10-08-2009, 05:51 PM
Thanks for the further responses. I have wondered at times if I'm simply talking to my own soul. At times I don't like this idea because I miss those "others" out there so bad that I want to be sure I'm talking to ETs, but then I realize I AM talking to the ETs because I AM the ETs...it all gets very confusing. It makes me wonder about collective unconscious- could I bet hitting in on that somehow- that voice that is in all of us and IS all of us but most people never listen to it? Sometimes just thinking about it I go deeper and deeper and I feel like my brain might explode.
As for the "code" it hasn't caused me to feel anything but a general sense of comfort. The "instructions" within were to pretty much cheer up and get on with things, which I seem to have done. I see it as somewhat of an encouraging pat on the back. The actual symbols...it's hard to even think about it. Did I send myself those symbols because I knew my brain would respond more to certain shapes than others (I have a rather odd way of interpreting color, shape, movement, etc. as I described in my 'senses- fail or excel' post on this forum) or did someone else who WAS ALSO ME decide to step in and help a little because I was pretty much banging my head against the wall at the time? I know I respond to those shapes. When I look at them I feel something within me moving, but, like Ali mentioned, are they the product of my shift in consciousness or is the shift the product of my creating the symbols, which could very well have been an unconscious decision on my part to begin with?!? SO MUCH to think about!!!
I suppose it isn't good to dwell on this stuff too much. If it helped, that's great. I should be thankful no matter the source and let that be that. I can't get off on one of my ruminations and forget why I'm doing all this to begin with.
Also, it is great to know someone else experiences "thought balls" and abstract images that you're not sure whether to take literally. I was starting to think I was the odd one out in that area, since so many people seem to get a much more literal experience, hearing a voice in their head, seeing ETs in their room, etc. Very rarely do I have an experience that takes place outside of my own head. One or two times it has happened, but not very often at all. I often get the thought imprint: "You're a writer. You don't need it put into words. You make words." I get the feeling the 'guys upstairs' find the whole thing humorous, and realize that discerning these things for myself helps me experience more growth- I've always been a 'hands on' type of person.
Hopefully I will continue to grow and in time I'll be able to wrap my mind around these things better. Thanks for the support!
As for the "code" it hasn't caused me to feel anything but a general sense of comfort. The "instructions" within were to pretty much cheer up and get on with things, which I seem to have done. I see it as somewhat of an encouraging pat on the back. The actual symbols...it's hard to even think about it. Did I send myself those symbols because I knew my brain would respond more to certain shapes than others (I have a rather odd way of interpreting color, shape, movement, etc. as I described in my 'senses- fail or excel' post on this forum) or did someone else who WAS ALSO ME decide to step in and help a little because I was pretty much banging my head against the wall at the time? I know I respond to those shapes. When I look at them I feel something within me moving, but, like Ali mentioned, are they the product of my shift in consciousness or is the shift the product of my creating the symbols, which could very well have been an unconscious decision on my part to begin with?!? SO MUCH to think about!!!
I suppose it isn't good to dwell on this stuff too much. If it helped, that's great. I should be thankful no matter the source and let that be that. I can't get off on one of my ruminations and forget why I'm doing all this to begin with.
Also, it is great to know someone else experiences "thought balls" and abstract images that you're not sure whether to take literally. I was starting to think I was the odd one out in that area, since so many people seem to get a much more literal experience, hearing a voice in their head, seeing ETs in their room, etc. Very rarely do I have an experience that takes place outside of my own head. One or two times it has happened, but not very often at all. I often get the thought imprint: "You're a writer. You don't need it put into words. You make words." I get the feeling the 'guys upstairs' find the whole thing humorous, and realize that discerning these things for myself helps me experience more growth- I've always been a 'hands on' type of person.
Hopefully I will continue to grow and in time I'll be able to wrap my mind around these things better. Thanks for the support!