11-16-2011, 12:19 PM
(This post was last modified: 11-16-2011, 01:12 PM by AnthroHeart.)
Rather than close down I'd say it focuses my consciousness a lot more. It's more grounded.
I came to be too sensitive to balance between love and fear. Things were having a tendency to pull on my fearstrings a lot more.
I searched Youtube when I was feeling a little down for "Ra, are you there", and I got back 4 albums by a group named Ra.
These albums mostly talked in very dark tones, set to heavy metal music. Basically telling me how bad I had messed up things.
There were also good songs that said things like "I want to hold you, kiss you." Then the bad stuff like "you're at the top of my hit list." and "you are a waste of space."
My reality became so controlled by how I felt, that things manifested immediately for me, and I couldn't really handle that.
I came to be too sensitive to balance between love and fear. Things were having a tendency to pull on my fearstrings a lot more.
I searched Youtube when I was feeling a little down for "Ra, are you there", and I got back 4 albums by a group named Ra.
These albums mostly talked in very dark tones, set to heavy metal music. Basically telling me how bad I had messed up things.
There were also good songs that said things like "I want to hold you, kiss you." Then the bad stuff like "you're at the top of my hit list." and "you are a waste of space."
My reality became so controlled by how I felt, that things manifested immediately for me, and I couldn't really handle that.