoyed caffeine... which is the reason I drink coffee.

To relate this to the Wanderer concept from the Law of One, maybe between your Wanderer and human spiritual pedigrees, one is more emotional, and other has been mostly effective in shutting down those emotions.

I am unsure as to whether my limitations of emotion are the result of incarnate adaptations, or of pre-incarnate programming, however, either way, I see my heart chakra is open and functioning, irregardless of how I "think" I feel. As long as a balance can be obtained, that is satisfactory to me. I think my trying to open my orange has resulted in increased green ray activity, though how and why that is the result I am unsure. I have come to the realization that whatever is blocking orange ray activation is my final hurdle to balance.

The bigger questions, then, include: What is happiness? How is it found? Can we ever actually ensure or block the happiness of another person? If happiness is getting what you want, can someone who doesn't know who they are or what they want really be happy?

I see happiness, just as I see sadness, or indifference, in the eyes. The eyes never lie. Of course, one cannot ensure another's happiness, but one can place happiness in front of them and allow them the choice.

From the Ra books and other sources, I see these associations with orange ray:

The integration of apparently disparate, inert materials into an integrated organism, as with single-celled organisms who imbue the elements with the emergent synergetic properties of life.

Within the individual, the lumbar plexus, distribution of nerves involved in voluntary motion of the lower trunk, groin and upper legs: where we pivot, take a stand or choose the direction we walk in, being outgoing without suffering a stiff back from a fixed position, free of undeserved guilt that would make us freeze.

Within humanity, expression of individual, personal power, through movement and growth of the individual. In a positive sense, respecting the personal power of others. In a negative sense, denying the rights of others to have their own personal freedom.

The power of teamwork, as in team sports or mass transportation - again, walking or kicking.

Emotions and happiness (you're definitely working very hard on this one)

Connection to physical self-care and self-expression activities including water, food, sexuality and parenthood. If imbalanced, potential problems with lungs, kidneys, low thyroid, depression. Applying usage of water, correct bladder function and centered calm in the sense of martial artists who are free to pivot in any direction as circumstances change. (Bruce Lee is awesome to watch at this.)

Healthy self-esteem and goal-driven expression that promotes one's own growth. Joy, pleasure, sociability.

Thank you for these. Each one is another piece of the puzzle. I can garner something useful from each.

"The orange-ray body is the physical body complex. This body complex is still not the body you inhabit but rather the body formed without self-awareness, the body in the womb before the spirit/mind complex enters. This body may live without the inhabitation of the mind and spirit complexes. However, it seldom does so." - Ra, Session 47

In this case, I must pay more attention to the body? I have always had the innate ability to dissociate the mind from the body in order to remove myself from physical pain. Perhaps I must now do the opposite, and relearn to feel the blood flowing, the heart beating, the sensations; to get close to the bodily veil as it were.

The third eye chakra is associated with the pineal gland, ESP/psychic phenomena, meditation, spirituality, intuition, and physically, blood flow to brain, eyes and head.

Is there a chance that you've been pursuing spiritual enlightenment at the cost of not being grounded in the physical world, where you need to walk around in this life?

I have not been grounded to be sure. I am beginning to feel as though I hover and glide, not walk. I feel as though I inhabit half the spirit world and half the material world, but it is a place of elevated vibrational frequency, thus I am finding it difficult to want to go back to normalcy again. I am on a path which I must follow to the end, wherever it may lead. It is my time to do so.